Since Shadow's Chao doesn't have a canon name, I went with Rifle. It seemed like a very Shadow thing to do.
Again, these pages have no consistent upload schedule, so you might get one anywhere from two days later to a month cause my ADHD causes me to get distracted by other activities and art ideas. (I also don't take any ADHD meds anymore as my doc and I are trying to find a better one that works for me, since most don't)
I also script this all out before I make pages, and I want to at least finish scripting the first chapter before I start work on anymore pages. Page 5 is half colored and page 6 is sketched out, so I'll start to finish those up. But once they're done, I'll be focusing on scripting. But I'll post other art while I script, don't worry!
But I will say: I will be SO glad to not be in the Green Hill scene anymore after this scene of the comic, I hate drawing the patterns of it, no matter how cool it looks...
I tried drawing the Grumpuses close to the actual art style but. It never felt right to me. So I started experimenting a little bit with how I draw them in my own art style with my own quirks and I like this so much better!
The model sheet is basically for me and me alone but oh well. My ADHD will forget it if I don't jot it down like this
if all of this and more is adhd than I have it. I am so utterly spent believing that I am weird or simply lazy and it scares me at times to think that I might be, that I don't really have adhd, it's me, and if i could make a little effort everything will restructure itself, organization will follow (istg I know I am gaslighting myself. my this is so bad)
If you have ADHD or Autism please let me know if you ever do this too
I am for context in my late thirties seeking to be diagnosed and have a huge strong hunch I have ADHD but not sure yet and have always done this since childhood but noticed it has been getting a lot more exhausting and common/less of my control.
Do you guys also get 'broken record/skipping cd deck' thoughts? My brain takes random clips of usually old animated film footage dialogue and repeats the same 2-20 second long tracks over and over in my head. Sometimes hours on end. Not usually thematic with my mood or events. Sometimes just pure randomness or sometimes because a shared word or barely shared theme in common was used- say a guy is dressed like a priest on TV. Either he says 'Amen' and I just straight jump in mind to another instance where the word 'amen' was used or more commonly the linked associated theme brings up unrelated dialogue: ("-say yer PRAYERS now, Captain Hook!" )
AND MY HEAD JUST DOESN'T STOP SAYING THAT LINE. Music and all. Like a broken record it goes "say yer PRAYERS now Captain Hook!" "Say yer PRAYERS now Captain Hook!" "Say yer...." On and on and on and on til I even feel brain dead and queasy a bit, the same way you might feel hearing a car alarm in the distance never shut up after two or so minutes. Sometimes you can vibe along or tune it out but usually it does not and it is particularly obnoxious when trying to concentrate on the moment like while reading a manual or having sex or listen to another person speak about their feelings.
Now it is important to know:
This is not audible hallucinating like how some schizophrenics may have, I do not actually hear these things, I 'hear' them the same way you automatically usually 'hear' a sentence in your head as you are reading. While you read this you do not know what my voice irl is like but your subconscious has already assigned me your own unique idea of what I am sounding like vocally saying this. When you dream, you do not hear actual people speaking to you your brain just gave imaginary characters a script in your head and when you wake you know all of that stuff is fake. This is like hearing a dream soundtrack with the visuals and sleep mode off. If that makes sense.
Please reassure me that I am normal and there is nothing horribly bad going on medically in my head, that this isn't dementia or intellect related or blood clots forming it's just good ol silly mild mannered neurodivergence and with either the right diet and/or meds maybe this will someday go away, but if not, its just a wacky and harmless nuisance?
why is it that every single time I get wrapped up in a Dragon Age hyper fixation, the thing that pulls me out of it and mock speed is a Victorious fixation?
How did we get here, how did we go from dark fantasy politics and murder to ✨high schoolers who can sing✨