#and i wouldn’t be here anymore

[internet-overdosed]

i wish there was an option to just erase yourself from existence

#no one would miss me #they’d forget my existence #and i wouldn’t be here anymore #win win

[incorrect-fnaf-quotes]

Another AU idea: Instead of it happening to Vanessa, Beta-Tester Jeremy ends up in the situation as Glitchtrap’s Reluctant Follower, makes a suit, and then heads to the Pizza Plex.

Though, Vanny still does exist within the AU. Here, she’s an actual animatronic rabbit that was being worked on at some point—except... she’s not really finished.

She was created, yes, and there was a lot done with her... but she’s basically an abandoned animatronic. For whatever reason, everyone just kind of stopped doing anything relating to her, and stored her away.

Because of that, none of the other animatronics know about her—nobody met her. Reluctant Follower Jeremy discovers her, and Glitchtrap decides to infect her with his virus or whatever.

So then, he has both of them following his plan(s), and the two are both going after Gregory, alongside the other affected animatronics.

#FNaF AU #What do I even call this one? I have no idea #Glam Fred being like ‘There is no rabbit here... not anymore’ during that one bit in the game #But unknowingly there’s just an unfinished rabbit chilling somewhere before Glitchtrap happens #There’s a dancing rabbit man after Gregory—and accompanying him is a rabbit lady #And then the rabbit he misses is... not in the greatest condition somewhere in the Pizza Plex- #Like with canon Vanny he wouldn’t be able to see Beta Tester Jeremy when he’s in his suit #He doesn’t see Animatronic Vanny for a while—because she’s going after Gregory when he’s alone #And by the time Glam Fred reaches Gregory (after being called) she’s just gone #Security Breach #Not a quote #Vanny #Jeremy {Beta-Tester} #Glitchtrap #Malhare #Save tag

[gloriousburden]

when will the loki series hype finally die down so i can look through all the main loki tags and find actual loki stuff again and not just lokius shippers crying over and obsessing over the series like DAMN!!!

#would’ve mentioned sylvie/sylki fans here too but do they even exist anymore? #i mourn the loki fandom i knew prior to the series #wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy #loki series negativity #anti loki series #anti lokius #anti mobius #anti sylvie #anti sylki #loki #loki 💭

[fishing-lesbian-catgirl]

It’s because I have zero faith in the people of my country, but if by some miracle they did start trying to enforce lockdown and quarantine for Covid reasons, at this point I think the Fox News watching Americans and the police have made it into such a political thing to even acknowledge the existence of Covid that they almost certainly wouldn’t listen. I guess if the government was able to make most businesses close then maybe it’d have some degree of success but I doubt it

#death to america #honestly this country shouldn’t exist #the more I think about it the more I wish it could just disappear so the rest of the world wouldn’t have to deal with us anymore #yeah there’s a lot of good things here too but it’d be net positive for the world no doubt #unfortunately that’s not how stuff works so we have to dismantle the US the hard way

[eddis-not-eeddis]

First game of hide-and-seek in 7+ years. Happy to report I’ve still got it.

#Can’t hide in teeny-tiny places anymore #But that honestly makes the challenge even better #(I was also wearing a reflective shirt) #(So I had to find a spot where that wouldn’t work against me) #It shouldn’t feel this good to be the champion of hide-and-seek when I’m in my mid twenties #but here we are XD

[dreamsb0u]

Sometimes I wish my “friends” or whatever who ghosted me would talk to me again just so I could bite their fucking heads off

#rant #Tw rant #vent #vent tw #in tags #like you fucking said you were going on a mental health break and that’s fine but after WEEKS of radio silence I check on you #and you’ve fucking BLOCKED me???? #like what the fuck is wrong with you #this has happened multiple times and I think it’s justified that I’m fucking angry #they KNOW I have abandonment issues and they don’t even give me a notice they don’t tell me what I did wrong #I’m so fucking tired of this shit #I’ve tried to be supportive but all they ever do is fucking toss me to the side #I’m not sorry #I can’t even look at half of my sketchbook anymore because it’s stuff I made for them #I wouldn’t say that letting your friends know why you’re leaving them is a lot to ask #but hey maybe I’m the one in the wrong here #and I’m even angrier because I don’t hate them #I can’t really #but I’m so fucking mad #I don’t want any hug emojis I get that you’re trying to help but I’m really not in the fucking mood #I think I only have like two friends I can trust

[jinstronaut]

anyways being a mean girl on the internet at a grown age in a space where the thing we’re celebrating is so meaningful and lovely is such a bad take

#entitlement on the internet over nothing is crazy #the way this entire fandom space changed so drastically when attitudes changed so drastically is wild #i love bts and you know what? that fondness can get lost in the sauce because of all the bad vibes around here lately #things that aren’t competition: enjoyment of context. friendship. artistry. fostering community. #i’m gonna start setting Hard boundaries to enjoy myself in this space again #because nothing gets to overshadow the love i have for these boys #but i rly want some of y’all to reflect on maybe why like half the people you know are leaving without a word #and sure maybe making content feels fruitless and contrinbutes #but also? the environment has become a lot less kind and welcoming #and i fear if i had just made this blog recently compared to when i did join. i wouldn’t last #it’s so so so easy to be kind and open and that’s just … not the energy anymore #and i want to get that energy back #because we’re all here for the same reason so why be anything But kind and welcoming and generous #u kno #.txt

[pixelatedraindrops]

Okay lemme be real with you all.

I LOVE it when someone touches someone else's cheek to check their temperature. Sooo good and sooo tender 💕 One of my top favorite prompts when it comes to an illness scene.🌡️

So I had to make a quick edit of this. Poor Yuma tries too hard...😞 At least there's a sensible adult in the room to tell him so. (and even his death god partner thinks he's pushing it)

A scenario of Yuma about to leave the agency, but Yakou KNOWS something's wrong. The trainee looks tired, he’s panting a little, and his face is tinted red. So he stops him, walks up to him, and puts his hand to his cheek to check.

And turns out, he was spot on.

Yuma tries to deny it, but Yakou ain’t havin’ it.

Then he IMMIEDATELY puts him to rest. Practically pushing him onto the couch (it only takes one hand like what is yuma gonna do lol)

I like to believe Yakou’s like a worried mother hen for his agency's staff. Panicking as a first-time caretaker in years. ESPECIALLY with Yuma since he's very likely the frailest of the bunch. (he's a father now :3)

Shinigami tries to help in her own way too

Yay for duo caretaking >w<💕💊

(...yes I know its the SAME freaking couch edit template here I'm sorry, ITS ALL I HAVE OKAY? LEAVE ME ALONE X’D)

#master detective archives: rain code #yuma kokohead #yakou furio #yakou fathero #shinigami rain code #rain code #whumpcode #here’s an edit where Yuma is being a bit more stubborn #I feel like he’d feel too responsible as a detective to take any rest and to not disappoint anyone #but nah yakou fathero ain’t having that shit #not when you look that terrible #illness #fever whump #whump edit #illness whump #sicknario #sickness #my edits #caretaking #pixeledits #caretaker #illness prompt #hurt/comfort #I KNOW I SAID I WOULDN’T MAKE ANYMORE EDITS FOR A WHILE BUT- #I could be making written drabbles of these scenarios in my head #but instead I do this lol #yakou taking more responsibility for his agency's well being since he failed to do so for his wife #he would 100% do this they are his responsibility now #being an anxious mess for this smol boy who keeps pushing himself

[enchanting-grom-fright]

did u know

#i don’t know when i but i’m taller it must be something in the water #i grew up here til it all went up in flames except the notches in the door frame #my recurring dream i’m at the movies i don’t remember what i’m seeing the screen turns into a tidal wave #when the speed kicks in i go to the store for nothing #the house where u lived with snow white i wonder if she ever though the storybook tiles on the roof were too much #the drugstores r open all night the only real reason i moved to the east side #and here everyone knows ur the way to my heart hear so many stories of u at the bar #either i’m careless or i wanna get caught #i can’t open and forget how to talk bcs even if i could wouldn’t know where to start wouldn’t know where to stop #close my eyes fantisize three clicks and i’m home #when i get back i’ll lay around then i’ll get up and lay back down #i know i know i know #like a wave that crashed and melted on the shore not even the burnouts r out here anymore #either way we’re not alone i’ll find a new place to be from a haunted house with a picket fence to float around and ghost my #friends no i’m not afraid to disappear the billboard said the end is here i turned around there was nothing there yea ig the end is here #and now my feet can’t touch the bottom of u #of somebody who loves u more #so i will wait for the next time u want me like a dog with a bird at ur door #and there’s something i’m supposed to say but i can’t remember what it is #and if and if i could give u the moon i would give u the moon #u r sick and ur married and u might be dying #i would do anything for u i would do anything i will do anything #laying down on the lawn i’m tired of trying to get in the house i’m thinking out loud #i’ve been playing dead my whole life #i hate ur mom i hate it when she opens her mouth it’s amazing to me how much u can say when u don’t know what ur talking abt #i feel something when i see u #bcs i don’t know what i want until a fuck it up #i’ll climb through the window again but rn it feels good not to stand #day off in kyoto got bored at the temple looked around at the 711 the band took the speed train to the arcade i wanted to go but i didnt #called me from a pay phone they still got pay phones it cost a dollar a minute

[skillzissuez]

Depression is all fun and games until your skipping school even though you’re weeks behind because you quite literally can’t get out of bed

#god I hate it here #not to mention you mother and father #SEEING this #simply decides to ignore you like your Alr dead #like damn okay 💀💀 fuck you too ig 💀💀 #I don’t know how to fix this #I’m literally gonna be held back or taken to court bc I’ve missed so many days #but oh well the sillies r keeping me alive #Also I told myself I wouldn’t vent online anymore but I honestly don’t care anymore 😭 #it’s so bad though #I tried to do some of my homework last night and ended up throwing up from the stress #and it’s not like my friends just forgot about me they are GOOD friends I’ve just been pushing them away; telling them I’m just sick etc. #it’s my fault so I’m not mad at them for not knowing what to do. The closest ones try to call me #sometimes I answer and we talk. sometimes I don’t and they leave me a message abt how their a good listener and they KNOW something’s wrong. #Truly I love my friends but at this point I just need to be medicated or in a mental institution ong #but again; it’s not like my parents actually care. they canceled my therapy that was court appointed to me #My support system otherwise is gone; my older siblings have moved out and I’m supposed to protect my younger ones from my parents #but deadass my entire family is well aware that I’m useless in that department #I shake scream and sob everytime my parents yell at us so I’m no help; really #I mean recently I’ve been able to keep my emotions under control but the only reason why is because I’m dead inside 💪 #As I’m typing this out I’m realizing that I should be telling the world this especially not in my mental state but like. I dunno 🤷‍♂️ #I know most of you don’t care or if you do your just concerned or feel bad bc you know what it’s like and I thank you. #seriously; I thank you for being human and reminding me the world can be kind #if anything im just distracting myself from whatever this is. whether it be playing a silly game or drawing about said silly game it helps #but it also makes me feel guilty bc I RLLY should be focused on trying to pass this year. but I’m pretty sure it’s too late now. #anyways; that’s why I’ve been inactive lately so I apologize #it’s funny bc I’m typing this out but I rlly don’t feel anything while explaining this to you guys #I’ll tag this properly; I don’t know why I’m posting this and I might delete it later I dunno #tw vent #tw mention of abuse

[edsbacktattoo]

can’t believe i missed it. happy belated birthday to my first born!

they grow up so fast 🥹

#i know it’s so corny but i’m so incredibly grateful for this fic and what it’s brought me #a year ago i found a passion that i’d long ago forgotten about #a year ago i met one of my now closest friends (casper a kiss for u) #a year ago i found a whole community where i belong #and i think that’s just amazing #all from one silly little romcom about pirates #and yeah there are certainly things about the writing in this fic that i don’t do anymore #but i wouldn’t change a thing about it #it wasn’t beta’d - it was barely even edited #i just vomited these massive chapters every day because i was so thrilled to be making it #it was an absolute delight from start to finish #and it’s always going to be important to me i think #sorry im a massive sap #thanks for being here #and thanks for all the support #im astounded and humbled and so grateful #love you all love this place #MWAHHHHH!!!! #chasing storms

[meowmewmeows]

Hinohara Meguru posted two late Halloween pics 👀

#Idk which one I love more tbh 👀 #hinohara meguru #therapy game #secret xxx #here’s hoping tumblr doesn’t censor the first one idk what their censorship rules are like anymore :v #I wouldn’t think it’d get flagged but who knows 🤷‍♀️ #Both pieces are so pretty I can’t - 🥺

[allonzy]

we as a society don’t talk enough about mike wheeler saying “well then maybe you should have reached out more, i don’t know”

#SO MUCH TO UNPACK THERE #was mike also just waiting for will to reach out to him #what was he so scared of? #that will wouldn’t like him anymore? #but why would he think that after will basically said he’d never think of joining any party ever #why was MIKE ignoring will #he called will just twice but el has a BOOK of letters #what did they even talk about those two times #why couldnt mike continue phoning him #unless #he realised something #also i dont blame will as much here because if i saw my crush who was putting in so much effort in staying in touch with his girlfriend #and they seemed super happy together too #i’d take myself away from the distance too #stranger things #byler #mike wheeler #will byers #mike x will #will x mike #st4 #mike wheeler is gay

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

.

How to explain that going to church makes me hurt and angry, but not going to church makes me sad and depressed.

#I need to go to Mass. I need to get over the anxiety mental block and just go. #blue chatter #it’s just. I’ve only gone a couple times this semester and every time has left me feeling more empty and hurt than when I walked in #and I know Mass is more than just how you feel. and that it matters that I am there where God calls me to be #I know. #I wish nobody there knew me so they wouldn’t be so worried and ask questions about where I’ve been #it’s like. I cannot possibly explain to my church friends why I haven’t been showing up. #it’s not even scrupulosity anymore it’s just. I can’t be here. I don’t belong here. #and the new priest is trying *so hard*. I’ve been honest with him about how I’m struggling. #but it’s just. there’s something missing. he wants to include the congregation but fundamentally doesn’t understand what that means. #‘everyone is welcome. No I will not make an effort to include marginalized people. they’re welcome bc they can Walk In The Door.’ #and I know it’s not that the church has changed #if anything I’d be having the same issues with the old priest. I’m the one who’s changed. #but instead of spending my Sundays with God I’m just. melting into a puddle of Sad. and that’s not good for my faith life. #I need to do *something*. I just. any time I think of trying a new church i feel exhausted. #God please help me. #I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t want to be alone and miserable and losing touch with my faith

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

skipping class for the first time in my life bc my professor has covid and he sent out an email saying we’re having class and he’s asymptomatic and will wear a mask per cdc guidelines even tho he’s past the 5 day required isolation period. like. great whatevs but have you actually tested negative

update: the answer was no he had not

#stressed as FUCK #it’s fine we have a textbook and he doesn’t take roll #hoping he doesn’t do an extra credit activity but if i miss it for the sake of my health so be it #i have to go home afterwards anyway bc i have an appointment the next day with my thyroid dr #stressed abt that too bc my mum has dropped all precautions as if she isn’t in her 60s and didn’t lose her husband to covid #and idk what my sibling is doing but i know they’ve stopped masking at their practices and i wouldn’t be surprised if they stopped masking #all together. they also only wear cloth masks but at least it was something #idk i just feel like im the only one not ignoring it. like. when my dad got sick i asked him early on if he could smell and he was like #‘I’m just congested’ and my mum was like ‘no he’s just sick it’s not covid’ and then we waited until it was too late #like. i tell my mum that there’s nothing we could have done bc i don’t want her to feel guilty but like #idk. part of me thinks that if people had just listened to me and gotten him tested earlier and not lived in denial that maybe he’d still be #here. and my mum is pretty healthy but again she’s in her 60s. i don’t want to lose another parent to covid. or if she gets it and has it #bad or ends up with long covid then im gonna have to come home to take care of her or. idek. like i don’t live at home anymore so i can’t #pick up the slack if something happens to her. and my sibling definitely can’t #it’s so stressful. did we not watch the same process of my dad rapidly deteriorating. by the time we took him to the hospital he looked like #a corpse. he was completely grey and his eyes were glazed and he couldn’t even sit up or wave goodbye. has she just forgotten that happened #am i the only one who remembers watching my dad deteriorate in front of us #vent tw #covid tw

[mirroball]

i can’t believe this is the second time someone who made me trust me and allow feelings has told me they’re in love with me to only take it back a week later. this happened TWICE now. what’s so awful about me that i can never be enough?

#both offered me a poly situation #this happened in the span of 1 - 1.5 years #it took me months each time to get to a point where i developed feelings #and they were always first to tell me they’re feelings and i wouldn’t let myself believe it at first #and now here we are. #again. #i can’t do it anymore i absolutely can’t