#and then he said its bc I got mad so I said i didnt just like my mom used to deny bad feelings

[needylittlegirl]

if you dont “believe” in aftercare you deserve to get run over by a bus btw

#tbd #saw a crazy tweet now im just thinkin abt how many people dont think aftercare is necessary #my ex didnt think it was needed ever #he would do crazy things specifically to avoid anything that could be taken as care or intimacy after sex #and it did awful things to my brain!! #i have such a weird relationship with sex now because i’ve never experienced aftercare #its crazy that people think its an absolute necessity #i remember one time he left immediately like he always did #so obviously i started crying cause its very confusing to have sex and then the person just walks out not even 5 mins after!! #especially for how young i was it was Confusing #and he came back cause he forgot his wallet or something so he saw me crying #got mad at me it become an argument etc etc cause i told him why i was crying #and he said to me and i Quote #‘expecting a guy to care about you after sex is idiotic and immature- #‘you should be glad you’re even getting laid in the first place so take what you can get and stop expecting guys to care abt anything else’ #which is an insane thing to say and i Believed it for years #the fact i was sitting there crying and i told him it was bc he made me feel like he hated me and i was awful and a worthless girlfriend?? #and that was his response ??? how crazy do you have to be #anyways. aftercare is always necessary and if you dont provide then one of you is gonna be suffering

[guinevereslancelot]

most fucked up thing at my new job is there's only zero calorie sweeteners at the coffee station in the break room. three different kinds of zero calorie sweetener but no regular sugar because the assumption is that literally everyone is on a diet?

#is this because its a job dominated by women in particular??? idk #that's so weird #like sorry i can taste the difference and i prefer naturally occurring sugar from nature how is that not even an option #drinking nasty bitter af coffee bc i am So Sleepy but i refuse to use artificial sweeteners #they Do taste different and they're not even good for you im not doing that lol #also they got mad at me for telling one of the parents that we took one of the kids temperature and it was 99 and he threw up a little #when his dad came to get him yesterday and all of the other teachers were nowhere to be found #they were like tou shouldnhave had colleen do that #ma'am colleen went home before that and so did you #i should have left already too but waited bc the ratio on the playground was bad #anyway i did NOT say he had a fever i said it was 99 and to talk to the teacher inside #but the dad didnt yalk to her clearly then went home and scared the mom that he had a fever and threw up so she texted my boss freaking out #i literally just said he threw up a little and we took his temperature and it was 99 and to talk to the other teacher #which was all true and there was no one else there to tell him #anyway #apparently the person who had my job before me was a wacko who scared the parents with fake medical information or something #but that is not my fault and nobody told me that or not to tell the parents anything medical until this morning #ugh #also my supervisor is kind of a weirdo #she wanted to show everyone ~cute~ pictures of animals she has killed while hunting??? #and i said i didnt want to see #and she was like ~oh it's not dead yet in the picture~ #like okay but its dead now??? #she traps them first so its a cute little fox in a trap about to be killed 😭 #like wtfff #i know trappong predators is a reality but why take pictures like ohhh so cute then kill it #THEN show everyone the cute pictures like yeah isnt he adorable i killed him btw <3 #huh?????? #she has a bobcat tail on her keychain too she was giving it to the teachers and kids to pet like ohhh its so soft <3

[ratgingi]

woe characters inspired by some of my cats be upon ye. info on them in my tags lol

#dialtown oc #jack dlc #twerpys head is a sledgehammer bc the cat theyre based on was born in a wall lmao #he works at the petstore with outis bc i got said cat frm the local petstore #lilys head is a fluffy couch pillow thing and she works at an animal shelter bc thats where i got the cat shes based on #twerpy is genderfluid bc we make jokes that my cat twerpy is genderfluid a lot #also i feel like shed be aroace if she were a person. its just the vibes yk #lily isnt labeled as anything shes just vibin #the 2 are part of a big sorta found family type shit that consists of chars based on my other 3 cats i just didnt feel like drawin more rn #twerpy is really mean and stuck up but is secretly super sweet it just takes them a long time to warm up enough to someone n show it #shes also secretly incredible at like. comforting people and helping them out. but again only shows it for people hes warmed up enough to #lily is super confident and full of herself and spoiled. she thinks shes super fuckin smart but she is very much Not /lh #she loves attention though and gets her feelings hurt super easy #also shes Huge on physical affection. she loves giving people hugs and holding hands and shit #like. shell be like oh im so fuckin hot and cool literally no ones on my level and of ur like eh idk that fit isnt really that good on u #she will start Crying. and get mad that youre being mean to her for no reason while sobbing #and probably will hug onto you while doing it #twerpy also gives really good hugs but they Hate being touched. so if it willingly touches you then youre incredibly lucky special #also lily loves sitting in peoples laps #if youre friends with her she is far more likely to sit on your lap instead of any chair in the room nd thats just smth youll have 2 deal w #dlc wiki

[rubiesintherough]

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#(( ooc. )) #venting tw #negativity tw #i know ive been bitching about this a lot lately but just let a girl vent pls #husband just got home and said 'you look tired you should go lie down ' #and i told him i cant. i have too much housework to do. 'well lay down after that ' #cant. because then i have more housework after that. #and he got all huffy at me like i was being dramatic #and he said 'how am i supposed to snuggle up with you if you arent laying down? c #and i shot back ' who's going to do the housework if i dont ' #and he rolled his eyes. straight up rolled his eyes. #this is the man that is constantly telling me to just ask him for more help. just make a list #yelled at me and stormed out of the house whej i told him to pls just use his eyes #bc i dont have time to make him a list of chores #and also the man who if i do ask him to do smth it doesnt get done #examples just from today. he was heading into town and i asked him to please bring the recycling with him. he didnt. #he yells at me for doing the cat litter bc its bad for my asthma. but then leaves it until its bad enough i have to do it #bc its unfair to the cats to expect them to use a litter box that bad. and then he gets mad at me for not just asking him to do it #like. its in the bathroom. right next to the toilet. he has to look at it when hes taking a shit every day. and youre telling me #he doesnt notice it? i have to remind him??? #and then i get yelled at and reprimanded for just doing it myself #' ASK FOR HELP DAMMIT! ' #i do. i do all the fucking time. i ask you to empty the garbage bc bending over makes my back scream. but you dont #and i have to power through and do it. #i ask you to bring the recycling into town to drop off. and as soon as you leave i find out you didnt even gather it up. #i ask you to please clear out the bathtub drain. for two weeks. and you brush it off until the day i decide to #do it myself and you get so passive aggressive about it and ' no ILL DO IT. the tool is back in my mom's room #guess I'll just go WAKE HER UP FROM HER NAP so i can grab it since you need it done! ' #im so tired of asking and then just being disappointed anyway. #if im gonna get yelled at anyway id rather just do it all myself so at least its done. and not sit there and beg for help and do it anyway

[miawinters]

i went from watching jerma clips to watching actual vods, and i started one where he plays one of my fav games, but he's started to struggle, and he did that youtuber/streamer thing where they rush thru the game and then start to call it bad, and it makes me wanna cover my eyes

#personal #he said 'im starting to see through the cracks' and i grimaced a bit #itd be like if i played dark souls and got mad i died. or dying in a roguelike #its an old vod obviously and back seating is frowned upon anyway but watching someone do smth wrong then call it bad bc theyre #not doing it right is a little painful lol. not even a skill way either. i'd get that. #but so many complaints were things that were in the game but he didnt look or know how to do or try to do #and theres even an easy and immortal mode. the options are there if u dont wanna engage really #im like do i just not watch his 6 hour end where he clearly isnt trying to engage and will get more sour or just go back to clips fjhsdjfks

[s4pphoiduser]

blind (2022) is driving me insane. im begging my friends to watch it but theyre either busy with exams or almost exclusively fluff/romance-watchers . i need to talk ab this w someone just hit me up or something GOD

#kdrama blind (2022) #blind 2022 spoilers #tvn ocn blind (2022) #so my theory is the same as other peoples' its confirmed that 13 yoonjae is sungjoon so im thinking sunghoon was there too (somehow idk) an #that hes 11 and jung inseong the juror is 12. 11 and 12 seem to be real brothers? bc in ep1 11 said 'go meet mom' and not 'go meet your mom #and maybe 11 and 13 escaped together after hiding under the floorboards? since sj Was adopted maybe he was taken in when the parents found #sh after they escaped together? and the thing is everyone is involved somehow so if the mother was like in a high position at the center (i #i didnt the lady at the start of ep7 for someone else) then how was sunghoon there? idk i havent gotten that far on my theory except that #hes 11. maybe they were Both adopted? so the next to die is either the lady idr her name or the producer guy. 24 + 7 r confirmed dead now #13 is sungjoon. and inseong is def connected to this somehow like the rest of the jury. ergo my theory that hes 12. also i think the body #they found w ahn taeho's phone in ep8 is jung yoonjung's (yoonjae's older sister) bc of the necklace and the size of the skeleton. so now #they've found one body from the events of 20 years ago that happened at the center. all the jurors' kids will be killed as revenge for the #parents turning a blind eye on them as kids so theyre being punished by having their beloved children taken away from them. i think its #amazing how theyre all connected they dont know it at all. choi soongil was the only one who recognized ahn taeho (bc of the scar) and #yeom hyejin didnt know her father was sending kids to be abused and enslaved. kang youngki saw kids in numbered uniforms doing hard labor #never said a word bc keeping it a secret earned him money that he spent on his own kid who wouldve been around the same age as them. #from ep8 we see that the producer made a docu on the center and just buried it. and ofc mr baek who was the ringleader of all this. #his daughter killed on her birthday and kang youngki's daughter killed on her wedding day as retribution. im sad that ahn taeho died living #a life of guilt and fear moving around all the time but at least hes free from that now. im glad he got to apologize to 'yoonjae' for it #honestly i cant be mad at ahn taeho bc he was a survivor and a child and terrified. also is it just me or did sunghoon look disappointed #when ahn taeho confessed? like thats all the evidence i have supporting my theory that hes 11 i think. ofc theres the vibes? that he and #sungjoon have more history than the shows let on so far but if he was 11 he would be so disappointed bc he planned their escape #anyway come talk to me about this its driving me crazy

[gibbearish]

vent

#had an issue a while ago where my bf was leaving his dirty clothes in piles on the floor which is fine except when the piles #are kept in the same room as the litterbox and the cat takes that as a cue to start pissing in piles of clothes #so i told him he couldnt do it anymore he said ok and then a bit later i caught the cat right as he was abt to piss in said clothes again #and when i was like 'hey i said you cant do this it can ruin your clothes if it gets left there' and he was like 'oh yeah i know but it's #my clothes so that's a risk i just decided to take' which uhhhh No????? no in so many ways????????? #but i didnt process how wack that is at the time so i just moved on and was like 'no but for real you cant do this anymore like not #a suggestion like legit This Cannot Continur Happening bc the end of this road is that the cat learns pissing in clothes piles is #ok whenever he wants' which did actually get him to stop but that was apparently enough learning time for mr carrot #we've had a few issues with it not toooo bad but its definitely been getting steadily more frequent #anyways guess whose electric blanket got pissed in today bc he left it in a pile on the floor and taught the cat its ok to piss in those #im having trouble giving a shit about it in the ways i should #like. idc that the blanket is maybe ruined #when he bought it he said it was for both of us but its just his so like idc but what i AM feeling is mad at him #cause like. i told him not to #and i shouldn't have HAD to tell him not to‚ 'the cat is pissing in my clothes so i will make it no longer possible for that to happen' #should be a no brainer i cannot imagine going 'welp i guess if it happens it happens' ITS PISS IN YOUR CLOTHES SITTING STALE FOR #WHO KNOWS HOW LONG and now we have to be hypervigilant abt Any Fabric Ever and who knows if itll escalate even further #hes already escalated from exclusively floor fabric to pissing in MY clothes that i was keeping on a table #like. the next stop is obviously couches/beds but like once they learn something its real hard to train them not to #and im just. frustrated that this is just gonna be yet another thing i have to deal with all the time when he shouldve just #Not Decided It Was Fine For The Cat To Piss In His Clothes In The First Place Hello?????!!! #but i also feel bad bc i feel like im holding a grudge about something small but i also Cant Let It Go #usually when the thing im mad abt is something insignificant its annoying for a bit then i let go but im just like !!!!!! what the fuck!!!! #idk. whatever #its his problem now idk how to get the heating psrt separate from the blanket part so i just sprayed some urine enzyme #on it and he can figure out wtf to do with in once he gets home in like two hours #and if thats too long and the smell gets baked in. oh well i guess #he hasnt been able to smell since we got covid anyways so like. its whatever i guess he can stew in a cat piss blanket if he wants #but i also cant tell if this is just a side effect of my General Irritability over the last few months and i really am mad abt nothing #ESPECIALLY because i keep saying it doesnt really directly effect me at this point then its like ok why are you so mad abt it then

[nomaishuttle]

exciting day so far

#264 (the couple who pays extra to have their bed made every day (which is crazy)) knocked over a CLOCK in their room #the wife did it on accident luckily she was ok.but i had 2 hunt down maintenance to fix da clock and i thought i found a guy but apparently #he wasnt actually a maintenance guy So i might kms. but he said hed find a maintenance guy for me so.. #bc my boss was like ok ryan (head of maintenance (wnd housekeeping but hes a maintenance guy. my boss is the real head of housekeeping lol) #might be in the maintenance shop. and i was like okie went in and he wasnt 💀💀💀 so i just saw a guybwearing black which i thinkk is #maintenance color and i was like halp me ! and he was like erm yeah ill find a maintenance guy for you ^-^ #it was so awk tho. my job on weekdays (except tuesdays bc thats the day they get cleaned) is 2 make the bed and its usually umm #shes usually in da shower with her caretaker. not like eith but. ykwim. and the husband is usually asleep on da couch #but i got there like 10 minutes early so they were both up and also yhe husband was like Are you a guy can you help and i was like erm no #and i misunderstood i thought he was having like #a medical or #something else issue. yk. but then i overheard him talking to the wifes caretaker and realized he said CLOCK. and i was like ohhh ok.. #but i finished the bed and said okie ill find a maintenance guy t come help asap :] #and he was like thanks 👍 hes very sweet idk if we had spoken b4. well probably but idr much of it #i think ive mainly spoken to da wife b4. shes very sweet shes had a stroke so its a bit difficult to understand her sometimes but shes very #nice.. i ws sooo worried thenfirst day bc allegedly we got there early (aka the time they usually went to do the bed) so now k do it at 9 #which is mildly inconvenient but not too bad. ideally id be making the bed b4 i starty rooms 4 the day bc i have like an hour anf a half to #do my morning work. so i could just slot ir in real easy.. but its all good jo worries. but ya so she was kind of irritated the first day #and also it was my first time speaking to someone who had had a stroke. so i didnt realize thats just like. how she ralks and thought she #was just super duper mad. and i was like eep! but its ok.

[minimoefoe]

I know Maggie has very good reason to hate Negan but she's so annoying at the beginning of S11 it's actually unreal

#watching twd #just the way she goes about her dislike of negan is annoying #and makes her act like an idiot #i got shit from a few ppl when these eps aired bc i said i didnt really give a fuck about maggie being annoyed #and yeah i still stand by it #like build a bridge love #or at least be mad in a less irritating way #its bc weve seen negan change over the last however many years #so its like #he doesnt deserve this anymore #most ppl had moved on for the most part #and then maggie rocks ups and sets everything back #their dynamic does get more interesting throughout s11 tho iirc so thats fun

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#weird day. really weird day #i couldnt sleep v well bc my brain was fucked up and i was prob dehydrated so im like extremely out of focus #i did go to the health and wellness center and am now back in therapy which is why my day was so fucking wild. like im too tired so im not #opperating correctly but it was real weird. like last time i got assessed by someone who basically sorted me to a therapist according to my #problems. this time i just kinda stumbled into a 1st session with someone and i dont kno how to feel abt how it went. it was odd #like we didnt go thru like an entire thing of like what r all ur problems? it was more i started talking abt things and he got stuck on #some specific things i said and we talked abt that. which im of 2 minds abt bc he did instantly latch onto the root of some of my issues #which is that i feel fucking dumb all the time bc my brain works a little different but it also wasnt helpful bc like theres a stereotypic #verson of my experience and then theres what i actually went thru and those things dont align in the way he was talking abt it. like i #think were were just talking past eachother a bit. like he wasn't exactly wrong but i do feel a bit like i walked in with an open wound and #and he decided the best course of action was to pat me on the head and tell me im v smart so i walked out still bleeding. but i dont think #its was all bad bc it got under my skin so much. i react like a cat thrown in a bath if u try to call me smart. like fuck off. yes ok im #smart. i have a certified document saying that i have above average intelligence. big fucking whoop. im too fucking dyslexic to do anything #right and my brain is constantly trying to strangle me to death. he called me a gifted kid. fuck u i was too fucking dyslexic to b a gifted #kid. stop talking abt the positive aspects of the compulsive way i live my life when its literally strangling me to death and i want it to #stop. acknowledge my pain old man. also i hate thst therapists hate the word weird. its not a bad word i like that word. i disagree #fundamental with the assertion that its bad. also he pointed out that i talk like a freak. like a person with high intelligence. fuck u i #like words. i will peel my own skin off if u call me smart one more time. lol i was so mad. i argued with him like the whole time. also he #mentioned horoscopes which was weird but whatever. we'll see how the next one goes. i told him to his face i i didnt kno if what we talked #abt was helpful. possibly the rudest ive ever been to a stranger lol. well see how the next session goes. at least it was interesting #god. im fucking so tired and wrung out. #unrelated

[minglana]

screaming and crying bc i just realized that i catalan ppl dont say my name with /θ/ they say it with /s/ LMAO

#i was thinking abt the fact that θ is one of the more weird sounds in general and realized that catalan doesnt have the sound lol #also im not mad abt it i just thought it was so funny how its only said right in spanish/aragonese phonology LMAO #i actually USED to be rly mad apparently. my parents always tell of the story when i got SO MAD at one of my friends when we were like... 3 #bc hes catalan and well. the θ isnt something that he would have heard a lot bc its a very catalanophone area #but i would get so mad at him😭like yelled at him mad. and it went to the point where if he had to refer to me #he didnt say my name so i wouldnt get mad and yell at him again😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[wellnesscard]

if you guys want a guy thats the sweetest snuggler and so spunky and hilarious still at 10y old get u a chiweenie

#chihuahua weiner dog every mix of these looks different hes a sturdy boy hes my everything #so much personality #i was gonna take him on a forest adventure he chased some deer last time the deer were unbothered like wygd lil boy 😂 #they were right it was so cute tho his lil rump while he runs #hes got such a funny gait. his haunches. his front legs are built and go side to side his back end is so narrow hes just like his daddy #i didnt like him at first hes devons dog hes my stepdog now i always grew up w big dogs n hes so little and girthy and weird im obsesssssed #it is funny. like i said. every chiweenie i see is built different (i think theyre becoming a popular breed? and not for no good reason this #dude rocks) #but yea the funniness in his mimicking of devon #hugeass shoulders and chicken legs #its funny his dad and brother are the same way. his dad calls them his “cheetah legs” 😂 #small guys. hes the tallest in the fam clocking in at 5'7. all of them have effortlessly huge shoulders and small everything else #his sister too shes built she lives in the same town as us so she comes over to use our benchpress and weights every now n then #she could throw me forsure. im from this lanky family my brothers are both like 6'5 im just average at 5'9 i wishh i broke the 6ft threshold #were like long lanky. stg im meant to wander i walk walk walk my sister dad and cousins are marathon runners #i dont know what im doing when im not travelling on my feets its everything to me. ive been compared to those classic bigfoot photos with #w his arms swangin bc i do walk like that each stride is 3 ft gotta take advantage of these stilts #there was this girl in my highschool i was fascinated w the way she walked she had negative three inches on me but each step was like #a mini lunge #and ya actually you get the bounciness going it works well #ive been described as a stomper which is true but its not cos im mad or whatever its like ice climbing you wanna make sure ur cleats sunk in #wavy lanky postural sway its a dance small steps are actually harder i lunge and correct. #being on a boat makes so much sense to me its just these movements and strong rooted feet w a swaying-to-the-enviroment everything else #damn. so this post was originally abt my awesome dog?

[guinevereslancelot]

is there any worse feeling than when you feel like someone is mad at you bc they literally are mad at you

#i came into the living room and my dad was yelling abt how he basically hates everyone in the whole family #bc nobody got around to reqding the latest chapter of his book yet #but he was really upset and mad #i get being hurt by that but it literally is not a personal rejection people are just busy idk #he didn't let on he was upset at all until he completely flipped out #now he doesn't want anyone to read it anymore #he's really hurt tho bc we all always read my mom's stuff #and my brother and i talk abt what we're writing together all the time #and i get there's a special kind of hoy sharing your writing with someone but only when they're really interested and engaged #unfortunately the two people most likely to care abt hia book are my two oldest brothers and they dont live w us #so they cant really give him that feedback #he did send hia chapters to them but they arent around to talk abt it and havent responded yet #basically nobody actually cares abt his book #he's been talking abt writing one for like ten years or more and only started in the past few months #its a zombie book and full of his really weird and controversial political and religious takes tho sp its a stressful read #i dont really agree w him on certain issues and we're ok abt it usually but it makes reading it more stressful #anyway #he's really upset tho #and he can only express unpleasant emotions through anger so i shut down and cant interact #and he specifically said he doesnt want people do do the thing he's so hurt that we didnt do #so there's no real way to set things right to alleviate my anxiety #he's a very difficult person to love with sometimes but he's really generous and has done a lot to help me #so i can live my dream and start a business and he's not really pressuring me abt my job seaech and rent and stuff #so it does make me feel guilty that i basically didn't care abt his book #it wouldnt be as bad if literally everyone in the family hadn't also done that #when he does to much for everyone #he's mad at everyone but im the only one having a panic attack and im the only one he didn't yell at #he's not handling his emotions well but neither do i so we usually just dont acknowledge things like this until everyone is over it #but i hate that i literally need conflict to be resolved immediately or i go insane

[be-good-to-bugs]

:/ god my apartment manager sucks

#the bin #if theres a problem. fucking CALL ME. dont just come into my garage without asking. while im IN IT #the door. was shut. im so mad. this guy REALLY creeps me out. he comes to peoples outside doors to complain abt stuff #he hangout out in the pool area and talks to people passing through about things hes noticed #like. he noticed my sister doesnt live here anymore and directly asked me if i live alone and about her car #theres nothing i can do abt it but i genuinely dont feel safe living here bc of this guy. it really sucks. this has made it much worse #i closed the door immediately after he opened it and im listening to the mess around in other peoples garages now #i had something get stolen from in here before and it makes me wonder if it was them. it wasnt anything that mattered so i dont care but it #still bugs me knowing people are in here. i already suspected it after coming back to the door open and something having moved but it #was technically possible that i forgot to close the door and it was the wind or someones dog responsible for moving the thing #thats unlikely but still possible. #the thing that got stolen was just a small suitcase. it was pit here bc it had cat shit in it. my sister wanted to clean it out but was #putting it off so she stuck it out here and probs forgot abt it by now. #im so mad. he said they didnt know anybody was in here but that cant possibly be true bc i was loudly skipping around in here #its s loud echoy garage. i know what that sounds like from outside. theres no way they didnkt hear which bothers me a lpt #i couldnt hear them bc i had earbuds in. hhhh. my paranoia is gonna have fun with this :/

[generalmalfeasance]

i love how i had my period of mommy issues lasting from childhood and now my mom is actually improving and being nicer but we have entered the era of daddy issues

#my sibling issues are still there #idk my dad basically got sad tht i didnt wanna birth children #bc endometriosis #and like...idk i got mad vitamin deficiencies #my mom had alot of issues birthing me and my sister. #he dismissed it and he ???? started crying??? #idk #i said id maybe adopt...j to make him happy #yadda yadda he said a woman is made to birth #but i also said i have a choice... #idk this car ride is real awkward #ive never had issues with my dad. #he was always the one who id go to when mom was being crazy #but its just so weird now

[memser]

i feel things as my mothers child when she is upset with me in 3 different ways

kid: confused sadness

teen: angry hurt

adult: irritated apathy

none of these are good. especially around holidays when all three resurface and mix so terribly

#there was an honest accident that caused a small stain on a tiny bit of the sofa and i got screamed at for it #the tube busted it wasnt my fault #i tried so hard to fix it to scrub it out that my fingers hurt and my eyes sting from the acetone fumes #but it didnt work so i gave her the cover off the chair in my room (matches the sofa) #and its just an inch smaller.... and shes so mad #its a sofa we got secondhand years ago its good but its not world ending #and now she threw down the tree and said christmas is cancelled #i spent a good amount of money (read: almost all) this year on gifts bc we havent had a good christmas in years but #thats shit now. #wrapping gifts and crying tbh #he speaks