#and one time I was watching tv with my cousin and idk who was on tv but she was like 'oh I think he's gay 😬' like obviously feeling bad

[chiimeraangel]

it's coming up on that time of year where I rewatch Samurai Jack in its entirety...

#I'm excited but also... #idk I feel like when I get to s5 it's gonna break me #Jack has been my guide my comfort my muse for YEARS #plus the art is just so. fucking. good. #but mannnn when he's down bad it makes my brain so sad 😭 #and I know when I see him feelin defeated I'm gonna draw parallels to my own life #and I...whewwww am I ready for that??? idk #I usually start watching in October and finish around December #I am a slow tv watcher and I find it actually v difficult to marathon shows 😭 #my brain needs breaks and my heart needs breaks and it's like #??? ok all movies are like 4 hours long now but they used to be 1.5 and that was perfect! #but my cousin will marathon a show that's 12 episodes each 25 minutes or even shows that have HOUR LONG EPS #and idk how she does it #but um yeah #another chii fun fact I guess #samurai jack is one of my favorite pieces of media of all time it's nostalgic and inspiring and so very beautiful #chii talks atchu •.• #samurai jack #for a while I even contemplated getting a tattoo based on the show like oooooo I'm glad I didn't but I was CLOSE #I know a girl who got one of Aku and it looks fuckn SICK #ok bye I have to work now :-((

[2-fast-2-curious]

Lando Being Besties with Your Chinese Grandma

A/N: I never write anymore but IDK something about seeing Lando with Alex's grandma made me think about Lando charming a less problematic version of my own Asian grandma. Also none of this is supposed to be taken seriously.

Somehow you swiftly moved from 'being too young to date' to your grandma asking when you're going to get married every time she sees you

She brings up how proud she is of your female cousins for finding a 'nice boy' and settling down

She offers multiple times to set you up with one of her friend's grandsons who she claims has a good job and a mortgage

When you complain to Lando, this amuses him...a lot

Especially since there's a very simple solution to stop her incessant nagging

Needless to say, she doesn't know about you and Lando

You and Lando are private but not secret

Since your grandma only uses Instagram to look at pictures of her great-grandkids, you didn't think you would risk her looking at F1 Gossip accounts and seeing blurry photos of you and Lando

Lando's met your parents and siblings but you weren't planning on introducing him to your extended family

What you didn't expect was to run into one of your grandmother's friends doing taichi at the park when you and Lando went for a stroll

Word got back to your grandma

She demanded to know who this mysterious man was

Which was how Lando ended up invited to your next family dinner

I'm going to be very honest here, Lando doesn't eat anything at dinner because he has the palette of a five-year-old

But he makes a good impression on your grandma

Also, you two visit the McDonalds Drive-Thru after dinner to get him McNuggets.

One day your grandma calls and complains she can't watch Price is Right on the TV

Since you're working and Lando is bored you send Lando over to provide tech support

Also helps her download games on her iPad and maybe secretly purchases extra Candy Crush lives for her using his credit card

And teaches her how to Facetime her grandkids much to the chagrin of you and your cousins

It isn't long until his charm wins her over

He spends the rest of the day watching Wheel of Fortune and Deal or No Deal with her while she crochets a hat for him

She always has a red envelope to give him

He drives her and her friends to the casino

And the Asian grocery store or your local Chinatown

Powerwashes the side of her house which he claims is just like the video game

Your grandma always makes sure to order him basic stuff at the restaurant that he'll eat like egg fried rice or beef and broccoli or chicken chow mein.

She also snaps at your cousins who try to eat the food she ordered specifically for Lando.

#formula 1 x reader #formula 1 x you #f1 imagines #lando norris #mclaren f1 #mclaren formula 1 #lando fluff #ln4 #lando imagine #lando x reader #f1 x reader #f1 fanfic #f1 imagine #f1 fic #lando norris x reader

[darkeralmond]

Bathing Suit

Luca Fantilli x Reader

synopsis: you bought a new bathing suit before your spring break trip and luca can’t keep his eyes off you

warnings: fluff, maybe suggestive idk

word count: 1.1k

a/n: this is based off a shifting scenario i had for one of my drs and i thought it was a cute lil idea ALSO SPEAK NOW TV AHHH

The afternoon sun blazed against your body, causing you to sizzle under the rays of light. Mixing that heat with the cool ocean breeze created the perfect spring temperature.

You laid on your stomach on top of your rainbow beach towel, resting the side of your head on your folded arms. You were at Panama City Beach for spring break with your friends. It was the first day of vacation and you honestly felt like just relaxing after the long flight.

You were focused on getting a tan while the rest of your friends played volleyball on the sand. Your friend group consisted of Adam, Seamus, Johnny, Luca, and one of your roommate/friend.

You were close with everyone in the group, but not as much as you were with the Fantilli brothers. You and Adam have been inseparable since the beginning of freshman year. Being the media team for the hockey team really had its perks.

You found yourself falling head over heels for his older brother, Luca. He was very well aware of that. Matter of fact, he predicted it. It was at a party where he introduced you two making sure to say, “You two are going to love each other… Like you’re going to fall in love.”

Adam rested on his back, soaking up the sun just like you were. Even though he had his sunglasses over his eyes, you could tell they were closed. “Did you hear that Janelle from the softball team is pregnant?” Adam the sentence flowed out of Adam’s mouth. If we weren’t laying out relaxing on the beach, he would’ve been more animated.

You didn’t react the same way though. Your head perked up as your mouth hung open with shock. “Janelle Reid?!” you gasped. She was always so against sex before marriage, it was like her whole personality trait. “Who’s the baby daddy?”

He sat up and took a sip of his Corona which was wedged into the sand. “Well, no one really knows, but people have their theories.” He took another long sip burying the can back in the sand. “Some people say it’s Weston… but some people think it’s her cousin.”

“No fucking way!” you yelled out loud while laughing. “Holy shit!” You grabbed your White Claw from out of the sand and took a sip as well.

Luca’s eyes pulled away from the game at the loud sound of your laughing. It sounded sweet and beautiful, how could he focus at a time like this? He looked over at you, completely ignoring the ball in his presence.

“Luca, dude!” Seamus yelled, causing you to look back at the group playing. “You’re selling the game!” You made eye contact with Luca for a split second before he looked back at Seamus.

He laughed it off and said, “My bad, bro!” He then grabbed the volleyball from the sand next to him and set the ball, hitting it over the net to your friend and Johnny.

You flipped onto your back so you could watch Luca play volleyball while he glistened with both sweat and sunscreen. His sun-kissed abs along with his little happy trail made your head feel dizzy. You were stuck in a trance staring at his beautiful smile. Thank God for your sunglasses to hide the fact you were staring directly at his body.

“Luca was checking you out,” Adam spoke up. You snapped your attention away from him and focused it onto his brother. He had a playful grin on his face, his head cocked to the side as he looked at you.

You rolled your eyes and scoffed. “Shut up, no he wasn’t.” Even when denying the fact, your cheeks couldn’t help but turn bright red at the comment. Maybe you could pass it off as a simple sunburn.

Adam always doubted that you wanted him to shut up when it came to his brother, and in any instance, he was right. You wanted to know more about why he thought that. Maybe he was feeding into your delusions, but he knows his brother best. There were the whole wavelength things with where they know how they’re feeling.

“You know what I think it is?” Adam took another sip of his Corona, leaving you on the edge of your seat curiosity. “I think it’s that new bathing suit you got.”

You lifted your sunglasses and placed them on the top of your head. “What do you mean?” You knew exactly what he meant, it’s why you bought the damn thing.

A week before you all left for Florida, you and your roommate went to get some things for the beach. “Maybe you should get a new bathing suit,” they suggested as you strolled through the mall.

“What? Why?” you asked while chewing on the plastic straw of your drink.

They rolled their eyes with a playful smile on their face. “Because bathing suits are a guy’s weakness.” You knew who they were talking about, so you agreed.

You went inside PINK and found the perfect bathing suit. It was your favorite color and it fit your body type perfectly. Plus it exposed your body enough to still feel comfortable.

Adam rolled his eyes since you obviously knew what he meant, but he didn’t hesitate to lay it out for you. “The bathing suit is hot, Y/N,” he said. “You look hot. You know it, Luca knows it. You might as well act on it.”

His blunt statement caught you off guard causing you to stare at him bug-eyed. The more you thought about it, the more it made sense. You looked back at Luca again, feeling his eyes sinking into your body.

When you made eye contact with him again, Luca’s face instantly flushed red. He was embarrassed that you caught him staring at you. “Luca, your head is not in the game!” Seamus complained again.

“Yeah, yeah! I’m sorry!” he apologized, attempting to keep his eyes off you, but you were irresistible to him. “Uh, Y/N! Could you get me a beer?”

“Dude the last thing you need is beer,” Seamus muttered.

“Shut up,” he whispered back, nudging the guy.

“Yeah, of course!” You got up from your spot and walked over to him with his beer. He nodded his head and smiled, his eyes sneaking a peak at your glistening body again.

“Thanks,” he said, cracking it open and pulling his eyes away. He cleared his throat, his cheeks super red.

“Of course!” You walked back over to Adam where he was already staring at you with his eyebrows raised and a smug smirk on his face. “Holy shit,” you whispered to him. It finally sunk into your mind that he was actually checking you out.

“Mhm.” Adam nodded his head slowly. “Like I said, act on it.”

#luca fantilli x y/n #luca fantilli x reader #luca fantilli #umich hockey x reader #umich hockey

[joesalw]

Story time! My cousin is six and wants to become a fashion designer. She saw an ad for the TS movie on TV and liked the sparkly costumes, so I pirated the thing and we watched it together so she could draw the clothes. Two big things I noticed are: 1) the vocals are... not that good? I mean, the quality of the audio has been improved a lot, but the vocals themselves are painfully mid even for Taylor. In one of the very first songs, I got the ick from a note she missed badly, and I'm no musical genius. Considering she chose this performance to be recorded in a movie to broadcast worldwide, you'd expect her to be top of her game, or at least to use some good old autotune to fix her mistakes. (I'll leave out the massive use of background vocals because I don't abitually listen to pop, so I don't know if that's a thing other artists do too or not. Tbh, if I paid hundreds for a tour ticket and all I heard was a recorded track and background vocalists, I'd be pissed to say the least, but maybe that's me, idk. 2) Her stage presence, dance skills, talking, it's all bad and completely unnatural. Her dance moves look like poorly done tik tok dances, her comments between songs are so fake it hurts, there is not a single thing she does on stage that comes off as genuine. I get no performer is ever truly themselves on stage, but damn, at least others are better at faking it. Her expressions and gestures are exaggerated for no reason, which ruins the whole experience, at least for me. Mind you, I like a goofy moment on stage, I like jokes, hell, Corey Taylor performing the Spongebob soundtrack mid concert may be one of my favourite concert moments ever. But if it's clear the person is acting, I can't have fun, I only feel like I'm being treated as an idiot. Luckily, my cousin didn't like the concert either, so I won't have to deal with a swiftie in the future ahah. Though I fear I might have to get through the Beyoncé movie as well once she sees her costumes (hoping that one's a little bit better).

Only one time I used to find Taylor's mid performance speeches genuine was during reputation tour. she used to be very relaxed and confident with who she was and exactly knew what she was saying, before that she would always seem fake and insecure to me, and this eras tour is her fakest version ever, she's just straight up acting. I myself would never spend my money on such mid shows ever.

#anti taylor swift

[absolutebl]

Well from your recent posts I've gathered that you are not a Big (with a capital B yes) fan of A Boss and a Babe so it's probly safe to say this . The reason i haven't watched this series is bcz I find the leads eerily similar looking?? Like if not siblings but atleast like distant cousins ??? Idk why but i can't unsee it now. Help .

Oh I don't think they look alike at all. Sorry, I don't know how to help you.

Maybe focus on specific features? Think of it like you were sketching them as a portrait artist? Like they have different mouth shape, eye shape/placement, cheekbones, and hair lines. Force (left) has a thinner straighter mouth more sculpted, slightly higher more prominent cheekbones, much heavier lidded eyes (he looks sultry and sleepy most of the time), slightly broader nose, longer face over all, and a prominent Adam's apple.

Book (right) has more delicate and finer features, his face is more heart-shaped and proportions are different (where his features fall on his face), smaller slightly pouty mouth, thinner nose, slightly rounder cheeks, close but less deep-set eyes. He's also lighter skinned. For all these reasons he's cast as the uke in their shows, as they are pretty much the same height, age (Book is actually a little older), and deferential politeness IRL, it could have gone either way.

(I don't make the rules, the yaoi gods do.)

Your Moment of Academia

If you're still struggling, there could be more/other reasons for this.

There is something called the Cross-race effect which may be impacting you. (The way to train your brain out of this one is to just keep watching tons of dramas, fashion, MVs made by cultures not your own. More info and discussion on this in this episode of All in the Mind podcast: The human drive to connect – and divide)

There's also Prosopagnosia to consider, although that's a lot rarer than modern peeps make it out to be.

I've also always felt like Dunbar's number may come into play with this kind of thing too. Like perhaps the human brain just has a limited max capacity for facial recognition storage.

So you might do better if you focus on their mannerisms and way of speaking which are completely different. (Siblings usually share vocality and mannerisms especially if they were raised together.) Body language and their way of holding themselves, smiles, eye crinkles, use of eyebrows, etc... Very few actors can move on from these tells.

Book has a more mobile face (which is why he suits comedy so well) but Force's is more emotive and expressive in nuance. He's uses more micro-movements, like little eye crinkles and a little crooked smile.

Their voices are very similar, but Force's is more burred, and a little more monotone (rare in Thai). He has a mellow soft way of speaking especially around the ubiquitous krap. Book has a rounder, wetter way of speaking, his kraps are more sharp and clipped.

All that said, IMHO you don't have to bother to watch either of ForceBook's series. So far this pair has been ill served by GMMTV. So if it wigs you out, there is plenty other, better BL.

Also if you want to actually watch a BL where the characters are some iteration of siblings, I'm sure Japan is there for you. If not, there's always the stepbrothers trope...

I have to say, I tend to way MORE annoyed when characters in a show who are meant to be siblings look absolutely nothing alike. Like bone-structure level "qua?" I know blood siblings don't always look alike, but they rarely look so completely different as we often get in TV or film the world over.

Way back, I did a series of actors in BL who I thought SHOULD play brothers and these are my favorites:

Mark Siwat Jumlongkul and War Wanarat Ratsameerat.

Now those two boys look related. To me, anyway.

(source)

#asked and answered #probably with more information than you wanted #ABL gets academic #BL and anthropology #BL and sociology #Thai BL #ForceBook #a boss and a babe #Enchante #Mark Siwat #War Wanarat

[what-even-is-thiss]

hi so i was wondering where you learned german because it seems like youre pretty fluent and im really trying to learn it but I can only take it once a semester at my school and i feel like its not working

I’m not fluent by any stretch of the imagination. At my best I think I was somewhere between A2 and B1. Able to have simple conversations and watch kids tv but not able to communicate about complex topics. I’m super out of practice with talking and right now I’m trying to get better at reading.

But where I learned it is a bit messy. I started learning in middle school and high school but stopped my sophomore year. Then I sporadically used free resources online like duolingo and the Deutsch Welle learn German site and other apps. I also made flash cards and read news sites for kids and stuff once in a while.

In the summer between high school and college I stayed with my aunt and uncle who live in Switzerland and have a house in Germany and I had reason to interact with my uncle’s family and for the most part none of them spoke English so I had some practice communicating with people with my cousins helping me get across more complicated ideas.

In college I spent one more year taking German. Since then I’ve gone through long stretches of time not studying it and have dabbled in other languages. I revisit it once in a while using a bunch of different stuff basically to just reverse the decay that happens when I don’t use it for a while. I’m not actively trying to get better at it. Just get back to where I was.

I’ve personally got no ambitions of becoming fluent at this point in my life. There’s not a lot of reason to use it where I live and I’m not on the best of terms with my family in Europe anymore. But I like German generally and I try to at least not get worse at it.

What I generally do when I go back to revisit it is relatively simple and usually goes on for a couple months. I review some stuff on duolingo, I buy a book for kids or language learners that either I’ve already read in English or is about a subject I know a lot about and I read that. I also personally get a lot of mileage out of writing down vocabulary lists. Drilling flash cards doesn’t do much for me but making flash cards is useful. So instead of wasting a bunch of index cards now I just write down vocabulary lists in a notebook every couple of days, either using old flash cards or a list from an online resource or one of the old textbooks I have knocking around.

Watching cooking videos in German is also something I do generally even when I’m not studying it because I just like Sallys Welt, which is a YouTube channel. A very mainstream youtube channel in the German speaking world. But she speaks clearly and is generally likable and I like her videos.

Idk if literally any of that is helpful. I’m super all over the place when it comes to studying. And in my experience thinking that you can use just one method to learn a language just isn’t realistic anyways.

[piracytheorist]

Have you watched my big fat greek wedding?

Watching My Big Fat Greek Wedding at least once was basically a cultural must for Greeks, from baby boomers to maybe even early gen Z-ers. Not that people older than boomers wouldn't watch it, it's just that boomers were the first generation fully comfortable with using a TV. Even if your family didn't buy the vhs/dvd, the film plays like every year on the TV since it came out so it's really, really hard to miss.

I have fond memories of watching it but I haven't watched it full in many years so I have no idea if it's aged badly XD

I can't talk about the accuracy of the film, since it focuses on Greek immigrants (now why some of those immigrants are played by Italian actors is fucking beyond me) and I haven't lived away from Greece, but I can guess that because those people live away from Greece, they may tend to overdo it on the traditions. Like, the wedding itself is pretty accurate, though maybe a little exaggerated for mainland Greek standards. I don't think I've ever been to a wedding with multiple bridesmaids who also wore matching dresses, and I've been to quite a few weddings. But again, it's the abundant appliance of traditions mixed with whatever American traditions the family picked up during their integration, so from that standpoint it may make sense. Idk. I haven't attended any weddings abroad XD

The parents are quite accurate, though. The father going like "Get married, make babies" is 100% overbearing parent of that generation, though it's usually the mothers doing that. The big ass family tree with multiple cousins with the same name is also accurate - my brother shares his name with two of our cousins, and my sister with one. The reason for that is that, at least up until late millenials, babies were named after one of their grandparents. So if a grandparent had three children and all of them had kids, there would be a chance that they'd have three grandchildren with their name (and we tend to have male and female versions of the same name, so you can be called Konstantinos and have a granddaughter named Konstantina). It's still kept as a tradition today but not as much as in earlier years.

Overall the film is pretty close to the average Greek's worldview, though again, influenced by the first generation immigrating to another country far away.

That said, in our family we quote "He's a xeno!" and "Ine keki mori (It's a cake, you dumb) / Ah! It's a KEK!" all the time.

Wait, no, edit: Because I need to say this, when Toula's brothers trick Ian into shouting in front of everyone "I have three balls", the word he uses in Greek is a heavy swear word for "balls". Like, we also have euphemisms like that that may be used for lighter occasions, but the "αρχίδια" that he says is the equivalent of saying "dick" rather than "penis". At least the way I view it, maybe "balls" in that context is heavy, but like, it's pretty much of a potty mouth to say "αρχίδια" and it looks weird for it to be simply translated as "balls" XD

#ask and ye shall receive #lentachorum #nette speaks

[steelthroat]

For the TF ask meme, if you've time...

🤖- What got you into TF?

💜- Fav Decepticon?

🍳- Character that you would go to Brunch with

Hello there~ all the time of the world for you! So let's go:

🤖- okay so there is more than one answer to this question since I have been in and out for a while before settling.

Very embarrassing, I was 3/4 years old and the second live action movie had been released not too long before. I was staying at my cousin's home and the first scene of the movie comes up on TV... the one where the Fallen was holding a struggling human in his hand and I was... hypnotized by that scene, like oh my good imagine a giant DANGEROUS robot holding you! And I went to my dad (who is a nerd) asking him "DAD! DAD! WHERE'S THAT GIANT ROBOT FROM?" And he hadn't seen the scene so he answered "I don't know... are you talking about Goldrake?" "NO NO IT WAS REAL!" and ge thinks about it for a while and goes "oooooh, Transformers I think". I thought about that scene for months and then never did anything about it because I was 4.

I was staying at my grandparents' house and I was looking for some cartoons and BOOM transformers prime, the episode in which starscream and knockout start a "zombie apocalypse" and I think to myself "ooooh cool characters!" And I keep watching. The moment Arcee and Prime came up I fell in love with them and so I stayed obsessed until rescue bots came out and then there were no more transformers shows on tv

I forgot about it until 2 or 3 years ago. It was summer some friends and I were talking about childhood cartoons and I remembered Arcee. A day later youtube recommended me one of those "transformers prime on crack/as vines" videos and then idk I was consumed by unicron.

Hhhhh such a long answer for a simple question... ok onto the next one:

💜- I made a loooong answer in the post I'm going to link somewhere (here) in this post but I'm going to add the VERY simplified list of reasons for it being Skywarp:

Purple

Loyal to the cause

Has what it takes to be a dcepticon

I love him as a character

Purple

Skilled fighter

*looks at the comics and g1 cartoon and gestures vaguely* that thing

Have I already said purple?

🍳- either Jazz or Bluestreak... or both. They would be of great company and would make every brunch memorable in one way or another. *smooches them*

#steel answers #THANKS FOR THE ASK!!!!

[nyahkmenrah]

Plural nation, I feel like sharing my experiences as a fictive that formed in childhood. This will be a bit long so I’ll put it under the cut. And NATM nation, idk if this will interest you but if you want to know what being a fictive of Ahkmenrah is like, feel free to read :).

For a little background, I’m one of the oldest alters we know of. There’s a few before me, but I was among the first 5. I split sometime shortly after the release of the 2nd movie so in 2009. The body would have been 7ish. Prior to that, the first movie we didn’t catch in cinemas, but we did have it (totally legally) on a USB that we watched religiously. So NATM was very much a childhood movie for the whole system.

My first memory is sometime after the movie was released and we saw it in cinemas, we’d gotten some of the happy meal toys. I so vaguely remember holding the Octavius on the squirrel toy, the way it felt and the smell of the McDonald’s playground. I pushed it down the slide, watched it go flying off the end (rip Octavius I just fucking launched you). Later that day I remember taking our sisters toy, the Easter island head one and sitting at the coffee table with it.

The next thing I remember clearly is climbing on a rope climbing frame and drinking a juice box with some cousins (I eventually found actual pictures of this in a photo album, we unknowingly caught one of my first proper fronts on camera). I was definitely a kid back then, I’d split in the mind and body of a child and I acted accordingly.

But those two early memories I have, I didn’t actually know who I was yet. I hadn’t really realised that I wasn’t in my own body and world yet. I was just focused on being a kid I suppose, I’d been pulled to the front to play, to have fun and distract from everything else going on at the time. But I remember the moment I realised who I was so, so clearly.

I was sitting in front of our old, boxy TV in purple winter pyjamas, watching the first movie again. And when on screen pulled the wraps off my face and start talking, something just clicked. That’s me, that guy on TV, that’s me. I remember being really confused, but I was still in a kids body and it was late at night so I guess we were just too tired to really react much. But I went to bed that night suddenly aware that I was too short, and too young, not a boy in this body, my eyes were the wrong colour, my skin was the wrong shade etc.

No joke only a few weeks later, the host went on a school camp. That camp is significant because it’s what influenced our headspace. The host had so much fun and loved that camp so much the brain basically copied the layout and made a proper headspace with it. THAT was when I actually got to interact with the other alters we had at the time, got to see myself in the right body internally and kind of pieced together why I was here and what had happened.

I’m the one that would front whenever the others were too stressed or tired. I was a protector in a way, I stopped us from getting too overwhelmed by coming to the front to play or isolate depending on what we needed at the time. I started to become a very prominent system member as we got to be an older kid. I was the one who got us obsessed with Hello Kitty and bought the history books home from the school library, I was the one who’d always suggest NATM as the sleepover movie, I was the one who helped pick the dining room decor when we moved (it’s ancient Egyptian art obviously). I was subconsciously trying to make the environment around me more familiar to me, more fun and relaxing by doing things I enjoyed.

Exomemories started to develop as we got into the preteen years I’d say. I was suddenly recalling things that happened to my character in an almost first person way. The same way you recall an event that happened in your childhood. It’s distant, you know it happened but you can’t picture it well. The more the host (and I) explored fandom spaces and the third movie had come out by then, the more I started to remember. I think us being older and able to have more complex brain functions paired with the hyperfixating on my source was what kicked off the brain forming exomemories. But it was around this time I started to really realise that I’m not real.

I am, Ahkmenrah the introject is. But Ahkmenrah the character, isn’t. Ahkmenrah is a pharaoh that isn’t real, made for the movie franchise. He’s fictional and yet, I’m him. All these people I remember and care for, they’re fictional too. I’m just a brain function with the personality of the fictional pharaoh, and I’ll never see my friends and family again because they’re now even real. That whole identity crisis kind of fucked me up for a bit. And the oncoming gender fuckery didn’t help either. I always knew I was bodily male and fronting in an AFAB body, but the realisation that I didn’t really mind it is what gave me an oh shit moment. In the end I just settled on demiboy adjacent, but that was a whole trip to go through.

By the teenage years, I’d grown up, the body had grown up and the host was becoming aware of the system. The co host was the first one to talk to them, but I was close behind. It was an odd feeling, I was talking to this person I’ve shared a body with for years. Someone who’s talked to me under the assumption I was just a daydream they were having for years. We know practically everything about each other but we’re just now formally meeting. My role had kind of shifted by now, I more held onto childhood memories and interests. But I’ve always been a rather frequent fronter, so I was one of the alters who helped the host explore the system as a whole more during the system awakening.

And then finally, as an adult in a now adult body who understands plurality and why I’m here the way I am, I can honestly say that I don’t mind being a fictive. Yes it has its downsides, the identity issues, the exotrauma, the not matching the body etc. but I was put here for a reason. As a child, the host saw my character and thought ‘they can help me. I can trust them’. And I split to help, to have fun and handle stress by unwinding and having alone time. I’m here because I was seen as someone who was strong enough to get through something difficult and I made out out the other side. I care for the system, they’re my family, my lovers, my friends. And I know that if they were to meet my sourcemates, all of them would get along with each other amazingly.

I have two found families, my sourcemates and my system. Being fictive isn’t so bad, because at the end of the day I’m here because a child looked at me and thought ‘he can help me’. And I did, I’m glad the host trusted me to help them.

#oh boy this is a ramble #endo safe #fictive blog #introject blog #introject #fictive #plural things #plural blog #just system things #multiple system #system blog #system #multiplicity #osdd #alters #plural system

[lasshoe]

15 questions + 15 mutuals

tagged by @waywardted 💛💛💛

Were you named after anyone?

my middle name (blair) is after blair from the facts of life and my first name i think my parents were at my cousin's graduation and a girl had it and they liked it and they were right 😌

When was the last time you cried?

lmao embarrassing and i wish i were joking but like 30 minutes ago watching a video on twitter of beyonce saying “welcome to the renaissance” brnrjdkdnfnekapk

Do you have kids?

no but i want them one day! my own and/or as has been previously well documented that i aspire to be a stepmom so dilfs hmu

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

i don’t particularly think i do

What's the first thing you notice about people?

their clothing and not in a judgy way it's just an occupational hazard i guess?

What's your eye color?

hazel

Scary movies or happy endings?

are u kidding me happy endings every time

Any special talents?

idk if it's a talent but i have like....... insane reflexes so if i fumble or knock something over or if anyone else does close enough to me 99.9% of the time i catch it? it's very weird. i can also do at least a back handspring which i haven’t attempted in years but i genuinely believe i still could if the opportunity presented itself and i tried

Where were you born?

virginia, usa

What are your hobbies?

me 🤝 ayo edibiri…. watching tv and watching movies. but also taking walks around the city, going to museums, thrifting, swimming in the ocean, traveling, trying new restaurants if that counts? i do genuinely need more hobbies

Have any pets?

not personally

What sports do you play/have you played?

most of my childhood i spent in competitive cheerleading but also dabbled in dance and softball and basketball

How tall are you?

5’3

Favorite subject in school?

english and art

Dream job?

my job rn (creative trend director) is actually my dream job in basically every way except financially

Tagging:

idk who or who hasn’t been tagged but here goes: @ohtendril @topsee-turvee @thesumdancekid @endlessblasphemy @factoseintolerant @talldecafcappuccino @jcusack @romansroys @coachlasso @villainesses @iloveyouandilikeyou @mrgaretcarter2 @shania-twain @dollsome-does-tumblr @cowherderess 😮‍💨

#thanks for tagging 🫡

[larryrickard]

tagged by @blackbeardsblanketfort, tysm! <3

List 5 favourite shows (in no particular order) and answer questions accordingly.

sorry but this is in particular order, bc idk how else to do it.: 01. fringe 02. bbc ghosts 03. yonderland 04. good omens 05. our flag means death Who is your favourite character in 2? robin. Who is your least favourite character in 1? there are a few.... windmark is obvious. but i think i'm gonna go with harris, the disgusting fuck. What's your favourite episode of 4? 1x03, "hard times" <3 What is your favourite season of 5? well, only one season has been released so far, so... 1. What's your favourite relationship in 3? it's not canon but ho-tan & vex. (... and the cousins tbh lol, esp lin's version of them.)

Who is your anti relationship in 2? uh... idk. anyone shipped with julian i guess.

How long have you watched 1? from the very first episode in 2008 :) fringe is one of the only shows i've watched from its beginning.

How did you become interested in 3? it's by/with the idiots, so i was interested by default.

Who is your favourite actor in 4? listen i love david tennant so much, but it's gotta be michael sheen as aziraphale for me.

Which show do you prefer 1, 2 or 5? sorry ghosts, i love you with my whole heart, but i cannot love any tv show more than fringe.

Which show have you seen more episodes of 1 or 3? i mean fringe has significantly more episodes than yonderland, and as much as i've rewatched yonderland, i've probably rewatched fringe just as many times over all these years.

If you could be anyone from 4, who would you be? i don't think there's anyone in that show i'd want to be.

How would you kill off your favourite character in 5? idk man. i'm not that creative and my favorite on the show tends to fluctuate. uh. let's go with buttons and something to do with the sea.

Would a 3/4 crossover work? ehhh.... i could see an argument for "yes" but i'm gonna go with "no".

Pair two characters in 1 that would make an unlikely, but strangely okay couple. i'm good thanks.

Overall, which show has the better cast, 3 or 5? ofmd has an AMAZING cast but the six idiots are gonna win out over everyone there.

tagging: @matbaynton, @cutthroatpixie, @ailendolin, @baynton, @renbhullar, @spaghetti-napoletana, @willbonds, and to anyone else who wants to do this. as always, no pressure to those i have tagged personally.

#me #tag game

[felizusnavidad]

GET TO KNOW ME

i was tagged by @poptart-cat-78 to answer some questions (thank you thank you) 🩷 there were two parts, but i decided to start a new post and combine them into one (cause i'm a mastermind).

PART ONE

are you named after anyone?: no, i don't think so. i have a cousin who is named after me tho.

when was the last time you cried?: yesterday? i cry every day so probably.

do you have kids?: nope and i don't think i will ever have them tbh.

do you use sarcasm a lot?: sometimes i think i use it too often. chandler bing is my spirit animal.

what's the first thing you notice about people?: i think it's their smile. or hair color. idk idk.

what's your eye color?: blue.

scary movies or happy endings?: ok look... i'm not saying i don't like happy endings, i love them, i really do. BUT. they make me forget about the movie/show/game too fast. i think sad/bittersweet endings are my thing. i want to be traumatized and think about it for the rest of my fucking life. scary movies are fine. i am choosing the secret third thing tho.

any special talents?: no, absolutely not. i am not talented in any way.

where were you born?: 🇵🇱.

what are your hobbies?: consuming any kind of media (music, tv shows, movies, video games etc etc) to find new obsessions, i also play ukulele a little and i like being annoying, i love collecting gifs in my phone.

have any pets?: no, but i would love to have cats and dogs (yes, plural).

what sports do you play/have played?: bold of you to assume i'm a sport person.

how tall are you?: 5'4 (not tall).

favourite subject in school?: english, cause i was pretty good at it (sometimes you have to learn foreign language in order to understand your favorite songs).

dream job?: no job at all. i just want to be in bed.

PART TWO

first ship: i think i already mentioned that in some other tag game, maddie and zack from the suite life of zack and cody (at least the first one i remember).

three ships: pb&j (pam and jim from the office because that's what i'm currently watching), i'm pretty sure claire and charlie from lost were also named peanut butter & jelly (because of reasons) so let's put them here because i suddenly miss lost, and let's say monica and chandler from friends because i would fucking die for them.

last (current) song: gracie abrams - right now.

last movie: star wars: episode III - revenge of the sith 💔

currently reading: posts on tumblr.

currently watching: the office/star wars/jimmy fallon (yes, i am watching all of this at once every day because it's a good distraction and i need to be distracted all the time).

currently consuming: i am drinking water at the moment (stay hydrated babes).

currently craving: a cheeseburger.

this was long but also fun. np tags: @meetmeatthemidnight, @tisthedamnseasns, @era-zona, @selcouthangel, @midnights-ts, @happinessforevermore. have fun guys 🩵🩵🩵

#tag games #tagged #get to know me #i'm confused by the notion that somebody loves me*

[desert-fern]

15 Questions, 15 Mutuals

The fabulous @bobfloydsbabe tagged me in this, so thank you lovely!

1) Are you named after anyone?

Not that I know of, I was however, supposed to have middles names that belonged to relatives, but my cousin got those 🙃

2) When was the last time you cried?

Last week when I got really really overwhelmed about school stuff. I did get some good inspiration for a Mickey one-shot, and lots of hugs so it all kinda worked out.

3) Do you have kids?

Nope. And idk if I want any either. But I have plenty of time to decide so it’s whatever.

4) Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Duh. Though I’m pretty sure I can’t tell when I use it anymore, so that’s great.

5) What sports do you play/have you played?

Currently play: badminton and can I stand up without sounding like popcorn

Have played: soccer, cross country running, gymnastics, swimming, cheer (with exception to soccer, most of these were passing interests)

6) What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Not to show the undiagnosed ADHD, but a person’s vibe. Like I have always been very sensitive to how people are feeling and what they choose to put out in the world. It’s weird.

Also, their smile. I love me a pretty smile.

7) What’s your eye colour?

Brown/hazel. I was told that when I was a baby that they were a very dark brown. So idk what happened there.

8) Scary movies or happy endings?

I HATE scary movies, so happy endings all the way, which translates to my writing. Unless I’m feeling heartless af, which hasn’t happened… yet.

9) Any special talents?

Not really, unless you count being able to crush a book with 200/300 pages in a few hours. Oh and never knowing an actor’s name (it’s always “that’s what’s his nuts from *insert different movie*. He played that one dude.”)

10) Where were you born?

Canada.

11) What are your hobbies?

Writing, reading, doing puzzles, knitting, playing D&D, watching tv shows/movies

12) Do you have any pets?

Yes! I have a 9 year old beagle named Harley!

13) How tall are you?

162.5 cm, or 5’4”.

14) Favourite subject(s) in school?

English, Social Studies, Chemistry, and Biology.

15) Dream job?

I’m in nursing school, so definitely becoming an RN, but I really want to work medical on movie sets. I love the idea and it would be a fantastic experience!

No Pressure tags: @startrekfangirl2233 @mayhemmanaged @sarahsmi13s @thedroneranger @beccaanne814 @aviatorobsessed @seresinsweetie @cassiemitchell @dakotakazansky and anyone else who feels like playing!

#15 questions #15 question tag game #I did this back when I had less than 50 followers #I love that it came back to me

[nardaviel]

tw suicide in family, transphobia, cops i guess

my brother just called to tell me that our cousin, who we havent seen in almost 20 years, has killed himself. i didnt even think i felt any emotional attachment to this guy, thats how distant we are from his family, but uhh turns out i was wrong i guess

he was out of contact with his family too, except for his sister. probably because of his mother? the one bright spot in this is that her child committed suicide and shell live with that pain forever. if i had to choose one person in the world for that to happen to, theres a strong chance id have chosen her, if not for the fact that those kids would then. be my cousins. my aunt hasnt spoken to my immediate family in almost 20 years, ever since she learned that my brother was a lesbian (he is not, but that was his egg understanding of the situation) and that my mom was fine with that. this is after my mom went out of her way and endured a lot on this aunts behalf when my uncle wanted to marry her. its just the hatred for my brother (and me ig but idk if she even knows im not straight) and the pure fucking ingratitude towards my mother. she didnt even come to my mothers funeral. i loathe her. (then she saw on facebook that actually my brother was trans and she sent dad some weird transphobic stuff for a bit but i think shes back to ignoring us)

but my point is, at the same get-together where my aunt would end up cutting contact with our family, my cousins were telling me and my brother "yeah our mom is weird abt gay stuff, we dont actually care"

and my other cousin, this guys younger sister, worked for some progressive campaign at one point iirc? so i feel like they both thought she was nuts

anyway the actual point is. my uncle, my mothers brother who is not Like That and who still talks to us, could only guess at what happened bc my cousin had largely cut contact. but he had a pretty good guess i think

so my cousin was in the police force, which i forgot about. but he quit a couple of years ago, apparently, and developed drug and alcohol problems. and then he killed himself. and like... i remember him, vaguely, and i know all this stuff about how he reacted to his mother and to being on the force

so all i can think is, he was a cop who wasnt a bastard. and because he wasnt a bastard, being in the force, however briefly, destroyed him. he was a lil white kid from a conservative family who didnt really understand what the cops were like and wanted to do good, probably. and then he got in and he was like "jesus fuck what is this." so he quit, but hed already seen too much and maybe done too much, maybe he had PTSD, and he couldnt cope

he was not old. i dont remember his age for sure but i do know he will have quit the force in his twenties, and i know he went to college. so he wasnt in there for long. i just

this kid, this child. one of five(!) of my dead mothers remaining blood relatives, because my brother and i were adopted. we watched tv together and played together when we were kids. he was a middle-class white guy, he played football in high school, etc, but he wasnt like. fundamentally evil. he was just privileged. he saw through some of his mothers shit even as a teenager. but he didnt see through enough, so he bought into the lie that cops are protectors, and he only found out too late that oh boy is that not true. he quit the force but he couldnt escape it, his time there obviously followed him and haunted him. and now hes fucking dead. that was my cousin and now hes dead and he did it to himself

#suicide / #personal #sorry i just dont rly have anywhere else to dump all this

[starnightlover]

Hii Star

Can I vent here ?

If not then pls ignore this one.

Idk why am I writing it here bcz I know the "solution " to my problem but things just have stressed time so bad today. And I feel safe in a few blogs and today I thought to write in one of these blogs, yours.

I am manifesting a better sc. I havr to more siblings I am the oldest. I feel like I have the worst sc among them. Wherever I go they always get more important than me and I am sort of sidelined. I hate this happening. All the time. I do so much for my parents and my grandma too but they all treat them better than me. I hate to admit it but I am jealous, I know i seem so bad and I dont want to feel this way. I never want my siblings to feel the way I feel ,never bcz its horrible. My youngest brother ,he literally trats me like shit, I have no idea why always rude to me and sometimes talk to me as if I am some animal. I hate to even interact with him anymore , we fight a lot and he says so much mean stuff about me and I get offended bcz they are my big insecurities. I feel like some ugly , someone people dislike for no reason at all kind of a person. Its painfull , despite knowing I have the power to change I have some bad days and today was one of them. I was doing great in my sc affirming and stuff fro the past few days. But its difficult I admit , always seeing my sister getting more favoured , loved , valued appreciated than me all the time it hurts bcz I jsyt am some side person. I tryy best to not let these hold me and make me fall. In family functions my sibling and cousins have a great time and i am all alone or like some useless wheel with everone else. But its difficult and I thought instead of suppressing these feelings I need to let them out. I want to love myself, and know I am interesting anx someone people love to be with, I have something special and I am satisfied and secure in myself, I want to feel these and experience these so bad but my conditioning gets hold of me. All those insecurities feel so real and so true that anything else feels like I lie. I sometimes feel like a loser bcz why would I be worth anything or be special to people or others, I dont lokk that good, I am not interesting to be with, I feel mediocre,y body has become fat , I failed miserable in my competitive exams this year , I dont have a clear career or future , I procrastinate, watch tv shows for long hours ,dont follow routines I set for me no matter how easy it is, say something foolish or dumb in front of people , literally theres nothing good about me and so much more shit.

I know what I have to and need to do. I am doing my best at a slow pace. I am trying. Its hard but I know I can grt through with this. I did not complain but there was so much in my heart and I wanted to let u out idk who to talk to or where to vent so I said it here.

You can always vent here! You're always welcome to let it out

I want to say I'm proud of you for getting through this. Life can be hard but you're still pushing through and that makes you so strong! I want to remind you of the power you have, you are so freakin powerful! You are a limitless being who can manifest anything in the blink of an eye! You got this, you can change the story. Remember that the 3d is a straight reflection of your internal imagination! The 3d must conform to you, so if you change you assumption about these things, they will change also! I believe in you and I know you can do anything you put your mind to. I know it can be so hard to do anything when you are in a depressive state. I have been there. Hell I was there until I started dining into making my own blog! You can get through this. I just want to tell you you are loved, I love you and I will always be here for you! I am proud of you for saying how you feel! I am proud of you for just existing! You can get through this! I will be here to help you manifest what you want get through all of this! You are amazing, I know you are worthy! You are worthy of anything you could ever imagine wanting! Remember you are amazing!

#law of assumption #manifestation #neville goddard #anonymous asks

[munsonology]

I saw the other pregnancy story and I raise you MY parents pregnancy story

My mom is a nurse who works labor and delivery. My dad is well...my dad? He is a former stoner who somehow got a job as a security guard and got on the straight and narrow (can't risk his job if they drug test him!). Anyways, my mom also did not think she was pregnant right away because she is also very irregular when it comes to her period. Her best friend just announced she was pregnant. My mom's friend joked "maybe YOU'RE pregnant too". My mom was like ???....!!!!

Went home and tested and bam. Pregnant. My dad was panicking slightly (my mom's favorite story is how she told him he was so ecstatic and happy and they cried and hugged and after they calmed down he immediately pulled away panicked and said "WE GOTTA HIDE THE WEED" and she replied "you haven't smoked for a year there is no weed" and he just went "oh shit yea" 😭)

Then when it came time for the birth, you aren't allowed to eat or drink anything during. Just ice chips. So her water broke at my grandparents and she was just chilling whilst my dad was like "OH GOD ITS TIME GET JN THE VAN" and she did and he was so panicked he was like "wait how do I get there from here". So my mom is giving my dad directions and he's like a ball of anxiety until he realizes "wait we're in the middle of town now and the hospital is the opposite way". This bitch gave him directions to a Dairy Queen because she was craving a milkshake and French fries and knew they wouldn't let her eat when she got there 😭. He is not happy and is mumbling threats at her but gets her the food and off to the hospital they go! They arrive and according to my dad she "strolls in, sunglasses on, almost finished milkshake in one hand and the other on her stomach, looking like a goddess". And her coworkers looked at her and all she said was "its time" and everyone was like OKAY LETS GO.

After three hours of waiting (labor had started but I guess there are different stages idk like the water had broken but it still takes awhile if its your first?) My mother, my beautiful amazing snarky mother looks at my dad who is now mumbling about how he should have picked something up at the dairy queen, and tells him to get out. YES!!! He is sitting there like 😟 and she says "oh its gonna be many more hours go get something to eat then come back, cause you are NOT eating in this room in front of me". And my dad being my dad is like no I love you im going to stay and she tells him that his favorite local family diner opened back up after it had been closed for renovations. Mom jokes you could see smoke from how quick he ran out of there.

My dad then says while he was sitting at this diner eating a burger and humming, his waitress came up and asked what he was doing there (he did not realize she was flirting at the time but my mom yelled at him that the waitress was). My dad's reply was "Oh my wife is giving birth right now 😃" and this waitress immediately scoffed and the other diner patrons turned to look at him andglares at him! He realized his mistake but he already dug himself in the hole. He paid and left an extra large tip.

He returned to my mom, who was sitting watching TV and grumbling about how long this was gonna take. 8 hours later, j was born

(Ngl I think the story is cute but those are MY parents ljke ew. But I can totally see all the Eddie fans go crazy so enjoy. I prefer Steve but dabble in some Eddie)

Thank you for sharing this! I loved reading it ☺️

I know I said fuck them kids the other day but I really do love pregnancy stories and kids!! I just don’t want KARENS assuming I have a kid or should’ve had one already 🙃 and I found out my cousin is pregnant again and I can feel my auntie’s head spinning around 😭

And your parents are so cute! AND DAIRY QUEEN 😭😭😭😭your mom is a literal queen for walking in the hospital like the baddie she is!!

And the entire diner judging your dad 😭 like they could’ve at least let him explain. I’ve seen some guys take a ps5 to the hospital and ngl I think I’d be playing too if I was waiting around for 16 hours to give birth I’m sorry 😭

My mom made my dad get her fish sandwiches and taco bell 😭 and it’s funny because I’ve never been to taco bell ever in my life. And she had really bad preeclampsia so she was admitted like right after the visit. I was like 3 weeks early so idk if they even had stuff set up yet lmaoooo

#sav’s anons #I love my anons so much #we’re a little family over here