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talentforlying · 2 months

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priest: i don't, ah, quite know what to say to you. if you are in such terrible danger, why are you taking it all so calmly? constantine: hmh! i dunno, father. i had a bloke beaten to a pulp earlier this evening. that sound calm to you? priest: you did what...? constantine: i must've been off me bleedin' rocker. i've never done anything like it before in me life, y'know?

constantine: but there's header gets his guts blown out, and george is stickin' his head in the noose, and helen gets ... jesus, then friggin' sarah bites me head off — ! everything's coming to bits in me hands and it's so easy to just see red and now, shit, they could've killed the tosser for all i know! and now i'm just like the bastards i've hated all me life! kill him! fire him! close them down! piss all over him! screw you, i can do whatever i want! i so much as blink and you're dead, pal! i'm in charge!! ...

constantine: 'scuse me, father. i'm always like this when i don't get me own way. — hellblazer #81, "rake at the gates of hell pt. 4"

babygirl you are just....so, sooooo offputting. (and grieving, and guilty, and terrified, but yeah: offputting.)

anyway, it's issues like this one that remind me why i kind of hesitate over some of the retcons in the recent spurrier runs, like the one with him now having opened dream's pouch of sand and stolen some before they even met. because like, it's easy enough to look at john constantine now — with 70 years of worst possible choices and unresolved trauma crystallizing underneath his skin to cover up all the soft, hopeful bits where he's used to getting hit — and assign him arbiter of ill intentions, magus of wasted potential, saint of shit choices, but man . . . he was new to this, once. he was still new to this 80 issues in.

80 issues in, and he's not used to losing friends yet; he even has time enough between catastrophes to grieve each individual one. still has enough left to live for at this stage to necessitate running and hiding, instead of bodily throwing himself at the problem like he learns to later, or sitting apathetically by to do nothing except smoke and watch the world fall apart when he finally gives up. fuck, he still apologizes.

and you're telling me this guy, this soppy wet cat motherfucker hiding from the devil in a church basement, so guilty over not knowing what happened to the guy that he paid people (paid chas, so chas could pay people) to attack that the bottle he's holding in this scene isn't even his second or third........this guy's past, more innocent self lied right to the face of DREAM OF THE ENDLESS and got away with it?

hm. i just don't know about all that.

#also this is where my headcanons tag is from <3 #( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS.#( visage. ) AND I'M A BASTARD.#( character study. ) A WALKING PLAGUE OF A MAN.#sometimes i just think that. people really like to reduce constantine down to one or two things #and somehow. after 250 issues of putting his life on the line bc he could never really make himself look away from people suffering #the soft sullen guilty person who wants so fucking desperately to be a better man? is never one of those two things #idk man. i think about this issue all the time #if i put these pages side-by-side with his grief in hellblazer 2? with his grief in hellblazer 213? 215? during the empathy virus arc?#it becomes CRYSTAL clear that the guy we know at the end of hellblazer isn't someone the guy who sat vigil for gary lester would recognize #in fact i think he's someone that hellblazer 81 constantine would fucking Hate #ANYway yeah. i don't think he lied to dream about the pouch. i don't think he ever got it open. i don't think that's canon for me #i want him to fucking Earn his asshole nature. the hard way. by making All The Wrong Choices that it took to get him there #he paved that road with good intentions himself but. he also used to remember the ones he started with #idk if i'm making sense but i have had this panel open on my laptop for Two Months now #bc i can never stop thinking about how fucking crushed he is here to realize that he might be exactly as bad a man as sarah said he was #and how little it will surprise him later on to learn that he is Easily capable of So Much Fuckin Worse #and with that your honor the defense rests. our evidence? just. just Look at this fuckin guy #scopophobia /#scopophobia #eye contact /#eye contact tw

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howcouldtheyletmebeanadult · 1 year

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alright but hear me out:

#something something nine who had to learn to rely only in himself to survive #vs kit who was programed to live for someone else #nine who is a product of his past vs kit who doesnt have one #nine who made an identity for himself vs kit who had his stolen and remade #nine who doesn't belong with anyone (we all know he wont live with sonic) vs kit who is tied to surge #nine who prides himself in his independence yet wants company #and kit who both hates and yet is almost happy (but is it really him or the programing?) for what starline did #both want what tails has #both hate that they do. and hate him too #nine looking down on kit because of his dependency on surge yet feeling bitter because at least kit has someone #someone that needs HIM. not a duplicate of himself #and kit both fealing jealous of nine's independence and freedom #but then realizing how under all that he is just as desperate for love and friendship as he is #and then calls him out for it #nine is in denial. and claims he could never be as pathetic as kit #but deep down he knows its true #so anyway they hate the parts they can see of themselves on the other #but are also envious of other stuff #maybe one day i'll make a more coherent post because im pretty sure i thought of more stuff before but im tire #kit the fennec #kitsunami #kitsunami the fennec #nine the fox #tails nine #nine tails #miles nine prower #miles tails prower #tails the fox #sonic prime #sonic idw

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spotaus · 2 months

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Pt 22! (An actually sweet one!)

#utmv #oc #utmv sans #utmv oc #goldinsanity #from top to bottom:#N: WOA because she is my persona and that's one of my main Love Languages #Hap: Didn't get enough of that as a kid. really likes to assure people w/ this love language and also likes to recieve it ♡#Mono: similarly? Recieved a lot of WOA from Cross so he reciprocates that to others in his life #Orchid: Hates to be nice/kind but loyalty is important to her (ex. helping Reset because she loves him a lot). actions louder than words etc #Shotput: Similar to Orchid. Dream is AOS so he always follows in those footsteps. His trust is hard-won but if he does things for someone #then he loves them! (it hurt when Reset stopped letting him do things for him and cut him out of the plan)#Reset: Objects hold memories and sentiment (he wears his Brother's cloak) so a gift is with him forever #Pretender: In an AU where food in scarce he gives up a lot fir the people he loves. paps in particular #Ichor: Immortal. his mortal lovers/friends never ascend so he respects their wishes and spends as much time with people as he can #Lost: After so many memories down the drain he desperately wants to spend time with others. (ex. Haphazard sticking w/ him)#Stereo: Physical Affection is a big thing for him. he doesn't have physical arms anymore so he likes to be close to people #ex. leaning on them or nudging them. if he leans on a person then they're friends

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thal-ent · 5 months

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When you wanna write something quick and short and now you gotta stop writing before it gets too late

#thal talk #i just wanted to write about Virgil loving to be seen by Bastien but that slowly evolved into 'everyone is tired of their pining'#'and *then* virgil realises he likes when Bastien looks at him and only when Bastien does even if he was a bit aware of it'#i have. many thoughs about characters that hate being seen until they have someone they desesperately want to be seen by #virgil's not *desperate* per say but. he really likes when it happens i think.

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slocumjoe · 11 months

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hey uhhh i went thru ur oc post history and u said gus set himself on fire?? pls context

I love this character because whenever someone asks about him I always have to take a deep breath and get comfortable and suck a breath in through my teeth. I treat him so poorly

More Gus lore, because that specific event is actually tied to the very first event that would fuck him up forever, so I can't really talk about it without going in depth.

This is explaining the core tenent of Augustijn's story, which is guilt and its dangers. Basically, where that constant guilt came from, and how it...turned out for him...

It turns out okay. Just...takes 200+ years, an apocalypse, a divorce, and his son dying! 🥳Yay🥳

Tw; Religious trauma, child abuse, suicide, drug use, cannibalism, mental illnesses, and yet another suicide attempt.

So, some background, Gus's mom, Emma, was a fanatic catholic and generally Bat Shit about religion. As you might imagine, this is the Direct Source of both Gus' questionable worldviews, traumas, and his biological inclination to uuuhhh bad Head Times.

Emma was raised mildly religious, but she...took to it too hard? Her family was not the cause of her obsession, Gus's grandparents and uncles/aunts over there actually cut her off at one point, because she was starting to worry them but reaching out led to her lashing out. So, they just...backed off. Emma herself was a simple, homebody woman, who wanted to be at home raising her kids, and tending her garden. She would have been this way even without the religious thing.

But Emma and her side of the family were prone to addiction, see? And religion became her point of fixation and obsession. This could have still been okay, if not for the church she went into. A catholic church in the Hague that was known by all for being kind of fucking out there, even by other hardcore Catholics. This was one she went into, and even her grandchild 240+ years later would feel the ripple of this decision.

Emma goes into church and gets gnarly ideas about how life works. Its a woman's duty to have kids and raise them, to be good to her husband and her house, to listen and obey her men. Sin is inevitable and everyone does it, only those that admit and accept punishment can get another chance at Paradise. God knows every action you take and he does not care for the context, he only cares about the action. There is no "well, but" under the Lord.

Emma has mental illness, some kind of depression and anxiety, so this Big Brother Watching And Judging fucked her up. Especially since her church, in particular, was physically abusive if you did not confess to anything during confession. They thought if you had nothing to confess, you were lying.

At this point, she's met and engaged to Theodore Reinier, a rich heir to a European manufacturing company. He's pretty, a gentleman, and best of all, rich, so she can have as big and luxurious a garden as she wants. She likes him. She does not love him. She's in her twenties and unmarried with no kids, and her poor family needs to be taken care of. So she marries him. Theodore is smart enough to see this for what it is, and kind enough to allow it. He lets his wife do her own thing and treats her as a friend, rather than a lover. She hates this, she wants to be a wife (she doesnt). She wants kids, he gives her one. Augustijn. This birth goes rough, and she's told no more children.

Theodore makes one rule; August goes to a different church, or he does not go at all. Theo really didn't like Emma's church and he certainly wasn't exposing his kid to that shit.

Emma pretends to agree and takes Gus to That Church. Theo doesn't attend, so he doesn't know this is happening until much later. Gus gets all the same nasty shit Emma does. Theo learns of this when he sees Gus covered in bruises from confession beatings. This puts a huge rift between him and Emma, and he pulls all the strings he can to have her church shut down.

Emma grows to resent and hate Theo and Augustijn for not being the perfect husband and child she deserves as a good, God fearing house wife. Augustijn is left to his nannies, Emma hides away in her private garden, fuming. Theodore tries to bond with his son, but Emma's poisoned that well.

Emma tells Augustijn about demons, to fear them. She specifically tells him about church grims, demons that hunt around churches in the form of a dog to drag sinners to hell. She says this as she's admiring her new obsidian dog statues for her garden.

Eventually, Emma goes yellow wallpaper and loses her mind, and is sent to therapy and put on medications. Augustijn loathes his father for his mother's state. Theodore just wants his friend and son okay. But Emma, as she's out in town, coming back from therapy, she stops at a friend's house while the friend isn't there, and hooks up with the woman's husband. Friend's husband was stern, strict with his wife, God fearing, and generally an obnoxious 50s ideal shithead husband. Everything Emma wanted. This wasn't out of nowhere, it was brewing in the background. She knew both of them from her old church.

Emma goes home, and finally having a reason for the guilt that's always plagued her, elects to acknowledge her sin. She drowns herself in the pond of her garden, stared down by three dark, ruby-eyed dogs, overseeing her passage into the afterlife. Her young son comes into the garden to meet his mother, after she's been gone all day, only to find her in a red pool. He looks up into the eyes of the dogs. He remembers nothing of this incident, blocking it out and having been too young to understand.

Years pass, and Augustijn turns to drugs as well, though his come from the darkest parts of the Hague, rather than a doctor. He turns to sex, to crime, to anything he thinks will either corrupt him so much he doesn't care, or will finally make his guilt feel justified. He wears his mother's cross necklace through it all, and sees her beloved dog with every sin.

Augustijn goes to America for college, to Harvard, studying to become a pastor himself. (This is maybe the most terrifying part of him, the fact that he almost got it). But he doesn't feel satisfied with it, has a moment of clarity and realizes he isn't fit to preach anything. The grim certainly doesn't think so. He instead follows his only friend, Isadora, into the military. The US government allowing their soldiers to do chems means his failed drug tests don't matter.

Augustijn becomes a sniper. He has always hurt people, excelled in it, but taking life frightens him, because he knows he has no right to decide who lives or dies, not like this. But he's in China, and he's told to kill. He does, and he's very good at it. His teammates marvel at just how scrappy and determined he is, like a weed, a mold.

The Biandukou Pass Incident occurs. He eats his entire team, trapped in a Chinese mountain range during a blizzard.

Delirious from almost two months of surviving on nothing but psycho and human flesh, Augustijn is let loose back into Boston, honorably discharged. His lingering hallucinations from his Daytripper addiction, mixed with psycho withdrawal, trauma, guilt, shame, the fear of God—everything culminates. He looks up and sees the figure that has haunted him since that one, awful day; the church grim, staring expectantly.

His mother drowned herself, so he thought it fitting if he set himself ablaze.

#ss; alter #I hate to put a word to his specific illness because you always get people like 'this isnt what i think this is like so pls die'#but i imagine he'd be diagnosed with hppd #hallucinogen persisting perception disorder. basically lingering effects of hallucinogenics after use #the point of emma is that she did not ever see past the shit #Augustijn gradually learns how to reject his guilt and view himself objectively #and comes to see how he was hurt and how he hurt others. and accepts that he has a right to feel hurt but an obligation to be better #emma doesnt. she never would have even if she survived her attempt #its like. you only feel guilt because its a concept put into you #and emma taught him guilt. always feel dirty and shameful.#but. she didnt feel guilty. not really. she was confident in all of her actions and never once hesistated #she thought it was guilt just because she knew how it would look to other people. thats not guilt thats awareness.#she wasnt guilty she feared repercussions.#meanwhile her son grew up always ashamed and horrified at himself and was desperate for any kind of comeuppance #not to make it okay because he knew it wouldn't. but because he deserved it #accountability and justice are also big concepts in gus' character. the idea that someone becoming better and earnestly doing it #is better and more worthwhile than them suffering for their actions. this comes up with the Institute and Isadora #anyway if any of you come at me bitching about portaying a woman as abusive im biting #'joe no one does fhat' they literally do. its happened to me before. yall say you support womens wrongs until theyre abusive moms #anyway. fun fact; being beaten during confessions is why gus cant admit when hes done wrong for like 30 years. its a trauma/trigger #gus really is just. 'how do i process what happened to me without losing my mind'#and he lost his mind. but he does everything he can to find it again. because he doesnt want to feel this way anymore

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invinciblerodent · 8 months

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Since nothing and no one is going to stop me from giving all my hobbies to my characters, I've decided that Arvid sews and crochets in the evenings

He was raised at a monastery, so he kinda has more domestic skills than average, and the healer usually tends to be a more caring character anyway, so Everyone's Dwarf Dad(dy) not only has a fanny pack full of fantasy fruit snacks and shoulders perfect for crying on, he also happily fixes clothes and WILL make everyone a (kinda crooked) scarf, just in case it gets chilly

#squirrel plays bg3 #lae'zel insists that dhe hates hers yet refuses to take it off #astarion would not be caught dead wearing it; he would also never admit that he keeps it under his pillow #karlach desperately wants one and WILL whine about it despite knowing that she'd burn it to cinders immediately #I just like picturing him sitting on the shore with Scratch's head in his lap; unwinding #sometimes someone joins him for quiet conversation- I'd think mostly Gale or Shadowheart #with Gale they don't even need to talk; they just sit in silence #Gale with a thick book; Arvid with a ball of yarn #tbh so far Shadowheart is like one of his best friends even despite their religious differences #and I think that's really nice #sigh I've just accepted the brain rot at this point

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ladyimaginarium · 1 year

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when's it gonna be my turn?

ivan konstantinovich aivazovsky. / did you know that there's a tunnel under ocean boulevard? — lana del rey. / did you know that there's a tunnel under ocean boulevard? — lana del rey. / did you know that there's a tunnel under ocean boulevard? — lana del rey. / starry night over the rhône — vincent van gogh. / did you know that there's a tunnel under ocean boulevard? — lana del rey. / did you know that there's a tunnel under ocean boulevard? — lana del rey. / arthur kearns. / did you know that there's a tunnel under ocean boulevard? — lana del rey. / ivan konstantinovich aivazovsky.

#arcana.yearnposts #arcana.weaves #web weaving.#mine.#oh we're really in it now #g-d ..... i& can't help but ask that sometimes...#''i just wish i had a f.riend like him someone to help get me by'' & ''when's it gonna be my turn''? & ''don't forget me'' Fuck Me& Up™😭#it's not bc im& desperate im& arospec it's just i& hate the feeling of y.earning & pining.... bc atp it seems like smth that'll never come.#& it's like the moment i& feel like im& so close to feeling so damn good w/ sb they either fuck off & leave or just find smth or sb better.#& regardless of what type of r.elationship it is im& literally always forgotten & im& tired of it. is being held & remembered 2 much 2 ask?#w/ some exceptions ofc !!#my& qpp is lovely but yeah!!

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medi-bee · 10 months

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how's the post eeaao life treating you

Please! Please! Can we... can we just stop fighting? I know you are all fighting because you are scared and confused. I'm confused too. All day... I don't know what the heck is going on. But somehow, this feels like it's all my fault. I don't know. The only thing I do know is that we have to be kind. Please, be kind.

#life changing quotes #asks tag #evelyn fell in love with every other version of her husband before she was finally able to see what made him so special #Joy had all the power in the universe but all she really wanted was her mom #everything to just be understood. to have someone else understand what she's been going through #and she was so close. so damn close to just. ending it.#and then she makes one last desperate reach for her mother. and evelyn is there waiting. and she reaches back #i hate the rock scenes so much they shattered me #nothing matters #(through tears) i dont even like claire de lune #just fuck off making me thinkj about this again. i need to tear you apart limb from limb #im not even crying #lying

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loki-ioki · 8 months

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where does oro live over the course of her story?

answering this at 5am like a smart person lol BUT:

When she's first born to when she's about 5-6, she and Volo don't have one besides just Hisui. He's constantly on the move and in hiding from what he did and since he was pregnant before/during/and after the battle at Spear Pillar, (even tho he was majorly in denial about what was happening) he couldn't leave the region like he planned like that and then he had her and really couldn't just hop on a boat without being seen/with a newborn. So they just constantly wandered around the region until he gave her up.

After he gave her up until she was about 17-18 she lived at the Galaxy Hall with Laventon & Cyllene. When she was "old enough" (in Kamado's terms, she was still too young) at like 11-12, she was made to join the survery group to "prove her worth" and that she wasn't like her dad (even tho nobody other than Laventon/Cyllene/ & Ingo really never accepted her. At minimum people were wary/skeptical and at most like Kamado they hated her & figured she'd betray them all and doom them like Volo.) Laventon & even Cyllene tried very hard to always go with her or give her very minor tasks when she first started, attempting to block out whatever dumb or dangerous thing Kamado wanted her to do but as she got older, this got harder to do.

After she opens the rift and gets stuck in time loop/Arceus limbo it's hard to really say because she literally goes thru 999 resets so she really can just be slapped anywhere in any region/time period/timeline/alt universe until she gets back to her own original timeline at 999 (she has returned to her original one quite a few times but never at the right time or place to find Volo EXCEPT:

One of her resets (she is physically in her 20s, her age at this point kinda goes to shit because she spends such random amounts of time in these places, she's tech immortal because of all this but always physically in her 20s) she ends up in the OG timeline during the time of the ancient celesticans and actually ends up in Hisui where they are. and she finds a 10 year old Volo. Her goal in every reset is to find the red chain and try to use it to bust out the loop OR Arceus nukes her into a different reset for fucking up. But since she ends up meeting her dad when he's a little kid, she can't bring herself to try because she never knows what happens when she gets the red chain and everything resets. She can't possibly do it this time in case it harms him. She spends some time around the celesticans to try and learn a bit about him since all she knew before was whatever horseshit Kamado/everyone else told her and how she knew him when she was a very small kid. But since she doesn't want anything to happen to him, she doesn't stay long (Which makes Volo sad because back then it was a lot easier to get close to him so he kinda thought of her as a friend, but he also never knew her name and the only thing he remembered about her in the future was her one star pupil but he doesn't fully connect the dots when she's born)

AT THE 999TH RESET: She's back in the OG timeline, Post Platinum version. She lives at the Galactic Headquarters under the name Mercury. She works beside Charon but kinda replaces Cyrus under the promise that she can find and return him to everyone. This is where she stays until she dies at Spear Pillar in Volo's arms.

After she dies it's up in the air what happens to her (waiting for SV dlc), Volo wants her back every bad. If him & Geeta are successful in their plan to get Terapagos then she'll be reborn and live in Paldea with them.

#LOL THAT GOT LONG SORRY EVERYONE SCROLLING PAST THIS.#ANYWHO: all her limbo stuff gets kinda messy but it's really more about her mental deterioration and how truly desperate she is for her goa #It's her one and only hope for having a normalish (she's far beyond that) life and good relationship with SOMEONE. It's also all to spite #Kamado as well. She KNOWS in her heart Volo loved her and he didn't just abandon her out of malice or hate or because he was a worthless no #one who just wanted to play god & have power like Kamado always told her.#When she mets him as a little kid she was so close to giving up but seeing how miserable he was & the similarities of their #childhood put a new resolve in her.#Oro #Volo #Loki's asks

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angorwhosebabyisthis · 1 year

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looking at the goodreads reviews for five's legacy while trying to decide whether to try the audiobooks was a Mistake, because i forgot that 99% of them were from 2014 fandom and therefore unbridled rabid hatred lmfao

reviews: i don't care if they try to make him sympathetic, he's an unlikable spoiled brat!!

me, staring at the kid who literally thought homelessness was a luxury because he could steal food, clothes, and pocket change to watch movies without having all of it systematically taken away from him by someone who controls his entire life; destroyed every one of his drawings for years so he could have them at all for a minute before he did, because if he kept them they'd be Belongings; was eventually found out anyway, and monitored constantly afterward to keep him from doing even that; and still destroys them out of habit years after escaping: ah yes. much brat. very spoil

#lorien legacies #LL number five #LL tag #the salt files #abuse cw #homelessness cw #when i say have zero patience for five hate; including love-to-hate; this is why lmfao #the entire fandom was a wall-to-wall tidal wave of mindless; horrific cruelty for years #with at best the occasional 'well i mean he is kind of sympathetic and i feel a little bad for him BUT HE'S STILL AN EVIL BITCH I HATE HIM'#it was really truly fcking awful; especially as someone he resonated with in some raw; painful; and deeply personal ways #and except for unpacking the text itself i just have no interest in seeing or having it anywhere near me ever again #don't even get me started on the constant graphic gory public fantasies about maiming; torturing; and killing him #often explicitly naming him being fat as a factor #that would get like tons of notes lmao #It Was Very Bad Squirtle #and why i take spiteful satisfaction in being able to loudly and unabashedly hate canon!nine in my own space now lol #It is My Turn to Go Ape Shitt #anyway. i have a lot of thoughts about how even the most paranoid and uncharitable of five's assumptions about the other garde #stem from him desperately wishing they would come and rescue him from his abusive home; and after years of isolation #and dashed hopes he ended up coming to the conclusion that they don't care because they think he is worthless #in exactly the ways that rey has tried to make him so #i hurt squirtle #fatphobia cw

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ronanlynchbf · 9 months

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"all this foreshadowing abt declan dying and then he didn't even die" well personally i think declan got murdered dead by mstief in greywaren so. actually 2 me he did die. Badly.

#like sorry 2 to say it but also not sorry the declan i know would never do to matthew what he did in gw..#like obviously he has done some shit stuff to matthew (and ronan as well. this to mean ronan did shit stuff irt matthew as well not declan #did shit stuff to ronan. though he very much did and vice versa but like not the point here.) BUT i know he would NEVER strip matthew of his #autonomy like that and NEVER for so long. like i didn't write declan lynch as a character but also i know he wouldn't do that. that's his #baby brother........and i know he feels like matthew robbed him of his youth and his life and whoever he would've grown up to be but HE JUST #WOULD NEVER....i know this....like sorry but that is the most awful fucked up shit to do ever in the entire world. someone depends on you #and looks up to you and trusts you and you take away the thing that keeps them awake??? i'd even say the thing that essentially keeps them #ALIVE bc without a sweetmetal dreams aren't really alive they're just sleeping for eternity which is a kind of death. LIKE......#that just baffles me so much u just have to be soooooo uncaring to do that....like if he just did it in the moment of anger - snatched that #pendant off matthew's neck so he fell asleep and declan wouldn't have to deal with him anymore and then immediately afterwards was like.#what have i done this is so fucked up to do to someone. and put the pendant back on matthew. and apologized prefusely for it. that would #have still not been fine but in bouts of anger ppl do stupid desperate things that negatively affect others and it would've been #considerably less fucked up than it is now. like declan kept that pendant away for UP TO TWO DAYS. he drove the whole way back put ronan #somewhere safe carried matthew out of the car and into the house carried him upstairs into the bedroom and put him in bed went back #downstairs went outside locked the car went back into the house ate showered slept woke up ate breakfast again go through the whole day and #NOT ONCE did he think to himself oh this thing i'm doing is genuinely horrible i can't just take away someone's like. awareness. like that #& went to go 'wake' matthew????? NOT ONCE????? ARE YOU BEING SERIOUS???? NOT ONCE IN THOSE ONE AND A HALF OR TWO OR POSSIBLY MORE DAYS???#also just the whole. turning into his father thing. HARD NO. u mean the same declan who hated his father for very right reasons and hated #what he did to the entire lynch family both while he was alive and after he died the same declan that hated all the trading and buying and #selling dream things business and just that underground market in general (that btw. put the family he had left in life-threatening danger.)#the same declan who hated his father for dreaming a more perfect and loving unconditionally copy of his actual mother (rightfully so.) went #on 2 go into the exact business he always hated w/ a fiery passion?? ur also telling me he invited his father's killer to his wedding? fake.#trc #greywaren #<- needs its own tag bc i'm not putting it in the same category as call down the hawk my beloved call down the hawk.#anyway. that entire essay in the tags can be summarized w/: who declan ended up as & his entire arc is SO shit i hate it sm peace n love 🙏#as i've said before. me: mom can we have declan lynch? mom: no we have declan lynch @ home. declan lynch @ home: declan lynch in greywaren.#<<<<< full experience of reading gw. 2 me. ARGHHHH AOUGH THE POTENTIAL IT HAD THE POTENTIAL IT WASTED... IT'S ACTUALLY SO SAD....

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the-tired-commander · 2 years

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@kerra-and-company through a lot of shennanigans done entirely by the other memebers of dragons watch! They all looked at Damai and decided they had enough going on and absolutely didn’t need to do deal with Snargle too. This has involved: having Indras ask Snargle about his latest book while Taimi told Damai there was something they absolutely needed to look at, getting Gorrik and Damai to spend a whole day looking for bugs, and in Cantha it also included Erika literally tackling Damai into a canal so Snargle wouldn’t spot them. Damai has no clue why this all keeps happening.

#damai is so confused by it but just goes along #erika explained the tackle by saying there was a cart coming by really fast and they accepted that #sorry for the tag if its not okay but i love talking about dragons watch desperately trying to keep damai away from snargle hjsklskadj #indras hated every second of learning about snargles book #someone help him

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Omg this is gonna sound really random but hey here we go

So I was listening to Ship in a Bottle (since I had been searching for it for WEEKS as I didn't know its name until I finally found it on the Gustav playlist, thank you very much for that omg)

And i realised "hey wait a moment. Baby boy Gustav is literally captain of the Auxiliary Team in rtte. Ship in a Bottle mentioned a captain many, many times. waiT OMG WHAT"

Thought it was pretty funny seeing as you probably put that song in his playlist with one of the reasons being the captain thing and I just did not realise it for days

I was vibing too hard to notice😭

Anyways would love to know if this was really one of the intentions when you put Ship in a Bottle on baby's playlist! <333

oh no you opened a can of worms.

SO in gustav's story/playlist the concept of a captain (authority figure) is a huge motif and the identity of the captain changes over time. on berk he was first given that role on the A team (though by that point in the playlist he's fully abandoned his affiliation with the hooligans), then while searching for fanghook alone he was his own captain (a role he gave himself). that song is at the point where he's deciding to give up his own freedom/compromise his morals to serve another captain, the hunter harald bloodaxe. cato is the next captain of the story. until he reunites with cato, he is in a sort of in-between where he fools himself about who has control in his life (views himself as the boss of the shipyard, which really belongs to dagur. views himself as the captain of the chicken, when he knows full well that he's sailing to either hiccup or cato's side).

the song the traitor is fantastic for portraying how his identity changes at the end of otwd. he defers to the 'captainhood' of hiccup and dagur (the chiefs with the power to determine what happens to him next) and labels himself as the traitor. not a captain, afterall :(

#gustav larson #this is very confusing since i havent posted his fic lol sorry #gustav is so defiant of authority on the show so his story is really about his loss of identity as a result of losing fanghook #fanghook leaving didnt strip him of identity but joining the hunters to try to find him did #he looks bad but theres a lot of love and desperation behind giving yourself up in the search for your dragon #its just one of the ways someone could deal with loss #i dont want anybody to think that i hate gustav bc of this plot i literally love him so much

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