#also my school is like. honestly awful and not just in a 'all teenagers hate school' type way. i live in a very tory area

[reasonsforhope]

I don't know who needs to hear this, but especially with the end of the school year coming up soon, and a bunch of people about to leave high school or about to leave college, I just wanted to say:

Being an adult can be really nice, actually!!!

Like, okay, yeah, life can be fucking stressful sometimes, and there's definitely an annoying amount of paperwork.

But me and just about every single adult I know will agree: I would never choose to go back to being a teenager, even if I somehow could.

Insert obvious disclaimer that nothing is universal. But for people worried about aging or graduating into the next chapter of life, here's some words of reassurance:

When you're a teenager, your brain is extra mean to you. Like, neurologically. All of the changes it's undergoing really, really increase rates of depression/anxiety/etc. A lot of the time, literally just not being a teenager anymore is really good for your mental health

Less than five months out of high school, everyone I knew my age was like "Thank fuck we're no longer in high school." Once you leave high school and adolescence there's really just such a dramatic drop in petty bullshit. Shit that would have been a huge social humiliation or gossip in high school is really often just like, "Hate that for you, man." Boom, done.

When you're a teenager or a brand new adult, you're encountering so many problems for the first time ever. When you're older, you just. Have learned how to handle a lot more things. You know what to do way more often and that builds confidence

When you're an adult, other people generally don't care if you don't do things perfectly, because jobs and life don't work like grades. This was such a trip to learn, honestly? But when you are an adult or have a job the bar for success is usually just "Did you do the thing?" or "Did you do the thing well enough that it works?" or "Did you show up to work for your whole shift and look like you were doing things?"

Similarly, if you're about to graduate college and you're really stressed about it, fyi just about everyone I knew in college ended up very quickly going "wow, 'real life' is way easier." Admittedly I went to a school full of very stressed out perfectionists and the like, so I can't promise this is universal, but there's a very real chance that life will in many ways get easier when you graduate

WAY MORE CONTROL OF YOUR OWN LIFE

Literally I cannot overstate that last point. As an adult, you are (barring certain disabilities or shitty circumstances like abusive family/the criminal justice system/etc.) able to make most of your own decisions. If you want to rearrange your furniture, you can. If you want to eat tater tots at midnight, you can. If you want to get yourself a little treat, you can. You can sign contracts and make your own legal and medical decisions and not need a parent or guardian signature for just about anything ever again

You generally learn how to give fewer fucks

The people around you have also generally learned how to give fewer fucks

Even when things are shitty, being able to choose what kind of shitty a lot of the time can really be worth an awful lot

#not news #life #advice #hope #adolescence #teens #adulthood #adulting #growing up #getting older #life advice #abuse mention #autonomy

[weebsinstash]

something that I think would be, truly one of the worst things about the yandere Batfamily really truly is their power to make any and every problem you've ever had completely go away in no time at all

it can be such an awful feeling to see that you struggled in vain with something that was nothing at all to someone else. You could have significant issues that have followed you all your life and have had traumatic impacting effects on you and these people could come in and sweep that all away. Student loans you've been paying off for years, if not a fraction of your lifespan, still burying you in debt? We are talking fucking decimal points on the scale of Bruce Wayne's wealth. That bad leg from an old work injury? Let's grab you one of the best doctors in Gotham, if not the entire world, fuck, we may even get you a doctor or medicine that isn't even human-made! Y'all want a magic leg? We know this chick who can speak backwards, you want a magically healed leg?

Crippling loneliness? Eternal sunshine and objectively best Robin Dick Grayson is here to brighten your entire world since he knows what it can feel like to be hurting and alone and he's literally like the heart and soul of the entire manor besides Alfred

Chronic pain, an undiagnosed disability, or maybe you're not confident in your fitness? Jason has extensive knowledge of injury recovery, physical therapy, and overall knowledge about human biology and musculature and how everything correlates

Family issues? Daddy issues? Let Resident Troubled Kid Expert Alfred Pennyworth be your new grandpa. He's dealt with more than one temperamental snappy individual, and he'll use his patience, experience, and wit to wear down all your stress and hostility. It's hard to keep being cruel to someone who's nothing but kind to you, and he has plenty of patience and delicious baked treats to hold out until you give in

Honestly just the fact most of them are so fucking young would get under my skin. You could be approaching your 30s and be sitting here at the Wayne family dinner table as their weird sister/mom/girlfriend/whatever and being all "I've just always had these struggles my entire life, I dont know what's wrong with me, I feel like I can't control how I act or feel and I hate it" and someone like Tim who depending on the source material and where you are on the timeline is a literal teenager with extensive knowledge of criminals and psychology is just over here, "oh, that? You have chronic childhood trauma, recurring resurfacing conflict related ptsd, severe abandonment issues, emotional regulation problems that are probably biological, and also you probably have autism, and there's nothing wrong with any of that :)" and then he turns to Bruce and starts talking about how his school is taking a trip abroad to Greece while you sit there processing that everyone around the table has extensively psychologically evaluated you and you probably have your own file on the Batcomputer (you do. It's excessive.)

It's just. The psychology of having all these problems you've struggled with be wiped away by someone else like it's nothing and how, that can result in making someone feel all the more worthless and helpless. Oh, Bruce was able to just make all your problems disappear? Clearly YOU weren't trying hard enough. Tim is able to suss out what's wrong with you? Well YOU'RE the dysfunctional idiot who was born wrong, and YOU were the one choosing the wrong doctors. You're watching all these young teenagers or young adults be vigilantes and travel the world and learn multiple languages and you're like. Normal guy Steve from the grocery store. You know? They take control of your life and make you feel like a side character in it, because everything you do is now attached to them, and all of them and all of their adventures are so... spectacular

And really, someone with a meaner heart, and maybe someone more blunt like, say, Damian, could perhaps come in and make some comment, "see? This is why you needed our assistance in caring for you" and what are you gonna do, NOT act like they basically fixed your entire life in less than a year's time, with the one objection of kidnapping and imprisonment? You're just over here, "um yeah, actually, I'm an adult and I can take care of myself, you don't need to TAKE CARE OF ME???" meanwhile Bruce and Alfred are exchanging knowing looks while you speak as if the old butler hadn't needed to help you call your doctor and other important urgent matters because being on the phone with strangers gave you such intense anxiety. Ok yes sure honey you are a lovely functional adult and your brain is big and beautiful and perfect 🥰 now shut up about going to live back home on your own, go play Xbox with your new brothers or go bake something with Grandpa while the world's greatest detective sits down in the Batcave using the Batcomputer to track down and "have a friendly chat" with that one childhood teacher that gave you that one really specific trauma-

#yandere batfam #yandere x reader #yandere batfamily #yandere stuff #sinprompts

[jellolegos]

Oh say more about Rojascorp queen.......

I am going to try and articulate my feelings on Rojascorp in a way that is coherent and intelligent (honestly those words have never been used to describe my writing in my entire life) BUT here goes.

What I think I really love about Rojascorp is the tension derived from the dynamic of "I love you, I hate you, I will always be a part of you" and the way that those phrases act in a fluid state throughout the course of their decades long relationship.

I think that dynamic is very much heightened by the fact that the bond between Lena and Andrea occurs in their teenage and early adulthood. It feels like a rite of passage as a queer woman to have a homoerotic friendship with someone in your teenage years that simultaneously destroys you and shapes the way you view all of your future relationships. If I can push a little further and consider the topography of Lena's life, Andrea enters at a period where she has first lost her mother but not yet had her relationship with Lex distorted by his evildoing. This means that she would (if we are to just engage with them hypothetically as romantic partners/girlfriends/whatever), likely represent a first heartbreak and first true betrayal for Lena. There is something so uniquely tactile with the combination of first love and first heartbreak, especially for a character like Lena and I find it totally fascinating! Much the same could be said about Rhaenicent.

I also think a parallel that you could draw between Rhaenicent and Rojascorp is the way that class and rank could act as further strains on a budding romantic relationship (beyond just the boilerplate misogyny and homophobia). For Alicent and Rhaenyra the restriction is very clear, they are royals who need heirs. To engage in a relationship with another woman would disrupt the social fabric in a way so devastating that they could never recover. The way these women contend with this fate is one of the main strands of the show. Rhaenyra is able to find companionship with a man and Alicent, unable to do so in a similar capacity, retreats further into her religious zealotry and role as a mother (I LOVE show!alicent, please don't get me wrong, but I think it's hard to deny the way that her religion offers a clear escape and in many ways a form of self-punishment -- I could go on and on about Rhaenicent, I love them. BUT I don't think that is what you were after)

Where this gets a little more tricky to see clearly, in part because of the CW's awful writing and in part because of the very American romanticized ideal of a self-made millionaire/billionaire, is with Lena. If we are to believe that Lena is the sole inheritor of an aristocratic legacy as a billionaire, that imposes an entirely different set of social constraints on who she could involve herself with romantically. The CW (in my opinion) does a very bad job of portraying Lena as a wealthy person (her clothes, her offices, just the general ways she lives her life are so horribly distorted from the true level of wealth she is meant to have). But if we are to even bring a fraction of the physics that apply to the normal billionaire class, you again encounter the same issue: you need an heir. Just for reference, if you look at a list of the top 10 wealthiest women, all of them (sans the Waltons for hopefully pretty obvious reasons) have children who could act as dynastic inheritors. This would further complicate the potential for a romantic relationship with a woman. Although Andrea is likely of the same class (we get hints of it when we see her with her dad and obviously she's at the same Andover/Exeter/Trinity-coded boarding school), she is a woman which I would argue imposes the exact same restrictions as it does on Rhaenyra/Alicent, especially if we are going to dive into the WASP vibes that I think are implied with Lillian/just the American aristocratic class in general. This would heighten the taboo nature of the relationship, and make the realization of the weight of queerness all the more impactful (maybe I'm just too far into my reread of Oranges forgive me if this is not making any sense).

I think these two layers of first love/heartbreak and first bite of (for lack of more eloquent wording) the forbidden fruit, are so compelling and would be so informative about Lena as a character if they were applied. Her cynicism and general guardedness would have been seeds sewn not only by her mother's death but by the subsequent tragedies and betrayals she felt with her first romantic partner. Her overreaction and decision to create a tool that would force people to tell the truth, and only the truth, would hold so much more weight if paired with a B-plot that introduced her early heartbreak and parallels to Kara's betrayal. I am a horrible fiction writer, but if I were ever to write a character study of Lena in the form of a ficlet, Andrea would have to be a part of it purely as there is just so much to explore with her as a character alone and in Lena's early adulthood.

(One last thing then I will shut up I promise haha)

In a meta sense, I think what becomes clear to me is that Andrea seems to demonstrate how not canonizing supercorp was just as much about the "corp" as it was about the "super". I think I was always under the impression that the CW kept from canonizing supercorp as it would "endanger" (sorry, I hope you get my point here) their titular character. The risk to the network was in making their main character queer, not in making Lena queer. I think Andrea really offered them an easy out in this regard. Supercorp was well established as possible among the fans, and Lena had broken up with James for a number of episodes. Inserting a new romantic pairing would be easy and introducing Andrea as a former fling would be an easy way to make Lena queer (and hopefully appease fans [I know, I know. But let's think like a showrunner here]) but still make her unavailable for pairing with Kara. Andrea's lover could have easily been swapped with a brother, paralleling Lena's own fractured relationship with Lex. Lena would do anything for Lex, just as Andrea would do anything for her brother including betraying her girlhood fling. I guess in that sense it felt like such a natural way to simultaneously please the network and the fans who (obviously, rightfully) were frustrated at the overall romantic coding of two ostensibly straight women. Alex or Sam could have also presented viable options, but I think neither fit as smoothly into the position of "Lena's-fling-turned-ex-turned-fling-and-guess-what-she's-now-evil". I was really peripherally tuned into the show/drama pre-2020 so obviously I could be missing something but I guess that felt like a very obvious missed opportunity. The only thing I can really conclude is that they valued Lena not being queer just as much as Kara not being queer (maybe two queer female couples was too much? I'm not sure).

TLDR: I love supercorp with my whole heart AND I think Rojascorp is an incredible pairing and dynamic to explore. I think they have a lot of fanon parallels to Alicent and Rhaenyra (I could go on and on about Rhaenicent/HotD/ASOIAF but I think this is too long of an answer already, haha). There are a few Rojascorp fics/fic writers that I cling to with my entire heart and soul, I love you guys <3

#ramble #misc #asks

[katyspersonal]

Uuuuugh,,...

(A small rant about Miraculous Ladubyg)

Okay I've finally got up my arse and started watching 5th season of Miraculous Ladybug. There are so many cool things and developments, but I just got to the fuckin. ugh. episode where they retconned Marinette's genuinely weird stalkery obssessive problems over her crush as result of the trauma that Chloe caused to her on previous studying years. And I actually had Frenzy attack and need to pause from the weird headache.

"But wait Kat, it is a good message that having sympathetic reasons for questionable behaviour doesn't extempt you from guilt" Well it sure is..... except it doesn't work on Marinette apparently, because Thomas wants his protag to be basically flawless and never have her flaws truly addressed. And it sure doesn't work on Chloe, because she DOES have sympathetic reasons for being a school bully as a girl who is 14-15 (and was like, 13? and even younger? when she was a bully?); she has god fucking awful oppressive mother that kept neglecting her and garbage father that spoils her and never disciplines her! I still feel extremely bigger over the fact that they were trying to write Chloe through an interesting and valid arc of acknowledging her awful behaviour and changing to the better, but then Thomas stepped in and assasinated her character to make his point about how some people will never change because they can't give away their privileges. And like, okay, fine. But why at the expence of the abused and neglected spoiled teenage girl? And it was the worst part how he also tried to gaslight the audience into believing it was planned this way from the start when it wasn't.

Honestly, the easiest thing to do would be writing a new character to deliver this point about how "some people will never change". Heck, keep the trauma but make Kim 100% responcible instead of just making him a dumbass goof folled by Chloe, keep the stepsister thing but make HER the new spoiled bully one that was disappointed her sister became nicer and more down to earth with "peasants". Retcons in the TV shows cause me headache in general, but completely wrecking the pre-existing already built character to be hip with the kids and making her speak like such a caricature that NO real life bully could ever be this one-dimensional and bland is just awful. I feel like this is the actual case of the writer abusing his character, like... this show just feels like it is way too happy to keep beating Chloe up by making her so unrealistically evil that you just don't believe this writing. After having written her in seasons 1-2 as a realistic complex character that was an asshole but interesting and explained. And in the end, the worst, THE worst part is that in the end all it really does is absolves other characters from guilt and agency over their mistakes, flaws, negative emotions etc etc. Because everything is fucking always a fault of a teenager girl that the writers just hates so much.

I'll go back to watching it, and I hope there will be some cool development and improvement later that could help to undo this bitterness. :/ I am sorry it is the second time I am ranting about how Chloe was treated as a character, it is just something I deeply hate writers doing. Besides one (1) of my mutuals watches this show too xd Basically 1) do not retcon previously well-written characters to make a completely new point, just write in a new character (which applies to both Chloe AND Marinette) and 2) do not make a literal 13-to-15 years old character as stand-in for everything awful and wrong with the setting, this is just fucking cruel lol.

#watch log #not using tags because it is negative #but hhhhhrgggggg #I am just coping so hard keeping the REAL version of Chloe in my mind and not this sorry caricature

[spilledcoconutwater]

You know what, I didn't want to speak up, because I know people like to misinterpret my words and I know people whose families suffered in Hamas attack and many irls following me is much more knowledgeable about politics of middle east than I am and I didn't want to make some stupid mistake and get roasted to hell and back, but, first of all, I will be screaming free Palestine the same way my mother used to scream free Tibet as a teenager and I also can't stand the disinformation and lack of critical thinking.

1. I genuinely saw someone stating that protecting Israel is important, because every jew from Poland fled there to survive holocaust and there is no more og Jews there, which I guess means half of my friends doesn't exist so good riddance.

2. I hate so many people making it about antisemitism. Like...wtf? If a christian kills my dog and I will get angry at him, it's because I'm an atheist? Please. Antisemitism is a problem, but let's not get carried away. It's not about religion here, it's about genocide and honestly I have very deep if you were victim in the past, now we are in the present and you lost your victim card the moment you did your first war crime against people who weren't even connected to what you're trying to play victim about. Like if my dog bites me and I will go punch my friend's cat years later stating I was just afraid my dog will bite me again, it doesn't exactly make sense, does it?

3. I hate people making it about Ukraine and race. Yeah, racism is awful and way too common and influences too many political decisions, but it's not why reaction to Ukraine was different. I need you all to understand that Ukraine got so much coverage because westerners were shitting themselves about it being too close to their homes, and the USA saw the opportunity to rehush their cold war. They don't care about ukrainians, but they can't let Russia progress beyond Ukraine because it will tangle them in active warfare. West is more than happy to boost their economy on wars as long as they are far from them and won't affect them personally. It's not about race here. It's not about religion. Politics is way less about beliefs and ideals and more about maximising profit than you can imagine.

4. The same goes for why Ukraine didn't vote and didn't support Palestine. I can't pretend to know what ukrainian government believes in but you do get that them going against USA and supporting Russian side and country that "attacked" would be political suicide, Ukraine can't afford if they want to keep USA fundings and get that spot in Nato. Them deciding not to vote is as good as it could be, but this one is just my opinion, since the same would probably also happen in different scenarios, looking at how all Eastern countries voted.

5. Fuck everyone who says they don't want to think about it or that kids are too young to learn about it. What exactly is a difference between them learning about genocide and polish kids writing essays about teenagers dying in uprising and reading books about Gestapo tortures or dying in Nazi camps in a fucking middle school? If official school program for polish, Lithuanian or German kids states its okay to show them documentaries about holocaust and sing songs about kids dying for their land, why it's too much to explain to them what is happening in middle East?

6. I hate how little we learned from ww2. When polish spies were risking their lives getting secret plans and documents about holocaust from Germans before the war and presented them to the west, west said they can't get involved because its too delicate issue and would hurt international relationships. Then billions of people died because the west was too selfish to move a finger. Then they just left East to Soviets because Churchill was too concerned about being on good terms with Stalin. Why is West doing the same shit again? What are these years of learning history good for if politicians can't even learn from it? And going off of this, while I understand we have right wing Catholic government and antisemitism issue that would look bad on us, fuck East for not speaking up and not taking a stance.

7. If one country doesn't have military it's not a war, its genocide.

8. "Ooh, Amanda, what should Israel do after getting attacked by Hamas then?" I don't know, maybe discuss how to get hostages they talk about so much from gaza back to their homes and try to focus on that instead of straight up bombing everyone and maybe go for defense instead of war crime. Maybe not use phosphore bombs and not kill journalists? Maybe not put hostages from their own country in active danger? Hamas, for sure, will give your kids back when you bomb them so hard there will be no kids to give back anymore. What country genuinely tries to completely destroy and bomb country with their own hostages in it before securing the hostages? It should be your first red flag.

9. If Israel really believes they are just protecting themselves, why would they try so hard to hide what is happening in Palestine? Why would they cut off the Internet? Wouldn't it be better for them to just show everything and let the world see the situation?

10. At the end let it be said, I wish celebrities knew when to shut the fuck up. I hate this trend where we expect famous people to speak up. Yeah, yeah, I know traction and influence but one would think we noticed already how dumb and uneducated most of entertainment industry is and that they will just repost whatever their pr people tell them to, so what's the point? I will always advocate for influencers and celebrities whose job isn't connected to the issue, to just go fuck themselves before they open their social media apps. Let's acknowledge that most of them are either upper class dropouts or liberal intellectualists who are living in a completely different world than we are.

Just my random thoughts. I'm not here to get into discussion. Political and humanitarian debates are something I do irl, and I have my international relationship major and history major friends for that.

#palestine #free palestine #didn't know if I should tag it because it's literally just my rant and my own thoughts #but fuck it #also how tf do I restrict comments?

[kamyru]

Kuranosuke Kiba headcanons

Author's note: I don't remember the last time I did something like this, probably it was for "Irresistible Mistakes" Toma Kiriya. But, here I am because I have so many headcanons I want to share with you. Tell me about whom to make the next post. 

As a kid, Kuranosuke asked his parents for a pet. But they ignored him. Instead, they gave his younger brother one. By the end, Kuranosuke took care of the animal, and it loved him the most out of the entire house. 

Kuranosuke thinks he is closer to his sister because they spend more time together. However, his brother is sure he is closer to him because Kuranosuke used to spend a lot of time looking after him.

Kid and teenager Kuranosuke hated his eyes with a passion. He thought his rough look made it hard to find friends and be close to his family. So, for a few years, he tried all the possible ways known to mankind to look friendlier. 

Kuranosuke used to volunteer at pet shelters when he was a teenager. 

For a while, teenager Kuranosuke wanted to go to therapy. But he thought that his problems weren't important enough for this. So, he didn't go. 

Kuranosuke may have a complicated relationship with his family. Yet, he thinks his parents' marriage is healthy and romantic. So, he grew up with idealized ideas about love and marriage. 

Regarding Kuranosuke's idealized ideas about love: he tried to date someone in high school. Yet, he was a virgin till his late college years or even after, because he thought that sex was something you do only with a loved one.

Even if he didn't want to admit it, Kuranosuke had some feelings for his former wife, Shiori.

When he got married for the first time, Kuranosuke was pretty enthusiastic. He even accepted his colleagues to throw a party for him. That's why he was so surprised that MC didn't know he was divorced. He thought that everyone knew he used to have a wife.

Between Shiori and MC, he had never had any relationships, not even one-night stands. He felt too guilty to hurt someone again.

None of them will admit it, but Kunihiro and Kuranosuke lived together for Kuranosuke more than for Kunihiro. The older one was wealthy enough to hire someone to clean. However, after his divorce, Kuranosuke's mental health was so bad it made Kunihiro worry.

Kuranosuke and Togo joke about "the middle child" and "the youngest child". Kuranosuke teases Daimon for being the youngest, while Daimon teases Kuranosuke for being the middle. Once, Daimon joked about the middle kids being invisible to their parents, and Kuranosuke laughed so hard he started to cry. Never again had Daimon said the same joke.

Remember his "Now that I look at her, she is on the prettier side"? Kuranosuke knew from the start that MC is pretty, he is just dumb. The moment he got into his department, she caught his attention. But he wouldn't be Kuranosuke if he admitted this from the start. 

This man used to be fantastic at painting, considering that both of his parents are in the art field. He also has some paintings from his young years that MC found and put on the wall. Kuranosuke tried to convince her to get rid of them, but honestly, he liked what she did. 

Kuranosuke is awful at driving. He says he doesn't have a car because it's too expensive. But actually, he doesn't have one because it's safer this way. 

The Blizzard knows about his nickname. It is hard not to know when he works with so many idiots. At first, Kuranosuke felt guilty and tried to be friendlier with his subordinates. Then, after the divorce with Shiori, he got numb to this kind of thing. However, from the moment he fell for MC, it hurt him every time he heard her calling him like this. 

"Mr. I don't mess my personal and professional lives," told MC a few times that he loved her while at work after she got him a cup of tea or discussed a client. 

He hates that he and MC don't have wedding bands yet. 

NSFW! Under the cut

NSFW! While living with Kunihiro, he walked on Kuni having sex with his girlfriends. Usually, he tried to ignore it. But once, he was so exhausted and mad that he just continued his way, ignoring what was happening a few meters away. 

NSFW! This one is canon, but he is the definition of "I don't have sex. I make love."

NSFW! One of his biggest turns-on is when MC wears his clothes. Forget about lacy underwear. To seduce him is enough to wear a t-shirt from him on her naked body. The second his eyes fall on MC's free nipples under the t-shirt is the last before she is naked again.

NSFW! This man has the biggest praise kink. He won't ever admit it, but it's enough for MC to tell him how good he is, and he is lost. Also, he likes to praise MC, too. 

NSFW! He is a brat tamer, yes. But he is also a little bit of a brat himself. Kuranosuke didn't have the opportunity to be the spoiled kid, so he compensates in bed.

#oops i said yes #kuranosuke kiba #voltage inc

[intergalaticrabbit]

WOOOOOOOOOO OC DROP!!!!!!!! IVE BEEN COOKING THESE GUYS IN MY HEAD FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- VERY BADLY WRITTEN CHARACTER INFO AND LORE BELOW IF YOU ARE ANY BIT INTRESTED -

okkkk so zalans a cool single rabbit trans dad, he’s bisexual and very lonely andddd his gf was serenity who went poof and died he is a sad guy now also serenity was a literal princess (crazy) he’s super awesome and has really awful parents, serenity and zalan met as teenagers and were basically inseparable (sobbing bc they are an adorable couple) yes he has an eyepatch, his eye basically got rlly badly hurt as a kid and he’s super self-conscious about it, he’s pretty much only let serenity see under his eyepatch. He has a hard time letting things from his past go, and has an even harder time accepting that serenity’s dead and that he needs to move on

aster is the child of zalan and serenity in a really confusing way because serenity died pretty young n stuff, they r basically their child from another timeline they were sent to this one for reasons I will not disclose here because this is just a simple character introduction u guys (unless you really want to know ask me or smth idk) anywayssss aster was given the necklace that serenity used to wear since it’s like a rlly important relic in the moon family everyone basically receives it at some point in the family, but we need some sort of plot device so that necklace is actually really bad and has basically been killing off their entire family (yikes) so yeah it starts talking to the wearer and tells them to do bad things to themselves or other people around them which was what caused serenity’s death and basically everyone who came before her, it’s like a curse pretty much and is really bad and stinky and maybe you will find out who is causing this!!!!!??? (It is a little obvious whos the evil character here I think)

anyways asters super cool!!!! (definitely an active tumblr user) they like to make bracelets and they end up dating bex and joining his band that he has with devon (super awesome) so yewh they are super epic :)

ophelia is literally so awesome and cool and I loveeee her love love love he’s a bigender butch lesbian and is literally so incredible, she’s dating marina and they are so awesome and cute, he’s the sister of serenity and asters super cool aunt like the kind that gets you mcdonalds after school and has a super dirty car!!!!! /positive

I honestly don’t have much planned for her in the story other than the fact that he’s just super cool and I think about her a lot :’)

mara is literally the girl boss of all time, shes the childhood best friend of zalan ( they are not on the best terms rn tho……) mara spent a lot of her time as a kid with zalan until they had a big fight because zalan thought mara was too controlling and pushy and he told her he didn’t want to be around her anymore, mara lashed out at him by attacking him, it’s what caused his eye to burn (she has fire magic from her father) mara immediately regretted it and ran away crying, leaving zalan to lay in pain until his parents found him (i like to imagine it took place in a field, zalan and mara spent a lot of time away from their parents since neither of theirs were very great, they really only had each other to rely on) mara has tried and tried and tried to apologize to zalan but he’s refused all of it. mara didn’t have a great relationship with serenity either, their kingdoms are rivals and she spent most of her life as a child learning to hate her. Mara tried to reconnect with zalan when they were teens, but she saw he was with serenity and got jealous (not in a romantic way in a platonic way) since zalan had only ever been by her side and since she and him stopped being friends, she’s really had no one to turn to. She has a tough time controlling her emotions and like zalan, she closes herself from the rest of the world and doesn’t accept help

marina is an absolutely sweetheart we love her, they are super energetic and love sea creatures :3 her gf is ophelia and honestly she is a bit underdeveloped other than being super sweet and caring for others but I love them a lot, she’s a lot like the mom friend and often is the one people can go to for advice (especially aster)

bex is such a little weirdo I love him, theyre into a lot of nerdy things (it is why him and aster r in love u guys) and loves music and being silly and stuff, they’re like a half-alien half-lizard half-creature thing that I cannot describe but yeah also devon is basically like a big brother to him since they don’t have any siblings and his parents suck (guys count how many characters I have that have bad parents challenge) I like to think him and aster met randomly in like math class or smth and bex had a stupid little backpack that had like a pikachu keychain and aster was immediately like “wow im in love…….” HAHAHA anyways theyre awesome and sweet also they have a long tail I just did not draw bc it wouldn’t fit good (i have tried)

devon is like every older brother in a teen movie but slightly nicer, he’s two years older than bex and aster and they all go to the same school. devons super chill and wears stupid clothing that says random phrases on it (gamer swag) he came up with the idea for the band because he was bored or whaatevrr i like to think that bex and devon met because bex was trying to find a class and devon showed him to it, also devons definitely still in freshmen classes despite being like a sophomore because he legitimately just does not care about school and slacks off so they usually just talk in whatever classes they have together also devons like a half-goat guy, he usually hides his horns in his hair but I showed them for the drawing lol

tyme is literally every tumblr sexyman mixed into one and I’ve done this on purpose because then he has ultimate power (which he does anyway) they are a literal timegod who likes hot sauce and zalan (he is obsessed with that man) also he’s immortal and has lived since the world was created (more on that later!) he’s the kind of guy to sit seductively on pianos basically (does that make sense yes no i dont know) he’s a total menace and a trickster and his best friend is actually aster which is funny because he wants to be with their father (funny silly goof) also he has an existential crisis every month over his existence, also he knows zalan isn’t ready to move on from serenity so it worries him a lot since he is literally so madly in love with him

(tw for abuse, suicide and religious trauma for below)

HANK IS A FITHY MAN WHO SHOULD NOT BE TRUSTED (nobody listened apparently when I screamed that from the sky) he is a massive idiot and ruler of the world (orrrr until he died or whatever) he was basically raised in a really bad cult growing up not knowing his parents who praised a being known as “star”, growing up like this formed his thoughts on what his ideal world would be, to escape from the world he was raised in, his mind began to fill with the world he wanted, he was the ruler, he had a group that listened and respected him, and so many subjects that wanted to hear what he had to say. He built himself towns and cities and kingdoms from his mind. Tyme was something that came along with the creation of this “new world” and for a while Tyme was very complacent with what Hank wanted and fulfilled his every need. But eventually along with all of his other creations they turned on him and began to think of ways they could get rid of him, to stop his control over the world. But that was impossible, they’d probably be killed like all the others who disobeyed him, so they stayed still. years went past and nothing changed. If anything, things had gotten completely worse and hank had gone even more insane. Even if Tyme wanted to he couldn’t stop him, although he was the second most powerful, he had no power against his creator

one fateful day, hank stood up on his balcony to give a speech to the people, a normal event, usually preaching about something only a madman would. right before his speech however, tyme, done with his nonsense, went up to him and told him he needs to quit this, hank had done nothing but walk away. But now sitting on the balcony, looking down at all of the people, HIS people, he grinned and stood up on the ledge of the balcony, screaming his thoughts out one last time, before using a knife on himself and falling to the ground. Nobody made a sound except for the door that tyme rushed through to find his body, but, there was no body, only a glowing star

(ill let u figure it out from there also i did not intend to write a short story for that one lmaoo)

anywyas thanks if you read that i honestly don’t care if you did or not I needed to put all that somewhere anyway wooooooooooo also ask me questions about them please if you have any!!!!!!!!!! Need To Explain Things About Them Now!!!!! also there are more ocs I have in this universe but these are just the most important ones so if you want me to draw the others I can eventually

ok bye thx

#ocs #vens art #art #young artist #oc lore #lgbtq #my ocs #oc art #idk what tags I should put to be honest #lgbtq characters

[kingdarkstalker]

hello, I'm glad to have seen this since I don't really participate in online fandoms of media I enjoy, so sometimes I just form one opinion about a thing and then it never gets challenged. I read the first arc in elementary school, I'm a teenager now, and I guess I just want to know if, in your opinion, it would be weird or like, idk, bad, to reread the books I own. I mean, it's been a comfort series for so long. and I've been super oblivious to the fact that I somehow interpreted everything way differently than it was written. like how I thought the dragonets dealing with their abuse differently was just showing different coping things, and didn't even notice that sunny was rewarded for her reaction and everyone else wasn't. I thought Coral was meant to be a villain, Webs was meant to be pathetic and an enabling bystander, Darkstalker was meant to be morally gray, and every single character was meant to be flawed and would continue to change and grow off screen after the books. it seems silly or maybe cognitive dissonance for me to have just somehow convinced myself that like, there was an implication that all of the "solutions" to the conflict were not perfect and required continuous work to keep slowly improving over time. like it's so obvious now that the things I imagined happening off screen were headcanons, yet somehow I conflated them with the canon and convinced myself that glory broke up with deathbringer, sunny finally realized that kestrel dune and webs didn't have some sort of reason to abuse them and some people are terrible and not worth her compassion, everyone stopped being mean to stonemover, and everyone dismantled the monarchies, and the hivewings, even though they weren't killed (except for wasp), were held accountable and forced to confront the fact that they actively benefited from the societal oppression of silkwings and genocide of leaf wings and did nothing about it. also I really thought that clearsight taught pantalans her language but also learned their language and both sides exchanged knowledge of cultures. so now that I've finally realized that the canon is nothing like how I interpreted it, I don't know how to feel about the concept of rereading them or finding comfort in them. I mean I know I can like something and critique it but this is more than plot holes and mistakes. it's racist propaganda and I can't believe I never noticed. it's weird because I feel like I never want to read them again, but also like I want to reread them more with sticky notes and highlighters and change it to be what I want it to be. I also don't know how I'm going to interact with my friends that are fans of wof now... I'm scared of confrontation but I definitely feel like I need to tell them about it.

there is one thing that I disagree with you about. to me it seems like you are saying that people need to treat darkstalker with more nuance rather than just big bad guy, which, yes, I honestly didn't realize some people even thought he was 100% bad? but then you say that clearsight was awful and stuff, but she was also a child, with what I interpret as an anxiety disorder. and her paranoia about darkstalker becoming a murderer hurt him, but she wasn't...choosing to be paranoid, right? i see people on here wishing her death and I just don't see how that's different from people wishing darkstalker to be turned into peacemaker. and lots of people hate on indigo but she was also just very paranoid and distrusting of anyone (especially animi, except fathom) because of her and fathom's PTSD. like, is that not also valid? like can't they all be morally gray and nuanced? idk if I misinterpreted what you and other askers were saying though. also I acknowledge that I might not even have that opinion if I didn't relate to clearsight for a lot of the legends book.

overall I'm just so baffled at how i managed to do the mental gymnastics to believe that so many problematic things just... didn't happen? or were retconned off screen?? like how did my brain even do that? it's like I was reading different books entirely.

howdy, happy to have been able to provide a different perspective!

no, not at all. despite the problems with it, reading wings of fire does not make you a terrible person, nor does enjoying the story or the characters that tui created. i dont think WOF is necessarily as harmful as it could be, but what concerns me about new readers is simply that they may not read past tui's very surface level (and often incorrect) commentary about things like abuse and bigotry. but that doesnt mean you cant still enjoy the world imagined and the potential it holds. reading things with mistakes--especially re-reading them--can help you recognize what patterns to look for while reading and/or avoid while writing, etc

like you said though, re-reading it with the awareness of tui's misguided or sometimes even malicious messages is unpleasant. especially thinking about the great potential of it all. if you feel like you have the energy, i do encourage going back and making notes on what you'd change! you've already reflected on the problems very carefully, everything you summarized was very similar to how i felt on first realization

i truly hope your friends are understanding and willing to take a second look at WOF from a critical lens. it always feels horrible having a comfort media sort of dissolve so you can see its ugly bones (trust me ive gone through it too), but whats important is what you learn from that media and, if necessary, separate yourself from it, while taking the things that were comforting and making them your own

re: clearsight, i definitely agree with your points, and admittedly i have been bias in my earlier posts about her. she definitely was struggling with overwhelming anxiety, and any young teen who can see every future is going to have a different way of coping about it. clearsight isnt awful for being paranoid or trying to control things her own way (turning herself into a religion is another thing), she's an awful character because her flaws are rewarded instead of properly explored. i feel like moonwatcher was a better example of a character struggling with that kind of mental state and how it affects their loved ones

cause like, with clearsight, the problem i have isnt even the actions she took that were harmful as a child. darkstalker did plenty of that himself, they both together were an opportunity of how the same kind of mental instability is delt with. problem is, clearsight is portrayed by tui sutherland as Correct The Entire Time. like, she was right to be paranoid. she was right to think darkstalker was evil. she was right to have zero faith in him, because she was right that it was inevitable. this could have been a very self-fulfilling prophecy type of arc where both characters were destructive to each other, but clearsight is literally rewarded for her lifelong anxiety by essentially becoming a prophetic diety, and getting an exotic husband to have her dream kids with. this was the way tui sutherland wrote clearsight on purpose--to be a supposed underdog, to be the "good" mentally ill child (shes certainly not an abuse survivor like darkstalker, she has a healthy home life and support system) and she never acts out in the way darkstalker does, she in fact is portrayed as an underdog-turned-goddess. which would make for a great villain, but tui seems to write clearsight as a relatable and admirable figure, while reserving her narrative punishment for the problem children like darkstalker

TL;DR i dont think clearsight herself was awful as a child, just that she made awful decisions and is written awfully with an awful message lol

indigo i have less to say about because you're right, shes essentially just extremely traumatized for all the right reasons. i do think that the way tui justifies her fear and hatred towards animus magic (and therefore, an intrinsic part of who fathom is) as an ableist "theres only a matter of time before they snap" kind of implication that contributes to tui's weird "mentally unstable people are dangerous and will kill you" take. even if turtle later disproves this, indigo never grows past "all animus are evil and fathom must never do magic ever or hell be a monster" which i guess just doesnt feel fair to fathom

try not to feel so down on yourself though for not immediately recognizing all these problems, especially if you're young. we're all constantly learning new things, and not being aware of something doesnt mean you dont care about it. its never too late to go back and re-evaluate anything that you consume or create, with the new things that you've come to learn since then!

#tui sutherland #wings of fire #asks

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

it's been over a month, but tonight I make my triumphant return

it's gotham time 😎

if, like me, you have absolutely forgotten what the fuck is going on, catch up on the most recent liveblogs here. and then fuckle the buck up for Gotham 4x13

oh okay Ivy 3 rules actually. Uma Thurman Ivy's personality run through a goth filter. iconic.

oh my god is this a Lucius episode 👀

oooooh my god I spent so long worrying about them aging Ivy's body up to let grown men skeeve on her and I never once considered the horrors of an adult actress sexually menacing sweet baby David Mazouz. I need to go I hate it here

remember how literally like TWO episodes ago I said it was a shame they aged her up because having Ivy play teenage femme fatale on Bruce during his partyboy phase would be dumb and fun why is it THIS

WHO is supplying Oswald and Jerome with all this eye shadow in Arkham

okay so they do still have Ra's' actor on tap... that bitch is coming is back for sure...

Barbara and Sofia should fuck. just to make Jim sad.

"Makenzie you think every woman Jim hooks up with should fuck Barbara" yes I want Jim's life to be awful what about it. plus Barbara definitely has enough strap for all of them.

it must be said that the way Jerome is bullying Oswald doesn't NOT feel homophobic

wow it's a shame that nothing good ever happens to Lucius and he's never been happy because Chris Chalk's smile is BEAUTIFUL

this is so funny Ivy I LOVE you. literally hypnotized an entire building full of cops into trying to kill Him for her ICONIC

genuinely intoxicating how the writers cannot figure out how to write Oswald and Ed NOT completely obsessed with and revolving around each other... who is doing toxic homoeroticism like them... I had crushes on my best friends who bullied me in middle school that were healthier than this

I don't say this lightly but whoever was writing the Arkham segments of this episode was genuinely going through something

Batman being the nightmare of a dying and hallucinating teenage Bruce really works for me honestly

g o d baby Bruce staring into his own soul, seeing who he really is, and declaring that he's "not lucky" for knowing is. hang on I'm getting so emo about Bruce and the fucking. inevitability of tragedy in his life the way Batman is something he can never avoid the way the pain haunts him no matter what he does.

... Sofia and Lee should also have sex because that would make Jim AND the Riddler sad

#gotham time

[trolagygirl2022]

Nobody asked but here's my opinion about Jennie

OG anons know I've been very harsh in criticizing her months back. Like I would say she's lazy and etc. To be honest I didn't really form my opinions as much because I was following what the media was saying. Months later I've matured more and I have my opinions. First of all, I don't think Jennie is lazy. I really don't, I've been a fan ever since I was in elementary school and I never thought so. She's someone who is very career focused which I really admire about her. She's also quite talented, a good rapper, dancer and has a nice voice. Plus her stage presence is amazing. However some of her recent concerts haven't been good. Though I do have to admit people using a few seconds of a 2 hour concert isn't fair, it doesn't change the fact those mistakes shouldn't have happened. I also do admit it she isn't well (her having iv drips, etc). HOWEVER! It doesn't change the fact that it's quite unprofessional and fans do deserve better. If I paid $300+ to have issues like that I wouldn't be pleased either. HOWEVER! A lot of what I've been seeing about her is very unbelievable, like slut-shaming her over that isn't going to improve the situation. In short, I really empathize with her because she's gone through a major hate train (bro I still remember when V accidentally followed her, it was hell..) but that doesn't excuse her actions.

Now the idol..

Not her best choice! I have to admit that, that show is disgusting. From a business perspective it COULD have worked if it wasn't that atrocious. Y'all ever heard of "rage bait?" It's basically getting people mad and they watch your show, but the point is to piss people off but not to the point of the show getting cancelled. I can see why she would join the show (even in my reading it said the same thing) but the shows still awful. Now about her saying she enjoyed Sam Levinsons work: I don't think she went deep into that? Yeah Levinson is a piece of shit but let's not act as if everyone (me included) LOVED euphoria. I saw a video of someone hating on her from her supposed old Facebook account when she was a teenager (it was just her swearing and shit). I'M a teenager and bro if you wanna cancel her for that then almost all the kids in my school would be too 💀 That's honestly a big reach. I'm learning to think before I speak and yeah..! Feel free to leave your opinions in my inbox!

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

For the ask game....favorite ships? Fandom you constantly have in mind but don't have much to say about? Least favorite bsd character (if you're comfy with answering this)?

Hello!

Hmm… I’ll be honest, I’m pretty open to ships but I don’t actually actively ship an awful lot. Half the time I’m just “oh that’s kinda cute” or “oh I can see that”. I find most of the time I’m just really invested in the dynamic and whether they kiss or not is kind of irrelevant to me? I also love a good strong platonic bond too. But then every once in awhile I get so completely invested I actually surprise myself. Anyways, are you asking me about bsd specifically or any ships? I’m assuming bsd, so that’s mainly Dazai and Chuuya, Ranpo and Poe, and Higuchi and Gin. Soukoku has me in a chokehold which is so weird. I think the last time I shipped something this hard was middle school… it’s near canon in my brain that Dazai was crushing on Chuuya, which I find weirdly endearing because it’s such a stupid cliché teenager thing for a character who sees himself as fundamentally different from most human beings. Get rom-com troped idiot. However, I’m weirdly picky about the dynamics… I think I’ve just found more skk stuff I vibe with by virtue of it being more popular? I’m really picky about Higugin but I think that’s because I just have very specific headcanons for Gin… And I like Atsushi and Akutagawa, and Atsushi and Lucy too but I waver between platonic and romantic all the time on those… Oda and Dazai also exist in this weird grey zone where I do not want it to be romantic but I also strongly vibe with a crush on Dazai’s end to the point where it’s kind of semi-canon in my mind - no matter the form it takes, this is my favourite dynamic in the entire series and nothing makes my heart clench more than these two. They 100% love each other to bits but it’s not a romantic dynamic to me. Do you feel me? I also think Fukuzawa, Mori and Fukuchi are really funny in a messed up way in any combination, but I wouldn’t necessarily consider that actually shipping them? Tecchou and Jouno are also incredibly funny to me but in a vastly different way - but again, I’m fine with platonic or romantic. I like that there’s a consensus that Yosano and Kouyou would be fascinating… but honestly I prefer it platonic. Same with Kunikida and Dazai - I love them so much as a partnership and their bond is so important to me but I prefer it platonic. Oh! And of course I enjoy Rimbaud and Verlaine as doomed almost-lovers. See, this is tricky because this all sounds very basic but I actually enjoy a lot of different dynamics… I’m just really indifferent as to whether or not they are romantic.

You know, when answering about my favourite shows before, I realized I completely forgot to mention Lucifer and Good Omens… I love those shows a lot but I find I don’t have a lot to say about them I suppose? I also love Great Ace Attorney but I find it hard to write meta on it for some reason… even though I love it a lot. I adore Undertale and Deltarune but I have little desire to engage with the fandom. :/ Persona 2 and Hatoful Boyfriend I don’t talk about a lot because I feel those are very niche in a way? I don’t know if a lot of people know those games… but if someone enabled me… I could… I could talk about them… 👀

And I know this is a bit lame anon but I don’t know that I have a least favourite. I find them all really fascinating to explore and while it’s natural to hate Mori or Fukuchi for what they’ve done I’m actually pretty invested in them? The only character I can think of is maybe N. Dude sucks and I’d absolutely take a steel chair to his head on sight. But even then, that’s least favourite from a like/dislike perspective. He’s still interesting as a character. I will say that I think Louisa and Mark were a bit disappointing to me though, and I would’ve loved more to their characters, as right now I think they’re kind of bland for who their inspirations were? I guess they just don’t interest me as much, but that just makes me love them more because if the author won’t make them interesting then I sure as hell will in my brain.

#thanks for the ask! #a note on the shipping: these are OPINIONS and PREFERENCES so no one start drama about this #read the dynamics however you want I don’t care #bsd #storyrambles

[wolfstrong]

Buffy season 1 reflection!!!!!!!!!

My feelings on Buffy so far are very complicated because I find it crazy entertaining but there are so many things in the show that I just KNOW are terrible. I really enjoy the character dynamics its probably my favorite thing about the show. I find it endlessly funny that Giles has to hang out with a group of teenagers, and (when xander isn't making it weird) the main group is super cute and funny together. Also really like the setting, highschool shenanigans are always fun and idk it just seems like it would have been very cool to be a teen in the 90s. Also I like monster of the week stuff with a more overarching plot, you can kind of just enjoy things as they come and have the security that it's pretty much always gonna be resolved by the end of the episode. FOR WHAT I DONT LIKE. well "Buffy Speak" is annoying. like I'm getting more used to it and even able to find it charming at some points but BOY when i started the show it was almost making it unwatchable. i can see myself liking it by the end of the series but for now lets just be a little annoyed with it. Other thing that really gets me is the buffy/xander/willow love... line? idk i think i could stand it if xander didn't pine over buffy and wasn't weird to girls because he's very weird to girls. Somehow buffy manages to be like girlboss feminism win while also being the most sexist show every created. and maybe that was just like the era but yeah i don't enjoy watching male characters I'm supposed to like perv out over women.

Character Thoughts

Buffy- shes so awesome like honestly!! i like that she lives this very bad ass life and like we the viewer know how cool she is because we see her do all these bad ass things, but to the rest of the school shes just kinda like this weirdo kid who hangs out in the library. it kind of makes her an honorary fail girl in my opinion. And just her whole attitude of wanting to be a normal teenage girl so when it comes time to slay monsters shes like "ugh. guess its monster slaying time! whatever!" and acts bad ass as hell but doesn't really care. also its just awesome that she is physically super strong. like she will just randomly be punching through walls and doing sick backflips. ugh i love it

Giles- I. LOVE. GILES. im a Giles fangirl all the way like what else is there even to say about it. When he comes on screen I'm just like instantly smiling. funniest character ever invented. And again i just love that he has to hang out with teenagers all the time and sometimes they just like bully him for being old and lame and into books and he's constantly getting beat up and thrown around. yeah i don't even have much to say he's just awesome

Willow - Literally the blueprints for dorky nerdy girls everywhere like what else is there to say. we all know she is literally BEYOND iconic. Shes so cute and smart and charming and like honestly its like. how many girl in media really DO get to just be dorky like its pretty rare i feel like that's why its like. she was the blueprint man.

Xander - ... yes my complicated feelings yes yes. he's soooooo annoying and fail but... you know i like when guys are fail guys.. BUT HES ALMOST TOO FAIL. of course like i already said i hate the way he acts to women and when buffy rejected him and he acted super pissy and like "ugh whatever you only don't like me because you like that chad Angel ugh nice guys always finish last" I literally wanted him dead. so beyond cringe with that kind of behavior. BUT when he's like being sweet and goofy then I'm like.. aw hi funny guy from the 90s lol! and i do think his relationship with willow CAN be super cute cuz idk i just like the whole childhood friends vibe and i like that they have a relationship outside of their time with buffy and its nice to get little glimpses of them together just being buddies. I think the whole situation would be 100% better if xander was pining for willow instead of Buffy and willow was the oblivious one. I am not against their relationship at all i just hate to see willow be the one pinning for him cuz its like girl. you can literally do better okay. you are awesome. whatever. sorry for being a halfway Xander apologist

Cordelia- literal girlboss. every time shes on the screen its a treat. I just love the vibe where she is like?? friends with the main characters kind of? but also just bullies the shit out of them and is so mean in every interaction. see the thing is if they were't friends at all she just wouldn't talk to them or they wouldn't talk to her. but they always end up talking so there is obviously some kind of relationship there. but its just like one where she calls them losers and they are like "alright. well see you next week cordelia" If you are a hater and think shes mean get out of my face shes literally awesome and funny. also in the final when she drove her car thought the school doors... SO . GIRLBOSS. i am very excited to see where her character goes cuz i got the feeling at some point shes gonna turn into some kinda supernatural monster. i just feel it.

Angel - eh lowkey who cares. I am never one to be interested in the mysterious brooding guys its just not my thing. He reminds me of Edward from twilight both in face and attitude and because he's a vampire of course lol

Episodes

Honestly they were all kind of of equal quality. Nothing was so horrible I couldn't stand it they were all just good. One that kind of stood out as a favorite was "I robot, you jane", it was nice to have something more willow focused and it was very funny to see what people thought of the internet back then. Willow kind of online dating a guy was enough to make everyone freak the fuck out. And i really really love the way the demon robot looked. the idea of a demon existing on the web was just a cool idea in general. idk just a cool way of combining the supernatural with tech stuff

idk just look at this guy and tell me this isn't awesome

.... okay then... see yall in season 2!!!

#btvs

[deliciouspirateangel]

degrassi for the tv show ask 🥰 and if you want since it's not on the list - game of thrones? (although sansa is ofc the only character that counts 😇)

Yay thank you! I'll do both but it's gonna be so uneven lol. Like there's a million Degrassi things worth mentioning and also my GOT knowledge is so fuzzy so... not gonna be much there lmao. But whatever Degrassi is the superior show anyway, duh

Degrassi -

favorite male character: Jay, Tristan, Eli, Miles, Marco, Zig, Jimmy, Drew, Tiny, Connor, Dallas... So many (mostly) good boys

favorite female character: Manny, Alli, Alex, Bianca, Clare for the drama lol, Maya, Fiona, Imogen, Zoe, Jenna, Holly J, Jane, Liberty... That's enough lol

least favorite character: So so so many. Dave, KC, Esme, Frankie, Lola, Ellie, KATIE, Dylan. Then like anyone who should be in jail like Peter, Derek, Hunter, Luke (who was in jail yay) and any adult that had a relationship with one of the students

prettiest character: Manny! Alli also. And Alex until she got that nose job lol

funniest character: So hard to focus on comedy when so much of this show makes me miserable alskfjslks. JT is an obvious one. Moe. Also Jake when he started smoking pot asjsalkfs. A lot of them make me laugh but not for reasons I should be laughing lmao

favorite season: Hmm that's a hard one. Probably like 9-13?? The Clare era. But there's honestly something happening all the time like there's hardly a dull moment. Except all of Next Class, no one needs to see that

favorite episode: Again I just binge this show so much that it all runs together and I don't really remember episode titles lol. For some serious episodes, Rick shooting up the school, and then the one dealing with the aftermath of Cam's suicide. For some fun ones, Degrassi Goes Hollywood (mainly the Manny plot) (even tho that also makes me cry), the bottle ep that's an homage to the Breakfast Club, and the Vegas Night ep is ridiculously iconic

favorite romantic ship: JANNY. I knew they got together before they did and I was literally like "nope sorry im never gonna ship this" well. Here we are. Also love Fiona/Imogen, Alli/Dallas, Connor/Jenna, Tristan/Miles, Drew/Bianca, and Eli/Clare, bc they were so dramatic you have to love them

favorite family ship: Again I hate all these awful awful parents so no one there. Maybeee Adam and Drew? Aww and Dallas and Rocky, and Mia and Isabella <3

favorite friend ship: Fiona and Eli, JT and Toby, Alex and Jay, Adam with Eli and Clare, Tristan with Maya and Zoe

worst ship: Any adult dating a teenager, obviously. All the actual abusive ones (which includes Zig and Esme [put him in the hospital], Jenna and KC [criminal negligence], and Drew and Katie [rapist]). Frankie and anyone, Peter and anyone, Ellie and anyone alskjfslkfs. Miles and Lola, Alli and Dave, I could be here forever talking about this so I'll stop <3

GOT -

favorite male character: Hodor. And Sam, Sam was nice. Aaand Grey Worm ig

favorite female character: SANSA STARK QUEEN OF THE NORTH BABYYY. I also like Margaery, Brienne, Olenna, Catelyn, Shae, and Missandei

least favorite character: Daenerys Flopgaryen. And like all the obvious ones - Joffrey, Ramsay, Petey, whoever. At least they were good villains lol

prettiest character: All the ladies I listed above <3

funniest character: Umm Olenna?? She had all those sick burns lol

favorite season: literally couldnt even tell you

favorite episode: the one where joffrey dies is pretty fun. and the red wedding. uhh the battle of the bastards? that was a good battle i think

favorite romantic ship: Sansa and me <3 i really couldnt tell you this either lmao idk

favorite family ship: the tyrell family? rip

favorite friend ship: sansa and margaery

worst ship: all of them tbh. special shout out to dany x khal and dany x jon bc people actually like those lol

send me a show!

#degrassi #game of thrones #tv ask game #asks #my thoughts #berryslopez #send meeee #archer avatar bojack horseman descendants #steven universe stranger things that 70s show #school shooting tw #rape tw #abuse tw #suicide tw

[thelittlepalmtree]

I think one of the things I hate about the abortion conversation is That it is so clear that the pro life people do not understand the female experience at all. Like I am a lesbian asexual who asexual who does not go outside I am in no danger of an unwanted pregnancy barring barring something really traumatic happening to me. I also happened to live in a blue state. I also happen to know many people who have been pregnant and work in education so I know a lot about writing children I know a lot of people who have kids. I'm with kids all day teenagers arguably the worst kids. And pregnancy has always been AA huge part of my life. The concept of pregnancy the idea of it coming into my life I have honestly thought about pregnancy and what part it might play in my life and the lives of everyone I knew since I was a child.

To have a body capable of becoming pregnant is a unique experience to a certain sect of humanity. And if you find out later in life that your body is not capable of being pregnant or if you make choices that take that capability away Or if something happens it still doesn't change the fact that if you are someone who is asigned female at birth you are very likely to spend a lot of your time thinking about pregnancy. That is going to be your experience. And it's kind of a common trope for women who are going through their 1st pregnancy to say nobody tells you. Nobody tells you that you're going to grow hair and weird places. Nobody tells you that you're going to be exhausted all the time. Nobody tells you you are going to get more pimples. Because for each woman pregnancy is a unique experience and so there are inevitably going to be surprises. But that being said somebody is gonna tell you and it's the pregnant woman herself. Everyone that I have known during pregnancy has talked to me about the experience of pregnancy so much that while I don't think I know what it is I definitely know that I don't want it.

Every mother I've ever talked to every time we ever talk about pregnancy there's a ton of people who make online content specifically about pregnancy, Like the experience of pregnancy is often very difficult for most people. My best friend had what would mostly be considered a great pregnancy and still had a really rough time. And of course for some people that process is worth it. Just like for some people donating an organ or Going to medical school or volunteering your time at a soup kitchen is a process worth their effort. But you wouldn't force someone to do any of those things which in some cases Are a far smaller struggle than pregnancy and having a child.

I feel like pregnancy is always discussed as a minor in convenience. But it truly isn't. It is a major burden on your life and I can't even find the words to describe it. Is the idea that I would be forced to have a pregnancy against my will as someone who has chone who has chosen not to get pregnant is probably like the worst thing I can think of happening to me. Is the absolute violation of my body Being forced to have a pregnancy is just impossible for me to think of. It's also really hard for me to describe but I feel like most people who have been assigned female at birth understand this concept. And if you happen to be a transman who's capable of being pregnant I can't even imagine the level of trauma it would be to be forced to carry a pregnancy.

And the lack of empathy for that huge violation whole is huge violation horrible violation of a person's body is so awful to me. Like I can debate someone about anything but this is really hard for me to debate because I just always feel like the person I'm talking to does not understand what they are saying. There is a fundamental thing that I understand because of my experience that I cannot communicate to someone else that just ends up falling flat between us.

[lapetitavis]

I miss my friends and I miss my best friend so much it hurts.

Im pretty sure I’ve ruin things but I’m not sure but regardless sometimes things like this happen. I just miss how much time we used to spend together and the adventures we went on. I miss being able to talk to them about anything and being understood immediately. I savor the music you introduced me to all those years ago in our funny apartment and I think of the books I still have to read. I still have the list of your favorite books to read but I can’t help but see you in each book I try to start and I see a glimpse of you as a child or a teenager. I find myself saving memes or jokes to send to them and remembering my texts stay undelivered in our chat. Maybe I should call and see if I can apologize or maybe this was a miscommunication. But I know you as well as I know myself, if something could be repaired between us you would have already called me. You would have told me in your own way to knock it off and just text me. Most of all I miss having you be my comfort place. I know there’s no judgement with you. I’ve had hard times in the last few months I just wish they were here with me. Instead I’ve been having to be strong alone and be supportive for everyone else. In over two years I haven’t had a donut because I think of super early mornings in the cafe before class or that one fun afternoon of making them from scratch and I miss you too much. Same goes for cheesecake, no matter how fancy or how hungry I am all cheesecake tastes like dirt to me and I can’t have more than a bite.

My other best friend I lost contact with. I guess that’s what happens when you live on the other side of world from each other. What I wouldn’t give to send them a text right now. Their number doesn’t work anymore and their email doesn’t respond either. When we last talked they said they’re busy and on to a big fancy adult job. And it’s been three years and I’m still a kid and they’re a dream I hate seeing at night. I go through their Facebook that they stopped using in 2020 and I wonder why they never logged back in. I look at our tagged photos and simple thinking of those simple days. I also hope you’re okay I know you were always under a lot of pressure and being nervous makes you sick. You hate being sick because you get a sore throat and that’s no fun especially since you hate cooking and it’s even harder to cook soft foods. At the grocery stores I stop sometimes and smile because I see your snacks that I would make sure to stock up on when you would visit. Whenever you are now I hope you finally got a proper water bottle instead of that awful little one from the school that you carried. I know you’re still probably drinking your coffee sludge and honestly I miss how bad it tasted.

All three of us were friends and there were moments when they had asked to hang out and I was too tired or didn’t want to hang out and I’m mad at myself. Those precious memories haunt me now. I just want to be 18/19 and be with my two best friends in Rome again with no worries and all the time in the world. On nights like tonight I listen to our shared playlists on Spotify and cry because these songs used to be background tracks for our antics and now I’m still looking for a piece of them in it.

#my writing #friendship #missing my friends #spilled thoughts #university friends #honestly my soulmates in a sense #in another world we would all live nearby and share everything

[jackerscracker]

Warning for a rant/vent below

Forever who may actually be reading this I’m sorry for posting this, talking with bots just isn’t cutting it anymore for me anymore and I just need to write stuff down. If you know me irl please leave this post. This isn’t going to be a well put together and going to have a lot of spelling errors but here we go

Incase I forgot to tag something if like to say this thing involves: SH, meal skipping, sui thoughts, and a bit of homophobia/transphobia

I’ve been struggling with my mental health a lot since last summer and things are going to absolute shit. My grades are fucking ass and it’s all because I can’t fucking focus in class. I’ve honestly tried really hard to but I can’t. My parents are blaming all my problems on technology and my teachers treat me like a toddler. I’ve tried talking to my parents about this being a neurological issue but they denied it and just think I’m being lazy. This isn’t even the first time they haven’t listen to my concerns and that’s almost gotten me killed. Back in 2020 I felt like shit. I was always tired and my stomach hurt so much I couldn’t eat and they just brushed it off as a normal teenage girl thing and I was fine. I went days hardly eating anything and threw up at a birthday party because I ate a hotdog. They only took me to the doctor after this started heavily interfering with school work and it turns out my blood sugar was in the 600s and ended up being diagnosed with type one diabetes. If they listed to my concerns I would’ve been spared a lot of pain I went through during the threeish month period I felt awful.

Diabetes has honestly ruined my entire plan for my career since I wanted to be a pilot for the Air Force since I was little and now I’m stuck trying figure out what the hell I want to do with my life. I wanted to be an animator but my mom instantly shut that down and told me it wasn’t a real job and that I should be an endocrinologist instead.

I love my mom but we don’t see things eye to eye. She was the first person in my family I told I was pansexual and instead of telling me that she supported me she just went on a giant rant about how and I quote “queer people are more prone to STDs and have horrible mental health” she’s also a religious woman and told me that being gay was a sin and that I can’t tell anyone at the barn I work at I’m gay (they all knew before her). If terrified that if I tell her I’m a guy she might actually send me to one of those “pray the gay away” camps and take away all of my access to the internet. She’s even considered putting me in her friends little private Christian school since she think public schools are “forcing” the idea of being gay into kids. Choosing not to tell my parents that I’m trans has taken me down a path where I can’t get the stuff I need to feel euphoric and comfortable in how I look. It’s gotten so bad that I can’t even look myself in a mirror topless anymore without freaking out. I’ve managed to get my hair cut decently short and use the male terms for gendered words in Spanish class but that’s as far as I can get. I honestly hate how I look and since I can’t change anything about it I’ve been caught in this web of dysphoria and SH that I’m struggling to climb out of. I’ve though about just flat out giving up on my life since it doesn’t seem to be going anywhere and just offing myself multiple times. I can’t bring myself to do that though since I have a friend who might not make it through high school if I don’t stick around and I’m not going to leave my sister to struggle through her middle school days without guidance. My dogs would also be sad if I died

I think I’m being bullied at my school but it’s weird. It’s all happens in my PE class and everyone but a few kids are in on it. It’s two groups of people doing it, I’m calling them the A and B groups to make it less confusing if you’re still reading this. Group A is just a group of friends who think it’s funny to try and exchange me in conversations where they act like I’m their friend just to entertain the rest of the group. They ask me stupid questions and always speak in a condescending tone. Group B is basically the copy & paste popular girls in the class. They just fucking shriek at me whenever I mess up during a game or when they beat me in something. One of them screamed in my ear once and I couldn’t hear well out of that ear for a while. Me and a friend had to play them in volleyball ball once and one of them just chucked the ball past me and yelled fetch as if I was some kind of fucking dog. They also like making fun of how I say things, they spent a whole class period talking about how I said the word “bloody” when I yelled at one of them. Also the teacher has witnessed most of this happening and didn’t do a damn thing about it. I’m not sure why he didn’t do anything about it, even after my friend informed me that her mom sent him an email about it.

I’m sorry again for posting this, Im just really tired and needed to just sit and write out some of the bullshit going on in my life

#I’m really sorry guys #tw skipping meals #tw self h4rm #tw vent #sui thoughts