#am I crazy that that bothers me so much

[welcometoteyvat]

jing yuan and yanqing are giving zhongli and xiao if the latter’s canon relationship was Actually fanon’s made up father figure/adopted child dynamic

#idkkkkkkkkkkkkk who looks at zx and is like 'you know what. this is a healthy parent child relationship' #like girl by fitting them into father son boxes you are actively making their relationship imbalance Worse #if you do that and dont shy away from it i respect that but if you say dad/son makes their relationship more wholesome or whatever like WHY #now i wont deny shippers might do that too but i see the dad son version so much i think im just averse to it by default #also because i think father son makes people actively Try to make their relationship something that its not and it erases a bunch of subtlet #subtleties in it. it's the nuanced r/ship -> entirely unproblematic and flavorless r/ship that i hate #also the number of people who'll block if you ship zx. like damn thats crazy you guys really think theyre father son (fake)??? #at their peak they're like. 4000 year old guys who have too much history and repression and some weird entanglement of 'nah im bothering him #too much' and 'gotta protect him w my life' complexes. and then this devolves into theyre never gonna kiss until 3000 more years have passed #listen they just Contain Multitudes idc if you dont ship it just dont make it into dad and son and we will be so gucci #jing.yuan and yanqing are like different i think mostly bc yanqing is actually like a minor and jing yuan is also a normal ish person #plus the light cone and the abouts?? yeah this is an actual like adopted parent/child thing #also good or bad news i caved and am now playing hsr. the plan is to pull yanqing and then go on infinite hiatus in the game 👍 #JWKFLJWEK i dont think theres really any draws for me besides him. personally neutral on turn based combat and the open world isn't giving #the only saving grace i have rn is 1) ive gotten to the part where bron.seele is real and man theyre gay 2) trailblazer trio 3) tall female #mc 4) everyone has way better emoting abilities than genshin 5) su.shang's really cute <3 #the story doesnt really interest me though its like cool but not mindgrippingly interesting #tbf i think genshin is the same way storyline wise (at the beginning) but the difference is that turn based combat isnt really my thing LMAO #ramblings! #zhongxiao #if you want to filter it out ??

[dawntheduckrb]

I'll stop posting wips eventually but it's been five days since I've said anything and I don't want anyone to think I'm dead/dying/stuck in a ditch and withering away, so here's 10% of the reason I disappeared (the duck is stuck in rendering hell) (and my little baby laptop is screaming at me every time I open up this file)

I might still be mostly lurking for a little bit so please be patient with me in the meantime 🙏🙏

#seriously though I'm sorry for just up and disappearing like that #wanna talk to people and interact with them so bad lately but I just can't bring myself to do it #so the best i can manage is blabbing in the tags like always #i don't know wtf is going on but over the past few days I've just felt like i don't deserve to talk to anyone #tried to reblog posts from mutuals several times but something in my head keeps saying; #'yeah they don't actually care for your input at all and you're being a bother for even trying etc etc' #and i know deep down that's probably not true (i hope) but i can't reason it away you know #and i know the best solution to this is to just talk to someone #let it be known that i *did* make an attempt to #i tried texting someone (and succeeded) but i couldn't keep doing it and I'm back at square one (and now feel worse lmao) #i'm not really putting this here for anybody to see it as much as i am for myself #but i know that (hypothetically) this could be seen by a real human so it still kinda feels like I'm reaching out in a way which feels nice #makes me feel less like I'm shriveling up in my own self imposed solitude #so uh hello person who might be reading the tags (there's six of you guys here now which is crazy cause i post nothing but junk here lol) #((but thanks anyway for following and even more thanks for reading this if you did)) #i'll make my way around all the posts i missed soon enough don't worry #i'm sorry i'm really not meaning to ignore anybody #i have drafted quite a few posts from moots that i couldn't finish leaving comments on but i have seen them #everyone here is super cool and talented as always <3 whether that be through art or writing or just finding neat posts to share #this wall of text is long enough and i'm very eeby so thank you again for reading this #tldr; not dead and i'll be okay eventually :) #not rb #hey look i didn't post a picture of my dog this time (a crime) #i'll make sure to share one the next time i get a good one

[johndonneswife]

someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck

#who is talking about this!!!! let me know #idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which #i was anticipating #and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before #but liiiiiike. #i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them #it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there #just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse #like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no #anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite #and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up #people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out #and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point #or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible #but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding #at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends #which i am so grateful for obviously #i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol #AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad #just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t #i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it #i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this #which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao #probably for the best #ugh whatever #again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know #meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone #AAAAAAAA i just want to scream #text

[maddy-ferguson]

i was watching killers of the flower moon very focused on trying not to want to go to the bathroom because it's 3 and a half hours long and they stopped the movie because the ceiling was falling apart? TWO HOURS INTO THE MOVIE?

#what am i supposed to do now #i realize it's the ceiling part that should be in all caps but it's the fact that we only had an hour left that's really bothering me #like if it had been five minutes in. or even an hour. less than half of the movie. 2h10 is just annoying like 2h10 is a long movie already #like i'm gonna have to watch the first TWO HOURS again to get the ending #either that or i'll go see another movie and try to time it so i can go in when there's only an hour of the movie left😭 #we got two free tickets but it's really the fact that it's so inconvenient that's annoying me #and like. i was thinking i'd get to watch it all in one day crazy ik maybe i was expecting too much😔 #and i wasn't even gonna go to the bathroom like it was working i was so proud #and like i say: brf slt

[asmoonlightthroughthepines]

.

#i have been barely functioning what with the horrors of the world lately (and the horrors just keep piling on) #and am being v careful to not reblog anything so as to keep this place as gentle as poss because i’m probably not the only one who needs tha #(i’ve tried to avoid any kind of horrific details and even so the very little i read will haunt me for the rest of my life) #but i just CANNOT. for the life of me. wrap my head around how people can hear of such abject violence #being inflicted upon another living being -human or animal- and feel anything but absolute horror #like how much do you have to hate jews to be able to switch off any ounce of humanity and compassion for a living being? #the sheer number of folks - including close friends - i’ve unfollowed in the last week is staggering. #literally because i do not believe that anyone should ever get raped. like i thought we all agreed on this. #APPARENTLY NOT. i’ve never seen so many feminists brush off rape. #worst is these are all folks who love to post about punching nazis and who laugh at jewish jokes #when they’re from carrie fisher or mrs maisel or crazy ex gf or schmitt from new girl #but when it’s an actual pogrom - no more punching nazis all of a sudden #something broke in me this week to see that so-called activists who i thought were kind and decent - #don’t apparently believe that all human lives are created equal #it’s like we’ve all been working hard on being anti-racist but some of us didn’t feel that not being antisemitic was worth the bother

[alchemiclee]

I hope someone writes a good fic about the high cloud quintet with all the messy pieces of lore we have because i'm very unsatisfied with what we got and I want MORE OF THEM. don't know why i'm so obsessed with this tragic group of friends but 😭 IM SO FEELINGS ABOUT THEM but also empty because they didn't satisfy me with what they gave us lmao I require more. but that was the end and i'll never get more....unless someone writes a great fic about them.....!

#hsr #words #one of the things that bothered me most was not seeing dan heng react to learning about blade/yingxing? hrm #everything in star rail seems super disconnected and rushed and i wish they could do the stories better #so i need someone to write a thing and fill in the gaps and add more and satisfy my need for a good story about these tragic losers #i want more baiheng because she seemed like the most adorable lovable thing 😭 #i want more yingxing because i love him a lot for some reason i cant even figure out #i want jing yuan before he became a very sad and distant and lonely old man whose constant smile seems painfully fake..... #i want to see more of jing liu before she went crazy with mara #i want the gay and the lesbian hoyo cant give for legal reasons (xingyue/bailiu) #i want a story maybe starting with them meeting. becoming close and very good friends #maybe leading to their end dbdndnksksks it would hurt but im sure fandom writers can write it better than the game writers😅 #im just rambling and reading makes me fall asleep and idk if anyone would ever write this but 😭 #idk why my brain even clung onto them so much. theres other tragic friend stories this didnt happen with. why this one #i'd love a comic/manga about this group too but that even less likely than a fic. im sure other people like this group too #and maybe one is a fic writer. but an entire manga piece about them is unlikely 😅 #its just easier for me to read when i can SEE it. thats just a preference tho #i feel like lore accurate fics arent as common tho? like taking all the lore you know and piecing it together into a whole story? #not that i read fics much so idk what im talking about but 99.9% if ones ive see are just ship fics only #what am i talking about i lost my train of thought lmao #anyway jingliu better come home. im at like 60 pity. where is she!!!!!!

[captainsweet]

This is just going to be me ranting about something that particularly annoys me, so don't take it too seriously, but it drives me up a metaphorical wall.

But, the thing is, I just finished reading some new parts of a Rise fic I really liked, it was funny, and a good story sure, until I saw the word 'twin' be thrown around about five times in one chapter.

I honestly thought I was exaggerating, so I continued, and the word 'twin' just kept on appearing. So I just decided to count how many times it comes up just to see if I was being crazy, y'know?

In the course of a couple of chapters, the word, 'twin' is thrown around 64 different times. Not accounting for any notes, tags, or the latest chapter they posted since it wasn't an official one.

To make this clearer, the word twin, referring to Rise Donnie and Leo specifically, was mentioned 64 different times. One chapter holding 13 mentions of them being twins alone.

Now, I don't know why in the world it needed to be mentioned 64 different times, but hey, it's none of my business. And I really wouldn't be bothered if being twins wasn't their one specific trait, especially around each other.

And it only gets worse in the new chapters. Everytime they mention each other it's like they are incapable of not calling the other their twin, and.. this thing annoys me to my goddamn core.

It doesn't matter, I know that, but it's so annoying to see people make Donnie and Leo being twins their one special thing even though they're not even twins in the dang show. Normally that wouldn't bother me, and it doesn't, but for you to reduce a character to a trait they canonically don't even have is just bizarre.

I'm not gonna mention the writer, and I hate criticizing writers or artists like this in general, but it's so unbelievably mind numbing to see Donnie and Leo get reduced to being twins over and over again as if it actually matters? All it is, is the day they were born. That's it! That's all, yet so many people are obsessed with making it an important factor?

They are so much more than just twins, and have so much more to them than a couple of traits in the show. Yet so many people just, ignore that? Especially in some fics?

Not to mention in the particular story, Raph and Mikey hardly ever appear unless it's for the same couple of jokes, and just leaves me longing for more development on them but nope! Gotta shove some more twin content in there!

I have absolutely no problem with people liking the Disaster Twins, and making stories centered around them, but they are so much more than just twins, and so much more than their relationship with each other. They have other family members too, acknowledge them.

This is not only with this particular author, this has happened multiple times and it's just plain annoying. If you like Leo and Donnie more, just say that. There's no reason you should add their brothers in, and then just discard them to the point they don't even seem like they are siblings anymore. They're just close friends at that point, and it's just angering for me.

I don't see it all that much anymore, but so many people still make Leo and Donnie being 'twins' in Rise this big thing when they aren't even twins, and probably wouldn't mention the fact they are if they weren't explaining their ages because it literally means nothing in the end. They're just brothers that happened to be born on the same day, that's it.

I'm not a twin myself, so I obviously can't speak for actual twins, but even the twins I've known personally hardly mentioned the fact they were twins other than to make a couple of jokes here and then. In no world should them being twins be so important to you that it's mentioned 64 different times. That's just insane.

It is different than simply having a sibling, I get that. Being twins is definitely different in a way, and comes with different experiences, but it should never be that important to the point they mention it 13 TIMES IN ONE CHAPTER.

Skipping past the slightly serious part, 64 different times?? Would they, like, forget if they didn't say it? Fr 13 times in one conversation? I don't think I've even done that with my proclaimed Twin before, because that's, that's just crazy.

#I truly mean no hate to the author I'm talking about. And I honestly have no real problems with their story I just find it annoying now #There's practically a twin joke every chapter and it's no longer funny at this point it's just expected. #I'm probably going to stop reading it but I just really get annoyed when chacters are reduced to specific traits. like they're so much more #And Raph and Mikey are practically just side characters compared to Leo and Donnie? I literally could not tell you their personalities #They're like ghosts. Hallucinations. Hardly there. And it's kind of sad because of how often people do that and ugghh #I have so many thoughts. #But really this was something that just bothered me and I decided to get it out because it happens so much #tmnt #rottmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #stupid rant #sorry for the rant #rant #I'd live input because I feel like ass saying this.. but my main gripe is people reducing Donnie and Leo to being twins #“It's because they're twins!” HUH? Honey that's quite literally magical that has nothing to do with their twinnage please explain #If I'm in the wrong I'll admit it but I don't think I am so that's why this is just something that annoys ME and I hate encountering #If people love them being twins snd make something centered around it that's awesome and I've loved some stuff like that myself! #But they aren't ONLY twins and seeing this story mention the favt they were at every turn practically reduced them to nothing BUT twins #Raph and Mikey are sidelined so much it's crazy and it feels like they hardly exist sometimes compared to Leo snd Donnie who always appear #That's all really. It's just annoying. That's it so I ranted about it. I'm just going to draw more after this tbh #Okay.. actually much hate to the author because they're a TCESTER and blocked me which was very nice of them so.. yeah #Just don't hate on other people who do what I said in the main post but THAT WAS A PLOT TWIST I BEVER SAW COMING I'LL SAY THAT #I no longer feel bad for making fun of them this is the greatest turn of events that could've ever happened to me LMAO #But genuinely I still see that twin stuff a lot past the weirdo so I feel I'm still valid #long rant

[princekirijo]

Uhhh… 1 and 4 for the video game asks!

Last game you finished.

So I think the last game I actually finished was Pokemon Unbound which is a Pokemon rom hack or fan game! It was really really fun, it reminded me of how fun Pokemon can be something I hadn't really felt since I played Pokemon Sun whenever that came out. It's prob the best fan game I've played, the story is really fun, the character customization is great (yes I played as Riku) and all the gym challenges are really creative! And it has hands down the best starter Pokemon in Larvitar, Gible and Beldum like what a combo (I picked Gible ofc Garchomp my BOY). I would recommend it to anyone who likes Pokemon I've been tipping away at the post game stuff too and it's just a really fun experience.

4. Do you like to get 100% achievements/trophies?

To be honest I've never been bothered by them. I think before I got Steam the only time I cared about achievements was like the Lego games? They were pretty fun to 100%. Now I rarely bother with it unless I love the game. The only one I've tried to 100% recently is Elden Ring but I love that game so much I'm doing it twice lol (Steam and Playstation).

#asks #ravenoftheskyes #thanks buddy!!! #yeah pokemon unbound is great fun i personally think its the best pokemon fan project out there #its just so good #doesn't do anything too crazy but at the same time the story is fresh and the gym challenges are fun as hell #and yeah achievements im not too bothered by usually #one day i will 100% botw and totk but not any time soon LMAO #yeah with er i was originally playing on my brother's copy and i am like 3 trophies away from platnium on there #and then i adored the game so much i bought a copy on sale on steam for myself #and i think im around half way with that one #er is so special to me it actually overtook p3 as my fav game of all time 😌 and y'all know how much i love p3

[starkerscoop]

I’m going to lose my mind

#some of you may know about my fic 'three of a kind' #well i've posted 30+ chapters and later decided to go back and edit them all before continuing the fic #because i can recognize mistakes and want to clean it up #well i abandoned the editing for a good few months and am sitting down to continue it now #and i'm tempted to start over because even with the more recent editing i've caught mistakes #things i didn't know to do before but know now #but i want to just finish and keep going #it's driving me crazy knowing it will never reach the level i want #i'll just keep catching mistakes in the future #i need to stop being nitpicky #but god is it hard to #this fic is partly why i've been writing so rarely lately #anyway #idk how much sense these tags make but i can't be bothered to fix them #i just needed to complain #three of a kind #'personal'

[prettyboylovemail]

.

#gonna end up bringing back my tokrev s/i out of fucking spite for the ending huh #as disappointing as the ending was and as disconnected I’ve become from the manga #i am so sick of it being thrown in my face that draken has a canon love interest #like bro I get it. i know. I’m trying to ignore it. #I’m not usually bothered by canon ships with my f/os all that much. i can usually just look past it. #but this one just… REALLY gets to me for some reason #I don’t even hate her as a character?? I’m neutral about her. #it’s JUST when she’s paired up with draken that I get irrationally irritated #like no sorry #that’s me actually. wow I can’t believe draken and I are actually canon married and expecting a baby at the end #crazy how that works out #ino rambles #vent #kinda??? not really anything major I’m just annoyed #it’s late I’m going to bed

[nines-09]

the perfectionist artist experience is having every nonartist around u be confused and borderline offended when u throw out one of ur own drawings that u didnt like

the perfectionist artist experience is having every nonartist around u be confused and borderline offended when u r even somewhat critical of ur own art. they will say, but u r so good, why r u so mean to urself. and u will say. bc i know i can do better. bc u literally can do better and wouldnt do better if u just always settled with a kinda ok drawing

the perfectionist artist experience is having people ask u to draw shit for them. and u saying no.

and these are the only conversations i ever have when i am drawing with ppl who do not consider themselves artists

#it doesnt bother me THAT much ive just noticed that this literally always happens #i think its crazy that ppl will be like 'but ur being so mean to urself!!!' #NO i simply am recognizing ways in which my art could improve which is entirely normal #literally everyone who is really good at a thing will start being critical of themself #unless they dont plan on improving #i find it so odd that criticism is so often seen as synonymous with hatred #i respect the desire to not be critical. but that doesnt mean being critical is bad #but yeah #art #artist things

[buriesitsteeth]

just venting again I’m sorry

#okay so this is going to sound whiny of me idk I’m sorry I’m like this I really am #ik none of you follow me to hear about this shit and I’m sorry for constantly whining about things I don’t like being like this #I just have so much going on in my personal life and then also nothing at all #I’m just plagued by constant chronic loneliness and it hits me so hard some days that it’s like physical pain #I can’t even talk myself around by saying ‘you do have people that care!’ because I really don’t anymore #everyone’s too busy with their own shit and I find it hard to talk directly about my feelings #I downplay or switch topics or focus on talking about them #and then I get upset because they don’t understand or don’t think it’s serious #but I don’t know how to say I feel so hollow and breakable and at the same time full to bursting with sadness and grief and anger and #self hatred stronger than I’ve ever felt before #and if I try once or twice to express this crushing feeling of shitiness #and you don’t understand or listen my brain will shut down the idea entirely #and prevent me from reaching out again for a long time #I just feel like I’m so inconsequential and ywt at the Same time I’m the one cog still turning to keep everyone else going #like I’m nothing and yet too much at once #I don’t know. I feel like I’m on the edge of Something massive and irreversible and I don’t like it #I feel like I’m also on the precipice between never ever trusting anyone again and diving head first into trusting Anyone #that bothers and trusting them too much. caring too much again in the hopes that I do get hurt for a final time and learn my lesson #I don’t know. and I don’t like having these fits of sounding fucking crazy on here and I’m sorry again for sounding like this this isn’t who #I am I promise im just struggling I think. but I don’t know how to fix it. it feels like some sort of like… #fatal flaw in me somewhere. I don’t know.

[rugessnome]

I had a finished poll about least favorite doctor come across from one of my tracked tags but it's no longer rebloggable (which... I kinda get. fair) so I couldn't put MY little tag commentary on it...

#personally I like Eleven as a Doctor but I dislike so much of the writing of that era so I can see where people are coming from #with him winning. least favorite doctor? No. least favorite writing? possibly! #my personal answer is Ten. I finally managed to watch all but one or two of his episodes* #but I'm not completely over the factors that made me initially dislike him #(namely he doesn't come across to me particularly in early episodes as actively liking most people) #...I also actually get the reason people cited about Four. (that he's too much) #I am kinda crazy about him but at the same time I find it very difficult to actually watch a whole serial bc I'm ...distracted #particularly if you aren't very bothered by like Moffat I can see how that could turn into least favorite without necessarily being Dislike #*I think I probably did see Tooth and Claw (iirc) years ago though

[mosviqu]

cried bc my mum asked if i was upset bc i dont like my drawings bc she heard me ripping out sketchbook pages and throwing them to the bin

#im so upset im so upset im so upset and i dont even know why but i know that the action i chose to help myself isnt working and i am abt to #explode. physically EXPLODE. #and i wanna write but writing is scary bc dear god i wanna love the final peace but i keep comparing myself to others and suddenly #my fics look so bad in my own eyes and idk whats wrong today but i hate everything including myself #dont interact pls i will be very umcomfortable if u do lol #dont mention this to me also i need to spiral by myself and alone for a bit LMAOO #theres only one person i trust w all of this load but i dont wanna bother her when shes got so much on her plate #i miss tina like crazy