#and I'm nothing if not self indulgent

[theangrypomeranian]

why is it that you always get the best ideas in the shower?

anyways Roudise memory loss au

#pom ponders #roudise #louwheeze #memory loss au #i hate accidents verse #look...i know a lot of people hate the trope #but i don't #and I'm nothing if not self indulgent

[galoogamelady]

Haven't done a dump since 2020. This has mostly Fo Buttons, but I hid a few GTA ones just to fill out empty spaces. [Older dumps here]

#I'm not sure why I do these tbh I think I just like to know I didn't do nothing #I don't have as much time/energy to be self-indulgent as I used to but I try #OC #Buttons #dump

[wouldntbehim]

mix: firstprince (taylor's version)

#rwrbedit #alex x henry #alex claremont diaz #henry fox #my reward for not putting any tswift songs on my other mix is that i decided to do one that is just. nothing but tswift songs. #so. firstprince mix (taylor's version) #i was gonna do 'say don't go' for kensington but. #i actually liked 'haunted' a lot more for it #and nearly did 'haunted' for the scene of alex and nora but they swapped #(dress was entirely self-indulgent btw but. i couldn't resist.) #i have zero apologies for the choice of 'paper rings' btw #not pictured: me tapping my foot and waiting impatiently for rep tv #(listen my life will not be complete until i hear 'don't blame me (taylor's version)') #i'm choosing to blame this on my best friend #bc i went 'since i didn't put any on the other mix tell me i can't make one that's just tswift songs' #and she went 'do it.' #and i said 'okay at least tell me i can't just name it 'firstprince (taylor's version)'' and she said 'okay but you should' #so here we are. #also i think my favorite coloring in this is the one i used for 'wildest dreams' and 'you are in love' and 'say don't go' #yes i did attempt to color them in ways reminiscent of the albums and what about it

[hajihiko]

#I just wanted to doodle something about someone being sick #And I'm self indulgent with it because I'm sick. And I wanted to #An art. I guess #Akane owari #Kazuichi Souda #Sonia nevermind #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #Sdr2 #Super danganronpa 2 #Danganronpa 2 #Hiko and Hajime are keeping watch in case ... nothing really just makes them feel better

[kyouka-supremacy]

Okay about Beast sskk; because I realized I've got a very definite picture of what the Beast post-canon is like that is only in my mind and I never actually put down, so here we go. Very needed content warning of sickeningly fluff and Beast sskk being disgustingly in love with each other, I suppose.

After Dazai killed himself, Atsushi is reasonably tormented, and can't sleep at night. Roaming across Yokohama late at night, he always ends up at Akutagawa's– instinctively, unconsciously, to an extent even unwillingly. He doesn't choose to, it's more about countless nights unable to sleep spent wandering with no destination and still always finding himself in front of Akutagawa's place for some reason. Akutagawa somehow always knowing when it's going to happen so that he can face him before Atsushi has time to hesitate and run away. How they don't really need words or explanations most of the time, how for Atsushi knowing that there's another person who understands is enough, and everything he needs. How before Atsushi realizes it (and thus keeping him from trying and prevent it), Akutagawa's house has become the only place where he can fall asleep.

That's how they start living together before even being together. They might not even have an actual “getting together” moment, you know? The development of their relationship is so natural and spontaneous, it was meant to end that way from the beginning. Besides, Beast sskk don't really need words between them, so... I suppose an actual confession, albeit nice, would be almost superfluous.

Soon enough they move together to a small apartment near the ada (I'm assuming Atsushi has still enough money saved from his old job). Against popular belief, with time it kind of crystallized in me the idea that Atsushi wouldn't join the ada? His life to that point has constantly been doused by violence and pain and death, he deserves a long break to cope with all the trauma; throwing him right back to another environment where he's constantly pushed to fight and use his ability would not do any good to his mental health; especially when he's got such a conflictual and hating relationship with Byakko, even worse than it is in canon. I wasn't kidding about the house husband thing. Beast Atsushi stays home and chills down and is safe and away from all major sources of stress and triggering environments. Slowly, with time, he goes out more often, gradually relearns what normality is supposed to be like, and bit by bit all his traumatic experiences get more distant, and the nightmares more rare. Akutagawa follows up with his ada job– obviously! There's a whole deal in the end about how important it is for him to keep doing his job and trying to be good. I do believe the ada is the right place for Akutagawa. He returns home to Atsushi who always welcomes him with warmth and joy, and they cuddle a lot.

But I also believe that there would be times when Atsushi is required to go back to action and fight– he's not a member of the ada and he doesn't work for them, but it's obvious that when the ada is in danger and Yokohama is facing serious threats, the guild and the rats and ultimately the doa, the times will call for his intervention. He usually comes to help or rescue Akutagawa, a trump card of sorts. And it's endearing, how Akutagawa is always the one, even among the ada, most contrary on getting Atsushi involved, how he wants to protect him and keep him away, how more than anything he wants him to be safe. As for Atsushi, I really like the concept of this man who retired from action, that spends most of his time at home or chatting with the seniors in the neighborhood, who joins the fight only when the situation is most desperate and reveals himself to be the most powerful and destructive beast to have ever walked on earth. He reluctantly fights, and together with Akutagawa they end up saving the day for everyone, because as Dazai himself said nothing can stop the both of them together.

On the other hand, when the world isn't ending Atsushi solves that very specific role of crime drama protagonist's husband who's very supportive of their partner and listens to them ramble at home about their cases. He often offers useful insights on how criminal organizations work.

Atsushi didn't replace his collar after it broke. They're barely visible under his turtleneck, but he has now wrapped bandages in its place: to hide his scars, to keep the memory of Dazai with him everywhere he goes, to remember what he's lost but also what he's gained.

Ah, and when it comes to the fight against Fukuchi, Atsushi is the one to die for Akutagawa, of course.

Headcanons that directly contradict something stated above but that I still like:

Sskk get together after six months– it's got an ironic taste to it, the timestamp their canon counterparts set to kill each other now being the time they declared their love to each other. It's so soon, but also is it really? They immediately clicked the moment they met each other, and they were always destined to be. At that point, there's no one in the world they need more than they need each other.

In case of Atsushi still wearing the collar for some time after the canon events: sskk had their first kiss when Atsushi took the collar off for the first time. Ever since Dazai died, Atsushi is haunted and unstable; he's throughout scared of taking off the collar, terrified by the idea of hurting someone unintentionally, now that Dazai can't be there to controll him (both through his ability and by the general power he used to have over Atsushi's psyche). Akutagawa sees how much Atsushi is physically hurting, and insists on him taking the collar off; they fight over it for months (verbally, for the most part, except for a couple of times when the fights become physical– but without abilities), before Akutagawa finally manages to convince Atsushi to take it off for a few hours. When they're alone, because after months of being persuaded, Atsushi can trust Akutagawa to be able to defend himself; and also something about “you would never hurt me”. Thing is, when Atsushi finally takes it off, he quickly spirals into a HUGE panic attack, not able to trust himself not to harm the people he cares about; and the only person around is Akutagawa, and he cares about him deeply. The tiger is taking over, and Akutagawa is panicking, and he's desperately looking for a way to quickly ground Atsushi so he just. Kisses him. Which effectively works in the way it immediately distracts Atsushi, as well as causes him to zone out for several minutes. Akutagawa immediately apologizes, and then panics again when Atsushi doesn't answer for a while. It's kinda cute. After that, Atsushi gradually learns to take his collar off more and more often; this time, he can really trust that, if Akutagawa is with him, everything is going to be okay.

#This might as well be the sappiest thing I've ever put down but like. idk did I make it go through that Beast sskk are meant to be #atsushi nakajima #ryūnosuke akutagawa #sskk #shin soukoku #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd beast #mine #15/08/23 #This is ridiculous I never realized how soft I made them until I actually wrote it down. #It's so silly when I'm also the first one ready to make canon sskk suffer #What can I say. They've suffered enough. #“The bandages are barely visible under his turtleneck” I mean that's for when he wears his turtleneck– #and not Akutagawa's striped shirt as he does at home. Which is an awful amount of times but nobody needs to know that. #I'd say this is self-indulgent but it's not like I'm doing it on purpose this is seriously what Beast sskk is like in my mind. #Nothing much I can do about it. That's the realistic Beast outcome for me. #If the author wants to prove me wrong by dropping Beast 2 they're more than welcome but untill then *this* is my canon #kbcu (Kyotag Beast Cinematic Universe)

[flowerj3lly]

SVSSS x Hello Kitty 🎀

#probably should just say sanrio #hello kitty aint even HERREE #svsss #scumbag system #scum villain #scum villain self saving system #shen qingqiu #luo binghe #fem bingqiu #genderbend #bingqiu #ning yingying #liu mingyan #this is about as self indulgent as it gets ngl these things have nothing to do with each other LOL #also i know i spelled mimmy as mimi I'm just learning now I've been spelling it wrong my whole life. oops #also BLUE SQQ RIGHTS!!!!!

[spaceratprodigy]

[ 😇 ] — doodle dump from priv

just some smaller things while I have fun w friends and find my groove again :]

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#sometimes you just need a private space to make self-indulgent doodles and be silly w people you care abt #I have a lot of ideas I want to work on! especially for some priv exclusive pieces again >:3c #but alas only so much time and energy so we're just taking it easy ya'know #creating what I can when I can and making sure I'm having fun while doing it #I was in a good mood tho and every now and again I like bringing over a few priv doodles I'm fond of nothing major :] #also sorry but y'all are only getting crops of the drummer boy ones lmao they're small but priv exclusive #I can't wait to work on what all I have in store tho 😈 #my art #fallout #fallout 4 #fo4 #nick valentine #nick valentine fallout 4 #nick valentine fo4 #deacon #deacon fallout 4 #deacon fo4 #drummer boy #sole survivor #edit: this has been sitting in my drafts and the depression has hit me like a ton of bricks so time to slam that post button babyyyyyy

[goodmissmonarch]

might i interest you in a preview of the fates mod i've been working on

#nothing is final #i will fix the hood #i'm like. 40% done with things #that may be too generous i'm not actually planning that far ahead rip #it's only just now at a point where i'm willing to share anything #lmk if you're interested in the premise #motivation to finish is always good #this is super self indulgent though #fire emblem #fire emblem fates #fe14 #robin #robin fire emblem #fire emblem awakening #mod #revelation #selena #severa #revelation robin

[lankylunatic]

Small doodle to do with something from an rp with a friend :3 I gave himb sharp teef becaues nobody can stop me doing so The extend outward when he opens his mouth wide enough, ie. a yawn :3c He just an eepy deepy plant boi

#god what is consistency in art style? #this is entirely self indulgent you can move on #shoo nothing to see here #stop looking at me like that #vash #vash the stampede #vash trigun #trigun #wolfwood #wolfwood trigun #nicholas d wolfwood #idk why I'm tagging so much these are just doodles #might clean them later #sketch #my art #anyway wanted to give him some leetol inhuman traits because it itches brain so good #just love the idea of big ol chompers #and chompers that extend for big bitey #trigun stampede

[mrsoharaa]

He ogles at you in complete awe, carefully watching you pull up your adorable waves of hair into parted buns on each side of your head. A curled smile creasing into the tender of his skin, his adoring eyes glimpsing from the two messy bunches nestled on top of your head to the fiddled mumbles of your plush, silken lips.

Notices a strand or few fall from the right side of your radiant face, gently reaches out to delicately push the loosen strands from your flawless beauty back on top of your pretty head. His soften irises meeting your own, pupils immediately connecting, as nothing but lingering adoration and ascending admiration blossomed between the two of your lulling gazes. As though he was caressing and consoling your fragile soul, physically.

"Perfect" was all he needed to barely breathe to make your heart flutter so frantically, wildly against your chest.

#I'm sorry! this was completely SELF INDULGENT! 😭 #I just need this man to look at me like nothing else matters! 😭😭 #miguel o’hara x reader #miguel o'hara #self indulgent #🕷 ♡ ʚĭɞ #spiderverse

[blujaydoodles]

'Can't you see I'm working, you ridiculous man?' 'hm-- I didn't notice. Must be losing my touch 😌'

#dnd #dungeons and dragons #illustration #sketches #character art #gnomes #it's real self indulgence hours over here tonight lads #I mean I would say 'I'm only self-indulgent with felix because he's got nothing going on in canon' but I do this to elyss too lmao so #my OCs #felix #melliwyk #dungeons and doodles

[mistykaru]

i wish to go back to posting all my doodles without feeling anxious :>

#aftg #the foxhole court #neil josten #all for the game #my art #vampire neil woohoo #ik 1k isn't a lot in the Grand Scheme of things esp with today's uh environment #but after hitting it both here and insta i get so anxious about everything i draw which tbh #lately hasn't been a lot #and i just wanna post freely again!!!!! #>:V #where is my self indulgency at give it back #tbf tho i wasn't feeling aftg for a bit but i went through my entire tag for it on my main blog #and now i'm kinda feelin it again >:) #she back on her bs of saying too much in the tags auto taggers pls dont use it i beg u #i cannot look at this wall of text in my notes #i was about to post this and then i realized i forgot his scars again lmao #but i added them this time #its 3:30am nothing has changed

[hrodvitnon]

So This Makes a [Preview For a] SIXTH SIGNALIS Fic, Do I Hear Seven?!

of course it would be fic number 6 where i give elster a third leg

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Look up "insatiable" in a dictionary and you'll find a picture of Scout Officer Ariane Yeong and LSTR-512 engaged in such debauchery it'll make your toes curl.

Their first time had smashed to pieces a dam holding back all desires and thus unleashed a flood, sweeping them away in the currents where they ride the waves – and each other – to a wonderful world of sex.  Like with kissing it starts out awkward and clumsy, but practice makes for more refined experiences each time; learning what they like and don't like, what makes their backs arch and legs quiver.  They won't learn everything about lovemaking or even master it for a long time, but they're more than happy to just crash into each other when lust takes hold.

Elster hadn't thought it possible for Ariane to become even more beautiful, but sometimes she likes being proven wrong, especially when the love of her life practically dances around the ship with a song on her lips, glowing from a night of passion and her gorgeous red eyes having a faraway look as if she'd witnessed the gates to heaven.  The Leng-born beauty may look angelic, but the thoughts brewing in her head and desires bubbling away in her body are burning like a written sin.

As willing as she is to turn Penrose-512 into a den of vice and claim Ariane on any and all flat surfaces available, Elster worries about her self-control.  She tries to get work done and be responsible alongside her newfound duties as a lover, bless her heart she does, but she's concerned with how easy it is to ignore her work in favor of screwing with Ariane.  Worries that favoring Ariane will neglect the ship, or that favoring the ship will neglect Ariane.  Hell, right now – she's working on switching out some lights but all she's doing is looking at her hands and imagining her fingers wrapped in Ariane's warmth, exploring her inner depths, curling her digits in the way that makes her sing...

Elster has to ask herself, Is this normal?  And her Self answers, which she can't imagine is normal for anyone.  While not an expert on the subject, she's fairly certain that talking to yourself is symptomatic of insanity, and she's definitely insane for Ariane.

It's perfectly normal.  But all I'm thinking about is sex.  All I want to do is have sex.  Welcome to puberty, kid.  Be glad you don't have to deal with menstrual cramps. 

Elster shudders at the idea, having helped Ariane deal with plenty of those already.  Sometimes being a Replika has its perks.

If it makes you feel any better, I was the same way.  It... does, actually.  It makes sense.  You're young and in love.  Things will cool off after a while, but you won't get sick of it.  Any tips for focusing on getting work done without distracting myself?  Think of math.  Never liked math.  Fuckin' witchcraft.

Elster chuffs.  But it's working; she has an easier time getting this chore done without letting her mind wander.  At the same time, however...

I'm pretty sure you're a sign of my persona degradation.  Is that what we're calling it now?  What else would talking to what is clearly a personification of my Gestalt memories be called?  Using a spirit board to contact your ancestors.

#signalis #preview #spicy~! #prepare for dick jokes galore because i'm 12 years old and this one is self indulgent as all hell #i apologize for nothing

[muffindaydream]

way back when, sometime after I finished my first playthrough of pokemon scarlet, I brought back some of my old OCs and completely re-made them because the brainrot reached critical mass...

didn’t wanna take the student route so I made my OCs academy faculty members instead (librarians)!

Their names are Raine and Fatima. Raine is a Contest Coordinator hopeful and Fatima is a Dark-type specialist who wants to become a trainer again after previously retiring.

Raine is one of my oldest OCs ever, so I really wish I could have done her justice and made more art for her, especially by completing her full-body ref. My chronic pain won yet again..

You can read an even more detailed description of my Pokemon OCs here on a carrd I made just for them! bask in my self-indulgence.

#ladies and gentlemen........... my cringe *loud raucous applause* #pokemon #pokemon oc #pokemon original character #pokemon fan character #pokemon sv #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon scarlet violet #pokemon oc x canon #(yeah the oc x canon tag belongs here.. and you'll never guess who fifi will be paired with) #*cough either raifort or larry* #i still have fe3h brainrot so yes i'm gunna multiship my OCs across different AUs. i think for fifi those are like her most “canon” pairs. #most of my oc x canon plans for fifi are qpr coded.. just as an fyi lol. because of headcanons i have for her canon besties. #but if i really do get to work on this story it'll center mostly on raine and fifi's bond the most. found family sisterhood fic. #can i also just say that as cringe as i feel #coming back to fandom OCs has been very therapeautic? i feel like for a time this kinda thing #was frowned upon but maybe i just hung out in lame circles. being self-indulgent is freeing. #also feel the need to clarify that neither of these are self-inserts/for self-ship #getting back into fandom ocs and i noticed how prevalent that is. got nothing at all against it! just not a thing for myself personally lol

[hyperionshipping]

Think the twins don't even care about Tricks because bandits dying is not all that concerning and I think people assumed "that little dog of Jack's" died with him.

I think Tricks only becomes a hassle sometime later on. But no one can seem to find him... Lilith keeps dealing with vandalization and her already small crew getting picked off ("It's like a professional is hitting us. I... I think I know who it is") and, I think, just because he can he fucks with streams/the towers. He's got so much hate in his body.

Oh, and Jack's shield. Now you see him, now you don't, and now a corrosive bullets lodged in the worst spot it could be. Killing you agonizingly slow! If he doesn't shoot again and... oh. He did already

#s/i: Borderlands #Mote self indulgent bc of HIS background I could see Lilith asking Zane to try to find Tricks and he thinks he gets close. But it never work #s out. The one true lead he gets ends up being an elaborate trap. And Zane's not stupid. He knows he got out because (Tricks) whoever set it #was leaving a very firm message. Lilith is pissed and says she should've killed him. He had to have been around Jack's body before they tras #hed it. Tricks leaves an Echo recording of him killing a crimson raider as they yell their location. It's gruesome enough Lilith doesn't fin #ish it. #<- this is all too say since Jack is gone Tricks has no idea how to act. He went through he depression and without Jack I think he starts to #teeter back towards being The Demon. He can't finish Jack's plan but he sure as hell can make sure no one gets Pandora. #Or. I go with the idea hes still depressed. Still not a person. Either way. I really like my idea of a side quest from him being that he as #ks you to kill some bandits who've been fucking up Jack's grave. Do it? He gives you the location to an old weapon stache? Listen to Lilith #who says tear it down? Tricks very calmly with no music or anything goes 'You Vault Hunters are all the same. I'm coming for you Lilith.' an #d the reward is next-to-nothing

[stuckinapril]

am considering buying a 145 pair of glasses because they are extremely cute pLEASE what do i do

you buy them anyway because you're not rich but you recklessly blow money like you are . just like mommy (me)

#ok in all seriousness i'd probably buy them but i'm just so bad w money even though i absolutely should not be #if u have more self control than me maybe look for a dupe ?? #and if there's still nothing out there then just indulge urself. ur fine #ask