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I have found an incredibly niche genre of elder scrolls YouTube videos where people badly roleplay as Dagoth Ur with AI or digitally altered voices and not for like a one off video there’s at least two channels and possibly more roleplaying as Dagoth Ur doing tier lists and lore videos and giving opinions as Dagoth Ur and because he’s a character that’s onscreen for maybe two or three minutes at the end of the main quest all they have to go off of is his villain monologue so they basically only have two ways to insult things and it’s weirdly mesmerizing to watch

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A new hand touches the beacon

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You know, it’s occurred to me that if the elder scrolls 6 does go to high rock and/or hammerfell then Orsinium could be a DLC location and there could be a city of orcs to hang out in. I like hanging out with orcs. They appreciate the merits of being a little bit ugly and they seem like fun people to get into a drunk arm wrestling contest with. I never like playing as an orc in these games for some reason but I do like hanging out with them.

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You ever notice that a character will get called a nickname once in a like 500 episode series or something and that’s the only nickname any fanfic writer will ever use for them forever

Like I know that one guy was called banana man once but surely you can think of something else to call him once in a while

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A new hand touches the beacon

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I think I’ve figured out why I like doing the civil war questline in Skyrim. It’s the same reason I like the arena questline in oblivion.

Sometimes you just wanna take a break from important quests and skill grinding and methodically sneaking through dungeons and you just wanna mindlessly hit stuff!

I’ve figured it out. It’s the mindlessly hit stuff and get a cookie for doing it questline. That’s why I like it. There’s barely any puzzles or thinking involved. Once you know the questline you can just blitz through it hitting everything with your hammer. It’s the arena-like faction.

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A new hand touches the beacon

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I think Taylor Swift’s work is kind of subtly obsessed with golden age Hollywood. She writes like someone who wishes she had been a washed up movie star. Or fantasizes about it idk. Like if you look at her aesthetics and music all the way back to Red you can find that’s one of the threads connecting everything. She’s even got a song about it.

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Just noticed a place near me is selling a 32 oz charcoal lemonade. That’s a pretty big cup of undoing my antidepressants.

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“Quite a few Americans like the idea of strongman rule. Why not a dictator who will get things done? I lived in eastern Europe when memories of communism were fresh. I have visited regions in Ukraine where Russia imposed its occupation regime. I have spent decades reading testimonies of people who lived under Nazi or Stalinist rule. I have seen death pits, some old, some freshly dug. And I have friends who have lived under authoritarian regimes, including political prisoners and survivors of torture. Some of the people I trusted most have been assassinated. So I think that there is an answer to this question. Strongman rule is a fantasy. Essential to it is the idea that a strongman will be your strongman. He won’t. In a democracy, elected representatives listen to constituents. We take this for granted, and imagine that a dictator would owe us something. But the vote you cast for him affirms your irrelevance. The whole point is that the strongman owes us nothing. We get abused and we get used to it.”

— The Strongman Fantasy - by Timothy Snyder

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Like that’s the same size as a Big Gulp

Just noticed a place near me is selling a 32 oz charcoal lemonade. That’s a pretty big cup of undoing my antidepressants.

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Just noticed a place near me is selling a 32 oz charcoal lemonade. That’s a pretty big cup of undoing my antidepressants.

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Okay, thoughts written down after class when I’ve actually got time to listen to the whole thing because this thing is movie length for some reason

This is gonna be long but it’s all in one reblog so it doesn’t clog up your feed

Insert from future me: I ended up listening to half of it before taking a break so this is gonna be the first half. This should’ve been two different albums. I feel like a 15 song album is my limit for a listen-through. I’ll give thoughts on the second half later

Fortnight: not about the video game sadly. the song is mostly standard Taylor Swift fare with some edgy flavor thrown in there. I’ve never listened to Post Malone before and I like his voice in this one. Might see if I like some of his other work later. Can’t say I’m a fan of the music video’s specific use of psych ward imagery.

The tortured poets department: I don’t really like this one. Specifically the writing. It just doesn’t vibe with me. Hopefully it gets more young people to read Dylan Thomas though. This just sounds like Taylor Swift song and nothing else to me. She’s not really breaking new ground with this one.

One of the things I like about Taylor Swift is that she’s fairly different between albums while still sounding solidly like Taylor Swift but at this point I’m sorta struggling to figure out what she’s doing differently here

My boy only breaks his favorite toys: It’s aight. I’ll probably listen again but not on repeat. It’s too similar in tone to the last two songs though in my opinion

Down Bad: it’s on this album for sure. The lyric video for this one is a good example of my problem with official lyric videos these days. Like there’s getting creative with your typography and then there’s whatever that PowerPoint slide looking abomination is.

So Long, London: It’s pretty good but not in a knock your socks off way it’s just pretty good I like it but at this point as an album I’m wondering where we’re going with this. We’ve mostly stayed in a very similar tone musically with these first five songs

But daddy I love him: This is the first one that’s going in the casual listening shuffle playlist. It’s more similar to her older stuff but not in a way where it feels like a step backwards. Just a little bit of her old country flavor here but not too much. Just a pinch. Classic persona stuff as well. She’s done this sort of thing from the beginning but did a lot of it in folklore and evermore

Fresh out the slammer: I don’t really get this one lyrically. Like the whole concept of it is sort of lost on me I think. Musically it’s pretty similar to stuff she’s been doing since Reputation so not much to report on that.

Florida!!!: This song gets better as it goes along. I really love the drums in this one. It’s also reminded me I need to listen to more Florence + The Machine. Love the vocal mixing here too. It’s got good texture. I’d like to eat this song, tbh. In a good way. Going on the shuffle playlist.

Guilty as sin?: Classic Taylor Swift pining sing. That’s the good stuff. It’s even got a chorus! Might consider putting it on the shuffle playlist.

Who’s afraid of little old me?: Obviously written for teenage girls to have revenge fantasies to. I think this was the one people were getting mad about on tumblr. I think I get the criticism but this song is not that deep and I don’t think it needs to be. Not going on the shuffle playlist but I might listen to it on loop while writing as background noise

I can fix him (no really I can): it’s here for sure. It’s on the album. Don’t super care about this one either way but I just know if there’s ever a music video for it it’ll be insufferable

loml: not my vibe but it’s well done and has some good turns of phrase in it

I can do it with a broken heart: Classic song about being famous and under pressure that the average person can’t relate to. It’s kinda fun though. I think we needed some fun in this album. I mean yeah the lyrics are about being depressed after a breakup but it’s fun musically.

The smallest man who ever lived: Not exactly sure what that was tbh. Breakup song I suppose. It’s fine. Won’t be seeking it out again.

My thoughts so far are that there’s some good stuff here but I worry that maybe she’s reached the point of fame where people can’t tell her when a song doesn’t need to be on an album anymore. Some of these songs tire me, I’ll be honest. There’s a lot of sameness going on here I haven’t come to expect from her.

I have figured out that all the sudden Taylor Swift hate on my dash is due to a new Taylor Swift album being out and seeing that I'm a casual Swift fan (I do not identify as a Swiftie) I think perhaps I should listen and report my findings so I'm gonna have it on while I get ready for class today. Which is fitting because I'm going to poetry class so seeing as I am technically a tortured poet supposedly this album is meant to speak to me so *mario voice* Here we go!

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Amen

Yet another great result of homosexuality being mostly destigmatized is that anyone of any gender can threaten to have sex with your mother

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I’m fully aware those are for people getting a degree in like psychology and medicine and biology related fields but I found it quite amusing trying to imagine a scenario where an MFA student would have to use those guidelines

I’m formatting my thesis to submit with my graduation application and because I’m getting a creative writing degree most of the formatting guidelines don’t apply to me, especially the bits relating to human test subjects

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I’m formatting my thesis to submit with my graduation application and because I’m getting a creative writing degree most of the formatting guidelines don’t apply to me, especially the bits relating to human test subjects

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My boss is making me work even though theres discord channels to read like morning paper?