#and it just embarrassed me so badly

[skitskatdacat63]

He is so 🤏

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#lmao suzuki i thought of you at the last minute and had to ref the 'he likes to feel tall' mene #<- i mean duh its canon. babygirl is constantly sitting on countertops #just sometimes more uh slayfully like the third image #well guys as you can tell im a big fan of that recent tiktok #so thought i should draw some of the moments cause aghhhh hes brainrotted me so badly #as suzuki pointed out to me. he has this distinct look of partial shame in the bts of the microwave vid #i like to think he came to work that morning and was like omg jimmy i have a tiktok vid #and then halfway thru making it was like: oh wow this is more embarrassing to do than i thought it would be #but dw cringe is dead to him. he doesnt care >:) #but if this is a mere glimpse of the silliness that is yet to come in this coming season. god im so excited to see more of his antics #bros seriously been liveblogging his work days since he got back to the factory 😭😭 #they should make a legitimate cinematic day in the life vid of him not just a tiktok or clipe #*clips #fernando alonso #f1 #formula 1 #catie.art.

[ballcrusher74]

yall ever just drawing and then half way through you come out of autopilot mode and realize what you're doing

#coughing really loud #this is mainly when im drawing smth just a lil gay. just a lil #this is made worse cus i will be spaced tf out drawing something and then my mom walks in and i snap so badly out of it #and my door is RIGHT behind me. and i have a 27 inch monitor. im playing fnaf irl i dont want my mom to see my shit its embarrassing #“hey sweetie do you want chicken rings” and then there's men kissing on my screen

[plan-3-tmars]

My Theory on Kazui's Parent's.

Q: Is there a meaning behind your name?

A: It's cause I'm the eldest son. It seems like my father was also wishing I'd be "a strong man."

The wording of Kazui's answer here really makes me think. We know that Kazui is strong. He defended Fuuta against Kotoko and even talks about having "never gone up against a woman [like her]" in his VD, implying that he has gotten into fights before (most likely at work - either in the field or in training.)

It seems like, to me, Kazui has parents with very traditional views. Kazui's father wishing that he would turn out to be "a strong man" could imply that he places value on the old-style gender roles in family or society in general. Yes he most likely thinks that being strong physically is important, but also being strong mentally. A 'normal' man who doesn't cry, doesn't show emotain. A man who provides for his family and sticks to tradition, simple as. A son who does what's expected of him - that kind of strong.

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I also think the way Kazui talks is linked to his family's old-school beliefs. Despite only being 39, Kazui always refers to himself as an "old man" and says things like "when your mature/older like me," etc. It's a bit odd, though it might be a cultural thing. Kazui does call himself immature though, so for a man who believes he has only grown up in terms of his age and not his mind, he puts an awful lot of weight on what it means to be an adult. Can you see where I'm going with this? Yup it's back to his strong man comment baby!!!

In that previous qoute Kazui says how his father was also wishing he'd be a strong man. I think the other person Kazui is referencing might very well be himself. I think if Kazui has been taught these old school gender-roles since he was a child, then he might hold alot of weight to them. He wouldn't know any different if that was all he heard about what it meant to be a man as a kid, and therefore wants to live up to that expectation his parents hold of him. He, however, quickly learns that he is not this way and internalises it as something being wrong with him, something that isn't normal that he must fix. Which brings me to my next point...

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I think that Kazui's family are more important to understanding his crime then we may think based on what's been shown to us so far, and I'd even go so far as to say that their beliefs might've been a very big reason/the reason on why Kazui felt the need to lie and marry Hinako.

If we take a situation where Kazui has very traditional parents who want him to grow up quickly, get a nice job and settle down young, it might make sense on why he felt obligated to marry Hinako. In Half he talks about how he's confused on why he doesn't feel happiness in their relationship, as "isn't this what happiness is?" I believe these ideas came from Kazui's parent's. That perhaps they unknowingly (or full knowingly) drilled the idea into his head that a perfect looking couple such as he and Hinako is the ultimate true love, the true happiness, and that he should follow in those steps if he wants to be happy and successful as it in turn will also make them happy and proud of him.

#i left out how this could tie so fucking well to the gay theory because thats theory ON theory speculation aka. a seperate post #(that i will probably rant about once we learn more about kazui's family) #but just know that i see that comment about him being an embarrassment to his family. #i see how growing up around old-school expectations of marriage and gender roles may lead to internalised homophobia. #i see the connections. in these two theories. #any ee way sorry this is late its still technically posted 'tomorrow' though so!! ♡ (its 11pm) #i have a maths test tmr pray for me. also if u have any other thoughts on this topic pls lmk i am so curious about his god damn family #i wanna learn more so badly #GOODNIGHT!! #milgram #kazui mukuhara #milgram theory

[theloveinc]

tw: prostitution probs

OMG I know your shinsou drabble about him faking being your pimp for an undercover mission was like a little long ago, but it changed my atoms molecular structure

Like maybe you both are discussing what you've discovered that night on the couch you're sharing with the criminal and you hear somebody coming and than you gotta act like you're having... YKNOW??? 😫

Like maybe you noticed it first so then you like throw yourself on top of shinsou, fake moaning that sounds real, bouncing a little on top of him so the couch creeks a little to really sell it and it takes a little for shinsou to catch on but he's a mess because you sound real 😣😣😣

And from the criminal's POV, it's dark so he can't see your clothes that are on and is like well don't like me interrupt you before he heads back to whatever he came from 🤭

(link to ref. post here!)

SFAJKSDHJKAFDSHK it only takes him about five seconds to get the gist of the scene but... those five seconds change his entire perspective on the both of you, don't you think??

Because I think for the first few moments when he thinks it's real... he forms an entire confession in his head that's ready to spill from his lips just as fast, going hot where your hands splay on his chest, his cock jumping in his jeans when he tries to say your name. Even the hands he immediately puts on your hips to help guide you are genuine, not just to make the whole thing look... less pretend.

But then your eyes are shooting back down to his face and they're not filled with love or lust, they're filled with panic in waiting for him to play along....... and the whole moment he was able to build up comes crashing down, forcing him to realize exactly how he feels about you and....... how doomed your situation is, if you're gonna have to physically, now, keep up the charade rather than just label it.

(Especially because he's supposed to be the one in charge, the pimp, and it kinda makes him want to vomit thinking about treating you like something he owns, and yet he still has to pull himself together enough so that the criminal doesn't get suspicious if he actually acts like he loves you..............)

Then they're gone and you're all relieved (still sitting on his crotch) and now he has an entirely NEW problem that has to be faced (gasp, his feelings!!), and that's aside from the chub he's praying to god you can't feel.

Good. Grief.

#shinso #NO BC ME TOO AND I'VE BEEN DYING TO TALK ABT HIM MORE LIKE WHAT DO U EVEN DO !! ABT HIM!!! #ANON HOW COULD U DO THIS TO MEEEEEEE #I NEED IT SO BADLY I NEED IT LIKE WATER AND AIR #sorry if it's a lil short my roommate cut me off halfway so i lost my flow #but please i'd love to talk abt shinso more!! #im just thinking abt him on the couch all red-cheeked with an arm over his face to hide his embarrassment from you #and you're so sweet just trying to make sure he's okay... not even realizing that you made things WORSE #when u were just doing ur job #like genuinely u think he was spooked not that he has to face the fact he loves u now #it's... ASDHLFKASJDFKAJSHDN #I NEED IT I LOVE U ANON BYE #CAITIE THINGS #GEN #anon

[wikitpowers]

i'm thinking about thule!kit...

there are so many different ways he could've turned out to be like what version of himself is he currently? i'm desperate to know where he's at!!! i need to know, like is he good or bad? did he fall into the deep end and become evil? or maybe he's still just a sweet little sunshine boy?

sorry but IMAGINE if rosemary and johnny are alive in thule and they are a happy family who love their son so badly and would literally protect him with their lives (yes, i'm stealing this one from tessa)

and maybe johnny is a great father in thule bc he never lost rosemary... and kit knows he is loved and important to someone :(

and if our world!kit meets them... THEN WHAT?! he would literally be looking at what he could have had but doesn't :( i think a part of him would truly break inside :(

#what if when rosemary sees him she just hugs him so tightly and cries #bc although he's from a different world and timeline #he's still her most precious baby #i want to cry so badly #this made me emotional #give me a moment #and maybe johnny ruffles his hair and embarrasses him by telling dad jokes like a father should :( #and we get to see him show kit affection and love #nope nope nope #goodbye world #BUT HE HAS JEM AND TESSA NOW AND THEY LOVE HIM WITH ALL THEIR BEING SO LET'S TRY NOT TO CRY #kit herondale #thule #the dark artifices #the wicked powers #tda #twp #tsc

[ganondoodle]

the way i think about my stories can be so annoying bc there will be a point when i reach a certain story beat after which i dont know how to continue, and the way i do find are usually ... not good .. or i imagine it is not so i think man i cant do that thats so dumb and annoying i gotta think of something better, but then i cant come up with anything better bc once i got a solution to soemthign i cant think of anything smarter- and then i get bored of it as a whole bc man, this really was stupid from the start wasnt it

(this is all some stupid rambling and does NOT represent anythign that will happen in destiny, i swear the actual story with a proper end makes much more sense)

listen to me rambling but this morning i thought about the essentialyl non-canon good "ending" of destiny, a kind of self indulgent dumb lil alternative where everyone lives blah blah, but then of course it cant just end there, bc the end goal of the both of them is to find out the gods plan and secrets and also kill the gods, as you do, then i got a certain point that i found cool (which initially came from the whole thoguht of what if zelda game but you could play demise and it took place after the alternative ending in which the goal is to get rid of the gods) where the fight one of the gods but are kinda losing and as the god is trying to devour demise, as gods do, he abandons his body and his spirit/core, who cant exist without his body so hes still connected through the spirits tail , and climbs through the gods interdimensional weird 'mouth' while its trying to rip him apart to reach the core of the god in a last attempt to take them down with him, while hylia is fighting to keep the god from severing the thin connection he still has to his body but fails just as he reaches the core so the god is killed but his core is immediatelly starting to dissolve and hylia manages to grab his core and put it back into his body and flee from whatever is happeing to that dead god back into hyrule

he survives but is incredibly weak as his spirit has lost half of itself (blade spirits are also forged throguh sacrificing part of their spirit/core permantently but this is besides the point, none of this makes sense anyway), something he obviously hates but cant do anything about really, once a part of their core is gone its gone (not like lost energy but gone gone) but the core is also slowly dissolving further which is a death sentence with no way to act against- then theres a whole quest to .. well, stop that, while hes falling back into self hatred and fear bc hes now so weak that hylia can break his bones without any effort if she were to treat him in any way similar to before and to a deity that all their life was never so fragile, one whos most defining feature IS his power and strength to keep going no matter what, thats gotta be pretty existentially dreadful (and also its a set back to know that they cant just go fight the gods together like that, theres still two more and he cant fight like that)

then i wondered ok what if then, even if the time doesnt quite line up but at this point the entire prophecy cant be done anymore either so everythings out of order, the cloud barrier weakens and zelda is abducted (not by ghirahim) and link goes and tries to find her, but since everythigns not as it should have been he meets hylia and demise (disguised tho) and they immediately know who he is and then go along and try to help link find his friend (hylia does it bc she got the idea to make him find the triforce and wish demises spirit to be restored, since only a mortal can do that and links the most likely candidate to be able to go through the trials of it since he was supposed to already, even if the circumstances are different- demise goes along with it bc hes still trying to deal with essentially slowly dying and not knowing what to do with himself since hes afraid to get into fights or similar, much to his disdain, so hes acting like a companion of sorts, a mentor figure in a way, not knowing what hylias plan is)

i found the idea kinda interesting to have them be like a lil group that goes on links adventured with him, but with strangely intricate knowledge of how the dungeons work, link still doing the heavy lifting but them being there like parents cheering on their kid in a competetion, all the while putting the whole puzzle and dungeon aspect in a way different light bc half of them were never completed (they wanted to escape the prophecy after all) so they all work completely differently, some bosses being maybe some of the gods creatures instead (like the skysw guardians)- the mid journey point being that they find zelda, and who kidnapped her, it being one of the shiekah having most closely worked with hylia before the whole -break the prophecy- thing started (idk if it would be impa .. idea is neat) and is hellbent on making the gods plan work out like it was supposed to, kinda like the inverse of the games plot, so they got ahold of zelda as part of making her into the new hylia (despite hylia being .. right there, but they dont believe it is her truly since the true tm hylia would never betray the gods- ALSO a paralel to how the downfall of demises world worked bc his mortals turned on him after he started destroying their version of the triforce in the belief destroying it would be the only way to save mortals from going to war agaisnt each other for it over and over, mortals believing that their true deity was gone and replaced by a demon despite demise being ..right there)

after link wins the fight and frees zelda from them they in a kind of last effort to do anything against their group they stab demise, normally that wouldnt do shit against him but in his already fading away situation it basically puts him from very slowly dying to actually dying, as a reaction to it hylia kills the mortal (maybe impa idk), which is the first time she does anything like that to a mortal but i like the idea of her being actually super ruthless when it comes to things she cares about

now with a much more dire time limit hylia sends demise back to essentialyl go hide in her temple and try to not die and to trust her having a plan to make this all still work out- he does and once he is away she reveals pretyt much the entire story around why and what is happenign to link and zelda, hylia herself cant go above the clouds as the barrier is still partially up and she cant do anything to reach the triforce either - so she sends link and zelda to go do that, and it works out in the end bc even knowing the truth know, demise was with them on half of their journey so they know and care, he WILL be mad about them wasting their wish on him (even if he is still happy to be alive- i imagined scene where hes watching himself fall apart and die, alone in hylias temple, having to come to terms with the fact that after everything they had went through hed still die alone- it made me cry while thinking about it, yes, yes you are allowed to laugh)

i didnt get that much further but his spirit was essentially reset to when he was in his prime back in the day through the triforces power- something he both likes and despises, it being the gods power of all things that lets him live again, but also lol to use it agaisnt them by giving another chance to the gods greatest enemy- the next plan is of course to kill the next one of the gods but much better prepared, as they cant just go and do the same thign again (neither wants that), one idea was that hylia goes on a secret quest to try and bring back courage (the third deity that demise killed when his world was still thriving) but it involves diving back into the realm of the gods so she doesnt tell him at first, i do think theyd go together in the end, not to fight but to release courage; the whole thing is also an elaborate revenge plot of hylia, how dare the gods do that to him!!

anyway thats most of what i got from that thinking session but its so frustrating bc none of this is even in the actual comic (since it ends in a way that leads into canon skysw, this is some brain fart nooo i want blorbo to live and succeed!!) and its also convoluted and kinda dumb, the idea to inverse the games plot in a way (instead of it being ghirahim trying to bring demise back its someones plan to make the gods prophecy happen no matter what) is neat but i cant have demise almost dying be the thing THREE TIMES, it kinda undercuts his character and is way too much centered around him, all three times also more or less involving it needing help from others to get him back, when his whole thing should be being unkillable bc he jsut keeps refusing to die, also hylia is, as of now in this spaghetti derailment of random thoughts, way too much of a side character, which i dont like, and it all would make people not like demise when im trying to do the exact opposite of that in the main actual comic

i know being super self indulgent and jsut doing what you want is good for the most part but theres a point where it becomes stale cringy fantasies about my blorbo tm and i wanna write at least decent stories- in the end none of this matters anyway as the actual REAL story of destiny is already pretty long and i got no plan to write that alternative 'good ending' anyway and i mostly just thought about it bc "i dont want blorbo to die :(" and "wouldnt it be fun if the entire plot of the game would get messed up and now demise link hylia and zelda etc can all just drink tea together and make plans to get rid of the gods that wanted them all to suffer needlessly"

i probably shouldnt post this as it was really only a vent to get out dumb thoughts from my brain before they poison me into losing interest of the biggest comic project i have worked on so far but i am unable to keep these things to myself so

if you read all of this, im sorry (´。＿。｀)

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #dare i tag it as that #long post #dont read unless you want to cringe #and yes i know even bad art and stories have value #and i know im not as bad as i always think #but this really is the kind of stuff that makes me embarrassed to even be able to think #its all shortened and badly written #but some scenes i got so clearly in my head its like a movie #and those scenes make my brain go wooooooooooooooooo even if they make no sense and i cant fit them together properly #uh oh self doubt #sorry im neither a professional artist nor writer #im autistic with a blorbo and one skill that i only have bc i didnt know what to do with my brains rapid train of thoughts other than draw #big time for “oh no i made people think i am better than i actually am- i am a liar and a cheater oh god” kind of thoughts #the want to just do whatever you want VS wanting to make soemthing of value VS not wanting to embarrass yourself

[potatobugz]

i submitted my lovely mouseboy Finnegan for the @ahatintime-oc-competition yesterday :D here is the art i drew 4 them!

for those unaware: he came from a dream i had once involving him and Snatcher But As A Bird; and i sorta just. added onto them from there. they're so sillay

#a hat in time oc #potatart #ahit #(just for the art tag....sorry : #Finnegan Snowshoe #get propergandered. i will conjure up more art of them soon i think #very vivid image in my mind of what their personality is like but its rlly hard to describe #........... #ok quickly avert ur eyes i am going to say something that is embarrassing to me #oc competitions make me nervous and it is because i think last time i did one it went Badly #like idc about the losing part i thought that was really funny but i just felt like everyone.hated me : #i know thats not true and its the brain poison talking but #i remember somebody skimmed thru my account and saw that i was hyperfixated on south park at the time and #uswd that as a reason to not vote for my character #which was one of those things that made me so so nervous that i felt Physically Ill and it ruined like my whole day #confidence is key. i think. so i am grabbing myself by the shoulders and going “YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE FUN!!!!” #sorry for the very Personalness that just jappened here. its okay thought bc i trust everuone averyed their eyes to my sad ramblings #besides i like finnegan :] and i trust most ppl to not Kill me Dead #anyways. ignore ignore ignore FINNECHER NUMERO UNO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #THIS IS A LITTLE SOMETHING I LIKE TO CALL: PUTTING TOO MUCH EFFORT INTO THINGS

[frostedpuffs]

mentioned it on the ppu update, but i recently made a really tough decision to take a pay cut to work one day less a week in favor of having time for myself and my hobbies again. i realized that working 5/6 days a week without consecutive days off (and even dealing with work issues/calls on my days off) has left me so exhausted, mentally and physically. i was without any time to write or draw, because on those rare real days off, i was doing all of my house chores and errands, and still didn't have any time to myself. needless to say i was exhausted and Sad 24/7.

SO!!! i will still be working the Hell Schedule for the next two weeks, but after that, hopefully things will start to be a little easier. maybe i will have more art to post for you all to see. maybe more frequent fic updates. or maybe i will just be able to breathe again!

i really do appreciate everyone that has followed me for my art/fics still sticking with me during this long funk of no art/no fic. i know the majority of you followed me for ml content, so i hope i can provide that again soon, because i have also dearly missed being able to create!!! I've missed it SO MUCH!!

#i dont talk a lot abt my personal issues here bc this is a Public Blog with a lot of people following it #so i dont like to blast personal stuff bc that's embarrassing to me #BUT HOLY FUCK DUDE I WAS SO DEPRESSED LIKE. DANGEROUSLY BADLY #but if i can just get through these next two weeks i think i will be okay :) #i will say this: no job and no amount of money is worth killing yourself for a place that would replace you the second you drop dead. #it will very much suck to not be making as much money #but it is what has to be done for me to be able to LIVE instead of just surviving #i am very lucky that i can make a decision like this. i recognize a lot of people cant. so i do feel privileged that i am able to do this. #but i need it to be done before i become so burned out i cant get out of bed #text post

[fox-mulder-gets-pegged]

Anyone else feel like they're perpetually standing on a stage trying to be entertaining and no one's laughing no matter how many jokes they tell or am I just sucky at being a person?

#i feel like im getting a bad grade at being enjoyable #like im fucking up every social interaction im having #it's like i keep entering in the wrong answers and everyone is politely ignoring me bc im fucking up so badly its embarrassing #anyways #im fine i just #wish I was better at all this

[candyheartedchy]

Sometimes I wonder if certain fandoms are familiar with my work due to me self shipping with certain characters and how much that actually terrifies me.

#ANXIETY ACTING UP AGAIN SORRY #but fr tho I always feel like I’m embarrassing myself in front of other fans #like I’m that person who they all ‘😒 it’s her again’ type of thing #like I don’t mind fandom blogs following me but at the same time I wish I was more active with interacting with other fans #like I don’t want to bother folks either or have them think I don’t want to interact #I just get so nervous and scared #so I end up just keeping to myself but I want to interact so badly #ventish #maybe??? #💬 chy chatter 💬

[lemonofthevalley]

okay posting this as is because if i try to edit it or anything ill wuss out

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #i have no idea why writing about character's fingernails embarrasses me so badly it just Does #its fun i just dont like showing it to other people or posting it bc im always convinced someone will make fun of me for it #if people r interested + if i remember to ill do s1 dads and the teens 👍

[hella1975]

so it turns out it was actually never that serious

#the exam literally went fine what the fuck just happened i feel like i just hallucinated that #like im not one of those people that go 'omg i did soooo badly :(' just to come out with top grades if i say it's going to shit #then it's becuase i genuinely wholeheartedly believe it #and my headspace before this exam was the worst it's been in MONTHS like i havent felt that bad for an exam since first year #and i sat down opened the paper and. remembered everything. like i literally just Knew the answers #im not saying ive passed bc am i fuck about to jinx it and i was still riding mainly blind bc i have NO idea where that knowledge came from #but at the very least there was a 35 marker that i KNOW i aced like i could picture the exact lecture slides it wanted me to discuss #and i had all of them memorised so at the very least ive got like. 30 marks. which is enough for me to pass the module #bc this exam is only weighted 75% and with my marks from the other 25% i only needed like 20 marks to pass this exam #which... makes it even more embarrassing that i failed it the first time but whatever!!!! #oh my god im so glad that's done im so happy IM FREE #just been in the kitchen dancing around to my little tunes and texting my friends <3 #im meeting up with one of them when she gets off work at 5 and we're going for drinks #so ive got until then to nap and chill and then ill go to the shop and get us some food and wine #and she's gonna come here for a bit & then we'll go. like actually look at me. im having people over at MY HOUSE im going out to buy us WIN #im literally a functioning adult living independently who IS she a misty memory #alas i do only have £23 in my account so this is gonna be such a slay seeing how i make that stretch for a night out #i acc could budget for england when it comes to alcohol i think like the way i manage to have a good funky time with MINIMAL funds #is downright impressive. it's a skill idc what you say #hella goes to uni

[slutdge]

day 3647388377437 of only existing to be a punching bag, somehow still alive

#yeah incoming breakdown pls fuck off i just remembered how meaningless my life is #outside of being used #my famtasy lately is journeying deep into the everglades and dying there and never being found. that seems like id finally feel peace. #ill be alone forever and im ok with that #as long as thats where i am #cause i cant fucking take waking up every day of my life and my only purpose being supporting everyone elses weight #what kind of a fucking life is that youd wanna die too if that was your life. if that was all you had to look forward to. #its camp anyways lolllll and all that other stupid shit i say to dimish how badly im suffering #at least if i go die out there i can benefit the earth #the conclusion: yes i am so embarrassed dont worry i am humiliated in ways you couldn't even imagine #im embarassed every second of my life for being like this #i know yall are tired of me complaining believe me so i am i and i feel guilty for just existing 24/7 #cant wait to finally be appreciated when alligators rip into my dead body

[beif0ngs]

sigh, i still cannot fathom how anyone (yes, even Oda himself) could possibly think One Piece would work as a live action series without it coming off as anything BUT cringey...

especially when a majority of the characters are so silly and exaggerated in terms of features and/or mannerisms, that i cannot imagine anyone IRL being able to pull off or truly capture the essence of these characters in a live action series. and by taking away some of these exaggerated features/mannerisms of the characters to perhaps make them slightly more believable or grounded in reality, you’re basically erasing an important part of their identity that is specifically unique to them in the original series. just based on the trailer alone, the fact that they deliberately chose to get rid of certain aspects of these characters should already be a huge warning sign that One Piece being adapted into a live action series was never a good idea... 

y’know maybe sometimes, certain manga/anime are meant to stay and be consumed within that form of media, and that should be more than enough. even MORE so with a series like One Piece, which has over a thousand chapters & episodes, and STILL counting!!

anyway, that’s just my two cents’ worth on the live action adaptation. if you belong to the part of the fandom who is excited and looking forward to the live action series, great for you! and if you’re on the other side of the fandom who feel the exact opposite, that’s completely valid too. after all, how many anime live action adaptations can you name that were actually successful and well-received by the fans and general public, hmm?

#One Piece #and hearing 'gomu gomu no' being translated to and spoken as 'gum gum' makes me want to punch the screen so badly #like i almost died on the spot from secondhand embarrassment #i wish i could go back in time and unhear that #and listen i have absolutely nothing against any of the actors for the roles #but i personally just cannot see ANYONE playing these characters IRL #and the Japanese VAs all already do such a perfect job of voicing these characters #that i can hear NO ONE else but them as these characters at this point #idek if i can bring myself to watch this on Netflix when it comes out honestly :/

[angeltism]

platonic pining feels so damn weird

#➳ the fool speaks #like ohhhh look at meeeeee wanting to be friends w somebun sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo badly that it's kinda making me look stupid #i've never rlly felt this way . like any pining i've experienced . was romantic . but this #i think it's worse because i have the mindset (of which i am trying to get rid of) that romantic love > platonic love and therefore it's #like . ohh . look at uu . being all EMBARRASSING . over what . wanting somebun to be uur friend . over wanting to be close with someone #in a way that DOESN'T include mashing uur faces together to make out passionately ??????? lmao what the fuck #AND ISN'T FRIENDSHIP EASIER TO . MAKE HAPPEN IDK . THAN ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS ?????? i don't think i'm supposed to be thinking abt it THIS #much like . isn't it sooo easy to make friends. isn't it . aha . but here i am barely able to hold a convo but ig i'm just Like That eueueu #this is so WEIRD n uu can't rlly force such a strong platonic connection like . that isn't how that works that isn't how any relationship #works but like . it's like . EUHFHUIDHUFJBHSHDH ????????????????? i am SUFFERING oh my GOD what the HELL #it's so . like a crush . but it isn't . so my hyperro brain is CONFUSED and my lonely ass is STARVING for any kind of closeness this is so #WEIRD TO BE DEALING WITHHHHHHHH #god and how long have i been feeling like this #on and off for a few months #that might be longer than most crushes i've had too ? wow . what the ufck is this what is happening i am so confused i feel so WEIRD #unholy screeching ensues

[officialpenisenvy]

i don't even like sex fr [while planning a hookup and explicitly anticipating sex with a girl who very eagerly wants me]

#she wants me EXTREMELY badly to the point it's embarrassing. this probably seems like im bragging but i hate it a lot #it's kinda dehumanizing it makes me feel like a breeding stud. it makes me very uncomfortable how much she wants me. #but i think the sex will be good and she promised me she'll let me use the strap so im going to hold out just a little #she's also SUPER uhauly and clingy like a worrisome amount. which is concerning but whatever. i think it's what i deserve