#and i like sharing my queer experiences

[ghostbergara]

Blue and maybe midnight for one ask game, 🔥 for the other

Have a nice day/good night!

aw thank you, right back at ya!

for 🔥 i think it actually changed quite a lot! so this might be long because im not good at making..words..short? (i dont speak english sdbjk)

I realized I was queer around when i was 12-13, i had always felt.. off? Different? I think in the same way i've heard a lot of other queer people describe. I also grew up in a very small conservative town and we moved when i was 12 so now thinking about it, that change in environment probably allowed me to figure myself out a little bit more. Now 12 might seem young to some people, but i honestly probably should have known sooner i was trans, actually i think i knew, i just didn't have the language. Before i knew my mom had talked a lot about how much will power can accomplice and i thought if i just wanted it hard enough i would wake up a boy (which obviously didn't work so i woke up disappointed every morning). I went as far as to pray??? to god??? i am NOT religious and i never was (which actually got a me in trouble in school a few times but thats another story) asking them to make me a boy (which unsurprisingly also didn't work). I think if i remember correctly i found out about trans-ness mainly from Sam Collins (who is a trans youtuber) which then led me in a spiral of googling and watching everything i could about being trans and how to know if you're trans. I even made a Pros and Cons list of reasons i was and wasn't trans??? (I cant find it anymore but the cons list only had one thing and i cant even remember what it was) Then after some time i sent a video by sam collins where he talks about being trans with his mom, to my dad! He was very supportive until he wasn't and thats also another story. He then told my mom for me and they ended up both being very unsupportive for a very long time.

ANYWAY im getting off track from the question. I didn't have much energy to focus on anything other than staying alive for a very very long time and in turn didnt have the energy to even think much about my identity (i was out as trans and so on). Now in recent years first of all my mom has become very supportive and im doing worlds better and ive finally gotten through the system and gotten hormones and later this year i have my first top surgery consultation. I've figured out my sexuality (or i though i had, i dont know, i like men and maybe more??? Im either gay or bi). Experienced tons of trans and homophobia and most importantly really feel like i've entered the community.

HERES WHERE I ACTUALLY ANSWER THE QUESTION

Now i think i feel more 'free'? Being queer definently makes me feel like i can really be who i want to be, like i'm not defined by stereotypes and stupid cis-straight 'rules' that i dont understand. I'm grateful for the experiences it's brought me, both positive and negative, because it's made me more empathetic and im better dressed for helping and talking with other queer and in some ways even just generally marginalized people. I'm also very aware of the impact i can have as a queer person, both on other queer people and on straight people. I tend to like to wear at least one thing that will mark me as queer in at least other queer peoples eyes because that for them often means safe and not alone. I know from first hand experience how scary it can be to be queer out in the world and if i can bring even the slightest relief to people i will. I certainly feel more at ease when theres other queer people around. When it comes to impact on straight people it's the way i know i can make them understand more and sometimes take the burden off a newly-out queer person by answering some of the questions they have instead of them asking that newly-out person. Of course i have also gotten the "I thought trans people were freaks until i met you, but you're just like normal" which while it sucks at least they hopefully in the future will be more open.

I feel like im more in a way. I have an impact on the world and a possibility to help others like me in a way that is so meaningful and i cherish that.

what colors am i?

LGBTQ+/Queer Themed Asks

#does that sound selfish? #i dont know #i just want to spread queer joy and acceptance where i can #im so sorry this is long and honestly most of it is not related to the question #i dont know why i felt like i needed to add all that context but heres half my life story i guess ahdkfk #and i like sharing my queer experiences #thank you for the ask!! #asks #baz answers

[uncanny-tranny]

I wonder if the discontentment some people have with their gender stems from the contradictions in expectation for their gender.

I mentioned this in passing, but as a man, I've found there's this simultaneous expectation to be hyperindependent and hyperindividualistic while also being concerned about if the people around you accept your masculinity or manhood. It's an interesting paradox to both be expected not to care but also to care so deeply that it alters how you see yourself. It's the contradiction of hyperveneration and hyperscrutiny and, even, hatred of manhood.

This isn't even touching on the intricacies of nonbinary and intersex experiences with the way people enforce these (cissexist) contradictions of what you "should" be.

#gender #queer #lgbt #lgbtq #i find it funny to see people critique these ridgid and contradictory ideas of gender with the idea that it proves trans people dont exist #if anything the hyperscrutinization of all gender to the point that trans people 'dont exist' is a symptom of exactly what i mean #at the core it isn't about a set of ideas but more like a set of rules that will be enforced through any means necessary #and in that way trans people often face the brunt of that force #i know i've faced that sort of attitude by general society even *pretransition and pre coming out* #and obviously not all trans people share in that experience but it also is not an uncommon situation to have had #shoutout to my phone for softlocking itself and deleting this original post #see like i'm also not binary (also not nonbinary) but i functionally live as a binary man irl which is why i speak as a man versus as a man+

[andoutofharm]

anyway please show love to your queer and indigenous friends and show support for the groups and organizations trying to make a difference for these communities IN the states they live in. most of us don’t want to leave, and we shouldn’t HAVE to leave to be recognized as humans worthy of rights and respect and love, not just by our representatives but also by queer people (especially white people) in big cities in the north who assume their experiences are universal.

#seeing all the outpouring of love to the queer and/or indigenous people in oklahoma these last few days has been the one encouraging #thing to come out of all of this #but i have seen just as many comments of dismissal and ‘thats what you get for living in oklahoma’ FROM other queer people #and . honestly if that is your attitude fuck you. you have no way of understanding what it’s like to be queer here. #you dont know what youre talking about. educate yourself or shut up. #and like. i am not indigenous so i do not share firsthand experience with what they experience #but i have been around them all my life and i am always trying to learn how to do better for and by them #and you should do the same.

[gojous-adderall]

About Noé's latest neurodivergent adventures (chapter 61.5 and 62)

(things I found relatable)

1. PUTTING UR HAND UP BC U CANT FIGURE OUT WHEN TO SPEAK. EVERYONE THINKS UR WEIRD FOR IT BUT ITS POLITE AND LIFE IS FUCKING HARD

2. Struggling to follow conversation, and seeing clearer ways of communication that no one else can and getting frustrated that the neurotypicals are so obviously communicating poorly

3. Vanitas designated translator

4. Being quite blind to politics (when it comes to discrimination against himself as a vampire [and his PRIVILEGES as a vampire] and in this case against others like dhams) bc he works individual by individual instead of by social categories

5. Last of all it hurts to see the other characters calling him ignorant and an idiot all the time bc Ive been there. He's booksmart, he's intelligent, just not socially, but here is everyone writing him off as dumb just bc he's different.

Its not like he's ignorant on purpose. Of course it's important to know this shit he's learning now, and it can be done, but it's a lot harder when ur autistic and, as Vanitas said, when u grow up so isolated. Learning is a neverending process and Noé is very clearly learning and just bc he works differently like putting his hand up to speak or interpreting the world differently doesn't mean he's stupid

#istg im not getting mad at fictional characters it just hits hard for me lmao #i actually grew up in a small very conservative town where it was unsafe to be queer #and i had so much learning to do when i moved to the capital and im so much happier now #but it was especially hard to figure this shit out when ur gullible and confused #i always had a nagging feeling that my peers denying others human rights was wrong but whenever i tried to object i would be mocked #like the inkling was there there were just no alternatives around me to the bigotry #until i found a place where my sense of justice could flourish #socialising is still hard but the politics side has improved so much and will continue improving #srry for ranting just wanted to share my personal experiences where relevant #autism #adhd #noé archiviste #the case study of vanitas #vanitas no carte #vnc #autistic noé #autistic noé archiviste

[girls-and-honey]

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#okay so random tag post even though it's been ages #me thinks the current place i work is actually decent a la accepting-queer-ppl so?? miiiiight. consider actually putting my #pronouns in my email signature (which hardly gets used but shh) but like. the actual ones not the society/people assume anyway ones #idk i attended a virtual tech focused event for trans dov (yes early but they didn't want to put the event on sun) and you know when #everyone is just sharing their stories and experiences and it's just like... an overwhelming sense of community? anyway that #and since it was hosted by a professional org the topics were all workplace focused and mayhaps that's something i'm thinking abt for #this year. at least within our pride group I might be ready? wild bc for a long time tumblr has been the only place I feel comfy being 100% #myself. but hearing real people's stories makes me feel like that kind of community would be nice to have elsewhere too #and the whole looking to others also turns around into the leading by example thing bc then we had some breakout groups at the end for #networking which is not my favorite but! i did my intro and said I use she/her for work but will use she/they for this group and #then the next person said he/him at work but for this group he/they so that made me wonder if it was bc of me saying so first? #which if it was is kind of like oh. the way I'm looking for those people for me.. I can also be that for someone else #anyway this sounds dumb typed out but irl/professional me has always separated out queer identity so it's new to me #i'm allowed to be giddy okay. just a little. as a treat (is tumblr still using 'as a treat' i really hope so) #oh shit is this what gender euphoria feels like #alright that's it for now i think #gah emotions and whatnot #missed you all btw i'll start actually being online again soon #personal

[angelthingy]

the thing is i think that like. afab and amab as terms arent like. a bad thing?? like if you're talking about urself and ur assigned gender happens to be relevant and is preferrable to another descriptor (eg if ur dysphoric abt ur body to some it may be easier to say ur agab rather than describing ur features) or describing a situation where thats relevant then like. sure! its just like any other word u just use it cus it makes sense- (note this only applies if YOU'RE using the term when you're talking about YOURSELF)

the problem is that when other people use or ask for someone's agab there's some kind of weird implication that it somehow changes how you behave, and that based on that you can put people into a new binary which shouldnt exist and negatively effects all trans people

people ask if you're amab expecting that to mean you're inherently more patriarchal, dangerous, "masculine" - and if you're afab expecting that to mean you're inherently more quiet, sweet, "feminine" - and BOTH of these fucking suck!!

#im only talking abt transfems in the tags purely because thats my own experience - thats not to say that it doesnt affect all trans people #please feel free to add on your own experiences too if you want to share!! /gen #the amount of times transfems have been accused of being inherently more misogynistic for being amab is fucked up #as if thats some kind of inherited trait from how you're born like what the fuck are you talking about #and its always without any proof as well obviously its just the terfs and radfems making bullshit claims again #except that it also often comes from other queer people telling us that we need to unlearn bigoted ideas that we dont even have #because we're born as boys?? like what the fuck does that even mean what are you implying?????? #its so annoying when people tell us to 'unlearn our misogynistic ideas' that we apparently magically absorbed (because we're men ofc) #when we fucking experience it ourselves #like. what r u talking about #oh also one thing i forgot to mention is that agab is . generally very exclusive of intersex people

[nana-glass-chillhop-radio-hour]

Paige Duplass is such a badass. "If my sternly worded emails couldn't keep my coworker from being ritually lowered into the maw of capitalism, maybe my new god of sacrifice and grief (which I created with the help of my estranged father and a wet cat of a man on the run from 2 separate governments) will."

#'as per my last new god' #the silt verses #paige duplass #I'm sorry but she and Carpenter are fuckin made for each other #queerplatonic paige + carpenter rights #i really want to see the scene where paige's god has gone horribly awry and she's explaining the whole mess to carpenter who just showed up #and she's like 'i know in hindsight it was stupid and hubristic to think i could fix things #'the master's tools etc etc' #and carpenter's like 'are you kidding? stop apologizing and file a civil union w me immediately' #'implaceable hatred for our oppressors AND a total lack of foresight in opposing the systems that grind us to dust? um. qpp wife material' #listen i know the qpp paige + carpenter ship consists of me and like 2 other ppl I'm not saying it's gonna happen #I'm not saying it SHOULD happen #only that I'm deeply invested in queering the story beats of the 'love saves the day' fantasy #by substituting explicitly nonromantic yet emotionally fraught queer relationship grounded in shared experiences of resistance & solidarity #and just seeing what's different and what's the same #i love a good straightforward queer romance too but there's a lot of fun to be had outside the confines of romantic relationships #in life and in fiction #this turned into a manifesto jesus

[dullahandyke]

You guys keep falling for people going 'lol you're identifying the wrong way' wrt queer identities so I made you a flow chart

Is your anger against this label because it facilitates genuine harm towards others (eg. MAPs)? Godspeed and good luck to you.

Is your anger against this label because it is Using The Label Wrong and doesn't gel with your personal definition for this label (eg. MOGAI, bi lesbians, lesboys)? I'm sorry, but there's always gonna be people who identify in ways that you disagree with, and with something as intangible as queer identity, their stance has as much merit as your own. If you get ticked seeing someone IDing as both homosexual and bisexual, ask yourself if they're genuinely hurting anyone, and if not, let them be. You will never know the intricacies of someone else's identity, and if that's how they choose to define themselves, well, tough shit.

#like i id as both mspec and lesbian bcos i am genuinely unsure where the line is in my experiences #or if i even wanna draw the line #btw this isnt some holier-than-thou I Know Better thing this is also a reminder for myself #its been years and im still working on not reacting with vitriol when an american has irish heritage so they id as irish #like you do genuinely have to ask yourself 'what do i stand to gain from isolating myself from these people who want to bond with me' #and like its EASY to go 'i hate irish americans acting like they know ireland waheyyy fuck the yanks' #'theyre not even from here they dont know what ireland is like theyre not irelanders' #but at some point i realised that man. this just feels mean. i dont like this #irelands identity is based upon the people who live on the land. not the land the people live on #according to myth the first settlers werent the celts and they died out long ago and yet theyre still irish #and hearing someone discussing that myth go 'i think its wonderful that so many people share a heritage and appreciation for ireland' #'there are people in america and asia and africa who all have a claim to being irish' #'and acknowledging that is an important part to being irish' #and i thought man i WOULD like to acknowledge that it sounds nice #so when i see plastic paddy irish americans i Keep My Fucking Mouth Shut! #this is a memory but its also a metaphor for the queer community. hashtag words

[kafkaguy]

havin a gender crisis at the train station lol #epic

#reading some lesbian comics and marvelling at the butch experience.......... and then also going into Brain Explode Mode bcos #of how similar it is to the transmasc experience #understanding why so many trans dudes are like 'oh what im just butch or a very masculine woman' #and butches are like 'oh what if im a trans guy' #THE VENN DIAGRAMS BRO. INTERSECTIONS AND CONNECTIONS AND SHARED EXPERIENCES #we are FRIENDS but also its making me feel all . What If She Pronouns. What If More Nonbinary Than I Thought... #cos the thing IS as a bisexual i do feel like my sexuality and gender identity are so intertwined its sometimes annoying #so i cannot think of it as like Ah Yes I Like Men Therefore Im a Homosexual #its a like. i like EVERYONE therefore i am EVERYTHING cos ALL my attraction feels Gay with a capital G #im gay for women im gay for men im gay for everything in between and outside #but i dont see my attraction to women as attraction to the opposite gender cos i dont see women as Opposite or necessarily separate #and vice versa i dont see my attraction to guys as . excuse the outdated language - 'same sex attraction' #because i dont necessarily see myself as A Man . yknow? #the binary is fucked identity is everchanging and ever molding and i am just a little wavelength of light floating through space #THEREFORE. idk where i was going with this #i just think that queerness and humanity are so much more complicated than any of us realise #and sometimes it is so frustrating and tiring seeing other people like me and wjth the same experiences as me #being so conservative and so assuming and trying to generalise something so personal #i am not Doing Trans Wrong . there is no wrong to be trans imo #and i also think we need to be kinder to detransitioned people + transmasc lesbians / transfem gays + nonbinary bisexuals ok thanks bye

[cinna-bunnie]

i shared a peanut butter cookie with my manager today

#we've been working on a project together this month and I've been getting to see her at her office more ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა #we usually just meet remotely or sometimes at the office in our city but we're setting up a new office so it's just us there #she treated me to lunch yesterday too (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠)♡⁠ she got us gyro fries n i had some pepsis 2 share. #chaotic as the project's been it's been rly nice🧍🏾‍♀️im usually just working from home #when i get there we go to the lil coffee shop together ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა i like their drinks n their staff r really nicey 2 me 👉🏾👈🏾 #the new office is nice too actually... even before the building change i just love talking 2 anyone frm her city. they r all so nice n #friendly and inviting. literally so akskska i am always being invited to stuff when i visit. #after moving into my next place i wanna give this city a fair chance now that i actually have a good one to Experience it for a year #and if it's more of the same imma move to her city fr 🚶🏾‍♀️i wonder where the queer ppl kick it at.. #we have some enbies n real sweet gals from that office around my age I'd love to hang with 👉🏾👈🏾 much 2 think

[gnotknormal]

not aro enough because I call my partner "boyfriend". not bi enough because I haven't dated or had sex with every gender. not ace enough because I enjoy sex. not trans enough because I don't want all the surgeries. not polyamorous enough because I've only had one long term partner in the last 6 years.

But queer. 1000x absolutely and definitively queer enough.

#lgbtiaq+ positivity #why i call myself queer #its because of exclusion #but also cus its easier than trying to explain all my identities #like i get some people are just gay or just trans but so many of us have such specific experiences that #our sense of community comes from sharing an array of experiences because we still feel alienated in spaces dominated by one identity #gnot me

[dandyshucks]

yall this old lady craft group is the best thing ever and i want to cry thinking abt how grateful i am to have it fjfkdl i think this might be the one group that i feel wholly welcomed into and actually a real part of for the first time in my life ;-; ♡

the group leader always seems to want me to sit next to her and her daughter is always interested in seeing what im working on when she comes at the end and she also tells me abt different crochet patterns she's seen on fb marketplace or she brings in old patterns for me to look through and take what i want, and then the card maker lady is offering to give me this big old crocheted clown doll that her mum made her years ago and she immediately offered to give me a ride home without me even saying anything (so that i wouldnt have to try take it home on the bus fjdkdl), and they were all super excited for me when i told them I was able to fix my accordion, and they just... treat me like an equal and a human person and fjdksl man ... it's so nice

AND IM JUST 😭💗 about it all !!!! it all feels so foreign to me !!!! i do not know when I've ever felt so fully part of a group and an equal to everyone there !!!

#and theyre always so happy to see me when i arrive fjfkdl #I've had coworkers be happy to see me but thats always been bc i was like... useful and made them feel good LMAO #its so easy to have coworkers enjoy ur presence if u do ur job well and compliment them when they do things well #or even just like. hey i like ur shoes. just simple things go a long way #so ppl have been happy to see me in the past but its only been bc i was useful to them ;-; #BUT THIS !!! this is just me being part of a group !!! i am an equal !!! its such a wild feeling !!! #im like... a full person !! its crazy !! #now granted. idk if they'd treat me the same if they knew that im queer and like. very mentally ill but DHDJDLL #thats okay idk i can live with not sharing those aspect of me bc it doesnt feel important in that setting #AUGGHHH it is just such a good feeling idk fjfldl i wish i could express it better #when u have been lesser ur entire life it is so incredible and wonderful to be treated as an equal #i did not realize how EASY it could be to socialize and feel safe with ppl if they'd just ... treat u like a human and an equal #like idk if I've ever felt so safe in my life around other ppl before fjfkdl this is crazy #ANYWAYS IM GETTING TOO DEEP ABT IT MAYBE SORRY FJFKDL im just soooo in awe that i get to experience this #and i wanted to share this bit of joy djfkdld #dandy.cmd

[homoerotvic]

the half of it and the beauty of quiet movies and the quietness of falling in love and the deep meaningful quiet connections that can happen between people regardless of gender and sexuality

#p #how deep and important and beutiful the connection and love can be between two people platonically #like connections between lesbians and straight men. it would usually sound stupid but speaking on my own experiences #its brotherhood but i am not really a man and not really a woman either and i feel like my connections with straight men are so unique #in the sense that there are no expectations there. like there are no expectations of sex. and when it comes to gender there are #no standards of masculinity/femininity to (even subcounsciously) compare or be compared to #there just are some guys in my life who i love so much and who i want to grow old next to and its such a blessing to be able to love them #in such a stress-free unconventional deep quiet unique way :-) #ofc i love queer friendships theyre so important in the sense of feeling understood and seen by someone without any question #without any words because of shared experiences #what im saying is that friendships with heterosexual men offer a very unique point of view of virtually no guaranteed shared experiences #and that is very powerful when getting to know someone #anyway paul and ellie <3

[nctyaoi]

#im very proud of this trip and being able to live one of my dreams at my young age #and i want to share the experience because its extremely important to me #and i have been getting the urge to post more in general #but also ik im not a content creator so I'm kinda an unimportant nobody in terms of people on tumblr #if youre wondering its a TA cruise to Europe and we are staying in italy for a week after #for the sake of what kind of content it would be #and i feel like whenever i look up vacation or cruise blogs.. its middle aged or old white people #not weirdo little queer autistic trans folks with personality disorders #so the experience will surely be different and i like to know what people Like Me feel about things #i also want interactions with people on here it makes me feel alive

[arrowpunk]

Hey does any queer person who has/had evangelical parents, and you like came out to them, and even if they weren't super accepting at first they eventually came around to it, have any tips on how to go about coming out while still maintaining that relationship?

I am NOT looking for ppl to tell me to just go no contact with my parents and cut them off completely. Trust me I have thought about it and I will if I absolutely have to, but I would prefer not to if at all possible. But there's nuance to this situation and I don't think my parents are Complete lost causes.

Also if you are Christian/Evangelical and you try to proselytize to me on this post I will immediately block you. I do not want to deal with people telling me my lifestyle is sinful. I grew up with that rhetoric and I am not looking to debate it with anyone but my parents right now.

#queer #lgbt #exvangelical #ex christian #ramblings of an arrow #looking for advice/shared experience #I'm not gonna come out Soon Soon but I am thinking about it more #and I had a ??? decent conversation with my mom yesterday where she apologized about some things from my childhood #and she seems more willing to listen to me talk about how my childhood wasn't perfect #and admit that she played a part in that #so I'd like to be able to extend an olive branch y'know? #especially b/c like I can see how my parents are broken and fucked up people too #and I'd like to help them heal #I RECOGNIZE THAT THIS ISN'T MY RESPONSIBILITY OKAY I DO RECOGNIZE THAT #I just think overall it'll be healthier and better for everyone if I at least try #and will cause more strife for Everyone overall if I just slam the door in their faces

[hellofears]

having issues with men, the associations the instant distrust, which i dont like i dont want it i want things to be different, just all of it so much just the dynamic i have the relationship all of it the way the world is atleast online and having a younger brother. I wouldn't trade him for the world, I try and talk to him where I can and will continue to do so i adore him but i fear. i believe in him i want joy for him. I fear that his peers will feed him fckn brainrot and it scares me. not even just that he'll fall into that thinking that his fuckn upstanding that his unwillingness to follow ppl will hurt him. crazy shit at schools, like why tf r ppl dying kids young teens killing eaachother with knives? ??I don't want to loose him i don't want to see him loose who he is and the heart that he has i don't and i hope he rises above it all and will continue to. i feel like im stating what he has to be or smth but all i could ask for is his wellbeing, respect, humanity, that he treats himself well know what he deserves and has some sense of self, some gravity. I feel like shit sometimes for this aspect that i'm concerned that i just idk, i dont like the whole 'dont disappoint me' thing he owes nothing to me other than basic human decency and respect, hes a reason why i live but to i just that intrusive thought of there is no different the hell u think of is real about men to someone i hold so fckn dear to in a way show me their fckn fuckery its idk, like another? it'd hurt me, it'd hurt me bad.

i've never understood men or boys, amab, who go on about their connection or like protectiveness of their sisters of their mother but treat other women like shit like their familiars aren't women? you don't want to fuck them so its different? what is it like just whats the difference why does it have to pertain to you for you to care? do you care or do you see them as an extension? is it a personality trait for you? a 'lover boy' thing? a signal to women, women u imagine u want and is going to be 'ur woman' but u cant even like visualize them in a way that doesnt pertain to your sexual interests? a signal so people can say oh he loves his mother so hes good to go and prime? a 'mummys boy' ? are they not real women just because u dont feel that sort of way? talking about women that way with your friends? do i have to bring up the fact those same people could date your sister etc for you to care? those people could make the kids that surround your kids, your daughter. idk.

its like okay u want sex so u respect them less? did no one hear dont bite the hand that feeds you? what the fuck is going on. you cant fuck them so its all good? the demeaning-ness? lack of gravity, venom is just rapid, vapid

#*txt🗣️ #real world issues #i instantly think of counter points before i say anything especially online and i hate it because its like im accustomed to ppl being accus #atory. at being contrary. shitting on vulnerability. shitting on emotions. shitting on hhumanity. shitting on the ability to care. #women can be pieces of shit men can queer folk can i can be you can be to me theres an ability just as people and the world of choice that #-e have. im not saying everyones on the brink of doing the worst and makes a choice not to either if ur going through that u need to seek #help or some sort of sincere dialogue well and truly. but the world around me has made me who i am just as much as my reaction. not all etc #is a no brainer. ppl dont have a neon sign on their forehead. its understandable why the caution has been fckn drilled into so many afab so #many women in the hearts of many and thats hurt fear and absolute rage simmering anger for bs. i understand proventitive cautions to ppl #especially those who tend to be the direct target demographic but to drill in fear to woman to afab not even just on a personal level imsur #everyones experience is different on that front and their thoughts but on a society level and then take no action to then be like atleast t #my knowledge or its just not fckn working bitch its crickets. men should be able to feel safe enough to share their fears and worries to be #vulnerable but that isn't coddling bs and pointing the fingers at women at afab. theres weight in the way both sexes have been socialized #its cause and effect i refuse that it can't be helped. i refuse it. i reject it. thats not me discrediting or trying to come at gender(s) #at ppls gender identity etc. i mean everything makes us who we are. its all part of a journey. ones sex doesn't invalidate such a thing. #humans are so complex to say someones just pulling shit out their ass for the giggles is wild. no matter what it rings true for people #its not for us to choose for eachother we don't choose what others want to share we can't decide how someone else feels we can't read them- #back a book they feel like they've never heard or is bs and give them the finger. u can't tell someone they're the authour and they didn't #write the book or they didn't hire you or agree and want u to write it for them? ur not a ghostwriter bitch ur writing perception #i mean the way we're brought up the way society has become accustomed it effects results its a world in of itself made #to no fruitful benefit atleast to me for any party. when desire grips you at the throat when you allow your will you allow your every whim #the desire isnt even desire anymore. now you're creating a loop you're creating a possibility for a life with no balance #if men are so upstanding they aren't like one another they aren't the bad ones why is the refusal to move forward and write past men up #write them wrong feel so heavy or resound so heavily atleast to me. write for better because you're better. know you're better. #excitement as it once was turns into not enough then again and again. and the core issue even thbere i care for other parties responsibilit #relationships are a back and forth dont choose for others what they want dont decide for others. ask them. #u shouldn't have to constantly prove ur different but heres the thing if in ur life those who know you atleast if u have walked the road #u speak of the valiant road you've trecked supposedly there'd be nothing to prove. you've walked it. if a new person comes along you dont #need effort to show you have basic respect for another. and if u dont have that respect dont get mad at those who dont want u in their live #u took yourself out their market. life is a in moment custom experience. buckle up. not me talking about love like a business worker or smt