#anyway i'm unwell

[ride-a-dromedary]

Again I know it's supposed to be a haha reference to the turns into a bear when he's too aroused thing, but in again refusing to brush just over the surface of this character: "I must be careful or I'll lose run of myself again. An Archdruid should show *some* restraint." comes across to me as more melancholy than perhaps intended when a. You take it into consideration that several lines imply that Halsin has issues with self control and self servitude, and presenting an "acceptable" version of himself as an outwards facing authority figure, to the point where he brushes over his own feelings, or pushes things that he wants down in the effort to reflect better what others want from him.

And b. Remember that Halsin was essentially just an apprentice when he was forcibly situationally promoted to Archdruid - he wasn't taught *how* to be an Archdruid or trained for it, or mentored; he was thrust into it because they didn't have any other choice. But they needed someone, so he stepped up. Halsin has spent the last century studying and learning things on the fly or through trial and error, and in a position of leadership like that, he is aware that every failure to uphold that mask *counts* and others *are* very much affected. How many times has he muttered that same mantra? Or heard it thrown around? An Archdruid not having control over their own magic is a big deal. Even when he is no longer Archdruid, he still grumbles it to himself. He's been at it over a century and he *still* doesn't feel like he's gotten it right. Even when he is in a place of progression, of trying to gain hold of himself again, those wisps of failure and self doubt still creep into everything. And that's sad to me.

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #haha funny line in response to saucy line that man is about to go feral ooh se- HEY TRAUMA #it's like a med student being promoted to the head of emergency #or an admin assistant suddenly being put in a ceo role #like i know it's a meme scene!! but halsin sounds *humilated* when he accidentally wildshapes during his romance scene #he sounds flustered and embarrassed and is so quickly launching off excuses with a tone that indicates *he thinks it's over* #like he fucked up he fucked this up just when he was *starting* to come into himself again and it never stops #i keep thinking of that one lyric from big thief 'i can't find surrender/and i can't keep control' #and again i'm reading too deep into it but halsin's struggle with failure really is embedded here you just have to...like listen to him #Even when he *says* that there's little point in denying oneself #he does it literally all the time - he did it for a *century* #and i'm not saying he doesn't have fun or not enjoy things but he cuts himself off so early at the root #or buries himself so thoroughly in a self indulgence until it wrecks him and neither of these things are healthy #note that he says as long as others aren't affected - he doesn't say as long as i'm not affecting *myself* #anyway i'm unwell #maybe i was never meant to be archdruid - you weren't! you were meant to protect nature's spirit and roam with the wilds #and yet he still did the best he could and people *admire* him and followed him but he may never come to see it that way #you ruined a perfectly good wood elf - look it's got trauma and anxiety (and larian turned him into a meme and i won't forgive them)

[thirstyforjere]

I'm so normal

#Need it tattooed on my eyelids next #I love him I love him I love him #U take a guy back to ur place and he sees this wyd #Anyway I'm unwell #käärijä #jere pöyhönen

[wombywoo]

the best of us.

#call of duty #cod #mw3 spoilers #john soap mactavish #mw3 #my art #uhhhhaaaghhhh #still feelin' them feelings folks #worked overtime to paint this all day #but I owe my boy that much 🥺 #anyway I'm unwell 🙆‍♀️

[paarthursass]

Baldur's Gate 3 Companion!Tav Ask List

What if your Tav was a recruitable companion, instead of the main character? (contains major spoilers for the game, and for some dark urge runs as well)

General

Where can your Tav be recruited?  Are they first encountered on the Nautiloid, or in the Nautiloid crash region?  Or are they not recruitable until a later act?

Do the other companions have special comments or reactions upon recruiting your Tav?

Does your Tav have any comments or advice when you recruit other companions?

What sort of general actions raise or lower their approval?

Are there any instances where your Tav can permanently leave the party, depending on player character actions?

Do they have any secrets that can be revealed?  What are the prerequisites for this secret coming to light?

Do they have their own personal quest that spans the course of the game?  Can it take different branching paths depending on the choices the Player Character makes?

What do they say when the Player Character asks them to stay in camp?  How about when the Player Character asks them to come adventuring again?

Does your Tav have any escalating conflicts with one of the other companions, like Lae’zel and Shadowheart’s knife-fight?

Are there any unique NPCs associated with your Tav that can show up during the course of the game?

Are there any moments in the game that trigger unique dialogue for your character? (Like Gale’s anecdote about the barfight after you save the goblin prisoner) 

Story Specific

How does your Tav advise the player character when it comes to the Dream Visitor?

How do they advise the player character on Raphael?

How do they react to Astarion biting the Player Character?

How do they react to the Player Character letting Abdirak whip them?

How do they react to the Player Character taking their first tadpole power?

Will they stay with the Player Character regardless of siding with the goblins or the tieflings, or is it possible for them to leave the party permanently?

What can they be found doing at the tiefling/goblin party?

Do they have comments on who the Player Character chooses to spend the night with? 

Do they have unique dialogue if the Player Character lets them die when they steal the Blood of Lathander?

How do they react if the PC licks the dead spider in the Gauntlet of Shar?

What do they say if the PC tries to force them to go up on stage with Dribbles the Clown?

Is it possible for your Tav to be kidnapped and replaced by Orin?  How is Orin's deception revealed?  How do they react to the PC rescuing them in the Temple of Bhaal?

How do they react to the PC either allowing Astarion to ascend or convincing him to spare the 7000 spawn?

How does Tav react to the PC becoming a mind flayer?  Can they offer to become one themselves?  Does their reaction change if they’re romanced? 

How do they react when the Dark Urge first reveals their amnesia and murderous thoughts to them?

How do they react to the Dark Urge killing Alfira?

If romanced, how do they react to the Dark Urge trying to kill them in Act 2?

Romance

Is your Tav a romanceable character?  Are there any specific requirements to romancing them?

Does your Tav need to be flirted with to start the romance, or will they approach the PC themselves if approval is high enough?

Are they a polyamorous or a monogamous option?

Do they have a special romance scene at the tiefling/goblin party?

Does the romance have different branching paths, or just one route to take?

How do they react to the player character breaking up with them, or choosing another character over them?

What questions can Zethino ask the PC about Tav in the Love Test? 

If they’re poly, do they have a reaction to the PC engaging in a relationship with Halsin?

How do they react if the PC has sex with Mizora? The Emperor?  Haarlep?

Will they join in with the PC and the Drow Twins, or no?

What are Tav’s plans for the future?  Do they propose to the PC, or is marriage not something they’re interested in?

Free space! Share anything from your companion!Tav au!

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #ask list #oc ask list #bg3 oc #bg3 tav #i've been thinking about this au for far too long now and i've written FAR too much about aurel w it #also i'm sure the durge portion of this is incomplete but i haven't gotten super far in my own durge playthrough yet so. bear with me #anyways. pls ask me about aurel im unwell abt him

[allonsy-gabriel]

screaming crying wailing lamenting she was the heart of the group she was young and ambitious and callous and cunning and ruthless and she was the heart that tied them all together she was their daughter their sister their lover their friend she was their heart and she was living on borrowed time and for a moment she was loved and in that love she allowed herself to give in to stop fighting and it cost her everything and still she was their heart. she was spy and a murderer and soaked in blood and violence. she was rotting before she even started to ripen and still her last words were those of love.

#karna solara #the ravening war #trw #dimension 20 #d20 aso #the ravening war spoilers #AABRIA IF YOU'RE READING THIS I AM UNWELL #something about a person determined not to care or be cared for #being immortalised in the memories of people determined to love them anyway #call me colin provolone because i'm throwing up a little

[thebramblewood]

EIGHTIES, Part I Requested by @papermint-airplane Starring Caleb and Lilith Vatore

I think this was a good decade for them. Most people thought the goths might be vampires anyway, so they blended right in.

Only Caleb was requested, but we all know they come as a package deal, and I must admit I was already working on these looks anyway. I initially had Caleb in more punk attire (e.g. patched leather jacket and Mohawk), but it just didn't feel like him. I got suggested this hair, and it all fell together then. I imagine this is when he first discovered that buttoning up shirts is an unnecessary expenditure of energy. I'm not sure if it reads as quintessentially '80s, but I think it's perfect for him. This might be my favorite version of them I've done so far, and I have some story plans brewing for this era that could involve crowd participation, so keep your eyes peeled. 👀

#ts4 #sims 4 #simblr #the zhaoverse #caleb vatore #lilith vatore #surprise post!!! #i'm FERAL over this #i am TRULY UNWELL #can't keep it to myself a second longer #and it gives such nighttime energy anyway #i turned the second pic into a new portrait for their collection then made it my desktop AND phone background because i have no chill #new vatore peak has been unlocked

[hyphen-8-it]

Cosette is better than me because if my weirdo recluse father suddenly showed up with a massive, festering burn scar acting completely unconcerned and telling me to call a vet for him instead of a human doctor, I would have simply started killing.

#we talk about Valjean's saint-like qualities but what about Cosette man. that's a feat of mental strength. #also I'm reading the Donougher translation and I presume 'dog-doctor' means something like a vet? truly wild. #Valjean's wretched self-image strikes again #brick completion sprint #anyway Victor Hugo really set out to hurt me with the Jvj & Cosette dynamic in the chunk that I read today.. #the bit abt why he hates Marius + the chain gang + the wound back to back to back?? evil. i am unwell. #cosette fauchelevent #jean valjean #les miserables

[zishuge]

The Spirealm 致命游戏 (2024) | Ep. 12

#the spirealm #致命游戏 #kaleidoscope of death #ruan nanzhu #lin qiushi #tan zaozao #xia zhiguang #huang junjie #lu menglin #cdrama #cdramasource #kodedit #userhanyi #*gifs:mine #there's no rhyme or reason to my rewatch anymore i'm just watching episodes based purely on vibes alone #listen nanzhu you're the one who wanted to drown him out #anyway zaozao is best girl #this makes me laugh every time i watch it #in terms of best zaozao moments #this is right up there with the sanatorium episode where she's like *sigh* but isn't //everyone// a little unwell? #and nanzhu and lingling simultaneously turn around to stare at her like O_O

[ohhamlet-art]

12th of the hour

#this accidentally turned out looking like three til I made his shoulders narrower #still kind of looks like 3 tbf #(secret links unlocked .. I guess jon pertwee is broad af?) #anyway just finished hell bent on my capaldi rewatch so I'm unwell have this offering from my pain #love him #12th doctor #doctor who #dw #doctor who fanart #dr who #dr who fanart #the doctor #dw fanart #doctor who art #twelfth doctor #peter capaldi #nuwho #ohhamlet art

[gideonisms]

I will admit I hate the trend towards measuring how Healthy fictional relationships are. they're not breakfast cereals! we don't need to measure the amount of fiber! even if it did matter how much fiber a fictional relationship has "healthy" is also a very general, vibes-based word for concepts that I think we probably should get more specific about

#here are some great words: 'consensual' 'exploitative' 'fulfilling' 'draining' 'enjoyable' 'painful' 'affectionate' #we can talk about the ways a relationship is or isn't working for the parties involved #without falling back on 'health' #i think that what is considered healthy changes based on the time period and in general as a queer person i do feel a certain hesitance #to just like nod to health without specifying what i mean given the complicated relationship between queerness and #being considered unwell or unhealthy by society/doctors/psychiatry #ultimately this is a small thing and doesn't matter because once again #if everyone in a work of fiction stayed physically and mentally healthy throughout that would be a very boring story. to me #it's just not the type of story i like so it doesn't matter anyway it's just #sometimes i'm like. but we all know there is no one simple standard for health right? right??

[leavingautumn13]

Tatsugiri makes an excellent starter pokémon due to its predisposition to working as part of a team, but keep in mind it is still an intelligent dragon in need of enrichment.

Tatsugiri understand human speech, and can mimic it to some capacity. Whether it understands the meaning of the words it is saying or not is up for debate.

Where dondozo is primarily a freshwater pokémon, tatsugiri can tolerate a wide range of salinity. A tatsugiri in a high-salinity environment (or a low-salinity environment with no dondozo) will attempt to partner with another pokémon the way it would with a dondozo. Tatsugiri have been observed partnered with wailmer, lumineon, and basculin.

Unlike prey pokémon who are often skittish being held or hugged, tatsugiri's mutualistic relationship with dondozo leads it to feeling safe and comforted when wrapped up or placed under gentle physical pressure, and it is considered a cuddly pokémon. Please hug your tatsugiri today.

[send me a pokémon and i'll draw it semi-realistically and add my headcanons]

#tatsugiri #realistic pokemon #pokemon #pokemon sv #autumn.art #autumn.fandom #y'all knew it was coming #i am unwell about the little sushi guys #i'm also constantly thinking about how the titan tatsugiri just tells you it's the titan #and also how these guys almost certainly get up to some ratatouille shenanigans if you carry them #they are used to being the one calling the shots #anyway. this particular tatsugiri is scarlett's ace sushi #so: #autumn.oc #oc: scarlett

[jacobglaser]

A voice your body jumps to you calling out your name But after this I'm never gonna be the same And I am never going back again.

Hozier - First Light // Good Omens

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens 2 spoilers #aziraphale #crowley #david tennant #michael sheen #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #aziraphale x crowley #good omens edit #goodomensedit #goodomensgifs #good omens gifs #nat gifs good omens #mygifs #this stressed me out so much. i'm so rusty with doing text on gifs #but anyway! its done! this song makes me unwell!

[spaceratprodigy]

*gulp* deacon/iris "please just kiss me" intimacy ask........ NYE party- (i am shot)

@oldworldwidgets — [ intimacy prompts ]

It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts

We're not broken, just bent, and we can learn to love again

pose reference

#if u need me I'm gonna be on the floor thinking abt the doomed love of the disaster besties #aud.. aud my love my darling.. this little scene we crafted has been rotating nonstop in my brain for months #it has fundamentally ruined me #but it's so perfect it hurts so good I love seeing the lines blurring I love them not being able to get it right #struggling to communicate through the heartache *chefs kiss* #him.. him being the one to ask.. #I am unwell you are always sending me banger prompts my dear AND you always know how to help put my chaotic ramblings in the perfect words #OUGH miss aud oldworldwidgets I love you with my entire heart and soul you are such a ray of sunshine in my life #also I still have the other two intimacy prompts u sent me for them in my back pocket..... #I've had some ideas of how they can spend the night on the roof under the stars together...... #more on that later #ANYWAY #ilysm I am blowing you so many kisses rn #finally the people get to know who miss iris really kissed on new years eve on this fine day of *checks watch* valentine's day #(sorry nicky ✌😔 just bestie things u know how it is) #my art #sole survivor #fallout #fallout 4 #fo4 #deacon #deacon fallout 4 #deacon fo4 #oc x canon

[katsigian]

ᴠ ᴀ ʟ ᴇ ɴ ' ꜱ ʟ ᴏ ʀ ᴇ 007. ⁺ ───────────── ⁺

⤷ ℑ 𝔡𝔬𝔫'𝔱 𝔥𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔞 𝔠𝔥𝔬𝔦𝔠𝔢. ℑ 𝔥𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔱𝔬 𝔡𝔬 𝔴𝔥𝔞𝔱

ℑ'𝔪 𝔟𝔢𝔰𝔱 𝔞𝔱

I'm reframing how I describe Valen's particular set of skills. He was raised in a criminal syndicate, his dad taught him how to be a good criminal, he routinely does criminal things. I think he tries to keep it contained and be civil, but there's times where he can't and doesn't want to. He spent 8 of his formative childhood/teenager years in a gang being taught by a father who wanted nothing more than to see him become a useful piece of said gang.

Valen is a gangster/thug at his core whether he likes it or not (spoiler: he does).

Imagine someone's bothering his husband Nathan while they're out, or maybe someone from his past returns and scares/upsets him. Or maybe somebody is threatening/interfering a person close to him, or he's working with Reid and it feels really good being in a gang again.

Guess Valen doesn't have a choice and has to act like a thug again.

Truth be told, Valen enjoys being a threat. Enjoys the aggression and the violence. It's in his blood, it's where he came from. He gets a certain kind of charismatic assuredness when he's given the green light to be a thug. He's a violent, loyal guard dog who's so devoted that it corrupts him, so of course he gets a bit of delight from doing what he's made to do.

The situation happens where someone doesn't listen when he tells them to leave, let's say Vesper, alone, only for them to continue being a pest and harassing him, then Valen will just have to act like the gangster he was raised to be. I think the criminal in him comes out a little too easy and I think he enjoys it more than he lets on. There's a large part of him that rejoices because it feels right.

Afterwards, there's not much guilt at all. There's the feeling of satisfaction knowing that he protected someone he loves. But there's also the feeling of relief. Valen relieved because he was able to do what he's best at and he feels like himself again. All because he got to be a gangster again, like he was raised to be.

Maybe it's not good, but Valen doesn't mind. He's always known that he's the one who can do all of the bad things and dirty his hands just for the benefit of someone else. He'd rather he be the one labeled as a mean dog than someone he loves. Valen can handle it, can handle the weight of his actions, not everyone else can. If him being a gangster keeps someone else safe, then there's really no reason for him not to.

(Both Valen and I are well aware that this isn't exactly healthy, but he genuinely doesn't care that much. Valen is very self aware and knows what he is. He makes sure others know what he is and allows them to choose whether they stay or not. He enjoys that part of him too much to ever just put it down. He's unable to anyway. He's tried, and it felt like losing a limb. Completely ceasing that kind of behaviour would be cutting off a substantial chunk of his personality.)

#sometimes i get struck with ideas so delicious that i have to share them with y'all #the nuance of knowing you're a criminal and knowing that it's 'bad' but doing it anyway because you don't know anything else #Valen's very unapologetic in many ways he is aware of what he's doing most of the time. mostly because he's accepted that he's not good and #never will be #but he can still do good things or can do things with good in mind. #i gotta sit and think about this in great detail. i'm unwell #cyberpunk 2077 #male v #sure get in the tags boy #cyberpunk oc #masc v #⠀- ̗̀ ⸨ 𝔳𝔞𝔩𝔢𝔫 𝔨𝔦𝔫𝔩𝔞𝔴 ⸩⁺☀︎⭒๋ #⠀- ̗̀ ⸨ 𝔳𝔞𝔩𝔢𝔫//𝔩𝔬𝔯𝔢 ⸩⁺☀︎⭒๋

[djmorn]

Mercy

A/N: This little one-shot was born out of the sadness inflicted upon me by this post. So I had to make some reparations for myself, for us, and for our favorite fiend.

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It was almost done. They had pushed back Raphael’s forces, every single one of his cambion servants dealt with, his warlock Korilla unconscious on the floor, and although they had lost Hope it had not yet dwindled in their hearts. Raphael could be bested after all.

Tav cast Hold Monster on the fiend so she and her companions could deal with the devil once and for all, on their own terms. With her Spike Growth spell Jaheira made Raphael wince from the pain the thorns inflicted upon his already battered body, unable to move.

In exhaustion he groaned at his approaching defeat: ‘I cannot lose to you. Not here. Not in my home. I cannot die!’

‘That’s it!’ Karlach called out to Tav. ‘We’re in Avernus, so if we beat him here we’ve rid ourselves of him forever.’

Once upon a time Raphael had been an imposing figure to behold, giving off an aura of invincibility and unimpeachable pride. Now he was a truly sorry sight to behold: On his knees, face bruised, his usually impeccably kept hair out of place and tinged with blood, having to welcome his death at the hands of such an unlikely party of heroes. Seeing him like this cast an uncomfortable spell of sadness over Tav’s mind. By the gods, why couldn’t he have just let them take the hammer and patiently wait to receive a more appropriate payback later?

‘Mephistopheles, hear your son!’ Raphael pleaded and suddenly Tav halted. ‘I am at your mercy – save me!’

‘Hold it,’ Tav said to Lae’zel who had drawn her bow, pointing at the weakened cambion, and although she complied, lowering her weapon, the Githyanki turned towards her with an astonished ‘What?’

Silence fell over the hall disturbed only by their heavy breathing but Tav could hear her own heart pounding louder than the drums of war as she approached the devil.

‘Um, soldier,’ Karlach said. ‘Excuse me but what in the hells are you doing?’

‘Let her have this,’ Jaheira answered in her stead. ‘She deserves to take the final blow for all his snide remarks she had to endure.’

As Tav came nearer Raphael looked up to her, his expression darkening. ‘Well, little mouse… Have you come to enjoy a closer look at my plight, finishing me off while I beg my father to save me from the hands of a few mortals?’

But she only looked down at him, not really knowing what to do or say. Raphael fully expected her to make fun of him, to take pleasure at his miserable state and even greater pleasure still at killing the half-devil who’d dared think himself superior to her. But all Tav felt at this moment was true and honest pity for Raphael. Before her laid not a fiend wanting to trick her into a shady deal, binding her soul to him for all eternity, but that other part he so dearly wished to hide, erase even: The human side of Raphael that made him fear for his life and had even prodded him to lower himself and beg his loathsome father for help. The very archdevil he wished to overthrow with the help of his chosen heroine and the Crown of Karsus.

‘He will not come, will he?’ Tav asked the half-mortal before her. ‘Your father?’

‘No,’ Raphael said, dropping his gaze. ‘You can be as sure of that as I am. I knew he wouldn’t… So go on then, do your duty.’

And Tav felt a madness wash over her as she – instead of readying her weapon, started to lower herself towards Raphael, hyper-aware of any possible movement coming from him and her companions’ eyes on her and the strange event unfolding before them. She brought her face closer and closer to his and then leaned into him as she whispered the words like a magic spell in his ear: ‘I’ll give you the crown.’

She drew back again, still crouched down before Raphael who looked at her with unbelieving eyes.

‘Pardon?’

‘You heard me, Raphael. If not even your own father will grant you mercy then I will indeed do my duty and let it be me who will.’

She produced her biggest healing potion from her pouch and tentatively held it up to Raphael’s mouth. He hesitated before taking a generous gulp from the medicine offered.

‘And why,’ he started again, ‘the crown?’ ‘See it as my own way of bringing justice to an uncaring parent. And after all this I feel like you deserve your own revenge at old Mephistopheles. It’s like I said: I think you’d make a fantastic Archdevil Supreme. A better archdevil than him anyways. As long,’ and she held up a finger at her next words, ‘as you let us go with the Orphic Hammer and keep true to your word after I hand you the crown: You will not harm an innocent mortal. After all it was a mortal to show you grace in your time of need. So, do we have a deal?’ And she lifted the spell from Raphael and extended her hand towards him.

Raphael’s face had grown softer and the hint of a smile touched his lips. ‘That we do. You’re too kind indeed, I must say.’ And as he rose he held onto her hand and helped Tav get up to her feet.

Out of the corner of her eye she could see Karlach taking a few steps forward. ‘Would you please explain to me what is going on?’

Tav nodded towards her. ‘I will. Once we get back to camp.’ And facing Raphael again she said: ‘I believe our business here is done. For now.’

‘So it seems,’ Raphael said. ‘You may leave and let me lick my wounds in peace, mouse. Upon your next visit I promise you to be the most ample of hosts and greet you as the friend I was hoping to become from the very beginning of our acquaintance. Prepare to witness the extend of my gratitude and generosity once you’ve delivered the crown into my hands. We shall wine and dine on my most lavish stock.’

He bowed to her and Tav nodded in agreement. ‘Very well. Get yourself cleaned up and take care of Korilla as well. And Raphael,’ Tav said. ‘Remember those soul coins you won from her. Never bet against me again.’

#bg3 raphael #raphael bg3 #raphael x tav #my writing #my stuff #i'm currently too sick to finish the next chapter of 'always music in the air' #although i promise that it is indeed in the works! #i apologize deeply for the delay #last week was wild with important meetings and half my colleagues sick or otherwise indisposed #and by the end of it i too followed with feeling unwell but since i got sick last i had to stay of course so there's that #anyways enough of my mad ramblings and i hope you enjoy this as well

[quatregats]

They love each other so much <3

#they're literally married they're so codependent and i'm so happy for them #yes i did start reading commodore don't talk to me i'm in my being unwell about hornblower era #hated the start of that book <3 he's back up to his usual antics (putting up façades and being ungenuine) #wish that forester could understand that whatever he's doing with bush and hornblower is how you write a meaningful relationship #and not just being like 'wow they love each other wow look at that they're married' #barbara and hornblower were kind of fun in beat to quarters but he quickly killed in the first chapter of this book #this passage on the other hand? this is hornblower actually expressing that he loves a person (in whatever sense you want) #anyways i hate him but this was very sweet <3 #perce rambles #hornblower #also hornblower being mean as love language. love it when authors just drop tidbits like that