#and very much in the heat of the moment

[whispers-of-gallifrey]

Just watched Fury from the Deep and I love Victoria's exit so much it breaks my heart. She's so worn down by their travels always ending up full of danger and death and her always being put in the position of damsel in distress. She really doesn't want to leave jamie and the doctor but she doesn't want that life and I love that it let's her make that choice. And I love that Jamie's concerned she won't be happy living in, what is to them, the future but she acknowledges she's changed too much to go back to Victorian England, and she's highly unlikely to get back there anyway, not without more death and danger. That the doctor changes his mind about slipping away in the night and agrees to stay another day so Victoria can think about her decision properly without feeling as pressured. The fact that she knows the doctor won't say a proper goodbye because that's his way. The way she stands on the beach watching them row out to the tardis, knowing she'll never see either of them again. The fact she doesn't go back to the tardis with them to collect her belongings. Jamie's "I don't care where we go next" because he's miserable that Victoria made that decision. The Doctor's "I was fond of her too, you know" which is the closest he'll get to admitting how much he cares about them all. I just love it

#i just have so many thoughts about her #i love that the story builds to her exit with her saying shes tired of being frightened and asking why they never end up anywhere nice #her exit's similar to tegans in that theyre both worn out and sick of it but i love where tegans exit is impulsive #and very much in the heat of the moment #you see victoria considering it throughout the episode even though she cant bring herself to say it to jamie and the doctor #and yeah i just love that we get to see the travelling take its toll bc when you get down to it she is just a kid who never signed up #for any of this #and where new who companions get breaks between adventures and have lives outside the doctor #classic who companions dont get any of that by virtue of the 'the doctor cant control the tardis' so the doctor and his lifestyle is all #they have #and it goes even more so for victoria bc shes one of the orphaned companions who has nowhere to go back to #(sidenote i was thinking the other day about how many classic companions have nowhere they want to go back to particularly with 1 2 and 5 #which fits with the whole 'cant control the tardis so they cant ever go back so we better make companions who dont want to' #idk i just love that so many of the classic exits are companions finding a new home/realising they can do good in this new place #like they can never go back to their old home and they end up with their temporary tardis family until they find somewhere new to call home #and ik we rarely see the outcomes of these decisions so we dont know if they were the right ones but still) #anyway this was about victoria #in conclusion: i love her and her exit #doctor who #victoria waterfield #jamie mccrimmon #second doctor

[beatcroc]

pest control TWO!!!!! heres the first one

adn heres the obligatory bonus bc i can't help myself :')

#i already threatened that little basard twice in these i may as well make good on it #pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #fake peppino #the noise #fp ''oh god wait that is not a real rat and also tastes awful'' moments. he doesnt actually have any interest in eating that thang ok #even if seeing a small scampering little guy like that WILL activate his prey drive without fail #peppino loves it he thinks it's the funniest shit in the world for fp to go after noise. so he is always encouraging this. #but anyway yeah. fp is *really* not the one noise should be worried about. #arting #pizzaposting #i still have lots of tag room thjis time so im gonna do some tangential nonsense rambling. e #fp gotta be like crazy good at hunting i think. not just for strength and predator instincts but also bc like #he doesn't have much in the way of a scent or body heat or anything that would give him away as an alive thing #not to mention he's uh... not particularly organically-shaped a lot of the time #so esp. to smaller prey that don't like... memorize a landscape; if he holds very still he's like completely undetectable #total ambush king. though i'm sure hes also very good at #persistence and pursuit hunting since he has peppino's speed and no way of getting muscle fatigue. ultimate beast #fortunately he doesnt care that much and doesnt really need to eat so hes not devastating the local ecosystem or anything #except for the rats.

[hedgehog-moss]

i love your blog and everything you post! you are basically living my dream life, and i sometimes despair of ever achieving anything close to it myself. part of me wonders how you accomplished this feat of owning a small farm in the mountains and taking care of these animals (though you obviously don’t have to explain!) bc i’m not sure i’ll ever be in a position to buy property at all, much less enough land to live on in this way. anyway. my real question, if you’re willing to answer (or haven’t already somewhere i didn’t see!), is—does your farm produce? like, are you growing crops or maybe intend to sell llama fibre? or is it more of a hobby farm? (which is not a pejorative term, just in case anyone is unfamiliar with it! just means a farm that isn’t run for profit, essentially)

Hi, I’m glad you like this blog <3 I don’t mind questions, though I prefer to answer more personal ones privately (off-anon.) But as for your last question—I initially intended to use this land to start a small business, but unfortunately I moved here in mid-2019 and so I was planning on using my first year to get settled, look for local artisans etc. and then start construction work in the spring of 2020. Which turned out to be as we all know the ideal moment in history to embark on such an adventure. It was hard to get anything started in 2021 too, we were still having national lockdowns until almost halfway through the year and I couldn’t plan anything in advance as I didn’t know what the rest of the year would look like. Then this year with the Ukraine war and the huge increase in the price of just about everything + shortages of various materials it’s been difficult to plan for things / get things done as well (and I’ve had to revise my entire budget.)

So yeah I had exciting plans for this place (I even did a presentation at my region's Chamber of Commerce back in 2018, and had their support) but they got completely derailed by Current Events for the past three years, it's a bit discouraging. But we've all been having a hard time since 2020 haven't we, and I’m really lucky that I get to live here at all (and that I got to spend the lockdowns in a rural place.) I’m also glad I got my animals in my first year here; at least I have company as I wait to see how things will unfold ! Plus taking care of animals makes it hard to look at the past year and feel like you’ve accomplished nothing, because they would disagree.

#ask #(no reblogs please) #i've only been able to do things at the top of my list this year like change the very old windows in the house and #build the greenhouse #which is already great and i'm delighted about the greenhouse #but everything else is still kind of stalled for reasons beyond my control #i won't even get to use my greenhouse much this winter—it has a small pellet stove for heat but there's a total shortage of pellets #around here at the moment. can't get a single bag until at least january and then it'll be super expensive #i'll be trying to keep it warm in more creative ways

[parameddic]

here is the question, the question is "would your muse consciously decide to let go of someone (a stranger)'s hand, if that someone slipped over the edge of a building/cliff/etc, and if they did not let go, they'd both go over the edge together?" would you muse let go if the options were 'we both die' or 'just one'. that's the question

#controversial: #in the heat of the moment and without time to find any alternatives and rapidly cascading toward the edge and #with only milliseconds to spare and with so much apology and so much guilt. tk would let go #(controversial: Tommy would actively Order him to let go ''that's an order'' style because she would want to protect him #from having to make that decision himself. he loves his captain. he would make it himself if he had to.) #but i do think there is space for self-preservation and in fact Demand for self-preservation in the role and TK is willing to die #trying to save someone and he is happy to and Would stay in a burning bus to give cpr to a woman underwater #he is very no holds barred. but there is a difference between 'backup has to be on the way' or 'just a little longer' and #the acute 'there is no time' and he cannot Buy time and he is not Strong enough and the options really are A or B #in that scenario. and that is a very bare bones scenario. in most versions of this scenario he would hold out and find an alternative #PS pls don't. pls no 'my muse flatly rejects the premise' answers #that's nice but ksjdflksj it rejects the premise of my question and my question. Is Entirely The Premise

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!' #(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

[solarisgod]

Me while I was just infodumping / ranting about OSDDID for a full hour to my beloved

#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ OOC . › #[ saw something Bad relating to OSDDID ( off rp dash ) that made me go squinty eyed and BOY ] #[ had a whole ass OSDDID 101 lecture at 9 to 10pm damn ] #[ FNDSGBSJLDKGJN;SNG; ] #[ I just. yeah having DID sucks given the symptoms but. I do very much love my starmates so dearly much ] #[ it's moments like this even in a heat of a moment that make me grow more grateful and appreciative of my cluster ] #[ ugh I'm being a sleepy sappy star don't mind me <3 goodnight o+< ]

[italianpersonwithashippersheart]

I have so many conflicting feelings about Dangerous Romance.

On the one hand, I do ultimately enjoy watching the episodes, and I especially enjoy all the positive posts on my dash about it. And I do find myself agreeing with some of the meta. And I also understand why so many people on my dash are enjoying this.

On the other hand, it's hard not to agree with the people that are not enjoying this, and with the very understandable criticism they are making on how the show is handling the poor vs rich themes.

The conflicting emotions are not helped by the fact that that while I can see that both Perth and Chimon are doing great job, especially individually. They do not have the right chemestry to be in a romance togher. It's giving 2gether the series vibes (not the sequel, which was better, the first season).

I don't know where this is going. Just like I don't know in which camp I fall more into regarding this show. Just wanted to put my thoughts out there.

#txt #i find myself hoping that they will not pair the two of them up again #dangerous romance #the blushing maiden thing in the year of our lord 2023 is not helping either #especially since whatever you can say about the plot both cutie pie and naughty babe handled the shyness of kuea and kondiao much better #they are both very shy in talking about it and kuea had a bit of a shy moment the morning after their first time #but ultimately they are willing consenting and in the case of kondiao very dominating during the actual act #and both ships have great chemestry both in and out of heat scenes #with this two it just feels forced #like it's not quite there but we are all made to pretend it is #idk

[transmascsonicthehedgehog]

I wonder if Sonic's dream of not being noticed is meant to be a subtle callback to the last Twitter Takeover where all everyone could say that him changing the water filter was the most impressive thing he's done

ohh :(

#YKNOW i keep thinking about this #i really really really need them to go more in depth with sonic. as a character. by himself. #sonic. as a character. is so interesting to me. probably the most interesting of the bunch because... he bottles up so much #he never talks about his true feelings #hes always wearing a grin. he never lets anything get him down even in the heat of the moment #or so we think. #the boy is riddled with trauma. years worth of trauma. we dont know the REAL sonic if that makes sense? yeah? #i dont doubt that he holds himself in high regard. i dont doubt that he likes himself etc #however #the very icon of freedom is not free. #the metal virus... frontiers... etc... #sonic the hedgehog is not free. he bottles himself away from others and keeps his true feelings and thoughts to himself. #justin replies

[chloeseyeliner]

this goes out to all the people with comfortable and/or rich friends...

maybe it's been said too many times by now, but do you sometimes feel like your said friends are out of touch with today's reality?

listen, i love my friend. i truly love her and, apart from that, believe that she is the only person in my life who can understand me when it comes to anything at all... except for money.

like some hours ago, when she found out her favourite artist is touring or something this summer and one of their stops is our country, and she was so excited and asked me to come with her.

so, i check the price.

and exit the site immediately.

and our conversation goes like this- and it could be worse if it wasn't now, because it's been less than a year that i have finally accepted we come from very different backgrounds and i should tell her the truth and not some intricate excuse of the reason why i cannot attend anything anywhere and anytime:

her: "OMG, COME WITH ME TO THE CONCERT, PLEASE, IT'S GONNA BE AWESOME!!"

me: "i cannot, because of the ticket-it's, like, 125€"

**silence**

me: "it's. 125. euros???!!"

her: "oh. yeah."

and, like, thank god she understood without explanation because what do i tell her here? that this amount of money is what i am supoosed (key-word) to spend for a month and a half in the supermarket if i want to have a "balanced diet"????

just. wanted to get this off my chest, i guess.

#i very much hope she has the time of her life btw #also #another one particular moment where our worlds were close to anything but colliding was so funny #it was a summer or two ago i think??? i was still a teen i don't remember exactly #and i was eating ketchup and mustard with bread because. reasons. #and she was like 'dude i got a new phone!!!' #and it was so funny #anyway #i don't want to talk about this online #but i just wanted to emphasise how different worlds can collide unexpectedly sometimes #omg do you think that's why i love simon from young royals so much? #(joke....) #anyway again #i am not complaining in this post #i have a roof under my head and food and often heat and i am fine with what i have #because other people don't have anything or anyone #and i am lucky #that's all #long rant #?? #rant #sorry i had to #rich people

[toadcircus]

currently feeling a strange sense of belonging and calm that i havn't felt in a while. i havn't missed it as a feeling, i just havn't noticed it missing until i felt it again.

just moved 99% of my things back into my parents house where i will be staying for a little while. i've already been here for a few months. i wonder if its the moving the things back that has brought this on?

i think i just feel safe i guess. cosy

#little bony horribles #cosy?? wrong word bc its fukin BOILING at the moment... my bedroom window is west facing so i get all the afternoon sun and my room heats #beyond human comprehension #i am actually so sleepy... spent this mornign writing a cover letter and the afternoon cleaning the flat #then spent the evening organising washing/ clean washing and making my bed and unpacking a box and oof #so glad i made my bed though i put the mattress topper on it which is memory foam and im SOO excited to sleep on a soft bed again #my mum just got a new mattress for the spare room for when my grandma stays #its acc my room but ofc when im not there it is a spare one but its still all done up like my childhood bedroom (eeksville) #but yeah it is very much not a comfy mattress in my eyes but then again maybe i am spoiled by the memory foam topper #i find it so much easier to write in tags than in a post i feel like i say this every post hah but its just true #its 10:30pm good fucking nihgt

[sbd-laytall]

Avatar: The Last Airbender-Smoke and Shadow #2

#no it why is this so true #look I have nothing against Kataang #they're a wholesome ship and I very much enjoy their moments #but the whole 'sweetie' thing has got to go #it just feels so unnatural because pet names are just not what I think they would actually do #'sweetie' is not bad but it just feels wrong with them #maybe it's cause they're so young #I don't know #every time I have to see them call each other that it's like a part of my soul shrivels up #again not against Kataang as a couple just against them using pet names #why am I so heated about this LMAO #aang #aang the last airbender #prince zuko #fire lord zuko #zuko #avatar the last airbender #avatar #atla comics #atla #smoke and shadow #my post

[alaraxia]

wait but what happened to vesper’s blaze fight 👀

This is slightly longer than I anticipated and just for potential spoiler sake I'm putting it under a readmore to save people from extra scrolling:

ahhhhhh yeah so vesper is a hero hunter and was there to kick blaze's ass specifically, and she's not overly arrogant but figured that "all these people need to witness just how outmatched their heroes are" and also that tactically the delegation would make good cover because blaze's powers were so dangerous in enclosed spaces so she stuck in the room after dropping in and destroying the dampeners.

She was goading blaze and making sure to stay just out of his reach the whole time, and then there was the "if it isn't the consequences of my own actions" moment of the choice of dodging the punch and letting some dude get crisped vs just eating the hit.

Vesper's not particularly heroic right now, she's not being a villain for any secretly "good" reasons, but a combination of spending time around the rangers and being treated like a person again/being angry at heroes as a whole/only really being interested in hurting heroes and agents led to her sorta old sidestep instincts kicking in and she opted to eat the punch.

Did you know that if you don't have the armor upgrade that punch hits your suit for 40%? :'^)

So in the end she still came out on top because she was able to throw what just happened back in blaze's face and have everyone there witness it too, added bonus of him now being conflicted even though definitely not what she was originally aiming for, but yeah she is not tech savvy and I have no suit self repair options so I am very worried for book 3 fights unless I find some.

Anyway you should go ask @pffpth what happened to Morgan during their blaze fight, it was also bad but in a completely different way.

#she was fucking SEETHING for letting herself take that punch after #was very much an on instinct thing in the heat of the moment #stupid fucking rangers and their stupid fucking treatment of her like she's a real person who matters #vesper #fallen hero #fh:r #ask

[disastroboy]

alright but seriously can we discuss the editing decisions in go s2. i just gotta ask why we couldn't hold on crowley and aziraphale's reaction shot to gabriel and beelzebub holding hands for more than like 50 frames. instead we got a solid 30 seconds of don draper in the coraline tunnel

#im moving this though t from tag to draft to post #i saw don draper on the dash and got heated again #i just have questions bro #i have a lot of questions about how a gigantic production like good omens gets made but i have very specific questions for the decision to #show me so much jon hamm flying #and not so much #main characters having moments together

[alienducky]

Dear brain. I would like one Ability To Do Fekking ANYTHING please and thank you

#duckpond stuff #i am having A Moment #and i dont know if its because hormones or heat or lack of sugar the last few days #but i would very much like the energy and concentration to do something pls #preferably alligator head because im so so close to being done and then i just have to do things like inside mouth and back bumps #and then i am DONE done with it #and can go back to wyvern wings and secrets and not feeling guilty for writing #nnnnnnngh #someone tell me to crochet #i need external motivation and potential guilt fueled consequences

[alister312]

oughhhh i think i somehow recreated what i imagine tweak bros coffee tastes like 😵‍💫

#i have this really shitty instant coffee but i bought 3 jars of it at Costco so I drink it anyway #but today I decided to heat up milk and add the coffee to that instead of hot water (like a latte) #but i kinda burned the milk and then added wayyy too much of the instant coffee #and I tried to add some hot cocoa mix to make it better but the mix is a little expired so I think that made it worse 😔 #this coffee Tastes and im suffering #i swear I’m good at cooking this is just a very low moment for me

[tchaikovskaya]

Lol

#was talking to my sister about the d*pp trial and she’s kind of in the ‘he’s an abuser and is bad but amber seems like a toxic bitch too #and they’re famous so who cares’ camp #and then I reminded her of some of the genuinely cruel shit she has said to me or to our mom in the heat of the moment #bc one of her big sticking points was that whole ‘go and tell the world then and we’ll see who believes you’ soundbite #and asked how she would feel if those were recorded for posterity and brought up to nullify anything we might ever have done to harm her #and she… did not like that very much lmao but I hope she saw the light #(we used to get in awful nasty fights as teenagers but it’s fine now and I love her and don’t hold that against her)