#and then forget cause of my adhd

[aroaceleovaldez]

HoO is so funny to me when you actually think about the ages of all the characters. Octavian is 18. Percy and Annabeth are 16, almost 17. Reyna is presumably 16. Frank just turned 16, Jason’s about to turn 16. Leo and Piper are like 15. Hazel’s like 14 and a half, and Nico is 13.

The Death Sibs are both the youngest and oldest on the Argo II. Octavian is a college freshman getting into petty drama with a bunch of high schoolers. He gets told to shut up at one point by a random 8th grader. Everyone is scared of the 8th grader. We Sent A 13 Year Old To Superhell and he came back weirder, Just Like Middle School. TLH was just three high school sophomores being sent to do a task and it going Exactly Like You’d Expect. Percy’s the only demigod on the ship who can legally drive (though Reyna gets her drivers license at some point before TOA). What Is Happening.

#pjo #hoo #heroes of olympus #riordanverse #my second favorite thing related to this is like every time Hazel references someone's age especially in SoN it's just. blatantly incorrect. #she goes into very specific detail about how she's 14. detailing like exactly how many months it had been since her birthday #and when she died and when she was brought back. just like ''okay. im 14 and a half. got that? good.'' #''anyways here's Frank. he's 3 years older than me'' like literal next chapter. we are told Frank is not 3 years older than her. #Hazel: Here's my older brother! [Nico is younger than her in literally every way feasible] #ive just decided Hazel is an unreliable narrator who is just really bad at guessing/remembering how old people are #which like. adhd mood. forgetting how old everybody is. #and she has the bonus excuse of saying her sense of time is skewed from being a ghost for so long #but it's just so funny every time she's just. with the upmost confidence. blatantly the wrong answer. #i want a scene of Hazel looking at Percy and just going ''hm. I bet he's like 20.'' and then learns he's 16 #and she's just [surprised pikachu] #also we know it isn't an error that she's 14 cause in TOA she's like ''oh yeah im learning to drive!'' #so she's 15 by then #it is however an error that *Nico* is said to be 14 in hoo cause he's 12 in TLO and 14 in TOA #but we know in HoO the reason that error was made was cause Rick hadn't figured out Nico's birthday yet #and he was flipping it between January or March #so he just forgot how old Nico is for a series and then we went back to normal

[thejacketscloset]

Soap is a chronic stomach pain warrior, he wakes up with a stomach ache and he goes to sleep with a stomach ache. He's always so brave about it. (Gaz is so so tired of hearing him whine about his stomach issues when he just watched Soap scarf down something he's certain has been in the fridge for over a week)

#it most definitely had been in the fridge for over a week #it was Soap's leftovers he forgot about because they were out of his line of sight when new things were put in the fridge #Soap is well aware that he is the cause of his stomach problems #he just doesnt have the self preservation to care enough about that stuff specifically #yes this is somehow a way to spread the ADHD soap agenda too #i forget abt my own food bc its at the back of the fridge its a problem #i want a glass fridge so i know where my food is damn it #john soap mactavish #cod #mw2 #kyle gaz garrick #cod gaz #soap cod #ADHD soap

[rust-in-polar1s]

do you guys ever just spend hours writing down pages of autism symptoms (+stims n other shit) you have and then proceed to doubt that your autistic

#like help???? i spent so long just hyperfocused on that tism research and now im just like?????? #me??? autistic?? nahhh i mean maybe im just a nt who just has a few (A5) pages of autism symptoms and gets overly obsessed with shit a lot #but like seriously though what the fuck i even looked at the DSM5 and qualified for all the categories and im still here doubting this- #oh well i guess ill just try and talk to my psychologist about this when i see her next #autism #neurodivergent #autism symptoms #asd #AND THEN ALSO I HAVE A LOT OF ADHD SYMPTOMS SO IM LIKE WHAT IF ITS THE TISM(TM) OR WHAT IF ITS ADHD OR WHAT IF ITS BOTH OR WHAT IF ITS NONE #adhd #nd #and then even my autistic friends are like “yeah bestie you prolly have the tism” AND IM STILL DOUBTING IT??????? #fml oml #now to hyperfocus on my special interests :33 and forget about this cause memory goes brrrrr

[hydatiid]

oh was 1 yr on T a couple days ago but almost forgot cause i be Working so much god

#its been awesome! slow but. #not sure if its like that cause of uhhh. the type im getting but whatever #also fucking forgot to pay my deposit to secure my psychiatrist appointment so. not getting that anymore fuuuuck #<- getting tested for adhd. #<- forgets to pay. #the misery..... #i work like 6 days in a row a lot at the moment at its fun but wauughhghhh #forgot to take my tenner at work again today too.. #BUT i love money so. its fine #but am also falling behind in my study for vet nursing. #ahhhhhhhhh. this is me just having an excuse to not be studying rn actually. i wanna play rdr2

[neurospicyyy]

Yes, I threw fits when I was a kid.

No, I wasn’t in control.

No, you shouldn’t judge me for it.

Yes, I am aware you think I had the choice.

But surely you understand I didn’t really have one?

Surly you understand I was struggling?

That I’m still struggling?

That I always will be?

#neurodivergent #adhd #actually adhd #ocd #childhood memories #sorta vent in tags vv #I’m still dealing with the social consequences of that time period. People’s attitude towards me after those years #really damaged my mental health. Sometimes I think I’m not enough. #That my problems aren’t enough to say I was struggling. Then I look back… and yeah I can tell I was struggling #Idk wtf was going on because my adhd and ocd probably didn’t cause that. But I don’t show enough signs of autism to even #consider being diagnosed. Sometimes I wonder if I actually was in control. There was no trauma. No serious issues. Nothing. #Because I was running around like a maniac whenever I got upset. It stopped only after 3rd grade. With the help of a good teacher. #my so called “meltdowns” are probably internal now. I kinda s3lf h@rm and stuff when I don’t get my way now. When I’m seething in self #loathing because of something I did. You know. Normal behavior. #My life is a freaking mess. And it’s nobody’s fault. Except maybe my own? I don’t know. I always forget about that time period. Probably ca #se the teachers gave me a lot of bad memories during it. It wasn’t because of the teachers… but they certainly weren’t helping. #neurospicy #neurosparkly #actually ocd #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #I tell myself i didn’t have the choice though. I was young… #sorry for the vent

[nezzling]

I promise I'll go back to being funny and hot soon, my ass ain't the only thing that's sick af

#chronic illness and fatigue can bite my asssssss and they often do lol #tbf my immune system went all out of wack after two rounds of covid a stomach ulcer and a hysterectomy #and now whatever the fuck this is which appears to be a complication from the antibiotics from the uti? #that or its just completely coincidental he said lol mystery illness woo #i have a couple of days off work so ill just sleep and try eat good food and also take my medsssss cause she keeps forgetting #when i cant eat i dont wanna take the adhd meds purely bc i get nausea and throw up on an empty tummy #ironically the meds make me not want to eat bc its an appetite suppressant #lil rambles

[weaponizedhorse]

Okay so I loved the movie "A Cinderella Story" growing up I probably watched it 200 times a least and 50 with commentary. And I don't know how but they somehow managed to get the burb on google wrong??

First off there is no "cell-phone" mix-up that leads to them communicating they meet in a chat room for people who want to attend Princeton University (get it cause she is supposed to be Cinderella) and second she doesn't "look for a way to make herself cooler" Hillary Duff gives this whole speech at the end about how Austin Ames (played by Chad Micheal Murray) was pretending to be someone else but she never pretended to be anyone else she was always authentically her.

I don't know why this bothers me so much but it does lol

#the only reason I even looked this up was cause I was looking at the IMdB of #one of the actresses in PLL:Original Sin #to see if she was also the girl in Once Upton A Time so to see if played young Snow White in that and #I was correct but on her IMDB she was in another movie called A Cinderella Story:Starstuck #I think is what it was called? #and then I was thinking 'Is movie I grew up watch what caused a ton of movies in the years after being called #A Cinderella Story [Insert Word Her] #because there was a movie with Selena Gomez Called Another Cinderella Story #and after THAT they started calling a ton of movies #A Cinderella Story [INSERT WORD HERE] #I thought I would explain a little how my ADHD works #but usually it does on for a lot longer and I forget where I started lol #ADHD #A Cinderella Story

[torao-chan]

i made pancakes after rearranging half the rooms in my house

and cleaned while i did both those tasks

what

#adhd meds; miracle workers i forget how good they are until i take them again #on the other hand; i need my reading glasses more when i take them #cause im actually Focusing On The Screen/Book more lmfao #personal

[crazyw3irdo]

Have you ever wanted to draw something but you fought due to your skill level at the time you decide not to do it

oh definitely. the hardest part of art is starting- and being comfortable making something that’s not perfect. i find drawing something *intentionally* bad to start or like, with stick figures and very basic shapes, is a good way to get over that first hurdle. and there’s also tutorials online for pretty much anything if you don’t even know where to begin!

you never know what you can do if you never try though, and you also can’t improve if you never do- i avoided backgrounds for years & i’ve been slowly getting myself used to them and have been really liking what i’ve done! (not showing the piece i have in mind yet cause it’s for a zine that’s not come out yet hehe)

#that mental hurdle is the hardest one #+ as a person with ADHD i’ve often had an idea i really wanted to do then put it off for this reason and just. kept forgetting to do it. #without having a deadline or anything my brain is just like ‘oh so this gets done never 👍 got it’ #highly recommend just going ‘okay. i will do One Single Thing.’ #like okay. well i don’t want to draw this yet; but i can make a new file and name it #cause that often leads to my brain going ‘well that was so easy i guess i could do another thing’ #then ‘well i won’t draw the full thing but here’s like. a single circle where i want something to be’ #then maybe i’ll go ‘well i can add a few more guidelines just so i remember what i’m envisioning’ #and then eventually i’ve gotten so far that i just. ended up doing it. or making a lot of progress #not always! sometimes it really is just the first few things! but it makes it easier the next time i make myself do ‘just one thing’ #breaking tasks down like that always makes it much less daunting #crazwaz posted #audience participation

[neoneun-au]

me @ me

#literally me always now #took the day off cause its so slow at work rn #but ended up doing literally nothing except sleeping and wasting the day away #its so hard to find a fucking doctor rn to get any sort of idea as to why this chronic fatigue has been getting just worse and worse #but any day i forget /or cant take my adhd meds its just..... #a write off #augh dudgjshxy #i hate #n e way #mads.txt

[jacqcrisis]

I really like when interesting narrative things happen in fights due to various game mechanics. Examples:

- against the Masks in Auntie Ethel's lair, Roman went down to death saves for the first time. Gale was the closest and got him back up. Ronan never even needs healing so I like to imagine there had to have been a moment of anxiety within the party over that along with the strengthening of comraderie between Gale and their cleric as he hands Ronan a few healing potions.

- along the monastary traul, there is a fight with some death shepherds. In that fight, Gale actually dies for a moment, down to death saves before a ghoul finishes him. Ronan has to use revivify for the first time before the rest of the party take out the last remaining undead. After, I like the idea of Ronan fretting, uncharacteristically shaken as he heals up the chunk missing out of Gale's neck.

- the party has a habit of singling out someone in a room and taking out that one person with no one else being the wiser. So I just really like the image of Ronan walking into a room silently, letting everyone in, and closing the door as he nods to Karlach and Astarion to take care of the very confused person watching all this happen.

- this happened in the prison under moonrise towers to the warden, along with the party just hanging out behind Gale in the warden's office as he had thunder wave prepared and aimed at the door to take out the scrying eyes that came through. This took several minutes so I imagine it the party is genuinely just chilling and chatting as they wait. Ronan's standing resolute with his hand on his mace, watching Astarion drink off the dead Warden while he and Karlach, whose perched on the desk, discuss next steps. Extremely chill, bloody, and funny scene to me.

- while protecting the portal for Halsin, Ronan was put in front of said portal, cast spirit guardians, guardian of faith, had lathanders mace, and was genuinely just a beacon of light as he blinded nearby enemies and took out anything that got past Gale casting fireball or the other two picking off larger targets. In game, he's being a cleric making full use of the capabilities I tend to ignore for most fights. Narratively, since Ronan usually stays back and focuses more on keeping everyone alive and well while picking off smaller targets so everyone else can do the impressive damage, I like the idea that it was a stark reminder of what Ronan is capable of. Especially to certain vampires looking to murder their old master.

- Astarion gets down to death saves A LOT. Just all the goddamn time. Most of Ronan's healing is going to keeping him going since he's specced to be in the face of opponents, his armor sucks, and also I forgor all the time he has a fucking bow. Narratively, I like to think Astarion is doing it somewhat on purpose as it gets him physically touched in a way that is intimate, yet not expectant of anything more. Fucked up way to get intimacy for the guy with intimacy issues.

- adding onto that, the second time Ronan had to had to use Revivify was during the fight with the Apostle of Myrkul. Astarion went down to death saves, and before Ronan could get him back up, he was knocked off the platform and dead. Immediately revivify him and a healing word to keep him going. I like to think Ronan ordered him to stay out of range and swap to his bow, but Astarion ignored that, ran up, and got the last hit on the big skeleton and then was EXTREMELY smug about it later when Ronan had to patch him up. Again.

- last one: at the circus, I sent Ronan up at Dribble's request. Obviously, clown man turned out to be evil and combat starts. By game mechanics, Astarion is most likely to be first in initiative and he does just that here. I didn't see the other guys closer by, so we send the rogue to go stab a clown, at which point I notice there's like 2 other dudes in the lineup. So game wise, I make a mistake because Ronan is a tank who can 1v1 a clown for days, but narratively: I think it's a cute idea that Astarion sees the large dragon man he's in a relationship with (and who he needs to help kill Cazador) get threatened by a dog and a clown and just snaps into action before anyone else has a chance. That's adorable to me.

#jacq writes #also astarion got smacked around in the clown fight #because take one look at my lizard with a 21 ac and immediately swing for the twink with a 16 ac #fair enough. cant blame them. more whump ideas for me #astarion is constantly covered in blood. constantly below 30% health but my god can he stab. #anyways i like narrativizing game mechanics and my own adhd habits in game #its those fun little moments to spin into a story #and it justifies me being a directionless fucker who has their party leave the guantlet of shar five seperate times #cause i kept forgetting shit #bg3

[servospawn]

would you ever consider doing one of those cas speed edits like the ones that've been going around recently? i'd love to watch your process

this is my process..

#this the wrong blog for that my dear #you don't even know how many times i have to force close &reopen my game to test skins &whatnot #that would literally never happen #it takes me days.. sometimes weeks to create a sim.. especially from scratch #it would just be a 3 min video of me crying and eating ice cream sandwiches #shout out to the ppl who can do that though #my adhd would also not allow this.. i minimize my game so much and forget i have it open hrs later cause im on sl or playing ff #or any other random fucking thing

[not-gonna-lose]

🔺️

If you had to give up one of your Pokémon for whatever reason. Which one would you choose? "None" is not an option.

11/10

I already... I already left them behind once- And I still- I regret it... I- I regret it every fucking day- I don't... Don't want to- To do that... Ever again... Do I- I really have to... To answer this one...?

Fuck... I hate this... IguessitdhavetobeCramorant... He didn't really- He never... Not nearly as attached to me as the others are... But I'd still- I don't want to-

...going to make sure I spend more time with him...

#pkmn irl #ask game #(OH THIS ONE. THIS ONE IS. I KNOW THIS HAS BEEN SENT TO A LOT OF PEOPLE BUT.) #(I THINK THAT. KIERAN IS PROBABLY ONE OF THE ONES WHO ARE GONNA BE AFFECTED MOST BADLY BY IT .) #(anyways i never see anybody acknowledging that fucking cramorant. which makes sense he only used it in one battle but still.) #(everyone seems to forget about it. but i do not.) #(i do not forget because i am not normal about kieran.) #(like if i just type b in my browser it literally autofills to his bulbapedia page. that's the point of derangement we're at here.) #(anyways sorry for the tag rambles it WILL happen again i have adhd.) #(also crossed out bit is written this time too just he really wants to hide it cause he feels bad)

[hotsugarbyglassanimals]

ive been genuinely distressed about how bad my adhd has been this past month

#why did it take me 3 hours to make breakfast today. thats so embarrassing #i haev class in less than an hour and its killing me im so frustrated. thats 2 hours where i cant do anything #i am on the verge of just breaking down about it tbh because it never feels like i have enough time or energy #and it bothers me how much stimulation my brain needs constantly to the point where i cannot step away from socials cause my brain 'itches' #and when i do step away from socials my attention is so scattered that i forget what im doing #or it feels like there's zero cohesion to the step by step actions i need to take to finish a task #i hate adhd more than anything!! more than my trauma!! more than my physical issues!! #i normally leave these types of vents on my locked twitter but im feeling the tumblr tag complaints format lately lol #im just. so mad about how a lot of thinigs ive wanted to do in my life have been so so delayed because of my scattering interests - #-or that I really only have 4 hours in my day not occupied by me getting heavily distracted by something #fucking. oc projects from since i was 16 not coming into fruition ever. that is so . frustrating.

[sunshinexlollipops]

I got yelled at by my (to be former) psychiatrist today. one of the things she got upset about was my depression and anxiety getting better. why? bc I improved while off medication.

the American mental "healthcare" system is a fucking joke and I'm not laughing.

#i sincerely hate medical so-called professionals #she also got mad bc i kept FORGETTING to start my meds and i have ADHD #like oh the disorder that causes memory issues and poor habit-forming ?? #its making it to where you cant remember your meds exist and ots hard for you to remember to start taking them???? wow you fuck #i also had life things get in the way like being stuck in LA for 2 weeks #and other health issues that i informed her of #she told me -- maybe youre better off in therapy -- and -- dont waste my time #she also said -- anyone can give you adderall -- okay bet imma find someone who isnt upset IM BETTER regardless of if they helped me or not #legit she took it personally and was OFFENDED like maybe choose andifferent profession bc WOW

[lexicals]

God it's only now going to bed that I've realised my day was literally get up -> finish fixing my wheel -> eat "breakfast" (lunch) -> play totk for 8 hours straight with one (1) break to eat dinner

#wastepaper basket #These games are just. It feels like they're designed to satisfy my adhd I can never find a good stopping point #Cause there's always something else I wanna go do and I don't want to forget!! #Plus like. Wandering off is literally the core of the gameplay. Pls that's all I ever want to do