#at least i think it’s possible. idk

[earmo-imni]

Once again I’m recognizing myself in posts about autism despite not being diagnosed with autism.

Am I going to do anything about it this time? Probably not.

#would it be nice to know for sure? yes #can i even get an autism diagnosis? idk. probably not #i don’t show most of the more classic signs now and i don’t remember my past well enough to tell a psychologist #plus my parents. who do remember. don’t think i’m autistic. specifically bc i don’t show typical signs. #which is fair! it’s entirely possible that between my adhd and anxiety i’ve just ended up with a significant overlap of symptoms #at least i think it’s possible. idk #okay i took a peek at the dsm 5 criteria and uh. hmm. maybe? #if i do have autism it’s getting hella covered up by the adhd and learned masking #but. i think i am in fact very much masking a lot of the time. #aHhHhHhHhHhH #marijn vents #marijn talks

[twinstxrs]

so much happened in this whole episode but i’m still on fig infiltrating ruben’s dream, making it look like the place where his friend was murdered, and then disguising herself as kipperlilly & repeatedly saying different variants of “somebody needs to take the fall for this, and it’s not going to be me. it’s going to be you.” while adaine as the elven oracle shows up next to her. can you imagine waking up from that, the idea of a horrible truth being pinned on you by your friend to save her own skin while the personification of fate and destiny stands there, almost as a promise that this is GOING to happen to you. we don’t even know if this kid is guilty. my god.

#fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high junior year #fig faeth #ruben hopclap #lucy frostblade #the rat grinders #adaine abernant #kipperlilly copperkettle #watching fig terrorize him like girl!!! we don’t even know if he’s guilty!!!! #this might just be for me but i do not think 5 teenagers willingly brutally killed their friend idk #like there just has to be some other element to it and i am very scared to find out what that was #what if they were put in a position where they felt there was/there was no other choice… like oh my god #my comedy brain is having fun but my ‘this is a teenager’ brain is in such deep distress all the time this season #the rat grinders i trust brennan to not make u cartoonishly evil so i am holding u as gently as i can in my confused shaky hands #also with the devil’s nectar i’ve been wondering why they all seem so well-adjusted & now i’m curious if they’ve been intentionally- #changing their memories in a way so that either the trauma is lesser or they think they aren’t guilty. idk #but it seems like from how gertie was talking she was making it more recently so the well adjustedness from early jy doesn’t quite add up #they could have another source maybe??? idk i’m just low stakes 4 a.m. spitballing here #there’s also the strong possibility that they’re aware of what happened but they weren’t the ones who killed lucy. idk who knows #the way you could probably devil’s nectar yourself into believing it wasn’t your fault someone died… CRAZY IMPLICATIONS!!! CRAZY IDEA!!! #anyways the bad kids & the rat grinders don’t ever have to like each other but i do wonder if at least some of those kids deserve a chance

[heartorbit]

i'm sending this endless melody to a nameless you

#SKELETON ORCHESTRA AND LILIA I NEED YOU #project sekai #emunene #emu otori #nene kusanagi #pjsk #prsk #proseka #wxs cover wishlist copium.. 2!! #i have lots more of them i wanna draw but ill do st least one duet for each pair i think. maybe nnks next ive had one for them forever #Gyaaaa #Crying i have szks lunar new years art that idk how to render im missing the holiday. lord in heaven #Ik every leaker or whatever says this is going to mmj snd it probably will and i'll love the cover but still. emunene save me #wxs gets songs with nonsense lyrics its possible right Right right #i also wanted setsuna trip to go to emu in any duet but i looove the mnai cover so i won anways #Kind of too sleepy to do my usual. Sorry viewers who like reading theough my insane tags. Dont get covid it makes you sleep 13 hours a day #For the next month. #my friends saw me going nuts over this drawing actually and i gave up hard on nenes dress i just wanted to be done.. love how emus looks.. #wait i actually can be insane in the tags THE WXS WORLDLINK SONG SJHDDYDJKYMY TGYAYDHUA!!! HAGSGYAAH!!!!! GY6;$;$;$;$;$ WHEHEHEHEHEH #WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH. Its so good please help. Wxs tetrad that illuminates the world save me. #why does the 2dmv have all of them under a WEDDING AROOOR WHY IS THERE A WEDDING BELL. CONGRATS ON POLYSHO MARRIAGE. HWATEVVRR!!!!! #wonderlands x showtime killing me taking damage augh Auughg akk akcghj

[r-aindr0p]

To think I’m going to have to wait one year until I seize this guy by his uniform bell the second his banner is here…

Same song I took the lyrics from for a previous post. "Belle" from the french musical version of Notre dame de Paris

#twisted wonderland #rollo flamme #twst rollo #basically the song is about the hunchback Frollo and Phoebus talking sus abt Esmeralda but in a poetic way #Haven’t seen the disney and I never read the novel bc I know it’s horrifying #I’m just here for the twink rug with a bell from twst #+ made a sentence inclusive to fit every possible solution #wether you think he thinks of yuu or idk malleus #leaving the translations here in the tags for the lyrics from top left to bottom right #’does desiring you make me a criminal ?’ #’What use is there yet in praying Notre Dame’ #’Who… will be the one throwing the first stone at them ?’ #’This one does not deserve to be on Earth’ #simp lyrics #I should finish my inktober before december at least but Rollo keeps coming back #Im cursed or blessed idk #Ohh I remembered I have shrinkong plastic sheets Rollo will be baked he will be put in the oven

[the-way-astray]

you could theoretically read the series in the order 8.5, 9.5, 9 instead of 8.5, 9, 9.5 because books 9 and 9.5 take place parallel to each other but also sophie and keefe never interact between them so hypothetically there should be no difference (and no spoilers either way).

another thing you could theoretically do is alternate between reading books 9 and 9.5. a chapter here, a chapter there. it would be like reading a longer version of unlocked, with the povs alternating between sophie and keefe.

in fact, in theory, there could be a possibility of even less spoilers if you read it 8.5, 9.5, 9. for example, if vespera makes an appearance in unraveled, and you didn't know she would die yet, it could be a really cool way to see her last minute and have an extra layer about her before her death. whereas if vespera makes an appearance in unraveled and you already know she's going to die, it feels a little more empty. not completely meaningless, but like. kinda empty. like if vespera hints at a larger plan or something in unraveled and you didn't know she was going to die, you'd be super excited to see this plan shake out, but now that we know she's going to die something like that wouldn't hit as hard.

#kotlc #kotlc unraveled #kotlc sophie #sophie foster #kotlc keefe #keefe sencen #i am. theorizing. hypothesizing. if you will #i wanna see a new kotlc fan do this in like five years #and tell us about their experience as we vigilantly take notes #obviously this is theoretical because idk what shannon's gonna put in unraveled yet so we'll just have to wait and see #if that's a valid possibility #if i was a new fan and someone told me that unraveled and stellarlune take place parallel but never interact #i'd read them side-by-side #alternating between the chapters as if i was reading unlocked lmfao #because i can't take an entire book of keefe straight i will simply perish lmfao #ngl i am kinda hyped for this book now i wanna see what direction shannon's gonna take this #seeing it as less of a kotlc book and more of a case study #and praying to shannon that this .5 thing doesn't become a habit #i think it's just cool that now in theory at least there's a different way that you could experience the story

[chickenfingerswithasideoffries]

still thinking about that stat chart....mhin fight back against the weak allegations omgg

#im a bit flabberghasted #TWO???? 😭 not even three TWO?? #like i feel lied to i thought they were really strong??? are they weak in comparison to the other cast members? that doesnt really make muc #sense though considering their curse unless theyre weak as hell without it which i dont think is true either #only other answer i can think of is that its possibly in relation to other ppl with that same curse??? but that idea assumes that this isnt #something unique to them that this kind of curse is at least semi common which. gives me more questions than answers. #idk maybe this doesnt make sense im just rambling #also unrelated to that specific stat but self-loathing being 5 and wisdom being 1 is really funny #★ my silly text posts #my touchstarved ramblings #my silly theory posts #touchstarved mhin #touchstarved game

[transmascutena]

thinking about how akio sees his younger self in utena and wondering if there's any fondness there. doesn't change the horror of what he does to her obviously but i do wonder

#akio and utena #m #long ramble in the tags sorry: #the thing about akio is that he's so evil bit he's also so human #he has feelings. i just don't know what they are (if anything) toward his victims #he loves anthy at the very least i'm sure of that. even if he hates her too. just like she loves and hates him. the lines are blurry. #and i just. i have to wonder whether any of that extends to utena at all. we know anthy at times feels similarly about utena and dios #(and akio by extension.) the simultanious love and resentment. so it's not too unlikely i think. #like. even though he never had anything but bad intentions in getting close to her #i'm not sure it's possible to do everything he did and feel nothing #not that he has any meaningful amount of guilt or remorse for it. i don't think that. #and i obviously don't think he “loved” her in any of the ways she might have thought he did #but did he not care at all? did he not feel any kind of fondness or sympathy or just. idk. pity? for her? #whatever the case it wasn't enough to reconsider having her killed so you know. how much does that actually matter anyway #idk. i think about it a lot. how abusers are rarely entirely indifferent toward their victims #the role he's playing in her life is so fucked up but it IS a role he's playing and i wonder how much he you know... internalizes it? #how much does he believe the illusion of family that he invites her into? because akio DOES often buy into his own illusions. #(similarly i think it's possible that akio is fond of touga too. their mentor-protégé relationship is horrible and abusive #but that doesn't make it less real. you know? maybe real is the wrong word.) #when he talks in episode 25 about wanting utena and anthy closer that's obviously so he can continue to groom her #but is there something genuine there too? i don't know. #again. it obviously does not make anything he does better or even different. but it is interesting to think about to me. #on the other side of that coin does seeing his own past youth and naivete and desire to do good that he (maybe) once had #reflected back at him through her mean anything? #is there resentment there? that she is what he couldn't be? or more likely he just thinks that idealism is stupid. #either way it's something he wants to take from her. anyway ramble over. #i talk a lot about utena's feelings toward akio (familial vs romantic love and the way the two are intertwined in fucked up ways) #but not much the other way around. probably because utena is actually a sympathetic character whose feelings the show very clearly #wants you to analyze and think about. #which is... less true for akio i think. though he's still a complex character with complex motives. he's just harder to get a grasp on.

[clownprince]

alright i was already intrigued by the premise of knight terrors: the joker but i'm SO fucking hyped now you're telling me rosenberg is elaborating on the divorce arc??? also dark workplace comedy is exactly where i hoped they'd go with this

#scared to get my hopes up bc rosenberg hasn't done much with the batman/joker dynamic so idk his take on it #i think he has a solid understanding of joker as a character #and i'm beyond thrilled at the possibility that they're not just ignoring endgame and joker war and all that shit #joker trying to do his own thing and be his own person without batman is the logical next step #and i'm glad rosenberg managed to salvage something out of the raging dumpster fire that was tynion's take on joker #also mildly concerned about where this might go bc personally i like it when joker has no identity or purpose outside of batman #to me that's what defines joker. his lack of a stable identity and willingness to change to be what he thinks batman needs him to be #and idk if rosenberg is talking about in the nightmare or irl but my assumption is the nightmare will be reflected in the main narrative #rosenberg is also like. genuinely funny. to me at least. so i'm excited. just a bit nervous for what this might mean for the batman/joker #dynamic moving forward. idk #uhhh #batjokes #joker #knight terrors: the joker

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[galecgun]

I understand that there’s a lot of room to be like “this is, or Was at the time, probably his least favorite individual nanosecond out of of his entire life. Imagine finally being killed by the guy who brutally destroyed your planet and tortured you extremely personally for decades. but you are resurrected last minute in the fight against him. you fuckin. make it over to him. you MOCK HIM. you IMMEDIATELY get sent really, really far away with no way to return to where you were and then this OTHER guy. whom you also hate. for different reasons. goes through quite a lot of trouble to let the bastard live”

but this moment itself is just so funny to me. Porunga used /kick. Back to lobby junior this isn’t your fight. You are not the guy. Go pick some grass

#i forgot my text post tag #interested in other possible least favorite individual nanoseconds. #This would be worse than being killed i think like it would sting in a different way. That did definitely suck though #IGNORE ME!!! #theres another thread here that goes ‘feeling slighted or insulted by freeza getting the same treatment he did’ #‘and eventually spending a lot of time ruminating about Someone Thinking The Two Of You Are Alike In Any Way’ #discovering that his forgiveness isn’t just for you ……… finding that it can be completely misguided #Wondering if it’s misguided!!! wondering if it’s deserved #if it’s fair. It wasn’t for freeza it was wrong. it was too hopeful. maybe you’re the same as your surrogate tortureparent #Maybe This Cannot Be Removed From You. maybe you’ll take advantage of it like he did because he’d have taught you to #Idk………. idk #incomprehensible post i may delete this tomorrow. I need sleep now. Good Night. #sticker book

[sunshinechay]

Okay so I was musing about it in the tags of @respectthepetty’s post here but I also want to make a tiny post about it.

It’s only the second episode but does anyone else get the feeling that a significant portion of the show is going to end up coming down to Mew vs Boston?

A truly colossal showdown in which they are going to destroy each other and irreparably damage everyone around them?

As RTP pointed out, both use sex as a means to control. Both have a thing for Top and want him for themselves, but (and I’m might be projecting here) it also feels like it’s going to be about more than that. It’s going to be about Ray and his feelings for Mew. Chuem and her attempts (sometimes half heartedly) to get everyone to get along. It’s going to be about Boston’s inability to recognize his own faults and his belief that he’s better than everyone else. It’s going to be about Mew’s feelings of surperiority towards Boston (and even Ray and Chuem to a certain extent). I even think how Boston is using Nick is going to come into play as well, I’m just not sure how yet.

I posted about it yesterday that this friend group doesn’t really feel like a friend group and a big part of the reason I feel that way has to do with Boston’s barely veiled resentment/animosity towards Mew and Mew’s smugness right back at him. Each thinks they’re better than the other and (imo) both are wrong.

And even to connect it to the post I made about the projector light and Mew’s mugshot from ep1. I’m starting to think Boston got left out of the light because he is the closest thing this series is going to have a bad guy. I mean this show clearly is not going to actually have one, but I think Boston is going to end up filling the antagonist role because the show seems to be more from Mew’s POV than Boston’s. Ray and (Chuem) are partially in the light of the projector to symbolize their more innocent status (again, not true innocence because they have their own issues, but closer to innocence in the battle of wills between Boston and Mew).

They’re going to explode at each other and probably sooner than we think. It’s going to be mutually assured destruction and they’re going to take at least Top down with them. Likely Ray and Chuem and maybe even Sand down as well. I’m not going to even speculate what’s going to happen to Nick because it’s going to be bad, probably almost as bad as (if not worse than) Top.

These are messy imperfect characters who are going to say and do terrible things, both to themselves and each other. They are each the “bad guy” in each other’s story and even in their own to a certain extent. Neither of them are really better than the other and both are going to end up down a rabbit hole they can’t get out of.

I could be very wrong and I might be jumping the gun a little too much but after two episode, this is what it’s starting to feel like to me. I’m not trying to say one is better than the other or that they shouldn’t do what they’re about to do. This is just the sense I get. I’m completely open to being proven wrong. Hell this whole conflict could end up being a red herring before the “real” conflict emerges.

I would love a showdown between Boston and Mew though on any scale. Neo and Book would eat it up and put out an amazing performance. Only time will tell I guess haha.

#only friends #only friends the series #only friends meta #possibly? #mew ofts #boston ofts #topmew #topboston #i almost feel bad for top #because boy walked right into a powder keg #and unfortunately might be the reason the match it lit #i mean he’s definitely going to do his own shit that’s going to make it worse #and while he might not deserve what i think is about to happen #he’s still the worse #he is the largely harmless version of boston #a fuckboy #but at least a fuckboy who will leave you alone when you tell him too #thank you respectthepetty for inspiring this post #your post made the little hamster in my brain start running on its wheel #idk what jojo is truly planning #but man am i excited for it #i am excited for these messy people to do messy things #cap watches only friends #cap speaks

[francy-sketches]

The age difference between tommen and myrcella bothers me way more than it should like sometimes it's 2 whole years sometimes they're the exact same age like grrm wanted to make them twins but he forgot. Girl what is the truth

#.txt #grrm has a loose grasp on numbers unfortunately #in agot myrcella is 'not quite eight' and in affc she's 'not quite one-and-ten' ok so she went from 7 to 10 in 2 years? #and in 2 years tommen went from 7 to 8 uhhh if she's almost 11 he should be 9 at least right #maybe he is 9 but everyone just forgot his birthday lmao #BUT in the agot appendix it say's she's 8. which makes more sense. if she's 8 turning 9 instead of 7 turning 8 #but BUT the wiki (my best friend and worst enemy) says she was born in 290. bc they take the 'not quite 8' thing as fact #which. ok after pacing around the house talking to myself like a madman that's not possible. it has to be 289 ☝ I think. um #I don't fucking know man I also don't have a very firm grasp on numbers. but something's not right here #idk grrm definitely fucked up some ages in affc bc it says joffrey died at 12. damn he died so hard he aged backwards 😔 #btw this is the second time I've gone insane thinking about grrm's bad math today. and that was only considering time #imagine if I also thought about space too hard...thank god my understanding of distances sucks ass

[halo-lll-odst]

yes i made a lethal company oc

yes they're a robot. is tihs a surprise.

#marrsbarrs art #lethal company #oc #ocs #bud-e #it is supposed to filter out things from the air in the industrial complexes you explore #but also be a companion. it would be something you purchase btw but i think that's well implied in the text #it would be very expensive as it has multiple functions. has a built in walkie-talkie #and i mean. it's a walking air filtration system #i think maybe there would be scented cartridges you could purchase from the store that have different small passive buffs #that you could plug into them. each cartridge only lasts a round tho #also has a radiation symbol on it because it is fueled on a scrapped apparatus. repairs itself with scrap metal #also it wears the gear and looks like it because it was convenient to just use an old gas mask for the head and for at least SLIGHT staff #comfort. also it allows more convenience to wash off things and so things dont get stuck in its joints or whatevar #maybe doesnt get attacked? or at least doesnt get killed once things realize it isnt organic. works well as a solo companion possibly #anyway it is very silly and speaks in beeps and boops. to speak it uses maybe a modified form of morse #can change the pitch of the beeps #robots #tech #idk i have so many thoughts. this game is good. play it

[the-punforgiven]

Y'know, knowing The Collector's coming back to Darkest Dungeon 2, I just had a weird thought, so like, insane theory inbound:

And The Collector's whole Thing is like, summoning severed heads to take on spectral bodies and fight for him, right? Typically a spectral reproduction of the deceased's old body

Now, in DD1, I feel like it's kinda hinted that Alhazred might have had his eldritch power directly connected to the Heart of Darkness, meaning he could be, presumably, capable of using the power of an eldritch entity against itself

And, when he channels this power, he uses a head (or, a skull) with a candle on it to do so

Now. I'm just saying

That's a head, with a candle on it.

Which is, y'know

Something we've seen before.

Plus we know Dismas has Rey's helmet in his posession canonically, and that the devs have hinted Rey to be like, kinda probably dead maybe?

So like, 👀, y'know?

Idk if this is anything but I do think the thought of some sorta haunted armor Reynauld would be really neat

#maybe I'm just Coping though idk #would also be extra knife-twisty if they brought in Reynauld's Head as a trinket this time around #which I think is also a distinct possibility #I'm more than sure the candles on the helmet in more of an ''honor the fallen'' kinda thing #but still #a [redacted] can dream #Pun's text Posts #Darkest Dungeon #Reynauld #Darkest Dungeon spoilers #also like #I don't think his actual severed head is in there but I do realize the helmet has been like #the 'face' of the character in all the in-game materials #so idk I feel like it counts thematically at least

[angeltannis]

Every time I see guest lists for Comic Con and similar cons I always think of this convo I had with a friend years ago where they said it feels like there’s a huge disconnect between the folks that organize these cons and the average attendee’s interests… thinking about when I went to Denver Comic Con in 2017 (a year anyone in the cosplay/con scene will recall as being absolutely DOMINATED by a certain hero shooter), and the organizers pushed the Overwatch cosplay photoshoot to a side stage we had no hope of all fitting on and sent their photographer on lunch while hyping up the Lord of The Rings photoshoot that had maybe 20-25 people stretched out across the big main stage. That was the same year they had the VAs of Discord and Pinkie Pie/Fluttershy banished to the tiniest little room for a panel and people had to be turned away because the room filled up near instantly. And then, two months later, the same thing at Boston Comic Con, where they shoved D.Va’s VA to the very back of the guest room with the D-lists, then had to do emergency traffic control to avoid a crowd crush while the main guest they had hyped up, Mario’s VA, was sitting at his booth just watching the chaos go down on the other side of the room.

Since then I’ve been keeping my eye on guest lists for multiple cons, local and otherwise, and it feels like all the big ones are still like that. They’ll hype up some old-time actor who was in one episode of Star Trek or Doctor Who, which, yeah, I’m sure there are folks excited for that…but every con I’ve ever gone to has been disproportionately fans of stuff that’s NOT been hyped or promoted by the organizers at all. When we went to Anime Boston this year my friend had to organize their own photoshoot for freaking Dungeon Meshi, which has to be far and away the most popular new anime of this year.

Sorry for ranting but this post brought to you by looking at the guest list for Fan Expo Boston and seeing the Top Billing is the cast of Saved by the Bell and National Lampoon (???), with a grand total of 7 voice actors for the animation category and 7 for all of gaming

#it almost feels like people have fun at cons in SPITE of their organizers #I’m sorry but how many times can you meet the cast of Firefly 😫 like truly #like for Fan Expo this year if I were thinking of all the most popular up and coming guests it’d be like #Baldurs Gate (to their credit they got 1 BG VA). Hazbin. TADC. idk if Dungeon Meshi has an English dub yet but if so that #Genshin and Honkai ??? (Fan Expo does have (1) Genshin VA attending at least) #how about the VAs for the new Pokemon protagonists?? kids would love that #they can’t possibly be more expensive than these ye olde big names they’re pulling in #it just feels like such a disconnect!!!

[xxswagcorexx]

one thing i've just been noticing abt ivory's videos is just. the idea of proving yourself, despite all of the odds against you. if its fighting a 100 wardens or killing god, there's always something to be proven. it's proving that you are capable of accomplishing anything, and you'll do so in a heartbeat.

and that, of course, builds a reputation, right? everyone knows ivory! and she's built a very intense reputation for herself, and she's pretty much feared on every single smp shes on

but with that reputation...you're pressured to keep it up. you're forced to go onto the next big thing. to prove that you can accomplish anything in a heartbeat.

so you do the same things over and over again, ramping up the stakes without taking a minute to calm down and breathe

but maybe, there's a small part of you that begs you to stop. to slow down, take a moment for yourself, and take a moment to look back at everything. just to rest

but.

you have a reputation to uphold. even as part of you screams at you and forces you to put in the breaks, the only thing on your mind is to keep on going. to prove you can do what you've set your mind to, and what you've worked so hard for.

(but in the end, it barely feels like anything before you turn away and look for the next accomplishment to complete, because you've killed off the part that forces you to step back and question what you're doing.)

#mcyt #ivorycello #having a normal one tonight . (lying) #btw i have 0 idea if this is the original intention of everything so don't take it as that #i support death of the author (when it comes to media analysis) anyways so. this is just what ivorys videos (so far) means To Me #i just find it So So So fascinating that ivory plays very strategically for everything she does #i havent found much fan content that explores that part of her which i think. is a shame bc its so interesting to me !!! #bc (at least to me) she always has a plan (in her videos) . everything she does is to lead up to a goal shes set for herself #and she Anyaylizes the best possible strategy that 1) plays to her strengths and 2) takes advantage or bypasses her weaknesses #and idk! thats just so Fascinating to me #also ive seen a few things abt ivorys latest video and burnout and. well its finals season rn so just been Thinking about that a lot #and i just think about it sometimes. anyways go watch ivorycello #and also if u wanna send me an ask abt this ^_^ feel free 2!!! im sure im forgetting a few things i can add 2 this but....ya #having a normal one tonight (lying)