#and now i have to wait until january

[2129888]

wake UP oofuriheads time to fan the dying embers of your crushed hopes and dreams once again ❗❗

#oofuri #we have a 1/200 chance of this being us. i say these odds are better than ever #ok but they put all the episodes up for free on youtube last year........???¿ region locked to japan #until dec 31st at least #but that's perfect bc it lines up with a big reveal in january.... #girl.... im so desperate 😭 #and now i have to wait 3 days to know wtf is going on ............ cryyyyy #if im wrong i'll just walk into a big lake no exceptions

[tearlessrain]

seriously can catastrophes stop happening for five minutes my brain is already fried from the ones we're already experiencing

#I fucking. missed d&d tonight by accident #I straight up forgot #and just didn't show up to the session #my sleep schedule is absolutely fucked #I should be sleeping now but brain won't shut up #my creative output is the lowest it's ever been and I've been in some level of depressive funk since like early january #I am just deeply unfathomably exhausted #like mentally and spiritually #all the time #my memory and sense of time are both shit #my spelling is worse than it used to be for some reason?? #I really don't know what to do to make my brain start functioning again it's frankly worrying me #I couldn't even handle college so it should come as no surprise that I'm reacting poorly to the world being a perpetual screaming trash fir #and yet #idk it's been hitting again lately that I have never succeeded at anything in my life and just keep tripping and falling up for some reason #fucking everyone is in hell right now and with my overall success rate I should be dead in a ditch but I'm actually doing spectacularly #due to a series of improbable accidents and weird circumstances that happened to turn out in my favor instead of completely fucking me #aside from the looming spectre of my various failed attempts to have some kind of life trajectory #it just doesn't feel like this can keep up forever #like surely at some point the luck has got to run out I can't just keep living like some kind of folkloric trickster archetype #but my motivation and sense of purpose kind of died after the last failed attempt so I'm still just here #doing whatever this is #maybe I should drive out to the coast #maybe staring at the ocean would fix me I've been away from it for too long #I mean it can't make me worse #I should wait until further into summer though so I don't have to drive back in the dark #everyone around here has trucks with those goddamn LED headlights and I've got a little sedan that's directly in their blast zone

[sjonni33]

this is like. super embarrassing but yeah :/ i ripped my only pair of jeans today, which really sucks :( disability support has until nov 8 to decide over my case and until then i have 0 income except from the tiny bits i scrap by. uhm if anyone could like, spare a euro maybe? i'd be very grateful. i also have things listed in my shop, some are only 1 cent (or whatever you want to pay for it), i also have some stickers here, here and here. some prints here and here . shipping is as low as it can be <3 and i also offer discount codes (use RATASSES for 5% off!!) you can also commission me!!

i'd appreciate any help, even just in the form of sharing this post or reblogging/sharing my art!!

GOAL HAS BEEN REACHED!!!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!

#i *thankfully* have all groceries done for this week and don't have to worry about rent #but yeah :( clothing or any other items i need i just cant afford. i can just about cover my health insurance but even for that i have to #dip into my savings. i have my disability support case on september 7th. an entire month from now and THEN they have until nov 8 to reply #i also think they can even get an extension of 48 days after that? so they'd have until somewhere in january to reply and it's #im literally stuck. i cant get any other type of support because my boyfriend earns too much but we can barely scrape by in the month on hi #income and that's without my health insurance food and 0 savings #fuck this country istg. i want to move SO BADLY. because this country does nothing for me. NOTHING. #i have to wait an entire extra year to see if i can go to uni 😩 and im so stressed. first gray hair and im 21 <3 haha #anywy #im really sorry for having to do this :( i hate it sm #signal boost #sjonnies post #also if youve tipped me before please DONT tip me again!!!!!!! i dont want anyone to feel pressured or obligated please #only spare me some money if you are 100% sure you can miss it!!!!! not even 100% but 10000% sure!!!!!!!

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: a doodle of hunter, willow, darius and gus from the owl house, set after Thanks to Them. Hunter is the focus in the foreground with willow and darius behind him. Gus is a small doodle in the background. Hunter looks off to the right with nervous brows and a small smile. Labeled with text next to him that reads: “doing alright, all things considered- knows who he is and what he wants, has clear goals (merk belos) & people who love him. Grieving but carrying flapjacks love with him. He will be okay and he knows this”. Behind him willow and darius are depicted shaking and covered in shadow with text labeling them “shivering with incandescent rage and fear”. The small doodle of gus is labeled “knows what you are”. End ID]

Ideal scenario for post-thanks to them character dynamics

#the owl house #toh #hunter toh #hunter noceda #the other characters are small and this doodle is already silly so I’ll hold off tagging them for now #listen this might be idealistic thinking #but like. I do think even though hunter will be a bit fucked up next ep hes not gonna be at his lowest (like after hollow mind) #he’s got people! A semi-formed identity independent from belos OR caleb! He’s got goals and wants that are wholly his own! #but at least it’s not like hollow mind where his whole world genuinely came crashing down and he ran into the woods #the people who care about hunter on the other hand??? Particularly the ones who DONT have secondary drama at this point (camilla luz amity) #(etc) #yeah they’re probably very worried for him and angry on his behald #*behalf #although maybe behalf isn’t right since hunter has FINALLY recognised the abuse he’s faced and is mad about it #but like. Either way they’re probably not okay rn #and idk how that might potentially manifest if it gets any focus at all (theres a lot going on rn) #but either way i will be rotating this potential dynamic in my mind until January #and then there’s gus waiting to reveal to hunter that he knows hes a grimwalker. Sitting there politely #please let the conversation between them about it be a little funny. Especially when uconsider the theory that gus used cosmic frontier- #—to subtly signal to hunter that He Knows #like. That’s objectively funny in and amongst all the drama #anyway yeah #i did this on the notes app lol. That’s why it looks like that #notes app doodles are low quality but freeing <3 i love them dearly for this

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

IM STARTING TESTOSTERONE YIPPEE YIPPEE

#i JUST HAD MY LAST APPINTMENT THING >:D NOW I JUST GOTTA WAIT FOR THAT GUY TO SEND MY PRACTICE THE LETTERS AND ADMIN AND SHIT #AND THEN I GO TO THE DOCTORS AND GET MY PERSCRIPTION EEEEEEEE #DOWNSIDE HOWEVER #IS THAT I GOTTA WAIT 9 DAYS FOR ALL TAHT TO HAPPEN #IN 9 DAYS IM VISITING FAMILY FOR TWO WEEKS 😭 #SO NOW I HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL JANUARY TO ACTYALLY GET MY PERSCRIPTION #BUT IVE GOT ONE EEEEEEEE #EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #BOY JUUIUCCEE #transgender

[fontasticcrablettes]

Just you wait. As soon as I get access to polls, we're having a sexiest Wonder Chef poll.

#been very busy in December/January but will start Tales Sexywoman soon #now that tumblr has polls I'll wait until I have those and just use that rather than making external polls for each one

[solannecontinuum]

Wayne has picked up upon a holiday tradition called "Christmas" and brings it back home to enjoy some time with his beloved crew!  His little angel joins along for the occasion, too <3 

- Christmas 2022 ♥

#☆. SOLANNE C WORKS. #☆. ILLUSTRATION WORKS. #☆. WAYNE HYLICS. #☆. HYLICS. #hylics #wayne hylics #hylics wayne #traditional art #alcohol markers #☆☆☆ COMMENTS: #Okay I actually got this done in January but shhhshhshhhh #more simpler rendering; at least compared to how I render now #but it still looks fun and festive! #This only got delayed because I got stuck on what pattern to put on the wrapping paper until I realized WAIT I HAVE THE INTERNET RIGHT HERE; #and. y'know. USE GOOGLE. #Pongorma being a really good chef and having make some cookies looks so cute! <3

[bangcakes]

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#ladies.............. i asked him to hang out BDNJDNDJDJDJDJ #i guess..... background info maybe ??? #i had asked him if he wanted to keep in touch with me n one of our mutual friends. he said sure. #said mutual friend is gone on a trip all of january #so i was like oh fuck what do i do #so.... i was like oh i can like.... tell him like.... #blank is in blank. id still be down to do something or we could wait until she's back. either is good with me!! #and he was like.... (after over AN HOUR) 'i guess we could wait till she gets back' #so im like NDJDJDJDDKS OK. i sent.... okay let me know if you change your mind !! #like brb dying NDJDJJDJSJDMS #like could have been worse. like he could have said no to both. idk the 'i guess' is kind of sending me. #n e way. im just glad he replied. thats more than most ppl get from him JDJDJDJDJJDJDJDJ #hhhhhhhh ya... idk if i was ready to hang out with him by myself anyway. id like to get to know him better first.... #like i wanna see if we can even be friends outside of school....... n e way !!!! #so relieved that i just asked !!! its been hanging over my head a few weeks now. i just wanted to have a calm christmas n new years JDJDNDN #personal #ONE OF MY TAGS GOT ERASED. HOLD ON #... GOTTA GO ON DESKTOP TO FIX IT #edit: ok it should be fixed

[dandyshucks]

made it thru the day and i just got into bed finally ... and now it is anxiety attack time noooooo augh. augh. augh :[

#vent // #almost cried twice today but held it together (and someone else switched in and took over fjdksl) but now everything is just. crashing aaaaa #this sucks fjfkdl this is why ppl tell u not to repress bc it just builds up and has to come out at some point #but i was hoping it could wait at least until tomorrow if not until ... january djdkdl #so i could have time and space to have whatever episode i needed to have and then pull myself together djdkdl i wanna SLEEP rn 😭 #dandy.cmd

[pallases]

submitted my first app 😖

#😭 didn’t plan to start this early but they said to do it by tonight and now i am worried abt when other companies want their apps in. i #should have asked them #i don’t think they all want them in now tho bc one of them told me she doesn’t start responding until january which. probably means i can #wait a bit right?? i don’t know 😭 #personal #the engineering chronicles #feeling pretty okay abt how today went actually one employer told me i have a very high gpa and that she thought she read it wrong and #another i was talking to abt how even though they’re not a primarily medical company they do do medical stuff and i named and spoke abt the #things they’ve worked on and he seemed impressed by that knowledge. so #really worried tho bc. there are hardly any medical places my school has approved to apply to for this and companies that dont do medical #stuff don’t want biomedical engineering interns even if everything but my electives is the same as an ee’s coursework. bc we’re not going t #stick around for them to hire post grad. like ppl from these companies are straight up telling me not to bother applying or that they don’t #accept apps from ppl in my major etc. which fucking sucks especially since in ADDITION to that the vast vast majority of the companies #that Do have medical stuff going on are mechanical or manufacturing based not electrical. like. what do you expect me to do here #there is one company (the one the guy seemed impressed w me abt) that does electrical and coding stuff and i am really really interested in #them. but as i said the medical stuff is not their main focus and they’re more an all around place. and they also won employer or the year #or whatever a couple years ago. which means Everyone is going to be applying to this company. ugh

[hungriestheidi]

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#cant recommend being in such a panicky state that you do one wrong thing and you immediately feel physically ill & ruin the rest of the day #like tell me why one thing going wrong in my day made me feel so absolutely miserable #im shaking so im sitting down to pray to calm myself down #but ugh i hate it #i want to be done with uni NOW But NOOO i have to wait until January for a freaking break #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #to be deleted

[thebraxiatelcollection]

It's been a few days since I have finished reading House of Sky and Breath and my mind is still reeling at that ending.

#crescent city #house of sky and breath #acotar #like SARAH J MAAS REALLY WENT THERE #i knew it was going to happen but man #what an ending to book two #its also making me want to reread throne of glass #ngl i miss that gang #but now i have to wait until january for book three?? #january cannot come quick enough

[kalincka]

nothing on the brain except them

#it's about the love the impending doom and being miserable and gay #I *CANNOT* WAIT UNTIL JANUARY 30TH. I *NEED* TO HAVE MY HEART BROKEN *NOW*!!!!! #tlou #tlou hbo #bill tlou #frank tlou

[seilon]

been having an overwhelming on and off feeling of dread all day over the thought of opening my email or getting a text or whatever and it’s Yet Another job rejection. like good god that’d fucking kill me

#I’m so tired of this dude #like I was pretty confident about this but. idk I’ve been turned down so many fucking times now and places have gotten my hopes up #just to let me down every single time and I just can’t help but feel like rejection is inevitable. cause im always rejected #note: I have been applying for jobs since January and have gotten exactly two (2) interviews that whole time. #kibumblabs #it’s only been a day but. idk #I am not going to be able to truly rest until I know the outcome despite how much I am dreading the possible outcome #and I don’t feel good reassuring myself and telllng myself it went well because that’d just be setting me up for a bigger letdown #man I wish they just gave me some kind of assurance on the spot #I think it isn’t helping that I’ve been super isolated recently #only one of my friends irl has been talking to me the last two weeks or so #and I know it’s realistically probably because school started but. idk no texts or anything #considering how things have gone this year overall mainly re: my ex and what he tells people I just feel like it’d be on brand at this #point for them to all want to stop associating with me and cut me off like my ex did and one of my close childhood friends did this year #I really don’t trust anyone anymore and I wish I could but when things are dead silent for a week or more it becomes kinda impossible #I wonder if any of them will talk to me voluntarily any time soon #I am not confident #lots of waiting lots of being alone lots of nothing

[that-was-anticlimactic]

holy trash i just officially submitted my edtpa portfolio for evaluation frick frick frick i am so nervous like i think it’ll be fine and everyone is telling me it’ll be fine but i had my “what if the evaluators can’t hear everyone in the video well enough and fail me for that” breakdown i provided a transcript but it couldn’t be more than two pages and mine was. on the fourth page so i had to cut two pages✌🏻

#like logically ik it'll be fine or i think it will and i'm trying to believe it will this is just so nerve wracking and i spent so much time #on this and like want the time i spent to be reflected in my score you know? i don't want to have to completely redo the entire thing next #semester during student teaching because that would freaking SUCK like with WHAT TIME #i think it'll be fine but my brain is like WHAT IF #and now it's just... waiting... i won't hear back until the fifth of january🫠 #pls pray for me to pass <3

[mercurys-niece]

Gilear moment, I just dropped my depression yogurt on my bed :(

#yesterday was the worst day I’ve ever had at work #and today I found out I have Covid #and tomorrow is the first day of my week long vacation :) #so now my whole week off is ruined #and my other vacation this year also got ruined #so now I have to wait until January to schedule another one #if I don’t quit this shit ass job first #but anyway I’m 22 and child free but also divorced and struggling to raise my teen daughter #fantasy high #dnd #dimension 20