#and now I’m fucking yearning

[rosicheeks]

😤

#BROOOOOOOOOOO #I’m so jealous #ok my roommate just told me what she did today #and man #wtfffffff #I’m full of envy #so she met up with this suuuuper hot guy #and they apparently met at a university #and then they fucked in the forest in a hammock #AND THEN THEY FUCKED ON THE ROOF OF SOME PLACE #like #WHAT #she said he put down a blanket and it was lightly raining #and now I’m fucking yearning #i want to go on cute dates #and get fucked in the woods #and at random places #and have them say ‘I need to fuck you right now’ #it’s raining right now #and I’m thinking about all these cute scenarios #and holy shiiiiiit #I’m not ok guys #IM NOT OK #shut up rosie

[ksrlvr]

what is it with homoerotic teenage friendships and why are they so fucking awful.

#fiercely blinking back tears #im fucking sobbing into my pillow rn #I may have been lead on (why am I so stupid) #it’s so much harder to pretend I’m happy for them now than it was before #i feel violently ill #wish I’d never found out how they’d felt ab me #HAHA #i’m actually losing it #gna rip my lungs out >_< #lgbtq #lgbtqplus #wlw #wlw yearning #gay shit #queer

[m1d-45]

You know, that would be ANGSTY COMICAL if we mixed that in the aftermath of the reveal of who is the real creator, since it could be taken as the creator REPLACING characters who hurt them.

-🥘Stew

that was the intent!

i think diluc would have it easiest. red is from a hateful part of his past, and he knows that he’s grown beyond that stage. if it weren’t for red’s temperament, he’d want to try and connect, if only to gain his trust. it still hurts, knowing that even after all this time he still failed to be what you needed, but it burns him the least.

fischl would be worse. night is everything she tried so badly to be, down to her own oz. to make it worse, night couldn’t care less about fischl, ignoring her monologues about who’s the real princess. the only one she needs the approval of is you, and she’d gotten that the second she was first summoned. she does fischl the mercy of letting her keep her name, but even that is mostly at your discretion. ‘fischl,’ ‘night,’ whatever. she just needs to protect you where amy failed.

and kaeya… my poor beloved. if night is what fischl wanted to be, shade is what kaeya has to be. night is a persona that fischl copied, shade is the very mask kaeya had put on for all his life. he’d entirely remade himself, down to the name he used and the way he treated his fellow knights, and it still wasn’t enough. all of his effort was poured into making himself something that could be accepted, that could be good enough. he’d thought he’d done a good job when he was first marked as a vessel, but now in the hunt it’s clear that his palatability only ran skin deep. shade is what you need, shade is what you want, and he’s genuine about it. shade’s entire life is yours, and he was rewarded for that devotion with your affection, earning a place at your side. and kaeya had devoted himself to the hunt instead, was so blinded by his own desires that he’d ignored the resistance of his vision. diluc may hate his past and fischl may hate night, but kaeya can only really hate himself.

#m1d : [chats] #m1d : [secrets] #stew🥘 anon #the shining nikki saga #the dark side of dawn #sailwind shadow #hello. i need a moment to be emotional about venti really quick sorry #hey siri put on my yearning playlist #fucking. destroyed. on the floor reminiscing about something that never happened. #me when i’m the victim of an idea of my own making #me when i’m the cause and the cure. me when ventis stuck in a problem that isn’t there. obliterated. #no words for this feeling rn. venti i’d like to formally apologize for the shit i’m about to put you through #‘it’s just a video game’ well your honor. it’s giving me shrimp emotions. so jot that down. #to clarify this is about nothing canon and nothing irl i’m just on the painful end of my own ideas #the author that writes the words and the reader that’s bound by them you know. #don’t worry if all goes well you’ll be inflicted with my pain too. provided i can pull it off. #pull it off as in convey it right not pull off the weight of it. i should shut up now.

[flowercrowngods]

when the 1975 said “till then we’ll knock around and see if you’re all i need” and when they said “you look so alive do you fancy sitting down with me and see if you’re all i need?” and when they said “don’t you see me? i. i think i’m falling. i’m falling for you” and when they said “don’t you need me? i. i think i’m falling. i’m falling for you.” and when they said “on this night and in this life, i think im falling”. and when they said “according to your heart my place is not deliberate” and when they said “i don’t wanna be your friend. i wanna kiss your neck.”

#when you rock climb and beat that route you’ve been trying five times now you look so alive. and i get that little oh moment #where you get so pretty. and your eyes sparkle. and your neck. i wanna kiss it. and bite it #and hold you and hug you and sit with you forever. will you let me? would you? would you allow me to tell you what i see? #would you let me yearn and ache and long? my hand itching for your touch? your neck so enticing for me to bury my head there? #would you? or would you be wise would you be smart would you see there’s nothing here. would you smile and say i’m sorry #would you fuck me up a little more. i think i’d let you. i think i would. i think you should. bc there’s nothing here but thoughts of you #and that’s painfully little for an adult human person. but it’s all i have. it’s all there is. it’s you. i wish you knew how much that is #i wish you knew about the potential for you to be everything. i wish i could tell you. maybe one day i will. but you shouldn’t listen #you should look away. i scare easily. i’m only half a person anyway. and still i wanna bite your neck #dio.txt #the 1975 #fallingforyou

[bravevolunteer]

michael ships moodboard

#he is sooo haunted by the ghosts of his past mistakes. WHO is going to kiss him about it #this is so much easier than writing headcanon thoughts sorry #michael who will sometimes hit you with the gay thousand yard yearning stare bc god fucking forbid he actually talks about it #michael who is SO ridiculously affection and intimacy starved that he both clings to and chokes on it #michael who shows his love through kind and protective actions and quality time who will get in a fight for someone and spend hours doing #fuck all just to be around them and draw for a partner all the time #i dont know. spinning him aggressively #need to pull up my drafts/asks...... #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[forgetme-eternally-blissfully]

Me reading a cool new novel: hah wow this is cool it has a neat premise and a promising plot line let’s see our protagonist level up and learn how to use his new power in interesting and cool ways—

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and defeats her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and impresses her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and rescues her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and defeats her PT 2

Me: Ah nvm it’s a harem novel god damn it

#it was cool at first but now I’m grinding my teeth like wtf #I was okay with it at first bc like. he defeats the beautiful cold hearted prodigy by a hairs breadth and we get this sad backstory for her #which could be better’d by the MC who doesn’t fear her and can teach her how to socialize and become a brighter happier person through their #developing friendship and potentially romantic relationship and it could have led to character development for both of them as they struggle #through the feeling of being cast aside as an ‘other’ by society and learning how to stumble through a relationship that involves #communication and admittance and honesty #something our MC and FL can’t get through their mentors #instead we get her genuine attempts at becoming friends being brushed off by him who assumes she’s going to eventually want a romantic #relationship by the end of it and ARGHHXHHD she’s a shy person!! she’s trying her best!!! you asshole!!!! and then the author has the #AUDACITY #to make her continue yearning after this guy who doesn’t give 2 shits about her and she’s only used as a support character for the #ensuing battle and then he promptly leaves her behind for his own adventure #and don’t even get me STARTED on the lack of compatibility with the other women in this story #they aren’t even being used as potential love interests they’re just there so the author can say he added strong female characters and then #IMMEDIATELY turns around and makes them fawn over this 19 yr guy who cAn pRoTeCt ThEM AnD HEs sO cOoL FUCK #I was holding out but now he just annoys me dude this is why I don’t like reading male lead perspectives if there’s a DROP of romance #it ruins it! romance is dead no one knows what chemistry is they only want to be fawned over by women to stroke their egos #not a reblog

[tropiyas]

dating apps are cringe*, can’t be interested in coworkers despite being required to be at work for most of your week, can’t meet a huge variety of people unless you’re living in a city but then you tend to focus more on yourself and surviving, none of this shit makes sense

#*half of it is skill issue the other half is ‘‘i’ve been at it and it’s fine. but it’s just not my tempo’’ #i’m never one to be like ‘‘oh yearn and mourn the past’’ because it’s pointless #but if i was as dateable 3yr ago as i am now then college would have been wayyyy cooler #now it’s like what the fuck

[friendlyneighborhoodtree]

oh matt maltese we’re really in it now

#i had a nice dream (get your mind out of the gutter) about the person i’m into #and my delusions have gotten so bonkers that i just spent about 30 minutes at work writing yearning poetry #what the actual fuck is wrong with me (affectionate) #friendly neighborhood tree #if anyone REALLY wants maybe i’ll post it but i’ll have to be equally as delusional as i am right now to put that shit on the internet

[in-this-light-on-this-evening]

Well, I’ve manifested the love of my life for a second and now I have to deal with The Consequences.

#oh my lord jesus christ #i feel like i’m a characted from jane austen’s books #and i am so aware that i allowed this to happen #a yolo moment transformed into a full yearning soap opera #just because i found a person that feels something back #for once #and let me tell you even though he’s saying he doesn’t want anything serious…. i can see it in his eyes #and the way he slept the entire night holding me in his arms #people that just want to hook up don’t do these things oh my god #my friends had many hook ups in the past and none of their dates did that #😭😭😭😭 #i think we are both hiding beside that Casual Facade because we don’t want to admit our true feelings before he moves to ireland #this is fucking tragic and the universe is testing me so hard right now #one thing is sure though… #i will cherish this love in my tiny heart til the day i die

[rosicheeks]

X

Realistically, I think a lot about just snuggling on the couch with you. My arms wrapped around you, a soft kiss on the cheek or forehead...you would feel absolutely loved and safe.

Now, if you decide to gets handsy, I'd have zero problem switching gears and slipping inside you while we make out, or having you bounce up and down on me, pressing your tits into my face. Your softness would absolutely make me hard.

But if you were content to just fall asleep in my arms, head resting on my shoulder/chest, I'd be over the moon with excitement.

- A mutual 😚

#I’m screaming?????????????? #‘I think a lot about just snuggling on the couch with you’ #……. you think about me?????? #and snuggling on the couch with…. ME? #and the part ‘you would feel absolutely loved and safe’ #IM FUCKING SOBBING #this is absolutely all I want right now #I’m a snuggle bug and if we are together I’ll always want to be touching in some way #cuddling holding hands whatever #but ngl I am ‘bad’ at cuddling…. especially when it comes to spooning #I like to wiggle and get all comfy and usually at that point I feel something start to grow against my ass and I just……. gotta ya know help #gotta get in that right spot 😉😉😉😉 if ya know what I mean and just kinda grind my ass against you 😇 #so yeahhhh I feel like it wouldn’t be long until I’m moaning your name 🫣 #but if I’m going to be really honest with you? #that first and last part really got me #I would love love love to be all snuggled up with someone safe and warm and loved #feeling their love radiate and wrap around me like a lil blanket #that entire last line killed me btw #that is what I yearn for #I know plenty of you want to fuck me #but I’m just craving a connection where we can just lay snuggled up with each other #talking and laughing and falling asleep feeling warm and happy #that is what I want #I have a love/hate relationship with sex tbh but I will always ALWAYS crave love and romance and cuddles and soft kisses and praise #sighhhhhhh #one day #fav asks #this seriously made my day??? #come here and let’s cuddle and talk and maybe kiss a little bit 🥺 #ask

[hopecomesbacktolife]

god our healthcare system is so so exhausting. five million phone calls just to get a callback for a referral for a consultation for an issue my regular dr already told me needs addressed. my god. starfleet medical care when

#I’m just so tired you guys #in pain and need help NOW not in like. October. like. wtf. #I’m so exhausted to my very core with how non functional our healthcare system is. 4068282019 calls and a million months to even get help. #and everything costs so much. #I’m about ready to start a go fund me or something because I cannot afford this fr #like even with insurance (and mine is honestly really good) the cost of.. yknow. having a body. is so fucking expensive #I’m so tired #and ofc pain and discomfort from ~ the issues ~ doesn’t help #🫠 #personal #anyway. I feel like I’m kinda. running on fumes. and there’s a lot that I really want to do that just. hasn’t gotten done #physically do not have the spoons for it #so tired. just. so tired #once again I am yearning for starfleet medical care where you GO to sickbay and you are HELPED RIGHT THEN and RIGHT THERE no referrals etc

[cute-cotylorhynchus]

oooh baby oh man guys i fear there will be some ofmd ao3 bedtime stories 2nite 🥰😍

#i’m watching ofmd with my parents and now all the feelings i had after watching it for the first time last year are back #i fucking love these gay ppl #and pirates #the yearning is just so scrummy

[bravevolunteer]

michael tma au. sacrificial lamb to the stranger somehow emerges a desolation avatar. how'd ya fuck that one up that badly

#on the brain sorry #the fuck happened there huh! #i say about something that was my choice but listen. it doesn't have to make perfect sense it's about the THEMES. #tma michael is so... he's vengeful. it's the closest he's gotten to a villain arc. he commits arson. he was being set up to be #the lapdog of the apocalypse caused by animatronic ritual. he died. he's literally fine. he harms people. #he feels immense guilt for this and also doesn't really care. he's trapped in the cycle. he's everything #michael also yearns for fire abilities but given that?? not even the cult really had that only AGNES i think i am hesitant to say it #out of fear of being accused of being too op or something. In My Mind Palace He Can Have Fire Abilities #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[ddaengju]

i’m in that delusional phase again where i look up tiny apartments in manhattan and daydream about what my daily life would be living there.

#i’m so desperate to live there. my heart literally aches for the life i could be living #instead. i’m stuck in this deadend state where people go to retire. to get old and die quietly #i’m stuck in the second smallest state in the country. doomed to feel this yearning for my real home #every time i let myself think for too long i get so emotional. #i hate it here. i belong in the city. i don’t belong here #i was born in manhattan and i dream about going back and finally being content #i feel so fucking trapped every single day of my life. tied down to this fucking waste of space depressing state #delaware is a pit of miserable half assed shopping centers and 80% farmland #wanting to go to the mall is a 45 minute drive away and i’d have to plan my whole day around it #in nyc. i could just walk about my building. pick a direction. and there’d be countless things to do. to see. #i would never run out of options and it’s all within walking distance #even the subway is reliable. compared to the public transit here. which is a fucking joke #i hate my life the way it is now. i’m so stuck in this rut and i’m so scared i’ll never escape

[theministersdoom]

Sobbing why’s he so prettyyyyy I can’t deal

#ramblings #hrmph. Brake thoughts overpowering the fictional character thoughts I was having #now I’m yearning in a completely different way than before #yearn yearn yearn all I fucking do is yearn #I don’t get heart breaks ever I’m always in love with something or someone

[floral-hex]

god, I feel so empty

#this isn’t asking for attention I promise #I don’t know… #where do you even put this? if anywhere #big melancholic existential slump kicked off a week or so ago #I just… I don’t know… #I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know where I’m going. #I don’t know what I’m living for. just to live I suppose. but it feels thin. unimportant. unfulfilling. #it all feels inevitably pointless #and I feel so goddamn fucking empty inside #I feel so alone #I’m not even enjoying my own company much lately #I just mope and yearn and waste away #I need to… progress. I need to evolve. I need to move forward but I have no idea how to do that #the more time I waste the harder it gets but it’s so daunting that I waste more time deciding #what can I do? what can be done? #I just want to know it’ll be okay. I just want to know where to go. #and god I can’t lie I just want to sit with someone and have them enjoy my company and share their affection if only for a little while #no way in hell am I getting back on a dating app anytime soon. what a sadness trap. #it’s either wasted hope or failed connections because I’m too shit at forming relations. at being interesting. at having anything to offer. #who needs that pain? not me. not right away. I feel so needy but I don’t need that right now. #I’m so fucking lonely #I just need something to do. #it’s just… getting hard. the nights are dark. the days are long. it all feels hopeless. #I hate this #but whatever. #this isn’t important #you can ignore this #text