#and people calling me ms

[maliceofminds]

watch out corporate got me guys

#I’ve got a work phone #and a work laptop #and an office job #and people calling me ms #very tall child of me very vast and mature very I need money to sustain myself even if I actually want to frolick through the grass and bask #in the sunlight #and feel love and friendship and the infinity of the universe #sorry anyway I got sidetracked #did you hear I have a work phone?

[yashley]

"Auggie, how do you get stitched up and refreshed?" "I am going to go over to Arlo’s house."

#critical role #candela obscura #ygifs #arlo x auggie #no but they literally are insane for this ..................... #arlo: i'm even less able to talk to people now.. | also arlo: auggie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #he literally could've asked her out and she wouldve said yes right there she literally said of course auggie and after we're going on a date #suit shopping montage of auggie just mumbling how the dagnabbit and arlo straightening his collar for him and he's not BLUSHING #ep3 starts and arlo's like no we've literally been dating for months now and auggie still has no idea he keeps calling me ma'am #charlotte's like so I hear you're in a relationship with ms. black and auggie is like you mean the pact?? ? and she stares at the camera #arlo gets this little lapel pin for his new suit and howard takes 1 look at it like.. so.. auggie.. and auggie's like don't I look spiffy! #if his suit ends up being purple I'm eating a bar of soap #everytime arlo unnecessarily uses auggie's name a little synapse in my head zaps

[gomosmorodina]

i have no time or energy but i wanted to draw max so much

#he looks like the type to smoke #or maybe every character that i like has to smoke because i like to draw smoking people #just a little melancholic #thinking about things #me #looking forward to consistent drawing and posting again ughhhh #breaking bad #better call saul #bcs #brba #illustration #my art #ms paint #max arciniega #sketch

[ef-1]

girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year. #when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍 #not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :) #like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢 #and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up- #when people mention it 😍 #last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her) #and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook” #and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?” #im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

[carapacian-swag]

Something Familiar

#homestuck #ms. paint #jade harley #ruby harlonde #Ms paint is so important to me sniffle. i think people #Forget about her and jade i mean it’s easy to but i hold that panel where she’s standing next to jade on the bridge close to my heart #I love making up parallels that aren’t there #as in i don’t think they did the Ruby and paint school thing intentionally. #it’s a one-off spoof gag :yeaj: #paint got a little bigger in the second drawing pretend she didn’t </3 #other notes uuuh paint is wearing a longer skirt #a homage to the pre proto and proto queen outfit #and it’s not a school for uuub what was it called I forgot(but it wouldn’t Be called that) but it’s just a community center she’s fixing up #hence her murals #Sorry thinks about hs^2 too hard #enough of that #i mean i don’t know if i can make it clear i Don’t like it(hs2/epilogues) #this was inspired by talk about it(ms paint school thing) i think it was a little ago i’ll try to find it #my art

[codecicle]

should i do something for 200 followers or just sorta let it happen. this is wild its weird that I'm being perceived

#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍 #im at 193 rn where did you people come from <3 anyway #idk what i should do but i wanna do SOMETHING #maybe ill finally drop a proper fanfic instead of rambles #or maybe ill just draw something in ms paint and call it a day o7

[lucyvaleheart]

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#sigh. another vent post.... #almost getting tired of making these but. I'm just.... I just don't really have much else I can do without botherin people #uh pretty big trigger warning for this one BTW #don't read on if you're low on spoons and whatnot. genuinely it's fine and I will be fine I always am #but like. yknow. when shit sucks it fucking sucks #anyway. uh. I just can't stand the idea that I might be bothering someone #so at least this way my stupid cries for help have a possibility of getting me some without making any specific #person feel obligated. yknow? maybe you see the post maybe you don't #Maybe you don't read all the way maybe you do. either way you can choose if you have the spoons to reach out #without feeling guilty either way. I hope. #.......i kind of want to fucking kill myself again #.....it used to be a much rarer thought. and I used to be much less struck by intense loneliness and longing like this #but I just feel so fucking needy. so desperate for attention and love and it hurts so much if I don't get it #and like. it's realistically nobody's fault but my own yknow... i need to ask for it more. i know that. i just suck at it #and then I can't ask. so I don't get attention. and in turn I feel neglected. secondary. like I'm not anyone's primary focus #and it just fucking hurts so much and it's just my own damn fault and I don't know how to fix it. #......i do. I need therapy I need meds or something. that's the answer here really #picked out a psychiatrist. need to call and make an appointment. but adhd and executive function and anxiety (that last one I need meds for) #mean it's very hard to both remember and then actually perform the task of calling the fucjing Dr #......believe me I'm trying.....like fuck I'm trying so hard.... and I started bawling having seen sparkles and ms robot girl reblog that #post from me about letting prev know you're proud of them. bawled when quinn called me cutie last night. bawled when #ginny said they wished they were here.... fuck me I do too I want to be the focus of someone's attention so so so so badly #fuck #...............it's redundant to say at this point a second time but. goddess above its a little scary how much I wanna kill myself #........sigh #....anyway. please do not feel obligated to respond to this in any way. do what you got the spoons for. #thank you for even reading all of this shit if you've gotten this far. i love you deeply and with all my heart. I'll be fine I promise #won't act on it no matter how strong the feeling is. just.....hurts in the meantime. but I'll be ok. I promise #................fuck. im going back to bed

[criiitter]

mini comic that i made in ms paint a while back. still means a lot to me

#art #artists on tumblr #comic #my comic #my art #anthro #digital art #ms paint #drawn with a mouse #like a boss #this spawned an obsession with drawing star shapes like all the time on everything #like people call them “bug stars #room also based on my old room… this is so nostalgic #poetry #nonbinary #quote by me

[ratgingi]

oh yeah also diversity win i told my case manager abt my preferred name and she helped me get it changed on things like my door labels/the name n info boards downstairs so now anywhere outside of like. official legal documents i will be called jack AND I AM SO HAPPY

#she found out bc when she talked to my therapist ms alice she was calling me jack so my case manager asked me abt it while in the car #and when i was like yea thts my preferred name she was like cool i kinda already knew bc i saw ur signature in your art/heard loki and ana #but she wanted to ask me abt it first nd said she wanted to find out organically and not make me feel forced to tell her and i just fbhdsbf #she said she could tell i wasnt out to my family really and also asked if i wanted help telling everyone else nd i jsut im just hngnngngngh #people ariubd here si nice to me i literally am more happy than ive been in literal years #dialogue

[paging-possum]

"well here's the thing is that being called ms sucks but being called mr sucks and being called mx is the WORST." - me explaining to my academic advisor while my long-term life plans involve getting a phd

#im mostly joking I don't plan that far ahead but also I need people to never call me ms or mr or mx ever #I need something gender neutral that doesn't fucking suck #u know

[montagne-russe]

vignettes into my current state

#doodle #fursona #ms paint #digital #image described #ruminating on my day yesterday in which i met a lot of ppl who were receptive to my pronouns pin (yay) but some people arent (booo) and One #Person was wildly insulting to me (BOOOOO) and then also i got called into work (yayy) #and of course. my computer is in a terrible state. (boo)

[rimouskis]

reestablishing that I Do Not Listen To Lyrics and this is speaking on a purely sonic level

like sincerely I have not been paying attention at all to what ms. swift is saying. anyways. the opinion that follows is unsurprising to me as I don't like ballads and I've always been picky about my swift songs but the only track off the album that had my ears perking up was I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can). interesting instrumentation and I'm very into the percussion on that track. wish she'd throw more power into her voice (I think she was getting there on Who's Afraid of Little Old Me?) but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ whatcha gonna do

#her best song is actually the rock version of ''we are never ever getting back together'' from the 1989 world tour #ms swift the day you leave soft slow pop for rock/pop rock I'll be there. just saying. please call me I think it'll be fuuun #I've loved seeing people react to this album after the huge year she had. love me some cultural and music commentary. always so interesting #I'm very much not a swiftie in the sense that her Most Acclaimed albums (folklore/evermore) are very much Not My Thing #and I really only liked anti-hero off of midnights #I like all her big pop hits—22 / we are never getting back together / love story / wildest dreams / wonderland / etc. etc. #but her slow stuff (which seems to be where her interests have led her) just isn't my speed (lol) #I'm sorry at my core I'm just not a lyrics girl. I'm just not a ballad girl.

[comradecowplant]

I would like to thank The Morning Show for feeding the millennial sapphics who always thought Elle Woods should have been with the intimidating brunette woman, I feel seen & heard 😌🙏

#ms witherspoon needs to improve her ability to perfom chemistry with same sex romantic partners but ive seen worse #julianna margulies is giving so much hot mommy dyke energy for reese to work with and yet she usually meets her with the gal pal vibes SIGH #she's no katherine heigl in jennys wedding at least. and this season (before uh the events of the last ep) they had better chemistry imo #i knew they wouldn't be end game 😔 but i didnt expect them to last this long so i will b gr8ful for what we had when we had it. rip ladley #i truly dont care about straight (or closeted assumed str8) actors playing queer roles as long as they can actually play them #to me that so-called discourse boils down to the ole annoying english teacher thing: 'can i play gay?' 'idk CAN you?' #reese at least doesnt seem to have a phobia of same sex saliva getting in her mouth like many other straggot actors ive seen in the past #am i making excuses for her bc i am one of the aforementioned sapphics who imprinted on her as a preteen? maybe so maybe so but I!D!C!!! #dani talks about tv #i'll lose it if cordley happens though. cory isnt a monster like other men on the show but the bar is low & theyve never been a good ship #im sure there are dedicated bradley x cory blogs here on tumblr dot com but i refuse to believe those people are real

[dinosaurcharcuterie]

I am pretty sure I'm not trans. Like, I check every few months, usually around the time a doctor gets weird about my genes. I do, however, also regularly consider removing the gender marker from my ID, even though it would seriously limit my ability to travel unhindered.

I am a woman. I like being a woman. Most of the times in my life I thought I hated my gender were related to fashion, but it turns out sewing machines can be laughably cheap and no one can force you to wear dusty pink to your cousin's wedding once you make your own money.

I just detest that a little letter on a little chip on a little card carries so many exhausting expectations. And changing it to "the" other one would only replace those expectations with the same thing in a slightly different color.

So once or twice a month, I play with the idea of just erasing it and making where I fit in statistics and what room I should pick a cubicle in to change into swimwear in and what random ass word should precede my name someone else's problem. Let the people who care figure it out, because I'm quite honestly exhausted with it all.

It would almost be worth the pain of getting all my ID updated. Almost.

#questioning #gender stuff #i am tired of the cis BS #it's not even a protest thing #i flinch when people call me “Ms” #why the fuck is that on my office sign at work #who the fuck decided “vague indication of what someone's genitals look like” are an important factor of ORIENTATION #none of this makes sense #I'm a woman and that is regularly relevant but not as often as some people make it #last time it took six years to get my ID renewed #and my insurance card is two months old #not even sure how the driver's license thing would go #updating the car's registration with no change of address or name should also be interesting #personnel at work would lose their shit if I didn't pick a form of address #would it be worth it? #it feels like it might be #still cis tho

[braceletofteeth]

I'm so thankful to Thailand for introducing gender neutral honorifics to my vocabulary.

It feels sooo nice to see nonbinary mutuals in my notes and go "Phiiiiiii~!!☺🥰" with the same respect and fondness I'd call others by korean honorifics (that are very gender specific).

#it always felt weird to call people older than me/that I'm not very intimate with by name #I use sir/ma'am/Mr./Mrs./Ms./Mx. all the time in english #(and the equivalents in other languages as well) #so the cultural tradition of addressing other people by honorific titles is something that I actually feel very comfortable with #(I try to keep it down though‚ since some people think it's weird/disrespectful to use them when it's not from your own culture 😔)

[marklikely]

statistically there has to be someone out there who successfully ran an entire community of sockpuppets getting in drama with themself. like there's gotta be at least one person who's done it and never got caught

#just like law of large numbers bc theres clearly a decent number of people doing this #just based on how many stories there are of people getting caught doing this. what i call the ms scribe move #< watching the when posting goes wrong. again. #avpost #i feel like i could pull it off but i dont like drama so making drama up for myself sounds tiring #but like committing to the bit of playing 20 different people doesnt seem that hard. i think i could pull it off #hmmm. hey does anyone want to manufacture an insane legendary drama with me. #we could get on the map forever. be the subject of a 2 hour youtube video #i could help make it more real by playing 8 zany characters and not get caught. ill delete this evidence dw.