#anyone else feel this way? probably not lol

[majestyjun]

# txt + corruption kinks !!

# corruption, innocence kinks, oral (m. receiving), somnophilia (tentative dubcon), dry humping, masturbation, begging, cameras (dubcon). txt and their corruption kinks. minors dni + nsfw.

not proofread bc mille is tired and it’s 12am lol

# yeonjun

it’s addictive, the way yeonjun thinks about you, the way your innocence invades his thoughts without notice, the way you’re dripping in purity and he desires to ruin you. you wouldn’t know any better, would you, if it wasn’t for him. because god, doesn’t it feel good to teach you, his hand cradling your jaw and cheek as he guides your lips over his stiff cock, your hair tangled through his fingers as he feels you swallow around him, your fingers clinging to his knee and your thighs clenched together, rubbing together to try to cure the heat that pools between your legs as you suck him off to his instructions.

you can do better than that, yeonjun murmurs under his breath, foxy smirk drawn on his lips when you try to take more of him in, tip kissing the back of your throat and tears brimming in your eyes at the unfamiliar sensation, shifting to rub your thighs together as he sits in front of you, thighs spread as his grip shifts to your hair to guide your pretty mouth over his cock, a restrained grunt caught between his teeth and his lip as when you give him those darling eyes, so desperately wanting to do good, to please him, because he’s trained you to know sucking him off properly will have his fingers between your thighs, reaching deeper inside your cunt than you can, making you a mess on his fingers because he won’t give his cock yet, not until you deserve it, his cute slut.

ah fuck, yeonjun groans, his sharp eyes darkening at the sight of yours brimming with pretty, glistening tears, going to swallow it all for me this time? i’ll reward you if you don’t waste a drop.

# soobin

it’s so painful, the way soobin’s held back for you. he’s gone as slow as he can, but fuck, you’re just too pretty, too innocent, aren’t you? you trust him so much,,, are you sure that’s a good idea?

because in the depths of the night, your head cradled against his chest, he’s tired of holding back. soobin’s fingers slipping between your legs, slowly, carefully not to wake you, gently rubbing against your soft, clothed folds, warm and untouched. he can tell you’ve never had anyone there before, your breathing hitching as wetness damps your panties, the effect he has on you so addictive. his cock throbbing when soobin slides aside your panties, pushing one finger in slowly, a small whimper escaping your lips as you curl into him closer, fuck, you’re so tight, never had anyone touch you before. and you’re all his to ruin in time, his finger coated in your wetness as he slips your panties back in place, tasting your sweet, virginal arousal on his finger, cock straining painfully in his sweats as soobin slowly licks his finger clean of your juices, as you sleep so blissfully unaware in his arms.

and you’ll dream so peacefully, as he dreams of the way you’ll struggle to fit him for the first time, your pretty voice so unsure, needing his reassurances, his praises, when soobin has his turn to ruin you, take your innocence and slowly replace your purity with desires for him.

# beomgyu

shit, you’re fucking dripping, beomgyu smirks as you whimper and hump his heavy bulge, heat warming your face as he slaps your cute ass beneath your skirt hard. imagine if anyone else saw you like this, he breathes, a mocking tease to his words, humping me like a whore.

g-gyu, you whine, unable to make it feel the same way he does, can’t feel the same pleasure without him now, can’t you? too uselessly inexperienced, all it took was a dirty whisper or two to have you rutting into him in a bathroom, as he leans against the door, your whimpers probably noisy enough to be heard from outside. gyu, p-please, you gasp, on the verge of crying out of need, n-need y-you to do… it!

do what, honey, beomgyu taunts, relishing your desperation. y-you know, you hiccup, too embarrassed to say it. beg for it. he’ll never let you off easily, not when he’s made you into the mess you’ve become, so desperate and needy for him only, everything he does reminding you of the way he’s absolutely ruined your purity. please… f-fuck me, you whisper, a small moan spilling through your pretty, bitten lips, burying your face in his chest to avoid looking at him. all you had to do was ask, beomgyu grins, his hand coming up to harshly slap your cute ass, grabbing the thin fabric as he tugs it up, pushing you to face the door as his hand slams down beside your head, trapping you in a vulnerable, bent over pose, i’ll give you what you want, baby, the sound of his zipper pull making you whine his name.

# taehyun

it’s evil, it’s impure, the way taehyun’s ruined you, so impatiently waiting for him to come home and fuck you full n dumb. your fingers slipping into your panties, whimpering when you shove two fingers into your dripping cunt, trying to relieve the need you feel, frustrated moans filling the room as you try to fuck yourself on your fingers, but it’s just so hard, isn’t it?

can’t find the right spot the way he can, the way taehyun’s fingers reach deeper and curl at just the spot, tears of frustration brimming in your eyes. if taehyun was here, he’d do it for you, spread your thighs over his and make you watch as his fingers pump into your pussy, shamefully spread open as his calm voice whispers the dirtiest things into your ear. because he won’t let you have his cock until you’re cum twice on his fingers, begging for him to fill you up with his dick because you can’t take the wait anymore, his patience too much for his cute impatient slut, isn’t it?

t-taehyun, you whimper, your fingers slipping and grabbing your phone to video call him. each ring sending you further into desperation, every second feeling like eternity until he finally picks up, his chiseled features smooth behind the screen. you’re not doing it right, kitten, taehyun chides, so telling by your tears and the way your fingers are uncomfortably shoved up your soaked cunt. please, c-come home and do it for me? and fuck, does he love it,,, how dumb you are that you can’t even tell he’s right outside the door, listening in this whole time, his reply just lost to your moans.

# huening kai

ah— k-kai, s-so good, you moan,, thinking he’s not watching you? the camera he’s hidden in your room, his hand clenching his stiff cock as kai watches you jump the poor plushie he’s given to you, cute bear trapped between your legs as you gasp and rub your soaked pussy against the soft fur, pleading his name. and kai knows it all, ever since he’s put the cameras in your room, he knows the way you whisper his name in your sleep, the way you hug the same plushies he gives you only to hump them when he’s away, can’t stop thinking about kai’s cock, can you? the plushies a poor replacement for his thick length, filling you up full but you’re stuck without him when he’s away.

he’s watching, watching as you struggle to get yourself off, kai jerking himself off to the way he’s made you a slut for his cock and using his plushies to make up for the lack of his presence. thick cock dripping down his hand as he roughly fucks his fist to the phone livestream of your bedroom, moaning your name. because deep down, aren’t you two just so ruined for each other,,, shouldn’t he return the favor, send you the video of him jerking off to you back, so you’ll know kai’s just as lovesick as you are for him?

sorry i was supposed to be writing an actual fic but i got sidetracked by this thought and then spent the next 2 hrs writing this lol

#and oh i wrote smth lol #txt smut #txt hard thoughts #txt hard hours

[muqingapologist]

probably overthinking this subject but is it weird that i kind of don’t like most mxtx extras and tend to disregard them from what i imagine as the canon characters in my head and that i wish more fics did the same?

for example, i would love to see more post-canon scum villain fics that reimagined shen qingqiu’s journey of becoming more comfortable with his sexuality and with binghe all the way to their wedding starting right from the end of the main story. while the scum villain extras do have very nice moments (i do love the bingmei vs bingge conflict, sqq watching lbh’s memories in the dreamscape, the moments in between, etc), the extras just don’t feel fully satisfying and instead just seem like mxtx if providing the fan service that she left out of the main story. as is her right of course!

but i feel this lacking most significantly in the mdzs extras. so many missed opportunities for her to have rounded out the world and side characters, explored another layer of emotional depth with the main couple, whatever else, and we just got….incense burner and some other, much less memorable, stuff. not to mention that, while i’ve come to accept that wangxian in the book is incredibly different from their dynamic in the censored cdrama, the extras just kind of reinforce almost solely the physicality of their relationship and none of their actual day-to-day interactions as a couple or the emotional hurdles they still inevitably must cross together.

tgcf’s extras are the least offensive to me but they are also not super interesting to me. though hualian in general is probably the least interesting to me postcanon anyway since, more than wangxian and bingqiu, they seem quite in tune emotionally by the end of tgcf and so less opportunity for tension in that regard. but also the extras here being included in my perception of them doesn’t really negate the way i prefer their relationship to progress postcanon, unlike the other two couples.

anyway, this might make sense to no one at all and if so, ignore me. and if you love the extras for any or all of these, so happy for you and a little jealous! i guess my main point is that, while obviously they’re extras and just not meant to be integral to the overall story, i think that mxtx’s determination to just write what is effectively shitposting for her characters as extras is kind of frustrating to include in canon when in my mind, these couples are just entering these lifelong relationships, and there are still many things to unpack and learn about each other, and the extras just don’t align with how i think those relationships would go based on the main story, and so i wish more postcanon fan content pretended they didn’t exist lol…does anyone have similar feelings or am i just thinking too deeply about this…?

#and i want to note here that this isn’t me being anti-smut #but i cannot deny that mxtx giving her characters the wildest most ridiculous sex scenes #while laughable and shocking #doesn’t have NO effect on the characterization of these characyers #and I would argue has a sort of diminishing effect #like fan service is fine and kind of what extras are for UNTIL it’s at the expense of the characters ig #but again I need to touch grass so whatever #mxtx #mdzs #tgcf #svsss #heaven official's blessing #scum villain’s self saving system #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #mo dao zu shi #tian guan ci fu #ren zha fanpai zijiu xitong #lily posts #extras #meta

[gunsatthaphan]

“at least I’m good in bed.”

#bed friend #bed friend ep3 #netjames #kinguea #king x uea #Net Siraphop #james supamongkon #domundi #mandee #thai bl #bl drama #this was such a nice scene 🥺 #the plot of this show is not the shit but the shots are so nice idk its relaxing to look at lmao #anyone else feel this way? probably not lol #its a nice little saturday show #i like it

[mtt-burger-emporium]

thinking about chara and the implications of the line "chara hated humanity. why, they never said..." like ok i KNOW something was happening at home. chara baby you didn't deserve that shit i'm so glad you fell down a thousand feet in a cave hole and right into the arms of people who would keep you fed roof over your head and would never raise their hand against you. "eradicate humanity" you're 10 years old how about eradicating your shitfucked surface fam by calling cps first

#soda.txt #chara #(ok idk if this will work but LEEEENGTHY discussion of child abuse below) #ok listen hear me out on this- i know the initial interpretation is a sui attempt WHICH I ALSO AGREE WITH- BUT LISTEN #i believe there was something else going on leading to the whole ''eradicate humanity'' bit and the obvious answer is an unsafe homelife #well. at least for me. #being around people (or perhaps adults) who hurt you and make you feel unsafe in a place where you should be welcomed with open arms and- #a promise of care would probably make any child feel like all of humanity was (in simple terms) cruel and uncaring #so hearing about somewhere they could GET AWAY FROM THAT? of course they'd take that opportunity and run. #chara was just lucky enough to fall into a place that pulled them out of the ideology of ''all of humanity is cruel'' #because the dreemurrs were kind and patient enough to take them in and give them a new family #and wouldn't anyone want that? #for the part of The Plan (the buttercups) i think.. i think that one was formed by the idea that chara felt obligated to- #pay the dreemurrs back for their kindness. not that the dreemurrs would have made them. just by their own mental code. #what better way to pay a kind family back- one that took you in and cared for you like one of their own- then by forming a plan to- #set their people free? #they've been stuck down there for so long. they've wanted to feel the sun for SO LONG. why not give yourself up to grant that dream? #idk if these thoughts are coherent. LOL sorry i kinda just started saying words huh #but its ok. #feel free to ask me questions ab my interp of chara btw teehee ^_^ i love talking about chara they're my favorite theyre so silly #ok now for the proper tags on this bitch #chara undertale #chara dreemurr #child abuse mention #suicide mention #tw child abuse #safeutdr #OH ANALYSIS TAG UHHH UMM #🧪lab notes

[sskk-manifesto]

Atsushi's back in the game!!! ۶( ˆ o ˆ )

#And Kouyou!!!! #Also. I can say Steinbeck is kinda 👀👀👀 #King of the specific category of “I forget I like him until he's on screen” #I'm seriously unlocking memories with this rewatch. Like I haven't thought about it in two years– #but I just know when I was watching the anime for the first time I was being like #“Of COURSE the villains need to spend several minutes each episode explaining in detail how their own superpowers work so that the– #protagonists can get a perfect idea of how to best counter them. Why are villains made so freaking stupid in this show” aljhvwslchvqliyqwb #But. Eh. I guess that's just bsd to you. #Alsoooooo random thought of the day: I don't really favour how Tanizaki's ability was adapted in the anime. #I very well understand they were going for this green Matrix-like illusion effect‚ but every time someone says “... Snow?” #I'm like please explain where do you live that has snow glowing green. #Aamsjgvfaskjhfv sorry this is me being very. Cranky and nitpicky and having terrible audience etiquette in refusing to– #engage in suspension of disbelief. It just bugs me akvakcvqkyb I just feel like... Green is such a non-snow color– #that quite of completely disrupts the Light Snow / Sasame Yuki aesthetic. I would have liked it much better light blue or simply white. #What else. The way the Guild just goes on at stereotypes still troubles me a lot. The “usamericans can't be touched by laws– #because they use money to corrupt anyone” “foreign criminal organization come in our country to corrupt our pure and untouched soil” #Idk. Maybe all of it is true. Can it still be deemed a stereotype when it's objectively something that's happened before– #and will probably keep happening? #I suppose I'm just not a fan of the constant hostility against any foreigner. Idk. #This situation besides is extremely ironical. If you meet me irl it probably won't take long to see me being very outspoken about– #how much I despise usa cultural colonization of all other countries. It's something that really bothers me‚ how rooted and pervasive– #their influence is. So in a lot of ways I can relate to the author's sentiment #I just feel that. If you start treating them as stereotypes and ignore the complexity of a country and the wide spectrum of causes– #that contribute to its attitude in international relations. You end up practicing precisely what you're trying to criticize. #Okay this is the last time I'm getting into the politics of the Guild arc lol #random rambles #This time I took watching the episode slow I feel a little late

[fragmentedblade]

Screwllum watching the Aetherium Wars Tournament because of Silver Wolf's persistence, and calling her "an old Stellaron Hunter friend of mine", was really cute

#I actually really like what little we've seen of their dynamic a lot #It's strangely sweet and friendly. Like good-natured rivals more than anything. It almost feels like they're both playing with each other #Not just Silver Wolf #And this was so endearing. What did Silver Wolf do? Send him several messages asking him to watch her play? #It's so nice haha #And it's so cute that he indulged her #The letter he wrote to Svarog was very nice too. I don't know #I really like Screwllum. I love his relationship with Herta too #Herta seems endeared‚ fond‚ playful and good-humoured with him in a way she isn't with anyone else #He makes for very nice dynamics #And actually... so does Silver Wolf. She too makes the softer sides of some kind of rough character resurface #Her relationship with Blade is still one of my favourite things in the game xD #Also Screwllum didn't have to specify that. I imagine the writers did this to make it clear it wasn't Steven but Silver Wolf #who insisted Screwllum to watch and her to whom he had indulged #But instory it's sort of funny. Screwllum boasting he has cool dangerous friends lol #I talk too much #Traces #I should probably delete this later

[wiseatom]

anyway you can literally pry mike and will sw*ftie agenda from my cold, lifeless hands

#no hate to anyone not agreeing #however when has WILL CANONICALLY ever EVER showed to be pretentious with music #when has will EVER displayed the same music snob personality as jonathan #like canonically. really. point out a SINGLE time. #he of course loves the music bonding w jonathan and he loves the songs jonathan shows him but like genuinely. really and truly #i am asking you to point out anything about will's character that would indicate in any way he would be pretentious about music. #will's CANON traits repeated over and over are that he is sensitive and emotional and not like other boys #and that is not in the 'i want to be different' way like it is for jonathan. will canonically does not feel Better for being Different. #he just Is. #so like i absolutely one thousand percent believe he'd identify w her music that is sensitive and romantic and whimsical and tells stories #bc those are all things will either is or values. hello lol #and mike lmfao. mike literally tries to be like everyone else. if taylor is popular he's gonna listen and then the absolute bops are gonna #make him stick around. he'd definitely be a closet sw*ftie during rep era to go along w the crowd but he'd come back #also hold on let me circle back to the will point. even if he were pretentious u can't sit here and tell me taylor is not an incredible #songwriter who consistently puts out sonically cohesive albums (for the most part) and is able to nail almost any genre #even if he was Super Pretentious about music -- which to be clear he Would Not Be -- he would admire her for the artist she is #even if it wasn't his vibe. ANYWAY. BACK TO MIKE AKA I WILL LISTEN TO ANYTHING ANYONE SAYS IS COOL #he definitely has Opinions (calling should i stay or should i go Weird) but like. come on. his entire s3/4 arc is abt Desperately trying to #Conform. he'd listen to taylor lol. i just think he'd actually still like her for some of the same reasons as will #bc he also values story telling and then also probably just wordplay. #i'm so sorry to rant about this like i simply know it is not that deep but ALSO. Y'ALL LMFAO. the way that i'm seeing this opinion shared #'this isn't hating!' *is a hater* #<- also exactly what i'm doing but like PLEASSEEE #WILL =/= JONATHAN #AND LIKE MIKE IS EMBARRASSING. THT'S WHY WE LOVE HIM. HE'D ABSOLUTELY BLAST N BOP TO TAYLOR LOL #IDC IDC!!!!!! (CARES SO MUCH) THIS IS THE HILL I WILL DIE ON!!!!!!!!

[quartzskies]

random but is anyone else into yosurise but in a doomed kind of way. like kind of one sided. like a yosuke is into rise in a puppydog kind of way and rise keeps trying to find a relationship but can’t and finally decides to give yosuke a try because at least he’s a friend and she knows he won’t try to take advantage of her being an idol etc. And yosuke is ECSTATIC and wants to give her the world but in an unsustainable kind of way, a desperate “i don’t deserve her but she’s giving me a chance and i need to do anything i can to keep her happy” kind of way. And rise is so flattered and like yosuke is nice but she can’t match that dedication, no one can or should, but it’s all so one sided and she feels so guilty about that but she doesn’t want to break his heart or be “mean”. all while yosuke is becoming almost self destructive by trying to give her “what she deserves” but it’s an unhealthy level of dedication and it’s honestly hurting both of them

#rambles #p4 #not tagging this w the ship lol #before anyone even tries anything neither of them are ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ in this scenario #just a case of two people who aren’t compatible w each other making a relationship unhealthy #like yosuke lacking in self confidence and thinking he isn’t good enough #and rise trying to be into yosuke as much as he’s into her but you can’t force that! #and also it can be soooo uncomfortable when someone is way more into you than you are into them #in this scenario she doesn’t break up w him bc I mean he’s being so nice. so she’s wondering what’s ‘wrong’ w her #that she doesn’t feel the same way back and can’t force herself to develop those feelings… #btw bc i hate myself this would probably come after rise can’t get over souji no matter what she does or who else she tries to date #she’s a pretty girl so I imagine she would just keep encountering douchebags #and so she decides to give it a try w yosuke bc he’s seen the Real her and still likes her right?? #meanwhile because it’s me ofc it’s because souji has feelings for yosuke but can’t bear the thought of ruining their friendship #and so instead he sits off to the side watching his friends drag each other down in a relationship that’s bad for both of them #THIS IS SO MUCH SORRY ITS SLOW AT WORK

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

it's like. everything happens so much. it's all happening right now but at the same time nothing is happening whatsoever. it's a liminal space of an existence. it's slowly crushing me under the weight but when I look up there's nothing actually bearing down on me. there shouldn't be any weight. something is wrong but nothing has happened. I'm simultaneously overwhelmed and utterly bored. nothing is happening and maybe that's the everything that's happening. maybe the everything is the nothing. we aren't there yet but it's all so imminent. either everything is going to crash down or nothing is. I'm just waiting to figure out which.

#I refuse to be upset at anyone. I have so much love in my heart #but I'm going to pack formal clothes for my sister in my own bag just in case. she doesn't need to know that. #you couldn't pay me to care or to stop caring. it's cognitive dissonance #because I know this won't always affect me but it's my whole world right now #I say I don't care and I mean it but at the same time I care more than anything else #it's actually almost scary how much I relate to dark alley #not in a ''I'm in a mentally dark or dangerous place'' way but in a ''yeah I compare myself to others too much'' way #and then I try to make excuses so it can make sense to other people so they won't think the worst of me #like literally I'm trying not to think about fall but it's right around the corner and I'm. falling into it I guess #pun intended of course. I don't want to lose all my friends #I want to be one of the kids who gets invited to people's houses for lunch after church and I know I never will be #because that's the kind of thing that's only for the kids who are going someplace. not the ones who stay #I'm feeling very selfish and it's probably bc I'm tired lol this happens sometimes #I'm gonna make dinner for my family and then I'll feel better skskskskk #Lu rambles #sometimes I think I could write poetry #I feel like once my vacation is actually imminent I'll feel better I just haaate the point we're at right now #which is like. it's SOON but not THAT SOON so I feel like I can't do anything bc I'm just waiting for things to get going :/

[nightfallsystem]

u guys ever think about killing urself for everyone elses sake.

just so people wont have to go thru the annoyance of talking to me or the disgust of seeing my face so they can be happier by talking to their other friends instead of me so they dont have to deal with my actual fucking stupidity

#tw vent #tw suicide #ingnore this. btw. or dont i cant stop you lol #imsso close to cutitng off everyone i know so they can be happier i alreadyblocked a few people i knewnow ionly know one person irl #imf so glad she found other people so she'll be completely fine if i disappear out of her life her life sounds like its going great actuall #ruining my life ^_^ #i dont want to talk to people but for their sake #IM GENUINELY SO FUCKING STUPID AND UPSETTING TO TALK TO . #does anyone even love me anymore #im probably doign this for my own selfish reasons #i dont go outside anymore for everyone else sake. so they dont have to see my ugly face. or deal with my awful speech #at least i can still draw.... only way i can mkae people happy.. #im mean to myself more than anyone else is mean to me at htis point. why #im not even capable of becoming mentally well at hthis point. im a lost cause #tell me what you rlly think . just tell me to shut the fuck up. just call me annoying. whatever u say cant be worse than what i do to mysel #pleasee im just dragging u down and making u feel worse whenever u tlak to me DO YOU NOT REALISE IT #i dont want to feel better for myself i want to feel better so i can be useful to others #i fucking hate people but i love them a lot . i gues i just hate how i affect others. social outcast i guess

[mollymarymarie]

miss molly!!! my love, my life!

i haven’t been online in a bit and in an attempt to catch up was speed scrolling and skimmed “won’t write fan fiction anymore” and came to a screeching halt

i thought i was seeing a goodbye or deleting my account type post and my heart was immediately in my ass. after some profile stalking i gathered some context and i need to say that you do whatever you need to do for yourself, and absolutely no one else.

that being said, anyone that has read anything you’ve written knows you CLEARLY don’t support or agree with the person who just named YOUR characters. bc while she may have written them down first, every story you create you build them new from scratch for us to fall in love with all over again, and none of that love comes from what she did but from what we as a community have built in spite of her.

I will support and love whatever you decide to do from here. your wolfstar is without a doubt my favorite and your fics are so special to me, but if this is what you need to do for you i back you 1000% and will be first in line to read anything you publish next.

just wanted you to know that youve brought immense joy to my life so far and i will forever be grateful you share your art with the world<3

xoxo, ur biggest fan

FRIEND 😭😭😭😭😭😭

I sincerely got weepy reading this, you have no idea how much this means to me! It makes me sad that she effectively ruined our fandom by being such a hateful person, but if I'm being honest, I'm also sort of excited about having something that is MINE and not attached to her in any way (kinda fun to figure out new names lol)

That being said, I'm not sure what I will do with what I produce. I like the IDEA of trying to actually get something original published in print, but I don't really know how to go about doing that. I considered it with DYH, but it was easier (and less scary) to write it as Wolfstar for ao3.

I haven't looked into posting original fiction on AO3, it is evidently a thing, but would anyone even read it?? (except some of my friends, including you, my darling anon)

#I got an ask! #Thank you so much friend #This is so reassuring #I'm glad to know you'd stick with me for original fiction lol #Think I'll probably lose a lot of my followers when I move away from Wolfstar #Most people only follow me for Wolfstar #If anyone else is reading this #Send me an anon if you would consider reading original fiction written by me #No hard feelings if not I get it #Just curious if posting on AO3 would be worth it #Or if staying active on Tumblr is worth it #Tumblr has been my way of sharing WIPs and things #But if it's not Wolfstar Idk if people would want snippets and things on Tumblr anymore #ANYWAY I'm rambling #Just trying to figure out... #Where To Go From Here

[icewindandboringhorror]

I kind of miss getting to know the interior of other people’s homes. So many of my friendships in adulthood are distant, or long distance/only talking over the phone, difficult to make actual plans with because of Real Life Schedules Now, etc. etc., but like in school and stuff as a kid you can just hang out at someone’s house for a few days, have a sleepover every weekend, etc. etc. I still remember the interior of all of my childhood friend’s homes, I remember all the details to the rooms and the layout of the yards and etc. etc. There’s just something kind of neat about Knowing another person’s housing space, what the décor says about them, the history of how they came to live there and their household routines and what it’s like, etc. I feel like it can be an important part of really deeply understanding someone so it’s weird to talk to and vaguely know a handful of people, but also not even know what their bedrooms look like or how they organize the dishes after washing them or etc. etc. 

#'intrictae knowledge of another person in an extremely mundane way' my beloved #i also just really love looking at interiors like I'm fascinated with how people decorate their own spaces or what they have aorund #in the environment and what it says about them. Does anyone else snoop the backround of photos and videos and stuff? #like if theres a youtube video or a picture or something anyone posts and it has like a candid normal indoor space as the background #I'll pause or zoom in or whatever and really try to look around. see what's there. just make observations #not in a crerrpy way but just like.. idk I feel like it Says Something. I also love seeing people's computer desktops and phone screens #amnd looking at how they organize their apps or files or what aesthetic they give things. If I'm wathing someone play a game and they #accidentally exit to the desktop or something I always pause and try to see whatever I can glean from it lol #Bedrooms. Phone screens. Desktop of a computer. Also real life desk top that the computer is sitting on. etc. These are all spaces that are #mostly organized by and utilized by really just the ONE person themselves. like nobody else is going to usually be using your #computer or your bedroom nightstand. it's your space that you don't have to think about anyone else interacting with so they way you organiz #e and decorate it is very personal and Just For You. something about spaces like that are so interesting to me like in telling #little tiny details about someone and stuff. And also on a borader scale I just love thinking about how like. you could give 5 people the #same exact space and each of them would organize it and decorate it completely differently. and all of it would be an indication of their #tastes and personality and lifestyle. I used to want to be an apartment complex maintenace man because I would get to enter into everyone's #identical layout apartments and see how different they all are and what variety of things people have done to customize the same space #and what it might say about them or etc. etc. etc. Also probably weird but sometimes when throwing something away #I'll look at people's trash a little like if I'm in a realative;s house. which literally gives no important information but I love little #details like 'oh someone in the house had a snickers bar earlier today.' 'oh they bought a lightbulb I wonder which of the lightbulbs #went out' and then I look around the house at the shapes of the light fixtures or if there are any other clues (like a screwdriver or #ladder nearby) to see which one it is or etc. etc. ANYWAY .. idk.. #one of my Big Fascinations. I just love seeing people's personal spaces and knowing little obscure mundane details that #dont matter really but it Matters To Me just because I love gathering every miniscule tidbit of data about anything in any situation #whether it's relevant or not. seek knowledge just for knowledge's sake I guess lol. Maybe thats an enneagram type 5 thing or something #else lol. ANYWAY.. thought about this because I have such a strong compulsion to ask everyone I know like long distance friends #for pictures of their bedrooms and phone screens and desktops but also for people who don't have the same Weird Interest In Interios #*Interiors and stuff that I do I feel like that just comes off extremely freakish ghbjhbb #I PROMISE IM NOT GATHERING DATA ON YOU! or like.. I am. but not maliciously. just in a manner of earnest detached intellectual fascination

[six-demon-bag]

deeply amusing to me how fast my squick feelings rise if someone even passingly suggests i self insert into a fic or with a character considering all the grade A squick material (according to other people) I write

#me!! you think I want to be in any way involved in this story or with these characters!! #excuse me no #do not touch me #do not think about me #I am not part of this #literally do not care if anyone else does it though obviously go wild have fun #I cheer you on with my eyes closed #but plsss don’t bring me into it #this is why I so urgently block all self insert tags lol #it is possibly one of the worst feelings to me and so I rant here #good fences (filters and block lists) makes for good (fandom) neighbors #the rant happens now bc it has been suggested Too Many times in the past day in ways I cannot filter #probably delete later #but it’s my houseblog and I must scream #sixdemon nonsense

[bravewolfvesperia]

/ realized I forgot to put this in my bio and will add it later but

heads up that my Yuri is a combination of JP Yuri and dub Yuri, but primarily JP. there's a whole lot of nuance to Yuri that got left out of the dub (and seeing as he has waaay more content in JP due to the vast amount of crossovers/Tales crossovers/gachas he's in, it's a lot easier to keep Toriumi's take on him (and in depth understanding no less!) in mind). overall you get the same general person, but the dub left out a lot more his casual/playful side in vocal tone, preferring to go for the "edgy cool adult" concept despite, well, the JP version of him intentionally being quite opposite.

(on another note, context I use for Yuri involves nuances found in the drama CDs that are a condensed retelling of the game (before some original stuff) as well as his childhood novel which has voiced dialogue for his child and teen years. this post covers the game, but a lot of (especially internal) stuff for my muse may be heavily affected by his backstory too which is unfortunately completely absent in the actual game itself)

there's also a lot of back and forth between him and other characters that really lost their depth in the dub (ex. Yuri being much more gentle and soft with early game Karol when Karol was convinced nobody would believe him and that he was a failure, or his banter with Flynn being a lot more relaxed and significantly less annoyed with a better understanding of each other). I'll be retaining anything the dub yeeted out for whatever odd reason regarding his relationships.

(one particular grievance of mine is in the Flynn jailbreak scene, where Yuri is basically saying "you're just dying to abandon me" and Flynn starts off with "that's right" before basically saying the same thing - i.e. they both know it's not true and Flynn is going along with it because That's Them, to which Yuri responds with a solid and fully accepting "yeah" (no hesitation, no concern over it, as he prioritizes Flynn's life over his own).

another extremely strong grievance I have is the port scene - oops also with Flynn - where he's basically holding back tears asking for answers in desperation, which was extremely if not outright completely lost in the dub where he only sounds angry and not just utterly hurt. dub Yuri? I could believe he might kill Flynn if it came to that. JP Yuri? forget it, he would hold back at the last second and couldn't go through with it. that's genuinely the level of difference that was present between both audios.

that said, I love Troy Baker's performance itself - I just think he was unfortunately deeply incorrectly directed for several of his major scenes, and also unfortunately, some of those cases were involving some of his most important relationships)

if any of y'all play Vespy any time soon, I fully recommend giving it a shot with its original context at least once (if you're playing the DE version there's an option for JP audio)! even if you don't understand JP, at the very least the tone won't be lost on you! from what I've heard apparently there wasn't much communication between the directors on both sides, so a lot of Yuri got lost in the localization (and Karol's screaming is glorious in JP lbh).

tl;dr Yuri really is just a silly little guy and he's really not that cool or serious. he's a dork. he's a dummy. and he's easily embarrassed about it. get deep enough into his feelings for Flynn when they're not in a life or death situation and he'll completely cave in embarrassment.

#{ bravewolf mun } #/ honestly it's also easier this way bc Vesperia has A FUCKING TON of side content #but Yuri in particular also does and a gigantic chunk of it is /voiced/... and we don't get that side content in the west #as a side note Yuri even has a ton of small breaths/sounds he makes in JP around his dialogue that got lost in the loc too #there is a lot more going on in that silly little brain than I feel the loc let on #also he's way more pouty in JP and that's automatically a win with me for him LOL #but yeah we get so much side content that like... I probably haven't even gotten through all of it yet #I'm in the process! but I still have not cleared Everything yet (it rly is a lot!). it just kinda automatically adjusts my brain to JP Yuri #bc it's what I hear constantly when I indulge in non-game content for him #and honestly there's enough content out there for Yuri that I'd sooner trust Toriumi's thoughts on Yuri #than I would anyone else except the lead scriptwriter for Vespy #bc he's been voicing Yuri content THAT MUCH for THAT LONG #I would kill to pick Toriumi's brain about Yuri bc he's done an INSANE amount of vocal work for him #that said when I write I do hear a combination of Troy and Toriumi don't get me wrong (Troy's performance is stellar w what he was given!) #it's just that I'm including JP exclusive nuances to my muse that may come across as like #“wait that wasn't in the game was it?” but like yeah it was the loc just whoopsied a lot on Yuri /

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#yesterday i was wandering around the campus where ive resided these last 4 years bc ive banned myself from running until my leg heals #and i was thinking like. what am i gonna miss about this place when i leave? bc im always thinking abt the things i cant wait to get away #from. and its a real short list. ill miss the palm trees bc i never get sick of seeing thrm. theyre so weird #ill miss the yucca. again bc theyre so weird looking. ill miss the way u can see where all the ants r bc in the non human populated areas #there isnt grass everywhere bc desert. ill miss that there r so many birds of prey hanging around. and the road runners and all the lil #lizards. and maybe in an abstract way ill miss being so close to the boarder bc when u live near a boarder boarders feel like bullshit #like staring down the road into another country. idk theres something i like abt that. ill probably also miss being able to run outside #all year long bc in the winter during the day all u need is a light jacket lol. where im going it gets real cold 🥶 #maybe ill even miss the constant blue skies. but idk ive always liked a cloudy sky better. makes me think of home haha #ill def miss how convenient my apartment rn is. the loft bed. the low cost. the 5min walk to campus. sigh. but thats pretty much it. i #dont think ill miss anything else. im not really close with anyone. my boss was the reason i came here and she left this school in January #so thats it i guess. i think i stayed a year too long and was not well for a lot of my time here but so it goes #just gotta move to the next place. just gotta pray pray pray that i find an apartment soon. i dont even wanna say anything abt it bc im #afraid to jinx things. even tho thats irrational. like. i just gotta somehow project how good a tenant i am. im so quiet u will never see #me and i never complain abt anything bc i have brain problems. sigh. i cant wait for this transition to b over #im so so so ready to be in a new place doing new things. but at least my energy is back. im back to high energy on little sleep lol #i dont understand how my body functions lmao. somehow when i get a normal amount of sleep it's a sign that i feel awful #unrelated

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

why do i keep falling in love am i in a dating sim themed around archaeology or what

#i've fallen for three girls so much 😭😭😭 #and i'm probably delusional but i think the last one looks at le when i'm not looking #whatever. i am also continuously thinking about the potential of a tv show centered around an archaeological excavation... #it could be so good actually i might brainstorm it when i'm back home #in other news. for the nth time i feel way more comfortable around girls than guys #i am forced to be with the latter at least for housing purposes and no <3 #thankfully they keep assigning me roles normally reserved for the girls so i mainly work with them :) #and girls are so !!!!! #really !!! #does anyone else knows this??? #anyways. that's how it's going 👍 #also pain. lots lf it. lol