#as if they owe us anything

[pogasm]

there’s some valid criticism against kpop (literally watching half of army in real time turn into a zionist cult) but half the time yall don’t have anything interesting to say and you’re just racist

#criticisms against the fandoms idol worship and cult behaviour yes #criticisms against the horrible kpop industry and how these idols are very much abused and not treated as human #cand date or have friendships because they’re a commodity for fans and they have to be always emotionally ‘available’ #as if they owe us anything #fans feeling entitled to idols lives #do u know how many hate trains i’ve seen over idols in relationships IN THE PAST MONTH #it’s so horrible there i’m only staying bc i love bts but kpop genuinely scares me

[dear-ao3]

one day ill be able to embark on my quest to find my holy grail*.

*my holy quest to steal max verstappens cats

#from katya #not a tag #he doesnt show us enough pictures of jimmy and sassy so i must take them and be the proud cat father they deserve #OBVIOUSLY MAX TREATS HIS CATS WELL DONT COME AFTER HIM OR ANYTHING ISTG I KNOW YALL #ALSO HE DOESNT OWE FANS ANYTHING BUT I WISH WE COULD GET MORE CAT PICS #f1

[tapakah0]

do u know cass personally? or is this a tumblr friendship? cuz its the most wholesome thing ive seen in my life

I don't even know their real name ~ But if I will be told that I have an extra liver, I will know at the exact same second to whom give it.

#without jokes #I owe her so much #I'm pretty sure she doesn't understand how much #It was first days of college when I found this place #and I was having attacks of hatred towards this place due to the fact that it takes up all the time #and in the end I do not get anything useful from it. #I didn't even have powers on drawing something #I didn't know what to draw #head empty #and everything felt so... flat? #and BOOM #what do you mean it is the style that I love the most #what do you mean the main attention to the emotions #what do you mean it's a chaos #what do you mean I love this thing already #what do you mean the author of this story is so wonderful and funny and cool and so many adjectives #WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE MAKES KIND OF ANIMATICS THAT I LOVE THE MOST #*puts paws together* #I love animatics and I finally found a passion #I survived last year only because of her #honestly #I don't know what and how happened #but I don't want to change anything #I am so much grateful I don't know what else I can give to her I have nothing

[andoutofharm]

i have a special kind of annoyance for people who say fall out boy (or any band!) look “sad” or “bored” because they’re standing still while playing or have a serious expression like. just say you know nothing about them and also have zero respect for neurodivergent people and/or people who’ve had surgeries that restrict their movement and go

#sorry idk if it’s the neurodivergent part of me that’s like !!!!!! THEY DO NOT HAVE TO PERFORM EXPRESSIONS FOR YOU !!!!! #or the fact that like. i know about joe’s back surgeries and that he has explicitly stated why he doesnt do all he used to on stage #also deeply irrtates me when people pick on pete and say he’s ‘clearly so bored’ because he has a concentrated expression while playing #he does not owe putting on a big facial expression or anything to ANYONE just. please stop. #anyway i got a comment on youtube and its the same shit i see from this kind of person so often #and . i wish we would just leave people alone. both joe and pete have explicitly stated they’re having a great time #just fucking let them do their thing. they dont owe you a big fake performance to prove it.

[thoumpingground]

So when Darcy went to fix the Lydia/Wickham situation, he first tried to get Lydia to return home, only bribing Wickham into marrying her when she wouldn't. This is sensible by modern standards, but we know from everyone else's reactions Lydia *failing* marrying Wickham would bring the Bennet family shame. Darcy knows this, and doubt he planned to leave the situation as is. So how did he originally plan to fix it?

I think Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy was gonna channel his inner Emma Woodhouse (didn't have to dig far, they're very similar people) and play matchmaker. In my headcannon Darcy checked his "Possible Husbands for Georgie" list against his "People who owe me Gargantuan favours" list and offer whoever came up money to marry Lydia.

Now, he would want to spare the Bennets of as much of the scandal as possible, and wouldn't want to take the merit in front of Lizzie, so all would most likely happen discreetly through Mr. Gardiner, while Lydia was in London, and she would move to her husbands immediatly after.

However, I wanna propose a different scenario: Lydia returns to Meryton. Scandal ensues, the Bennets are disgraced. Then, within two weeks, a random well-off man shows up intent on courting Lydia and *only* Lydia. He heeds nobodys warnings and gives no explanations. Lydia loves it. Every other mum in Meryton is furious. The Bennets are confused and paranoid. Imagine the drama. The intrige. The million questions still unawnsered long after Lydia eventually gets married and leaves. Bingley marries Jane (cause of course Darcy still told him he'd been wrong to pull them apart, and Bingley would) and Darcy's still somewhat around. Maybe him and Lizzie get together, maybe not, but every time the topic comes up he gets all sheepish and awkward and she gets suspicious and it's a thing. It's their new dynamic.

#picture a binder for “people who owe me Gatgantuan favours” #and like a few pages for “Possible husbands for Georgie” in a folder #“why would Darcy waste a good man on (ugh) Lydia?” i fear someone might ask?“ #because Darcy's a good considerate person. he was trying to save her for a bad marriage in the first place. #not saying he'd give up the top pick but he wouldn't set her up with anything less than safe and decent #also as annoying as Lydia is she doesn't deserve abuse. Austen makes a point of telling us even with Wickham she's got her family's support. #also also the top pick is probably Charles and he's taken so #jane austen #mr darcy #lydia bennet #mr. gardiner #lizzie bennet #decent guy. #pride and prejudice #classic literature

[benkeibear]

I debated for a while if I post this but I've decided that I will.

First of all I'd like to apologize for the negativity on dash, please don't feel obligated to reply - I don't want pity, I'm simply done hiding and cowering away from this.

Tw: Anon hate, death threats, suicide.

It's been months, 9 to be exact that I got my first anon that gave me a long guide on how to end my life while I was grieving the loss of my father who has passed just 2 weeks prior. I was made fun of for grieving. I got that guide and it didn't stop there.

Every single day since then my asks would be filled with nasty things. Most days it's your generic "kys" and I'd block and delete, so used to seeing it when i shouldn't. Sometimes that person got a little more creative and wrote paragraphs that remained unread but it still affected me. It slowly wore me down.

Honestly, I blame myself. I could have turned anon off but they harass me on burners regardless so I left the anon option on, for the sake of the few people who like to communicate with me but are too shy.

But I'm done now. I try to make tumblr a beautiful place for myself and others by posting only the positive things, daily good morning posts and affirmations, trying to be more active, trying to reach out more so I get out of this shy shell but each time I try they come back.

I almost deactivated before my hiatus because they're getting to me slowly (congratulations asshole, hope you're happy reading this!) i get physically sick when i try to write. I'm scared to post because they will tell me nasty things again. I started questioning myself, my worth, if I'm even still allowed to be here, wanted here.

And yesterday things boiled over when over the course of perhaps 2 hours this person spammed my asks to the point of making me cry. I'm done seeing this fucking behavior every single day and I kindly ask for whoever this is to please stop this. I am ASKING you. Hell i'd get on my knees and beg for you even. I'm done seeing this. Please just stop it.

It's okay if you don't like me, it's okay if you hate me but then just block me. I won't leave because of you. Not here, not life.

#rhy speaks ♡ #tw vent #I'm sorry that this is so long #I'm just so done and feel like I owe an explanation to the ones who saw my posts yesterday #I seemed ungrateful and angry which I'm not #just can't do this any longer #Anon is off for quite some time now and I apologize to the ones who used the feature for good #please dont feel obligated to say anything or even read this but I can't cower away anymore and just let it happen

[ineffable-gallimaufry]

valvert is so funny because i'll be like "omg they're so in love here" and it's like. a normal ass screenshot but the motifs are what make it gay. like idk how to tell you that somehow javert slipping into vous instead of tu is somehow more gay of him since he has his weird authority complex thingy

#like you'd think him using more formal pronouns would be less gay but he pulls it off #valvert #like. it shows respect and may i add the last time he respected jvj was his whole ''punish me monsieur le maire'' thing #so it's certainly more gay. he would do anything for jvj even if he wouldn't admit it #does jvj think javert owes him a life debt? no. does javert think that's what's happening? yes #he needs to calm down #les mis liveblog

[bhaalble]

Anyways. For the Bi/pans in the bg3 fandom. What flavor of bi/pan are you? this can either be the character that models your own experience of bisexuality, or the character who's devastatingly your type as a bi person. For me personally I'm a Lae'zel bi

#bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #astarion #baldur's gate 3 #karlach #shadowheart #lae'zel #gale of waterdeep #wyll ravengard #halsin #withers #poll #feel free to leave explanations in the tags btw #or no context! you dont owe us anything

[maxellminidisc]

Just went down a rabbit hole so sickeningly and evil-y white whilst blocking and I genuinely feel sick and murderous

#every single stupid fuck that uses their intrusive thoughts as an excuse to be racist #ows me their head on a fucking spike #and this goes for anyone frankly using intrusive thoughts and ocd as excuses for supporting #ANYTHING morally heinous #you make me fucking sick as a person with ocd and intrusive thoughts

[uncanny-tranny]

My best advice for trans people who are interacting with transphobes is to not delve into your personal experiences with dysphoria, childhood, sexual experiences, literally anything.

When I was a younger trans person, I thought I could prove my humanity to transphobes by delving into those aspects of my life. I genuinely thought that the more personal information I put out about my transness to transphobes, I could awaken something in them and make them realize "holy shit, I'm talking to a human being and not an abstraction of a 'person'".

What I learned, though, is that all I did was give those transphobes power over me. Transphobia often relies on unfalsifiable "theory" - that means that you cannot prove their theories of transness wrong. By playing their game, all you do is set yourself up to feel humiliated and degraded. By playing this game, you have already lost because they will cheat the game as many times as needed because they are going in with inherent bad faith.

You, in fact, do not owe your life story to transphobes. Their theory about transness is, simply put, that trans people can never be correct about our experiences. There will always be an ulterior motive for trans people in their eyes, because that is all they see. Don't give them that over you.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #the information i put on this blog isn't to prove my humanity and it's for other trans people first and foremost but... #...transphobes have tried using it against me which is always more funny to me than anything else #think about the 'theories' about transness to see how they RELY on being unfalsifiable... #...because unfalsifiability is ALL they have. that is the ONLY thing that gives them 'credibility' #one of the most famous instances of this is probably the first one you thought about if you're at all familiar with transphobic 'theory' #but anyway... baby trans people (affectionate) you owe people NOTHING #you don't owe your life story/your asab/your gender/your sexuality/NADA. NOTHING. ZILCH. #basically transphobes would make freud cry tears of pride because of the unfalsifiable narratives they push #i have definitely talked about this before but it bares repeating

[cuties-in-codices]

Where do you find these manuscripts? Is it like a website or do you find it randomly??

hey, thanks for the curiosity! lenghty answer below the cut :)

1)

medieval manuscripts are typically owned by libraries and showcased on the library's websites. so one thing i do is i randomly browse those digitized manuscript collections (like the collections of the bavarian state library or the bodleian libraries, to name just two), which everybody can do for free without any special access. some digital collections provide more useful tools than others (like search functions, filters, annotations on each manuscript). if they don't, the process of wading through numerous non-illustrated manuscripts before i find an illustrated one at all can be quite tedious.

2)

there are databases which help to navigate the vast sea of manuscripts. the one i couldn't live without personally use the most is called KdIH (Katalog der deutschsprachigen illustrierten Handschriften des Mittelalters). it's a project which aims to list all illustrated medieval manuscripts written in german dialects. the KdIH provides descriptions of the contents of each manuscript (with a focus on the illustrations), and if there's a digital reproduction of a manuscript available anywhere, the KdIH usually links to it. the KdIH is an invaluable tool for me because of its focus on illustrated manuscripts, because of the informations it provides for each manuscript, and because of its useful search function (once you've gotten over the initial confusion of how to navigate the website). the downside is that it includes only german manuscripts, which is one of the main reasons for the over-representation of german manuscripts on my blog (sorry about that).

3)

another important database for german manuscripts in general (i.e. not just illustrated ones) is the handschriftencensus, which catalogues information regarding the entirety of german language manuscripts of the middle ages, and also links to the digital reproductions of each manuscript.

4)

then there are simply considerable snowball effects. if you do even just superficial research on any medieval topic at all (say, if you open the wikipedia article on alchemy), you will inevitably stumble upon mentions of specific illustrated manuscripts. the next step is to simply search for a digital copy of the manuscript in question (this part can sometimes be easier said than done, especially when you're coming from wikipedia). one thing to keep in mind is that a manuscript illustration seldom comes alone - so every hint to any illustration at all is a greatly valuable one (if you do what i do lol). there's always gonna be something interesting in any given illustrated manuscript. (sidenote: one very effective 'cheat code' would be to simply go through all manuscripts that other online hobbyist archivers of manuscript illustrations have gone through before - like @discardingimages on tumblr - but some kind of 'professional pride' detains me from doing so. that's just a kind of stubbornness though. like, i want to find my material more or less on my own, not just the images but also the manuscripts, and i apply arbitrary rules to my search as to what exactly that means.)

5)

whatever tool or strategy i use to find specific illustrated manuscripts-- in the end, one unavoidable step is to actually manually skim through the (digitized) manuscript. i usually have at least a quick look at every single illustrated page, and i download or screenshot everything that is interesting to me. this process can take up to an hour per manuscript.

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in conclusion, i'd say that finding cool illuminated manuscripts is much simpler than i would have thought before i started this blog. there are so many of them out there and they're basically just 'hidden in plain side', it's really astounding. finding the manuscripts doesn't require special skills, just some basic experience with/knowledge of the tools available. the reason i'm able to post interesting images almost daily is just that i spend a lot of time doing all of this, going through manuscripts, curating this blog, etc. i find a lot of comfort in it, i learn a lot along the way, and i immensely enjoy people's engagement with my posts. so that's that :)

#if you ever have any specific questions about any of these tools or my strategies feel free to ask or dm me #i'd also be interested in recommendations of databases that are specific to other languages/regions that are neither german nor english #preferably with a focus on illuminated manuscripts #or useful databases that are just not very well known #ask #medieval art #medieval studies #btw @anon sorry for only getting around to answering your ask now #and re: your following message. first of all never apologize for your english skills. like ever #it's a daily struggle for me as well tbh. i never post anything without german/english dictionary tabs open lol #and i feel like i 'owe' it to the tumblr blogger format to write in smooth english #secondly your question wasn't dumb at all! i'm glad somebody asked :)

[why-the-heck-not]

computer science was a hoax from the universe to get me to study math in the pretense of ”hehe coding’s cool look at all these things u can do” *some mf vectors looming just around the corner* ”noNO dont look there; look here!! It’s ’hello world’ but in green heheh wOoOoo now it’s blue !! u are a god of this website” *matrices sharpening their knives somewhere*

#idk whY I’m going to the mathematical side of things #it’s ME who chooses the thesis topic #so could we maybe do without vectors MAYBE PERHAPS #(i dont like vectors. when we learned them at school I looked at them went ’’well I’ll never use this’’ and now look where we are #I owe my highschool math teacher’s an apology like oh no sometimes u do use vectors) #(I’m scared I’ll somehow choose a too difficult topic and make this impossible for myself) #(but also like I’m not MAKING anything from scratch; I’m just reading articles & writing from there (tho gotta have some own thoughts there #also I think?)) #(if I was smart I would’ve chosen this abt something I already know something abt instead of ’’I wanna see if I could like this’’) #(but alas im not) #codeblr #january 2024 #2024

[petrovna-zamo]

I love arm

#forever and always #really loved the pod today #we love her for her openness and honesty #but she doesn’t owe us anything #I hope fans can understand that and respect boundaries #❤️ #k

[eyestrain-addict]

Iwtv s2 ep2 spoilers

My thing I'm wondering is that in the promos/trailers claudia screams that Louis "picked another one over me" but in this episode she's encouraging louis to live outside of her and pursue a romance with Armand. I wonder what's going to change in the next few episodes.

#mini meta in the tags #its an interesting dynamic theyve written #because i cant yet really blame claudia or louis for feeling the way they feel #louis can call claudia his sister all he wants but she'll forever be his baby girl. their relationship cannot change. but what happens when #the daughter feels defined by said relationship? #does having a child mean one cannot ever love again? if not what does claudia mean by choosing another? #do we as children owe our parents anything? and when we become adults do our parents owe us anything? things to ponder #how can i say claudia deserves to live her own life but say louis doesnt #iwtv #interview with the vampire #louis de pointe du lac #claudia iwtv #iwtv spoilers #iwtv s2

[demadogs]

as a gay swiftie i need to say it i fucking hate gaylors so much. the news of the split of her 7 year relationship came out yesterday and gaylor is already trending on twitter. it doesnt matter how huge of a status a person has STOP READING INTO THE SEXUALITY OF REAL HUMAN BEINGS!!!!!!

#if a real person comes out then woohoo celebrate thats so fun but STOP OBSESSING OVER THAT VISION THIS GOES FOR SO MANY CELEBRITIES #ARE FICTIONAL GAYS NOT ENOUGH FOR YOU???? #also i dont understand bc its just way more fun when its fiction??? like this shit was written intentionally its MEANT for analyzing #there was someone on tiktok i saw a while ago that would not shut up about her being a lesbian not even bi a lesbian- #as if she wasnt (at the time) in a happy relationship with a man #it makes me so mad like yes its possible she could be queer but she doesnt owe us a coming out or anything like that #stop being fucking weird #taylor swift #gaylor

[krash-and-co]

friendly reminder this fandom isnt a job and you don't have to actively work to 'save the show' all the time, you can just have fun

#i saw a post earlier that was basically #'ok i see us all having fun but lets get back to show saving as well' #like????? no????? #WHEN did we owe anyone anything #this isnt a job we are here for fun. #messing around with posts and polls and fanart is not extra fun stuff. its what fandom is FOR #so yeah save the show thats all cool #but thats not what fandom is about. #never has been never should be im not here to work for someone its quite the opposite #what other fandom does this /neg #thank you so much to my moots for not being like this #but i went on the general lockwood tag and took damage #sorry im just mad #if you worry it's at you it's probably not tho lol #lockwood and co #lockwood and co netflix #save lockwood and co