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claudiajcregg · 7 months

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i'd love to hear any behind the scenes you have on 'say it's here where our pieces fall in place' bc i read it and loved it and i want to know about it 💜

Welp, I've been thinking about this since you sent it and I feel I won't do it justice! I feel like I could say a lot if I went chapter by chapter, but many tabs of unread fics stare back at me. I'll skim and try to say something, though.

Some commentary on say it's here where our pieces fall in place under the cut! I am sick and rambly. And lbr I can never shut up anyway, but this might be too incoherent even for me. (Original ask post here)

It was sort of an unofficial NaNoWriMo project, in that I set myself a goal to tackle “longer fics” or ideas I wanted to cover but hadn't. From my notes, I had this idea to write a ficlet per year because I always enjoy this kind of story, and I know I'd tried to approach different ones in the past. I started writing in late October/finished in Nov 2021. (The other fic I started was never finished, even if dammit, it hits.) I posted it in January, so it wasn't that bad, considering I'll often take months.

It's maybe important to note that I had only finished writing “The Monster (affectionate)” (aka the 148k-ish word IM AU) in early September and I felt a bit burned out after spending five months writing that (would’ve been less but the struggle was real for the last third of the story. Oddly reminiscing of you-know-what story these days). This arbitrary deadline helped me get back into writing. Granted, I wrote a couple of fics in those five months, but I wanted to try another multichapter.

Anyway. I picked some random, perhaps not obvious choices for the vignettes. It was partly to avoid writing something I might have potentially covered at one point, and also a challenge. Some are also strange (the dream!), but I kinda loved it? (Fun fact: the fic references the Sherry-Netherland, whose exterior is the establishing shot in Internal Displacement. I swear there is some thought put into my writing.) And as the A/N I wrote to myself, I definitely wrote and rewrote bits and pieces of this on my way to and from therapy, haha.

Let me find a fun fact about each of the chapters, if I can think of any.

1998: actually repurposed some campaign fic idea I distinctly remember writing in spring 2018, while I was still in uni. It also has GLOVES. I live for that.

1999: I like the idea of exploring Danny and Abbey's relationship! They presumably have a good one and yet, I don't think we ever see them interact. (And god. Danny's recent, pre-campaign breakup is a recurring theme in my campaign stories too, loool.)

2000: Danny and Josh are an underrated friendship, and I like the references to Rosslyn. There was so much in those months in Midterms that we didn't see, and I like thinking Danny visited his friend.

We also got two back-to-back chapters focused on Danny - I remember trying to make it even, so that the focus was more or less evenly split.

2001: the Manchester fuckup! And it's one of the dream chapters! There were two of them? (We're 3 out of 4 in which I was surprised by the focus, but now I kinda want to re-read it all properly?) I'll say that I can see some vague, unconscious inspo from Freefall by KadeeFalls in this chapter (esp since I was just talking to you about it)... But I'm mostly obsessed with the magical realism (there's another term that my foggy brain cannot think of rn) of dreams, and how it can help us clear our heads.

2002: I remembered this was set after Simon! I know it's probably an odd, controversial choice but they both tried to move on (at least, we know CJ did), and it felt disingenuous not to include it. There are moments when she almost admits to her previous (?) feelings for Danny, but stops.

As with most thus far, there were fluffier and probably better choices for 2002 (Christmas!!), but... My brain wanted it to appear like CJ couldn't really bring herself to think about Danny.

2003: Aw, the specialty store is inspired by a franchise over here that had Goldfish (not many flavors) and I took a dramatic license and added it over there. I also added a small flashback because I love thinking Danny doesn't think they're all that but likes them. (But will tease CJ about it.) Plus, some more resolution to moving on!

2004: Yeah, the formatting is weird. (This is one I'd have to go back and do a blockquote or something.) Danny winning a Pulitzer for the Shareef stuff is a mostly accepted headcanon. CJ seeing his picture on the paper and having feels is just something I love, especially if he mentions someone else. (Look. I'm all for letting him pine, but he deserves to move on and fail too.) Plus Josh teasing her!

2005: The Sherry-Netherland! fwiw, I'm sure I had finally figured out this was the place and decided it would be so cheeky to add it here. I'm so sMaRt. Flowers when she gets promoted! And my spin (in this story) of CJ vaguely shunning him. This is the angst before the fluff.

2006: I remembered this one was a dream at some restaurant! (Again the formatting is not great, but I didn't want to tip my obvious hand.) The same way I think CJ's dream in 2001 was about her wondering how Danny would have reacted, this is about Danny realizing he needs to reach out to her... But with the added family ~tale~. Def inspired by that lyric in "Sad Beautiful Tragic."

2007: I feel like having it at some random dinner with Josh and Donna was an odd choice, but I loved the idea of a double date! The scarf scene is just so! And the chaos siblings energy is great. It was a reprieve from the angst.

Meeting at LAX was right there! I had written a story or two trying to do it justice, so I'm guessing that's why it's not. And fwiw the airport story I wrote shortly after that is the one being posted ~soon~. (A rewritten, slightly expanded version.)

2008: Pregnancy mood swings! It hurt to make them fight, but it's so fluffy otherwise. From what I remember, it has various references to things that happen in the story (particularly from the first two chapters) but it still manages to close it rather nicely, showing how strong their marriage is. I hope.

Okay. This has gotten way too long and it's probably useless.

I've always said I could have written another 11 chapters using different scenes, because there are just so many, even outside the obvious ones... Though I feel I wouldn't be able to recapture the magic.

I do definitely want to reread this for real. As with many fics, it's one of those I used to reread often before posting it (especially the last quarter/third) and then just ignored after. See some other recent examples, such as memoir fic, Portland fic.

Thank you for asking, Ally! God, I used to be a good writer. What happened?!??!

#fanfic director's cut #ask games #onekisstotakewithme #asks #it's taken me an hour or so to write it alskdjasdasd

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hyuckswoman · 26 days

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hii im just gonna throw my opinion in bcs !! i honestly dont think the way you write it is bad and i like the slowburn and i definitely can see it there. like how theyre getting closer and everything, a lot of things obviously wouldnt happen in the start before they got to know each other and yeah !

so im loving it, its one of my fav works on here as of now and i think youre doing the slowburn just right ! i think the main “problem” here is that the updates ARE a little slow considering most of the fics are one shots you can read in one go so i understand why waiting 2+ days for an update with 8 screenshots might be annoying for some people but i dont really mind ! just maybe could be a little longer so its worth the wait 😅 and its a little annoying sometimes when it FINALLY seems like theyre getting somewhere and then they just act like nothing happened like damn😓 couldve made a move already

ALSO someone mentioned hanbin seeming shady but i think thats because there are a lot of characters and you cant just be so detailed about everyone so it might seemed like it but its not the case. like when he left her at the park (?) i think.

i really hope this doesnt come off as mean, i actually wanted to back YOU up because i think youre doing the slowburn right and i like it like that ! just yeah could be longer updates but its still all good. my roommate knows ab this smau too because i be going around the apartment like “damn i hope theres an update tonight” LMAOO so yeah keep going at your pace, ill eat it up anyway ! :) sorry for rambling too much haha

duuuuuuuuuuuuuude i can't believe some people view down bad so highly?? first of all thank you for taking the time to type such a thorough answer i really really appreciate it and second of all, I swear i'll try to be quicker with the updates but i'll admit it's kinda tough sometimes since exam season is approaching but I'll do my best so you guys can enjoy down bad fully lolllll and i'll also try to make the chapters longer (since i only recently discovered that on pc you can upload more than ten images loll)

I admit at first i was kinda confused on how long this was supposed to take as other smaus on here took like a couple of months to be completed but i ended up taking soooooo much longer and about them not acting on it, don't you worry i kinda rearranged the chapters and we are soon entering their era where they realize they have feelings for one another lolll

about hanbin's character, i basically just needed an excuse to make y/n and jeno have some alone time but i think it's kinda fun how some of you are reading into it and speculating and stuff

also this did not come off as mean AT ALL i literally wanted to sob reading this you're much too nice and i'm glad you enjoy reading down bad and thank you for reading my posts even though they're not story updates lollll

anyway all of that to say thank you soooooo much i really appreciate you and people's feedback like it really doesn't go unnoticed and i really try my best to take everything into consideration!! have a great day/night/morning to you anonnn

#asks #anonymous

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spiriteddreams · 1 year

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hello friends i bear unfortunate news (it's not that unfortunate i'm just tired and dramatic) :(

i wanted to put this out there just bc there's a lot going on and i do have suggestions for writing ideas in my inbox. i know people are waiting for things to be written and i've expressed excitement to write all sorts of things but i've ultimately decided to take one small step back for the sake of my own wellbeing

while i may have time tomorrow on valentine's day to write and maybe finish some fics, i'd much rather spend it celebrating with my friends instead of writing here. so i apologize if anyone was looking forward to something sweet tomorrow.

i will continue to write (albeit slowly) and ramble and reblog and whatnot here, but actual writing will not be like every few days or however often i would post (i don't even think it was that often but whatever lol)

anyways! i hope that everyone has a very lovely valentine's day. whether it's spent with loved ones, friends, or a fictional character, know you are very loved on this day and i'm wishing you all the best!

more under the cut but you don't have to read it lol

i wanted to, and have been trying, to post something for valentine's day but at the rate that i'm going, i don't think it's going to happen. and going forward, writings are likely going to be a lot slower to come out. i've started another job (now my 3rd) on top of an increasing workload and pumping out my kazuha fic for my studio ghibli event just doesn't seem plausible by tomorrow. while i did set a deadline of he 28th, i was hoping to have it done by the 14th. but after spending so long on al-haitham's bday fic and then my own schoolwork, i'm far too exhausted to do so.

should something be posted tomorrow, it'll likely be a very short fluff drabble for whatever character i'm thinking of at the time. i'm still brainrotting so hard like imagine inumaki toge being my valentine's day date like....... so baby <3

but in general, because of how much time i'm dedicating to school and work, i likely won't have as much time to sit down and seriously write.

i hope that come next quarter i'll be able to get a handle on organizing myself better and creating a proper schedule that works for me. maybe then i'll write even more hehe but for now i do think it's crucial that i don't spend so much time writing fanfics

of course, i'm always open to talk and scream and cry about fictional characters so don't hesitate to reach out :D

#this was so long winded so kudos to you if you actually read through it all #but again i'm really sorry if you were disappointed that i might not be posting smth #that's also so self centered of me to think that way so i apologize again if i sound like a pretentious writer #anyways i have more work to do and then i'm knocking out before i get up early for work and classes again #spirit rambles

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toburnup · 2 years

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hi there! i absolutely adore 'is your light on?' and i'm excited to keep reading. something i noticed was how tactile/sensory the writing is, and how that made me feel like the story was really taking its time, letting me hang out with steve and eddie in the quiet moments and bask. if you'd like to share, i'm curious about your writing process when it comes to picking things like location and time of day and specific details to focus on for particular scenes. happy writing!

🥰 !!! i'm so glad you're enjoying it. this one has been in the works for a while so i'm really happy to have finally posted!

a lot of my writing is pulled from my own experiences and that goes double for sensory-heavy scenes. i was briefly in a corn field this summer and i guess it really stuck with me. the vastness of it all, feeling incredibly small but safe. similar to any time i write about swimming (especially in the pulse that i'm pressing), there's something that feels peaceful and intimate about swimming.

in terms of the writing process, i like to limit the number of physical places characters will be within a fic when possible. i also LOVE to write about characters revisiting the same place over and over so you can see how that space changes with them as their relationship changes (such as the picnic table in let it roll, or the couch on eddie's porch in 'is your light on').

when writing, i typically start with the location. i think that sets the tone for an entire interaction. conversations had in a bed have an inherent intimacy. conversations in a car means there's forced closeness and possible confrontation. conversations while walking might feel... avoidant or distracted (which is why i love that moment when people are talking as they walk, and then stop walking and face each other. oooof. loved that moment with steve and eddie in the woods because of that.)

time of day is another layer to that. nighttime can mean so much (danger, safety, quiet). the morning has an element of possibility and hope. in ch1 of 'is your light on' i feel like i picked those early afternoon hours because that's the time of day i feel moves the slowest. and i'm having steve drag his feet a little as he pulls eddie along. the general sluggishness of the summer mirroring steve's own resistance to making changes.

so if you're writing a scene that relies on its environment (which, to a point, all scenes should have) it can be helpful to picture yourself there. and not only think about what you're feeling and noticing, but why you're noticing those things. i know there's the whole 'the curtains are blue' discourse that comes around every once in a while, but it's true. like, now, when i'm feeling kinda down and sitting in my bedroom, all i see are the marks on my walls that i know i'll have to fix before i move out. i see the mess. the blanket on the floor because i didn't sleep well. but if i came into the same exact room but in a more... uplifting mood, maybe i'd focus on the project on my desk that i'm excited to complete. the guitar that i'm going to learn a new song on. the book i can't wait to read. things like that.

anyway. bit of a rambling answer, but i hope it's helpful. thank you for this delightful question, it was fun to think about 💙

#ahh ty for this question! such a fun one #captainsupernoodle #writing #viospeaks #vio answers #vio writes #is your light on

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umhuhwellthen · 5 months

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Hi hello everyone the rabbit brainrot is sinking in but the turtle brainrot is still going strong, so instead of working on my wips an au that keeps haunting the back of mind may soon be coming to light,

It's a miyamoto usagi x rise donnie single dads/sugar daddy au

It's comic usagi with only a few backstory/relationship tweaks to better fit rottmnt world.

Donnie is aged up and Shelldon is aged down to make him around Jotaro's age but a few years older.

Rambles/Ideas about this below:

Donnie(+the rest of the gang) are all grown up adults, Leo and Raph still live in the lair, Mikey has moved out but rooms with April, there's background caseynardo(Cassandra not Junior) and Leo's considering moving out too, or to expanding the lair/taking another part of the sewers as home to live with Casey, Draxum is entertaining the idea of moving in with Splinter, aroace sunset duo because im aroace and say so, and this fic/au is all about self indulgence baybeee

Oh yeah about Shelldon being younger than canon, so Jotaro is also younger than canon, daycare-1st/2nd grade age range, ill have to review child development stages for specific age but its a toddler/kid era Jotaro and kid Shelldon. Basically Shelldon started out the same as canon except his first form was a lot more robotic with less personality and when the guys reprogrammed him he gained sentience like how 2k3 Nano did, starting out with having the mind like that of a young human child before maturing, because tech gaining sentience is like being born. So Shelldon isn't teen son to another teen but actual toddler son to teen, and yes he goes haywire but its more he's programmed to no longer favor Donnie and Donnie ruins his fun playtime and doesn't realize what he's doing is wrong or too far cuz he's a toddler he doesn't know what morals are or what's socially acceptable and the only reason he gets what object permanence is is because he's advanced ai.

Anyway by the time of meeting Jotaro Shelldon is now a kid instead of toddler(3rd/4th grade I'm thinking), and Donnie is in his mid-late 20s. Usagi is older but idk by how much, not like creepy agegap, but enough between them that Usagi feels like as the elder he should be taking charge instead of relying on the younger man. And Donnie is just like, we are two parent-aged adults of sound mind and body able to make our own decisions, I have free time/money, you don't, let me take care of you.

This is what happens when you binge read leo#sagi/leoi#chi/usatello/doni#chi fics and they don't scratch that specific itch and then you remember that one post going; Cant find that fic/fanart you want? Make it yourself.

Also in my mind its

Donsagi-for both yui#chi usagi x donnie(any) and miyamoto usagi x donnie(any)

Usatello- specifically for miyamoto usagi x donnie(any)

Don#ichi- specifically for yui+#chi x donnie(I've only seen this with rise donnie but ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ any )

Censoring so it doesn't show up in tag , my own personal preference, everyone has their own

To explain why I'll be tagging posts of this with specifically usatello only

Also what brought on this au was Usagi and Jotaro feels and seeing cute fankids of Donnie(and other turts but mostly Donnie's) and remembering buddy daddies anime and reading kakairu with accidental/purposeful baby acquisition and then the realization of fanon!yui&$chi usagi being discount Miya and remembering my yearning for donsagi fics that had storybeats usually found in leo#+_sagi fics

And then that one post about "yeahyeah world weary battle harden warrior taking the never worked a day or suffered in his life prince, but what about the role reversal? With the one never knowing a gentle touch and only with a purpose to serve being served instead, loved and cradled and treated gently instead of roughly? By one with maybe not physically power, or they do but it's hidden behind pretty smiles and soft skin, but power nonetheless, to take care of them to lavish them with gifts and the like? Instead of only caring for others and never themself"

Wow I wrote a lot more than I was meaning too

But yeah this au is mostly about giving Miya nice things(except the devil on my shoulder that I will be calling Stan said I needed to put some bitter into the sweet but it's mostly backstory so I let it slide)

I've heard of being productive when you're sick but this menstrual hormones work ethic is kinda off the shits

Anyway this started as purely a Single Dads AU, with a meet-cute(or meet-ugly, depending on your perspective) where Usagi kinda, accidentally, sorta, kidnaps Shelldon while picking up Jotaro from school/daycare

But then the joke of successful businessman/genius inventor Donnie being mistaken as Usagi's sugar daddy wouldn't leave my head, and I was reading Usagi comics and he had some sad boi hours and I was like Nooo and then I was rereading the issues I had read with Mariko, Kenichi and Jotaro to get references for wips, and remembered the tragedy of Usagi's and Jotaro's relationship and went NOOOOOOO.

And decided that Usagi deserves nice things, I need to wrap him in bubble wrap and give him his son or let him HAVE A FUCKIN FAMILY STAN YOU FUCK FIRST YOU TAKE HIS KID AND THEN KEEP HAVING HIM INTERACT WITH KIDS AND HIS SON AND BE GOOD AND HAPPY BUT YEARNING AND FLEETING AND THEN YOU GAVE HIM MOMMY ISSUES ONTOP????? HEY WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH ANYTIME AN OLDER WOMAN IS KIND AND MOTHERLY TO HIM OR THEY BOND OR SOMETHING SHE HAS TO DIE AND BY HIS HAND NO LESS??? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN! DID USAGI'S MOM DIE IN CHILDBIRTH??? IS THAT WHY THERE'S NOTHING ABOUT HER AND WE ONLY SEE HIS DAD? A NEVER ENDING CYCLE OF KILLING HIS MOTHER? AND WE'RE NOT EVEN FUCKIN GOING INTO HIS LOVELIFE. STAN EXPLAIN YOURSELF

Huh.

Anyway, "You're stupid, I like that in a man." Etc etc Jotaro wants a younger sibling new Donnie clone baby(because Donnie and Usagi are definitely the type for wanting/having a large family)

This was supposed to be a silly self-indulgent au id draw sometimes and now I'm drafting a fucking fic

#rottmnt #usatello #single dads au #donsagi #miyamoto usagi x hamato donatello #miyamoto usagi x donatello #miyamoto usagi x rise donnie #usatello single dad au #is it along post if its under readmore?#rise donnie #rise shelldon #miyamoto usagi #jotaro #usagi yojimbo jotaro #UY jotaro #usagi yojimbo #i am SO normal about these rabbits :)#*im clutching Yuichi and Miyamoto in my fists so hard my whole body is trembling and theyre making noises like a squeaky toy held too long*#pspspsps donsagi shippers hiiiiiiii

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tiredassmage · 1 year

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can we hear more about in dreams, hopes to die... 👉👈 those lines are so tasty..

CHOMPING AT THE BIT, AYE AYE CAPTAIN!!!!

Would you believe me if I reveal that this snippet is from the same piece? It's obviously an overall not very good time kind of piece, so I felt a tiny bit bad about it for once and decided to throw Tyr a bone. Valkorian and Tyr's own conga line of bad times couldn't be the only thing in five years worth of dreams, I figured, lol.

Also, that very scene is where the banger In the dark, it’s easier to hide and easier to tell the truth came from, lol.

Don't get too excited though because that's... very short. And also it's mentally set to Eyelids by PVRIS, so uh. It still punches me in the face.

Eventually I'll hopefully throw him another bone and give him and Theron's time on Rishi or Yavin IV a little pass because I'd like to think Theron's at least a little right and something came up. And stars know Tyr needs a fuckin' break, good gods almighty anlkfdnafldsf. Says she who continues to put that man in Situation after Situation after Situa-

And it was very hard to stop at just the first line for that initial post because the three lines that follow it are the meat and potatoes of what is currently the opening sequence of what I hope will eventually be a coherent fic. Or at least kinda coherent. It's still a very nebulous piece and I kinda like that, so I might not really do much more setup because it seems fitting that there wouldn't be a lot of setup and transition in something like the carbonite dreams era.

And, perhaps unsurprisingly given the nature of the setup of that chapter, but a lot of these scenes flirt with the concept of death. Tyr's dangerous dedication to "finishing the job" isn't anything new to those of us who have been here a while, lol, but this is a good character study piece if you're newer to my favorite blorbo, though it's an undeniably heavy one and obviously a bit fucky and nebulous by nature.

Also, fair warning, yes I'm giving you lines, but also I am going to give you a ramble and a half about Tyr lore because this is the piece I'm stuffing some juicy tick-tock workings into because I realized it was good for that and I love my boy so much, he's so fucked up. I love him though.

Anyway, I teased, so the next three lines of that scene, as foretold beneath the cut:

At first, it’s a firing squad. Mud cakes their boots and the rain pelts heavy on worn, drawn faces.

Tyr pushes to his feet unsteadily. A flash of lighting breaks overhead, glancing off of leveled blasters and hollowed eyes.

It will end as it should: without a soul remembering his name. He’d prefer it that way.

Okay, so... this is also not necessarily a piece I intended to write, but I realized there is... almost no better place to do a deep dive into some of the things that tick inside of Tyr that maybe aren't best portrayed in dialogue alone. This also wasn't meant to be in present tense, but it didn't feel right in past, so I ended up caving and that's... been a theme of the week, I guess, lol.

This is also like. I always chuckle a bit in that scene from Visions in the Dark later where Valkorian threatens you to meet his challenge and grow stronger or die alone and unremembered because wouldn't that just be ideal for a former Cipher. Wasn't that how the story was supposed to end? He didn't ask for your bullshit, grandpa.

There's currently two other scenes I have - they're all relatively short as I try to keep with that sort of drifting feeling. But the other one that might [Large Eyes Emoji] be of... relevant interest...

What’s been done has already been done. It doesn’t matter what it was. Maybe it won’t matter to anyone else.

Because it’s going to end here and now. Such were the decrees of the Sith - of the Empire.

Absolutes.

It matters to him that he tried. This is one of the kinder ways this could go - quietly, without the fanfare of blood on his teeth and a fire in his eyes.

“For what it’s worth, sir?” Nine exhales long and slow as he closes his eyes. “I’ve always admired you… You did your best.”

Finally.

No.

More.

Running.

“But I’m not going back.” The old man’s one of the few he could ever hope to ask this final favor. “Finish this - what we started.”

The Minister of Intelligence pulls the trigger.

It’s over before Tyr feels the ground beneath him.

Also topical given the "are others concerned about their sleep schedule" tag post reblogged earlier today, lol, and the idea of chronic nightmares. That Tyr and I haven't talked about. To each other. Or the world. Possibly not with the people he cares about, either. I'm sure Theron knows nebulously that he can have some troubled sleep - you don't share a bed with someone and not notice how consistently they have trouble falling or staying asleep.

But I think the fuckiest part of the whole Castellan Restraints period for Tyr is how he doesn't want to let the old man down. The Minister is more a father figure in Tyr's eyes than his own father, quite honestly [Tyr has a... kind of non-existant relationship with his entire family, unfortunately - and it's not because he went into Intelligence], and there's absolutely a part of that dynamic that is mentor and protégé.

And it's important to me that he sees this scenario with the Minister and not Shara - at least in Chapter Two, where it first haunts his nightmares with some consistency. Because I made a conscious choice in Shara knowing as Keeper about his Restraints - not because that ever comes up in-game, but because it adds something very crunchy to their already doomed narrative. And the background to that decision is that I decided it's... the kind of silent acknowledgement that the Minister can afford to give of their more intimate relationship. It's damage control, mitigation. With a heavy heart I imagine he tells her this in private, off the record, because Nine was her Cipher. And both of them still hold him in high regard.

Nine's given a possibly unusually loose leash to pursue the SIS investigation because of the Minister and Keeper's word; Watcher Three mentions this in broad strokes when he questions you about the blackout in records.

Anyway, the point to me mentioning this is actually that Tyr makes a very conscious effort to not think about this in the midst of the Restraints causing problems. He's reluctant enough to cede that he should hold the Minister responsible for this gross violation of his privacy and trust, but he's even more reluctant to give that the woman he loves has any knowledge or hand in the process - unwittingly or, especially, wittingly. Ultimately, he stubbornly doesn't hold them responsible. It hurts less to place the blame elsewhere. And he never loses the inescapable nostalgic kick to go home in the sense of the old paradigm - him and Keeper and the Minister.

He gave them everything.

And there's something in here about his regret at not being able to say all of this respect in better words or more directly. There's that acknowledgement that there's one person he trusts to understand why this was his breaking point. And, ultimately, there's the acceptance of the likelihood that none of this is going to end well, that he's living on borrowed time stolen from fate or destiny, or hell, maybe the Force. Tyr doesn't give a whole lot to whatever higher powers might be out there - relying on them hasn't ever saved him and he doesn't expect it to.

It makes it very interesting to watch him knowingly and willingly lie about the Black Codex after he lets Ardun walk with it and promises to double for the SIS. In a way, he's committing the greatest failure and throwing away everything the Minister has fought so hard with him to maintain and keep, especially when both of them have spoken of ideals instead of goals, etc. But it's necessary. It's what's best for Tyr, mentally, at that point. And even one of the figures he loves and respects the most can't override that desperate intrinsic need to fight for himself. The old man is, after all, one of the largest advocates of it throughout his career as Nine.

And, I suppose speaking of the nostalgia for Intelligence, my favorite set of lines from the final scene so far:

She’s sobbing against his shoulder. Dust and blood stain an almost unfamiliar uniform - he hasn’t worn uniform on Dromund Kaas in months, maybe years…

Everything’s been such a blur since Intelligence was disbanded…

so YEAH. I uh. I have a lot of feelings and this is where I'm sniffling and sobbing and word vomiting them into one doc but in story format, I suppose, lol.

Also completely unrelated to this particular fic but I am. Still thinking so intently about Eight x Tyr thoughts. They're now living rent free in my head and all of this.... absolute devotion stuff... hrhrhghghghghghghghrhhg. Brain vibrates because this is obviously all related to it because of the few people who could ever possibly understand any part of this series of events and feelings, it'd be another Cipher.

Tyr really does mourn Intelligence like... ghhghg. I'm unwell about it. He gave everything to it and its success. He doesn't regret it. The SIS investigation and the following fall of Imperial Intelligence were some of the worst fucking years of his life and it's destroyed him, really. He's living in and with the ruins like a bombed out city. It destroyed his everything and he'd almost gladly let it finish the job and destroy him to finally get his retribution. And he'd just as gladly let love destroy it all and rebuild it from the rubble when he has the right person beside him. Something something doesn't realize that he doesn't want or need to continue that destruction, he just needs fucking... idk validation or something. Acceptance. Acknowledgement. And then they can work on what "okay" looks like in the aftermath. He needs to be just as responsible for someone else's "okay" to even begin figuring out what the hell it looks like for him. hOUgh anyway.

I'm fucking normal about Cipher Nine, obviously. Thanks for comin' to my TED Talk.

#answered #ch: tyr #wip ask meme #in a way lel #my poor fucking BELOVED glowstick man...#also: just. when he HAS the right people with him how fucking. like yea yea devotion that corrupts #he'd still go to the ends of the fuckin GALAXY bro but also #it's so much easier to realize. oh. maybe we'd like to live. maybe we'd like to do that together. what's that look like #happy half a month early fool's i'm never normal about tyr #crunchy cat scream react jpeg y'know #tyr needs to be told to stop. to gently but forcibly be stopped. then he might be okay.#it might start there #i'm gonna fuckin write about that too just you wait until i have free time and a solid concept that consumes my entire soul again #gripping the edge of the sink #agent on agent romance call that a healing cycle #i'm.. s- no no i was gonna say i'm sorry i'm like this but no #i love him so much ur honor this is the love ur blorbo website #oh and obligatory bitching about ask editor style yada yada stop throwing the indent weird how do i style fic readibly in ask replies hghgh

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darkkitty1208 · 1 year

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Hullo. Welcome.

I've been thinking of doing a pinned post for a while now but never got the chance to (read: I thought about it, procrastinated, and then forgot), so... yeah. It must be weird for my long-time followers to suddenly see a "Hey there! Welcome to my little corner of the internet!" post but, here we are. A couple years late, too. Anyway.

I'm Kitty. I go by she/they. I'm a fanfiction author. All my works are posted on my ao3.

This blog is for me to share my writing, interests, and/or other hobbies. Feel free to drop an ask or slide in my messages if you fancy a little chat -- I don't bite. :)

My current fandom focus is the MCU, mainly anything about Stephen Strange, but I tend to shift through different fandoms like BBC Sherlock and the lot. I'll do you a favour and not list them all here because, well, in that case, it'll be practically endless.

I used to post incorrect quotes, but not so much nowadays. If at all. Ah, also, fair warning: I generally do not tag any of my reblogs and could go on reblog sprees from time to time, or be inactive for days on end. There is no in-between.

This is my own space and I have the right to express myself and my opinions freely here, although I will rarely engage in anything with heavy discourse/debate and the sort. But I am always open to them if anyone's interested. Just don't ask for trouble.

More details regarding my blog under the cut.

Tags

Despite the messiness of my blog, I do, in fact, use some tags for my own posts. Surprise, surprise.

I use #my writing for all fics I've written,

#incorrect quotes for, well, my incorrect quotes,

#ask for basically all the asks I've answered,

#personal when I'm sharing something about myself or how I'm doing,

#ramblings for random thoughts or things in my head I decided are worth writing in my blog,

Occasionally #writing when I share (hopefully) relatable stuff about writing or when I'm sharing my experience in writing, and

#kitty makes up scenarios for when I share thoughts and scenarios about fictional characters and will likely not write about them.

Prompts

If you're wondering whether I'm open to prompts or not, currently I am back to receiving prompts. This will update from time to time.

You can send them in my ask box. :)

Here are a couple of things I'd like to emphasise for those interested:

I am not a fast writer. I will not respond to your prompt immediately. It could take me weeks, months, and maybe even longer to get to you.

I would prefer if you'd leave some space in the prompt for creative liberties and not put in too much detail. (You might as well write it your own if you want it in a very specific way.)

Don't pressure me into doing your prompt. Please keep in mind that I can and will send it back/refuse to write it if the prompt you send isn't doable to me for one reason or another.

I can be sensitive to some topics like alcoholism, physical/domestic abuse, etc. but it is negotiable so long as it isn't heavy on the topic. Just send me a DM to discuss.

It comes without saying, but underage and sexual abuse is a definite no.

Physical de-aging is OK, but I won't do ageplay or age regression -- whether it's sexual or not.

Yes, I am open to writing NSFW but please, for the love of god and all that is holy, do not send me anything about mpreg or genderbending. Or anything too... weird, for that matter.

In case a clarification is needed: yes, hurt/no comfort or even MCD fics are definitely OK. Yes, yes, yes, 100%.

Yes, I ship. My ships include IronStrange, Frostrange, Wongrange, Strordo, Johnlock, and am open to other ships if you wish so. Again it is negotiable and I am flexible regarding this.

Genfics are 100% OK, too.

If I happen to reblog/participate in an event with a prompt set, I am usually alright with receiving requests about them.

Unquestionable, but, prompts from other posts/not an original prompt you made is, of course, welcome.

I don't write/read x reader or reader insert. I don't read/write x OC, either. Sorry.

I do not write "Not [X] Friendly" fics. I do not like character bashing.

The rules may update from time to time. Please check them before sending requests.

Last updated 12/10/23

My preferences

I'm not exactly that picky of a person, but I do have preferences when it comes to reading and/or writing. And I would greatly appreciate if you'd take them into consideration, as I want to enjoy doing requests as much as you do when reading it.

I tend to prefer Hurt!Stephen or Whumpee!Stephen in h/c or whump scenarios, but I am not opposed to writing him being a caretaker. In the Sherlock fandom I prefer Hurt!Sherlock but, again, totally open to otherwise.

I love a lot of various tropes and things but am practically obsessed with whump and hurt/comfort. Angst is another one I absolutely love. I write fluff as well, but it usually requires a certain mood, so fluffy prompts might be replied to later than whumpy/angsty ones.

Most of my works are IronStrange but I love Wongrange just as much, if not more. Other ships are, again, totally alright. Although I am not very fond of these ships in particular: SpideyStrange, ScarletStrange, and x reader.

Other things

Be reminded that I am an amateur author and a human, so, despite me not being averse to 'constructive criticism', it'd be appreciated if you would kindly hold your opinions to yourself instead of sending hate asks/comments -- unless you can say them without being rude. Both explicitly and non-explicitly. I am not confident with my writing (as I should be, haha), and doing so will just discourage me further.

I post from a lot of fandoms. This is not an IronStrange-exclusive blog. Filter tags if and when necessary.

Minors are allowed to follow as I do not post anything too explicit; at least without tagging them. They would be tagged #tw suggestive or #tw explicit. I do however advise you to beware as I can be... a little bit... unhinged, sometimes.

Ask me if you want to translate/post my works to other platforms. You must have my written permission.

If you disagree with me (e.g. you characterise/see/view [Character A] as ... but I write them as ...), please keep in mind that all of this is fiction and everyone is allowed to have their own opinions. But well, feel free to discuss with me if you'd like.

Please don't hesitate if you have any questions! ^-^

I thiiiiink that sums up pretty much everything. If you've read this far, thanks for letting me waste your time!

Much love! Cheers! xoxo

- Kitty

#pinned post #intro post #been thinking of doing this for a loooong time

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sabo-has-my-heart · 9 months

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Hi, it's two part anon. How have you been?

It's been a while since I last invaded your inbox cause erm... Last time I got discharged, I managed to hit my head quite hard and had to stay in the hospital again. (Even I find it very funny, lol) Don't worry, I'm okay now. I got discharged, again.

Anyway, I read your update post. I'm quite sad because before the hospital incident, I checked your tumblr everyday in the morning like an old lady checking for daily newspaper. I'm not sure why you have to close your request, but I hope you are okay. I hope the best to you. Also, I want to add that you can pause my request fics to give yourself more time, if you are too busy ^^ it's cul, I can wait for an eternity.

Another note, if you'd like it, I can continue sharing my ideas. I mean, you don't have to write it. I'm already happy that you listen and like my ideas so much. (maybe I'll even start to write myself, idk, you really inspire me) Or if you want to share about your day, I'm all ears (and I think your 999 other followers are, too)

Aight, I think I've rambled enough. I hope you are doing okay. Take some time for yourself, drink water, and... Idk watch One Piece? Anyways, have a great day!

Hopefully, I'm not gonna get a third trip to the hospital.

Two part anon! I'm so sorry you've been in the hospital! I hope you'll be okay!

As far as my inbox, I'm okay. 100% honest? I feel like very few people care about me, only that I keep putting out fics so after I finish up my inbox, I'm going to work on some personal projects, post a couple of things, but not as often. I mean, I have people who care! I know this, but the majority only seem to care if I put stuff out so 🤷🏻‍♀️. You're always, always, always free to spam my inbox, I love your ideas! and they're always so well written out. not too much, not too little, perfect to inspire me!

I absolutely love writing your ideas and hearing them! but if you want to write them yourself, let me know who you are, I absolutely want to support you! you're so amazing!

Don't worry, I'll take care of myself. you do the same, I worry about you!

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reachexceedinggrasp · 1 year

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I go back and reread your posts occasionally because I really resonate with your posts about Epic Romance that I think transcends some of the tropes fandoms evolve around (e.g. enemies to lovers) which I don't always find myself connnecting with. I am just a bit curious about something:

What do you think of the pairing Solas/Lavellan from Dragon Age? (I searched your blog for it just in case you already spoke on the subject but sorry if I missed it).

I don't know if video games are your thing, or if a Player Character changes the dynamic you're into, but I was curious because it's a mythic romance of quite epic proportions. I know you've mentioned you sort of don't like a blog that is into adjacent ships to it (I think when you discussed Raistlin/Crysania) or maybe I'm just reading into that hahahah, so I understand if that influences if you do/don't. What I like about it beyond the character of Solas is that it's a tragedy with potential for hope ('Our love will endure'), and I think that's something your speed?

If you are not interested in the pairing (though I'd be interested to hear why, especially because Solas hits a few similar archetypal boxes and the reason why you don't like the pairing is as interesting to me as why you would!) and want another question to respond to instead:

2. Are there any new ships you've got into recently, or old you've revisited?

Hope you are doing well and doing the things you love!

Thank you for the ask! Yeah, same. EtL is only rarely written with the dynamic that I like, so most of the popular ships are not for me. I think I've disappointed a lot of fellow travellers by having zero interest in rivalry or frenemies style EtL ships.

I do play games, but I've only played like five minutes of one of the Dragon Age games. I've seen a lot of people talking about Solas and know he's the wank magnet tragic murder boy fav of the franchise, but I haven't gathered much of anything about the ship dynamic. I don't know enough about his arc/characterisation to say whether I'd be interested. But for sure, if there's an element of enduring hope, tragic romance can be my thing (so I read 5437540 fix-it fics).

I'm sorry I really don't have any thoughts to offer either way! :( If I get around to playing the game, I will post any ramblings I have about it!

I'm developing a fic for my long latent and repressed Cosmo/Kathy shipping urges, but that's like a radical departure for me on several levels lmao. Yes, I confess, sometimes I'll ship a couple of wholesome cinnamon rolls who have zero conflict because the banter is spicy and the vibes are adorable.

It's so funny how people are always trying to compare B&tB ships (like Reylo, E/C, etc. with grotesques or tragic heroes) to the Bad Boy/Ingenue/Nice Guy triangle and dismiss redemption romance fans as silly girls who haven't learned their lesson about being attracted to Bad Boys, because any example you can name of a triangle where the love interest is actually a Bad Boy, I ship her with the faithful friend (not a Nice Guy, but a legitimately nice guy). Like, I watched Pretty In Pink a couple years ago and man it was obvious she was not supposed to end up with Blane. I felt so vindicated when I read about the intended ending lol.

But anyway, I've been crying about whouffaldi again lately, re-reading some E/C fics, thinking of fleshing out/finishing some very self-indulgent E/C one-shots I made notes for, still wanting to write that Oh Hyun Jae/Soo Young fic that I accidentally wrote a kind of weird 'humour' prequel too D:, and as always trying to finish my Lokane fic finally. It has 2-3 more chapters, tops, and it's killing me I can't just get it done. It already has its main emotional climax, so I'm not leaving people hanging too bad, but maaaaannn!!! I swore a blood oath with myself I wouldn't start another novel-length fic until it is finished and this has lead to cascade of procrastination where I use it as an excuse not to do other things while also making zero progress with it. Agjkdfhdfd.

Also, I kinda want to add that extra chapter to my Bang-won/Hui Jae fic because I looooooove him and it's such a great pairing and I was pleasantly surprised how well that fic turned out, but it would be hard to justify and thus hard to find an 'ending' for it. It'd just be some 'stuff' pasted on lol.

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mahalshairyballs · 2 years

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Hello 🤗yes I'm the same person who asked about Jake , I really love your essays and can't wait for you to drop the fanfic 🔥🔥

I was wondering though about jealousy with the system would they feel jealous for there SO? Or jealous about each other? Like perhaps Steven feels kinda jealous of Marc's and Layla relationship? Bc Marc would feel more comfortable telling her he loves her? Or how Layla is treating Marc with more attention because of therapy and trying to work things out after the adventure in Cairo?

Would Jake feel jealous of the other two alters bc they can feel loved???

Would Marc feel possisive and jealous over Layla when other alters spend more time with her or even another stranger flirting with her and he's terrified she's gonna prefer a more "stable'' life???

Hey hi ! 👋

Thank you so much for the kind words and reading my writing 😊 🤍🖤. I'll really try to write a fic with these!

Oof that's a big question you're asking here!

I'll try to not ramble too much when I'll answer. Fortunately I think there's a few things here I've already mentioned in my other metas so I'll just reference them.

You're reminding me of that spectrum post I want to make with that question! Since I think they'd fall under one with jealousy.

First, what is jealousy ? To me jealousy and insecurity comes from the same place, jealousy is just the more active version while insecurity is more passive. And then it can escalate to being possessive. Jealousy isn't necessarily toxic or unhealthy , most people will feel jealousy at some point in some form, it's when it becomes possessive that it becomes toxic.

So, starting with Steven

I do think Steven could feel envious of Marc & Layla's relationship and their history together that he didn't get to be a part of. They have a certain understanding, a certain chemistry that comes from their history together. Steven has to build his own with Layla which can be fun, but, even though Layla and Marc's relationship is still bumpy because of the recent events, there's still this something that Layla and Marc have that is missing with Steven's relationship with her.

So Steven could be envious of that, but not really 'jealous'. He's more insecure than actively jealous. And Marc doesn't actually feel more comfortable telling Layla he loves her, not to me anyway.

That's one thing on which Marc would be envious of Steven's relationship. Marc isn't usually distant like he was for most of the show with Layla. We know it was because he wanted to keep her at arms length that he acted that way. I think he's able to be sweet and show affection and be seductive and playful with her. But there's still a few things that are harder for him to do. Like saying how much he loves her. He would love to say it more but it's hard for him. I think he's also envious of Steven's openness and honesty.

Ep. 4

Marc : You also told her the truth, about why I've been pushing her away. That was...unexpected.

I think they'll be able to talk about those things between themselves though. That's why Marc ends up letting Steven get in a relationship with Layla.

They all need to get their ass to - good - therapy though. Including Steven. So yeah Layla will learn more about their system, and maybe understand Marc a bit better, but she'll pay attention to all of them.

Although you do have a point there. Layla - doesn't necessarily prefers - but would focus little bit more on Marc ? Because as much as she loves Steven too, and really likes Jake, Marc is the one she married. And that's for a reason (besides the fact that she didn't know the others existed of course lol). She really does love him. And that's why she was a bit bitter with him in the show. She was heartbroken.

Which brings me to

Marc

I think Marc is more jealous of his alters than he is of other people.

When others show interest for Layla, he gets a little jealous but not that much (what he'd feel internally is another story, but he doesn't show outward jealousy all that much. Just enough so that people know that he is, indeed, jealous. He might even sometimes get into involuntary dick measuring contests. )

With Steven he got a lot jealous. This jealousy is a bit hard to put in words for me. There's part of it that's very 'basal', but there's also the part of it that comes from Marc's view that Steven is 'the better of them'.

We know Marc has an abyssimal view of himself, and you're right when you said he'd be scared Layla would prefer someone more 'stable'. He wouldn't be so much scared as he'd be thinking that she deserves better than him (which, add that to the long list of reasons why he left).

This would also apply to their system. Especially during season 1. Marc left, but that didn't mean he stopped loving her, that he didn't still wish he could still be with her. And then Steven shows up, and she is introduced to him, and she's getting along great with him? While she's mad, for good reasons, at Marc? Marc can see how easily Steven could 'steal' her from him, and how she'd actually be better with Steven than with himself. So that's why he got so jealous of Steven in the show.

The fact that they didn't know each other all that well, even if Marc tried to look after Steven all their lives (he wasn't always watching him), played a big role in that too.

Now that they got each other's back and can better talk to each other, Marc does see how Steven likes her and sees that he's not necessarily a threat to his relationship with her. And Layla wants to date both and will say so.

So he'll agree they can date, but that doesn't mean he's not reluctant about it, and that his jealousy is completely gone - it's not.

Another example is with Jean-Paul. When Marc learns that Jake has started dating Jean-Paul, without telling them, Marc gets *pissed*.

And even though Marc only feels platonic feelings for Jean-Paul, he still sees it as Jake 'stealing' Jean-Paul from him. Jake is also changing their whole relationship, and it wouldn't be the same between Marc & Jean-Paul anymore (without talking about how it'll force them to come out to Jean-Paul about their disorder). So he'll react pretty similarly to how he initially reacted to Steven getting close to Layla. Maybe even worse. Because Marc's gut feeling is just to hate Jake, and not take anything he does charitably.

While Jake's dislike of Marc is part misplaced resentment that's been brewing for years, part reaction to how Marc is treating him once they finally get to talk (Jake is a lot about the 'I'll treat you how you treat me').

And now Jake

Jake's the trickiest when it comes to jealousy? At least he's the one I'm less sure about right now.

What I know is that he has the potential to become possessive of his SOs, will he though? Idk

Maybe he will initially, but he'll be able to control it better with time and therapy.

And yeah Jake would definitely be envious of Steven and Marc on some things. And he definitely would feel that need to be loved. Contrary to physical affection, which he doesn't really feel its lack in his life since it's one of many possible love languages and he just never knew it to miss it, feeling loved- in any form - is an human instinctual need. So even if he never knew it, he'd miss it. The thing is he doesn't know that's what he's feeling. Until he gets it. Then, well, my analogy for an addictive drug works here. And that's why I say he could become possessive of his SOs - whether it's from strangers or his alters it doesn't matter he would react the same.

Problem is, he's supposed to be the one in an open-relationship.

Steven x Marc x Layla are kind of in a poly relationship but it's a triad. Their relationship is closed (...until they meet Matt, but that's way in their future).

While for Jake, he's used to sleep with whoever he wants whenever he wants (because he has to take the opportunity when it presents itself since he knows he wouldn't be fronting for long). And to him sex doesn't necessarily mean anything. And I'd see Jean-Paul being fine with open-relationships, maybe having some experience in that area too.

So I think Jake would get into an open relationship with Jean-Paul (which is also easier to explain as to why they're still with Layla without outing themselves).

Jake does casually date other people (still don't know if I'll include the 'Jake gets someone pregnant' storyline from the comics...Marc would be *furious*), but the relationship that's most important to Jake, and the one he'll fall in love with, is Jean-Paul.

Being possessive and being in an open relationship doesn't work together at all though...

Some talks and changes in their relationship will be needed if it gets there.

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33max · 1 year

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Ok, I'm writing this in my notes so I can go to your Tumblr later to ramble.

First of all LUCY THE CHAPTER COUNT MADE ME HAPPY. I want aaaaaall the Turkey Dino I can have.

I love how Daniel referred to this Max thing as delicate. It makes me all fluffy because YES, it's exactly how I feel when I'm reading: delicate.

“He puts his toys away,” Daniel says, like that just reinforces his point. “If he’s playing with his dinosaurs and he wants to play with his cars, he puts the dinosaurs away before he gets the cars out. He doesn’t make a mess.” This part broke my heart a little because it makes me think in real Max. I know he's the only one who can talk about his trauma, but it feels inevitable.. With all the things I read about his childhood, how he expresses himself about certain things. Of course I feel for him. Maybe it's just because actually I'm thinking in my childhood. ANYWAY LOL didn't meant to be annoying. Let's move on.

"From Michael Italiano Staliano

He looks so happy

A couple of minutes later another text comes through.

From Michael Italiano Staliano

I just want you to know that you both have my support with this and you don’t have to hide it from me when I come over to train or cook, he doesn’t have to fight it around me" Michael is everything good in the world sprinkled with rainbows and marshmallows. I want a friend like him.

“Mate,” Daniel starts, he’s going to be honest, he has to tell Michael this isn’t just hard for Max. It’s hard for him. “You don’t get it. I can’t stand the thought of not being there for him like this. I’m coming home, but I need you at my place until I get there.” THIS PART. I always struggle a little with the lack of communication between characters, and you just did Dan COMMUNICATE. And I love you for that! This fic is constantly outdoing itself. (I hope I used the right word, I used google translate for this one)

"Max is running around the apartment, screeching, and throwing what looks like yoghurt at Michael." MY HEART, LUCY. This was so wholesome.

I'm so mad that I can’t give you more kudos. I want to kudo your entire life for writing this thing that makes me feel so so so happy, Lu. I hope writing it gives you the same amount of happiness that reading you gives me. Of course I'll be impatiently waiting for another chapter (and maybe for another chapter count going up lol).

Sending, as always, all my love and good vibes. Bye Lu!

Oh my goodness I am so glad that the chapter count going up has been well received! I was really nervous everyone was waiting for the last chapter and I just had to split it because I didn’t want to post a 12k chapter when the others were around 5 or 6k!

I love that you’ve mentioned the “he puts his toys away” part because I would say that conversation between Daniel and Michael was the part of this chapter I struggled with most. It didn’t come as naturally to me as the rest, and actually I second guessed it a lot!

Michael is a good friend! A really good friend! He pulled through when Daniel needed him! I do think that Daniel struggled a lot with asking him, firstly because it’s this new thing, secondly because he doesn’t want Max to be uncomfortable, and lastly because he’s jealous. That’s his job. I guess the need for making sure Max was safe came above all his feelings about it!

Writing this series brings me a lot of comfort and I’m so glad you’re enjoying reading it! It means so much to me! I don’t think the chapter count will go up… but that’s okay… because I have like 4 one shots planned 😅

Thank you so much for your lovely message ♥️

#answered #atomicmonster33 #turkey dinosaurs au

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vinmauro · 2 years

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☕️ + edancy (because i love hearing ur thoughts and opinions about them <3)

oh man oh bestie you better buckle up bc i am going to ramble.

so i think what really kind of draws me in, initially, is that i think, aesthetically speaking, they're attractive people. i like to put attractive people together. I'm a shallow bisexual, what can i say? but i also believe that there was a bit of chemistry there because i think joe quinn had pretty much chemistry with everyone. there was a moment, very briefly and i did yell at myself for it, with robin but i think it was less robin and more maya for me. the problem i have is that i roleplayed online for fucking ten years so i think in terms of face claims, yk? i like to put pretty people together. so it wasn't really eddie x robin bc what the fuck, she's a lesbian. the thought was kicked out as fast as i could i am so fucking sorry it came to my mind.

another thing is that, i know this is widely disputed and I'm sorry for bringing it up again, their sexualities aren't necessarily defined per se and i am always pushing my bisexuality onto my characters. so i like eddie and nancy as bisexual. if you don't, that's fucking fantastic and i love that. i am not here to sway anyone's opinions.

anyway edancy as characters. they would be utterly chaotic together. even in a friend aspect. in one of my fics i think i referred to eddie, in a certain mood, as robin turned to 11. which, could be wrong of course, but since it's nancy's point of view i think that's how she'll take it. so it would require a lot of patience to be each other's friend which neither of them really are so it's not like the best friendship. in one of my fics she's very guilt driven and also realizes she's been lonely without a friend like barb and now she's collecting them like robin and eddie. and steve kinda. eventually argyle and Jonathan. i just like the platonic love i am creating in my fic let me tell you. one day i'll post it i promise.

i also like that they have this like potential bc they do know each other, maybe not well or anything, but they've gone to the same high school together for four years. you tend to learn people after a while, especially in a small town. i mean all she said in the walkie was it's nancy and he instantly said wheeler! no one previously stated if nancy was a part of it or not because i don't think they went and saw eddie after getting nancy involved due to needing to figure out how to help max.

he knew his trailer was seven fucking miles from her house. i don't think he liked mike THAT much to know that by giving him rides home. that has literally been in my brain since you brought it up. i like to think that he could have had a crush on her, yk? the idea of eddie biking to her house or maybe driving if it happened later but i don't i picture like middle school for some reason. actually it really depends on the au ig bc i have like fucking 3 of them in my mind at once. in the canon divergence au, it was middle school bc I'm using the talent show angle bc of a specific scene and ship from skins gen 3. if you know arnold x violet pls pls get that i think nancy was a ballet dancer growing up and she would have done that at the talent show. and focused on her mistakes while eddie was like nah i thought it was beautiful. bc the scene from skins was this metal head, who had temporarily gone deaf, went and saw a ballet dancer dance and it was so fucking beautiful he fell in love with her. (this is by memory i haven't watched skins in like ten years)

in the rockstar au it was his senior year bc he graduated on time bc it was the only way to make it work where she didn't really know the guy. and i haven't made it up yet for the 10 things au but that will come. i promise. it's never going away.

eddie and nancy just kinda went into my ear, invaded my brain and never left. don't get me wrong, i still ship other ships with them, i appreciate a lot of them. and don't appreciate all of them. bc there are some that i can't get behind. but I've always been the type to be a multi shipper, a crack shipper, whatever. I've been on this website long enough to have seen the oddest pairings and go "yeah, that's fucking cool". does it usually have to do with putting two hot people together? yes. yes it does. do i care? no. no i do not.

i'm going to get off my soap box now. i have rambled long enough about thoughts and opinions on edancy. tl;dr: i think they're neat

send me a topic + ☕️ emoji and i’ll tell my honest opinion about it!

#answered #heroeddiemunson #edancy rights #do you think i said enough???

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galactic-pirates · 20 days

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Yet Another Ask Meme: 4, 18, 36

Thanks for the ask!! :) :)

4) Do you have any OCs? Do you have a story for them? Oh sure lots. One's I'll admit to? Actually this is me and I have no shame about it so also many haha. I don't generally write OC's. They get such a bad rap that I save those particular imaginings for the stories I tell myself when I can't sleep, rather than ones I type up and post.

However, there is one exception that I just could not resist. I gave Jenkins a boyfriend in my and the Sins of Atlantis fic. Mordred. I don't know why maybe I just didn't like him having been lonely for two thousand years. I tried not to write it but I had such feelings about it. I... ok one day there will be (hopefully) a novel series written by me as a Camelot retelling. I have over 50k written towards it already (none of which was in that fanfic). I know, I know, Camelot has been done to death but hey there's a reason the Arthurian myth has been around for hundreds of years, it captures the imagination. If I want to write my take on Arthur's heroic death, and the uncrowned King Mordred and the Knight who would have ruled by his side, if Galahad's father hadn't broken the kingdom, then why not?

Admitting to sources of inspiration is probably not wise but I find OC's aren't a bad starting point for creating original works. Mind you the same can be said for fanfic "what if" as well. So long as pretty much everything about it changes in some form before the final version - well inspiration has to come from somewhere.

18) First, second, or third person? Third, always and forever. I have attempted to write first in exercises but it's not how I naturally think. From day one when I started writing it was always in third. I mostly only read third too. I will read first as I don't discriminate when I pick books up. However, I think I'm probably more likely to DNF a book written in first. I think I'm less forgiving or less used to it's foibles I don't know.

36) How do you come up with fic titles? What's the one you're most proud of? Answered here

(in recompense for not answering have another one. I was tempted to ask "Describe a fic that almost happened, but then it didn't." for you but oh merlin so so many and how to choose which to ramble about? I'd be here all week...)

20) Do you work on a single project or many at the same time? How does that work for you? Back in the day I used to have several WIP's going at once. Even then that wasn't the wisest as I got discouraged by what felt like slow progress (as my progress was split across projects rather than concentrated).

These days I have less spoons and I'm not really even mentally capable of doing more than one thing in a day. I would love to be able to write and draw in the same day but I can't seem to make it happen.

Anyway, I find I can't swap and change at all really now. So I focus on projects one at a time. For example I'm doing the Librarians gift exchange and I've had the assignment for weeks and weeks but I only started it last Monday. I spent March focusing on my novel and I regret all my life choices for that because an exchange deserves a quality product that takes ages to make (because I've had weeks to work on it) and I'm terrified it won't be done in time for the deadline. But I had to choose and I started drafting in January so the novel kinda came first. Anyway, I haven't touched the draft since I finished it, and I won't until the art is done.

It really is sad I can't balance better :/

#I answer things #sam talks writing

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makishimu · 9 months

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I wasn't sure if I should post this, but ended thinking "why not".

A while ago, an idea randomly popped in my head and just stuck around. Over time, I started really liking it and wanting to make something out of it. Maybe a fic or a comic series. I'm generally pretty ambitious and end up never doing it, but I can still draw some refs.

The basic idea of this story is "what if Link had died at the beginning of the game due to his injury". Rauru did say that he would have died had his arm not been replaced. Obviously, if Link dies, another hero needs to take his place, since Ganondorf has awoken, and that's the main plot. A new, younger Link, having to take over where the previous one failed and accompanied by a grief ridden Zelda. There would be a big part of the story about their relationship because my Link would remind her a bit too much of her Link. In the end, their relationship would probably be close to a mother-son one (And I do imply a little Zelink between Zelda and the original Link, but that's up to interpretation). Another part of the story would be geopolitical, because 13 years passed between Link's death and the moment my Link and Zelda meet. Ganondorf had more than enough time to power up and pretty much took over Hyrule. Zelda would still have some allies, mostly the Sheikas, and would be hiding in Kakariko Village. She would also learn how to fight and better control her powers (but she still can't defeat Ganondorf without the Hero wielding the Master Sword, so she just waits for one to show up, she just didn't expect him to look so much like Link). I've got a few more ideas in mind, but that's the basic plot.

Like I said, I don't know if this will get anywhere, but I did design my Link for fun. I really love how he turned out, so I'll probably draw him more.

Anyway, I'm not gonna make this post any longer, so thanks to anyone who took the time to listen to me ramble about this idea

#my art #tears of the kingdom #the legend of zelda #Oc Link #totk spoilers #I guess ??#Story idea

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ben-wisehart · 2 years

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1/? Thank you so much for your detailed and fast meta-response! You’re truly amazing and gave me more answers than I expected. The thing I’m getting at is, MXTX presumably writes her ships the way that they’re supposed to be the one and only for each other. She even makes them stay virgins till they can be with their partners. And while I absolutely do believe in making soulmates I also believe that there are people who are much more compatible than others.

Following on from this. More Bingqiu ramblings under the cut

2/? Hualian and Wangxian are very compatible personality-wise and their whole relationship isn’t based only on acts of kindness. Or take Mo Ran. CWN reminds him of a past kindness and his mother so he chooses him as his Shizun. That choice is Mo Ran’s. One part why he likes him is that he’s reminded of a kind home but the other is that he genuinely likes and appreciates his personality. You won’t get this with other people or Shizuns he migh have otherwise chosen.

3/? The same goes for Wangxian and Hualian—they see their partner and appreciate what they see. You say that LWJ might fall in love with another troublemaker but that’s some personal characteristics he might find attractive personally but in comparison LBH seems just like a blind man desperately reaching for any kindness from a father figure. That’s what I don’t like about this ship. And it hurts me because I actually like it so much. Yeah, maybe I am a hopeless romantic but look

4/? Wangxian got infatuated with eo because of their personal qualities, remained by eo’s side because of their choices and stayed together because of their compatibility and appreciation for eo. Same goes for Ranwan. With Bingqiu if you think about it, LBH only saw hero worship, which turned into desperate yearning for love from said father figure but you could literally replace SQQ with whomever else no matter what personality or how (in)compatible & I guess that’s why I find this frustrating.

5/? I genuinely think that you couldn’t just replace one partner from other aforementioned ships and they’d just another partner the same way. From SQQ’s part the choice to stay by LBH’s side is because he genuinely sees who LBH is but LBH doesn’t see him, not because of identity reveal but because he just needs someone-anyone to cling onto and I find that sad, mainly for SQQ. It’s something like a puppy

7/? 7/? You take it home and give it shelter and it loves you unconditionally and would love anyone else who’d do the same for it. And I think that in any relationship the most important part is that: "I see you and I appreciate you," which Bingqiu one-sidedly lacks.

8/END Sorry about my terribly long rant and thank you for letting me air my grievances in your askbox. Idk if you’re on twitter as well but ever since my friend introduced me to your meta and fics I come and check out if you’ve posted something new from time to time as I don’t have an account here. So thanks for being awesome!

9/REAL END I forgot to say thank you for your reddit meta links, I'll look forward to checking them out 😊!

Lmao anon you’re killing me, I read these asks at like half past midnight when I was unable to sleep from a caffeine high, spent the next half hour thinking about it and then finally took out my laptop again to start writing a reply at 1am

Okay, so. I don’t know that there’s gonna be some...singular thing I can point out that will make you suddenly like Bingqiu as much as the other ships you’ve mentioned? We all have our preferences and that’s fine. But I also don’t think that’s what you’re asking me to do anyway, so I’m just gonna reply with my thoughts.

I think I understand where you’re coming from a bit better now, and I do understand how MXTX writes relationships in the “one true love” sense. To be honest, I think she probably wouldn’t agree with me saying that her other MLs could just as easily have fallen in love with other people, but ultimately, I disagree with the notion that there is one person out there who is the “right” person for us to be with. I don’t want to rehash any point I’ve already made, so I’ll leave it at that. I don’t think you’re wrong, however, in saying that of course some people can be more suited for us than others.

I think the reason Bingqiu suffers more from this perception you’ve mentioned, that SQQ could be interchangeable with another person without really changing Binghe’s dynamic on his end, is probably due to a couple of factors. Firstly, even though all three MXTX pairings meet when at least one of them is a child, Binghe is unique in that he was both a child and was practically raised by SQQ during his formative years. (The whole parental dynamic and age gap is something for another essay I don’t feel like writing, so I’ll just leave it at that.) Binghe is kind of fucked up due to his trauma and has pretty much built his entire identity around loving Shen Qingqiu. Everything he does in this novel, he does because of him in one way or another. We can argue about the fact that it’s unhealthy but it is what it is.

Secondly, Scum Villain is a shorter novel. It’s also MXTX’s first novel, and it’s largely a parody of danmei, transmigration and stallion novels. MDZS, TGCF and 2HA have a lot of conflict in them that isn’t directly related to the main couple, whereas in Scum Villain, almost all the conflict is specifically about SQQ and LBH in some way. It has fewer chapters and the characters have less room to breathe and develop, I think. Thirdly, but also following on from this, SQQ and LBH have an outside force meddling with their relationship at every turn. SQQ isn’t perfect by any means, but I maintain that he is at his core a good person who just wants a comfortable life for himself and Binghe. However, due to factors outside his control, he’s literally being held at a proverbial gunpoint to act a certain way. Even with the OOC lock disabled, he can’t be his truest, authentic self when his survival is contingent on pleasing the System. Of course he works around it when he can, but like, when he reunites with Binghe after the Abyss, he’s literally presented with a multiple choice question on how he should answer Binghe’s question about regrets! He holds onto Binghe’s jade token for years not because he’s a sociopath that likes withholding a precious possession, but because he knows it might literally save his life if he saves it for the right moment. He’s at the mercy of the System and could get killed or tortured at any moment.

So all of this is to say that Luo Binghe doesn’t really seem to have much of a personality outside of loving Shen Qingqiu, and Shen Qingqiu has an incredibly hard time letting his personality shine through the limitations that are placed on him. Stuff for them to work out post-canon, etc. etc. etc.

But even so…it’s not like they have no personality. To use my own example that you mentioned in your ask, why is Wei Wuxian being a troublemaker a personality trait that his husband can be attracted to, but Shen Qingqiu being kind isn’t? I kind of glossed over the fact that you called kindness interchangeable in my first reply, but I strongly disagree with that sentiment. There are a million ways to be kind. Luo Binghe loves Shen Qingqiu in a way that was unfortunately influenced by his trauma and the way the System interfered in their lives, but the things he loves about him are his own. Two people can be kind, but it’s not a universal human trait. Shen Qingqiu is kind, and he’s also intelligent and bashful and a bit ridiculous. And Luo Binghe knows all of this. He is twenty-five at the end of the novel; he’s got some pretty messed up ideas about ideal relationships, but I still think we need to give him more credit than assuming he’s not capable of recognising that SQQ is a complex person with multiple personality traits. It might have started out as hero worship, but he gets to see plenty of SQQ’s true self throughout the novel even in spite of all the limitations imposed by the System. If Shen Jiu had shared all these traits, Luo Binghe might have loved him instead, but you could say that about any character in any relationship at all. If a different reader had transmigrated in SY’s place, I’m not convinced that they would have made the same choices Shen Yuan did. There are plenty of readers that would have been perfectly kind to Binghe but wouldn’t have thought to give him a new cultivation manual so he could improve his cultivation techniques in time for the Endless Abyss. There are plenty of readers that would have been perfectly kind to Binghe, but knowing he would be fine wouldn’t have thrown themselves in front of poison for him or taken a hit for him in the dream world. SQQ readily admits that doing things like this was unnecessary, but SQQ is the sort of person that when you give him a split second to make a decision, he’ll put Binghe’s safety first. Always. Even knowing that Binghe was never in any real danger. These are not the actions of a person who is only motivated by their own survival, no matter what SQQ tries to tell the audience. That’s kindness, and it’s a rare quality that shouldn’t be discounted on the basis that if someone else had done it the same way, it would have had the same effect on Binghe’s affections. You could say that about any personality trait under the sun. Maybe Binghe would have loved someone else just as badly if they’d done all this for him, but we’ll never know, because they didn’t, and Shen Qingqiu is the one Binghe loves. He has no interest in changing that. The puppy doesn’t care about all the other possibilities, and neither does the one who took it in. Their relationship is no less special for it.

Okay I’ve already fucked up my sleep schedule for the entire weekend so I’m gonna call it here. I am on twitter though! My handle is bobby_speeds. Thanks again for your questions!!

#svsss #bingqiu #meta #anonymous #hey not to sound thirsty but these posts are cropped for length not bc I don't want ppl to reblog them👀#reblogging is a choice and I don't want people to think I expect it but pls don't feel u can't just because of the readmore lol #svsss meta

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