#Worried About The Future

[cfs-crohns-colitis-warrior]

It sucks being chronically ill. I want to be able to make money to pay my own way in life, to pay for my share of things, but I can’t work at the moment, maybe ever, so how am I supposed to do that?

A normal job is out of the question, I tried that in 2021 and struggled a lot after only about a month of part time work, and it was fairly straight forward and easy stuff, just basic filing etc.

Working from home is tough too. I don’t know if I’ll always be able to do the hours requested, because I never know what kind of week, day or even hour I’m going to have. I might manage all my work one work, the next I might not manage any of it. I’m going to struggle finding something flexible and simple enough for me to do (cause I don’t have that many skills) and even if I find something suitable it’s not guaranteed I’ll even get the job, especially since they’re more likely to go with someone who will be more reliable.

Then there’s the fact that I only have so much energy, and it’s always a debate on how to spend it. I have to use so much for showering, eating, just basic living to keep myself alive and clean basically. The thing is, I don’t want all my remaining energy to just go on work and earning money, because what kind of life is that? I want to be able to enjoy my time too. I want to be able to sit and read for a bit before bed, I want to be able to use my energy to cook delicious food or to help keep the house clean. But after all that, what energy is there left for work?

Even starting my own business will be a struggle. I doubt I’ll ever earn enough that it would be a replacement for a part time job, let alone a full time one. It’s just my hobby that I want to use to earn a little money from, because it’s much more flexible for me to do. The truth is though, I can only manage so much, and what happens if I stop being able to make anything?

Sure, at the moment I’m on benefits which helps me pay board and my phone bill etc, and I’m able to budget money for other stuff like entertainment when I can manage it and for going out for food, but I pay for very minimal things since I still live at home with my mum and dad.

What on Earth will happen when I’m able to move in with my boyfriend? My benefits will likely stop, since they don’t view someone as an individual, and so all money issues will fall to him. I’ll have to rely on him to pay for everything, and he’ll be the sole earner, earning barely enough money for one person, and having to pay for two. I don’t want him to pay for everything. I want to be able to pay for my own stuff, but I’m just too ill to be able to afford it. What the hell am I supposed to do?

My dad had a decent job, and my mum didn’t work and wasn’t able to get any benefits, so my dad has always paid for everything. I’ve seen first hand the kind of strain that can put on a relationship. My illnesses will already put a lot of strain on us before money even gets involved. Now I’m worried about how everything will affect my relationship and what on Earth we’re going to do. All I want to do right now is go to bed and go to sleep, but I’m too worried about the damn future thanks to unforeseeable illnesses that take everything from a person and they have no way to stop it or reverse it.

All I can hope for right now is that there’s something out there for me, some way to earn an okay amount of money at least, or that there’ll somehow be some miracle cure found soon that means I’ll be able to work a normal job again.

Anyway, another rant over, worries out of my head a bit. This is basically just a way for me to voice my thoughts and feelings to try and not keep it all bottled up inside me. I hope other peoples lives are going better than mine right now…

#chronic illness warrior #chronic fatigue syndrome #myalgic encephalomyelitis #cfs/me #chronic illness #awareness #chronic illnesses #crohn’s disease #exhaustion #me/cfs #crohn’s colitis #crohn’s warrior #crohn’s and colitis #money #money worries #worried about money #worried #worried about life #worried about the future #stress #stressed

[no-i-will-not-shut-up]

anxious

#anxious before bed #worried about the future #not good #gotta calm down

[naito-kitsune]

Vent rant #0000001 (expect a lot of these)

I don't know man. I feel like an attention hungry cat sometimes, like I want attention despite the fact that no one knows who I am. Its led me to do some terrible stuff for that attention. Now here I am on a humble account on a humble website. I just want to stay like this now. Unnoticed, free to do whatever, and say whatever y'know.

Swear this feels like an omen for my cancelation in the future.

#Scared #Worried #Worried about the future #I dont want to be famous I just want people to enjoy what I provide

[fabuloustrash05]

"When I was a young man, I fell in love with a woman-"

"Oh, hey, is it that late?"

"Sit."

This is such a funny father and son moment between these two, and I love it way too much.

Not only with Raph trying to get out of hearing a story from his dad that he's not interesting in/in the mood to hear, but also immediately wanting out the second he realizes it's about his dad's love life.

#Rise ain't the only ones who had the turtles not want to hear about their dad's dating history #Raph is like ‘I don’t wanna hear this mushy shit’ *proceeds to be apart of mushy shit with his own gf seasons later* #don't worry Raph you'll understand when you meet a special lizard lady in season 4 ;D #I can imagine Raph's kids doing something similar to him in the future #like Raph starts going on about a story (or how much he loves his wife) and his kids are just not having it lol #TMNT 2012 #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt raphael #TMNT raph #tmnt raph 2012 #master splinter #tmnt splinter #TMNT season 1 #turtle temper

[abstractfrog]

THE GLORIA SCOTT - part 2, and a follow up to my comic for the first half of this scene! thanks sm to @crashingmeteorz for allowing me to source validation for my whimsical cosmic approach to this moment <3

#sherlock & co #sherlock and co #i had such a distinct and vivid image for this scene in my mind when i first considered drawing it #but i was worried people might find it. too weird?? but . i dont want to draw 13 pages of two men lying on a bed #so heres my heavy visual metaphor for the ways in which i think john and sherlock are trying to connect with each other in this scene #i hope it makes sense! #i have so many feelings about this scene i cant put it into words so it had to be a comic instead #another note i was already working on this when joff's floorplan released and i didnt want to reshuffle the entire composition to conform #wouldnt have worked #but future comics will take the canon floorplan into account #uhmm #oh yeah also wanted to mention: i took inspiration from Space Boy the webcomic. so. read that if u vibe with this kind of storytelling #another thing: sleep well by electric president - tracks 4 5 and 6 #patsart

[a2zillustration]

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#Listen- #Based on the way that people talked about this encounter (having little context for the actual dialogue bc I'm still avoiding spoilers) #.............this whole interaction was a lot different than I thought it was going to be gnjkfldnsjkhnfjkh #And with that I think we're probably done with Gale-specific stuff until endgame :')))))))))))) #I waited so long to see Mystra SPECIFICALLY for this reason I didn't want to wrap up his quest with a bunch of stuff still left in act 3! #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #act III spoilers #croissant adventures #tav #gale #gale x tav #breadweave #gale dekarios #mystra #comics #Future me here: don't worry Gale will still be around breadweave will not be abandoned

[pettson]

i could make a comment on how tess being overlooked in the tlou fandom is because of the misogynistic views on older women we have in this society where any woman over 35 is not considered sexy anymore and therefore loses her worth, but do i want to

#it's a tale as old as time #do we need to talk about it #or should i just walk away #like what i keep thinking but don't really want to bring up #is how sad it makes me that most of the fandom seems to want to ignore tess #because they prefer picturing joel with a hot 25 year old #this maybe comes from me realising the amount of age gap dbf type of content that is out there #and obviously i don't need to engage in any of it and i can block the tags #but sometimes just the sheer amount of it #has me a bit worried for the future of our society #tess servopoulos #the last of us

[emry-stars-art]

My Jeremy what sharp teeth you have

Find the mer aus masterpost here 💕

#all the better toooooooooo smile at your friends with #I’m thinking this will be May’s sticker design #took me long enough to decide on one OTL #star tier patrons joining anytime this month will get this one #might be editing Jeremy’s design in the future but that’s for future emry to worry about #anyway I hope u like them #fan art #my art #aftg #all for the game #mer au #oops all mers au #squean #jeremer #jerejean #chibi #digital

[rednleafff]

I’m in the middle of a - well - difficult situation at the moment, so for now I’m not very active or able to draw - so sorry about that - here are some sketches I from the last couple of weeks -

I hope to come back to draw very soon- especially commissions- I’ll probably open an emergency commission? Idk- I don’t really like doing that- anyway- we will see

#I’m alright don’t worry about me :) #Yummi Hamato #rottmnt Yummi Hamato #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #tmnt #rottmnt leo #rottmnt oc #rottmnt good? future #rottmnt casey jr #rottmnt good? future au #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt Mikey #rottmnt raph #Usagi yuichi #rottmnt yuichi usagi #leosagi

[featherlouise]

If you've been here a while you've probably noticed I started drawing Holly's face a lil different recently, and that's bc they have a new design!!!!

Say hiiii Holly

#my art #hollow knight #ill prolly do a turn around #and different stages #like my original ref of them #but that's something for future feather to worry about ahshdjxj #the hollow knight #thk #pure vessel #hk pv #hk hollow #hollow knight gijinka #gijinka #might post this next to the original design actually bc it was just under a year old when I started the redesign #turns out being hyperfixated on a character for a year helps improve ur art skills #who knew

[mishacakes]

ive been thinking about tender future au couple things of “bye be safe” and early morning moments and my bRAIN GO BRRRRRRR

#misha arts #tomiko #rottmnt oc #rottmnt leo #future au #I LOVE THEM OK DONT WORRY ABOUT IT

[fromtheseventhhell]

George did not write Arya naming babies in Winterfell and taking care of a child in the middle of a WARZONE just for y'all to say she's not going to end up with kids/family because she's "not that type of character" 😒

#arya stark #asoiaf #a character centered around family and /pack/ who spent the entire story wanting to return home to/with her family isn't #going to end up with a family of her own (outside of siblings) because she doesn't want to be a trad-wife...okay #she was 9 years old on the run and worrying about how to fix Weasel's hair can we bffr for two seconds #Weasel latching onto Arya's leg...Arya using her name as an alias in Harrenhal...that's literally mother and daughter #impact so great she has her future love interest taking care of kids in her memory when he initially wanted to leave weasel #which is funny because people always want to project onto Gendry as the /family man/ type who has to convince Arya when it's the opposite #Arya is going to have a romance and family as a non-conforming woman on her own terms and I think that's beautiful #the unfeeling detached persona y'all try to project onto her is never going to stick she literally thrives off of community #it's very obvious when you speak on a character without having read their chapters btw

[canisalbus]

Have you considered selling merch? Some stickers pins or patches of the boys would go hard

.

#I get asked about merch sometimes and yes it's something I think about every now and then #but I'm not sure how that would go #small businesses are a lot of work #I'm forgetful and get overwhelmed really really easily #I'm a socially awkward introvert so I reckon I'd have challenging time on the customer service side of things #but it's not a hard no maybe I manage to get gutsy enough in the future who knows #would honestly love to design some stickers pins or patches #been considering it for a few years already weh #answered #anonymous #I'm worried people would be put off by the Finnish shipping fees. our postage rates are pretty high unfortunately #and not to get too deep into it but I also have some internal ideological rules about what kind of objects I want to put out into the world #it'd have to be good stuff I don't want to sell people anything that would become junk in five years if I can avoid it

[race-week]

The year is 20XX.

All of the ‘classic’ tracks have been retired from the F1 calendar, and a F1 tyre has not touched a gravel trap or a blade of grass in years.

The F1 season exclusively takes place between the Middle East and the USA in a series of copycat street tracks

#f1 #this is literally what I worry about the future of the sport being

[gideonisms]

tbh as soon as I got a job that paid me enough to live and wasn't dependent on getting people to like me or listen to me most of my brain problems just went away. I spent all that time trying to convince myself they wouldn't and I should try to get them fixed regardless but then I just. Immediately became functional upon receiving a consistent schedule, boring autism tasks, and Some Money

#i made a curry the other day. #i feel like i should be lonely or worried about the future because i don't really have friends here & i don't want to work at 5 am forever #but on the other hand. teaching was horrible customer service was horrible tutoring doesn't pay enough #i don't know how to get to an editing job and i need a break from trying to figure it out #3 months to a year of absolute boredom and vague back pain sounds wonderful.

[bulbabutt]

donnie probably starts to say "that makes no sense" but he gets smacked by everyone

cass apocalypse au papa raph infested my brain i cant think of anything else but like.... i realized casey jr has a funny twisted gap between his front teeth and that probably grew in like a snaggle tooth and i made myself cry about it

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #cass apocalypse au #future raphael #cass fanart tag #cass apocalyptic series #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt raphael #rise raph #art #my art #he just...... he baby..... he raph's baby.... ignore the puddle of my tears im so fine dont worry about me #fucking listening to you'll be in my heart cuz iM VERY NORMAL ABOUT IT #idk if i know the ages of when kids grown up teeth grow in but i think 5 yr old casey whos lost most his baby teeth makes sense