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nanaminokanojo · 3 years

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[10:00 PM] Ryomen Sukuna

LOG 14 OF MY JUJUTSU KAISEN TIMESTAMP DRABBLES

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"Baby."

Sukuna knows you heard him. Still, you continued walking as if you didn't, going ahead of him about ten paces ahead, your posture and the overall attitude in your gait speaking volumes of your current mood. He easily kept up with you, placing an arm over your shoulder, but much to his surprise, you shrugged it off you and walked the remaining expanse of sidewalk towards your shared apartment. He just watched in annoyance as you walked into the lobby and got into the elevator before him.

"Trouble with your princess?" this nosy grandma, who lived at one of the units at the first floor, asked.

Sukuna just smiled awkwardly, bowing slightly as he passed her by on his way to the elevator. When he finally got into your unit, he found your coat lying on the hallway, picking it up only to see your jeans a few steps ahead then your shirt. He finally found you in the kitchen already wrapped in a robe which you didn't even bother tying up, agitatedly pouring yourself a glass of wine, the cerise liquid sloshing around the glass violently.

You were behaving rather out of character, making a mess out of your clothes when he knew just how much you hated it when he leaves his things scattered about. On top of that, you left the cutlery drawer open with the corkscrew you used on top of the counter, droplets of red wine littering the granite top. You just passed him by without saying anything, refusing to look at him on your way to your bedroom.

I see how it is, he thought, taking long strides to the direction you went. He eyed you sternly, having had enough of your attitude. "Y/N, what's going on?" he demanded.

You flinched visibly at the way he addressed you. He doesn't call you by your name unless he was dead serious about something. "It's nothing. Don't mind me."

"Woman, don't tell me it's nothing when –"

Before he could finish, you walked into the adjoining bathroom, turning on the tap to the tub to tune him out. You were evidently being passive-aggressive now, and he detested it when you did that.

"Just go back to your party. I'm sure everyone's wondering where you've gone," you told him, picking up your glass from the dresser top. "Especially Miss Hanako." You shot him a sardonic smile before taking a swig out of your wine, the way you said the woman’s name dripping with vitriol.

And then it hit him. You've been dishing out barb since you told him you wanted to leave the company party he was partly hosting for his department. You did so when the secretary to the president arrived and started chatting him up. He was now thinking your behavior thereafter had something to do with it. You were fine before that so it could only mean one thing.

He didn't know whether to laugh or what at the thought of it. When he decided to pursue you, he didn't have qualms about it even if you were a good six years younger than him. He knew how problematic it could get having an immature partner, but that's where you were different. You held yourself with such confidence, grace and equilibrium way beyond your age, you shared the same pragmatic mindset he had and you didn't seem to have a proclivity for drama like others your age. You hardly ever fought because of petty things and he loved that about you.

But then, you're still young and he didn't hold it against you that you're suddenly acting like a brat. If anything, he was happy about it because you were never ever jealous. It sometimes made him doubt how you felt about him when you yourself would be pointing at other chicks for him to look at while saying things like, "Baby, look at her ass. Damn, she's sexy." And now that the green-eyed monster is rearing its head to the surface, he couldn't say he didn't like it.

"What about her?" he asked cautiously, making you jump the hoops.

You sneered, the action very intimidating despite your angelic features. “Oh, I don’t know, Sukuna. You tell me. You seemed to be enjoying her company. Don’t stop at my expense.”

He leveled his expressions to you. “Well, she is something, isn’t she? Smart, too.”

“Yeah, you deserve each other,” you hissed, the anger flaring up in your eyes making him stir alive.

“But she’s married.”

“All the better!” Seeing through what he was doing, you turned towards the bathroom and slammed the door shut. He didn't hear you lock it so he followed suit.

"If you're jealous, just say so already!" he told you. He wanted to hear it out of your mouth.

"Why would I be jealous? She looks like a bad rip-off of 80s Brooke Shields!" you spat, confirming his thoughts. You climbed into the bathtub sulkily, eyes on the bubbly water.

Sukuna knew he shouldn't even be thrilled about the prospect of it. If you were jealous then that means you were kinda doubting him in terms of his loyalty to you, and he should not like that, but at the same time, you were also being possessive which you rarely do. He couldn't help it.

Loosening his tie, he began shedding his clothes off, stripping naked before you, revealing the tattooed expanse of his skin and his impressive musculature as he tossed one garment after the other.

"What are you doing?" you asked as he approached, the way you mumbled the words causing him to just sigh, feeing defeated at how endearing you looked hugging your knees to yourself. "I thought I told you to go back to your party."

He didn't say anything as he went into the tub, sitting opposite you, but it wasn't long before he was pulling you towards him, positioning you between his legs so your back was pressed against his hard chest. He then began planting hungry kisses on your neck, down to your shoulders, his large hands wandering all over your body, one already having found itself on your breasts while the other coaxed your head to turn towards him so he can kiss you, his movements urgent yet languid and gentle.

"I'm all yours," he breathed against your lips, grinning. "You know that, right?"

"I know." You shrugged, facing forward again. “I don’t like the way that witch was touching you though. And you were all smiles about it, too.” You smacked him on the thigh, eliciting that deep laughter you adored no matter how mad you were at him. “Don’t laugh! It’s not funny.”

“It kinda is.”

“If you even think for a second that anyone can have you, Ryomen Sukuna, you’re wrong.” You looked him in the eyes, your dark orbs boring into him while your hand touched the side of his face, your crimson-painted nails looking like claws against his cheek. “You’re mine.”

He wrapped his arm around you, kissing you on the temple before placing his chin on your shoulder. "Jealousy is ugly, baby," he whispered in your ear, "but I gotta say, you wear it so well."

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Okay. Before I get another "untimely (and unsolicited, if I'm allowed to say) lecture" about the etymology of the word "Ryōmen (両面/りょう)" meaning "two-faced/two-sided" and not a surname or given name , let me say it now, I KNOW, but thanks anyway. Sukuna and I are neighbors, just 4 hours by train. Geez. However, I am using his whole name in literature form, so if I do switch it up and use it as a surname for him (cause heaven forbid, the Kamigami rain hell on me) it's all for fun and literary creativity. No need to get too pressed over it.

No more fighting on my comments to point this out @fushigummy @kenkinori XD

And I have nothing against the 1980s or Brooke Shields. *waves at her fans*

It's established. I love bathtub scenes although I detest the idea of stewing in my own filth. But yeah, look forward to more bathtub drabbles.

I say too many things. Bye.

Thank you so much for reading. Likes, comments and reblogs are deeply appreciated! Hope you enjoyed it.

PHOTO/IMAGE/GIF/FANART CREDITS TO THE RESPECTIVE OWNERS.

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msmarvelouswinchester · 4 years

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Stranger

I Know You

Summary - After that evening, the freckled face of that man was engraved in your memory. You hoped that you would meet him again and you do but not all meetings are pleasant - some reveal the dark secrets of life.

Pairing - Dean Winchester x Reader

Warning - Fluff, Angst (a lot of angst), swearing, 18+ SMUT, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it people)

Square filled - Showering together (implied) ( @spndeanbingo )

Word Count - 2.5k

A/N - This is the second part of the series Stranger (my brain hates oneshots). Prepare for the slow burn people.

The dividers are by @talesmaniac89 and the banner is by me.

A/N - This is the first time I have ever written smut. I have tried my best lol. Also thanks to @bucky--barnes because her fic Innuendos helped me a lot to write the smut part. There are certain parts in the smut that irked me a little while writing so I decided not to include those but maybe in the future I can write about those (I'm very new to this whole thing).

Okay enough of nervous rambling, just go ahead and read it!

“This is the last time I'm warning you! Step away from the cake,” you yelled making your husband jump and drop the piece of the cake, “what did you do?”

“You shoufn’t haf yellt,” he spoke with his mouth full.

“Get. Out. Now,” you seethed as you examined the destroyed piece.

“I like it when you get all bossy,” he goes to grab your waist but you successfully dodge his hands. “Y/N,” he pouted.

“Those eyes won't work on me Mister,” you raised your eyebrow, “and I need to clean up the kitchen because your dumbass acted like a child.”

“I didn't.” He grumbled.

“Leave the kitchen now. Go check on your demon spawn,” you said.

“Hey, he's half yours.” He argued.

“He got all your bad qualities,” you smirked. Dean stared up at you with his green eyes and said, “maybe our baby girl will get your bad qualities,” he caressed your still flat stomach.

“How do you know it's a girl?”

“Father's instinct,” he said.

“That's called mother instinct-”

“So fathers can't have instinct?” He grinned.

“That's not what I meant, you fool,” you said.

“Uh-huh,” he smirked, “So you think-”

“Mommy, Daddy,” Jaxon, your three year old came running into the kitchen with Scooby hot on his heels.

“What's up kiddo?” Dean turned and picked up the little boy in his arms. Scooby whined and nuzzled his face into Dean's legs, trying to get his attention. “You're not forgotten, buddy,” he started to pet the German Shepherd.

“Cake,” Jaxcon said and hid his face in the crook of his father's neck.

“Bad qualities,” you threw a look at him and saw him shrugging.

“We have to wait for Grandma and Grandpa to arrive sweetie, then you can eat it,” you said.

“Okay,” he pouted.

“Come on Y/N, give him one piece,” Dean said.

“Don't encourage our son. If he gets a sugar rush, you have to deal with him,” you shook your head at your husband.

“Scout’s honour,” he grinned, as you cut up a piece of the cake.

Dean put the little boy down into a chair, when he started wriggling in his arms. Jaxcon immediately dug into the sugar factory as soon as you handed him the plate. You walked out of the room to check on the other preparations, as Dean kept a close eye on the boy, his hands occasionally petting the dog and scratching his ears.

Life was good. After that night at the bar, you had met Dean again. You were having a bad day - you had just handed the resignation letter to your pervert boss and walked out of your office, when you had bumped into him on the streets.

“I feel like you are my guardian angel who just pops up whenever I have a bad day,” you had laughed.

“Maybe it's a sign from the universe for us to be together,” he had said, a big grin plastered on his face, “let me take you out on a dinner. You won't have another bad day.”

You had agreed and one thing led to another and here you were now married to him with a child and another one on the way, organising a family gathering to celebrate the thirtieth anniversary of your parents.

“Hey babe, I think your parents are here,” Dean called out from the kitchen.

“Yeah got it,” you shouted back.

“Hey Mom, Dad, happy anniversary,” you greeted as you opened the door.

“Thanks sweetie,” your Dad leaned into giving a peck on your cheek.

“Mr and Mrs. L/N,” Dean greeted, “thirty years huh? Happy Anniversary. Come on in. Your daughter has made some delicious food items.”

“Dean,” you chided but couldn't stop the smile that was threatening to spread over your face.

“Soon you will be celebrating your thirtieth anniversary. Time flies when you are with the right person,” your Dad said and you knew your Dad was right.

So yeah, life was good.

“It looks like a freaking djinn,” Dean said, clutching the steering wheel tightly as he drove back to your town. He gritted his teeth in anticipation, as he focused on the road ahead.

“Dean you need to slow down or else we'll be dead even before we reach the town,” Sam frowned, “maybe it's a Djinn, but I am sure that Y/N/N’s absolutely safe.”

The older hunter's jaw ticked as he tried to put a brake on his racing thoughts - why did he always have to think of the worst?

After another hour of driving, Dean pulled up his car in front of a house. Jumping out of it, he jogged up the stairs and knocked on the door waiting for a reply.

“Dean stop! Maybe she is at work,” Sam intervened before his brother kicked down the door.

“No. She is in a huge ass danger. I can feel it Sammy,” Dean said, gripping his brother's shoulder tightly.

“You need to focus, Dean. I don't think you freaking out will help us at all. We need to treat this as any other case,” Sam said, “maybe Y/N’s safe after all.”

Nodding his head, Dean went back to his car, Sam following closely. They drove over to the nearest motel. Within a few minutes, they had switched to their fed suits and started going over the case and the alibi of the witness.

“Man with tattoos appeared out of nowhere. Bingo!” Dean exclaimed, “I told it seemed like a case of the tattooed suckers.”

The Winchesters started working rapidly - from interviewing the witness to finding out the locations of abandoned warehouses and buildings in the town.

“Uh….Dean. I think this might be the location where the Djinn is tak-”

Sam’s words were interrupted by the shrill ringtone of Dean’s phone.

“Agent Shaw speaking,” Dean said, “another missing report?....Name?” Sam saw his brother's eyes widened with fear and anger, as he continued to speak with the person over the phone.

“Thanks for letting us know,” He said and disconnected the call.

“There has been another report filed, another person has gone missing. Her name is Y/N L/N,” Dean breathed out, “I am gonna kill every one of those sons of bitches.”

“Mhm,” you groaned, as you were woken up from your deep slumber to your husband peppering kisses all over your face.

You opened your eyes to see him staring at you with his forest green ones. Pulling you close, he captured your lips in a sensual kiss. You moaned into his mouth as his teeth slightly grazed your lip. Without letting go of your lips, his hands started to work on the buttons of the flannel which actually belonged to Dean, unbuttoning it successfully and you laid there in just your panties.

“De-” you whimpered as he started to leave a trail of kisses down your bare body. His calloused hands massaged your breasts, his sinful mouth started to suck at the sweet spot on your neck, eliciting a sweet moan from your mouth.

“That's gonna leave a mark. Gonna let the world know you're mine,” he growled into your ears, his voice making you shiver with anticipation. As his fingers worked on your already hardened nipples, his mouth slowly moved south.

Spreading your legs apart, you felt his hot breath at your clothed, wet core. “N-need you,” you breathed as you felt him starting to kiss your inner thighs.

“Mhm, so fucking wet already,” he mumbled, as he swiftly ripped off your damp panties.

“Dean, p-please,” you whined.

“Please what?” He gave you a cocky grin, his fingers brushing past your sensitive clit.

“Either fuck me or put your magic fingers to use,” you pouted which immediately turned into a gasp as he put a finger inside you. He started to pump at a slow pace. Your back arched in ecstasy as he picked up the pace. He put another finger, your knuckles turning white as you gripped the bedsheet tightly. He curled his fingers inside you and kept pumping at a quick pace, brushing your g-spot over and over again.

“F-fuck,” you moaned, as your hand left the bedsheet, to tug at Dean’s hair, entangling your fingers with the short, soft strands, making him groan.

“De, g-gonna c-co-” you whimpered.

“Then let it go, sweetheart,” he rasped and that's all it took as your body shook with pleasure, you came hard on his fingers. Dean moved up to you as you panted, your mind and body in a euphoric state. He pecked your lips lightly as you tugged at his boxer’s band but he lightly swatted your hands away, “so impatient.” You noticed the sizable bulge in his boxers. He grunted, throwing his head back in pleasure as you palmed his cock through the soft material of his boxers.

He pulled down his boxers, his hardened length sprung free. You took his cock in your hand, giving it a few strokes.

“Nuh-uh,” he groaned pushing your hands away. “I won't last long i-if you do that a-and I wanna be inside you.” You let go of him, giving into his plea.

He kissed you once again as he lined himself in front of your entrance. “Fuck,” you gasped, your eyes fluttering close as he pushed himself inside you.

“Shit sweetheart,” he groaned, “not gonna last long.”

“Mhm,” you moaned, failing to form any coherent sentence, “m-move.” Dean obliged, slowly pulling out of you till only his tip was inside you. He kept thrusting into you, “s-shit, baby.” You jerked your hip forward, trying to meet his pace. He quickened his pace as he roughly kissed you. He continued to ram into you, his cock brushing your g-spot every time, making you moan out loud. His hands travelled all over your body. He let out a breathy moan as the coil in your stomach tightened.

“Gonna c-come,” you whimpered, your pussy clenching around him.

“Let go baby,” his thrusts became a little sloppy, as Dean inched towards his climax. Your hands gripped tightly onto his biceps, as his fingers entangled with your hair.

“Fuck Dean!” You cried out as the coil inside you snapped and you felt yourself coming undone, “fuck!”

Dean thrusted into you a few more times before he let out a guttural moan, his seed spilling inside you, coating your walls. He dropped his head onto your shoulder, his face hiding in the crook of your neck as he collapsed on top of you. Panting, Dean pulled out of you, as he rolled to the other side of the bed. You both laid in bed, as you pulled the covers up to cover your modesty.

“Morning,” you smiled.

“Morning,” he whispered, pecking your cheeks, “I'm gonna go and get a shower. Join me.”

“No funny business. You have work and you are already running late,” you warned, “and the kiddos are up.”

“Scouts honour,” he said as he walked into the bathroom in all his naked glory. You removed the covers and climbed out of the bed to go to the bathroom.

“Y/N,” you stopped in your tracks as you heard a voice calling your name.

“Dean? Did you call me?”

“Nope.” Your husband replied from the bathroom. You shrugged off the feeling and went into the bathroom, joining your husband. Needless to say, you guys didn't make it out of the bathroom in time.

“We already have a ten months old and a five year old. Don't you think you should tame your libido?” You said, while feeding your daughter.

“I can't keep it in my pants with you walking around me,” Dean said, “sooner or later, I will put another baby in you.”

“Daddy!” Jaxcon exclaimed as Dean leaned in to kiss you.

“What?” He groaned making you chuckle.

“I will be late for school! Hurry!” The son urged.

“Who gets so excited for school? He is a nerd like you!” Dean said and walked over to his son not before he had kissed you. “Take one to know one. Go or your boss will kick you out!”

Ava, your ten months old, babbled as she waved at her father. “Oh look, your baby girl says bye,” you said, catching your husband's attention.

“Bye Ava,” Dean waved back as he followed your son out of the door. This was your daily morning routine.

“Y/N, sweetheart, wake up,” you heard the voice again but no one was in the house anymore except your daughter who could hardly form complete words.

“Who is it?” You called out in the empty house.

“Y/N, sweetheart wake up,” Dean said to your unconscious figure lying on the ground. Exhausted, injured, Dean desperately tried to wake you up. Tears pricked at his eyes, as guilt ridden thoughts made their way into his mind. Two lifeless bodies of the djinns laid on the ground beside you.

“Sammy, she's not waking up,” he said, his voice cracking.

“Let's take her back to the bunker. I already gave her the antidote. If she doesn't wake up, maybe we can look through the archives of the British Men Of Letters,” Sam grunted as he stood up. They both were beaten up but none of them suffered any life threatening injuries. Dean picked you up in bridal style, as he made his way towards his car. Sam joined you and Dean after he was done burning the bodies.

The drive back to the bunker was tense. Sam was in the driver's seat as Dean was in the backseat with your head resting peacefully in his lap. He caressed your face, removing a few loose strands of hair, as he waited for you to wake up with bated breath.

“What if the antidote doesn't work?” Dean asked, worry evident on his face.

“You remember what happened with Charlie?” Sam asked, “we have to use African Dream Root to wake her up. We have to invade her dreams.”

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idunnoficsorsumthing · 3 years

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I’m sorry for my absence lol. I had my birthday this weekend, and I have been busy and tired and it has been a whirlwind. So here is something cute I wrote this night.

Also my mythology is sooo off. But, this fitted my story idea the best so deal with it lol

Dean Winchester x reader

You were sitting behind your desk typing a new legislative. You worked in the city council of some small- ish town in the middle of New Mexico. Some people had wanted a stop sign, and of course that took a lot of paperwork. The mayor thought you were the best one to do that. It was boring though. You were just finishing the last bits to the legislative, you weren’t even sure if it was in your power to put a stop sign on the road. But, you just wanted to get home. “Ms. L/n?” your secretary opened your door. You look up at her. “Yes?” you said, she seemed disturbed by something. “Two men from the FBI are here for you.” she said, you felt your heart speed up a little. You frown for a second, trying to figure out what they could be here for. “Let them come in.” you said, picking up some loose pieces of paper that you had scattered on your desk.

You recognized them immediately. “What the hell?” you ask. They looked just as surprised as you did. “What are you two doing here?” you ask. Sam held up their FBI batches. “We are on a case.” Sam said, Dean stepped closer to you. He held out his hand and poked your shoulder once. “What the hell are you doing here?” Dean asked. He seemed surprised. “I work here.” you said, he frowned. “You didn’t go to college,” he said.You let out a nervous laugh. “I lied obviously.” you answer. You were very well aware of how much you changed to fit in this role. You sat down in your chair, Sam sat across from you and Dean kept standing. “We are looking for a Lamia.” Sam said, you look out the window for a second trying to think if you had any people you were suspicious of. “I haven’t noticed anything out of the ordinary.” you tell Sam, glancing over at Dean. He looked tired, and the boyish smile was gone. Six years was the last time you saw him. Six long years. “You should have nothing to worry about, this one seems to be going after kids.” Sam said, he took out his notepad. You felt your chest tighten. Alexander was at Kindergarten. You tap your foot at a quick pace to keep your nerves down. “I’ll keep an eye out.” you said, getting up from your seat. You needed them to leave now. “Thanks Y/n” Sam said, getting up from his seat. You follow them to the door. Suddenly, Dean shoved you against the wall. “What are you hiding?” He hissed. You don’t even flinch. “Nothing.” you said back. Sam glared at his brother. “You’re hiding something.” he glared. You shake your head. “Let her go, Dean.” Sam said. Dean didn’t look at his brother. “If I find out you have something to do with those kids, I’ll kill you myself.” he said, Sam pulled his brother off you, and you glared at Dean. “You both need to leave.” you said, Sam nods. After you are sure they left, you quickly hurry out the door of the office.

Six years ago when you found out you were pregnant. You decided the best thing for your kid was to leave Dean, even though you were heartbroken about leaving him. You knew a hunters family wasn’t the life you wanted to give your kid. Either you had to join Dean on his hunting outings or you had to wait days, weeks to see him again, and it was dangerous, especially when he started messing with demons, and angels. You changed your name, and lied on your resume to get a job, and you rented a nice house, and even though Alex would eventually ask questions about Dean, you would just make up a story. But, it was just the two of you. It was watching Frozen for the eighth night in a row, and mac and cheese, and going to the zoo together, and it was nice. You would never want anything to happen to him, like a Shtriga or anything bad. You get to the school, and Alexander was playing with lego’s. “Alex, ready to go home?” Jenny, his teacher, asked him. He got up from the floor, and ran over to you. “Thank youuuu, Miss Jenny.” Alexander said, he greeted you with a hug.

You put Alexander to bed that night, telling him one of his bedtime stories. His grandma had sent him 365 days of bedtime stories, and you couldn’t skip a day or else it wouldn’t be correct anymore. He was adamant about that. The story was about a dad and son at a baseball game. You felt guilty Dean never got to tell Alex a bedtime story, or take him out for ice cream. But, Dean had never wanted kids, and I am sure he’d agree that this was the best for Alex. You kiss Alex goodnight, and you were about to turn off the light in his bedroom. “Mommy?” he said, you nod. “Yes?” you ask. He sat up in his bed. You really hoped he wasn’t going to ask you the difficult question. “Can we go to a baseball game?” He asked. You didn’t feel relieved, you laughed a little. “Sure kid” you promised.

You didn’t take Alexander back to kindergarten for the next couple of days, and you left him with your neighbor that you had known since coming to live in this house, which was more than five years. She was glad to watch him for a couple of days, she had always been a stay at home mom, and last year her last kid left for college. You told her, they had a lice outbreak at the school, and you didn’t want to risk Alexander getting them.

You were at work, sitting in the Mayor’s conference room, he asked you to sit in while the press was there, asking questions about the missing children. The Sheriff had joined the mayor in this press conference. The town gazette, and bigger newspaper journalists had come here, and the room was busy. Your phone rang, you quickly looked at who it was before you turned off your phone. Katrina Colson. You sneak out of the conference room, and you pick up the phone on the hallway. “he is gone, I can’t find him.” She said in a panic. You felt as if you were going to die. “What happened exactly?” you ask. You try to stay calm but all you want to do is cry. “I was in the kitchen preparing lunch, and the doorbell rang, and when I returned to the kitchen he was gone.” she explained, she tried to be also calm but you could hear the panic in her voice. “I will be there as soon as possible.” you said, you race to your car. With a Lamia it was only a matter of time. If she didn’t kill him on the spot, she would keep him hostage till she was hungry. You drive to the nearest motel in town, it wasn’t that big of a town so there was only one near the center, the other was outside of town near the highway. You notice Dean’s stupid Impala. You run up the stairs, and knock on the door hard. Dean opened up the door, he looked surprised to see you, not as surprised as he did last week. “The Lamia took him, and I need you to bring him back, Dean.” You begged him. You hadn’t let yourself think about it too much. You tried to focus on finding Dean so he could find Alex. But, once you said those words, it hit how your son was scared and alone, and was sitting there waiting to be eaten. If- if he wasn’t dead. “What? who?” He asked. He pulled you inside the motel room. “My son. She took him.” you cried. Tears streamed down your face. “Your son?” Dean said, stunned. “Please, I need you to find him.” you cried.

It took Sam ten minutes to be back at the motel, after Dean called him. You sat on Dean’s bed explaining to him what happened. “Do you have any suspicion?” he asked. You shake your head. “Good thing we do.” Sam said, with a smirk.

The three of you stood in front of an abandoned building. “Are you sure?” You ask Sam. He nods. Dean stepped inside the building ahead of the others. You stop Sam by taking his arm. “Alex is five” you said, you look at the door. “Does Dean?” he asked, you shake your head. He nods, the two of you follow Dean. He had given you a gun, and it felt comfortable. You had joined the Winchesters on more hunts than you could count. You held up a flashlight in one hand, and held the gun over the other hand. The three of you split up to cover more ground. “Alexander?” You whisper. When you hear a soft cry. You silently prayed it was him, you keep walking in the direction of the sound. The crying turned into cackles of laughter. Like a chicken laughing. “You bitch” you said, trying to point the gun at the sound. You feel her grab your foot, and pull you to the ground. You shoot in the general direction where you thought she was. Your head hits the ground hard, and you let go of the gun. The Lamia was trying to claw at your chest, she looked beautiful, and yet you knew how dangerous she was, fangs were shown in her mouth. You try to reach for your gun. A gunshot went right through her head, and you shriek, as the corpse falls on top of you. Someone pulled the Lamia off you. “Are you okay?” Sam asked. He helped you up. You nod. “Alexander?” You ask. He nods. “We found him, and another kid, alive.” he said: “Dean took them-.” you didn’t let Sam finish, you ran to the front of the building. Alex was standing there, and Dean was on his knees talking to him. A little boy was standing next to Alex, you recognized him from Alexander’s class. You take Alexander in your arms, and he wrapped his tiny arms around your neck. You start to softly cry a little. “Mom, you’re bleeding.” he said, the scratches the Lamia made had indeed started to bleed heavily. You put Alex back on the ground. You held both the children in your arms as the ride back was quiet. Maxime was brought home, and Anna cried so much when she held her son in her arms, safely.

Dean hadn’t said a word to you, you knew he must have figured it out. When you got home, you took a shower, and cleaned your wounds, after that Alex got a bath. You were cooking dinner, you wanted to cry more. Because you left Dean because you thought it was safer for Alexander, and he still got taken. The doorbell rang, you opened the door. Dean and Sam were standing outside. Sam holding a big stuffed animal. “May we come in?” Dean asked. You nod, you tell him you need to check on dinner, and leave them in the hallway. Dean followed you to the kitchen. “Y/n” he simply said, you look up at him. “Is that my son in there?” he asked, gesturing at the living room. You stare in his green eyes, and you wonder how he could ask the question when it was so clear. Alex had the same eyes, and smile. “Yes, he is” you said, Dean didn’t look reassured by your answer. You knew his next question. “I left because I thought it’d be safer for him.” you said: “But I guess I was wrong.” you look away from Dean, you couldn’t look him in the eyes. You had only left a single note for him. Explaining that you loved him more than life itself, and that you did what you had to for a good reason. You just never told him about Alex.

You take Dean into the living room. “Mama, look what I got” he said, showing you his stuffed animal. “Did you thank uncle Sam?” You ask him. He nods. He was only gone a couple of hours but he still looked very tired. “Let’s go eat dinner, boys,” you said, at the dinner table Dean was chatting with Alex. “I like Tacos less than quesadillas.” Alex said to Dean, and if anything Dean Winchester was a taco man. “I don’t agree with you there, buddy.” Dean said with a smile. “ the crunch of a taco is the best.” He argued. Alex looked Dean dead in the eye. “You should try my mom’s quesadillas. They’ll change your mind.” He said, the table filled with laughter as a response to your son’s comment. Your eyes meet Deans and then two of you exchange a smile.

Dean had asked you if it was alright if he could put Alex to bed. That left you with Sam doing the dishes. “When you left, he had a really hard time.” Sam said, you shrug. You look up at Sam. “I didn’t have it easy either, Sam. I didn’t do it to purposely break his heart.” you said: “ You saw him at dinner. You know that if he knew he had a kid he wasn’t going to let us go.” Sam didn’t say anything for a moment, he took his hands out of the soap water. “I know you thought that the line of work was what would put him in danger. It isn’t. It is in the Winchester blood to go head first into danger.” Sam said: “The best thing for him is to stay in a safe environment, and be protected by people that know what they are doing.” you look away, and hand Sam a hand towel. “I’ll think about it, Sammy.”

Sam had already gone to the car, leaving the two of you standing on the porch. “He’s a great kid, y/n” he said: “I get why you did what you did.” he had his hands in his pockets. You look at the ground. “I’m sorry, Dean.” you said: “I took so much from you, and now I realise that maybe the safest thing for him is to be with his dad, and uncle who can protect him.” You look up and Dean had a small smile on his face. “Do you still love me?” you ask him. You knew you had no right asking him that. He nods. “Good,” you said, putting your arms around his neck. “ I still love you too, Winchester.” you said, kissing him.

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bluebuckstallion · 6 years

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hey not 2 be moody or anyth but im gnna vent a lil bit

so uh. the last few days i was @ my dads i was rlly delusional n erratic nd i saw way more shit than i usually do (along w auditory bs) and i literally didnt sleep at all most nights,, 3 hrs or less which is weird for me during summer,, esp @ my dads. but anyways, on the way to meet my mom he got rlly pissed ovr smth trivial and i jus,, couldnt stop flinching bc god its not like he was gnna hurt me but literally any man raisng his voice makes me cry almost instantly when its tht close to my fuckn ears especially when it was literally unexpected n long story short he said i was rlly goddamn lazy or whatever n we didnt talk for an hour n a half lol it was a shitty carride

and on top of tht. i found out tht half my house burnt down while i was gone! the ac caught on fire. so we were (are) living in a fuckn hotel again, jus like in december-march, lol. my mom couldnt take the rats anywhre so we assumed they died from smoke inhalation (my cats n one of my dogs already got fuckd up over tht) but. yea. we had to keep all 4 of the cats outside during the scorching heat n we managed to take the dogs w us but damn. n on top of tht my uncle is back on heroin n he was presumed dead for 6 days, after stealing my grandmas only mode of transportation n fleeing for the va border. th only contact we had from him was him cussing my mom out (good on him tbh) and on top of THT my grandmas fucked bc she put out a report on her truck being missing n then revoked it so shes in trouble for harboring/helping a fugitive lmao,,, n at this point we can only assume tht my uncle might be dead so yeet

also th person im engaged to is prolly gonna break up w me but im too scared to even talk to them bc ive been tryng so hard to ignore the fact they traumatized me physically but wtver! its cool i guess. they keep talking abt killing themselves

anyways thts jus the small stuff. on top of tht, ive been blacking out way more thn usual when i drink nd apparently ive been fighting my mom every time i drink aswell so??? yah thts had a shit ton of bad consequences

n my favorite thing in the entire world, my cat peach, literally got her torso n below mauled, and its so bad tht shes on morphine n we cant afford her bills even w the red cross helping us. she dislocated her hip or smth and its rlly fucking bad bc jesus tht cat is my baby shes the only thing i care abt ive genuinely never loved smth so much and ik its dumb but idk what im gonna do if we have to put her down bc thats still smth tht might happen and honestly i jus dont fucking know what im gonna do if we put her down. shes my baby

before she got attacked tho, the same dog almost ripped off my other cats ear n rlly fucked up his head but hes healed a bit so its cool. th same dog attacked my other cat too but hes recovered already. n we dont know who owns the dog bc we havent seen it (our neighbor has been keeping us up to date n shes been trying to feed n water th animals)

my Other cat got stolen for a couple of days n the police might get involved over it lol,, they took him for awhile n hes back now but he was missing for ages. ppl have tried to take one of my other cats too bc hes an f4 bengal,, they sell for a lot,, but hes managed to evade it. th other one probably got taken bc hes a kitten n rlly naive. but hey the good news is my animals havnt died yet

also! i start school on monday! lol! everythngs going rlly great

idk more shit happened but im still trying to process a lot of stuff bc eugh

long story short: was rlly delusional n erratic+audio/visual hallucinations n getting no sleep, so i was practically on suicide watch again, stunted my already horrible relationship w my dad, found out half my house burnt down, assumed most of my animals tht got left behind were dead, living in a hotel again w my 6yo brother+mom+3 animals n relapsing a lot, i black out most nights but when i wake up i usually find out ive fought someone n self harmed a lot n face the consequences, person im engaged to might break up w me but i cant msg them to find out bc i get anxious bc i relive trauma they caused tht rlly fucked me up sexually, uhhhh my uncle is a fugitive and might be dead, hes using heroin again, my grandma is in trouble for harboring+helping a fugitive bc she put out a report on the truck he stole from her n then revoked it, found out my favorite living thing in the world (my cat peach) might have to be put down n im rlly unstable over it, she got attacked by a dog rlly brutally along w two of my other cats n the fourth one got stolen, im gnna have to deal w one of my friends havng feelings for me but i rlly dont want to confront it and i start my frst year of high school in 3 days! hooray

edit: ALSO i might have to confront th fact a girl i havent talkd to in abt 3 mnths tht i had a thing going on w is rlly unstable and i dont know if shes alive lol!

#we jus got our ac temporarily fixed so im in th house w 9 of my animals #its rlly good to have some time to myself #anyways w the knowledge half my animals were near death @ one point #n my uncles prolly dead too #its been wildt!#ash.mp3 #long post

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emmacrb · 4 years

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Dragonball SS: Saiyan Survival (story from 2004)

I wrote this back in 2004 when I was barely 15 so it might be a bit shit lol but I wanted to share. It was before I knew what fanfiction was or how to put stuff on the internet- then years later I decided to put it on my DeviantART & fanfiction.net lol. It’s basically a continuation of Dragonball GT (well actually set during the 100 year time skip in the last episode) and it’s about how they cope without Goku or the dragonballs, with Pan as the main character. So here it is:

Dragonball SS- what happens during the 100 years that Goku is off with Shenron 25-26 July 2004 episode 1: Is Goku really gone? (It is the evening on the day that Goku left with Shenron. Pan is sitting on the floor of her room sadly looking at pictures of Goku knowing that he's gone. Videl arrives at the door.) Videl: I have a surprise for you, Pan. (Pan is a little more cheered up. She turns to look at her mum.) Pan: What is it? Videl: Come down and you'll see. (So Videl and Pan walk downstairs and there at the door is Bulla with a suitcase in each hand.) Bulla: I've come to stay the night. Pan: (happily) Bulla! (Pan goes in to her arms.) Bulla: Help me with these suitcases will you? Pan: Sure. (She takes one and the girls go upstairs. Later, after Bulla has unpacked...Bulla is sitting on the bed whilst Pan is sitting on the floor.) Bulla: We're going to have so much fun! (She sees Pan looking away sadly.) Bulla: What's wrong? Pan: Grampa. Bulla: Which one? Grampa Hercule? Yeah, he is kinda weird. Pan: No, Bulla. Grampa Goku. He's gone. Bulla: (confused) Gone? What do you mean? Pan: He's gone off with Shenron and he's never coming back. Bulla: But your Grandma Chichi said he would be home in time for dinner. Pan: She's wrong. Videl: (calling) Dinner time, girls! Bulla: (getting up) Oh, boy! (suddenly worried) Wait. We're not going to have those wart toads again, are we? Pan: No. We're having one of my favourites. Bulla: Let me guess. Centipede soup. Pan: No! Mixed chicken and rice. Bulla: Oh, that sounds nice. Pan: It sure is. Bulla: Who's going to be at the table? Videl: (calling) Girls, did you hear? Pan: (calling back) Yes, mom, we're coming. (To Bulla) It'll be my mom, my dad and Grampa Hercule. Bulla: OK. Cool. (Pan and Bulla go down for dinner. Videl serves up the dinner and sits down. Gohan & Hercule are there too.) Videl: So what've you girls been doing during the past 15 minutes? Pan: Bulla unpacked her stuff...and we had a little chat about Grampa Goku. Is he ever coming back? Videl: Ofcourse he will. Pan: I hope you're right. Bulla: So what d'you wanna do after dinner? Pan: I don't know. Bulla: You got any movies we can watch? Pan: Sure. Bulla: What ones? Pan: Well, I got Love Actually. Bulla: Cool! I love that movie! Pan: Me too! (Videl smiles.) Videl: I have some popcorn you girls can share. Pan: Thanks mom! I love popcorn! Bulla: Me too! (Pan and Bulla put down their forks.) Pan: (getting up) We've finished, mom. Gohan: Enjoy your movie. Pan: Thanks, Dad. (Pan and Bulla take their plates over to the sink and rush upstairs.) Videl: (lovingly) She's growing up so fast. Why in just one year, (well actually less than that), she'll be on the road driving. Gohan: Are you sure she's not already? Videl: (laughs) Oh, Gohan. (Back in Pan's room...Pan is pondering.) Bulla: Pan...what are you thinking? (Pan puts her hands on Bulla's shoulders.) Pan: Grampa Goku's never coming back, right? Bulla: Er... Pan: Right? Bulla: OK... Pan: and there's no more dragonballs, right? Bulla: Aren't there? Pan: No. And we and the other saiyans are the Earth's only hope, right? Bulla: I guess... Pan: Right. So it's up to us. Bulla: You mean, I'm gonna be a hero? Pan: Sure. Bulla: Gee, I don't know. I've never saved the Earth before. (Pan's mobile phone rings. She answers it.) Pan: Hello. Chichi: Hi, how's my favourite granddaughter? Pan: Hi Grandma. I'm fine. (Pan doesn't want to mention about Goku disappearing.) Chichi: (disappointed) Your Grandfather didn't come home for dinner. Pan: Didn't he? What a shame. Chichi: (annoyed) He always disappears without discussing it first. Pan: (comfortingly) I know. Chichi: It really annoys me. He's only been back for a year after leaving with Uub for 10 years! That's especially bad when he has a 15 year old granddaughter and he hasn't even been here half her life! Pan: Tell me about it. (Bulla wonders what is being said. Chichi sighs a huge sigh of relief.) (A/N: I don't think I knew what sigh of relief meant lol) Chichi: (weakly) Would you like to speak to your Uncle Goten? Pan: Sure. Why not? Chichi: (calling) Goten, Pan wants to speak to you. Goten: OK, mom. (Goten sprints over and Chichi passes him the phone.) Goten: Hello. Pan: Hey, Uncle Goten. How was dinner? Goten: Fine. How about yours? Pan: Pretty good. We had chicken and rice. (a bit secretive) Goten, you do know Goku's gone for a long time, don't you? Goten: Yeah, but I haven't said anything to mom. Chichi: (butting in) Haven't said what to me? (Goten looks worried.) Goten: (to Pan) I have to go. I suddenly feel very wet. (Pan hadn't heard Chichi's voice. She thinks Goten means the toilet.) (A/N: I don't know wtf that was all about lol, I think I meant his face felt wet because of a sweatdrop lol but Pan thinks he wet himself lol) Pan: (embarrased) Thanks for letting me in on that! Goten: OK. Bye. (Pan puts down her phone and sighs irritably.) Bulla: (excitedly) Letting you in on what? Pan: (feebily) Uncle Goten wet his pants. (Bulla sees the funny side.) Bulla: But he's 28 years old! Pan: I know. (Pan reminds herself of Goku being gone and sadly looks out the window. She notices through the night a beautiful pink car.) Pan: (excitedly) Oh wow! You have a new car! Bulla: I was wondering when you'd notice. Come on, would you like me to take you for a ride? Pan: Oh, yes please! Bulla: Come on. (They rush downstairs and open the front door.) Pan: (calling to Videl) Bulla's just taking me for a ride in her new car. (They go outside and shut the door behind them.) Pan: (admiring the car) It's beautiful. (Pan and Bulla climb in. Bulla puts the keys in and turns them to start the engine. She grabs hold of the steering wheel and starts to drive up the road. She starts a conversation.) Bulla: You know, my Dad is a super saiyan 4 now. Pan: Yeah, I saw him in battle. He fused with Goku. Bulla: what does that mean? Pan: Grampa and Vegeta fused into one warrior. Bulla: Really? (Pan nods) Bulla: Cool! Uh, and you know how strong a super saiyan 4 is! I'm not even a super saiyan 1! Pan: You could be. (Bulla looks at Pan thoughtfully.) Bulla: (thoughtfully) You know...I guess I could! I also heard that there's a super saiyan 5. Is that true? Pan: I think so. Bulla: Are you a super saiyan, Pan? Pan: (thoughtfully) No. I'm not. Bulla, we need you honey. Bulla: What for? Pan: With no dragonballs, no Goku, the Earth is not safe. Bulla: Why not? Pan: In future battles it won't be. We're gonna have to train really hard, the six of us. Bulla: The six of us? Pan: Me, you, your dad, my dad, Trunks and Uncle Goten. Bulla: Why do I have to? Pan: Because you're a saiyan, too. You have the potential to become a great warrior like your father. Bulla: Well, OK. I'll ask my Dad for training. Break- End of the first half (That night Bulla and Pan are sat infront of Love Actually eating popcorn laughing. Videl puts her head round the door and sees something quite porn.) Videl: Oh my goodness! Pan, what rating is this movie? Pan: (turning her head) It's a 15. Videl: (not sure whether to believe her) Are you sure? Bulla: (assuring her) She's telling the truth, Aunt Videl. Videl: Well OK. (Videl leaves.) Pan: Mothers today, huh, Bulla? Bulla: Tell me about it. (Bulla's phone rings.) Bulla:Can you just pause it for a sec? Pan: sure. (Pan pauses the movie. Bulla answers her phone.) Bulla: Hello. Bulma: Hi, honey. Did you get to Pan's OK? Bulla: Hi mom. Yeah I did. Bulma: So what are you doing right now? Bulla: We're watching Love Actually. Bulma: Oh really? That movie's great. Bulla: Sure is. Earlier I took Pan for a spin in my new car. Bulma: Really? That sounded like fun. Bulla: It was. Bulma: Well have fun honey. Would you like to speak to your father? Bulla: Oh, yes please! Bulma: (calling) Vegeta! Vegeta: (a bit disturbed) What? Bulma: Bulla wants to speak to you. Vegeta: (irritably) OK. (Vegeta comes over and Bulma passes him the phone.) Vegeta: Hello. Bulla: Hi, Daddy! Vegeta: Hello Bulla. Bulla: I'm round Pan's. I took her in my new car. And Daddy, do you think you could train me? Vegeta: (very pleased, not quite sure whether to believe her) Really? Bulla: Yeah, sure. Vegeta: I'd be happy to. Bulla: Thanks, Daddy. And Daddy, is Trunks there? Vegeta: (disappointed) Trunks, Trunks get your karkus here! Bulma: Vegeta! (Trunks comes.) Trunks: Yes, father. Vegeta: (grumpily) Your sister wants to speak to you. Make it quick. (Vegeta passes Trunks the phone and looks away angrily.) Trunks: Hello. Bulla: Hi, Trunks. Trunks: Oh. Hello, Bulla. Are you having fun at Pan's? Bulla: Yeah. We're watching Love Actually and I took Pan out in my new car. I'd better go, now. Pan's been waiting long enough. Bye. Trunks: Bye Bulla. (Bulla hangs up.) Pan: Finally. Bulla: OK. You can put it back on, now. (Later that night. Pan is lying in bed and Bulla is on a matress on the floor. The two girls are laughing.) Bulla: That part was SO funny! Pan: (laughing) Yeah. (Then she looks sad.) Bulla: You're worried about Goku again, aren't you? Pan: (sadly) Yeah. I'm gonna miss not having him around. (Pan looks out the window in dismay and a tear forms in her eye. The next day...Bulla has her suitcases at the door. Videl and Pan are at the door too saying goodbye.) Videl: Goodbye Bulla. Thanks for coming over. Bulla: Thank YOU for having me to stay. Videl: It was my pleasure. (Pan still looks sad about Goku.) Bulla: Bye Pan! Pan: (sadly) Bye, Bulla. Videl: See you some other time. Bulla: You got it.(Bulla walks over to her car.) Bulla: Bye. Videl and Pan: Bye. (Bulla starts her car and drives off. Videl shuts the door. Meanwhile, Chichi is in fits of tears and Goten is trying to comfort her.) Goten: Don't worry, mom. I'm sure Dad'll be back. Chichi: (sobbing) No! He's never coming back! After he's gone off with that dragon he'll stay with it forever! He's gone! He's gone! (She pounds her fists into the chair.) Chichi: (still crying hard) He always leaves me! I want him back! I want him back! I want him back! (Chichi cries harder. Krillin walks up to his house and knocks on the door. Android 18 goes over to open it. Her face lights up when she sees her husband.) Android 18: (really glad) KRILLIN! (She flings her arms round him. Marron hears the commotion and comes to see. ) Marron: Daddy! Krillin: Marron! (Marron comes in to join in with the hug.) Marron: Oh Daddy, I thought you were dead! Krillin: I was. Until Goku used the dragonballs to bring me back to life. Now the dragonballs are gone. Bad news about Goku, too. He came to say goodbye and then he just disappeared. I think he went off with Shenron. Marron: Is he gone for good, Daddy? Krillin: I don't know honey. Android 18: It's good to have you back, Krillin. Krillin: I'm glad too. Any place, wherever in the world or outside that has my wife and 24 year old daughter is the place for me. (A/N: I think I made a mistake here. I didn't realise at the time that Krillin lives in Kame House where Goku met him the day before, meaning his family would probably already know that he's been brought back to life.) (Android 18 and Marron cuddle him more. Now we are flicked to a scene with Yamcha, Puar, Oolong, Tien and Chaozu. Yamcha, Tien and Chaozu are somewhere in the wastelands training. Master Roshi is watching them.) Oolong: Hey, the fight's over. What happened to Goku? Master Roshi: He came to say goodbye to Krillin and myself and then he just seemed to vanish into thin air. Yamcha: I saw Shenron up in the sky yesterday going somewhere. (Puar nods.) Puar: I saw it too. Tien and Chaozu: So did we. Yamcha: No kidding. So you don't suppose Goku was with him, do you? Oolong: That's stupid. Puar: Master Roshi told me that he thinks Pan sneaked on the trip. Maybe she knows. Yamcha: That's not a bad idea, Puar and I just happen to have my mobile on me. (Yamcha dials Pan's mobile number. Pan answers it.) Pan: Hello. Yamcha: Hi, this is Yamcha. Do you happen to know what happened to Goku after your fight? Pan: (a bit touchy) Yeah. He went off with Shenron and he's never coming back. Are you satisfied now? (She hangs up. Yamcha switches off his phone.) Yamcha: Wol! Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed! Puar: (concerned to know) What did she say, Yamcha? Yamcha: He's gone off with Shenron and he's never coming back, so miss attitude says. Oolong: (getting in a panic) What do you mean he's never coming back! Goku! (Puar starts to cry too. ) Tien: I can't believe it...Goku. Oolong: I met him when I was just a 9 year old kid. And then he has to go 47 years later! (to Yamcha) Are you sure he's never coming back? (A/N: 9 years old in pig years when they met? He didn't act like a little kid & already had a deep voice in the dub I saw) Yamcha: Well, that's what Pan said. Miss attitude. Puar: Don't blame it all on her, Yamcha. I mean Goku WAS her grandfather. She must have it pretty hard. Yamcha: (agreeing) Yeah. I guess you're right. Oolong: (still carried away) Forget her! I'm never gonna see Goku again! Master Roshi: Now, now Oolong. Goodbyes aren't forever. You'll see Goku again, I promise. (Meanwhile in Hades, Piccolo is sitting on a rock, thinking.) Piccolo: Goku left so unexpectedly. It's almost like he vanished into thin air. But I didn't sense any instant translocation. (Piccolo looks in horror) Piccolo: And I don't sense him anymore! (then he concentrates) I sense his spirit entwined within that of another. Someone like...Shenron! And I sense the dragonballs within him. Unless... (Piccolo looks up.) Piccolo: King Yemma. Did Goku sign in yesterday? (King Yemma looks through his book of records.) King Yemma: Hmmm...No, it doesn't look like it. Piccolo: Do you know where he is? (King Yemma concentrates to sense something.) King Yemma: Yes. Apparently, he's merged with Shenron and the dragonballs. But he probably won't be gone forever. He'll probably pay his friends a visit and I sense that Goku is going to live for a long time. He'll probably spend the rest of his time with Shenron. He probably won't die for centuries to come. Piccolo: OK. Thanks for your help. (Pan is sat on the floor, still sad. Videl puts her head round the door.) Videl: Pan, I have a surprise for you. (Gill comes from behind Videl's shoulder.) Pan: Gill! (Gill goes into Pan's arms.) Gill: Pan! Gi-Gi-Gi- Is Goku gone? Pan: Yeah. But me and Trunks will look after you. (Gill starts to try to eat Pan's mobile sticking out of her pocket.) Pan: Hey, wol! Don't eat that! (Pan gets it off of him. She looks angry.) Pan: (feebly) Some things never change, do they Gill? (Gill's head droops. Pan still gives him the cold shoulder. Then her attitude changes.) Pan: (hopelessly but friendlily) Ah, Gill. (She hugs him and begins to cry happily.) (Bulla comes in the door of her house.) Bulla: I'm home! Bulma: (walking over) Hello, dear. You drove back here OK, didn't you? Bulla: I'm 16 years old, mom. I know how to drive a car. Bulma: (stressfully) OK. I was only checking. (Vegeta comes to the door.) Vegeta: So how about that training? Bulla: Maybe later, Dad. Vegeta: (getting aggressive) You're going to train NOW! Bulla: I said maybe later. (Vegeta gets hold of her.) Vegeta: I said NOW! The Earth depends on you! With no Goku or the dragonballs the Earth is not safe! Bulla: OK, OK, I'll train now. (Trunks comes in.) Trunks: What's going on? Bulla and Vegeta: Nothing! (Chichi is still crying. Pan looks out the window.) Pan: Grampa. Chichi: GOKU! Narrator: With Goku gone, Pan and Chichi are upset and worry is to come with the dragonballs gone on top. But is Goku really gone? Dragonball SS 27 July- 04 August 2004

episode 2 Narrator: Last time on Dragonball SS, Bulla stayed the night round Pan's whilst Pan remained sad thinking Goku was never coming home. She knew it was up to her and the rest of the saiyans. Meanwhile Chichi had found out that Goku was gone for a long time and was in fits of tears. Just then Krillin arrives to greet Android 18 and Marron and tells them all he knows about Goku and the dragonballs. Yamcha, Puar, Oolong, Tien, Chaozu and Master Roshi find out from Pan that Goku's gone off with Shenron and he's never coming back, but Master Roshi informs everyone that goodbyes aren't forever. Then Piccolo finds out from King Yemma that Goku has merged with Shenron and the dragonballs. Bulla arrives home and asks Vegeta for training. But what does all this add up to? Find out today on Dragonball SS. (Pan, Chichi, Goten, Gohan and Videl are guests at Bulma's house. Bulma and Chichi are sitting at the table drinking coffee. Bulma is trying to cheer up Chichi.) Bulma: Cheer up, Chichi. Goku wouldn't just leave and never come back. (Chichi still looks sad.) Bulma: Relax and drink your coffee before it gets cold. Chichi: Thanks Bulma. (Chichi drinks her coffee. Pan and Bulla are on the floor watching soaps on the TV. Vegeta is perched on the sofa. He turns it off.) Pan: Hey! Bulla: Daddy! Pan: Yeah! What gives! Vegeta: (grumpily) I am not watching that. Pan: Too bad, spike. (Pan turns it back on. Vegeta grumbles.) Bulla: (to Pan) Good comeback. Pan: Thanks. (Vegeta is still grumbling.) Bulma: Oh, Vegeta. They don't turn off the TV when you're watching something. Vegeta: (still grumpily) Well, they wouldn't. I have something important to watch rather than rubbish. Pan: (angrily) Soaps are not rubbish, bob! (A/N: I used to think "bub" was "bob" lol) Bulla: (agreeing) Yeah, some of them have a pretty good plot. Vegeta: (sarcastically) If that's true then call me crazy. Pan: Vegeta. You are crazy. (Vegeta is loosing control. Videl, who is in the corner with Gohan leaning against the wall is not happy.) Videl: Pan! You should know better than to make Vegeta angry! You know he has difficulty controlling his temper! (This makes Vegeta even crosser. He storms out the room slamming the door behind him. Pan and Bulla scream and move out the way when a piece of the ceiling falls down. Now Bulma is angry. She gets up and slams down her mug making some of it splash up in the air.) Bulma: (angrily) That's it! Vegeta has crossed the line! Pan: You can say that again. Bulma: (still angry) I am going to march right out there and get him- (she changes to a sweet gentle tone) to apologise to these innocent little girls. (She goes out the room.) Bulma: VEGETA! Get here now! (Vegeta walks away.) Bulma: Oh, you get here Mr, or they'll be no dinner tonight! (Vegeta grumpily walks over to her.) Bulma: I believe you owe those girls an apology. Vegeta: Forget it. Bulma: Vegeta! Vegeta: ALL RIGHT! (Vegeta stroppily walks in with Bulma behind.) Vegeta: (grouchily) Sorry. Bulma: Say it like you mean it! Vegeta: SORRY! (He storms out the room again.) Pan: Man. Vegeta really does have issues. Bulla: That's Dad. (Bulma sighs helplessly. She begins to walk out the room. Trunks and Goten are on the sofa.) Trunks: Where are you going, mother? Bulma: To do some research. (Bulma goes out the room. Down in her lab, using her microscope and detectors detects that an almost infinite force will hit Earth in 3 years. She screams. Everyone hears and rushes down to see what's wrong including Vegeta.) Vegeta: (seriously) What is it? Bulma: (frightened) My scanners- have detected- that- an almost- infinite force- will hit Earth- in 3 years! (Everyone gasps.) Pan: Oh no! We're gonna have to train really hard if we wanna rid the world of that force! Videl: (angrily) What are you talking about, Pan? Chichi: (also angry) If you think you're helping in that battle, you've got another think coming! Vegeta: (seriously) Videl, Chichi. She's a 15 year old saiyan. Goten and Trunks handled Majin Buu when they were twice as young as her! Don't forget that in 3 years Pan will be 18! She's already reunited the black star dragonballs with Goku and Trunks, even helped in ridding the world of the evil Baby, single handedly defeated some of Goku's old foes and defeated four of the evil shenron nemesis' with Goku! By not allowing her to seek her destiny you're robbing her of her pride! Pan: You read me like a book. Thanks Vegeta! No one's ever stuck up for me before! I'm sorry I watched soaps and called you spike and said you're crazy. You're a very wise old man. (Vegeta looks pleased with himself.) Gohan: I think Vegeta's right. We're all going to have to pull in together as a team. Vegeta: (pleased) By the time that force arrives, I will already be a super saiyan 5. Bulla: So there is a super saiyan 5! Daddy, do you think I could become a super saiyan? Vegeta: There'd be nothing you couldn't do if you set your mind on it. Pan: That goes for me too, right? Goten: No. (Pan looks at him angrily.) Pan: May I remind you who saved your karkus on more than one occasion? Videl: Pan! Pan: But it's true. I collected the black star dragonballs, rid the world of the evil Baby, rid the world of the creatures from Hades and Super 17 and rid the world of all 7 shenrons. Goten: Actually all that stuff was mainly achieved by Goku. Pan: Oh yeah? Bulma: (annoyed with all the talk) All that matters now is that you saiyans train and hard for the next 3 years. (A little later that day...all saiyans have gone to the spirit and time training room. Pan and Bulla have never been there before and are fascinated.) Pan: Wow! What is this place? Vegeta: The spirit and time training room. An hour in here is equivalent to a year on Earth. Pan: Wow, this is some place. Gohan: (getting down to business) OK, you guys. Let's split up into training pairs. I'll go with Pan. Vegeta: Then I'd better go with Bulla. Goten: I'll go with Trunks. Gohan: Right. Let's get started. (They set up into their groups around the room.) Bulla: So what do we do, Daddy? Vegeta: We're gonna go head to head. Bulla: (shocked) Against you?! Vegeta: I won't turn a super saiyan just yet. If I unleash my full power I would waste yours and you would become tired before we've hardly started. (In another corner...) Gohan: OK, Pan. I don't know how strong you really are, so Bulma's given me a power level scale device. (He puts it over his eye.) Gohan: OK, Pan, power up. (Pan powers up.) Pan: Aaah... Gohan: 35,000,000! You really are as amazing as you said you were! OK. I'm gonna fight you at super saiyan 2. Don't go easy on me and remember to block my attacks and unleash energy waves. (In another corner Goten and Trunks are getting ready to fight.) Goten: Ready? Trunks: Ready. (They both turn super saiyan. Bulla and Vegeta are ready to fight.) Vegeta: OK. Let's go. (Vegeta unleashes an energy wave, Bulla screams and it hits her and gets brought down to the ground.) Vegeta: (angrily) That was pathetic! You didn't even block that! You probably can't even send one of your own back! Bulla: (getting up) I can! (She awkwardly sends a weak energy wave and it nearly hits Vegeta, who blocks it.) Vegeta: That's definitely an area we're going to have to work on. Break- End of the first half (Bulla is concentrating.) Vegeta: Concentrate. Feel the energy build up inside you- AND UNLEASH IT! (Bulla unleashes it unsteadily and it ends up being awkward again. Vegeta blocks it.) Vegeta: (angrily) No! No! No! Where's your self-control! (Meanwhile...in the fighting in the air, Gohan punches Pan and she punches him back. They both begin to continuously punch and kick each other. Pan unleashes an energy wave and Gohan dodges it and sends one back. It hurts Pan and sends her temporarily to the ground. Gohan goes down to see her.) Gohan: Hey. Are you OK? (Pan takes the chance to get up and punch him. Gohan blocks it and they begin to continuously punch and kick each other again; with Gohan winning.)

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surveys4ever · 3 years

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Why did you first kiss the last person you kissed? Because I love him and I finally got to meet him in person for the first time!

Do you care what people think? I try really, really hard not to but it’s hard when there are hundreds of thousands of eyes on you, all with opinions on literally e v e r y t h i n g you do.

Are you listening to music? If so, what is it? Nope, I’m listening to the movie my husband has on in the background.

Do you like to take walks? My dog sure does!

Would you ever date someone out of state? My husband was out of state in the beginning!

Plans for tonight? I have to shower and finish redoing my kitchen shelves!

Do you want to go to a party? On one hand, its been nice to have friends that like me enough to invite me to a party but on the other...I have social anxiety soooo no.

Has your birthday past this year? Yup! January baby.

Has anyone seen you kiss the last person you kissed? Plenty of people over the years!

Will this year be better then last? I think every year after this one will be a better year than last year lol.

Can you listen to music while reading a book? Yeah! I enjoy it.

Are Monday mornings the hardest mornings to wake up to? I work from home so all my days are the same! It’s not really hard to wake up ever, unless I was up super late or couldn’t sleep the night before.

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? I would LOVE to go back and relive when my husband and I first met. Just to experience it all again!

Last thing you ate? Doritos!

Who was the last person’s voice you heard? Ryan Reynolds’, haha!

Who do you get along with best in your family? My younger brother or my grandma!

How old do you think you’ll be when you get married? I was 19!

Have you ever been kissed in a car? Many times!

Who were you last on the phone with? Either my mom or the vet!

Do you think anyone has feelings for you? I know someone does!

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? It’s been 9 years, so yeah!

Can you commit to one person and one person only? Already done!

Is there someone who continuously lets you down? Of course.

Is there anyone in your life that knows right away something’s wrong with you? My husband knows me a little too well, haha.

Do you miss your past? Some bits of it!

Are you typically a happy person? I try to be! My brain really tries to prevent that though, sadly.

Do you miss the way things used to be between you and someone else? Yeah. That’s the worst part about getting older.

Who last made you smile? Hubs :)

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone a lot a lot? I can recall right now, yes!

Is there a difference between love and being in love? Obviously!

Where is your Mother? At home I would assume!

Have you ever laid on a couch with the opposite sex? Many times, yes!

Would you rather look at clouds or stars? Stars. Looking at clouds hurts my eyes.

If you could change one thing this year about your life, would you? I mean...I’d like for covid to not be a thing. That would be nice.

Did you sleep alone last night? I never do!

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? I mean, to excess, yes I would care. But the occasional drink, no!

Do you like potato chips? Yessss.

Are you ticklish? Much to my dismay, yes.

Craziest place you have slept? I don’t think I sleep in very crazy places ever.

Have you ever been cheated on? Nope!

Can you count on anyone to be there for you, always? That’s the best part of being married!

Do you think being “heart broken” is as bad as people say? Oh it’s so much worse.

I’m guessing you’ve probably been asked this before, but which do you prefer - Coca Cola, or Pepsi? Coke!

Do you think the last person you texted is a virgin? (You don’t have to tell us who the person is, just say yes or no.) No, my husband is not a virgin.

Has your phone ever gone off in the middle of a class at school? I always had it on mute!

In your phone’s contacts, who is the second person listed under the letter ‘R’? My hair stylist!

What is that person’s favourite drink? I’m unsure what her favorite is but last time we were there, she requested I bring her a berry Propel!

Has the last person you texted, ever been in your bedroom? Yes, as its his bedroom too.

The last time you washed your hair, did you use conditioner? .....there are people who wash their long hair and don’t use conditioner???

Do you prefer light or dark jeans? There’s a time and place for both!

Do you have an item of clothing that reminds you of someone? Tell me about it, and the person it reminds you of. There’s a lingerie set I wore in an ad for a major brand that always reminds me of my husband because we shot it together and it was a really surreal moment.

If the last girl you texted told you that she was pregnant, how would you respond? She is pregnant, actually! I was super excited for her.

How old is the last male you texted? 27!

How would you react if your mother told you that she was pregnant again? I would be P I S S E D. I already have too many siblings, she does not need any more kids, especially at her age.

Who do you have the most text messages from? Definitely my husband.

When was the last time you visited the doctor? Yearssss ago. I’m terrified of doctors.

Do you know anyone who deserves to be slapped? Oooooh yes, she’s had it coming for far too long.

When you listen to music, do you generally sing along, or just listen? It depends! If I'm just sitting around doing nothing, I just listen but if I’m cleaning, I sing along.

Do you have any of your exes as friends on Facebook? No, I think that’s weird.

Would you have sex with the last person that poked you on Facebook? Poking hasn’t been a thing for yearssss but it was probably my mom, so...

Does more than one person like you? Probably but idc.

Who is the youngest person in your household? When is that person’s birthday? Our pup! It’s also in January!

Who was your first love? Do you ever miss that person? My husband! And I don’t have to miss him, he’s right here.

What is a word that starts with the second to last letter of your name? Ever.

Do you like your middle name? Ehhhh! It’s not my favorite. It’s an old lady name that’s been passed down through the generations but I don’t really like my family so I’m not attached to it at all. I’ve thought about changing it.

Would you ever visit a psychic? I really want to! I wanna see what they have to say.

You log into Facebook and see the red ‘1’ notification next to the message icon. Who do you want it to be? I dunno! Someone exciting I guess.

Let’s say I was going to make you something to eat, what would you like? :) I would love some Chinese food, if you know how to do that!

And what drink would you like with that? Just water is fine by me.

Do you know anyone with the same first name as you? Tell me about him/her. I know plenty but the first one that comes to mind is my childhood best friend’s high school best friend, if that makes any sense? We were best friends in middle school and then we went to different high schools so they became best friends. I’m Facebook friends with her but we’ve never actually met in person, haha!

If your hair is long, would you ever think about having it cut short? Or, if it’s short, would you like to grow it long? I’ve had it super short and I’ve had it down to my butt. It’s currently at my shoulders but I’m attempting to grow it out...I’m thinking like titty length?

Can you remember the last time you felt emotional? What was the reason? Period hormones, baybeeeee.

Do you call your partner ‘baby’? Rarely! It’s usually beebs or bean.

What if you were told that your life has to stay exactly as it is right now, and nothing will ever change? How would you feel about that? I would honestly be pretty okay with that.

#survey

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zizliine · 6 years

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Hello TUMBLR! It’s been a super long time since the last time I type things on a blog. I’ve been wanting to do this for a long time, sometimes I just jot my removable pen on a random note that always gone, or on a memo app that tend to deleted accidentally. So I decided to share my thoughts on this platform, idk what would it be, but I’m sure it’ll be healthy for my mental lol.

There is a loooot of things I have in my mind. I always have this roller coaster brain, juggling up and down.

DECEMBER 2015 - I GRADUATED! I was one of the best student you can say. Graphic design. After my graduation, there is a lot of things happened. I do regret that up until this early 2018, I still don’t know what to do with my life. Since I was a kid, I always love doing tons of things, you know it if you’ve been followed me through my junior high school blogs. I used to aim to be a multitalented someone, independent woman, and self-sufficient.

It happened mostly on being someone who is talented on doing a lot of things, "Jack of all trades, master of none”. I keep jumping on wanting to be a graphic designer, interior designer, chef, business owner (clothing store and cafe mainly), Muay Thai fighter, youtuber, makeup artists. Its crazy.

JANUARY 2016 - So this is what happened, after my graduation. My dad hospitalized, he was diagnosed with Hepatitis B at first (early 2016) and the other hospital said he got Hepatitis C afterward. Me and my mom went back and forth accompany my dad, to Kuching, Malaysia, to Singapore too. I guess it took only 6 months for him to recovered and free of the virus, THANK GOD. Because of that, my grandma was sent to Jakarta to stay and treated with my uncle, because we were busy taking care of my dad (for 3 months).

MAY 2016 - Then my Dad bought a new house, we were so busy designing the house. My dad assigned me to communicate with the interior designer, and I kept looking for design inspiration that match with my family’s taste. I always consider others, always want their taste to be contributed to the house. I want the touch of us, in every part of the house. My sister was capable of choosing the look and feel of the house, the way she wanted. My bro and my parents only told me they want “Hotel” theme, which is sleek and clean, specifically brownish n warm tone just like Marina Bay Sands hotel. The construction started around May 2016.

During that time, my dad kept going back to Singapore for a following check up, I am soo grateful that my boyfriend always had my back, up until now. Idk what to do if I don’t have him, I wasn’t that strong :)

JUNE 2016 - My lovely Auntie taught me how to bake eggtart, and it was a really good experience cos I LOVEEE EGGTART! It was my grandmother’s recipe. The outer crisps was damn good. I modified the recipe by adding some grated cheese and grounded almond. My family was proud of me and really loving the tarts. I baked a lot during that time, I gave it away for my friends and family (including my boyf’s grandma, and she sent me a pumpkin egg tart too)

JULY 2016 - Its the Hari Raya Holiday again, so my family went to Singapore again. I brought the egg tart that I baked 3am in the morning for my boyfriend’s family, I choose the best ones and hand carry them to Singapore lol. We went to the zoo, I remember how I was super influenced by Mathilda, Leon The Professional’s clothing style. On 4th of July, I was invited to Emilie’s 4th Birthday, she is my boyfriend’s cousin.

NOVEMBER 2016 - I was texted by someone, I was shocked at first, but she became my best friend now. She contacted me to become a model for her clothing store, I was with my other friend, who turned out to be my boyfriend’s cousin too. We had fun at the photoshoot, we played with makeup too. After that, I told them how I enjoy making lace choker, then we started our first business together, Dixi Choker, but it only last for a while lol.

DECEMBER 2016 - The three of us are three musketeers, we went everywhere together, it was a great time. There was a lot of great event we had, going to Jessandra’s bday party together, had Christmas dimsum & went to the church on Christmas Eve, it was really great. Then in the end of year, I bleached my hair to blonde! I had awesome time. My family went to Singapore again to spend our New Year. 30th December, me and my boyfriend went to Art Science museum, we happily bought the NASA tshirt as a couple lol. On the 2nd of January, my fam supposed to go back to Indo, but the plane had trouble so we postponed the flight, and went back the day after, just the day before my birthday.

JANUARY 2017 - On the 5th of January, my best friend Klara and Jessica surprised me at King’s Restaurant, I wasn’t expected that at all. These two girls are really sweet that I guess, I opened myself to them the most. You know, it is not easy to get close to me. I have such a cold heart. Just like cold turkey in the cold storage lol. I had a lot of Star Wars gift too from my friends and my boyfriend!

We held our grandmother’s 85th birthday party on 11 January. I forgot when she went back, but we gather all her relatives, her siblings and had our dinner at Restoran Gajahmada. She carried her peached shaped pao, very happily. She really loves pink, so we dressed her all in pink. “Dadu”, is how she named pink. I miss her so much as how I look at her pictures. During my house construction, we took our grandma with her wheelchair to visit the house too, she was so happy and resists to go back to our old house lol. She’s so funny. On January 27th, we fly back to Singapore again for Chinese New Year & go back again on 31th of January.

FEBRUARY 2017 - Klara, Jessica and me went to Kuala Lumpur for farewell trip because Jessica was going to pursue her study to New Zealand. It was a very sad moment tho, but so memorable. I’ve never really go anywhere with friends before, I did, but for a study tour to Taiwan when I was in senior high school. It’s because of the school, lol. So we had a really good time you know, we went shopping and had so many photoshoots. Cafe hoping and culinary mostly, play dress up and make up.

MARCH 2017 - On 15th of March, Jessica fly to NZ. I am not a type of person who melts easily, who cry easily in front of people cos I am trained to hold my tears as I always want to look strong. But I’m dying inside, I miss her a lot. When she was around, she talked to me a lot, maybe she does it to other of her friend too, but I listened to her as she is my only friend. She shared me her secrets, we had a lot of deep talk and quality things. You know, I’m into deep talks and building deep connections. The next day, my friend from Korea, Ji Eun (She is actually my older sister’s classmate, and her bro was my classmate, so we got so close) visited Pontianak. We had empek2, ice cream angi, and she boughts some DVD contained Indonesian Folklore animation, then we had our dinner at KBAB, played monopoly deal together with my sister.

I took my Ielts class with Klara, we had 3 months of course. I was actually disappointed with my results lol, but its okay cos the score is above the requirements.

APRIL 2017 - Me and my fam went to informa a lot to buy furnitures, it was a great experience cos it was the first time we move lol. We decide together for our garden design too. It felt great, after 3 years away from my family, we had a lot to catch up. On Easter (16 April), I went to church with Linda, accidentally met my boyfriend’s auntie and cousins. Then on April 29th, me and my family went to Singkawang. We had great time, such a wonderful road trip. This is what I love the most, when we usually have our holiday in Singapore, my dad is always busy at the casino, stucking his nose up to those machine lol. I was always busy with my boyfriend too. So this little trip helps a lot you know. Its an awesome go-getter.

MAY 2017 - My english teacher since I was in high school, the one who help my IELTS when I was going to Singapore came back to Ponti after she Moved to US with her husband. We had a great lunch at Saung Kedah. Then on 22nd of May, My boyfriend visited Pontianak! With the whole pack, his parents, his twins, lil bro and older sis. I spent a lot of time with his family. I was invited to his parent’s Anniversary, and her grandma’s new house blessing (24 May). It was a great opportunity. On 26th of May, me and bf went for a movie together, it was our first time watching movie together in Pontianak. We watched Pirates of the Carribean lol. Then I took him and his grandfather to Ice cream Angi, and we went to fix his portable wifi too. I dragged my boyfriend to Kopi Aming too, his first time trying my favourite coffee in Ponti.

JUNE 2017 - We moved to our new house! I was so happy organizing our house, especially my room. I made drawer separation system by using pretty cardboard and turned out pretty well. It was the time when I was all crazy about plants too, disgustingly obsessed. It was a bad obsession I can say, until I bought a lot of gardening stuff, seeds, and hydroponic system. It was also the time I tried to import stuff from China, started my online business clothing store. I bought my ringlight too, oh GOD I spent a lot of money. On 25th June, My family went to Singapore again. I guess it was only me, mom and dad. I went to Ikea and daiso a lot to buy organizing stuff. We went to Universal Studio for the first time (we went twice for the Halloween Horror Night, but never for the day rides lol). I introduced him the Pork Bun too, the one I had when I was in Hongkong.

JULY 2017 - It was when I went so deep into gardening. Had my pretty marigold flowers blooming from seeds. Then my Auntie came back from Jakarta and taught us to make Pizza from Pan, sweet potato purple doughnuts, and Biji Salak. It was so great. Then my cousin introduced me to Sims 4, and I was impulsively bought the game from tokopedia. Which is a huge regret now. I hate myself when I got into games, I could play it all day long until I neglect my life. That is how fast I get addicted into things.

My dad always pet a specific fish, its Red Parrot Fish. He really love it, but everytime we move the fish, from house to house, they always get stressed out. The older and big fishes died slowly. One by one, then he got new ones, I guess almost 20 fishes lol. I got myself succulents too, and I got some for my sister. I also bought a lot of IKEA furnitures, sent them through an container expedition sent by ship cos it costs so much if I use the regular one. I had fun in assembling the furnitures too. I went crazy in buying plant seeds too lol.

On July, my boyfriend visited ponti again. We surprised our friend Shella with other friends too. As usual, when my boyfriend come to ponti, we always have Ice Cream Angi with his Akong. His Akong loves Ice Cream so much. Then me and my boy went to Shinjuku, a Japanaese Yakitori Street Food. We had kaloci, tausuan, and pentol as a closing of our dinner lol. At night, we tapao Bakmie Atie for Ama. The morning before he go back to Sg, we initially wanted to have tiammie for breakfast, but the store was closed, so we ate Bakso in front of my complex, and I drived him to eat some Tua Ce Ie too. He love it so badly. (25July)

I sold my first clothing piece on 27th of July. I was so happy lol. During this month, I spent my day promoting my clothing store and taking care of my plants.

AUGUST 2017 - My auntie came back again, we made some handmade noodles and sponge cakes. I took pictures of her recipe books as she told me to. I spent my time with my Senior High School friend too, as he is a photographer, I asked him to help me to take pics for my clothing store. I asked Anggi and Michelle (my niece) to be the model.

26th August, is when my Grandma passed away. I was torn apart. I hate myself so much that I did not spend more time with her. I spend more time with my boyfriend’s grandparents a lot more than with mine. I was so sad that I lose her. It my first time to lose someone who is so close to me. She was buried on 1st of September 2017.

SEPTEMBER 2017 - We visited Singapore again. I forgot what it was for hahaha. But mainly I just had fun with my mom and boyfriend. We had nice dinners so many times. We went to China town to buy some jerky beef, and as usual my main restaurants to go in Sg are Genki Sushi, Tanuki Raw, Mcd, Menya Musashi, Kanshouku, any Kbbq or Hotpot restaurant. When I went back to ponti, I always limit my food intake lol.

OCTOBER 2017 - We held my sister’s birthday too, I bought her mangoo cheesecake. She was happy, and me and my friend surprised her for the second time at Tyga per Ampat too.

NOVEMBER 2017 - I prepared my bro’s bbq party. I made him sate taichan, bbq chicken, sauteed potato (4NOV). My housemate when I was in Singapore visited to Ponti too, they are originally from Batam & Medan. We surprised Brenda’s bday party too, twice (6NOV). First at Botani, followed a BBQ party at William’s house. I was still in a journey to lose some weights, so I bought a lot of granola during that time. I bought an expensive muay thai punching bag too. CRAZY. I always made a bold move in spending my money. (18Nov) I did see results, my waist are smaller. I visited Jakarta on 19th November, mainly for my acne treatment. Then I had nice dinner at Kintant with Gris, and Shaburi with my mom. The rests are random KBBQ, random Indo food with my cousin.

DECEMBER 2017 - I only focus doing muay thai and losing weight, I did some intense classes, follow kayla itsiness and strict with my diet. I made my weight planner, it was crazy. I bought protein powder from my protein, I was really focus in making myself feel stronger and energetic. I determined to be healthy so I can focus better. THEN MY FAMILY FLY TO SG AGAIN TO SPEND OUR NEW YEAR! hahahhaa.. its always like that.

JANUARY 2018 - So from 28 Dec to 6 January, 9 days spent in Singapore. Me and my whole fam spent times in Singapore, then my Fam went back first on 1st of January. I stayed at Derrick’s home. I accompanied him to school, sitting at the cafe and read Girl Boss book. Then on 3rd of January my dad and mom came to Sg again to pick me up! Hahahha that is how my dad spoil his 23 years old daughter. I’m old alr but he is still super protective. He was actually fly from Ponti-Jkt to had his dental surgery, but he decided to pick me up. I want to extend my day in Sg cos I want to spend it with my boyfriend. I don’t wanna be in Ponti for some reasons. It feels like I’m getting old but I have no where to go. I know its my hometown, but it feels strange somehow. I am weird, its hard for me to get along with people here. I hate those eyes staring at me with the thoughts I predict they wud say. I know it might be only in my mind. But I hate myself enough already, those questions asking me about what’s my career now, what am I working now is depressing. I need time with myself. I just want to be with someone I feel safe with, which is my boyfriend. I feel so calm whenever I am with him, might be the reason why I want to be with him forever. I am anxious every time, talking to him was the greatest feeling ever. He always giving me positive feedback and encourage me. It was great.

So I went back to ponti after that, and my parents went to Sg again. My mom was on cruise trip to Thailand & Sg.

FEBRUARY 2018 - My cousin from my Dad’s side had his wedding, somehow we didn’t go there even though they were waiting for our presence. Its kinda pressurize me when I have those thoughts abt ppl asking me what I am doing. So I decided not to go by that reason. And chosing nice dresses on not-so-confident-me is stressful too. idk why i stress everything over small things. Btw we surprised our mom too, she had her birthday! Then again, my dad and mom fly to Singapore again. Kinda bad decision tho, cos Jipek suddenly passed away. He is my best uncle on earth. I love him so much eventho I never show it when he’s alive. He taught me gardening, asked me to eat rose petals, drenching rose plants with crazy tons waters, he pet an orang utan, taught us how to draw, and a lot of things.

So yeah, idk what else to write. There are a lot of memorable things, even though I feel I did not achieve something during this past 2 years, at least I learnt a lot. I always wonder what if , what if I continue to work or just continue my study in Singapore during 2015-2018. But I wouldn’t be as close as this with my family, I won’t have time to catch up with my grandma, I wouldn’t be there when my Ama left. I feel like God sent me to Ponti to have golden time with my family. I was way too harsh with myself when people asked me why am I still in ponti doing nothing. I cursed myself everytime people asked me things abt my future. Guess what? I am okay. I learnt a lot.

- I lose 2 of my favourite people, but I was there before they gone.

- I was there to help my mom taking care of my dad and ama. So she was not alone.

- My dad bought a house and need me to help with the design.

-I learnt muay thai and made some connections with them.

-I got new close friends, Klara and Jessica, and Gerry too hahah.

-I got close to my bf’s grandparents.

-I participate in makeup competitions and started few videos on my chanel, its growing but slow hahha

-I learnt a lot abt gardening

-I hang out a lot at a coffee shop, and make some friends.

-I started my online shops and struggled!

-I did some organizing at my new house which is a great thing I guess?

-I cook a looooooot for my family, thank God they love it.

-I fly to places without my parents (hongkong with sisters) and kuala lumpur with my besties.

-I did chalk drawings at a cafe with Linda and Jeff.

-I work with 5 clients on graphic design (Rutos, Achiang, Shica, Cloud Vape, Cokoer) Some cv design for friends, and some i dont really remember lol.

-I catch up with hair dying experiment again with my mbak and myself! I permed and bleach my hair too lol idk whether its smth special to mention or not.

- I did makeup for people too and earn money for it!

Its crazy how time flies, but it was not for nothing. God has been good to me.

During 2015-2018 (disgusted with myself how i spend my time but you know, its not bad at all! )

So now its 2018 guys! There is a lot more to come. I realized when I try to do graphic design freelancing, it was really hard to manage my time, to make my income constant, pricing my work, to talk with clients and everything. I was alone to do it all.

It was hard to run an online business alone, order stuff, talk to clients, design, market my stuff, branding, send the stuff.

I know i can grow through makeup, cos I can see it is my passion now. But I need to prioritize what I need now. I need to earn money. Real money. So I decided to take my path and take a turn. I’ll be mentally stable in Singapore, working with a good amount of salary, and constant too.

All i need to do is just to play safe right now. Cos hell yeah ofc, I need money. I just need to save up. I need to be good in saving money, as what ppl say, to earn is easy but saving is hard. I need a stability, I need to anchor myself on something I am sure about. I need commitment. I need something to hang on. Which is what I have and certified is graphic design.

So now I am planning to revamp rebuild my portfolio, cv, resume and cover letter. I will target myself to apply some jobs in Singapore before March. Hopefully I’ll get some interviews. PLEASE GOOOODDDD! HELP ME! Hehee.

If not, (worst case scenario lol) I’ll take some courses, online and in school. I want to specialized in UI & UX. Then on early march, I will go to Jakarta with my sister and mom, she had an art exhibition. I wanna grab new laptop for me to work better.

But yeah currently I’m working on my works, and trying to sharpen my skills, get into my workflow, and learn some more skills on share skills ! WISH ME LUCKKKKKK <3 <3

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