#also also i have no idea how to properly explain it

[grimm-writings]

YIPPEE YOUR REQUESTS ARE OPEN AGAIN can i get a scenario where chilchuck slowly falls in love with a gender fluid reader? maybe he’s confused about their presentation at first, but then finds himself attracted to their masc and fem sides :0

two sides of the same coin

…ft! chilchuck x genderfluid! reader

…tags! fluff, end of manga spoilers, implied bisexual chilchuck, the mortifying ordeal of having to explain your identity to someone not in the know

…wc! 935

…notes! this request makes me so happy, because i’m also genderfluid!!! i’ll be using primarily my own experiences with my gender here, so i hope it’s to your liking! happy pride month!!! <3 

“So, you’re… everything.”

“Yes! I guess you can say that.  Although it’s more like it varies.”  Your hands move in the air to communicate your point.  “Sometimes I’m a girl, sometimes a boy.  But I’m also sometimes both, or sometimes neither!  Or maybe I’m partially a girl and partially neither, or I’m partially a boy and partially neither.  And then, on the rare occasion, I am everything!”

You can only watch in real time as Chilchuck slowly loses brain cells.  You’d fear that he may not be able to readily accept you, same as the rest of your party.  The reaction was positive enough (though Marcille and Senshi particularly need time to adapt properly) but there’s still lingering confusion.

Chilchuck slowly nods, though you can tell he isn’t exactly grasping it yet.  “So… What am I meant to call you?”

He’s trying to keep his language respectful.  That’s more than you can say for others you came out to.  You can tell Chilchuck is trying, even if this is unfamiliar ground for him.  He might know enough about different romantic and sexual preferences, and maybe more simple means of gender transition.  Your identity is… hard to explain to someone not in the know, though.

“Just ask,” you reply.  “I might have some indicators in clothing that could help.  Like…”  You gesture towards your current outfit.  “I’m presenting pretty masculine at the moment, yeah?”

“Yeah…” You don’t miss how Chilchuck eyes you up and down.  “So I should keep an eye out for how you dress?”

“Precisely!”  You snap your fingers into a point at Chilchuck’s face.

“Don’t do that.”

You drop your hand.  “Sorry.”

Chilchuck leans back on his seat, folding his arms over his chest.  If he was being honest, this only makes his heart confused.  He was already more used to you presenting masculine throughout your dungeon crawl.  You did express occasional disdain for your current dress, but can’t do much about it.  That in of itself made him wonder if he liked guys.  Now you’re saying you’re a girl sometimes?  Or neither?  Or everything?  He can’t even imagine you in a dress without his mind screaming at him in embarrassment.

You take in Chilchuck’s expression.  Brow furrowed, clearly trying to process your explanation.  He’s definitely accepting of it, just confused.  If there was a way you can explain it better to him…

An idea flashes through your mind with an “ah!”

Chilchuck perks up at your sudden yelp, blinking.  “Something the matter?  Wh– Hey, what are you doing?!”

You had practically scampered on all fours to where your travel bags were, digging around for something.  A few seconds pass before… “GOT ONE!”

Returning to Chilchuck’s side, you hold up one of the gold coins in… someone’s possession.  The half-foot cocks an eyebrow at it.  “What’re you getting at here?”

“This coin is still the same coin when it’s flat in my hand like this,” you begin, before flipping it over.  “Or when it lands on tails.”

Chilchuck watches as you place the coin on your thumb, and flip it up into the air only to let it land randomly, 50/50 chance each time.

“I can’t control whether it lands on heads or tails.  Sometimes it does something really peculiar and stands on its side, or it’s on a slant in some way.”

You watch as the gears turn in Chilchuck’s mind.  “So you can’t really control how your gender works, sometimes you just… feel a certain way?”

“Exactly!  My dysphoria – that’s the term for feeling uncomfortable – can fluctuate, but it’s still the same coin.  It’s still…”

“It’s still you,” Chilchuck finishes, turning his head to look up at you with understanding finally brightening in his eyes.  You can’t help but fluster a little.

It’d be a while since then until you’d make it back to the surface.  Everyone is as accommodating as ever to use the right pronouns when you tell them what for.  It soon comes naturally to just let you live as you are.  It’s welcoming and warm with everyone.

A nice spring breeze blows through your skirt as you make your way down to the entrance of the forest where the feast takes place.  You can spot your party from a mile away, your boots hitting the dirt path as you run over.

“Leave some for me!”  You exclaim in greeting, causing your friends to turn their heads.  Marcille gasps in wonder as she takes in your appearance, meanwhile Izutsumi makes a small noise in surprise.

Chilchuck is stunned into silence, and you can just tell the tips of his ears are going red before he keels over and spits out his drink onto the grass.  “W-What are you wearing?!”

“A dress, Chilchuck,” you quip back, sitting in between him and Marcille.  “Laios still being harassed by Yaad and the rest?”

“Hang on, we’re not moving on from this so fast!  Let me look at you!”  Marcille adjusts herself so she can inspect your look.  “I didn’t think you’d suit a dress so well!  Where’d you get that petticoat?”

You are about to answer when Izutsumi interrupts; “you look so… different,” she relays.

A sheepish chuckle escapes you, as you turn to Chilchuck, who has since been staring at you.  He blinks once you perceive him and glances away.  “You’re still you.  It…  You look very… you. It's nice.”

You can’t help but laugh at his flustered attitude, leaning down to kiss the top of his head as he gives out to you.

You are accepted, and you are loved.  What place could possibly be better than here?

#✮ grimm's fics! #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi imagines #delicious in dungeon imagines #dungeon meshi x reader #delicious in dungeon x reader #chilchuck #chilchuck tims #chilchuck x reader #chilchuck tims x reader #chilchuck imagines #chilchuck tims imagines

[collapsedglasshouses]

HEAVEN KNOWS I AIN'T GETTING OVER YOU || Joakim Karlsson x fem!Reader

picture found on pinterest

PAIRING: ex-husband!Jolly x fem!reader

SUMMARY: When Jolly visits you unannounced on a Tuesday night, you have no idea what it leads to.

WARNINGS: SMUT [oral sex, female receiving; unprotected p in v], possessive!jolly, ANGST, jolly and reader have a daughter together (y/d/n), MDNI, 18+

TAGLIST: @measuredingold @cncohshit @circle-with-me @jilliemiw86 @justeli6 (If you wanna be added to the story's taglist or to my taglist in general, leave a comment or message me privately!)

A/N: i wrote this in one sitting and i'm so proud of it that i can't hide it for one second longer. i hope you like it! also this isn't proofread, im very sorry ._.

MASTERLIST

[y/d/n = your daughter’s name]

You thought the hardest thing you had ever done in your entire life was the process of deciding to file for divorce from your ex-husband Jolly, but he had proven you wrong. It was that he had signed the papers without an argument or fight. He had just done it.

It had stung, how he came back from a long tour, saw the papers laying on the kitchen counter and just signed them. It hurt but you also knew it was for the best. That he didn’t fight with you was hard, but it also made it in some ironic way easier.

Since you had a daughter together, he came over only on the weekends when he was home from touring and normally, he’d only pick up your daughter and leave again; not really much conversation going on between you except the necessary small talk. He was a good father and human after all, and you were glad for that.

After some time, routine came back and somewhat everything began to feel normal again. You began to date again, and Jolly seemed to live his life to the fullest. You were happy for him.

That changed when your doorbell rang on a Tuesday evening. You were sitting on the couch watching TV when you heard the sound and for the first couple of seconds you thought about not opening the door. After all, it was almost 8 PM and you were kind of scared there would be someone trying to break in or hurt you, but when it rang again you became curious.

“Joakim?” You asked surprised when you saw him standing there.

“Is it true?” He just asked and looked you dead in the eye.

“What?” You answered him confused. He looked like he hadn’t slept properly since he brought back your daughter two days ago.

“On the weekend, y/d/n said you were seeing someone.” He asked, his tone careful, yet you could sense some sort of hurt in his voice.

“Do you maybe wanna come in before you confront me about stuff that hasn’t got anything to do with you?” You grumbled at him in a sarcastic tone, which he ignored while stepping into the place you once called home together.

He walked into the living room, followed by you. There he crossed his arms in front of your chest and looked at you, disappointed.

“What do you want to here, Joakim? I don’t remember that we agreed to be abstinent for the rest of our lives.” You snarled at him and mirrored is gesture.

“Don’t you think it still hurts that I hear that from our daughter instead of you?” He responded in the same tone.

“I don’t know why you suddenly seemed to care.” You grumbled. “Since you didn’t show any interest in me for… how long is it now? One and a half years?”

“You didn’t even let me explain myself and threw the divorce papers at me. How do you think I feel?” He angrily expressed.

“I don’t even need to tell you this, but there is no other guy. I went on two dates. TWO dates, Jolly.” You answered him while ignoring how his statement stung. You knew it had been egoistic of you, but the months before the divorce, he either wasn’t at home or when he was, he didn’t even look at you. You felt unimportant, unloved, neglected. And now he was throwing around these statements. You wished he had done it earlier. You wished he would have opened up to you. The fact that he only did it because he saw the potential danger of another person in your life, hurt you so much.

Jolly took a deep breath. “I feel like we never even talked about this whole separation.”

“You were the one who didn’t ask when I handed you the papers, Joakim.” You said, your tone a lot calmer than it had been before but you still were angry. You were glad that your daughter was having a sleepover at a friend's house that night, otherwise she would have already been downstairs.

When Jolly didn’t say anything for another solid minute, you sighed.

“Don’t you think it is a bit too late to talk now?” You mumbled defeated and ran a hand through your hair. “I hope you know that I didn’t do that to hurt you. We both know it would have ended way uglier if we dragged it out longer than it already had been.”

You saw how Jolly swallowed hard.

“You know I still love you?” He almost whispered and let his hands fall to his sides. When you looked at him like that, he almost looked broken… defeated. For the first time since what felt like ages, you felt like he let his guard down. Like he wasn’t trying to hide his feelings away.

“I know, Jolly.” You answered him. “And I also know that a part of me still loves you and always will, but we both know that this isn’t going to work. At least not like this.”

He slowly took a step towards you, carefully watching your reaction. When you didn’t look reluctant or took a step back, he reached for your hand and grabbed it.

“I am so sorry that all of this happened. I thought about everything that had happened. Long before the divorce. I know how cruel I was to leave you in the dark. To not talk to you when I needed nothing but your comfort. I thought that I would get through everything by myself.” He told you with honesty in his voice.

“You didn’t have to go through everything alone. That is what a marriage is for, Jolly. I would have been more than happy to help you. I still am if you need me.” You whispered out and looked into the eyes of the man you had and still loved so dearly, and you felt how your heart hurt.

“I always need you, y/n. I need you so bad.” Jolly responded and you saw how his eyes became glossy. Without even thinking you wrapped your arms around his torso and hugged him tightly. You felt how tears started to form in your eyes and it broke your heart when you heard him sniffle for a second.

When you leaned back to look at him, there was this foolish hope in your heart. The hope that you would be able to find back to each other. But your brain knew, even if you did eventually manage to do that, now was not the right time for it.

“Can I kiss you?” Jolly asked and you felt warmth form in your stomach. You knew you should have said no. You knew you should have been strong, but you still nodded.

Your lips met with a ferocity born from years of unspoken words and yearning. The taste of his mouth a bittersweet reminder of everything you had lost.

It felt like you kissed for an eternity and still, when you pulled away, it felt like it wasn’t long enough. You missed him. You missed everything about him, from his small jokes to the way it felt when you fell asleep next to him. He was what made this house a home.

“We shouldn’t.” You whispered against his lips, and he nodded. Before he could even think about letting you go, you pressed your lips against his for a second kiss. This one being much more eager than the previous one.

Slowly but surely, you stumbled towards the couch and soon you were laying under him, lips still connected as if life depended on it. His tongue slipped into your mouth, and you couldn’t help but sigh into the kiss.

It didn’t take long until his fingers curled into the waistband of your shorts and panties. For a second, he leaned back to look for consent in your eyes. When you eagerly nodded, he tugged them down your legs.

He kissed you deeply before lowering himself down your body. You shivered when you felt his breath against your core and not even a second later you felt his warm tongue sliding through your folds. He drew skillful circles around your clit. A wave of warmth washed over you as you moaned out his name and it felt so wrong and so right at the same time. You had missed him so much.

Your hand reached for his and he was quick to intertwine your fingers. Your nails pressed into the skin on his hand as your back arched in pleasure.

“Tell me you’re mine.” He pleaded as he raised his head for a second to look at you through his lashed and you felt like you could come on the spot.

“I’m yours, Joakim. I always will be.” You whimpered out and it was all he needed to hear as his head lowered again.

It didn’t take long for you to feel the waves of your orgasm washing over you, as you screamed out his name. Your vision blurred for a second as you came on his tongue. He kissed the inside of your thighs until you slowly came down from your high, before he came up to look at you again.

You grabbed his face and kissed him with such force, he feared to collapsed right on the spot. You could taste yourself on his tongue and the feeling of the fabric of his jeans against your naked cunt made you shiver in overstimulation.

In a swift motion, he turned you on your stomach and you heard how he unzipped his pants. The next thing you felt was hot kisses pressed to the back of your neck and you sighed in need. You needed to feel him, even if it was the last time.

“Do you have a condom?” He groaned into your ear.

“You don’t need one, Joakim. I’m clean and on the pill.” – “Got it.”

You clenched your fists into the fabric of the couch as you felt him enter you. A delicate burn formed inside of you as he stretched your walls. He was gentle but still you let out a small yelp as he bottomed out in one stroke. The small groan that escaped from Jolly’s lips, let you clench around him for a moment.

“God.” He moaned. “I wish I could stay inside of you forever.”

You moaned as a response.

“I’ll make you mine, even if it’s the last time.” He groaned as he slung an arm around your torso, making you slightly sit on him as he thrusted into you.

“I’ll be yours.” You whimpered and reached behind you to grab onto his hair. You moved in a rhythm as you felt the knot tighten in your stomach for a second time. One of Jolly’s hands travelled between your thighs and began to rub small circles on your wet clit.

“God, Jolly. I’m gonna come.” You almost screamed out.

“I’ve got you.” He breathed out as you felt the intense sensation of your second orgasm rolling over you. You felt how your body slowly lost strength, but you held yourself together for him.

You fell forward, leaning on your elbows as his hands grabbed your hips. Shortly after that you felt how he was twitching inside of you and he let out a loud groan as he finished inside of you, his cum filling you up until it began to drip. He grabbed the armrest of the couch in front of you to not let his weight drop on you as he mumbled out small love confessions.

For a couple of moments, neither of you dared to move. He peppered your shoulder with small kisses while you both tried to tame your breaths. Even though, you both didn’t want to, he eventually pulled out of you and got up, as you slowly laid down on your back.

After a minute or so he reappeared with a washcloth and gently cleaned you up, before helping you up from the couch and to the bathroom to go to the toilet.

After you finished and came back to the living room, he handed you your clothes and you both got fully dressed again, before looking at each other in awkward silence.

You knew what he was going to say, before he could even finish.

“Maybe, I should-…” – “Stay.”

He blinked a couple of times as his eyes lit up.

“Y/d/n isn’t coming back until tomorrow after school. You can stay.” You almost whispered and hoped he wouldn’t leave you in that state. “I want you to stay.”

“Okay.” He muttered and nodded slightly. “I will.”

As the two of you sat down on the couch, a wave of guilt washed over you. This was a forbidden taste of the past that only solidified the painful truth. You were bound by a love that could never be, at least not now…

dividers by @saradika-graphics

#bad omens fanfiction #bad omens fanfic #bad omens fic #bad omens rpf #jolly karlsson smut #joakim jolly karlsson fanfic #jolly karlsson fic #jolly karlsson x reader #bad omens smut #smut #collapsedglasshouseswrites

[gallus-rising]

hnngngnggn i need to work on accessibility stuff for my site so i've been reading up and testing things and all that and the good news is it looks like i've mostly got easy stuff to fix! (color contrast and a few image descriptions) the bad news tho is i think working on proper screen reader compatibility is going to be a nightmare bc i'm fuckin stupid orz

#*furious pecking* #also most of what i've read on the topic so far assumes you're working w a team #if not a full on hired consultant #when it's time for testing #and i only have y fool self orz #also also i have no idea how to properly explain it #but i feel kinda idk #presumptuous?? full of myself??? #like i'm assuming that many ppl are ever even going to be aware of my site in the first place #like #ohohoh Actual artists and writers and ppl good at coding /i'm/ trying to make my ugly lil shit site no one looks at is ~accessible~ #and /you/ aren't 😏 #idk

[gncrezan]

happy three years to @chrysanthemumgames !!!! as always i'm a little biased towards drawing hermes, but i love the entire cast and at least wanted to draw all of them :') and ofc, thank you jess for a game i always love and keep coming back to!!!

#do not be fooled with no speechbubbles in reply to the cast #hermes is yelling hello's and sorry's as he speeds away i promise #asphodelgame #fields of asphodel #foa #my art #hermes #persephone #pyri #alekto #charon #hekate #hades #makaria #have a bunch of doodles and thoughts for foa that i never got around to properly drawing so . perhaps soon!!!!! #also re the new hozier album. first time-hades (i shouldnt have to explain myself it was like it was written FOR him) #who we are- charon and esp with his backstory my knuckles go white with how desperate i am to know more about them #de selby pt1 and 2 for hermes just cause i like the imagery of the songs about descent for the deity that splits his time #unknown is for alekto . lord i love her and again i would like sweet sweet backstory #first light pyri . i enjoy the light-river of fire idea and also its one of the more hopeful songs off the album #and i am struggling with hekate but i do enjoy all things end :) #but particularly 'if there way anyone to ever get through this life with their heart still intact they didn't do it right' #and ofc 'we didn't it right but love we did our best' and that constant forward motion for a deity that has lived so long #seph/pc gets to someone from a warm climate. the adjustment of being in a new place and the love that can come from that new place #and in the end its as easy . natural as another leg around you in the bed frame. ANYONE ELSE A BIT SICK RN? #other songs on the album (FRANCESCA. ICARIAN. DAMAGE GETSDONE!!!!) can be applied to the entire cast #damage gets done has such SUCH a fun beat that makes me think of hermes but that is like. 90% bias #anyways sorry for the hozier-foa tedtalk in the notes. quite deranged about both lately #and as always sorry to the pagans on this site. best wishes <3

[zelkams-art]

camera, cut!

#Nie Huaisang #The Untamed #Mo Dao Zu Shi #mdzs #artists on tumblr #my art #pov: you are jin guangyao and you are fucked #this idea was trapped in my head for so long so shoo you are free now #trying to find out how this outfit works was a pain though #because there are exactly 3 shots of it in the entire show and they're all super closeups so actually you don't see much #but I also managed to find a bts pic of Ji Li in it with the actors that played the juniors #though fun fact he literally wears one of the layers (with the sleeves) in the pre-timeskip already #AND YET it's so subtle that you don't remember abt it #also I had some thinking abt which expression to go for #because at first I made him smirking #but actually like... that's also the point that he was not triumphant when jgy died. he was just Very Tired. #like I wish I could explain properly what I think abt it but it was just... a bit bitter. like the justice is done #but so what. it will never bring his brother back. #BUT ANYWAY!! I wanted to post this before midnight and I have 5 min left so yeah anyway!! art!!

[senseearly]

I tried drawing young mithrun but ended up with an attempt for a kbms lovechild so uh:

MYRTLE (84)

Half-elf/born in Melini

Assigned female at birth/non-binary

Grew in tallman pace until they suddenly stopped growing at 20 years old

Currently working for their uncle (Kerensil Trading Company) in Melini but wants to be an adventurer

Close with their parents as a child but developed a strained relationship with Mithrun and Mithrun's struggles with rying and finding desires (worsened when Kabru died but they're both all good now)

More stuff under the cut:

Myrtle was actually an 'accident' and Mithrun carried them for 4 years (someone shared a HC that elves have a gestation period of 4-5 years so I'm borrowing that lol)

Myrtle spent most of their childhood in the Golden Kingdom and was visited by his uncle (Mithrun's brother) and Milsilril (who they call Auntie but at one point called her 'Grandma'). They are more familiar with Tallman/Golden Kingdom and Utayan culture, but not acquainted with their elven roots (they actually find Western elves intimidating)

Kabru did his very best sharing what he remembers of his hometown; Mithrun had assimilated into the Golden Kingdom way of life at this point and found some (most) of his elven noble ways too cumbersome

Myrtle was a kind child who grew up doted and loved by his parents and relatives. And they love their family with the same ferocity. But growing up, Myrtle was quickly made aware that his father, Mithrun, was 'not normal' - in most days, he was okay; in others, he struggled to get out of bed. In rare days, Mithrun was completely catatonic, and seeing Mithrun unresponsive, staring at the distance, scared Myrtle so much that he became somewhat of a troublemaker child, so that Mithrun always has to act and respond and not have anytime to be lost in his thoughts.

At some point, Myrtle 'disliked' Mithrun for the way that he is, not understanding his situation at all. Myrtle thinks that Mithrun does not love them enough to be better, feels ashamed that they cannot do anything to help Mithrun be better. But Myrtle's feelings on Mithrun comes from a place of love and ignorance - love because they do genuinely love their Father; and ignorance because they were never told why Mithrun was like that (Myrtle heard of what the dungeons were, but Kabru nor Mithrun never bothered to tell of the demon, Mithrun being the dungeon lord, or the full extent of the destruction of Utaya)

Once Myrtle became aware of their parent's pasts, they understood them a lot better.

Also thinking that a point of friction that Myrtle had with his parents was their dream of becoming an adventurer and fighting monsters (which were still rampant, though weaker) and Kabru insisting that they choose any other dream but that. Myrtle in their teenage years found Kabru too strict, too protective, not that Mithrun wasn't. But Mithrun at least was willing to teach them how to fight; Kabru made it clear Myrtle was not allowed near even a walking mushroom. Learning that Kabru was from Utaya, and what exactly happened in Utaya, made Myrtle understand why.

Eventually though Kabru concedes, knowing that Myrtle is much more capable, and surrounded by their own friends and comrades who will support them. I think in the last years of his life, Kabru made sure to prepare everything that will help Myrtle in his adventuring journey if they chose to embark once he is gone - such as speaking with guilds all over the content, ensuring a diplomatic immunity for Myrtle when they're in ally countries, writing an annotated adventure guide just for them, etc.

They work as a Vice-Manager of the Kerensil Trading Company (Mithrun's brother's merchant empire), but that's just a gloried name for the position of intern. Mithrun technically manages the Kerensil Trading Company branch in Melini, and is being pestered by Mithrun's brother to take over the main branch so that Mithrun will move back to the West. Mithrun is unmoved so Mithrun's brother has plans to declare Myrtle as 'heir' of the Kerensil merchant empire, all for the purpose of having his brother and niece move to the West (Mithrun's brother does not see the point of Mithrun and Myrtle staying at the Golden Kingdom any longer after Kabru's death)

(The beauty mark next to Myrtle's right eye is something that they got from Kabru's mother)

#kabumisu #while i was writing these notes everything just came out #from the floodgates #i have so much ideas for this kbms lovechild but i am not happy with the design just yet #but i do like imagining myrtle (kbms lovechild) as somewhat of a spoiled but also dearly beloved #and because they were beloved they were shielded mostly from the 'bad stuff' at the cost of them being unaware by what they are #so they can be incredibly naive and have a difficult time understanding other people's struggles #including their own parents #i like to imagine that they began being aware of some of the bad stuff when they overhear bad rumors about kabru #or getting questions from their friends as to why mithrun stares into the distance for no purpose #eventually kbms learn that part of parenting is explaining some of the harsh realities of life to their child #when they are capable of understanding them #so they can guide their child properly of what to do or how to prevent it

[simelune]

💭 hmmm venting in tags.

but im very curious what you guys think about the phrase/idea "you can't love someone else until you love yourself"???

#this guy i was in a vc with earlier tonight said he ended a “relationship” with someone bc it seemed like they didnt care abt themself #theres obviously a lot i dont know about the situation so i cant comment on it too much #but there was one thing he said that i have always hated #'you cant love someone else until you love yourself' #i ended up having a whole journal session abt this phrase lmao #it's strange bc i dont believe that idea at all #i have loved people with my whole being who have in turn made me love myself more/want to take care of myself #i also feel like it's like......... it furthers this idea that u are undeserving of love? #im not sure how to properly explain it LMAO #like. there are things about myself i dislike... but i see them in other people and i think oh #maybe i will like these things abt myself #and maybe the idea applies differently in terms of when wanting to enter a relationship w someone #but hes also studying to be a therapist so. idk #no further comments on that #ANYWAY!! #personal #if anyone reads all this im curious to know what you think abt the phrase

[undyinglantern]

when you’re so shit at Spanish that it literally doesn’t even occur to you how to pronounce this word until looking at the wiki 👍🏼

#though the most I’m familiar with the word when it comes to starting a car [insert all the times ive heard family say they have to #'arrancar el carro']. and like I know nothing about cars so bare with me in the way I’m gonna explain this but #when the engine won’t start so you open the hood and connect wires from the car that won’t start to one that works fine #anyways also very stupid of me considering I HAVE heard the term espada in terms of this series before #now I’m curious how arrancar is gonna be pronounced once I get that far #bc I was trying to guess and in my head I kept going Aron-kur(?) #but like knowing how 2000s anime pronounce jp works I wonder if they’ll butcher esp one too #are they gonna say ah-rahn-kar properly? cmon there’s a half Mexican guy in the series you can do this #<-(Falsely optimistic) #BUT ALSO IN MY DEFENSE i had never actually heard the word sword (espada) irl growing up #but my understanding of spanish is all sorts of fucked up tbh #like the first time i had champurrado i freaked out wtf i was getting this thick chocolate drink and not a hard giant cookie (champurrada) #my parents never said chancla they said chancleta #i had no idea a chicote was a whip until i looked it up later in life. i thought it was a belt which just happened to be made of leather.. #saying as someone whos parents didnt threaten them with a belt or sandals but A FUCKING WHIP. APPARENTLY. #papote instead of pajilla (later found out i was mispronouncing even that my whole life bc its actually pOpote) #and pelo colocho instead of chino are the other 2 big commonly spoken differences

[cathalbravecog]

if the update tmrw is another arg or just an overhyped Nothing Sandwich Dissappointment update again im going t

#rambles #i rambles abt this a lot on discord #on TWO SERVERs #im vewy worrieds #bad idea to rant abt this when i have staff following me but uhgmgm #hi #im worrieds about this ududpate! #not just bc personal nervousness about TOO MANY PPL TALKIN ABT IT AT ONCE AND ME POSSIBLY MISSING OUT BC OF TIMEZONES #but also just how updates have been handled as of late #i dont. want trouble im too scared and paranoid mostly bc i do have staff followin me #but tt cc needs to communicate things to the community better #ofc volounteer team and they did SOOOOO much for 2023 and the new mgrs #but why has everythin been so quiet after like.. summer........ #like. oddly quiet. #i could talk abt this more n more but im too scared of havin trouble for opinions oops haha #it better be good please dont hype up another thing that isnt even properly explained #the changed summer mgr fights not being even explained normally #like the changes that were made #was just an ass move tbh. its not even having a new first time experience its just dickish especially if it was made Harder :// #also arg stuff being removed ok good adressing the accessibility stuff #but wghy is tghere still references to it everywhere WHAT HAPEUNDS TO ATTICUS #WHY CANT U JUST SAAAAAYY IT #ok i sound mean and rudebut i genuinely care abt this thing so much . im not gonna demand anything loudly im just gettin frustrated and so #are my friends as well and idk. yeaurgh.

[nyaskitten]

Before I post the finished version of the main villain of my OC world (in roughly 1-2 hours) here is some old concept art I've never shared (in order of newest to oldest)!

I'm mostly sharing because the current version draws a little bit of inspiration from ALL iterations! (also uh. NO he's not my Overlord/Lord Garmadon cheap-knockoff... uh. fuck you /lh)

#he wasn't always gonna have 4 arms #but one fateful summer day I thought 'six arms would be SOOO HOT' and then after trying a bit I thought 'THIS IS TOO HARD TO DRAW' so 4 it #is #at first I was like; 'omg my original idea surely no one has thought of th- NINJAGO' #subconscious thievery #ALSO NO he no longer turns into a dragon #oc: sa'turnus #OH also there r two other versions but those aren't like. drawn properly AT ALL #idk how to explain #ALSO the 2nd and 3rd were pre-'Raine can draw humans now!!!' stuff!!!!

[prijune]

Behold more ocs from the back.

#prijune art #my ocs #also yes Medi is a vampire and I will explain more when I make his post but yes he's a vampire or at least part #but a hint is that it's because of butterflies man #also Doctor has been called Doctor since the beginning and I wanna make him so old he's forgotten his own name #I'd say this is also the current best idea I have for these two oc's for now but like with all my ocs they can be changed in the future #I hadn't been able to draw properly for a few days so I'm just glad I worked on them and some other things honestly #Also Eric gives me horror protagonist vibes and I want to ruin his day more but not yet :D #I still have no idea what to name some of my ocs cause honestly names is not my strong suit when it comes to characters #but for this vampire I think it should start with a 'G' or something #anyways night night I've got sleep to catch up on cause yes I was up til 3AM because I was in the ART ZONE #I do think it's funny how you can get into the zone but as soon as you stop if feels like all your needs are drained to heck like HP #anyways night I look forward to elaborating later :D

[fireylesbianhell]

when people (i am people. it’s me.) imagine Nico having powers over grief i think of Will’s never discussed fatal flaw, and i think that it’s that he can’t let go

i think his flaw is something with grief, and being stuck in the past almost. it’s being stagnant and static and unable to properly have especially negative emotions because he has to be people’s rock. he’s sunshine boy and he’s your doctor. He needs to be reliable, he sees his friends die every day, if he breaks down then nothing is stable anymore, nothing is keeping anything afloat.

but the idea of nico, a son of hades, who’s experienced grief like he has and was unable to move on and unable to do what Will can’t do, helping him come to terms with his loss and to “accept his darkness” like persephone said to him.

A first nudge from nico and some support from Kayla and Austin especially (and maybe Drew, the Stoll’s and Clarisse if you headcannon them as friends) he’s able to to it, he cries over the people he lost and he’s angry and selfish about the fact they’re gone and starts to grieve properly.

He starts to change and starts finding little moments of progress everywhere he looks. even though his demons aren’t little actual creatures following him around unlike his boyfriend, he does start comming to term similarly. He’s begun tearing the walls down and talking and letting himself cry on someone else’s shoulder. he lets go and starts to let himself be not okay.

#tsats spoilers #pjo spoilers #spoilers #the sun and the star spoilers #okay i know it’s not that spoiler-ey but i wanna be careful #also because this is how i interpret the ending for them a lot and i dont want someone who’s not read it to take this and run with it #this is all post book #just idk i feel like Will’s Fatal Flaw is underdiscussed along with many apollo children #but the idea of him specially having trouble moving on and grieving as one #works so well for him and fits his behavior at his worst #fits how he reacts to those bad situations #and from a charater standpoint works well with nicos issue of holding grudges #stagnancy is their issue but they both confront it in bad ways #but in ways the other can help them #Will helps nico calm down and realize it’s not his fault #nico helps will grieve and properly let go #Will’s doctor truama and need to take care of everyone and his not cracking until he’s literally in a river of greif and mistakes #like he never showed his stance to death and how he felt about loosing campers before until literal torture #HES THE FIRST ONE TO SHRUG OFF LETTING AMPHITHEMIS GO AND NOT LIKE. FEELING OVER THAY #another post i saw explained much better than i did the whole “having to save someone worth saving’ doctor mentality if letting people go #and it fits how will was there #anyways i’m just having so many angsty thoughts about him he’s Not Okay #but i like to see TSATS as a book about getting better #that’s the theme i pulled i guess #esp with everything about Nyx #and the coco puffs #nyx can’t move on but bob does. nico does. will does. It’s all about change. #nico di angelo #Will Solace #Solangelo

[sysig]

I have been thinking about Spamton all fucking day

#Get Outta here you strange little man #Like I know my biggest-as-of-yet doodlepost of his was just several hours ago so today but you gotta understand #That was all drawn over a week ago I should be well through thinking about him now #Doodled a tiny little thing yesterday which folded out into some headcanon doodles and then Some More headcanon doodles #And some of them feel too vague to properly explain but the ones that are more concise and clear are like?? weird????? #Really skirting the line of QSFW hard but I literally don't know how to change the context it stops making sense if I do that #I dunno maybe if I think about him a little longer or sleep on it (again) it'll start to coalesce into a proper idea #Convincing my brain to start on the Requestobers tomorrow is gonna be fun lol #Technically they're already started which in fact makes it more and less difficult in equal proportion - trading one for another #Novelty is lower but nervousness is also lower! Give and take #Also still healing from my accidental injury yesterday I forgot to mention that #I tripped over something and couldn't catch myself because I was carrying darkling beetles and their new babies (!) #So now my drawing hand is injured lol #Hella exciting that the beetles actually had mealworms considering I super haven't given them a proper enclosure yet #I do have a container plucked out of storage just for them tho! I saw it recommended for mealworm propagation and I was like #''Well I already have one of those I can just grab that and clean it up'' and then I tripped while carrying it and the beetles lol #Anyway all this to say I'm all funny-fidgety today #Deltarune #Kinda?????? Lol

[cherryozyi]

Squish brain moment right now 🦠🦠🦠

#brain filled with thoughts and ideas abt squish #no idea what to do with them except let them linger in my mind #its like a flood in there #i need to express #also wanna talk about the side characters like Lynnwood or Abby or Shirley #i wanna break down scenes of several episodes #i wanna talk about why a certain episode works and how some don't #i wanna talk about niche headcanons for characters #i wanna talk about squish without being annoying or sounding insane or #incoherent babbling because i have no idea how to properly explain #i just really like this show and the media as a whole even the comics #its so fun and it makes me happy #cherry talks #cherry.txt

[dyketubbo]

theres something so terribly and uniquely lonely about systemhood sometimes

#mask mews #plural stuff #i dont know how to explain it but its like. #if i focus hard enough i can convince myself im warm but in the end once my focus drops my bodys as cold as its always been #(<-probably completely nonsensical my bad) #we have a very extensive headspace and many. many headmates #but i know that if i tried to map out the auditorium i live in i would not be able to #and even with all of my focus i would not be able to give proper directions #and i dont know what my headmates rooms really look like even though ive walked through hundreds of them hundreds of times #ive been over to tipps house more times than i can count or remember #i could not truly tell you what her kids look like even though ive known them since they were born (and thats unsettling in its own way.- #-theyve grown so fast. theyre nearly teenagers and its only been two years. maybe three.) #i dont know what her living room looks like. i have no idea what fog sounds like even though ive talked to her more than anyone #if i wanted a hug i know intimately that there are over a hundred people in here that would jump at the chance #i also know intimately that the body would still be cold. that i wouldnt properly be able to focus on the mental image of being hugged #mosslid has held me in a hand for hours on end. i could not tell you what it feels like without having to think and even though i know it #happened itd feel like i was making it up #im used to it but if i think about it for any longer ill feel like im in one elaborate horror story. haha #ok to rb

[chitcharlie]

My mind is in a very specific place lately but one thing I could say is that I genuinely don't want to die anymore

#at least when I don't have any episodes #i am sad i am lonely i feel like a burden #but i also want to see where life still could bring me #i want to see if i still have a chance in this life #if my mess of a brain full of disorders can heal #and if i have to do this alone hell i will do this alone #figuring out what the fuck is wrong with me gave me a lot of perspective and if you keep reading this #please research personality disorders when people give you the trust and let you know they have any. #try to understand and adapt with them if you really care about the person #nothing is worse than trusting somebody with your diagnosis only for it to be ommited completely #and remember diagnosis is not an excuse to act like a dick but might explain a lot why somebody acted the way they acted #and if you have a personality disorder #you have no idea how badly i would love to hug you all #we deserve being understood we deserve patience we deserve people who would care #and we deserve to heal properly #and if somebody does not want to understand honestly fuck them