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artstatues · 5 hours

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God save the ex heir apparent. - g.h

wc : 532

pairings : none

synopsis : the had just been read. and all of the fortune went to some girl named avery. after everything he was raised for? i mean, he was called 'heir apparent' for a reason.

warnings : bit of toxic!gray yk bc its set in the first book, no one really like gray in the first book anyway, but uhh mental breakdown, self destructions, small attempt of suicide maybe? em1ly, t0bias, verbal abuse is by t0by?

a/n : kay i did half of this on a plane and the other half at 6 in the morning so i do apologize if theres anything wrong or my writings not its best rn

taglist : @never-enough-novels, @reminiscentreader, @urbanflorals, @kozumesphone, @reyna-obsessed.

Right when this ‘Avery Kylie Grambs’ dashed out of the room, so did Grayson. No one called after him. He raced towards his room, hands already in his hair, messing up his perfectly styled hair from the morning. His breathing became ragged before he finally reached his room, blindly grabbing the door knob before slamming and locking the door. Gray slid down the door, his hands still didn't leave his hair, he was pulling at it now. He was only a child when the old man started raising him like the heir apparent. He should’ve inherited everything. It wasn’t fair. The old man’s games never were. But this? Hells this is far worse. All of the pressure, all of his stupid fucking scoldings and for what? For all that he was raised for to be given to some peasant girl? His breathing became more uneven, he was basically tugging at his hair now, and he could feel a tear drop. He hasn’t cried since the old man told him he was never going to be enough. Since then, he hasn’t cried. He forced himself every night to not cry. Crying was weak, in the old man’s eyes, but he wasn’t here anymore. The old man was dead, and he left this girl everything, while Gray was left with her. Grayson quickly changed out of his neat suit into a pair of swimming trunks one of his brothers bought him, he couldn’t remember which but it didn’t matter right now. He quickly, yet neatly tied a bathrobe over himself before heading towards the indoor swimming pool. The indoor swimming pool that the old man built because he learned that his grandson loved to swim. The indoor swimming pool that the other Hawthorne brothers had to ask for Grayson’s permission to use. The indoor pool that Grayson had. All. To. Himself. Grayson had a terrible habit since the old man started pressuring him, started scolding him for everything. He started to swim until he couldn’t anymore, until his arms grew numb and his legs became heavy. For years he’s done that as a coping mechanism, but the old man thought his heir apparent just loved to swim. Grayson did, he did love swimming, he swam competitively, all for the old man. Until he died, that is, he stopped liking everything, he stopped eating for days, he just lied in bed. Emily’s voice here and there, floating around his mind during those times.

Grayson swam, swam until his arms were too heavy, swam until his legs were numb. He swam until his head felt too heavy to lift and started to feel himself drowning. To just drown, drown, drown, die. Avery Kylie fucking Grambs instead of me? Really? Just another old man’s games, was it? He wouldn’t drown. He couldn’t. It’s human reflex to survive. Survive. That’s all he’s been doing since– everything, Emily, childhood hell, whatever the hell the old man was doing to him- oh there you go, verbal abuse. No one was here to help this time, they were all at the will reading. They were still trying to process this. Process everything, but definitely processing this much better than Grayson was. You. Will. Never. Be. Enough. Not now, not today, and not tomorrow. Never.

Perhaps thats why the old man gave it to Avery.

#the inheritance games #the hawthorne brothers #the hawthorne legacy #the final gambit #the brothers hawthorne #the grandest game #tig #thl #tfg #tbh #tgg #grayson hawthorne #grayson davenport hawthorne #writing #writeblr #writers on tumblr #my work

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c0zyrainfall · 7 months

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I was thinking about it, and I started wondering what exactly is so appealing about damianya.

Twiyor is equally well written, I think, but I actually prefer the former (though I love both!). That's just because of preference and my appreciation for enemies to lovers. HOWEVER I have decided to draft up an analysis pinpointing why damianya is so enticing, because I write my own original material, and I think you can gain a lot of valuable insight by reverse engineering good writing.

First of all: What is the definition of a good romantic relationship?

I will use the following guidelines:

1) Based off of genuine friendship

2) Both are willing to sacrifice for the other and

3) Both parties make the other a better person.

The first guideline I outlined is big here. Because they are kids, they obviously should not be in a full on romantic relationship now. As a matter of fact, they will probably be waiting AT LEAST eight years. At least.

This means they have eight years to develop a true and wholesome friendship. A friendship with no romantic ulterior motives. They just get to enjoy being kids and growing up with one another. Because of this, they will see each other's high AND low points, rather than viewing the other with rose tinted lenses. Yes, maybe one of them (cough Damian) gets butterflies and feels flustered every time they see the other. But for now, it is very innocent and immature, a childish crush. By framing the goal for this relationship as FRIENDSHIP rather than ROMANCE, the two are able to develop a deeper understanding and a more complete picture of each other before they take anything to the next level.

Does the second point even need to be addressed? Anya is willing to take a tonitrus bolt for him. She is willing to stand up for him (well, technically for the "mission" but we'll get to that later). Damian is willing to take a hit for her, whether it be a dodgeball or a literal bomb. He gives her his share of the macaron (which he believes could help him with his intelligence.) He spends time he could be using to study to locate the finest teacakes in the world so he can give them to her.

Now to the third point.

When we first meet Damian, we don't like him. He is a classist jerk. So karma hits him (literally) in the form of Cupid's arrow. By developing a crush on Anya, he is learning that he should not treat others differently because they have less money. He becomes a better person by learning that "commoners" are the same as all the rich students at Eden.

Side tangent: while I relate more to Damian academic wise, aka pushing myself probably too far to get good grades, I'm sure we can all personally relate to Anya. She tries a lot of things. She fails at almost all of them. Thus, by seeing someone who is academically accomplished and rich be infatuated with her just for being herself, we start to realize that those things don't matter as much as we sometimes feel. Therefore, we want Damian to like her, because it is sweet. It is sweet that someone who places value on things like high academics is able to see past that and appreciate someone else for different good qualities, rather than the ones society deems most important. ~

When Anya first meets Damian, we cannot fault her for disliking him. He is rude to her because she is in a lower social class than him. She is rude to him because he is mean to her. This is perfectly reasonable. In the beginning, it would not make her a better person to be friends with him; as a matter of fact, avoiding him would probably be the high road in this situation. If I were her, I would not have wanted to be friends with him at all.

Side tangent 2:

If you like damianya, you are probably fond of Anya. And of Damian. This is true for me. He's my favorite sxf character. The reason WHY we are fond of him is because we know his backstory. We know he is actually a sweet little guy who just wants to be loved. So we also want him to succeed in his friendship with Anya.

However, though she may have picked up bits and pieces through her mind reading, Anya does not know this. And even if she did, she likely wouldn't understand the levity of it. She's only 4 or 5. ~

Damian and Anya have developed since they first met. They ARE friends (or close to it, anyways). So while at first it wouldn't have made Anya a better person to genuinely care about Damian, now it would.

Because we know Damian and care about him, we also want Anya to care about him. We want her to understand why he acts the way he does. We want her to understand that he actually cares about her.

While Damian is terrible at proving he cares through his words, he is really good at SHOWING her. If she understands he has a different method for showing care, Anya grows. She is able to develop a greater understanding of other people, rather than shaping the world through her own perspective. Framing Damian as the mission makes a lot of sense. She wants her parents to stay together and not get rid of her, and she wants world peace. Of course Anya is not bad for wanting these things. But she will be BETTER when she learns to see things from Damian's pov. She will see the world is not all black and white. She will see that he is not just a mission, and that he is actually as important to her as Yor is to Twilight.

So, conclusively, those are some reasons Damianya is a well written and popular ship. I could also go into detail about how it subverts expectations, likely has future plot relevance (in relation to the story as a whole rather than just a side plot), and is a generally unique and well executed idea. However, for now, I'll leave it at this. I tried to nail down the psychology of what makes it appealing to us, but if anyone has further insights, please feel free to let me know :) Hope you all have a great day

#if you read this whole thing you are a champion #me writing a whole on essay about this #instead of doing hw oops #guess I'll go do that now...#anyways this is my coping mechanism since #we probably have to wait another month or two for the next damianya chapter #spy x family #spy family #spy x family anya #anya forger #damianya #spy x family spoilers #spy x family manga #damian desmond

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realbeefman · 8 months

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stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem!#its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome'#instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems!#anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now!#house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

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neuxue · 1 month

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The one and only downside to having been fortunate enough to take an extended amount of time off of work a while back is that now I know that simply not having to work for a living would fix like 99% of my problems. And I just have to carry that knowledge with me every day. Into work.

#best months of my adult life; absolutely no regrets #but ever since then it truly is like being cursed with knowledge a mortal like you should never have come to possess #like you've feasted at the fae banquet and no longer belong to the mortal world #used to be I just suspected that not having to work would fix me #but now I know it for a fact and every time I think about that it drives me a little more fucking insane #anyway. I am very aware there are ways to mitigate this. I will go back to applying appropriate coping mechanisms in just a minute.#but I just need to scream into the void first.#a day in the life of Lia #random workblogging

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little-red-fool · 4 months

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Seen a lot of stuff lately of people just berating others for having takes on characters that they don’t agree with or that don’t align with their take, like girl it’s a fictional character they’re not real, and especially if it’s a fictional character who’s backstory/lore is quite vague, let people believe what they want it’s not that serious, I’ve got certain views on characters that don’t line up with how other people see them and vice versa, that doesn’t mean anybody’s right or wrong, even if it’s less canon-compliant, literally who cares. It’s a silly little made up person with a silly little made up backstory and we’re just making silly little headcanons, like bro it’s not that deep, and I’m tired of people getting so pissy with others about “issues” like this.

#sorry for the rant but i just needed to get it out because it’s been pissing me off #EVERYBODY’S views are going to be different because we’re all individuals #what are you gonna start attacking EVERYONE because their view is SLIGHTLY different to yours #“i think their favourite colour’s blue” “ACTUALLY you’re WRONG it’s GREEN you IDIOT” and then it’s not confirmed in canon like girl shut up #the ONLY exception to this is people’s OCs #because my OCs are extremely important to me they’ve been my main coping mechanism for years and i dont want people hijacking them #especially since they’re so so personal and i cant stand the thought of people trying to change them and their stories #but anyway rant over

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mattodore · 7 months

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this is what i do when i'm having bad days 🤺

#river dipping #mattodore as a coping mechanism 🧘#i'm actually having a better day than yesterday i'm just grumpy atm from lack of sleep 🚆🚶#i stayed up last night watching old jerma streams yk how it is #made a character page yesterday but i’m not sure if i want to keep it… the character pics are TEMPORARY!!! btw.#i gotta take new plain bg cas pics for it but i was thinking abt making my own cas poses first 🤔#finally went back to finish writing the [redacted] scene with mattodore #have been super slowly adding more aesthetically pleasing images to theo’s text heavy board 🚬#also this picrew having a blue and red background option 😋#anyway… that’s my little update 🫡#i’m going to make theo’s custom beauty marks today and then i’ll get in blender to make this mattodore pose that is.#just. dog motif. you know. you understand the dynamics i don’t need to say anything else.#i’d show it off but for some reason matthias’s ripped sims all are missing his teeth cc…? so. can’t. the teeth are important to the pose ☝️#i’ll share pics when i actually go in-game later #‘later’ <- when i feel like turning on my desktop #i should do it soon tho that way i can slap new pics onto that oc page and see if i like it or not #i decided to try it out since it’s mobile friendly like my actual blog theme #like if you open up a browser on your phone and type in my blog or this character page’s url they both look nice !#i hunted for my blog theme for agesss but i found this character page pretty fast #it’s nice… it’s relatively simple looking (the code isn’t tho lmao) which i like. sometimes character pages are just. a lot.#and i think i prefer simple over complicated atp

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askdannysroleswapau · 3 months

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How would Gumball react to this image? :)

(assuming that you mean this in a /lh way)

i think Voidball would be flattered, considering most of their characterization is inspired by Megamind (and Nimona, to some extent) who would consider something like this a compliment

in fact, this sorta reminds me of that scene in Roxanne's apartment with all the hanging scraps of paper where she finally solves the big mystery... god i love Megamind its so good you should go watch it. why has this blog just become me telling you guys to go watch movies recently. what is wrong with me (its The Mucus)

#if you SOMEHOW haven't seen Megamind yet #go and watch it RIGHT NOW #(or whenever you have the chance)#i promise you will NOT regret it #its one of my favorite animated films probably ever #and it has one of the most well constructed narratives i have ever had the pleasure of witnessing and the honor of analyzing #yknow now that i've put them both side by side #Nimona and Megamind actually have a lot in common #both were placed in unfortunate positions when very young due to circumstances beyond their control #have an appearance which is deemed as “strange” or “menacing”#and regardless of their intentions-despite their best efforts-they are labelled by their society as a dangerous threat #an obstacle who serves no other purpose than to cause misery and destruction #someone who can only be defeated by a brave noble and (most importantly) perfect hero #since they are given no other choice they both embrace the title of villain (either consciously or unconsciously) as a coping mechanism #to me the only major difference is that nimona is trans-coded and megamind is autistic-coded #anyway i'm feeling very gross and sniffly so to avoid contaminating my tech any further i'm going to stop typing now #the amazing world of gumball #tawog #danny's roleswap au #drsau #voidball #voidball drsau #ask box

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sucrose-soymilk · 8 months

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hadn’t really regressed in a While and i didn’t realize how much i missed/dareisay needed it until i had the free time and ability to do so over the last few days and i have to say. i’m feeling a bit better

#imagine that! the coping mechanism… helps!!! wow #Seven’s Small Thoughts #not tagging this as anything else bc this blog is really just a not-so-secret public diary #and im not really trying to gain any sort of following or participate in the community very much #i just wanna talk to the void abt regression every once in a blue moon y’know #i also feel like i don’t really belong in the community much/am not a Good Example of sfw agere since i’m very n/ s/ f/ w everywhere else #which is a double standard that i don’t hold others to but i feel like others will hold it against me??? and i’m just shy anyways #and not looking to interact. just wanna keep all this stuff tucked away in a side-blog #i also feel like a lot of the community likes to blog while actively regressed and i don’t wanna step in there as someone who isn’t #nothing wrong with it! at all! i just don’t have the capacity to since i go nonverbal when i regress. no thoughts head blissfully empty #anyways this wasn’t supposed to be a vent post let’s change the topic!#anywhooo what else did i come on here to say. oh yeah #i lowkey forgot how much regressing has helped me in the past until i was able to really indulge myself in it again recently #it’s so nice to just be small and hand someone else the reins and forget abt everything other than doing something you enjoy #maybe one day i’ll be at a point in my life where i can fully regress more freely and more often but for now i’ll take what i can get #i’m also excited because i’ve been thinking abt ordering a paci from this one specific seller #and yesterday saw that they’re dropping a new batch of fall/halloween themed ones today!!!#so now i’ve gotta make myself stay awake until 6pm so i can jump on it when they’re available #which is a small struggle considering my nocturnal sleep schedule but i will do it nonetheless #that crescent moon patterned one Will Be Mine #trying to decide between buttercup yellow and schoolbus yellow for the clip #i think i’m more drawn to the vibrancy of the schoolbus yellow honestly #eeeeeee i’m excited i’ve been wanting to treat myself to ordering from this shop for a g e s and im finally gonna do it

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code01746 · 3 months

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once again thinking about how cora is probably a goth with a closet interest in horrorcore & grindhouse because the idea of people with very sunny dispositions being interested in horror is funny to me.

#‘ 007. ’ (headcanons)#also as someone who has been dealing with extremely traumatizing things since i was very little horror movies are very much #a coping mechanism for me in a weird way; i like the fact i can engage with traumatic situations i've endured “safely” ie. it's not real.#my therapist says that this is a common coping mechanism for some trauma victims so hopefully that doesn't make me sound insane #anyway what if i project that coping mechanism onto cora; yes or yes #also jason voorhees is hydrocephalic like me and was the first character i saw with my condition so he's special to me even if he's a #stinky little zombie serial killer man

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corpsoir · 2 years

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dont fucking look at me im thinking about how abbacchios death made brunos heart beat again if only for a moment

#you know when he bites his lip so hard it bleeds for the first time since dying.#yeah ok #i hate vento aureo i need it to explode <3 #golden wind spoilers #anyways that being said i gotta make more stuff for my silly au where leone sticks around as a ghost and talks to bruno #who is dead and can therefore see him #and the others are just like 'lets not bother bruno hes obviously grieving' hgjkfgdgss #they think bruno is just talking to the air as a coping mechanism lol #corp.krax

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opens-up-4-nobody · 9 months

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#me @ my youngest sister at 6.30 this morning: yooooooo can u draw me a fishy so i can get it tattooed on me?#i drew her some flowers so i want a paralell tattoo with her initials bc she has my initials on her #but i literally have not spoken to her since like may bc i do not talk to my sisters unless we r in the same room. no hate we just dont hav #a lot in common. it makes me a lil sad tho bc im curious abt them. my youngest sister is at least nice to me 😭#ive been thinking abt asking her for ages and last night i was asked abt my sisters so i was like. the time is now #while im still a bit elevated #which has been to my advantage bc i was able to stay v chatty and energetic while talking to ppl. and i think i made some friends #we bonded over fic reading. so theyre a bit. ya kno. girls gays and theys of science #we make the world go round. but its so interesting to hear them talk abt coming to school here bc they both liked where they were and r #leaving their support systems. and im like bruh if i didn't leave the southwest i was gonna die. im so happy to b here #support system? whats that. i talk to my parents once a month and that's it lol. but im gonna try to establish one here #and try to actually make actual friends. this school is way better abt making grad students interact #my last school was not at all like that. but anyway i had fun #and i mean im only at the start of the semester. and im in a good mood. and i kno things will get stressful #but im just really happy i got accepted here #and the longer im here the more clearly i can see how much i was suffering #the funny thing is tho that i wrote this last night and only hours later i was squirming in frustration bc the fact that im back in therapy #means i feel a greater obligation to not b actively self destructive. evil coping mechanisms my beloved #this is y my mum wanted me back in therapy bc im a goodie 2 shoes and when my counselor is like: did u do X the next time i see her. ill b #honest and itll b annoying >:-[ ugh #its just hard for me to b around ppl a lot bc i get stuck in mental loops bc ocd. which is exhausting. and i want it to stop #and i want to do bad things to make it stop but i wont bc im trying to b better #its just funny to me that ill go from everythings awful to everythings great i shoukd talk to my sisters and make friends and do this and #this and this. to oh god i cant do this anymore in such short time frames with certainty that how im feeling is how ive always felt #ive also noticed that my peaks of high energy do come before stressful events. which does make me worry for future stressful events. like #defending. i mean ive never gone fully off the tracks but its a lil alarming when it feels like the train is going at a million miles an hr #unrelated #meanwhile my other sister is apparently in Colorado but when i saw the pics is was like: YOU BITCH #R U CLOSE TO ME RN??? but no. Colorado is far away

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sourkitsch · 1 month

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Kind of spent the morning trying not to kill myself and my friend went out and bought me Susan Sontag Illness as Metaphor so I could read it when I felt better. Got called into work so I literally cannot cry rn but oh boy do I feel like it.

#for the life of me could not figure out what exactly triggered me but I know it happened last night #it definitely happened before the thing Robyn and I talked about but such a big coping mechanism failing like that didn’t help lol #I’m actually wondering if it happened while I was out to dinner? I got a drink I hadn’t had since I was a kid and started feeling off #almost immediately after the first sip but I just assumed it was an allergy thing.#tbh I did drink it exclusively when my grandfather would give it to me #but god does that feel lame lol #anyway my friends are nice even when they dont understand 👍

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buggiesnax · 2 months

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rewatching Life on the Murder Scene just to feel something

#i own a physical copy of it that i found at half price books when i was 15 - to this day still my BEST HPB find ever #anyways. as a teen id watch it all the time and its been a few years since i last saw it #i like. try to not idolize irl people but. god my chem means so much to me #also i cant believe i slept on ray because he wasnt uwu emo boy. ray is Everything #anyways. weird mental health day so watching uploads of the mcr show i went to and interviews w them and stuff #which was my main coping mechanism 12 years ago ahaha #my chemical romance #mcr #rose.txt

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arolesbianism · 6 months

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I was abt to be like hey guys here's the clangen sprites for the main characters of spiraling upwards ^-^ but luckily I caught myself before I accidentally dropped some Massive spoilers by doing so lol. Anyways take Whimsygoose, Pumpkin, and Daisystar instead because they're so cutsies <3