#and nothing recently has helped that

[blueskittlesart]

hey! i love your zelink art. i was wondering if you could show a guide to how you draw bodies? (specifically link and zelda). i’m rlly bad at anatomy so any visual guide would be amazing.

thank you!

here's roughly how i do it :) hope this helps!

#my real honest advice is to take figure drawing classes bc nothing helped me with drawing bodies more than live figure drawing #BUT this is how i do it now. recently i took a figure drawing class that was specifically about anatomy and specific bones and muscles etc #which REALLY helped me actually understand what i was doing when drawing bodies. #like there's a difference between knowing 'there's usually a bump here' vs 'this bump is usually here because of this muscle and this bone' #and knowing the actual internal structure of what im drawing has been INCREDIBLY helpful lol #asks

[dxppercxdxver]

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#do not rb #emetophobia tw #i have felt. stress nauseated for the last. Several Weeks #and nothing recently has helped that #i only have six days of schools left but everything between me and the end of the year #makes me want to fucking puke #three projects due on friday announced last week and today respectively #multiple tests #ap exam #can't leave or i tank all my grades #the only saving grace is that i don't have to take finals as of right now #and i keep stressing that i'll miss the saf ticket sale #which is minor in comparison but still means a lot to me #every time i look at my to do list my stomach twists up and i feel Incredibly Paralyzed By Decisions #so incredibly ill #i'm gonna scream #and possibly strangle multiple people #i feel. the worst i've felt in four years #radio free junebug

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[druidonity2]

An AU in which Arthas won, but finds trouble when the Banshee Queen teams up with the Shadowreaper. Both are deeply troubled beings trying to come to terms with the lives they've lost, and both dream of clawing Arthas' face off at the very very least.

#world of warcraft #anduin wrynn #warcraft #sylvanas windrunner #varian wrynn #IM GONNA WRITE THIS STORY ONE DAY I SWEAR #I just look theyre both broken souls who struggle with what the world has done to them and in this story they slowly grow to find #a weird comfort in eachother. #And it starts off hostile with Anduin just recently escaped arthas and unable to control himself and his feelings and Sylvanas wanting noth #ing to do with a child #but then she sees herself in him and tries to help him because like were all in this together and also she can help him kill arthas #anyway #i have lots of ideas for it #arthas at one point sends out varian to try and stop them and Anduin fights his father to steal control from arthas

[mattodore]

i’ve been pretty quiet on here and avoiding my activity and dms these last few weeks because october was easily one of the worst months i’ve had in a very long time and i lost my family dog of seventeen years and had a medical scare for not only myself but my cat and just all these things happened at once that felt incredibly hard to bounce back from mentally… but aside from being sick atm things are starting to get better for me and my family so hopefully i can actually start being. normal. again soon 🧎

#river dipping #i don’t think i get personal on here very often just bc. the pd. um #but i figured i should say something bc my avoidant personality disorder is uhhhhhhhh #certainly Avoiding. #i’m so sorry if you’ve messaged me or @ed me or just tried interacting in any way #ik i wrote in my pinned navigation that yea i take breaks and avoid my activity and it’s nothing personal #but i still just wanted to reiterate it #i tend to keep notifications off for tumblr and my activity and everything like i only ever check when i’m mentally prepared for the State #my brain goes into when interacting with people #it’s not that i’m ignoring you!! my brain is just. very bad. #and i have a lot of trouble actually replying #especially in private messages #i’m much more comfortable talking publically which is why discord is so not for me 😭 #i really have been pushing myself out of my comfort zone a lot this past year and it’s certainly helped a ton #but still. it’s a disorder i’ve had my whole life so 🤷 it’s still sticking around ykwim #so i’m sorry 😔 but i’m also incredibly thankful toward everyone who’s taken the time to talk to me and interact with me and just thought of #me in general even when i’ve been so isolated recently #ummmm but on the bright side i moved out finally and am at a place that isn’t gonna poison my brain anymore so ‼️ #it took a few horrible days for my pets to get used to the house but things are fine now and i’ve set up my room and am :) doing better #surprisingly my panic disorder has been absent since the move… which is very weird for me #i fr think my previous place might actually have been poisoning me like i’m serious #……..i might delete this post in a bit if i start feeling too crazy abt being vulnerable lmao. um. #but for the people that’re online rn! my beloved friends and lovers yk #there’s my little update

[piplupod]

my method of "getting better" has just been Do Everything Possible and latch onto whatever gives you any sense of purpose and/or joy. and i guess it's been working because i am definitely not in quite the same place that i was a few yrs ago

#like i have tried so many things #any opportunity for trying a thing that is supposed to be helpful is met with ''yeah sure why not'' #counselors love me for it LMFAO #''its impressive that you're willing to try these things :)'' girl if i dont then I'll kill myself. it's not gonna hurt me to try #if it goes badly then i have a breakdown and maybe hurt myself but then i immediately move onto the next thing #and i can always draw shitty art. thats always there for me. i can rotate my OCs in my brain. i can watch a show or listen to a podcast #those are always available if nothing else works out #and maybe it helps that i have a deadline of ''if life is still intolerable by x time then you can kill urself'' dhfjdkl #operating by that makes me want to put in more effort bc theres a time limit #also doing all these things has given me a sense of identity outside of having irl ppl around me #i couldnt control that for a long time (very very very lucky to have joined the old lady group recently) so i had to make do #and it is hard and it is scary and it is very often nearly unbearably lonely. but when u throw urself headfirst into ur own stuff #then u don't focus so much on the Aloneness of it all. and also u get to post abt ur hobbies and stuff and make friends online that way #idk !!! it is a hard spot to pull urself out of but taking a single step at a time is incredibly helpful #trying things and doing things and keeping on trucking gets u thru it one way or another #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #suicide mention

[obstinatecondolement]

I feel bad complaining when I have a roof over my head and don't have to worry about access to electricity, heating, running water and food, but I am so fucking sick of having my disability payment adjusted to account for an additional income stream I haven't had for almost nine months.

#I don't love constantly owing people money and having Nothing in the bank at most two days after I get paid every week #like my material needs are all more than catered for so genuinely I am fine and I would be mortified if anyone offered to help #so don't feel that this is what this is about #and I would be able to get help paying the various medical etc. bills I owe if I sucked it up and asked my parents #which are also not urgent and Will Be Fine #I just have nothing left to save or to like #buy myself a chocolate bar if I want to crol #also no advice please #I have chased this up very recently and have an acknowledgement that enquiry has been forwarded to the relevant department #there is not anything else I can currently do

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#it's an old frustration. an old pattern of thought. #i just feel that i have a brain that doesn't hold information. that lacks the discipline to gain knowledge. that is incapable of deeper #thought. and i cant teel you how maddening that is. to sit in a room and listen to other people discuss a paper you read in depth 5 times #like it's the 1st time you ever heard anything about it. how is that possible? how do i work with that? i read and nothing sticks. #nothing stays with me. how??? i was talking to a prof recently who ive heard is hard on her students with disability accommodation. and she #was saying how she doesnt see these things as a disability. how we're just different not disabled. ive heard the phrase differently abled #a lot of times. and i get what she's saying. i do. ad i get why she's hard on them. she wants to push them. but there comes a point where #you are quote unquote differently abled and you run into a wall that other people dont have. then what are you supposed to do? work harder? #but what if that doesn't help? what if that just compounds the hurt that's always been there? what if that leaches away all the wonder? what #then? at what point does a thing become too much of a barrier? i think there's a reason i dont run into many other dyslexic grad student. #everyone has adhd. it's a place where those with adhd prosper. but dyslexia not so much. at least not with the level of hanicap i have #and everyone's really nice. they want to help. but there's nothing anyone can do for me at this stage. it's up to me to compensate for my #leaky head. and i kno im not stupid. ive got a piece of paper stating my iq is above average after correcting for uneven intelligence. but #i dont feel very smart most of the time. i feel more like my uncorrected iq score that comes out at just below average even with me trying #my very best. iq is bullshit but there's something to be said for that gap. im smart if unconstrained by language and time. but were bound #by language and we're bound by time so what am i supposed to do? is there anything i can do? im stuck with this forever. theres no getting #better or making it easier. my brain is wired in a way that gives me the reading skills of a child. forever. and i just have to accept that #and im trying to swallow around that idea easier because the only other option is to choke on it. but maybe i chose the wrong career path. #one of my lab mates said she wants challenges all the time and ive chosen a path that's challenges all the time but im jsut trying to do #what everyone else can without a second thought. it's deeply demoralizing. yet here i am. trying to be easier abt it. #maybe im just nit cut out for this. doing a job im not built for. #unrelated

[vampirictransgenderism]

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#im bitching in the tags abt the nostalgic nintendo yter sue me. sorry if this is how you learn. its rambling at this point. #yes this is about chuggaaconroy. man u fucked up big time!! IT'S CHUGGAACONCLUDED FOR YOU MAN. #tfw ur comfort youtuber you've been watching since you were a 12 year old has a mountain of allegations + #+ proven testimonies about him being a freak w women online and making them VERY uncomfortable w kink rp and disrespecting boundaries #i started watching him during super mario sunshine and had been a fan since. he inspired me recently to pick up BW/B2W2 on DS again. #the motherfucker that got me into game series i would have had no interest in if shown it at face value (xenoblade!! ily!!!!) #i took emily's stuff at as it was given and wanted to wait for more to come out bc she said there were others. then the 2 vtubers came out. #then Masae. She has nothing to lie about with him. She + Antdude + Werster + NCS + Jon have NOTHING to gain from talking about this. #she was his roommate!! and his current roommate NintendoCapriSun is confirming that this all happened!! #CHUGGA GOT CAUGHT IN 4K TOO. he flirted w her during a dnd campaign + the stephenvlogs videos with her in them she looks SO uncomfortable. #i feel so bad for all the artists + fan artists for his most recent LP too. they 100% do not want to be associated with THAT i guarantee. #but ya no longer a fan. hope everyone around him can get proper help + support. TLDR never have idols. you will always be disappointed.

[toaster-trash]

Sometimes I remember that my sanity is actually dependant on a few fictional characters from 200 years ago, like not a silly haha joke but that I genuinely don’t have any other support system or healthy coping mechanism other than reading about and engaging in fan content for these fictional Victorians, and then I am like “uh oh. Goodness me. I may be in a bit of a sticky situation. A pickle, if you will.”

Anyway ahahahah something something humorous tumblr post as a coping mechanism ahaha something something

#am I genuinely mildly scared? mayhaps but I will not be admitting that properly #on a more genuine note though I have been feeling very unstable and very panic induced recently #the depressive issues just get considerably worse by the knowledge that I genuinely don’t have anyone in real life to help me #if things get even slightly worse than they’ve already shown they can get #I don’t get on with my parents very well despite the whole #‘haha my family member said this thing about gothic literature’ #is there much point to posting this? probably not #but between severe nightmares very often as well as slowly physically deteriorating more and more #and my general mental health getting progressively worse and worse #there isn’t much ELSE I can do and making a shitty tumblr post about it won’t make it any worse #and if nothing else if I end up doing something stupid at least people know what it’s a product of #I am scared to be honest #depressive episodes and dysphoria I can deal with but there’s nothing I hate more than geniune instability #if anyone genuinely has any advice or MINDS talking I would really appreciate it #it’s not like it can do any more harm #and like I said I don’t exactly have any good friends or family members #or teachers or anyone else #I’ll stop with the hashtags now sorry #just throwing my thoughts into the void #gothic lit #classic literature #gothic literature #classic lit #frankenstein #dracula

[drewsaturday]

slightly mean little fandom rant that may not be very coherent because i am admittedly in a state of disorientation but like. anon is off so it's not like i'll have to experience consequences if i misspeak.

i hate being in that weird space of not having any new fandoms that have good communities, but any newer communities for my older fandoms are just insufferable to me because... we've already had these exact conversations about 7.2 times each by now minimum, whether it's discourse-related or just a silly headcanon, and it causes the only contributions i can actually make to be combative because i'm tired and these lengthy conversations are unnecessary to have for Me to come to the Right Conclusions.

and then i become insufferable as a result because i am just as annoyed by everyone else's earlier stage of fandom development, which they can't help, as they probably are at me and my comparatively elder fan jadedness because the repetitiveness of these experiences just is not hitting in the ways i need my fandom experiences to hit rn, where i'd ideally get to grow with people on similar levels as me?

it's like you guys are in kindergarten and i am a college freshman looking to advance the stuff i've already spent years building, so it would be mean of me to say "you are all so stupid" instead of appreciating your new enthusiasm at the world and its possibilities but god. we are not the same. and finding people who are the same, at least for those older fandoms, is a rough time because the amount of people who stick with a thing as long as you have is going to dwindle year after year if you've even had a slightly comparable starting point in the first place.

it would just be easier if i could join new communities for shows as they drop but... i'm either not into anything popular enough to have other fans at all in fanon environments, they are TOO popular and so i can't really connect to anyone, or binge watch culture makes community impossible to form at all... OR i am the annoying new fan that is as insufferable as the older fans and there are no other new fans around to match that energy either.

obviously the solution really is just dragging pre-existing friends into things as much as you can but... sometimes i just miss the lightning in a bottle novelty of being able to join a space at its beginning where everyone is about at that same level looking to hang out with other fans and make friends for a few years until you all exhaust that magic and hope you find another lucky place to plant some roots.

#txt #i am grateful i do have some friends and friend groups from older fandoms that have withstood time or that we just are on the same level #but like . i still have so many little gaps in my heart from places that became inactive or friends that i fell out of touch with etc that #i just. am not able to bring anything new into because i am reliant on the internet for my social experiences tm #and sadlyyyyyyy i'm just not matching with anywhere that has potential friends 2 adopt #maybe i need to try non-fandom communities but that means i need to develop new hobbies and i don't have time rip #actually. i am Realizing. in many cases the Perfect Communities i have found #i ended up being the one to start which y'knowww comes with bias #but i kinda forgot that if something isn't out there i used to have the time to just do it myself #and in recent cases where i've realized there's an absence of community for things i like #if no one else has done it i know i can't shoulder that responsibility rn so nothing happens #obvs it has not always been me - there have been a few started by other ppl too #it's just something thattt i can't do anything about rn but is a helpful littel realization i suppose

[sucrose-soymilk]

hadn’t really regressed in a While and i didn’t realize how much i missed/dareisay needed it until i had the free time and ability to do so over the last few days and i have to say. i’m feeling a bit better

#imagine that! the coping mechanism… helps!!! wow #Seven’s Small Thoughts #not tagging this as anything else bc this blog is really just a not-so-secret public diary #and im not really trying to gain any sort of following or participate in the community very much #i just wanna talk to the void abt regression every once in a blue moon y’know #i also feel like i don’t really belong in the community much/am not a Good Example of sfw agere since i’m very n/ s/ f/ w everywhere else #which is a double standard that i don’t hold others to but i feel like others will hold it against me??? and i’m just shy anyways #and not looking to interact. just wanna keep all this stuff tucked away in a side-blog #i also feel like a lot of the community likes to blog while actively regressed and i don’t wanna step in there as someone who isn’t #nothing wrong with it! at all! i just don’t have the capacity to since i go nonverbal when i regress. no thoughts head blissfully empty #anyways this wasn’t supposed to be a vent post let’s change the topic! #anywhooo what else did i come on here to say. oh yeah #i lowkey forgot how much regressing has helped me in the past until i was able to really indulge myself in it again recently #it’s so nice to just be small and hand someone else the reins and forget abt everything other than doing something you enjoy #maybe one day i’ll be at a point in my life where i can fully regress more freely and more often but for now i’ll take what i can get #i’m also excited because i’ve been thinking abt ordering a paci from this one specific seller #and yesterday saw that they’re dropping a new batch of fall/halloween themed ones today!!! #so now i’ve gotta make myself stay awake until 6pm so i can jump on it when they’re available #which is a small struggle considering my nocturnal sleep schedule but i will do it nonetheless #that crescent moon patterned one Will Be Mine #trying to decide between buttercup yellow and schoolbus yellow for the clip #i think i’m more drawn to the vibrancy of the schoolbus yellow honestly #eeeeeee i’m excited i’ve been wanting to treat myself to ordering from this shop for a g e s and im finally gonna do it

[parallaxabomination]

my brain is so full of stress it might explode. but ill do my best to keep putting out my best and stay kind to myself and others. but man, is it hard

#i wish i had something for myself rn #but i come home so exhausted i cant even focus on art #everything has been burning me so thin #i keep talking down my own art now. i keep refunding clients. i honestly want to give up on everything #people tell me i do a good job but i dont see it. i dont see an artist whos worth anything right now. #i dont know if thats a phrase #i have a early morning shift tomorrow and i cant fall asleep #i want to just rest but im so restless #i dont want to put pressure on anyone besides myself bc i feel like a huge burden #if i do so #everyone else should be having a good time #so i feel like a bummer to take up their emotional space and time #i appreciate the kindness people have shown me recently #i know i work hard. but im still so broken over everything #i just havent felt like an artist since it happend #he left a bigger scar on my ego than i thought it would #and every time i voice it i feel someone is out to end me for it #but at the same time i feel completely unnoticed and unheard #i dont expect anyone to see me as me #i just feel this lump in my throat now. this weight on my hand #they say kind things but im so hurt inside i dont see it as truth right now. i dont see anything worth admiring #they say such sweet things and i want to accept them so bad because my heart needs it #but i cant help but feel the words die as they reach my ears. im just too hurt i cant see it #i cant see the truth in my work all i see is someone else's desire in their commission #as long as they are happy. as long as they are satisfied #thats all that matters #i dont feel important enough to be apart of the process anymore #i dont feel worthy as a person or artist #i just feel less than nothing and that no one will care

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Okay, royals have one pro in the UK right now: its got all of us playing Cluedo right now with Kate's location and what her hospital visit was really about, with William being prime suspect.

#seriously though i am concerned about her #i may not like her but i am concerned #an abdominal surgery does not take nine months to recover from (her recently reported recovery time) #and the fact that she hasnt been seen since going into hospital in december #and on top of that the british media are throwing harry and meghan under the bus more then normal lately as if covering for something #like you'd think they and royal family would jump on having pictures of her family especially the kids around her sick bed #but no nothing #hell the kids and even her parents havent been seen around much like they used to be #and william isnt helped in suspect shit with his reported on bad temper by both harry and news people even #and the fact that he is capable of assault as he assaulted harry once #and doesnt seem to like women acting a certain way as he lost his temper with meghan once #and then you got the cheating rumors and baby number 4 rumors and just to add to shit #a husband of a cousin of the late queen has only now been announced to have died mysteriously in his 40s #and despite no one connecting it to williams lack of apperence at his memorial people emphasied william had no connection to the death #....actually is this cluedo still or a soap drama #i can just hear the writers for the crown getting excited

[eigengrauone]

grinds teeth. i am alone and dismissed

#im fine tho . i just have to work on my essay due in half an hour #but ive given up on it being on time so its kinda whatever? #but yknow. as soon as possible would be nice #and i have been left by myself which is both good and bad #and then while voicing my concerns told well maybe just work on it #wow yes i think just saying that over and over even when im just trying to make myself feel better is very helpful thank you #like i know theres nothing you can do specifically like im not expecting anything from you #but thanks for just continuously ignoring me and repeating the same thing thats really fucking helping #in fact thats for ignoring me for like the past couple of weeks #whenever i try to reach out just because i miss my friends and like talking to them im just ignored #and i get it we were all stressed and busy #but would it kill anyone to try? at all? #when someone has an issue im there instantly no matter whats going on with me #like when i sat on a call for hours instead of the work i was planning on doing #but esp recently that same decency is not extended to me even if i just want to talk about something just silly or whatever #so no this isnt about your fucking sucky work ethic or whatever this is about being a goddamn friend #but its fine #ill see you this summer i guess #npc don’t look #<- not abt him #tbey.quote