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Begging begging begging leftists... "leftists" to stop using ableism to attack fascists and people who are threats to humanity and the Earth

White supremacist #57 is not "smooth brained" or "psychotic" or "a sociopath" he is anti-human, violent, and a fascist

Stop making jokes about old politicians having strokes or having cancer or catching x y or z life-long illness because disability is not a punishment, it is a morally neutral state of being

Stop and actually think about disabled people for once. We exist. And we're not in greater leftist circles because nondisabled people never include us, never think about us, never wonder what a perfect world would be like with us in it unless they're also disabled

#poli #abysswords #nothing about us without us #leftism #ableism #disablism #sanism

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The fact that most of the tags under n24 have nothing to do with the disorder and that there's only a handful of posts under every single tag for it sure FEELS like ableism even though it might not be. But I have the time to talk about it so I might as well spread visibility.

(Info under read more)

N24, Non-24, or Non-24 Sleep-Wake Disorder, is a circadian rhythm disorder where your body doesn't run on a (roughly) 24-hour cycle like most people/people without the disorder itself. For example, my days run roughly 18-19 hours instead of a typical 16. My sleep gets later and later and later. I've tried melatonin, tried resetting my sleep schedule by staying up for >24 hours until a "normal" time for bed, and tried keeping ambient noise on like music or nature sounds. I've tried blue light filters. My days are just 26-27 hours instead of a normal 24, though every person with N24 is different.

It's primarily diagnosed in Blind patients, since the cause among Blind people with the disorder seems to be that not being able to see the transition from day to night makes their bodies not produce the proper sleep hormones at the right time.

Among sighted people, the cause seems to be unknown (last time I checked; just one person with the disorder should not be your only source of information!) and, since N24 among sighted people is more rare and less lucrative, it's an orphan disorder. There's not much research into how to help us sighted people with N24 because treatment is often pricey or not an actual solution, or it is aimed directly towards helping Blind people with N24.

As far as I know, there's apparently an implantable device in development. The main suggestions I see are training via sun lamps and melatonin or just trying to get on sleeping pills by lying about insomnia. There is a pill that can be taken, but if you live in the US, it is extremely expensive. So, essentially, this orphan disorder is overlooked and misdiagnosed, and those of us with it have to hope that one of the coin-toss methods of treating N24 works.

N24, even on its own, can be a very disabling disorder. You're either too-sleep deprived to do the things during the day you need to or are busy being asleep because the human body needs rest at some point. Socialization gets very difficult when your circadian rhythm is nocturnal for a couple of weeks. It's an isolating experience. It also makes it harder for people to work and make themselves money. I don't even know if N24 is something that can apply to an application for disability, though given it's not well-known, I doubt it is.

I'm not used to making informative posts like this, so I don't know how to end it, but please do some research into N24 on your own time--I am by no means a medical professional and my anecdotal explanation may contain errors. I just want people to know we exist.

#n24 #non24 #non-24 #non-24 sleep-wake disorder #non 24 sleep wake disorder #non24 sleep wake disorder #n24swd #disability #disability rights #disabled #disability pride #informative post #circadian rhythm #circadian rhythm disorder #disability advocacy #orphan disorders #orphaned disorders #poli #interesting #abysswords #long post

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I get so excited about new music from Jin, DECO*27, Eve, kikuo, or Kenshi Yonezu/hachi-p I'm such such such a Vocaloid nerd and it transferred over to people who became artists who use their own voices as instruments as well now

I just really really really like how they all compose music it's so good I hope more Vocaloid producers can break into the not-niche music scene and be successful

#vcld #abysswords

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Happy halloween! *hands you a pokeball* trick or treat!

;_; This is so sweet tyty, happy Hallowed Ween to you too

I like the Luxury Ball because of the color scheme, so I'm just going to imagine that's the one you're giving me >:)c

Edit but WAIT you also said trick or treat. Here have uhhhh. Seabunny

#abysswords #asks #kittycatjunie

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FUCK, my Tumblr has been Twitterfied 2. Why is Buggy the Clown on my dash

#abysswords

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How to not hit yourself and bang your head on walls and doors and scream when you're having a meltdown please help I just did it again

#autism #actually autistic #actuallyautistic #meltdowns #abysswords

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I'm glad that ace people are getting their time to shine and are finally getting their respect... but I feel like us aros and arospecs are going to be left in the dust again. Because to alloromantics who are accepting of ace people "even without sex you can still have love 🥺"

But justifying an aro's queerness instead of just a "terrible/broken loveless robot" seems to be a lot less easy. We're seen as like... evil because romantic attraction either doesn't come easily or at all to us. And """love wins""" or whatever, which means we are left out because the phrase just usually means romantic love. Idk maybe I'm jaded.

Aphobia isn't just against asexuals... but we keep getting forgotten

#poli #acecourse #i'm not trying to 'take attention away' from asexuals. i'm just. sure that we won't get the same treatment #arocourse #????? idk what the right tag is. help #how do i help mutuals block my posts without showing up on other people's radars #abysswords

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Pinned

I originally made this blog to look at things and follow other blogs I like but due to the Twitter purge I guess I'm going to be here more often. I tend to mind my own business.

My name is Robin. I'm 26 and my pronouns are he/him. Queer, disabled. This is my carrd.

The things I like most, not an exhaustive list:

Hollow Knight

Cult of the Lamb

FFXIV

Splatoon

Persona/SMT

Pokemon

Tiger & Bunny

Hyper Light Drifter

Halo series

Programming

Dragons :)

#so this isn't going to be the only post I'll ever make #apparently #going to use a neat theme until I can make my own #abysswords

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Help how do i turn off post notifs

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Ivam feeling so many negative emotions at once and the fact that I soon won't be able to afford a therapist after only like. 4 sessions. Just makes it all worse

#abysswords #cant articulate thoughts and feelings without just copypasting shit from my insane discord rants #but im just. disabled. tired. poor. denied the ability to say im disabled #a burden. resented for being a burden. told to just be an adult when i dont know anything about anything #learning things is hard. what do i do for health insurance. how do i file taxes #i need help and it feels like im constantly on the verge of a mental breakdown #nobody around me wants to help me bc im 26 and “should know how things work” #im poor and im cognitively fucked because of the stress i assume and my phusical disabilities make my mental illness worse #and and and and and .......

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The way I am on tumblr vs. the way I am on Reddit is so majorly different. On here I'm kind of pissy and way more ready to bitch and whine, while on Reddit I type like a very energetic normie

#abysswords #could just be because i'm on reddit maunly for disability communities

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Idc if the Faust posts are from April I'm still signal boosting bc she's a friend/acquaintance and still should get some money besides lol

#abysswords

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I am. Kind of really irritated about my body lately. When I'm so tired and aching that staying in bed seems like the best idea, laying down for too long is bad for my hips and back. My hips will subluxate if I don't change positions. But my back will hurt if I'm laying down for too long. If I get up out of bed and sit in my chair at the computer and waste time by playing video games, it's sometimes the only thing I have enough energy to do. But I still feel guilt for not doing chores. And this also doesn't factor in that if I sit in my chair for too long, the most comfortable way of sitting will hurt my knees. It feels like I just can't fucking win. I feel like such a useless burden and I KNOW that's not te hnically true but when your family is full of ableists what are you supposed to do

#abysswords #nothing about us without us #i'm just complaining at this point #and i know this isn't depression because my antidepressants work and i feel like a human being most of the time #idk i'm just. tired #i think i only have 2 ibuprofen left and i really really don't want to waste them

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hi i saw your tags idk if you meant you wanted a stranger to help but i just want to say like

nonverbal and semiverbal are permanent states. there is no temporary. you cannot "go nonverbal" because people who are nonverbal are nonverbal 24/7. potential terms to use for episodes of not being able to talk are speech loss or losing speech, however, there are other ways to phrase it without saying nonverbal or nonspeaking

likewise people who are semiverbal are semiverbal 24/7. semiverbal means speech is inefficient and difficult, always. some semiverbal people have a hard time articulating and take a long time to talk and may have imperfect grammar or articulate their point inefficiently/i sound like i don't know what i'm talking about. i sound like i'm lying. i stammer, stutter, start sentences i can't finish, can't find words, can't describe things, can't think. other people only communicate, always, permanently, in short sentences or with only a few words. other people make sounds (which is still considered semiverbal i think but may actually be nonverbal i am not sure). other people only communicate via echolalia (for instance, only responding with quotes from a special interest). other people... basically don't use a lot of words, especially filler words

i have episodes of entire speech loss as a semiverbal person. this doesn't make me nonverbal. i am still semiverbal. and i also have episodes where speaking becomes even harder, and this isn't like a special occurrence that needs a word because it's just part of me being semiverbal. sometimes it just gets even harder to talk or i lose the ability, online, to mask, because i can mask online but not offline. it's easier for me to talk online because i have more time to think and also mostly the ability to edit

i hope any of this is helpful but mostly i just wanted to say nonverbal is a permanent state of being and is never temporary. nothing about being nonverbal is temporary

Thank you for taking the time to educate me, Anon! :)

I'm very new to autistic discourse + don't know the ins and outs of it + appreciate the effort you put into this ask to help educate me. I read a couple posts that also explained to me why nonverbal is bad to use for people who aren't always unable to speak or communicate verbally. I really appreciate the distinction.

I don't think I have a good word to use for what my brain does when it doesn't work, because I don't want to steal terms or claim something I don't need to claim. But I at least know not to use nonverbal and semiverbal when I mean unable to speak (and now my moots/followers can know this too)

#i relate to being better at speaking over text because you can take more time to edit it and look it over #i don't know if what i do is masking though. i really don't know a lot of autistic things #but mixing up entire words or saying the wrong word when i mean something else or just forgetting words i can relate to #again i dont know if this is a 24/7 thing because i have bad memory #but i can relate to it being frustrating and angering when it does happen #you dont have to acknowledge my tags this is just an aside #i wish information on these things were more easily available #i wonder if it's common where like your brain hurts when you try to think of words or the right word #is taking a while to respond not just... a normal thing? #important #nothing about us without us #abysswords #long post #also just because i say i can relate i hope i'm not coming off as trying to say i experience what you experience #that isn't what i mean. i'm not semiverbal or nonverbal + my personal issues might not even have to do with autism

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I love* arguing with transphobes in YouTube comments, especially the ones that tell me gender = sex and call me a woman every time I assert I'm not a woman. I sure do love feeling my blood pressure rise and brain go into fight or flight mode every SINGLE time I see one of these fucks and try to convince them trans people are real and not """delusional""" and every time I try to give a relatively scientific or simplistic and easy to consume response I get the same fucking answer with both!!!!!!!! It's almost as if this shit is pointless!!!!!!! And nobody fucking cares trans people are being genocided pretty much globally!!!!!!!!!!!!!

* hate

#abysswords #venting #poli

[abyssbirds]

Fun Persona fact: Ken Amada and Goro Akechi are the same age :)

Same hair color. Almost same eye color. Both are precocious. Both are the Justice arcana. Both are deadset on revenge. :)

#p5 #p3 #abysswords