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coquelicoq · 5 months

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i can't stress enough that outside of this one moment in rogue protocol when murderbot wants to kill a human for betraying its sort-of clients but settles for the next best thing of menacingly hovering a drone in her face for 26 seconds while she's frozen in place by her armor, for the rest of the first four books mb is really only using drones for security purposes and doesn't have the time or inclination to be performing close-range facial analysis:

in ASR it doesn't seem to be all that familiar with drones outside of maybe using them to set a perimeter. it exhibits several other uses of drones as events escalate, but they're all related to protecting itself and its humans and getting intel on EvilSurvey. at no point does it mention watching a human with a drone; it's all "using drones to draw fire" this and "sending drones flying off in the wrong direction as a diversion tactic" that. et cetera.

it has no access to drones whatsoever in AC from what i can tell.

in RP it uses Ship's drones to record conversations between wilken and gerth, but it's not a participant in those conversations and it doesn't even watch them in real time. it also forgoes getting a good look at their weapons via drone because it thinks they would notice. later it takes control of a station drone to watch (from afar) their first meeting with don abene & co., but miki notices the drone and almost catches mb because of it, which freaks it out. then it hacks the combatbots' drones, but other than the aforementioned 26-second intimidation of wilken, it's too busy doing actual security work to use them to look at people.

in ES it accesses drones many times, including to observe its humans, but it only seems to actually control a drone to look at something one time, and only in order to zoom in on a suit logo. so at no point could it conceivably be directing a drone to get up in somebody's face, since it's just piggybacking on drones as they go about their normal business.

it does use cameras to watch people in the first four books, but in a much less obvious way: either it's using fixed cameras that are built into habitats/hoppers/whatever, or it's accessing mobile cameras (suit cams, station drones) but not controlling where those cameras go or what they're pointing at.

it's interesting, because while drones can be startling or intrusive, on the flip side, cameras that don't move don't draw attention to themselves and thus may make it easier to forget you're being watched (plus you have no way of knowing if that particular camera is being monitored at that moment or if it's just recording for later analysis). so in a way, having a drone in your face actively signals to you that mb is paying attention to you. it's making mb's gaze visible in a way it might not otherwise be. this changes the dynamic from "passive surveillance for datamining and threat assessment purposes" to "person actively choosing to pay attention to you in real time". one of these is covert and the other isn't; one of these holds the possibility of interaction and exchange and the other doesn't. maybe it puts a drone in your face to show you it cares.

#theoretically. if it is in fact putting them in people's faces those times when it doesn't specify #rather than just sort of hovering them several feet away pointed somewhat subtly in the person's direction or whatever #also it probably is not putting a drone in tarik's face to show him it cares. but it *is* showing tarik it's paying attention #whether or not it's doing that consciously or on purpose in order to send that message #(it just wants to study tarik and that's how it can do that. especially in the restricted space of the shuttle)#but the point could hold for people other than tarik. and wilken lol #the murderbot diaries #murderbot #mb gaze #mb asr #mb ac #mb rp #mb es #mb sc #system collapse spoilers #system collapse #i guess?? by implication lol #my posts #f #disclaimer that i don't actually have a searchable version of these books so i'm relying on my notes and could be missing something #but i'm fairly confident about those bullet points

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sonknuxadow · 4 months

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i tried to make another recipe from the sonic cookbook for my lunch today . emphasis on tried because i thought i had more of the ingredients than i actually did and didn't realize how much i was missing until i had already started cooking and gotten excited to eat official vector the crocodile ramen so i just said fuck it we ball and hoped it turned out ok . what i did end up with was pretty good though even if its not exactly what the recipe was telling me to do

#i had the bacon egg spinach and garlic #(though the recipe called for garlic cloves and all i had was minced garlic so i just used that hoping it was ok)#i was missing the scallions and nori and mushrooms. i actually already knew i was missing the mushrooms #but i dont really like mushrooms all that much so i was fine not using them #the other stuff though i thought i had and i would have used it if i did . sad !#i also think i added a bit too muhc garlic. in my defense i wasnt really paying attention to the measurements in the recipe #because the recipe is for 4 bowls and i was just making one so i was just kinda guessing and doing what feels right.#also out of my stash of instant ramen i had a few different flavors to choose from and i decided to use pork #since bacon is the meat for this it just makes sense in my mind #ive never considered using bacon in ramen before this btw but it fucks hard i will probably do it again eventually #little guy images

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orchideae · 2 months

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Also, for whoever didn't catch this when it was originally released, I highly recommend it. I'm still absolutely feral about the nine tailed fox for Yelan. But they're all magnificent in this.

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#[ et cetera. ] every round of finger-guessing is a tiny adventure; and every roll of dice sends sporadic thrills down her spine.#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.#[ also guizhong makes tiny appearances and it made my heart sing. i miss her so very much. ]#[ but i already struggle using a braincell for multiple muses-- and on top of that; yelan is merciless. all attention or none. ]#Youtube

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suchastart · 1 year

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Hey are you still here? Are you okay?

HI, WOW, yes, I've alive and okay! Hi!!! I haven't been here in ages--how are we doing? What are the cool kids up to these days? I feel like that Gary Buscemi meme,

What are we reading or watching or playing? Is PJO/HOO still a thing? Asking for a friend.

It looks like I have a few messages in my inbox but I have no idea how old they are or when they were sent--the little envelope notification never popped up whenever I would periodically check in, so I assumed I didn't have anything, so sorry!!

Hope everybody is doing well!

♥

#I never understood the blogs that would disappear and then just... become kpop blogs but........... that was almost me #OOPS got a little more into kpop while I was gone in the real world #I want to like Come Back to doing stuff here but also my attention span and ability to commit to things is SHOT #so I don't want to make promises because I absolutely cannot keep them #but like I really so desperately do miss writing???#so we'll see I guess sorry #I missed tags as parenthetical thoughts #idek what I would even write about I mostly spend my free time watching let's plays and doing crochet?? and sleeping??????#and reading kpop fanfic I guess but that's a secret idek WHO I AM ANYMORE???#mina answers asks #mina has a real life sometimes

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smallblueandloud · 10 months

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i mean also. okay. this episode was extremely sweet. i love me a good time travel episode, i really loved the pelia moments, i like that they're paralleling city on the edge of forever, and i especially loved the little moment with the kid at the end.

but godDAMN these people are terrible at recreating kirk's voice. i know that the tone of SNW is extremely different from the tone of TOS, and also that kirk is the #1 sufferer of Mischaracterized By Pop Culture that star trek HAS.

but genuinely, still, there was nothing in that episode that made me think "damn, oh my god, that's jim!" he didn't talk like kirk, he didn't snark the way that kirk does, and he didn't even do the shoulder-grab that shatner does every time he kisses someone. i know that he's from an alternate timeline, that he's younger, that TOS had straight-up awkward dialogue and this show has better writers. but like. he doesn't feel like kirk and it made it very hard for this episode to land

#sb and l rambles #sb and l watches st #star trek #snw #st critical #i guess? idk guys #i love them. i think they are doing many wonderful things. but i think this could've used a lot more attention?#i feel like they're trying to do a similar thing with chapel and uhura -- modernizing them while also keeping them recognizable #they're doing a phenomenal job with uhura (i am also extremely biased. in fairness)#and chapel is... the way that they write her has its misses. but for the most part i think they've managed to capture the--#--wry humor and stubbornness that has always characterized christine chapel

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yeonban · 5 months

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★ - for Aha & Akivili!

Send me a ★ and I’ll bold what applies to your muse.

I like you / I hate you / I dislike you/ I love you / You are family / I would take a bullet for you / I would shoot you / I would lie to your face / I would say something cruel to you on purpose / I would say something cruel to you accidentally / I would cheat on you / I would physically hurt you / You annoy me / You amuse me / I’d laugh at you / I’d laugh with you / I’d manipulate you / You scare me / You confuse me / I wish I knew you better / I trust you / I don’t trust you / You inspire me / I consider you an equal / You are beneath me / You’re better than me / I would trust you with my life / I think you’re mean / I think you’re petty / I think you’re childish / I think you’re smart / I think you’re stupid / I think you’re a bad person / I think you’re a good person / I’m not sure what kind of person you are / I wish you would listen to me / I want to make you proud / I wish you would notice me / I want to impress you / I would hurt other people for you / I’m not sure how to make you happy / I’m a bad GREAT! influence on you / You deserve better than me / We make a great team / I’d have a one night stand with you / I’d have a relationship with you / I would marry you / I fantasize about our life together / I would trust you with my most treasured belonging / I would tell you my darkest secrets / You disgust me / You intimidate me / I hope I intimidate you / I’d hug you / I’d let you hug me / I’m scared of losing you The world wouldn't be as fun without you in it / I don’t think you like me / I want to be better for you / I respect you / I don’t respect you / You’re my mentor / You’re my friend / You’re my best friend / I have a crush on you / I could easily watch you die / I’d get drunk drink with you / I’d party with you / I’d comfort you / I’d prank you / I’d spike your drink / I’d act behind your back / I’d abandon you / I’d hurt you to get what I want / I would choose my happiness over yours / I would choose your happiness over mine / I despise how much I care for you / I need you / I’m dependent on you / I don’t know what I’d do without you / I’m scared of you leaving me / I’d give my life for you / You frustrate me / I’d call for you in a time of need / I would protect you / I’d visit you in the hospital if you were weakened / I’d carry you if you were hurt / I’d feel guilty if I hurt you / I’d let you be near me when I am vulnerable / I’d ignore a phone call from you / I’d call you at 3am / I’d break you out of jail / I’d get angry at you / I would shout at you / You’re too loud / You’re too quiet / You’re too sensitive / You can’t take a joke / You embarrass me / I feel nothing for you / You’re reckless / You’re bossy / You bore me / I would ask your advice / I would blame you for something I did / I would cry in your arms / You have the power to hurt affect me more than anyone else /

#muse: aha.#ascendedstar #...They are down more horrendously for Akivili than I previously thought I fear. and it's terminal too.#like some of these I did NOT expect to be bolded but their gay ass proved me wrong... to live is to learn I guess </3 #also... 'the world wouldn't be as fun without you in it' absolutely obliterated me. Aha just decided that no phrase from this template #fits what they're feeling well enough so they went ahead and CREATED one that'll fit better. an Akivili special if you will #It's so odd to look at Aha's dynamic w Akivili bc they're SO incredibly fond of Akivili. words can't even begin to describe it #but at the same time being an aeon is such a tragic thing? bc you're forever bound to the concept you ascended with #and in Aha's case that's elation... which limits their emotions to happiness & theatrics. which is TERRIBLE for bonding w others #I think on this front Aha is one of the more limited aeons... bc others /are/ free to feel whatever emotions they want to if they so wish #(I think the only one that's also limited in this sense might be Yaoshi? bc they wouldn't exactly be allowed to feel or act on hatred)#BUT YEAH Aha is very attached to Akivili but in such a fucked up twisted sense of the word. and it really Shows in their interactions #They're glued to Akivili's side and talking w hearts and saying they want to hug Akivili and giving them their entire attention for a year #...only for them to next blow up the thing Akivili treasures most (the Express and its Nameless) not long after to grab Akivili's attention #The INSANE duality drives me wild... Aha can be so sweet to them one moment and then so ??? the very next #and I feel bad for Akivili for having somehow piqued Aha's... affections; but it's SOOO interesting to watch them unfold #bc as confusing as their actions might be; Aha's fondness for Akivili really IS the genuine thing. They miss Akivili soso badly

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workwort · 4 months

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this year I want work more on building relationships with the most common plants around me.

#potentilla and Galium and red clover and oats and alfalfa #nettle and the medicine of the trees…. but tree medicine feels sort of really intimidating.#everything around you is in communication with you whether or not you percieve it.#I worked with plants of greater presence last year but I feel like I’m neglecting so many other things. I guess it’s also true that #you will always miss other things so long as your attention is focused elsewhere. some plants simply feel more authorative or urgent #or even imposing… elder and hawthorn are this way. some are ecstatic like vervain or marshmallow #you have best results with plants that have a strong emotional impression I believe #herbchat

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tvxqdbsk · 1 year

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whats the weird thing between yunho and jaejoong ?

i was putting it lightly as a joke, but it’s a broken friendship and a mutual and deep sense of betrayal

#its hard to explain if you arent familiar with pre-split or lawsuit era #but basically they were best friends for a decade and the parents of the group #and like incredibly close and loyal to each other #and when jyj decided to leave there was definitely betrayal felt on both sides #its complicated and i could go into detail but im sure you can imagine how a friendship could be ruined #over group split than ran much deeper than a simple legal battle #and i guess the weird thing they have going on is more so the fact that jaejoong (and js) still talks about tvxq #(some people feel he does it for attention but i think its also possible that he sincerely misses them)#while yunho wont even acknowledge that the group was ever more than just him and changmin #ask

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catboyfurina · 6 months

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my early childhood education class is really driving home the developmental in developmental disability.... like i knew thats what adhd is classified as but they just keep dropping skill after skill that are standard for Small Children that i do not have D:

#attention span. is of course the one that is most noted but even like #theres that one adhd sway thing and i was like huh i do that guess theres another data point. not a big deal though it doesnt cause any iss #es #right. well. apparently one of the skills youre supposed to get is spatial awareness. and it specifically mentioned going around things #which technically ! i do but also sometimes. quite often even #i do not manage fully around. meanwhile its expected for Small Children to get able to do that. huh what HUH #beeep #like again not getting fully around isnt a Big deal i just get caught on doors and then uncatch myself its not Disabling like other aspects #and if i hadnt seen the youtube (the youtube referencing a study not just a youtube)#i wouldve kept on assuming its just a itty bitty side effect of weird eye #but like......... man. in nearly every area i was like wow i suck at this one wow i suck at this one w #its a good thing im an adult algebra is much easier than counting to one hundred . u can write it down and when u lose your place u just #look at the paper #although i havent gotten algebra in a while i miss it............ but i could go do algebra. if i had time. and thats what is nice #anywayyyyyyy ahaha

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pepprs · 2 years

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also the favoritism thing is still making me so fucking mad and insane btw. im not jealous / resentful of my brother bc he deserves her love and is also burdened in his own ways by it and bc i think my drama w my mom has shaped my life in profound ways and given me friends i cherish and i would never trade any of that for the world but jesus fucking christ. why do i have to beg you to interact with me like a mother. why do i have to talk to me at all beyond asking me to do you 847439473 favors a day. why do i have to beg you to take an interest in my life and apologize when you hurt me and be nurturing and perceptive for once in your fucking life. like it hurts to hear her asking him about his classes and whatever bc she didn’t think i was stressed out w school but i had to talk to a ****** hotline last decemver when i couldn’t take it anymore and my mental health was crashing and burning and it doesn’t even fucking matter to her at all and she’s going to get him the nice gifts and throw him the nice parties and whatever because she hates me and my sister for… and let me get this straight… being complicated and anxious and depressed and also girls. lol!

#purrs #delete later #sorry i knowive been insane about momposting but this shit has me screeching like an ape. the way when my brother was born she decided me #and my sister would be okay with each other bc we were twins and meanwhile she was leaving my sister to have anxiety attacks and me to take #care of her and all of this happening at like 7 years old and she would come into my brothers room every single night and kiss him goodnight #and talk to him for a long time and she wouldn’t even come in and say goodnight to us. LOL. ok. like our room being a depression nest is not #an excuse. us not helping out much in the kitchen or around the house (which is bad but also we have reasons for it that i think are valid #and i only do it here and not elsewhere btw.) is not a good excuse. you can’t decide you love your one kid more because he helps out and #keeps his room clean and whatever. maybe he is normal because you made it very clear from the time that he was born that he was your top #priority and you gave him your attention and didn’t take it away meanwhile my sister and i have always had to share bc we’re twins and she #cast us aside when he was born and has fucking tormented both of us for years over who we like what we want where we go all of that shit and #then has the AUDACITY to call herself a good mother. being a good mother is more than feeding your kid and projecting your childhood trauma #onto them by preventing them from ever developing cancer to the point where they’re afraid fo like. go outside. you have to be patient and #nurturing and kind and like.. motherly. ans i know no one can be a perfect mother and she has been hurt so badly and she is dealing with a l #lot right now but COME ON. for gods SAKE. i am right fucking here. why don’t you care about me? why do you make it clearer every day?#ask to tag #like the way she would say when my sister and i were growing up and going through it that she wished she could book a hotel and live there f #far away from us and miss out on us growing up so she wouldn’t have to deal with us being anxious and hormonal because we were teenage girls #LOL. totally did not impact me at all. totally is not a wound that informs every breath i take and every thought i have. not at all #* like maybe he is normal because you uh… idk. just a guess here. actually gave him the motherlove people need to be functioning healthy #human beings? idk. just a silly thought. haha

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muslimronanlynch · 1 year

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okay so officially done with greywaren + had some time to think about it and yk i think the dreamer trilogy goes off, it absolutely slaps like it’s SO good. mi made me feel genuinely insane and i loved every second of it

greywaren imo is! okay! i like the resolutions we did get, ronan’s powers finally being explained was great, many of the character arcs were amazing, declan and matthew finally losing it was 10/10, farooq-lane burning is so sexy, chapter 12 my beloved, ALSO the implicationsss of ronan being some god-like forest entity who’s in love with adam the first man... yeah + him being part of the choosing to be human club alongside sir percy jackson... YEAH but then... i wish it didn’t feel as rushed and also if you’re gonna have this perfect epilogue years later you can’t be left with this many questions and loose ends

like why did declan’s entire outlook on his parents change in like one line (i wanted him to burn down the barns fr but alas), why are mòr and the new fenian just kind of there now, how do dreams go on without their dreamers now without a sweetmetal (i might have just missed that in the text), why was the whole nathan thing just randomly shoved in there, why was bryde such a Character only to randomly just kind of disappear, what happened with bouddica in the end, WHYYYY was there no real resolution to the matthew/declan situation, why were jordan and especially ronan barely in this book like i’m so sad about it honestly the potential...

not saying it was bad!! because i do think it was solid, and there were many things i loved but overall i think it’s the weakest of the three which is a bit tricky to end a series on bc you’re left with a bit of an anticlimax HOWEVER!!! ronan did get a sexy new tattoo so everyone cheer and clap

#greywaren spoilers #greywaren #also adam is NAWT working for the government not my baby idc #guess it depends on what he’s doing exactly but.... hm.#pls don’t attack me if i missed smth while reading and i’m now complaining abt it this happens sometimes i hard a hard time paying close #attention near the end sorry 😔

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orchideius · 1 year

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if my life doesn’t get better in two years, I think I will join the 27 club lollll