#and idk i feel like it just wasnt great

[wooahaes]

i feel like i should rewrite tht han (long) fic i wrote a while back at some point

#wooahaes.txt #it was a reimagining of enouement #and idk i feel like it just wasnt great

[dizzybizz]

sleepy gill and gill with the bubbled evil cat

#hi remember when i thought i was in for a really bad bout of hsr fixation. lets see how thats going.. lets just check in and #oh . oh no. oh this was. this wasnt the plan. oh no #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #gill in pjs got to me ok. gill fighting in pjs got to me. the thought of gill sleeping in a barrel of water with pjs on got to me. #wheni tell you this fkn podcast is the only thing ive been thinking abt for the past few days dude what thef uck #theyre all so stupid they get up to so much bs its fkn great i lvoe the three of them so mcuh WHEHhghh >:'O #my art #i keep nearly forgetting that tag help??? #ive slowly been getting used to drawing them jsut you wait til i feel good abt the designs n shit ok its gonna be epic or smth #oop s its 1am soon whoopsies ehehee but like ..... the dumbasses... theyre in my head.. #there are so many stupid scenes i want to draw 😭😭😭😭😭 #im sorry to. my friends. for jsut . yknow. and everyone really #i wasnt ready for this 😭 idk what happened i just started going through eps so quickly all of a sudden and ive gone through like 12 eps in #2-3 days and i feel absolutely insane and i think abt them so much. theyve taken up all my time help

[skunkes]

#talkys #delete later #(this is a meme redraw) #ruined my life is a strong word. and of course theres lots of self blame and obvs ive probably wronged lots of people before #and i dont deserve unending torture for it. right. like part of me doesnt even actually feel ill will toward the other party #because whatever! normal human experience! #the other part is like ohhh okay you lied to and kinda used me + treated me badly then lied again to the point where i found out the truth #from another party so you didnt even have to fess up yourself and now you're back to being happy as if nothing happened #i was just a stepping stone i was just a distraction. ok! #like for real actually ok ^_^ it literally happens to ppl all the time... #<- he keeps experiencing waves of horrific sense of self worth that already wasnt Too Great as a result #ugh. and thats nobody's fault but my own right.... but idk. i cant believe it...! i cant believe someone treated me dis way #and i let it happen... and i would have let it keep happening if an end hadnt been put to it by someone else.... #but still. at the end of the day i was the only one left with these thoughts. ykwim. other party has forgotten. got happy ending. #doesnt deserve ''consequences'' but still feels horrific to see and think about. you know? #i literally got all the bad. throughout and after.

[hajihiko]

every time I come across Content that isnt my own I get the thoughts and thinks. Too tired to do anything about it except this ig

#Coming to terms with the fact that I can share shitty dumb doodles and tag them even and it's not a crime #I'm not quite Ants In My Brain levels but the brains are scattered rn. #Anyway I love a relationship that is unlabeled and unknowable but gosh damn it is sincere and devoted #I was thinking of that 19 days bit. 'you're the strongest most badass little mo' or sth #ANYWAY! Not confident enough to tag this w my art tag so #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #Kuzuhina #Attempting to go full ramble in the tags after the actual posting bc I just got shit to say I guess #Not valuable shit but shit nonetheless #They're good for each other they build each other up. Fuyuhiko was putting so much faith in Hajime from the get-go #Hajime is like dont give me too much credit no I dont wanna think about my talents. And Hiko is like nah man you're great (in his own way) #And Hajime encourages so much growth in Hiko which is WHY I think Hiko is so passionate in his loyalty #Hajime makes Fuyuhiko smile and laugh and reflect on his behaviour and talk about his experiences #They laugh TOGETHER in the middle of the killing game which is v sweet #Fuyuhiko is DESPERATE to prove that he's changed and that he wants to do good now and Hajime is just like 'okay you got it' #Like thassit. And then when they find out Hajime wasnt a talent student Fuyuhiko is like 'oh ok' #They accept each other very readily and they trust each other so much and idk maybe my brain is broken but #I FEEL like I feel a sincerity in their friendship #Like it's for life man they're already making plans for the future when they're friends (hiko especially) #Yeah I guess I'll save these tags. Idk I'm a little Ill of the Brain rn

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

Being queer and neurodivergent is great and all until you're with relatives and you watch other people and feel like an outcast in your own family

#extra fun that i cant exactly tell my therapist that being queer is one of the reasons i feel this way #because peoples opinions on queer people here generally arent good #idk sometimes it feels like I dont belong anywhere and feel really alone even though i know im not #its just the way other people live and do things seems genuinely impossible for me. i dont get how they do it #sometimes wish i wasnt who i am ngl #can someone please tell me something nice. my self esteem is buried deep underground right now and i feel not great #sorry for bringing vent posts here on tumblr. i just genuinely dont have many people or places that I feel okay talking about this stuff #especially no one irl i feel okay telling all this to #and dm'ing people is also really difficult. i genuinely struggle to do it #vent post

[mo-ok]

🎉 Toku x Birthdays 🎉

Day 4 - Chinese Zodiac

🐂 Ox ~ Kuro Kishi Hyuuga 🐂

#tokubds #gingaman #super sentai #hyuuga #OK LOOK. THIS IS THE BEST COINCIDENCE TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME LMAO. #not only am i an ox - i am a fire ox #and wouldnt you believe it my boy my precious precious boy Hyuuga just so happens to be a fire powered cow fella sooooooooooo #i couldnt not make this about hyuuga #it was written in the stars #every time i think about hyuuga (often) my ability to not be annoying is TESTED #he's my favouritest guy ever and i have a great deal of thoughts about him #he makes me want to smash glass and then calmly clean it up #he's such a SOFT character and it makes all the bullshit he goes through hurt SO BAD and i 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #please watch gingaman #its very good #and it has hyuuga in it #also his gokaiger episode is very good. a real nasty punch straight to the guts #like #do you think it hurt? having bullblack's powers taken from him? did it feel like he'd died all over again? IS GOTAURUS OK ABOUT IT??!?!???? #idk go away dont look at me #me in the middle of the night: do you think Gotaurus missed Bullblack or do you think he saw enough of him in hyuuga that it wasnt so bad #my wife: 🫥🫥🫥

[snixx]

got queerbaited into reading a book by chatgpt. is this rock bottom

#girlblogging.pdf #apparently coding isn't the only thing that thing is ass at. fetching basic information is too #i mean i Wanted to read it anyway and i knew it wasnt queer before. idk why i let chatgpt gaslight me into believing i was making it up #whatever. neither the main character nor her best friend are textually queer or in love with each other. they're both pretty boy crazy tbh #but the mc is giving big aro vibes. like she's so done with her best friend every time she starts talking about men or crushes #also her crush on this guy is giving extremely platonic im not biased i swear #she just throws herself at him because she thinks itd be cool to date her besties crushs bff #so she could feel normal like her #they do have a cute friendship though. mc and the guy. also they start dating like 2 seconds after her bff dies so it's not really romantic #also theres a very cool lesbian who gets more pagetime than the guy and whos friendship with mc is super angsty so #w #its a really good book ok i just went in with really wrong expectations #like a sapphic hiaylm #but every day i grow closer to the great truth of my life that sapphic hiaylm will never exist #and i should stop looking for it and find the beauty in things for their originality and what they are #anyway in this case the lack of sapphicness did not detract from the book at all dont get me wrong #i just found it funny

[wyrmcat]

i was watching jerma play spore the other night, and while i know my reaction was unreasonable, i got so mad at how he was making creatures that I redownloaded steam and the game to make critters myself because my brain was like No. He is Doing It Wrong. unreal.

#for context i played the demo when i was like 9 and my mom asked if i liked it and i was like 😶 ye #so she got the disk for it for Christmas that year for me and i played that game an unreasonable amount. i #i even had the ds game. and while it wasnt the same i still loved it #i lost the pamphlet to my disk at aome point so i had to buy it on steam unfortunately #but i got the dlc and im sure i could add mods if my poor laptop tablet thing wasnt already a bit iffy on lowest settings spore #it runs plants vs zombies great tho #i think the reason why i love stuff like pokemon and spore and neopets is because i just have always loved animals #identifying them. knowing facts about them. drawing them. spending time with them even in like zoos #anyways im rambling now but i feel silly but also a little snooty about it now XD #maybe ill post pictures of what i made sometime idk #spore #spore 2008 #also one last thing kf you name a planet on spore ''cheezwizolia'' it will spawn your nest IN ThE OCEan #probably names of planets determine seeds for generation but idk and im not gonna bother looking it up

[throwbacktears]

as someone who knew nothing about the books or show until i watched it last year on a whim, i was a belly x conrad girlie. i still am, but man, with season 2 already foreshadowing how much theyre soulmates, i feel bad jeremiah doesnt get a fair and fighting chance as belly’s love interest. every time he is, it’s just an afterthought. and it makes the “love triangle” a lot less intriguing bc, well, theres nothing to be intrigued about!!! theres no pining, we all know — even jeremiah himself — that she will always have conrad as number #1. justice for jeremiah and belly to have a fair love story actually

#whats the fun in a love triangle if everything in the show is pointing towards bonrad lol. cmonnnnn #its to the point that every time a jeremiah x belly moment or scene comes up my bonrad self goes out the window and i root for them #but then watching gavin and lola actually act out those scenes - try as i might - i just cant...... i dont believe it #like idk if this is just me but i also feel like gavin and lola just dont have chemistry #again as someone who didnt read the books or have a vested interest in waiting for the show to come out last year #so i wasnt predisposed one way or another #and like. normally i would go for jeremiah and belly bc hes the healthier fit. but i just dont feel any sparks btwn them the way chris #and lola do. and on a larger scale i feel like gavins chemistry w everyone isnt strong either?? #i thought he and sean were great last season but idk. it feels like he doesnt jive w everyone as well #you can see it more in the scenes where theyre improving or riffing in the background #and watching the cast interviews it feels that way too. but not for lack of trying on gavins end #just my observations #tsitp #belly x conrad #belly x jeremiah #lola tung #christopher briney #gavin casalegno #mytext

[blueeandyellowmakesgreen]

maybe this is just me but people who say ‘how did you guys not figure out byler was a thing in earlier seasons you guys are SOO dumb 😑 i figured it out WAY quicker’ is kinda.. :/

like sorry my media literacy was fogged with a heteronormative lense while i was in a time where i was still coming to terms with real gay rep

#it literally takes 0 dollars to not come off across as an asshole #THOUGH. the ones who word it like ‘oh i knew since s2 im so proud heehee’ and ‘it was always there!!’ are fine for sure! you guys are gr8 #but when its worded like this? i roll my eyes a bit ngl #shut up jade #again this isnt rly vagueing anyone but i did see these takes in the past and its just. what am o supposed to say sorry???? #like .. its okay to figure it out much later. just as long as you see the vision and acknowledge the show’s direction #like honestly everyones experiences and perspective can change things #so theyre not going to see things the same way you do #idk #also people forget this show was released in 2016!! the time i watched it!! of course i wasnt able to understand subtext #but if you did either way then thats great!! #i just took later to figure it out ! but i shouldnt feel bad

[skyeateyourdonuts]

weeoo

#this is gonna be me talking in tags today #ive been rather sleep deprived lately trying to keep up with everything around me #and its been taking a toll on my health like #if i go too long like this i tend to feel more lethargic and my allergies kick in #i got a sore throat bc my room has been Freezing and then i get headaches way way easier #often times my face will flush but its just my nose and idk why #well anyways lmao i just aint feelin great due to lack of sleep #so i emailed my teachers and stayed home and others might say this wasnt it #but i can barely get to sleep at all these days and just bed ridding myself #seemed like the only way for my body to be like #'fine 🙄 u can sleep' lmao #thats actually one of the worst symptoms is im restless i just Cant grt to sleep no matter how hard i try #ive had a couple days where i was running on 2-3 hours bc i spent even longer Laying there #anyways i hope this makes a difference im tired of feeling tired and shitty #luckily my mood has weirdly been high #its just my sleep and health that are low #i think when the sleepiest soldiers are unable to get sleep thats when u know smths wrong #i think also so much is happening and me trying to keep up is taking more outta me than i expected #im a gal who gets overwhelmed easily even if im happy w whats happening lmao #tho im not Happy im more In a Good Mood lmao #side tangent but i HATE being an adult who doesnt have like idk Help lmao #like my dad was so nice to me sometimes and helped me sometimes #i could go a whole day sleeping bc id be fucking exhausted #and hed qake me up and ask me when i last ate and if i couldnt decide but itd been too long #hed make smth for the both pf us or hed make it For me and id just be able to like recover lmao #ah adulthood is hard lmao #alright im done #gata #no need to read <3 yall

[waywardsalt]

now bc of that one post abt zelda getting fridged whenever that one guy directs a zelda game im thinking abt tetra just getting turned to stone in ph and like. what would it have been like if she were an actual character in ph. what would she have done how would this have changed the story

#not gonna do a whole lot of tagging im just musing. if you wanna rb or reply with ideas thats great #im not the person to figure this out bc i dont actually care much abt tetra #not like oh i hate her but like. i only played ph and what i see of her beyond that has not endeared me to her #shes fine i just dont get it. ig cuz i didnt play ww but eh #cuz like. ok. pretty much the majority of phs plot relies on tetra having been turned to stone and fixing that #and me being the autistic little freak i am the psrt that also makes it hard for me to wonder what could happen if #tetra werent stone and that making the game better is like. ok what about linebeck and his arc #listen his arc is so fucking good and hes great and i dont think his arc would have been so good if link wasnt the character he was put wit #cuz link is a great foil and despite having minimal characterization has just the right personality to nudge linebeck along #cuz hes def part of what inspires some of that change in linebeck so idk what might have happened #if tetra was an active player interacting with him in ph too. cuz like idk most of the time when i see people #do stuff where they interact its usually tetra one upping linebeck or whatever and thars like. ok thats whar ciela does #maybe im reading into it too much and focusing on linebeck. idk how you couldve done and changed #the plot of ph to include tetra without just straight up rewriting the whole thing or putting link away #bc look me in the eyes. i do not think linebeck would have developed the way he did without having met link specifically #salty talks #idk i feel like linebecks arc is the best bit of story in ph so i want that to remain more or less intact bc thats where a lot of #the emotional stuff comes in at the end. his dialogue in the ghost ship battle and the final boss. its important #i dont think about tetra much cant you tell. so id leave this to someone who actually cares abt her as a character

[girlwithfish]

idk i hate thinking abt childhood and then also like 18-20 and then also 20-22 . so all of my life :)

#it wasnt all bad Im being dramatic b ut like #ofc my brain is gna focus on the bad! #like moving back home has been fine and i know i could b in a much worse situation and its fine but #it also has been difficult mentally emotionally a bit. sometimes i wonder what itd be like if i didnt feel like this #And had a healthy close relationship w my parents.... lol. dont think that exists idk ....... #Idk its hard to explain. like my relationship w them isnt Bad but its not close or like great but not bad. its fine. I guess #but just sm unspoken complicated stuff i have to internalize and keep to myself #and i wonder if its kinda sad i feel i have to just not live w them to feel better abt it instead of just repairing it but #no idea where to start. its complicated #Idk #i guess im under the assumption that i have to feel like this 4ever #And i feel weird abt visiting my cousin and the family members on my moms side and then my cousins in laws all these ppl i dont know #then 18-20 i was miserable then 20-22 was well yeah

[pavlovers]

actually nvm im not emo anymore 🤧

#will i ever be truly content with the ending ? no 💀 but ! everyone looks so cute nd im happy that my fav freaks are able to be silly :p #i have mixed feelings on chifuyu narrating this chapter tho lmao 😭😭 #i mean its great that he somehow remembers everything that michi went through nd their friendship wasnt lost #BUT I CANT GET OVER THAT LIKE. ONE TAKEHINA KISS PANEL AND ITS JUST HIS UGLY CRYING FACE AT THE BOTTOM 😭😭 #i kinda love that for him tho like shit make their day all about yourself king #i wouldn't have taken the whole takehina ending seriously either way #tokrev aint even about them at this point its about the collection of freaks takemichi collected along the way 😭 #what other thoughts can i put out there... #omg sanzu being an influencer is such a slay. i love how he looks exactly the same as he did in the bonten timeline #he just slays online now instead of yknow with a katana in real life ! #kazus adorable. izanas adorable #I LOVE THAT SOUTH IS JUST THERE. IDK HOW THEY MET IN THIS TIMELINE BUT FUCK IT YEAH HES INVITED WHY NOT #seeing timeskip mikey again just confirms my initial feelings towards manila mikey which is that he was ugly 😭 #IDK THE SHORT HAIR DOESNT SUIT HIM IMO 😭 I WAS HOPING THAT WAKUI WOULD GIVE HIM A NEW HAIRCUT THAT WE HAVENT SEEN BEFORE #its ok tho im happy that hes actually happy ! and that the future he wanted with emma and draken and their baby came true 🥲 #WAHH THAT TOO 😭 THE FACT THAT THEYRE MARRIED AND EMMA IS PREGNANT WITH THEIR FIRST CHILD LITERALLY SOBBING 😭 #its what theyve deserved this whole time !!!! #what wakui did to naoto was a crime tho 😭 why does he look like thatttt #bring back detective naoto 😭 current naoto looks more homeless than takemichi that doesnt sit right with me 😭 #im rocking with long hair hanma. shuji just some guy hanma 💀 #wakui making mikey looking at takemichi like that the opening panel like we know what they are 🙄 just had to remind us #thats all i think... its finally over 😭 i may have my grudges but i truly loved reading this weekly for over a year it was so much fun 💗

[caffeinatedopossum]

All of my friends are either suicidal or have anorexia or both and I don't know what to do with all of this worry

#weirdly the friends with anorexia are two thirds irls and not people from tumblr #suicidal is a mixed bag tho #idk what to do #im not exactly in a great place myself #but i want to help #idk if what I can do in this state (constant suicidal ideation and desire to relapse) is enough #it feels like its never ending and its never enough #and im not mad at my friends of course and its not theyre burdening me #its just that... i think maybe im jealous in some sick way #like they can tell theyre suicidal and its surprising and im worried and its the worst day of their life #if im suicidal its another Tuesday #i dont tell my friends anymore not because i cant ask for help but because they already know #it would be like texting your friends that you have to go to the bathroom #they know that obviously is a thing that happens because duh but 1 its mundane and 2 they cant do anything about #and 3 some people would say its gross #thankfully my friends arent those people but you know #i feel so horrible for being jealous #i miss when it wasnt normal to feel like this #i miss when i thought i couldnt live like this because now that i know i can #its not 'can i live with this' its 'how much can i take- #its an endurance battle and im so tired #i dont know where my limit is i only know it can get worse #i dont know how much worse #idk what to say... im just really sad and i wish i was better and a better person and a better friend

[daandori]

every single time i work out now its basically a try-not-to-throw-up challenge

#the talkies #emetophobia tw #just in case #like i always wait at least two hours after i eat dinner #and i dont like exercising before i eat anything bc i feel like i have no energy #but man it does not feel great #i think its just metformin side effects so idk how much i can rly do abt it #but on another note i just have 3 days left in my 25 day challenge weeeeee #if i wasnt rapidly dwindling in savings i would treat myself to a lulu piece to celebrate once im done lol