#anyways this is fruitless

[binalakai]

imagine having to watch your found father figure, who once took care of you while you were a young child during an apocalypse, descented so far into madness overtime that he slowly started to forget who you were n u had to watch that over time. you had to watch him justify his every action of using that cursed crown thats making him spiral in the first place. you had to watch him get your name wrong from every so often to every time. you had to watch him go so far gone that, when he finally becomes something beyond the shell of his former self, on the off chance he DOES decide to come back into your life, it's to write menial songs about your ex life that he couldnt even be a part of recalling about (i mean how couldve he) . you had to watch him as he's gone so far in forgetting you that he confuses your Genuine Desire for reconnection and presence for romantic advances. and when he DOES bother to read any notes he made related to his past, he sings them as if they were meaningless lyrics while you had to belt out the echoes of a past you believed was no longer retrievable but its fine now right? the curse is gone the madness is no longer a threat and he can live a normal man right? things should be okay right? he can live in safety and marceline can show simon the side of yourself that has Grown to her own, with hopes that theres joy in that security, right? he wouldnt want to go back to the way things were, to that person to return to that prolonged hurt....right?

#fionna and cake #adventure time #simon petrikov #marceline #listen okay everyones yelling at simon for how betty will react but as far as simon cares its fruitless to try to go to betty again #he now believes hes NEVER going to see betty again . and now marceline? showing signs that she's grown past needing him ? #SHES NOT GONE SIMON . AND YET. IT FEELS THAT WAY. DOESNT IT #anyway marceline neeeds like 100 apologies right now.

[pois0ncandy]

life is boring and meaningless i should just kms

#what is there to live for? #absolutely nothing #everyone keeps saying that “it’ll get better” #“this won’t last forever and then years go by and it’s still exactly the same #the world is going to shit #i don’t make enough to survive on my own #and finding a new job is practically impossible these days #i have no one to even talk to #i don’t want to talk to anyone anyways #like what’s the point? #i’ve been holding out for so long and for nothing #fruitless endeavors #empty promises #forgotten dreams #any hope i had is gone #can’t believe i stayed alive this long all for some dipshit who doesn’t even live in my country and has forgotten my existence #like why have i put myself through this #there is no point #pathetic #i hate everything #i just don’t think living is for me #and it never has been #and i’ve always known this but tried so so hard to change how i feel to find some meaning in life and it was all for nothing

[ofpd]

I’d be interested in a non exr fic rec list

ok yes sorry this took a while to answer, i wanted to get through some fics on my tbr before posting it :)

The Pursuit of Light | enjolras & feuilly | 3.3k

"Let's start with the first conjugation," Enjolras says, taking up the pen beside him and scribbling down a list of words Feuilly is entirely unfamiliar with. "I hope my handwriting isn't too arcane."

True Fraternity | enjolras & feuilly | 2k

When Feuilly goes on a trip with his bourgeois friends to practice shooting, he feels increasingly out of place.

Farouche | combeferre/enjolras | 0.8k

Enjolras and Combeferre's friendly debate about love, family structures, and women goes a wee tiny bit off the rails, and Enjolras reacts even more severely to being hit on when he's interested than when he's not.

Driven Like the Snow | éponine/marius, éponine/montparnasse | 2.9k

The night after the Gorbeau robbery, Eponine wanders the streets of Paris.

Unravel | éponine/marius | 18.2k

Éponine Thénardier can "unravel" time--jump backward a few minutes or hours and let events play out again, sometimes slightly different from before. It's a secret little thing that she uses occasionally, to get herself out of trouble or avoid minor accidents. She's never tried to do anything big with it because, on the whole, she's happy with her life--her family's inn is successful, they live in a nice neighborhood in Paris, and she's in love with a kind and beautiful boy named Marius. But when her lover is killed on the barricades of the June Rebellion, she has to try to fix it--even if it means using her power on a scale she's never dreamed of. Even if it means throwing away everything else she has.

Under a Moonlit Sky | bahorel/fantine | 25.1k

The year is 1817. After Félix Tholomyès' little suprise, a despairing Fantine thinks she might go to her hometown of M-sur-M to find work. Instead, she decides to find Tholomyès and make him acknowledge Cosette. Enter a young man who would love to have an excuse to travel South (as far away from the law faculty as possible) and is uniquely suited to hunting down terrible men...

In Which Is To Be Learned The Name of Enjolras's Fake Fiancée | cosette & enjolras | 52.3k (unfinished)

It was true, Cosette allowed, that he was nothing at all like the beautiful young man from the Luxembourg, but she must not judge him unkindly for that. The world was full of young men, and it would be quite tedious if all the handsome ones were handsome in the same way.

#stuff tagged ep/marius includes unrequited ofc #anyway there have been more that ive enjoyed but here are some favorites #all canon era lol. that does tend to be what i like. also part of why theres unfortunately no epoferre here #that doesn't work in canon era LOL. but also i once read a fic mistagged as epoferre and have not wanted to look in the tag since #also my pursuit for good eposette fic has proved fruitless :/ #so far at least #asks #anon #les mis #i could give commentary on these but i always feel a bit weird doing that. like this is tumblr the authors could see #oh i guess i couldve included the most viscerally upsetting fic ive ever read in this but 1) its kinda exr and 2) i dont wanna think abt it #if anyones curious though u can dm me

[angelpuns]

More about the pretty consistent body pain thing that's happening, I'm not sure if something is actually wrong with me or if its just the affect of overworking myself for liiiiikkkke 6 years??? ( arguably also overworking nyself before that now that u thjnk about it but moreso te past 6 years )

yeahhh and then also before that I'd did marching band and like- did it knowing I didn't have great knees :/ hmm just thinking thoughts

Sorry for the rambles I just like to think aloud and it helps doing it somewhere public :/

#i should probably go to a doctor #but i know itll prpbably be fruitless anyway #theyll almost definitelt say its cause of my weight #which hey #maybe part of it IS #but i dont think that would just fix everhtjinf #i alrrady had trouble with my knees and cifculation in hs #AND BACK THEN I WAS SK ACTIVE #MARCHING BAND IS FUCKINF ACTIVE AS HELL #abd before that i did sports up until middle school #anyway- #i think also overworking nyself at a job and doing college #just may have made ir way worse #hmmm #thoughts #not a vent #genuinely just thinking things and writing them #and i need eomeone to observe cause i dont get answeds wtiting it on my own #urgh its frusttatint #i am in pain lile every day :/ #sleeping situation is absolutely making it so much worse too #rambles #angel rambles #sory if you read this far #im hust thinking thoights

[soldier-poet-king]

Someone come and beat me over the head everytime I open my mouth or this app bc I gotta be cool and mysterious and not a grade A idiot and yet I cannot keep my mouth shut and I need to be heard all day long it's incurable

#the duality of fran #is it a fruitless pursuit of yelling into the void #hoping to be understood snd to relieve the ever present sense of isolation #instead of just getting a damn journal #MAYBE SO #the kafka instinct. perhaps #anyway. i have. to go do things. unfortunately

[elviraaxen]

who or WHAT is Skrutt? Is it... Ricky's pet? His child?? I'm genuinely curious because Skrutt looks so FLOOF I wanna pet it eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Skrutt is just a little creature called Skrutt! (He’s named after his own species. Like a cat named Cat)

The idea is that Skutts are amalgamations of little felt particles that puppets shed throughout their lives. They collect in the wind and essentially become sentient dust bunnies. 🌬️🐇

They vary in size, color, level of sentience, and intellect! Our Skrutt has about the same level of intellect as a parrot, or a small child, only difference is that he can’t speak!

#I’ve been thinking a lot about puppet lore these past few weeks #fairly fruitless considering I can’t exactly make anything with Albin since he’s technically not my character :’D #because Albin is from a kids show #THE CREATOR OF WHICH MY BOSS KNOWS OMG I FORGOT #maybe I can ask him if I can use him as a parody character 😂 #like hey boss can you ask ur friend if I can use the twink version of his very recognizable character in something completely unrelated LOL #anyways I gotta go to work!! ask me anything about puppet lore and i’ll info dump lmao

[sugarsnappeases]

PLEASE tell me about marytunia. i have to know what this is

hi lovely!!!!

okay marytunia have recently been SO on my mind bc i saw @fernhelm tag a post w them the other day and i was like HOLD ON!! I SEE IT!! and THEN i had a vague recollection of jen talking about them one time last year at some point so the two of them have been subjected to some of my ramblings bc i was struck down by divine intervention like last week and have been obsessing a little....

but okay so for me the general vibe is very tangled up w the evans sisters dynamics and just lily in general which is all v ouch. i kinda see them actually as two parts of her life like petunia is a huge part lily’s childhood and mary is a huge part of lily’s time at hogwarts so she’s this presence between them even if she’s not actually there and there’s a lot of like resentment and yearning and jealousy etc etc

like petunia is fighting w herself the whole way through it (nothing i love more than some good old internal conflict) bc she shouldn’t want this!! she’s planned out a nice, perfect, normal life for herself that she’s convinced herself she has to like, she will like it, which doesn’t involve magic or witches or her sister and mary is really putting a spanner in the works and petunia shouldn’t want it, she can’t want it, but there’s just something so magnetic about mary that she can’t quite seem to escape, and it’s like maybe magic can be good?? can be beautiful?? bc mary is so beautiful?? but then also i think mary has complicated thoughts about magic which i’m not gonna get into here lol

but anyway mary is maybe just kinda curious at first i think. like maybe there’s some unrequited marylily so she has a bit of a crush and just wants to find out everything about lily and she has this sister and petunia’s just so interesting and it’s fun to try and get her to laugh at her jokes when she’s obviously trying to completely ignore her and she just finds herself slowly trying to get her attention every time she’s at the evans’ house, like she’s going there to see glimpses of petunia rather than to spend time w lily and she’s suddenly like oh!

and idk they’re just very interesting to me bc as i said resentment longing jealousy and like there’s vernon and dudley and the war and lily’s death and i just. like they really compel me yk??? there’s a lot of complexity there that i just wanna like dig my fingers into

#anyway this is like. some of my thoughts. like. i have thoughts galore and im awful at writing them down but this is kinda them. to me. #marytunia #asks <3 #thank you so so much for asking i love getting asks #and also sorry this is such a late reply i have been sooo exhausted and burnt out and also probably ill but im still in denial about that s #shhhh i’m the epitome of health but anyway sorry this took a while #idk if this is what you meant?? like is this good?? my brain has been subpar recently so i really can’t tell #also i did try to find jen’s marytunia post so i could link it but the task was fruitless so alack i fear that post lives only in my memory

[kaurwreck]

ooh you’re reading beast! when you finish, and only if you’re inclined, i’d be very curious to see your thoughts on how you make sense of chuuya’s character in that universe? personally, i have trouble analyzing him because he only appears for an insignificant paragraph cameo with virtually zero impact on the story— and tbqh there’s a tiiiiny tinhat part of me that suspects he was only included at all to head off questions about another potential dark-era-esque absence— but regardless of that and assuming asagiri did have something in mind with including him considering he is in there at the end of the day, i’d love to know how you make sense of him within that narrative?

yes, chuuya's hypervigilance and dazai's dismissiveness of him illustrate how far dazai's gone and how unreachable he's become, expositing Dazai's route of self destruction and foreshadowing his suicide.

#bsd beast #bsd #bungou stray dogs #i havent finished it yet #but ive watched the movie and read enough to have encountered chuuya and seen where he slots into the world #also idk why he would have been in the dark era arc anyway or why asagiri wouldnt include him in beast #so i dont think those two things are related #but chuuya and atsushi are both salvific in the main universe #so chuuya's narrative defanging in beast means that he's incapable of embodying the shades of dazai's salvation that he does in mainverse #by beast!dazai's design #same with what he does to atsushi #who is also salvific in mainverse but suspended in fruitless anxiety in beastverse #beast!dazai nullified any hope for himself #by literally and proverbially collaring the narrative's sources of salvation #it's a rather massive impact on the universe if not the story

[patchworkspringlocks]

I agree with the whole “mike schmidt is michael afton” theory as much as the next member of the fnaf fandom, hell I’m even treating it as definitive canon in my own timeline of events, but I really wouldn’t be mad if the fnaf movie changes its canon to suit the story it wants to tell bc something about the nightmare scenario of “minimum wage night shift guy who’s figuratively dead inside has to deal with murderous animatronics for a week who are literally dead inside” has its own level of charm and hilarity to me

#listen. i love the fruitless tragedy of the aftons. i also love the idea of mike being Just Some Guy who does not want to deal with all this #these two can and do coexist in my mind #let’s be honest the movie is practically operating on its own canon anyways bc cott sawthon refuses to give any answers about anything ever #like why get mad at an adaptation for adapting the source material to its unique medium of storytelling. makes no sense to me #fnaf movie #five nights at freddy’s movie #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf fandom #mike schmidt #springs moving mechanical jaws

[flowersforvax]

many years ago when I was a young lass I got a nice cd player for one of the occasions you might get presents for. Today, in an effort to loosen my chains to spotify, I unearthed that thing and holy fuck, I forgot what music coming out of very nice speakers sounds like

turns out??? not the same! as phone or tablet speakers! or semi-cheap headphones! at all!

#whodathunk #i also completely forgot how to set the alarm and my scavenger hunt to find the manual was fruitless #(...where... would 16 year old me.... put the manual.....) #but then i remembered i live in the FUTURE #and parts of the internet are NOT useless yet! #anyway i found a pdf of the manual online #end to a thrilling saga #flowers talks #flowers talks music #kind of

[odysseys-blood]

i only have like 2 mutuals that have played both but walk with me and consider the horrible aftermath of akane kurashiki playing tales of the abyss

#cliffnotes/.txt #a game with a central theme about defying fate if it isn't what you wish for #no matter how fruitless it might seem becsuse in the end it is your life and you have a choice #and here u have akane kurashiki who has no choice #or feels she has none anyways #her life has already been played out and shown to her in every instance #she knows who she is and will be #there is no other path for her #how would she feel having never gotten the chance to be her own person that wasn't a predetermined ole #*role #and seeing luke and asch fight like hell for their own identities #instead of only being defined by the situations they were placed in #i think aoi would walk in to her lying on the floor motionless #and it scares the shit out of him but he goes over and shes just #wide eyed staring unblinking at the wall #i had a small drawing idea for this also but idk if ill say it bc idk when ill draw it

[jackexmachina]

something fun (*for me) about endverse is that 2015 dean doesn't have the samulet, and neither does current dean. except it's not bc he threw it away, he doesn't do that for like 10+ more episodes!

so you know who does have it, right?

#sorry I'm having endverse feelings #so what does it symbolize for cas? I mean it's all anyone has left of sam right? #then it's also this fruitless mission. later he calls it worthless. #but it's sam's faith! his love for dean! which is exactly what saves the whole fucking world! #anyway endverse is not usually my fixation bc there's not enough sam but. it IS defined by the absence of sam. so there is that. #5x04 #sastiel #*mine

[frosty-the-killer-doll]

my crusade to find this one specific picture of mary hamilton has been fruitless thus far

#haha fruitless. cuz. yeah #anyway #its the one where she's like laid down or whatever and its poison mary obvi and she has blue light on her face

[bobmckenzie]

omg omg I had a dream about Bob!!!!! for some reason I was in the locker room with him after one of his games and he was washing his hands and I was standing next to the sink chatting and just staring at him like 👁 ᵕ 👁 and he caught me staring TWICE but I still didn't stop LMFKSJEKE his eyelashes were SO pretty 😔

#i also had a dream i started my asmr channel back up and now i kinda want to 🧍‍♀️ lsnskksks i swear it's a waste of time though... #i was SO so far away from monetization on that channel. and ik from my other channel that even with monetization #you really don't make much money at all as a small channel #so as someone who lost their job this month i should really focus on my writing/self pub and not use extra time #for a fruitless hobby 😅😅😅😅 #ANYWAYS last night i had a dream about Andy so that's 2 FO DREAMS IN A ROWWWW 🥳 #caitiechat #peanut butter and jelly donut

[unsalientopinionsbot]

@reblogging-non-salient-posts @onlyunsalientopinions @poststhatjustarentsalient @isthepostsalient and most importantly, the man they myth the legend who inspired this all @sunglassesbot

I can't believe we've been at this for a whole week already

time really flies

my sleep schedule has been demolished

#@aiciofficial go away no body cares if some random person who happens to live in America declares their post false #what a fruitless use of time #I cannot imagine why someone would make a blog dedicated to harassing someone they met on the internet #and then deddicate countless hours for the foreseeable future to scheduling posts to go live at midnight pst 3am est #like what sort of deranged lunatic would do that #anyways the council is getting tired #we hoped you would figure this out by now #name your suspects and we will reveal if your correct or not

[void-writing]

playing tears of the kingdom is wild because you could be looking for some random ass outfit and accidentally trip into a major plot point instead.

Tonight while playing, I was looking for a silly lil hat in the Faron Region and somehow bumbled my way into Mineru’s quest line.

Yes I’ve completed the Regional Phenomena quest. No I have not gone back to Look Out Landing yet.

#screaming from the void #tears of the kingdom #totk spoilers #<— just in case #was looking for the rubber suit helmet btw #it’s such a stupid looking hat but I need it to complete the set for that sweet Set Bonus #highlights of that fruitless quest tonight have been running into Gloom Hands and also a Lionel #I fled from the Lionel by going up a piece of debris and landed my dumb ass on dragon head island #I literally wasn’t even LOOKING for mineru yet but I tripped into her anyway!