#and u don’t already have one of these

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[smuby]

are they truly your favorite character if you don’t mess around with their design a lil

#i already have a miss pauling design someone claim this one #im serious u don’t even have to ask me #tf2 #smub art #team fortress 2 #team fortress two #miss pauling

[fumifooms]

Hien & Benichidori compilation

Okay so I put a & but this absolutely a shippy post, the hienichidori community is quiet af and there is no discourse but their comics in their Adventurer’s Bible profiles…!!! Many may ask, does Benichidori canonically have a crush on Hien?! Straightforward answer: It’s left heavily implied but yes. Alternate answer: If the framing of Falin in an explosion as Toshiro says that he loves her isn’t meant to associate the explosion with falling in love when it is mirrored in the next page, then… I think it’s a mix of both, I don’t think just this is true because Hien wouldn’t know who Shuro is talking about or even what Falin looks like, but it could be that the explosion is instead meant to show a world vision being shaken, the thing blowing you away. So for Hien, having Shuro say that breaks this unsaid assumption she’s always had that they might end up together, and thus Falin is taken like an explosion to the face. Similarly, for someone with facial dysmorphia and for who appearances and being subservient are everything, having Hien be confident and totally assume her plain looks, even uplifting herself, that also shakes her world like a bomb. And yes it’s not just about the makeup!! Benichidori’s drawn to her confidence, to her unapologetic attitude, to her attitude. Benichidori unexpectedly snapped at Hien too, but she was totally unshaken and she replied casually and lightheartedly even then; Benichidori saying she can be herself with Hien is about Hien not caring about her mask, both her makeup and her subdued demeanor. Hien is canonically special to Benichidori.

And on the note of that comic, I took a picture from my Adventurer’s Bible for this but I think the fantranslations I’ve seen are lovely too, really gets across all the meaning of the original sentence… Where Benichidori said "She was the only one I could be my unadorned self in front of" (which is my fave) or "I’m able to act my honest self with her". Benichidori having body(more specifically facial) dysmorphia is explicitly stated in the Adventurer’s Bible btw.

Pleasee how Hien’s extra is her talking about her life story and Toshiro to Benichidori… How Hien says "That guy is blind!" and Benichidori says "I’ve noticed that 😊" as if saying that Toshiro is blind to what a catch Hien is… Also in the ninja girls’ shared inn room Benichidori puts her futon next to Hien’s bed.

#Dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #hien #benichidori #hienichidori #Hienbeni #Nakamatsu would also be cute #Hien x benichidori #Benichidori x hien #I would make this part of my rarepair series but they don’t need it they already have interest + i don’t have much to write #Hope this can boost them in the ship tourney… The Flokes are a worthy adversary #dunmeshi rarepairs #Sorryyy some of them are blurrier… As always #Will add more if I find more #That one hienichidori fic on ao3… Thank u for ur service you 100% see the vision #I don’t even think Hien truly crushed on Toshiro but the unrequited angst from benichidori’s pov is also very tasty #they have sm potential #Hienidori as a nickname #Benihien #Rarepair spotlight #Benichihien #Incredible that Benichidori could find such a positive bond in such an hostile environment tbh

[elesketchii]

every day i’m walten filing

#repost cuz i didn’t realize i already posted that jophie drawing LOLL #neway if u see me posting every other day no u don’t #heart emoji #i’m on vacay and i have too much time on my hands #working on rdr2 art plus good omens art plus more walten files art plus oc art and the list keeps going as time passes #i’m one step away from getting carpal tunnel #the walten files #the walten files fanart #twf #twf fanart #sophie walten #jack walten #rosemary walten #molly walten #ed walten #analog horror #my art #digital art #fanart

[astrobei]

will byers is:

a sweater thief ✅

clingy ✅

a morning person ❌

#one day i will be able to draw mike wheeler in glasses and not have him look like richie tozier #that day is not today but it’ll happen eventually #anyways this doesn’t Exactly convey the feeling i was going for but #at least it made it out of the procreate graveyard #one day i will also draw something tht isn’t one of them sleeping on the other #again. today is not that day #will is a lil sleepyhead it’s true he told me himself #i think he would just come up behind mike and absolutely shove his face into mike’s neck and just stand there #mike: are u literally asleep already #will: ….. #(no response) #(bc he’s asleep) #byler #will byers #mike wheeler #/astro draws #don’t look too hard at this pls n thank u #i gave up on shading halfway through i simply didn’t have it in me to Care anymore

[autism-alley]

hi originally posted this at the end of a long thread of back and forth, here’s the og post if you want full context but i feel like this needs to be its own post especially bc i keep seeing this argument being made—the argument that the kids (in this case it was annabeth) SHOULD just know the monsters are monsters and who they are and how to defeat them before ever encountering them, that it’s a problem if they don’t.

the problem is not if 12 year olds should recognize a trap when they see one, even if they’re smart 12 year olds, and if that’s realistic. that is entirely beside the point.

the problem is rick riordan wrote a book series whose formula is bringing myths to the modern age and he’s not sticking true to that in the show—percy jackson and the olympians’ Shtick is taking these classic, ancient threats and giving them a new face. these traps work because these kids are not walking into a cave marked with Get Out and getting ambushed by monsters—the monsters are disguised as harmless mortal human beings, in harmless mortal human being places (for the most part) and i think we—and more importantly, the show—are all forgetting the mist, the magic involved here. it’s not just that medusa is a “creepy lady with her eyes covered” it’s that there is ancient magic at work here, magic that, like the systems of abuse pjo exists to criticize, has been evolving and continuing its malevolence for millennia. it’s formulaic, that’s the point. it’s the same trap you’ve learned about all your childhood, the same trap a thousand children before you learned all their childhoods, and still, it works. you fall into the trap. because that’s how generational abuse works. it’s a trap. it isn’t enough to learn monsters exist, what they look like from a second hand story that originated thousands of years ago. if you want to escape alive, you have to adapt as quickly as they do, recognize their face, and ultimately, beyond any individual trap, the game itself has to change. real, generational change.

so. the problem is rick riordan wrote a series with a formula for action that perfectly captures the overarching, systemic conflicts he was commentating on, and then threw that formula out in the show because it was “unrealistic”. i don’t give a damn about realism when it works to the detriment of the story. this is a story about generational abuse, yes, but it’s told through ‘a tale as old as time’ and that’s why it works so fucking well. and when it comes to basic storytelling, if your characters know the threat before they even walk in and you do practically nothing to then make up for the stakes you have removed, that’s a flaw. now you’ve lost the entertainment value for your audience, on top of also lessening your themes.

something else that is so. honestly soul-crushing as a writer and a creative, is that to me this is reflective of the way we are now afraid to tell earnest stories. stories where we care not for listening to the people who want to pick apart fictional, mythical, fantasy stories for not being “realistic” instead of aligning with our target audience who acknowledges reality is not what makes a story. think of your favorite movie, show, book, comic, what have you—has the reason for your favoritism ever been because it is the most reasonable, the most grounded, the most practical out of any you’ve seen? or is it because of the emotion? the way it speaks to you, to your life and the person you are? the journey it takes you on? is the percy jackson and the olympians book series so good because it’s inherently realistic?

the secret to storytelling is, very simply, focus on your story. everything else is secondary. if it’s written well, it doesn’t matter to me that the characters walk into a trap that, to the audience, is obviously a trap. because i can understand how the characters don’t know it, and how the story falls apart if the narrative just tells the characters it’s a trap from the jump. that’s what dramatic irony is—first used in greek tragedies! this is literally a tale as old as time in every sense except for the end—where it’s happy. and it’s not earned if we don’t first see, over and over, the status quo as a tragic trap.

it’s not about if annabeth (or the other kids) is “smart enough” to not walk into a trap, or about if she’s just too prideful to not walk into what she knows is a trap (or any reason that could apply to the other characters), it’s that annabeth, at the end of the day, is a character. she is a storytelling tool for the messages of the narrative. that doesn’t make her any lesser. in fact ignoring it reduces her, because it reduces what she represents. it’s about how rick riordan, or whoever else at disney, has fumbled the storytelling bag so ridiculously hard that they can’t take the simple, effective formula outlined from start to finish (by good ol 2009 rick himself) and adapt it to the screen without answering the most unimportant, derailing, anti-story questions.

#one of the ppl who reblogged the og post said whatever happened to suspension of disbelief and i could have kissed them on the mouth #yes exactly #this new age of audiences who praise ‘realism’ over good storytelling i hate u #‘content over cinema’ i hate u. #i’m not even a screenwriter but any writer can tell you #we’re talking foundations of the craft here #and the worst part is rick already succeeded in the books #if it ain’t broke don’t fix it #where along this path did he lose sight of everything he set out to say? #anyways this is its own post now go forth and do with it what u will #pjo #percy jackson #pjo show crit #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo tv show #percy jackson tv show #annabeth chase #ris raves

[mikeslawyer]

established mike and will regularly have the i love you more, no, i love you more argument that doesn’t end until the someone from the party tells them to shut the fuck up after an hour

#literally u all know i’m right #they’re one of those INSUFFERABLE codependent couples #u know they are #but like in a healthy way #not in a ‘i don’t want to see my friends when i have a bf’ #but more in a ‘he’s already my best friend but i’m also in love w him so we’re even more of a package deal than before’ #byler #mike wheeler #byler endgame #will byers #stranger things

[theloveinc]

I also like the idea of Bakugo having a lil crush on Kirishima’s secretary. He’s somewhat formal with his own staff, so seeing how sweet you are to Kiri when you pat his shoulder when you drop off papers, or he to you when coffee is ordered just gets him so… flustered and itchy under the collar. Not knowing how to feel.

Bakugo doesn’t even realize it’s jealousy at first, and especially not when he has an interview planned with Kiri, and you’re there too, being just as kind to him as you are to your own boss.

#bakugo #kirishima #cue: the boys fighting #I love kiribaku don’t get me wrong but also ‘I had them first!!!!’ is making my cooter feel things #then cue: Bakugo forcing himself into your and kiris relationship LOL #you have a casual movie date?? bam Bakugo is there #LOOOOOL blushing up a storm #and you have to be like ‘if u want to kiss me u have to kiss ei too’ LMFAOO AND HES SO BLUSHY #or not. just more fighting. I like both lowkey #I have more thoughts on this but … not now #different ones #oh my god I just had to pick up meds for my grandma and that sh*t was a pain in my *SS #gonna take myself out to eat later #tho I already got a coffee and donut tee hee #anyway #gen #shii posts

[myork]

sweaty messy hair jungkook for @jung-koook ♡

#bts #btsgif #jungkook #dailybts #jungkooksource #maknaelinegifs #trackofthesoul #mgfs #happy birthday sky !! ♡ #thank you for always being so kind to me and always helping me out <3 ur truly one of the nicest people here and u deserve all the support #and love <3 don’t let anyone tell you otherwise !! 😠 #this is for u i hope u like it 🤡 i made it under an hour because i desperately didnt want the clock to hit 12 but then i realised ur day is #probably already over :/ #anyways ignore how inconsistent and random this is i just wanted to whip up something quick for u wish i had taken out time and made #something more coordinated :/ im sorry:/ but anyways i hope u enjoyed ur day <3 god bless and have an amazing rest of the year ahead <3

[why-the-heck-not]

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#uhh idk reminders to self that one (1) cup of coffee straight after waking up is enough #u don’t need 2 cups in the first like half an hour #also yes i think im funny and my brain read this in that Welcome to Nightvale voice for some reason #i’ll go listen to a podcast and do dishes like that’s the calmest thing to do when u have bunch of nervous energy #also just had a zoom call that was like 10mins but did I manage to say even one thing? nope i did not and now i started my day very poorly #with feeling like I already failed a task (no but like rly had nothing to add to things and im bad at just talking if it’s not necessary) #september 2023 #2023

[venichors]

#honadog & sakifes….. drops to my knees #my main only has 22k and considering i already (accidentally) have 3 akito lims & i don’t like the kaito card…. #(THE GEMS R ON MY ALT heh…. scratches neck) #pleaspleapseplease be nice and give at least one of them to me so i can spark the other if u make me chose i will loseit #honasaki #saki tenma #honami mochizuki #prsk #project sekai #prsk fa #my art

[sweetmctart]

#lookism #park jonggun #gun park #goo kim #kim joongoo #im never finishing the one of gun bru I’ve given up on it☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️ #i don’t have a lil watermark thing on this so pls dont steal this or wtv #I said this on my twt already but do u thimk goo would have dimples…………… #THINK ABT IT #i wanna boil them both #crack them open #then eat them like balut

[divinebunni]

i don’t know who needs to hear this but good men do exist, they are soft and gentle and respectful, they hold you when you cry and pet your hair and place gentle kisses over your whole body and learn every little thing they can about you and strive to keep you safe and be a friend as well as a lover and they treat everyone and animals with respect and don’t say misogynistic sexist racist phobic things and they sing with you loudly in the car and let you braid their hair as practice and say i love you without you having to say it first and express their love for you in front of everyone and they look at you deeply and support your every decision and lowest moment and wish nothing but greatness for your health and mental betterment and treat women and men and all with such kindness. good men exist, good men deserve the same love and respect and kindness and support that you would give to anyone with a good soul. good men understand, and they will always be here with genuine hearts

#thoughts #felt it needed to be said like #just because one celebrity finally shows everyone that good men exist unapologetically #they are all around us and deserve to be seen and appreciated #good hearts calling out to good hearts #men have bright souls and a gentle disposition if you don’t keep your eyes closed just because you had a bad experience with men #like yes men can suck and be awful but so are women and so can be anyone #and while i am thankful pedro pascal is showing what good men look like let us not ignore the fact #that he isnt the only one #he just happens to be famous and now in the public eye and obviously is someone men should strive to be #but some men are already that wholesome and giggly and soft and kind and genuine and i want to acknowledge them #i love u bois #bunni speaks

[clambuoyance]

I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me

#sighs yes before anyone says anything IK it’s probably adhd related 😭 #BUT ITS GOTTEN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BRAIN HOW DID IT GET WORSE #it’s probably a mix of burnout too but I don’t get tired of drawing ? #it feels like when u get dizzy or change glasses or so #and it’s either everything is wayyy too in focus and you can see literally everything clearly that it hurts ur brain #which doesn’t help given how saturated w information the world is always #and simultaneously somehow everything is blurry or out of focus and I physically have to strain myself to hone in on one thing #I JUST WANNA READ COMICS AND FINISH A DRAWING AND HANDLE WORK AND SCHOOL AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS #ALL IN OME DAY #BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. TODAY IS ONLY FOR COMICS. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ESLE #😫🫶 I’m deleting this later I’m just ranting LMAO #I’m highschool it’s crazy bc I did okay and then honestly i just think my ability to concentrate has deteriorated as the years have gone by #free me!!! #either way I want to lessen my social media and just pick One bc girl I have an Instagram a tumblr and a twitter this is horrible for me . #honestly I’ll probably pick instagram and just post on tumblr when I have art #I already do that #I mean when I have Good art. #IM RAMBLING IDK

[vcrnons]

thank you @justsomekpopstuff for tagging me to do a bias check🥺🩵

(i am willing to consider that perhaps, my friend was right when she told me that i have a type)

tagging (w zero pressure!) : @eoieopda @husbandhoshi @ikigaisvt @chwedout @blonde-riwoo @woozification @fairyhaos @aceofvernons @bandzboy && everyone else who wants to play too! @/you!!

#shut up j #tag games! #jj 🦌 #there are ofc other groups I listen to but none to the degree where im sorting biases etc so this was what came to mind immediately ? #i do also have multiple biases in those groups but if u pinned me to a wall and said PICK ONE it would be these guys. so. #(ur looking at the bitch with basically an ot13 bias line do be serious) (besides the joke isn’t as funny if i don’t do it this way) #(pls understand thanks) #(also sorry if u already did this i. at any given time. have no clue what’s going on !)

[victimized-martyr]

Do you think Kenny actually likes cartman? I’m not so sure since the reading of his will in s9e4 (https://youtu.be/QGx92r8NLIM)

I feel like nobody likes him but Kyle is the only one who thinks he can possibly get better at all.

I agree on some level with that last statement. Due to Kyle's morals and complicated attachment to Cartman, he would be the only one willing to nurture the potential Cartman has, though I'd say Cartman isn't universally hated as one would assume. I think Kenny and Cartman's friendship deepened off screen since s9. It shows itself strongly in the covid specials and post-covid (not post covid the special, I mean like.. after the actual irl covid and.. ARGH mattrey u make my life so difficult)     

      Kenny was the one to approach Cartman about the fragility of the broship and inspires Cartman to be the one to make sure the gang stays together. That's a level of openness and vulnerability that frankly, I haven't seen him share with Stan or Kyle. Quite the opposite in fact-- When Kenny finally admits he's immortal, Stan and Kyle dismiss him in their own way. Neither have made the move to sympathize with him since, especially at the level Cartman does in the covid episodes. Now, Cartman's "sympathetic" method of coddling Kenny wasn't the best thing to do I'd say, the show was clear  Stan, Kyle and Cartman weren’t handling the broship fallout well, but Cartman definitely proved himself as the “best friend” the show has claimed he’s been in prioritizing Kenny during Covid. We even get a verbal reminder from Cartman and Kyle in Post-Covid that despite it being the literal worst future for everyone, Cartman and Kenny’s friendship thrived. With the opposite lives they lead, it's astounding they remained best friends for forty years.

That level of loyalty is kicking Stan and Kyle in the dirt and laughing rn. Look at Dikinbaus! Cartman and Kenny had a blast “planning the business” (ie living it up as owners and mutually taking advantage of Butters to just pal around) and Cartman once again concedes to Kenny when he lets him work from home. It’s a gag first and foremost, but still, I think it works as part of character analysis lolol. I’m analyzing this a lot from Cartman’s perspective, or at least his actions, but I don’t rlly have much to go by on Kenny’s end and I hope y’all can see why lol. excluding the Mysterion arc and the s22 Halloween episode, he’s a passive character. things rly just are happening to this dude. 

Cartman's attachment to Kenny has grown exponentially since the early seasons ("I hate yew guys/ specially kinny/ ah hate em the most/") whereas we've heard directly from Kenny what he thought of Cartman at the time s9 was written but we don't really know what he thinks of Cartman presently. Now, mattrey have written Kenny's quietness and frequent disappearances as part of the charm of his character--the mysteriousness with a pinch of hidden sadness, maybe a dash of loneliness--and not like, a serious writing pitfall of not knowing what to do with one of your main characters, not giving them the chance to let the audience see their motivations. So the uncertainty surrounding Kenny's true opinions, in this case of his friendship with Cartman, isn't by accident. I'd say it's fair to assume Kenny now views Cartman as a best friend, given how much Cartman has done for him.

I’d also say it’s fair to assume the pity for Cartman hasn’t changed.

#asks #south park #eric cartman #kenny mccormick #kennman #sure this could be seen as kennman why not lol #now Kyle believes cartman can change and maybe kenny can see it too but kenny definitely isn’t proactive enough to put in the effort to #see it thru #Kenny’s friendship with Cartman has grown to become the least tumultuous of the m4 #so Kenny doesn’t need to feel compelled to search for the food in cartman. he already sees in in their friendship #on a writing level it’s just… off to have Cartman and Kenny go thru so much only for Kenny to still have the same opinions of Cartman in s9 #they’ve taken on this weird new role where Cartman takes it upon himself to console kenny in addition to stringing hm along in his schemes #ohh but as much as i’ve said that kyle sees good in cartman and wants to be the one to help see that goodness come to fruition #it’s also try that as of s20 Kyle’s been disillusioned #he told heidi ‘Cartman will never change’ and I think that was a wake up call for himself as much as it was for heidi #when cartman gave up the pangolin all kyle said was ‘i don’t believe it’ #when cartman said he converted kyle refused to give cartman a chance even at the end of the special #s7 kyle would’ve clung to the promise of cartman changing with rosy eyes full of hope #that hope for cartman ain’t dead but dormant rn. the heiman arc rly burnt him out #Cartman get off ur ass and win Kyle back pls he’s so done w/ u rn my guy he will Nope himself out of stories now so he won’t deal w/ u #(kyle’s absence in streaming wars was rly felt) #wait in streaming wars kyle had a ‘he can change 🥺’ moment when he went ‘🥺’ for cartman when talkin abt the surgery #he was on everyone’s case abt the surgery he was on top of managing cartman’s boat building quality #but yeah cartman ended up taking the money for himself and. now we’re fuckin back to square one :)) #although i’d say in streaming wars cartman didn’t withhold the deets on the surgery on purpose. he didn’t know what was going on #when he went to talk to the guys and he was genuine. #A​NAYWAYS FUCK OK STOP TALKING EPSERANZA GOD