#WHY are you like this. i’m not complaining it’s funny and good for your health but like. WHY

[sunriseverse]

does. lwj lick his lips before firing off a concussive blast on his guqin in the intro? and other questions that are going to fucking HAUNT me.

#WHY are you like this. i’m not complaining it’s funny and good for your health but like. WHY #c.txt

[mysumeow]

My ears! Why won't you pet them? 2/2❜

PREVIOUS PART

Summary: Tighnari is used to the attention his fox features bring to him. Your apparent indifference to them makes him wonder: why's that?

Warnings: Once again, Tighnari calls reader a lummox. That's like his catchphrase. Non-graphic descriptions of violence. Pretty sfw all-over, but gets mildly suggestive towards the end with nudity.

a/n: asks and requests are open ^^

Tighnari awoke with a severe headache that prevented him from even sitting up in bed. Next to him, you were sitting on a chair as you jotted down some notes. You noticed that, despite his eyes being open, he still had a dazed expression.

"How are you feeling? You received a strong hit to your head," you closed your report journal and left it on the desk. "If I hadn’t disobeyed your request, who knows if you would’ve made it out alive,"

"Ah, right. Now I remember," once again, he attempted to sit and rest his back against the headboard. "We were…cleansing a withering zone?"

"And then a pack of rifthounds attacked us."

His hand brushed against his bandaged abdomen, the memory of how it got there coming in as fresh as the wound.

"You’re not harmed, are you?" he took a quick look at your body in search of any telltale sign that you were also hurt.

"How would I be harmed if you told me to flee as soon as those rifthounds appeared," you crossed your arms. "I did come back not even a minute later and drag your body out of there,"

"I was too reckless," he recognized, ashamed. "I had already cleansed a withering zone earlier in the morning and didn’t regard proper rest before going to the next one,"

"Don’t overthink about it," you told him before he could apologize. "We made it out of there alive; that’s all that matters,"

Despite your assurance, the need to apologize gnawed at him in the back of his mind.

"Look at you. You’re always complaining about adventurers being reckless and having to nurse them back to health," you teased.

"Very funny," he rolled his eyes.

"I know," you said as you rose from your seat. "You look thirsty. I’ll go look for a glass of water. Don’t go anywhere,"

"Do I have a choice."

Tighnari, ever the stubborn one, managed to get out of bed and scan his own appearance, just to get a better idea of the injuries on his body. You weren’t trained on how to approach these types of damages, unlike all forest rangers, so he figured Collei gave you a hand on how to treat his wounds.

His eyes fixed on the square band-aid patch at the base of his left ear and what that meant.

"I’m back—And of course you wouldn’t stay in bed," you said, leaving the glass of water on his bedside table and gathering your belongings, such as the report journal. "Because you need to rest, let's put research on hold for today... or until you feel better."

"No need. We can continue right away."

"Don't be silly; go back to bed," you said gently. "Remember to update your own journal,"

Maybe you didn’t care about it or didn’t notice, but Tighnari was too aware of your proximity. His heartbeat spiked up and didn’t calm down, even after you left his room.

Late at night was when he decided it was a good time to finish documenting recent finds.

Tighnari yawned and opened the journal to the page he recalls being the latest he wrote on.

Not only was the pencil on a different page, but the texture of the notebook was also different. With a confused frown, he checked the front cover.

You took his journal by accident.

It wouldn’t be bad if it were the one dedicated to academic endeavors.

You took his personal one.

He shivered as a cold bead of sweat ran down his neck.

He almost had a heart attack when he opened his door to run to your temporary home, and he was met with your just as startled expression. Tighnari heeded the familiar cover of his personal journal clutched against your chest.

"You read it, didn't you?" he groaned, pinching the bridge of his nose. "…Listen, let’s pretend this didn’t happen—"

He recalled that the last paragraph he wrote was about how much he wanted you to touch his ears and how frustrated he was that you were being oblivious about his feelings for you ever since you both were students at the Akademiya.

He wasn’t going to be able to sleep tonight.

"Why didn’t you tell me sooner," you interrupted and stepped closer to him. "I always thought you were the one too entranced in your work to notice my feelings,"

He gawked at you. "You can’t be serious. Tell me you’re joking,"

"I’m not."

"Your visits are work-driven, and most of the letters we exchange are focused on that too! How would I guess you feel the same for me if the idea you give me is that we’re mere workmates,"

You sighed and averted your gaze from him.

"I’m sort of familiar with your kin. They tend to pursue knowledge and appreciate educational accomplishments over anything else. I didn’t want to feel like a burden?"

"…Wow, you really are a lummox in all senses of the word."

"Gee, thanks."

"Your information regarding my kin is not wrong. However, I must address the fact that you’re overlooking that not only are you not a burden to me, but I’m also capable of still pursuing knowledge and be with you,"

"So, in other words, you mean…"

Cautiously, he reached out to you and observed your reactions for any sign of rejection. With sheer tenderness, his hand grasped yours and pulled you inside his home.

The first graze of lips was sweet, his arms circled around your waist, and you pressed your bodies together. You pulled away to relish the feeling, which Tighnari granted you a second to do, and he was pulling you again for another kiss.

Tighnari jolted when you decided it was a good moment to rub his ear, and not being able to control it, he began to purr.

"You can do that?" it was a welcomed discovery.

"I—Yes—" his cheeks flared pink with embarrassment. "Don’t exploit it!"

"Hm. You're lucky I'm exhausted," you let go of his ear and preferred to nuzzle yourself onto his neck, the vibration from his purr all too soothing.  "Let's just rest, yes?"

He didn't bother to move an inch, content with holding you closer and relaxing his cheek on your head. 

The chirping from the birds outside awoke you from sleep, and the embrace you both dozed in was now pretty much over. Tighnari's leg is over yours, and your arm is tucked under his back.

Your arm was so numb that the pain shot right through it when you tugged it from under Tighnari, waking him up.

"Ah, my whole body hurts."

"I might as well lose an arm because of you," you groaned. "How about your wounds? Do you think you can continue today?"

He shook his head no, viridescent eyes staring back at you. 

"If you want to carry on with your duties, don't let me hold you back. I can manage on my own."

"No need. I'll stay with you. And won't receive a no for an answer," you grasped his arms and led him to the bathroom. 

"You're too kind. You could just scrub my back with a rag and I'll take care of the rest."

"You don't... want to take a bath together?"

"Oh," his eyes widened and processed the information. "...Oh. Uhm—if it's okay with you...?"

"I wouldn't have offered to in the first place," you laughed as you turned on the bathtub's faucet.

You were humming to yourself as you got the bath ready. 

Self-conscious now, even though he wanted to go in with you, Tighnari began disrobing himself as slowly as possible. 

By the time he was moving on to undo the sash around his hip, you had already removed most of your clothes. His eyes trailed from your face to your neck, and lower...

"Need help with that?" you volunteered to give him a hand, startling him and he forced himself to look away bashfully. "Your arms must hurt, after all,"

You directed him a teasing smile. If his ears could turn red, they would do so now.

Once bare, Tighnari followed behind you and sat on the corner opposite of you. He lowered himself enough so the bubbles would hide his face up to his mouth, not sure where to focus his eyes.

You weren't helping matters by sitting on his lap and running your shampoo-slathered hands through his hair, your chest right at his eye level. Perhaps you were having too much fun with the fact that he starts purring as soon as your hands touched his ears; you spent most of the time with your fingers there. 

His delight was cut short when your fingers came across the deep cut those monsters released, and pain shot up at that instant.

"It stings," he hissed, scrunching his nose.

"If someone wasn’t reckless yesterday…"

"You’re not going to forget about it, will you?"

"Never.”

#tighnari #tighnari x reader #tighnari fluff #/ᐠ - ˕ -マ .. cute cute

[urjanedxn]

ღ you idiot. ´

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ღ pairing: lo’ak sully x fem!omaticaya!reader

ღ summary: you’re in an established relationship with lo’ak, one night he comes back after a fight, again, and you try to get him to tell you what made him so angry. you’re mixed (human mother and na’avi father)

ღ warnings: fight, insecurity, don’t really think it needs more warnings, it’s kinda just fluff i wouldn’t really consider it an angst.

ღ note: this is the first avatar stuff i write, and yes i’m aware of his age we’re the same age, anyway, english is not my first language ;) enjoy!

♡

Once again, you were just sitting there after a whole day of working with your new people, you were just about to go to bed when you heard someone entering the room.

You looked up to see, once again, your injured boyfriend, you couldn’t believe your eyes.

He had bruises and was cut on his arms, he obviously had a fight with someone.

“Hey” you hear as your eyes become black, “You idiot.” you get up and walk to him, your face said it all, you were mixed with anger and worries.

“I just-” he started but of course, you cut him off “No no no, i don’t wanna hear any of your stupid excuses, i don’t care anymore.”

Lo’ak had been in fights before, every single time he came up to you, injured, with a smile hoping for you to help him.

“Sit here.” he listened, mouth shut he sat down, waiting for you to come back with all your stuff to take care of his wounds.

You came back, still not saying a word, the silence was painful, you stood in front of him as he looked up to talk to you, you didn’t even give him one sight.

“Y/N…” you gave him a death stare, of course you were going to help him but you refused to hear him.

“You promised me you would start actually fighting with words and not with your fists! You do really believe that i was going to take you in my arms and nurse you tonight? There’s no way. No way.” You screamed at him, tears coming in your eyes, he didn’t think it would hurt you that much, he really had a reason to fight every time he did.

“I-had-a-reason.” he took your hands, looking up to you, you turned your head to look at him with a pout, trying not to cry as you were really tired of your day.

“Can i tell you the story or are you gonna throw things at my face?” Lo’ak asked raising his eyebrows.

You nodded, waiting for him to talk, “I was with my brother and we were hanging out with some guys from here and they started to talk about girls, and we just started arguing because one stupid asshole said things about you.”

He looked sincere, “So you hit him? Lo’ak you are a good guy don’t you know how to contain yourself? What could he say to make you so mad to the point that you got so injured?” you were seriously trying to understand what crossed his mind.

“Trust me, you don’t wanna know.” he replied looking at you, you rolled your eyes “I don’t care about what they said, i care about you and your health.” you answer, letting go of his hands to clean his wounds.

“Wouldn’t you stand up for me if girls talked about me like that?”

“I would, but i wouldn’t punch them and come back to you half dead.” you mock him, “Ouch! That hurt!” he dared to complain.

“Ah!, that’s what you get for being such an idiot. I can’t believe you.”

“You’re really mad at me, huh?”

“Of course i am. But i understand why you got mad.” you admitted, calming down a bit.

“Why does it matter so much, y/n?” he asked, searching for an eye contact, taking your hands back in his,

“I don’t know. I don’t like seeing you like this, hurt. You have to understand that it hurts me too.” you finally looked at him in the eyes.

“Y/n, my love, i am so sorry.” hearing this, you’re kind of relieved, you really deserved an apology.

“Thank you, for defending me though…” you said, tidying the stuff you used to patch him up.

You heard him giggling a bit then felt his hands on your waist, then he laughed letting his head fall on your stomach while you were still standing and he was sitting.

“What? what’s so funny?” you replied a bit offended.

“Nothing, you’re cute when you’re angry.” he answered, mocking you.

“Oh fuck off Lo’ak!” you giggled then pushed his hands off of you, you turned your back and he was already standing.

He took you by your hips and turned you around to face him, “What can i do to gain your forgiveness?” he smirked.

“Start by stopping your stupid fights and also, don’t expect anything you’re way too injured for that.” you said with a sad face to make fun of him too.

“I’m never too injured.”

“Oh yeah?” you said pressing a bit one of his wounds on his arm as he screamed out of pain.

“Alright, bedtime now.” you quickly kissed him before running to your bed, happy you got your revenge.

You heard him sighing then he laid down next to you, looking at the ceiling.

You tried to fall asleep but you kept thinking and thinking, you noticed Lo’ak didn’t even really try to sleep he was just laying here.

You turned around, watching him closely, something was keeping you awake, your curiosity really wanted to know why these boys upset him so much when they talked about you.

“Psst…Lo’ak?” you pushed his arm a bit, he turned his head with a questioning face, “What? What’s wrong?” he sounded a bit worried as you usually say goodnight and instantly fall asleep.

“What did they say? The boys?” you were a bit embarrassed to ask that to your boyfriend, it felt a bit weird.

“It doesn’t matter, why do you want to know that?” he really didn’t want to tell you for some reason.

“Please, just tell me i can’t sleep i just keep thinking about it…” you beg him.

“Y/n, i love you, i don’t want to say that to you.” he smiled, holding your hand.

“Come on, was it that bad?” you started to worry about it.

“No no, it’s just, you know, we don’t care about what they think, right?” Lo’ak tried to reassure you as much as he could.

“Well, it’s not that i care but i wanna know what made you lose your mind like that.”

“It was at the same time, bad compliments and degrading things that’s it.” he made a small smile and then gave you a peck on your lips before just stopping the conversation to go back to sleep.

He pulled you closer to him, in his arms, but

you were still so upset, you really needed to know, it somehow mattered.

♡ ♡ ♡

Of course, the next day, you didn’t want to ask Lo’ak about it again, so, you knew Neteyam was there when the fight happened, the only way to learn about these bad compliments was to go beg Neteyam to tell you.

During the day, you were cooking with Neytiri when you just sneaked out to find Neteyam.

When you finally found him near the beach you ran up to him, after a little talk you finally brought up the fight.

“Yesterday, Lo’ak came back after a fight with some guys, he told me he was with you.”

“Oh, yeah, sorry i couldn’t dissuade him to jump into that fight.” he apologized scratching the back of his head.

“No worries, it’s just that, you know, he refuses to tell me what the boys could’ve said to make him so angry, I had hoped that you would resolve that mystery.”

“Well, it’s not really flattering y/n. Not sure it would be really useful for you to know that.”

“Oh come on give me a break just tell me and i’ll go.” you were tired of begging for someone to just tell you.

“Okay, okay…I don’t remember it entirely i just know one said things about your body, nice ass and all, they said they’d mate with you then another said you were too human, they just talked about you as if we weren’t there, dirty things, stuff about your human blood. I wanted us to go but Lo’ak definitely wanted to kill them.”

After Neteyam told you, you thought you’d feel relieved but in fact, it kinda hurt. They talked about you like a piece of meat in front of your actual mate and all this story about your origins made you sick.

“Oh- alright, thank you Neteyam, see you later.” you tapped his shoulder and then came back to Neytiri.

♡ ♡ ♡

“What is wrong, dear? You seem somewhere else.” she asked, as you were lost in your mind.

“Do you think i look too human?” you sincerely questioned.

“I don’t think any of you look “too” human, you are mixed, this is how you are, having 5 fingers and being a bit smaller than the others doesn’t make you one of the sky people.” Neytiri honestly replied.

You smiled to her, she saw you like she saw her kids, just a bit different but that’s not how you saw things.

You were more human then them, at least you looked more human, and it was no secret, everybody knew it.

You weren’t just a bit smaller and had more fingers, you were a bit lighter, your eyes were smaller too and they were darker. You really looked different.

♡ ♡ ♡

The whole day, you were just questioning yourself about what some stupid teenagers said about you.

That night, when you and Lo’ak found each other in your room, he immediately noticed something was wrong.

“Y/n? are you listening?”

“Huh? you weren’t listening… Sorry i wasn’t paying attention.” you smiled at him.

“Are you okay?” he walked to you.

You of course said you were fine, Lo’ak made a small pause and then talked.

“I’m gonna be completely honest with you, Neteyam told me that he told you what the boys said. And he explained that you took it great so…”

“I did, i don’t care about what they said it was simple curiosity.” you lie very very badly.

“Mmh mmh…y/n who do you think you’re fooling right now? You’re doing that thing with your ears when you lie.” he laughed.

“Wh-what ear thing are you even talking about?”

“Don’t change the subject.” Lo’ak replied, tickling your left ear.

“Fine, i just, i don’t know i thought i wouldn’t care but then i thought what if my chest is too this or my ass is too that and then my body is too human and…you know.” you admitted, looking down in shame.

“It’s okay, i didn’t want to tell you because i knew you would question yourself and get insecure. You are perfect. You should’ve seen how ugly these guys were, and still they were judging the most beautiful woman that they’ll ever see. I wish i could lend you my eyes to look at yourself, you’d see how amazing you are. And you and i, with our 5 fingers, we’re Na’avis, and our human part is only genetic, nothing about our heart is from the sky people.”

A little tear rolled down your cheek, you were always scared to not be enough for your people, especially for Lo’ak.

“I, see you.” he whispered to you before he put both his hands on your face, he pulled you into a huge comforting hug, kissing the top of your head, as you were gaining your confidence back into his arms.

You definitely needed to hear that, that’s probably why you wanted to know what the boys said, because you don’t really believe that you’re perfect.

You were so glad your boyfriend was like you, you understand him. You see him.

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thanks for reading me, hope you enjoyed that ;)

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[allhalesterekstilinski]

I do like complaining about t*en w*lf, it’s a hobby honestly. I’ve been thinking a lot about the parents lately, so I decided to give my brutally honest opinions about each of them. In case you don’t want to read all of my opinions, TLDR I don’t like most of the parents.

If you do want to hear my reasonings, I’ll put it under the cut because there is a lot of negativity.

These are my opinions and I’m explaining why I feel the way I do. You are by no means obligated to agree with me, and I’m not saying your opinions are wrong, all I ask is you are respectful.

This is my interpretation of the characters and their actions (as parents, not every single decision they’ve ever made). My interpretation may be influenced by my own experiences. If you disagree, I welcome you make your own post. If you really hate what I have to say, block me.

I do try to look at good and bad parenting decisions from each parent, but depending on what the act itself is, some hold more weight than others, as well as the number of good vs bad.

Let’s start with the dads

Noah Stilinski

Good

Said he would burn the sheriff’s station to the ground to protect Stiles

Was frantically looking for him when he went missing (on multiple occasions)

Pointed a gun at Chris when he thought he was going to shoot “Stiles”

Tried to help him get out of the train station

Stopped drinking (this is twofold, it was good for Stiles and for himself)

Bad

In regards to the first point, he followed it up with ‘a good way to forgive yourself is to forgive someone else.’ He made it all about Scott. I know he wasn’t aware of what Scott said, but Scott doesn’t need to be forgiven

“I don’t want to feel worse by yelling at my son” this sounds to me like he blames Stiles for getting fired. He shouldn’t have been fired, but he also shouldn’t be blaming Stiles

Stiles comes to him with XYZ and Noah doesn’t believe him. Scott comes to him with XYZ and he believes him. Not cool to believe someone else over your own kid, especially when they said the same thing. This happens multiple times

Edit to add: He basically calls Stiles a liar and never apologizes for it

Noah agreed to let Stiles to go Eichen. Even if he tried to back out later, he still let him go through with it

This one seems more minor, but not telling your kid who you’re going on a date with. Kinda awkward that it’s his crush’s mom

He leaves Stiles with Claudia. He thinks his job is more important than to support his son and his dying wife. He also did this knowing that Claudia assaulted Stiles. That’s not a great way to say you care about your kid (Noah, not Claudia, her too though)

“Thank you, son I should have had.” This is not funny. I don’t give a fuck what Stiles said before this. That’s not funny. You don’t joke about wanting someone else to be your kid. My dad made it very obvious he loved my step-brothers more than me and that shit is painful. (Additionally I’m sick of seeing “if you think that’s bad parenting, you had good parents.” I think that’s bad parenting and I had a shitty parent. There are real people in real life whose parents don’t like them and wish to trade them for a different kid. I think this is one of the most hurtful things spoken in the show)

He doesn’t know where Stiles is (in "Fury”) when the gun goes off and he calls out for Scott first. Before Stiles. He cares more about Scott’s than Stiles’s well-being. Even if he did know where Stiles was, you call out for your kid first to make sure they’re okay

Yelling “I’m the dad, you’re the son!” Obviously Stiles does not feel like a child in this relationship. He’s too busy being an adult

Additional note: I have no problem with Noah acting like a father figure to those who don’t have dads or good dads, but he should really focus on being a good dad to his own kid first. So far he’s not doing a bang up job.

Chris Argent

Good

Allowed her to take mental health days come season 3

Bad

Told Allison she was responsible for the deaths of everyone if she didn’t tell him who the kanima was. Even if that was true, saying that to your kid’s face and showing them a corpse killed by the kanima is not a good move

Kidnapped his daughter, probably traumatizing her, and implied he would be forced to kill her if she were to change into a werewolf (the last part screams conditional love. And don’t come at me with “that was season 2, he changed later.” No, he didn’t. Chris is not an ally to werewolves, only Scott, and I will fight you)

Emotionally manipulated her into not seeing Scott again by threatening to kill him. (He’s also a hypocrite because in season 1 Kate also held a gun to Scott’s head and he said that wasn’t okay. Doesn’t matter if he wasn’t going to shoot Scott, unlike his sister, threatening it is bad enough)

Allison tells Scott not to laugh when she talks about archery, she also tells Jackson not to laugh before she confides something in him. This sounds like Chris and Victoria blow her off. She still has a box of art she produced from over her life claiming all of it was terrible. It sounds like Chris and Victoria said that to her. If she really truly hated it, she probably wouldn’t keep it. At least not in her room, maybe in storage, but at the moment it’s sitting there as a reminder she’s not good enough

Hid a lot of information from her (the truth about Victoria, the hunter thing – if she was meant to carry on the job, he waited an awful long time to get her into it, but whatever. The fact that he knew about the telluric currents and Gerard being alive)

This is the big one. This is it for me. She told him she loves him and HE DOESN’T SAY IT BACK!!!!

You tell your kid you love them, especially if they say it first. He kissed her head and fucking walked away. I don’t care what your familial love language is, if you can’t tell a person that you either helped make and/or raised or whatever that you love them, don’t be a parent. That shit hurts

He didn’t go to her when she died. She died in Scott’s arms. Chris stood there and watched. Maybe he was in shock, but that doesn’t sound like very good CoMpArTmEnTaLiZiNg. That would have been a good time to say you love your kid, but no. (If you believe the unreliable narrator theory, I certainly do, maybe he did go to her, but this isn’t what we saw in the episode.)

Peter Hale

Good

Wanted to connect with his child when he found out he had one

Was willing to do a big favor for Lydia just to get the name of his child (which was a big deal to him)

Spent thousands of dollars (and we all know how stingy Peter is) to get information on her

Was willing to get burned alive again to see his daughter (6.05)

Used himself as a distraction for the Ghost Riders to save Malia. Twice (the first time was when they were in the tunnels, and then fought them again in the library)

Similarly Peter, who just got done saying he wasn’t sure how Malia could be his daughter since she lacks self-preservation instincts, is willing to potentially sacrifice himself and tells her to run

Her calling him “Dad” snapped him out of the trance

The Anuk-ite used her voice against him, meaning his greatest fear was something happening to her

Bad

Wanted Malia to kill Kate (why? He could do it. Actually, Chris should have done it but he doesn’t have the balls)

Additional notes: The show implies Peter helped out Malia during the brown out in season 5 (through a flashback in season 6), but I never understood what the significance was, so I’m ignoring that until someone can explain it to me.

Ken Yukimura

Good

Was willing to sell out Noshiko, in a way, to help Kira (“Are you sure about that?”)

Was willing to go to prison for Kira when she was (knowingly) wrongly accused of murder

Bad

Didn’t tell her about her kitsune powers until they started to manifest

Didn’t tell her they were planning to go back to New York

Dr. David Geyer

Good

Supportive of Liam and helped him work through his anger

Doesn’t blame him for getting assaulted by Scott (”Are you mad at me?” “No, of course not.”)

Clearly cares about Liam, and his friends

Additional notes: We don’t get to see him enough. I’m mad about it.

Rafael McCall

Good

Tells Scott it’s safer for him to get out of town than stay when Monroe has her army

Bad

Pushed his kid down the stairs. Doesn’t matter if he was drunk or not

Didn’t really apologize to Scott for this incident, instead he pushed the blame to Melissa

Said he would come back soon and then didn’t

Not to mention he doesn’t seem to pay child support since Melissa is struggling and he offers to have dinner with Scott so Melissa can work more shifts instead of just giving her money. But I digress

Proceeded to not spend time with Scott. No phone calls or emails were mentioned (but I guess that doesn’t necessarily mean they didn’t exist. Still didn’t spend time with him, though)

Henry Tate

Good

Was gutted when his family died

Thrilled to find out Malia was alive

Bad

Sent her (?) to Eichen to readjust. That is what therapy is for, not a mental institution. (And who gave her the go ahead to go to high school with a third grade education? The fact that she graduated eventually with the academic success of a nine-year-old tells me she’s hella smart. What 9 yo wouldn’t struggle with pre-calc if they skipped all the stuff in between?)

Mr. Lahey

Bad

Abuses Isaac

Mr. Stewart

Good

When a lot of people (Natalie) didn’t believe Tracy had a real condition or problem, he did

Got her help for the problem (the psychiatrist)

Did everything he could to ease her mind (the dreamcatcher, boarding up the skylight)

Mr. Martin

Good

Went to the hospital to see Lydia

Bad

Tells Lydia she needs to choose who she lives with in the divorce

Presumed she had more problems than successes in school

Went to the hospital to see her, though he seemed a little eager to offer her help with a shower, which was creepy to me

Never to be heard from again. He likely abandoned Lydia

Elias Stilinski

Bad

Abusive and openly mocks his son and grandson (not sure how he remembered someone who was taken by the Ghost Riders)

The Moms

Melissa McCall

Good

Supports Scott no matter what

Bad

Except that one week after she found out he was a werewolf. She didn’t apologize for that either. Much like Chris, she did not express her love for her kid during that time even if she was struggling with his identity

(^ Saying forget everything I said before, if you can do something, do it is not an apology)

Her punishments are empty threats or nonexistent. She doesn’t ground him for sneaking out past curfew, does not punish him for assaulting Isaac (that’s not boys will be boys, that’s straight up assault), or stealing money from the Hales (she only demanded he give it back, no punishment ensued), took away his car keys/Stiles but then seemed to drop the punishment when she thought he was acting out because of his father)

^ Also, no Stiles is not a punishment you can follow through on

Instead of trying to have a conversation about the lone condom she found in his room with him, she goes to the MOM of the girl she ASSUMES he’s fucking. She could have been way off

She told the drunk to get out of the house, not the dad to get out of his life. Wrong. If your spouse hurts your kid, get rid of the whole man. Toodaloo motherfucker. Your stuff is in the trash

Instead of telling her son to get out of town for his safety, she tells him to stay. There is an entire army out to kill your child. He’s always going to be followed and hunted, yes, but it just seems irresponsible

I’m positive this is because the writers didn’t think it through that far or they simply forgot, but fact of the matter is it still happened. Melissa let Scott live with the man who pushed him down the stairs. Why? How are you certain it won’t happen again? How are you certain something worse couldn’t happen? I’m not giving up my kid, not for anything, not for any amount of time. If Melissa has primary physical custody, why would she let this happen?

Natalie Martin

Good

Wants Lydia to see a therapist

Electrocutes Tracy to save Lydia

Bad

“Lydia! What did you do to yourself?” sounds judgmental. Perhaps, upon seeing her daughter has cut her hand by punching the mirror, asking what happened would be more appropriate

Lets a strange boy into her house to be alone with Lydia while she’s drugged up and in negligee. Lydia can wear whatever the hell she wants, especially in her own house, but to let some rando into her room is not a good idea. And she left them alone

Says in season 4 she will do whatever she can to help and then turns around and absolutely does nothing (though this may be less of a parenting thing and more of a terrible person thing)

Sends her to Eichen House for the “best medical care.” Excuse me, ma’am, that is a mental institution, not a medical facility. Also, according to the flashback in Season 5, she saw what happened to Lorraine. I’m not sure if she’s cruel or stupid, but given everything else we know about Natalie, I’m going with both

She doesn’t care when Stiles points out Lydia has a hole in her head. She tries to justify it medically. You remember what happened to your former mother-in-law. Do you believe Lorraine did it to herself?

When Noah tells her what’s going on in Eichen, she waits all day to get Lydia out of there

When Tracy injures Lydia and Lydia tells Natalie to run, she does. She doesn’t risk her own safety to be with her child. She saves herself

Victoria Argent

Bad

“What you want doesn’t matter!” Tracks

She’s unnecessarily hard on Allison it seems (of course you shouldn’t be hard on your kid at all, but I feel Vicky was over the top)

Additional notes: I really don’t remember much about her except that she was a psycho. Some of her points are tied in with Chris.

Noshiko Yukimura

Good

Wants to get Kira help controlling the fox spirit

Bad

Hides Kira’s powers from her until they started to manifest

Sends her to the skinwalkers possibly forever (and then changes her mind)

Doesn’t tell her about the plan to move back to New York

Talia Hale

Bad

She didn’t seem like she was a comfort to Derek after he killed Paige. She told him his eyes were pretty and there was nothing wrong with them. There are definitely other things she could have said such as “It was a mercy kill, that doesn’t make you a bad person” or “She was suffering, you helped her” IDK

If Talia and Laura evolved in the same way Derek did in season 4, how come he didn’t know what was happening to him? I’m assuming Talia didn’t tell him

Additional notes: There’s no information about her as a parent, and these are mostly assumptions

Corinne

Bad

Tries to murder her daughter

Claudia Stilinski

Good

Based on Claudia pre-dementia, she would’ve believed Stiles

Additional notes: And this is according to Stiles who wanted to (rightfully) make his dad feel bad for not believing him. Which he never does. (He also yelled at Stiles unnecessarily)

#anti noah stilinski #anti john Stilinski #anti sheriff stilinski #anti chris argent #peter hale #ken yukimura #david geyer #dr. geyer #anti rafael mccall #henry tate #anti elias stilinski #anti melissa mccall #sort of #anti natalie martin #anti victoria argent #noshiko yukimura #talia hale #claudia stilinski

[bbiemochi]

Hello! Could you do some hcs on how Diluc, Zhongli, and Itto (if you write for girls, maybe Yoimiya or Hu Tao as well) reacting to a s/o who has a lot of pets? Like, they just have a whole dang zoo in their house. Thanks and have a beautiful day!

𝚜𝚘𝚏𝚝 𝚙𝚊𝚠 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚗 | various genshin characters

[an]: hello, sweetheart <3 ! tysm for requesting! (*^ω^*) when i saw this request my mind literally started to browse for title inspos and this was the best shot i could find :,} either way, thank u for the wait! also! don’t worry, i do one shots for girls as well since i’m a bisexual ^o^

summary: two words of why they love you. animal lover. the most sweetest animal lover they could ever meet. yet they didn’t expect you to be quite the collector…

pairing: diluc, zhongli, itto, hu tao, & yoimiya x g/n!reader! [ separated ! ]

genre: fluff! (small comedy added)

***

diluc

• his first thought was: oh my archons, this person loves animals so much how lovely of them.

• however, when he saw you owning a lot of animals more than he expected, diluc was a little surprised ^^’

• but he won’t judge! don’t worry!

• my man’s not like that

• he offers you small help from him to take care of your animals, and you happily agreed! you did love him after all <33

• from time to time he would visit your place with presents for your pets. some food, toys, good health products for them, etc.

• he just really helps out TT <33

• news flash! your animals really like him! \(//∇//)\

• even the naughty cats you kept have an attachment towards your boyfriend ^^’ now they kinda won’t let him go…

• he didn’t even try

• you didn’t expect him to also be good with animals

• well he did own a pet tortoise when he was young, so where’s the surprise?

• “wait, which one of them is winter? there are literally two white cats in here.”

• “winter is the one with pure blue eyes and he’s a boy. snowy is the one with heterochromia, and she’s a girl.”

• is a little confused with all their names but don’t worry he’s got the spirit!

• once he’s now used to the atmosphere in your place, he finds it quite comforting with your pets. sorta like his stress reliever

• of course, you were his main comfort <3 his home <3

• it was like you guys were one big happy family with your pets as your children :,} <33

• now all that’s left is an offspri—

zhongli

• the former geo archon quite knew you got to at least have one or two pets.

• but boy did he not expect a whole family of them

• the first time he sees you own a lot of pet animals, he was calm. stoic as always.

• he wore a small smile on his face, and gently pet one of them.

• zhongli was just happy you were comfortable with this lifestyle :)

• he would question if you were able to work everyday properly without these guys distracting

• and of course, you said yes ^^ the animals weren’t really a bother, and besides they were a comfort zone for you !

• taking care of them is your sanctuary

• surprisingly your pets were surrounded all over like he was some sort of animal magnet

• “they really seem to like you a lot already, zhongli.”

• “hmm..”

• it’s not something you should think about, old man, you’re literally still an archon 👹

• he’s familiar of how to do proper animal care, bet on that

• although he’s not an animal person himself, zhongli promises that he’ll try to be familiar with each of your pets in your home so that he could help you out sometimes if he’s not busy :)

• “these little creatures were once seen thousands of years ago…” aw shit, here we go again

• would probably tell you the history of each animal in your home without a question

• it wasn’t like you were complaining, in fact it was quite funny ToT

• never the less, the animals enjoyed your lover’s company, and that was all that matters for you <3 :,}

itto

• THE NUMERO UNO LOVESSS YOUR PASSION FOR ANIMALS >;DD

• IN FACT HE’S YOUR NUMBER 1 SUPPORTER ALONG WITH HIS BOYS + KUKI SHINOBU

• HE PROMISES YOU HE WOULD SHARE HIS LOVE FOR U AND YOUR PETS

• HE WAS ALSO HAPPY WHEN HE SAW YOU STILL TAKING CARE OF THE ONIKUBUTO HE GAVE YOU A LONG TIME AGO <33

• PROBLEM WAS:

• half of your pets hate him

• :,}

• OUR BOY DIDN’T DO ANYTHING ToT

• some of them like him tho don’t worry :,}

• he got some scratches from the cats bUT HEY HE’S ALRIGHT

• kuki told u he came crying to her bcuz some of ur pets don’t like him :((

• he declined that happening (even if it did)

• EVEN IF HALF OF YOUR PETS HATED HIM, HE STILL VISITS TO INCREASE HIS FRIENDSHIP TO THEM

• it was a long way but not too long

• BECAUSE ONE DAY: the cat that scratched him finally started to like the oni!

• success!

• he continued doing this until all the animals were used by his presence

• you were so proud of him :,} <3

• in the end, they all liked itto ^o^

hu tao

• oya? >:D

• her s/o with a ton of pets?

• now she was a fan

• at first when she saw the jungle inside of your home, hu tao was a little bamboozled

• BUT SHE LOVED IT AFTERWARDS DON’T WORRY :DD

• thing was your pets were afraid of the wangsheng director

• can’t blame them tho

• the girl almost carries that floating ghost around her all the time

• “in case one of your pets die, i guess the wangsheng funeral parlor accepts animal burying.”

• she apologized a lot after saying that

• NEVERTHELESS

• when she visits your place, there were these two new born kittens in your house that she would walk towards to all the time ^^

• she’d tell a horror story sometimes (which freaked some of your pets out, including the small crimson foxes who loved laying on your lap for head pats).

• her favorite part of your place was the kittens and the weasels you kept!

• “aya, looks like they’re still afraid to come close to me :(”

• “that’s because you keep scaring them, hu tao :{”

• she’s sorry :{ can’t help it

• but you still love her <33 it’s alright, hu tao—the animals will grow one day loving you

yoimiya

• :DDDD

• CUTIEEEEE !!

• yoimiya aDORESS how many pets you had !

• she was just this rush of energy when she saw so many adorable animals lying over your place!

• and she was even more happier when your animals liked her back!

• 🎉🎉🎉

• every. single. day. she would visit your place to see you and these adorable little creatures ToT

• she was goddamn surprised to see a bake-danuki living in your place like how in the world are that good? 😥

• very caring towards your pets!

• she even made sure each animal is comfortable in their own way in order for them not to relax negatively

• whenever you two cuddle, these two weasels would suddenly squeeze between you two ToT

• she wasn’t mad or irritated she was actually even more happy!

• “haha! you two wanna cuddle as well? alright then!”

• if you just kiss her forehead she would melt and forget about the weasels in front <33

• she asks if your animals saw fireworks before and you immediately said yes a lot of times in order to avoid the girl to set up another firework party in your area ^^’

• getting scolded by the tengu would be the last thing you’d want :,)

• “but y/n~ :((”

• “maybe next time when there’s a special occasion?” ^^’

• ily yoi dw <33

***

a/n: after writing this i immediately went and search for my cat/srs

request: opened!

#lucy’s works 📚✨ #lucy works 🍕💗 #genshin impact #genshin x reader #diluc x reader #itto x reader #zhongli x reader #hu tao x reader #yoimiya x reader #💌. lucyanswers

[friedbaekhyunandeggso]

Reason ~ ch.7

Pairing: Female OC x Levi Ackerman

Tropes: Instructor x Cadet, Strangers to Lovers, Male MC falls first

Warnings: angst/slow-burn, strong language, upcoming smut(18+ readers only for those chapters pls 🙈), physical assault/violence, mentions of scars

Brief Summary: This story takes place a few years after the Fall of Shiganshina. Devon Alba is in her final year of the 101st Training Corps (844-847), due to her success as a cadet she gets the chance to meet Captain Levi. She doesn’t think too much of him until he catches her in the midst of doing something that she isn’t entirely supposed to be doing. But surprisingly, this leads to something unexpected...

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9 | Chapter 10 | Chapter 11

Keith, Monty and Devon stood outside the girls bathroom. They’d all just finished their classroom studies for the day.

Monty was excitedly going on about the health benefits of several herbs he’d learned about in one of his survival skill classes.

Keith leaned against the wall, “Monty, can we please talk about something interesting? You're hurting my brain.”

Monty shut the book in his hands, “Sorry, just thought you’d want to know that rosemary leaves are good for wrinkles.”

Keith suddenly straightened, “Are you tryna say I have wrinkles?”

Monty grinned while Devon jabbed him with her elbow.

“No-he is not.” she interjected.

She wasn’t in the mood to hear Keith go on a tangent about his looks. Keith was very sensitive about the upkeep for his ‘beautiful’ face.

“If I have wrinkles just tell me.” he demanded.

“He’s just messing with you, beauty queen.” she rolled her eyes.

He glared before slumping against the wall again, “Not funny.”

He then grumbled, “My mom still wants to see you guys come by to get free facials.”

Keith’s mother was a beautician—which was a relatively new career path but it was slowly gaining more traction. It was also the main reason why Keith cared so much about his face.

“Psh—as if.” Monty declined.

“Your loss.” Keith looked over at Devon, “What about you? My mom wants to meet you.”

“Me?”

He glanced away quickly, “And Imada.”

“She’s already met Imada.” she stated.

He suddenly appeared flustered, “Yeah well…you're the only one in the friend group she hasn’t met yet so she’s curious.”

He then faced Monty, “You’d probably be interested to know that Imada is coming to get a facial on friday.”

Monty’s face turned beet red, “Oh.”

Keith tilted his head—his tone mocking, “Not too opposed to getting a facial now, are ya?”

Monty glared.

Keith punched Monty’s chest playfully, “When are you going to tell her, big guy?”

Monty shifted nervously, “I really shouldn’t have told you guys.” he mumbled.

Devon smiled a bit, “Even if you didn’t, it wouldn’t be that hard to figure out.”

“What?!” Monty exclaimed in horror, “Am I obvious?”

Keith chuckled, “It’s not a bad thing. It’s kinda cute. You look like a lost puppy around her.”

Monty looked like he’d just been electrocuted.

“Relax. It’s really not that obvious but since we know you—it is.” Devon corrected.

Monty ran a hand over his face, shaking his head.

“It doesn’t even matter. She doesn’t like me.”

“You don’t know that though!” she rebutted.

“I do know it.” he sighed.

“Oh please,” Keith snorted, “Devon, why don’t you talk to Imada and see what she thinks about him?”

“Um..”

“Wait-but you can’t tell her that I like her.” Monty added, looking petrified.

“Guys, I really don’t think I’m the one for this,” she complained. “If she asks me why I’m asking about you-which she will-then I’m gonna have to tell her.”

“But you can’t.” Monty insisted.

“But she knows when I’m lying!”

Before anyone could respond, Imada emerged from the bathroom.

“Hey guys. I just heard someone rip the nastiest fart I’ve ev—“ she paused when she saw all their faces, “What happened to you guys?”

“Nothing.” They all said in unison.

Imada folded her arms, “You guys are horrible liars.”

Keith slipped his arm around Imada’s shoulders, “You know, the regular dumb shit. Just told Monty that you were gonna get a facial at my Moms on Friday and now he wants to come along to fix his wrinkles.”

“Wrinkles?” she giggled. “He’s only nineteen.”

“Apparently stress can give you wrinkles.” Keith informed her.

Imada glanced over at Monty as she lightheartedly asked, “MonMon, are you stressed?”

“What’s there to stress about?” Monty responded.

“I can think of a few things.” Keith said with a devious smirk.

Monty shot him a look, “I’m gonna beat your ass.”

Keith winked at him, “Spank me, Daddy.”

Keith bolted a second before Monty ran after him. The girls laughed in their wake.

Devon glanced around once-more before slipping into the kitchen. She closed the door behind her with a relieved sigh.

“There you are.”

She froze-nearly going into cardiac arrest-until she saw Levi’s slouched frame sitting on the kitchen counter.

She was speechless.

“You going to stand there all day? I’m hungry.”

She swallowed-her mind racing with a million questions.

“You…” she trailed off.

He looked over at her and raised a brow.

“Never mind.” she muttered.

If he wasn’t snitching on her then she wouldn’t complain. The whole situation felt so bizarre. Captain Levi coming back to eat her food? She didn’t even think that was possible.

She walked past him to the food storage freezer. She grabbed a bunch of vegetables before plopping them down onto the counter besides Levi.

She then went to the pantry to retrieve onions and canned beans.

He glanced down at the array of ingredients beside him, “How many more vegetables do you need?”

Despite his monotone voice, his sarcasm wasn’t missed.

She flushed, “That’s all. The recipe for this meal actually has meat in it but I don’t have that so… vegetables will do.”

After that, he let her cook in silence.

Every so often, in between glancing at the recipe and preparing the meal she’d shoot glances at him.

He’d slid off the counter and moved his perch to one of the stools nearby. She’d caught him looking at her a few times. Other times, he kept himself busy by wiping down his personal knife with a handkerchief.

Despite his downcast countenance, she couldn’t help but notice how handsome his side profile was. His nose was quite literally perfect. His roundish face would’ve given him a more youthful appearance had his half-lidded eyes and ever-present subtle scowl not existed.

She shook her head, refocusing on the task at hand-which was to stir everything together. After a moment of doing that, she reread the recipe to make sure she’d completed all the steps before returning all the remaining ingredients to their designated spots.

When she returned from the freezer she saw Levi standing in front of the stove. The lid of the pot in his hand.

He was still peering down at its contents when he said, “It looks like shit.”

She rolled her eyes, “Does it smell like it though?”

She took the lid from his hands and placed it back over the pot.

“Give it five more minutes and it should be done.”

Five minutes later, they were sitting across each other in the same spot as yesterday. They both had steaming bowls in front of them.

She reached out to hand him a spoon.

He took the spoon, “You said this was chili?”

“Yes-Vegetarian chili but yes.”

For some reason, she couldn’t bring herself to eat just yet. She was too eager to see his reaction first.

He scooped out a small portion and raised it to his lips. He took a small sip before taking the whole spoonful.

She saw him close his eyes for a moment-as if savoring it-before nodding in approval.

She smiled wide—wanting to jump up and fist pump the air but she contained herself.

She looked over to see him staring at her with wide eyes.

“What’s wrong? Is it good?”

“Yeah, it’s—“ his brows furrowed for a millisecond before continuing, “It’s good.”

She tilted her head-wanting to decipher his expression, “Were you not expecting it to be?”

“Pft. Cocky already?” he noted dismally.

“What—“ she then registered how her question had been taken. “No. But…I suppose, since you did come back for my food instead of snitching on me I am more confident in my skills.”

“I can still snitch.”

She reached out to take his bowl, “I’ll just take that back-“

He swatted her hand away, “Get your filthy hands away from my soup.”

She gasped before narrowing her eyes, “Oh so it’s your soup now.”

“Last time I checked the only reason you got to cook in that kitchen today is because I let you. So, yes, it’s my soup.”

She stared in astonishment before scoffing, “Whatever.”

“Don’t be a brat.”

She gaped at his brazen words, “I-I’m not!”

“Whatever.” he mocked her tone.

A slight laugh left her lips as she blushed-realizing how childish she had sounded. She glanced up when she felt his gray eyes boring into her face. It would’ve felt like he was glaring at her if that wasn’t his constant expression.

He gripped his spoon tightly, “You didn’t eat yet.”

“Oh-right.” she nearly forgot to try her own chili in her excitement.

She ate a spoonful and hummed in approval. It was hearty and flavorful. Much better than the bland soup they were typically served. Though, she couldn’t fault the chef for not making chili because it would use up more than half of the rare shipment of vegetables to serve all the cadets.

He watched her eat. It was oddly satisfying to see her eat so…fulfillingly. Something about her poise made him see just how grateful she was for each spoonful. He’d seen people eat like that before…homeless people.

Has she ever been homeless?

That pretty blush returned to her face and she lowered her spoon.

“What?” he said, his voice tight.

She avoided his gaze, “I can’t eat when you're… looking at me.”

He was silent for a moment-assessing her reaction.

“What’s there to look at?”

Her eyes widened, “A-are you serious?”

“Very.”

“But you were literally staring.”

“Was not.”

“Were too!”

“Such a brat.”

A slight chuckle left her lips before she raised a brow, “I didn’t realize Captain Levi had a sense of humor.”

“Who said I was joking.” he said, his face completely expressionless.

She ran a hand over her face, “You’re impossible.”

She swore she saw the corner of his mouth twitch but her view became obscured when he turned his head down to resume eating the chili.

She fell asleep that night feeling rather giddy. It was quite an unfamiliar feeling but she let herself revel in it.

Cooking in solitude every night had been her little secret. A moment in time that she enjoyed alone. And somehow her little secret had become a party of two.

And surprisingly enough, she didn’t hate it.

In fact, she kind of wanted it to happen more often. It felt nice to have someone else-someone new-around. Especially someone she knew she could learn so much from. But-just like herself-Levi wasn’t exactly an open book.

A small part of her wanted him to be—at least with her, anyway. But she didn’t dare get her hopes up. He was one of her instructors after all.

#levi #leviheichou #levi aot #levi attack on titan #levi ackerman #levi angst #attack on titan #aot #levi x reader #levi x oc #levi scenarios #aot fanfiction #levi fanfic #levi ship #levi fluff #captain levi #attack on titan smut #levi smut #attack on titan scenarios #levi x fem!reader #eren yaegar #levi x y/n #levi x mc #levi x you #levi hot #aot smut

[gmbencompetence]

there is a reason why nix hydra has low ratings on glassdoor, and theyve been known to be scumming for nearly five years now i have no idea why the fandom expects so much and thinks so highly of that shitty company and then get surprised when they do shitty things against what they think they should do. and its funny how people keep fighting on and on for fictif/the arcana even now, like when are yall going to wake up. good on you for leaving when you could!

I should clarify two things:

1) I wrote a very long Glassdoor review of Nix Hydra that was so angry, a loved one convinced me to take it down so that it didn’t cause problems for me or people still working there. I saved a draft somewhere…

2) My anger is entirely at very, very specific people at the company. By and large, the people who made The Arcana and Fictif were not only deeply passionate about making games for women and the LGBT community. They fought tooth and nail for this. Even as Community Manager, I would have long talks with some of the writers and artists about how they made sure to write [Female Character] in a way that validated and welcome queer femme players, or discussions of how characters like [Name] came from a place of empathy and compassion for mental health that was meant to provide comfort. I remember long meetings about very small plot points and not whether they would “make sense canonically”, but what effect they would have on the types of readers we want to provide games for.

It seems relevant to say that I co-led the initiative for sell Arcana posters to raise funds for The Trevor Project. This came from a place of real sincerity from my coworkers and I to leverage the rise in merch sales to do direct Good for the communities that meant so much to us. When I drafted the proposal, the percentage of profits I said we should donate was very low. This wasn’t out of selfishness but out of a fear that “The Boss Folk” would torpedo the project if I asked for too much. The person co-leading the project with me strongly insisted I ask for something significantly higher. Something like 80-90% (do NOT quote me on exact numbers). This felt audacious to my cynical mind, but I pitched it and the management approved it without hesitation. We barely covered costs on the Arcana posters, but it was done because we wanted to make sure we were giving money directly to people that needed support.

My point with this anecdote isn’t to say the company is all saints. I was very sincere that a lot of what happened there left me damaged and upset and hurt. But it is to say that the vast majority of people I got to work with chose to work at Nix Hydra instead of other places because they genuinely believed in the work and getting to make games for communities that don’t often get games made for them. That this was populated by people who cared, who fought for their art, and who wanted to make it for the people they cared about.

It’s been stated that our female-led routes didn’t sell as well. What hasn’t been explicitly said before is that we kept doing them because so much of the company fought with tooth, nail, and blood to make sure that wlw stories were being told.

Also, I was confused about my sexuality all my life, and Muriel’s route is what made me finally accept my bisexuality.

—

What I’m saying is that there are things that I disliked about Nix Hydra in the strongest possible terms. There are things for which I will always, always be grateful.

So I’m always down to complain about what messed me up there. And I’ll always be a little damaged about it. But I’m never going to write off the whole thing as entirely awful. I hope that makes sense and appreciate your reaching out. :)

#nix Hydra #arcana

[alectology-archive]

chapters 21, 22, 23, 30, 31, 32 partly:

Only three nights before, she had married Bael, in a ceremony that made her his wife and first-sister to his other wife, Dorindha. That part had been just as important as the marriage, apparently;

yeah, sentences like this make me think RJ really wanted to write poly relationships but was too enamoured with his kinks and obsessed with heterosexual relationships to do so. I’m fascinated, though, by his choice to make women choose other women as the most important people in their lives over even their love interests - min is the rare exception to this rule.

“Well, just you remember it. It was not your fault.” She heeled Mist on, and began talking to Aviendha before she was out of earshot. “I am glad he is taking it so well. He has the habit of feeling guilty over things he cannot control.”

once again, egwene Gets rand! and she cares so much! people who dislike egwene are fully delusional and probably base their dislike for her off of her characterisation in sanderson’s books. again, I feel the need to mention that egwene only ever admonishes rand in private in RJ’s books - and not even in front of moiraine! - but publicly insults him in front of world leaders in the sanderson books. plus rand undermines egwene’s authority and makes her look powerless in book 13 by walking into the white tower and demanding promises without offering any explanations. lol, sanderson has a tendency to write from a place of “Does this sound cool?” rather than “Is this a politically or logically sound action?”

ohhh and while we’re still on the topic of sanderson and bad characterisations and egwene telling rand that rand that it wasn’t his fault that the shaido ravaged Taien - rand makes a fucking point about trying to save as many people as he can! and blames himself for not achieving everything he sets his mind to in order to save people! part of the reason his mental health worsens as the books progress is because he can’t protect everybody around him despite trying his best to do so - this holds true at least up to book 11, if not book 12, and nothing really happens in book 12 to warrant a change on that note. so the fact that sanderson makes rand monologue something stupid about how he’d stopped caring for the people around him during his dragonmount epiphany infuriates me to no end. I just generally hate any of the new character flaws he introduces for all the characters. who asked him to do that 😵‍💫

[Rand to Aviendha] “Did you ever for one minute think that it could have bitten you?” he said. “Did you ever think of using the Power instead of a bloody belt knife? Why didn’t you kiss it first? You had to be close enough.”

they’re both so funny. yeah, avi and rand are also a similar kind of stupid, lol.

avi feeding rand the meat of a poisonous snake she killed is unironically the height of romance actually. and rand doesn’t complain, so I’m proud of him. anyway, I love her. have I mentioned that I love avi?

Aviendha sniffed at him in perfect imitation of Egwene. Those two women were definitely spending too much time together.

aw, avi is copying egwene’s mannerisms! back in chapter 5 she was also appreciating egwene and telling her that she was very good at everything she did <3 in chapter 22, we also have egwene stepping in to calm her down after rand yells at avi for nearly hurting him in the process of trying to kill a draghkar.

Aviendha appeared disappointed that he did not spit the stew out in disgust, though sometimes it was difficult to tell what she was feeling. At times she seemed to take great pleasure in discomfiting him.

sort of mat vibes from this, again! I think avi and mat could have been best friends if they’d tried. I’m honestly kind of shocked that we don’t see more of mat and the maidens being buddies except when he’s trying to catch their interest - because men and women can’t be friends, of course.

“You are thinking of Mat Cauthon?” She actually giggled. “Sometimes, a man gives up the spear for a Maiden.”

once again, weird mat gender moments! only maidens giving up the spear is really a thing in the books.

… he dreamed a dream of Min and Elayne helping him throw Aviendha, wearing nothing but that necklace, over his shoulder, while she beat him over the head with a wreath of segade blossoms.

wearing nothing but the necklace EGWENE gave avi? rand doesn’t know that egwene gave it but. anyway. more rand/egwene soulmatism, I guess.

Nothing after Artur Paendrag Tanreall, and nothing before Maecine of Eharon.

hello! mat’s memories have a specific limit apparently. but don’t the finn grant him memories of everybody who’s ever entered the redstone doorway? a bunch of rulers from mayene were using it pretty recently, I think? I need to look up the wiki later.

[Mat] He supposed that he would marry someday, settle down. That was what you did. A woman, a house, a family. Shackled to one spot for the rest of his life.

this is definitely another one of those mat things that are usually discussed in reference to female characters more often. and again, I vibe with the idea of him being allowed to be single - I think he has a lot of romantic tension with practically every character he interacts with, but I personally really relate to him saying he’s not interested in marriage. plus he just sounds so despondent about the prospect? I’m sad! very mat is repressed vibes too, because he specifically makes a note to mention disliking the thought of the two rivers having a lot of expectations about marriage, family etc.

“You are not made for spits, but for great honor, I think,” Melindhra said softly.

lol, melindhra and lanfear both try to get mat to step out of rand’s shadow and reach for honour/glory! and they both fail! I love mat. your faves want what mat has with rand - the narrative keeps goading him to become demandred 2.0 but mat consistently refuses to do so and manages to defy the narrative and some sort of potentially darker fate at least in that little way even if the prophecies mostly knock him down a bunch in the books.

It was being near Rand that got Mat into these things. All he wanted from life was some good wine, a game of dice, and a pretty girl or three.

hello??? three girls?? put him in rand’s polycule! again, mat is very repressed and in denial about his feelings.

once again poly vibes from melaine, dorindha and bael! the wise ones are betting on whether melaine will check on dorindha or bael first after the shadowspawn attack on the camp.

rand is wondering why moiraine didn’t come to find him immediately after the alarms went off - I’m guessing it’s because she saw a future in the rhuidean ter’angreal that said it wouldn’t be a good thing to do so.

rand is also showing a lot of restraint and being courteous! he’s not abusing the power he has over moiraine now - he briefly considers forcing her to tell him why she didn’t appear immediately but decides he won’t do something like that to somebody trying to help him. I think this is the section where rand is learning to find a balance - he’s come into a lot of power and is consciously preventing himself from abusing it.

This time he dreamed of Aviendha hurling fire, only she was not hurling it at a Draghkar, and Sammael was sitting at her side, laughing.

rand has the weirdest dreams about aviendha. what am I supposed to make of this.

I can’t shake off the feeling that avi would enjoy femininity if not for the way the wise ones sort of force her to adopt it? she genuinely enjoys exploring wearing wetlander clothes when she and elayne try to teach one another other about their respective customs. I just really dislike the line where sorilea tells avi that she has hips made for making babies - leave her alone. as a concept, I love the wise ones but I’m also irritated by their matchmaking and babymaking agenda.

avi and rand also do have a bunch in common - they’re forcibly expected to channel and are pushed into radically different lives from the ones they’ve been leading prior to rhuidean/rand finding out that he’s the dragon reborn.

[Egwene about Rand announcing he’ll hang chiefs who violate his rules about not hurting Cairhienin] Justice would do him no good if he found the others [the chiefs] turning against him as well as the Shaido.

see! she gets him!

He could waste an hour being soothed by the flow of a river.

Rand is so right.

When he doesn’t see familiar faces amongst the maidens who usually guard him, rand is constantly asking other maidens if they’re sick - it happened with joinde in rhuidean, and he’s now once again asking after adelin and enaila! I love this relationship sooo much.

Sitting on the stone rail of the wide flat bridge in the heart of the town,

area man sits weird again!

Elayne would have known what taxes were used for; it had certainly been more fun taking advice from her than from Moiraine.

I’m. I guess I agree about the principle of the thing I suppose, lol 😭

edit: help, this is also the book where we learn that two rivers folk are tax evaders! RJ is fully clowning on rand here, lol.

[Rand to Aviendha] “Do you have any idea how I will miss hearing you breathe at night?”

romance <3

He watched Asmodean from the corner of his eye, but the man only sat there, looking slightly ill. He could not know whether Rand meant to stuff that spear down his throat.

do I even need to say it?

ah, yeah, I did remember a weirdly specific fact correctly! avi accidentally taught rand the lesson of ~being hard~ when she told him he should have been harsher with the seanchan they dealt with. his demeanour completely shifts after that one exchange and he becomes noticeably colder - he’s a lot harsher with asmodean after this. insert tumblr post *having plot relevant sex with my thematically appropriate wife* (quite literally!)

And I’m only skimming chapter 41 but… there is so much going on in this quote. so much:

[Rand] He thought he could have been friends with any of the four, but especially Mangin, who had a sense of humor much like Mat’s. If he had no time to study women, he certainly had no time for making new friends. Little time for old friends, for that matter. Mat worried him.

I mentioned that a lot of mat’s personality was moulded as a direct consequence of being rand’s friend, but this is a lot! 1. rand loves mat’s sense of humour 2. rand makes friends based on that blueprint! hello, I’m crying. what does it MEAN that rand hangs mangin in LOC? is there some hidden symbolism there about how he’s left his boyhood behind? the hanging parallels are making me insane. does it imply that rand accidentally forces mat through a traumatic arc from books 7-9 the same way he can’t help but kill mangin for violating one of his laws? I will not be normal about this. local girl has been found dead on the streets!!!!!!!!

(I honestly skimmed everything from chapter 30 onward, I think, so there really was not much to say in this post - I never intended to really read much past rand arriving at eianrod, at most)

But I’ve officially finished rereading the parts I wanted to! I’d fully forgotten how the characters sounded in my head and I mostly wanted to go back and immerse myself in RJ’s writing style because I was not in a happy place after reading sanderson’s style in AMOL (literally to the point where I was wondering if I actually liked reading the series, lol). I think I managed to like TGS way better than I did the other sequels - but it kind of feels like TGS might have still been a mostly enjoyable read because he was piggybacking off of iconic plotlines that RJ had already set up and left notes for - but I’m consciously going to shut up about AMOL now. I only accept book 12 as canon at most anyway, lol, idk why I waste my energy yelling about the last two books at this point.

#mat repressionposting #this is a rand and egwene appreciation post #aelia reads wheel of time #aelia reads the fires of heaven #wheel of time #wot book spoilers #rand repressionposting #the rand/mat agenda only

[methinmycoffee]

~~SPOILERS (S26 E5)~~

Ahhh okay this one was pretty good guys. Like, I think it was the best one in a few seasons. I do have a couple points to make about why it wasn’t perfect, but first:

The Positives:

Solid character dynamics. I always appreciate a Cartman and Kenny pairing, especially when they’re just making each other laugh even if what they’re doing is a little shitty. They did take all Butters’ money with no intention of getting it back to him, but it all worked out in the end. Honestly Cartman and Kenny are great together, and they’ve had potential ever since Cartman’s “You’re my best friend” confession in Kenny Dies (S5 E13).

Kenny unhooded?! Yes please. It was a little jarring, honestly. It was so out of no where, but it was his birthday and he deserves it.

Liane Cartman. I honestly love how she’s developing to finally be sick of her sons shit. She puts her foot down at multiple points during this episode, which is something we likely wouldn’t have seen from early show Liane. Even though she does let Cartman turn her house in to a hotdog stand with a giant slide and mermaid grotto, she tells him he wouldn’t last 4 hours in to a job, yells at him for complaining about her not having a job, and doesn’t cave when he screams and cries because he wants to go back to the hotdog.

Kids being kids. With the exception of a few key moments, this episode felt much more children’s shenanigans (if on a much larger scale). Especially Cartman and Kenny naming their restaurant DikinBaus. They would do that.

Cartman being Cartman. He was perfectly in character, which is good because they’ve been having trouble nailing the ‘manipulative and whiny little bitch who’s also just a little guy’ character.

Overall, just pretty entertaining. I enjoyed the whole thing. There were only a few scenes that were a little slow, which is standard for any episode of any TV show.

Well, There’s some negatives

Mainly, holy shit the writing team are a bunch of boomers. Oh my lord. “This is what’s wrong with the younger generation” “Your generation doesn’t want to work” “This generation cares too much about their mental health”. Shut upppp oh my God. First off, they’re trying to complain about Gen-Z without realizing that their characters are now firmly a part of Gen Alpha. Second off, they maybe don’t realize that some of their audience is the youngest of any of the long-running shows from the 90s. I honestly didn’t mind when it happened the first few times even though some of the jokes were in poor taste, starting mostly in s25 like that episode pinches a cop’s ass and the cop is like “I’m a member of Gen Z you Can’t do that.” In a whiny voice (I thought we didn’t want to work, why was he a cop? 🤷‍♀️) It’s getting old, though. It seems like every two seasons they choose something to get really hyper-focused on and will not stop making “jokes” that are really just having a character complaining about it. Literally stfu

They’re sort of ruining Clyde. I love Clyde. I love that he is really dumb and cries a lot, but is sometimes an unexplainable ladies man. I don’t like that he’s become the new “Gen-Z” character but is also a Boomer who is on his phone all the time, hates his girlfriend, and he’s getting way overdone. They did this to Jimmy and To(l)k(i)en, where they flanderized them to the point of no return, and I fear for Clyde’s safety. (And once he is overdone and no longer funny, I worry they’ll move on to Craig)

One Random nitpick:

No way Butters made that much money. He worked minimum wage for like four weeks, he absolutely not have funded DikinBaus.

#south park #still a good episode honestly #I just wish they would stfu about Gen Z #like I’m not trying to be sensitive #it was also annoying when they went super hard on PC culture #I don’t even know what their point was with those two seasons #or how they were like ‘people need to chill with all this hysteria’ #with episodes like Put It Down and Dead Kids #oh also Trump was annoying when they wouldn’t stfu about him #anyway solid episode I believe in them they can do good #<3

[the-fair-maiden-of-fandom]

more qjj livetweets but only on tumblr pt.4

|| so very many spoilers ||

im baaaack and im really actually not that funny but this is more of a reading log for my future self

nerd revolution!!!

like. hai liangyi’s end was awful. it was painful. but it’s objectively kind of funny to watch the students flip out because their nerd god died

domesticity

my instincts want me to say girlboss. my common sense says there’s OBVIOUSLY going to be something wrong with her when she ascends to power

someone told me shen zechuan is canonically horrendous at horseback riding, is that what this is about to be??

i see now that i was wrong

OKAY DING TAO I SEE YOU

li xiong,,,, baby what do you mean why are they bullying you, you’re a criminal

it’s like himbo to the nth degree

i never get sick of tactical prose, i really don’t

ngl ateez while reading this battle scene kinda hits

wow xiao fangxu im sure that’s not foreshadowing or anything. who could possibly be wolfish and also willing to lead libei. that’s crazy

falling asleep at a desk shouldn’t be as cute as it is

yao wenyu you say???? i wish i was surprised but i accidentally spoiled THAT storyline for myself

okay not to pull a sqq but,,,,, xcy kills very decisively,,,, that beheading tho

i sound insane but like the way the author describes his body tipping off the horse is art

xcy is NEVER beating the furry allegations

wait why is this luo mu fellow so interested in kong ling’s looks??? ‘,:| it's giving fruity

“earring” ooh, chapter title’s promising

A THOUSAND SERVANTS????

ah, yes, misogyny

hmmmm maybe not awful, just not as bright as szc, meaning he's going to be in hot water soon

my spidey senses are tingling and they say this man is going to die

“i can excuse murder but i draw the line at domestic abuse”

when szc smiles all i think of is death and destruction and maybe this makes me xcy but,,,, im not complaining

‘It was only then that Luo Mu understood that it was not just a front when Kong Ling said he was confident of success.’ szc is just That Good and i love that about him

OH MY GOD THE MILKKKKKKK

im dying thats so cute

THE LETTER SZC IS SO SMOOTH AND THEY ARE IN LOVEEE

you go ahead and try that strategy babe. i have full faith that you will die

so sexy of him

SO SEXY OF HIM

the threatening music,,, this scene is great but its so funny. want your enemies scared over afternoon tea? "alexa, play IC3PEAK"

I KNEW THEY WERE FRUITY

sbskskal 'breaking news: most dangerous man in the world still scared of being tattled on to his husband'

ji gang is such a dad i love him

the way that they're everything is so insane

CAUGHT RED HANDED

i always forget he's only twenty until he's literally hiding under the blankets to escape a scolding

oh boy everybody's in trouble now

they really are a found family huh

im crying laughing “A-Ye, I’m so hungry.” he is trying EVERYTHING

omg,,,,, in sickness and in health

and also FINALLY someones bringing up the kick

“Go on, keep acting cute with me. It’s futile, Shen Lanzhou. If you give yourself another stab the next time, I’ll die immediately in Libei. I won’t exist anymore, do you hear me?” this needs no words

#qjj #qiang jin ju #cezhou #xiao chiye #shen zechuan #shen lanzhou #logging off at ch. 145 for the night #i lied im reading more #qjj reading log

[kuroaka]

as a college student, it would be nice to have and dedicate some time to college stuff

as someone who shares an apartment with someone i’m not related to, it would be nice to use my time to do all the chores exactly when i feel is needed

as a worker, it would be nice to dedicate some time to myself and actually rest so i could do my job nicely and improve myself whenever

and as a human being not mentally well, it would be nice to invest time in social events and not shutting down

but as all of these, i just do not have TIME for shit. i mean, i do, but i have to choose one of these stuff to focus. i can do college stuff OR all the house chores i have to do OR resting OR enjoy my social life because for fucks sake i am YOUNG and i feel like im loosing my time because i have so much to do and it feels like i can’t do ANYTHING and i absolutely HATE it

not only that, my ‘roommate’ (the person i share an apartment) apparently hates me for no reason at all and wants to make my life miserable (i’m exaggerating)

2 years ago she complained to my other friend - not me, MY FRIEND - about how i wasn’t doing the house chores, and like, i got it, i really wasn’t bc i was depressed but anyways. really later on she talked to me abt it and i spent the ENTIRETY of 2023 trying to do everything i could and not missing my chores. but then in this year, 2024, she said she doesn’t want to share the apt. anymore bc she has other plans and bc she is “dissatisfied with some issues”. like bitch wtf then why didn’t you talk to me sooner.

then okay, i told her she could talk to me abt it whenever and wished her luck. but she didn’t TALK abt it then how tf was i supposed to guess?????? what was wrong???? and she just dropped that and left, never talked abt it again. she really just dropped that bomb to me so i would feel guilty and left me to rot with this thought????

and it’s so funny cuz we both are PSYCHOLOGY students and in order to be a good psychologist you must have EMPATHY and this bitch can’t have empathy with the very person right next to her living in the same place???

bc when she complained abt me to my friend she said like “oh but at night i can hear her watching some series blah blah blah” yes?? when im having lunch or dinner i watch something bc that’s THE TIME I HAVE TO MYSELF, and it’s like 20 min tf

and it’s also so funny bc she talk all that shit abt me but it’s really easy when you don’t have to work 6 days of the week???? bitch you think i’m working just bc i want to??? and not bc i need the money)???????2$:!3$3! wtf is wrong with you??? i’m not extremely poor but the life i’m living now?? i need the fucking money!!!!! if you don’t need it then great but don’t talk shit u know nothin abt!!2?!2$:$: the only way to get your empathy is if im starving????? if i can’t afford college????

i deal with so much stuff with my shitty mental health and you expect me to be perfect????? ffs more often than not i can barely get out of bed without struggling 💀💀

#— venting. #i hate conflicts so i will not be talking to her abt bc i do not have the mental energy for this #but i won’t demand that she knows what im thinking just like she did lmao #she doesn’t say shit just locks herself in her room and then gets mad if i don’t guess??? should i shit a conclusion so i could do smth?? #i mean i shut myself in my room too we do that #roommates #conflicts #help

[lizzywithay-notie]

January 24, 2024

Wow I can’t believe it’s been 5 years since I came on here and wrote something. Back then I thought this was my safe place… a place where I felt comfortable to say anything I wanted/needed to. Well, I was completely wrong about that. Funny thing is someone got ahold of this page and reported it to my higher ups at work... which resulted in them coming to my dorm and trying to haul me back to the psych ward. Oh, that’s not even the worst thing about it all. At that time, I was hanging out with a guy that I was very interested in dating. So, picture yourself as the guy, you’re there to hang out with a girl that you’re very interested in and boom there comes 3 people in charge trying to haul your soon to be girlfriend away to a mental health hospital. Well good news, that boy and I got married back in November of 2019. So, hey at least there’s a happy ending to that story.

Also, you might have noticed that I said the phrase “haul me back to the psych ward”. Well back in October 2018… the 19th to be exact. Well, that was the day I tried to kill myself. I won’t get into the weeds about the logistics of it all but just know that I drank a whole butt load of alcohol and tried to down a whole bottle of sleeping pills. I was exhausted and just done with it all. And here’s the part where I say I’m so thankful for being here. Well, it’s not that easy… it’s this love hate relationship that I have with it. My best friend had this weird feeling of coming to check in on me that night, so he was the one that saved my life. I’m happy to be here for my friends and family but at times life just gets so hard where my mind just starts to wander into the thoughts about “what if I was successful?” …and I know that’s a normal thing but recently I have been thinking about the question a lot. It’s almost starting to become concerning with the number of times I think about it.

I know life is supposed to give you challenges. No one’s life is easy… but there’s a point where you can’t handle all the challenges anymore. But of course, if you tell someone that, they will just immediately write you off as the depressed sad girl or give you the reasonings of “your life isn’t that bad” … “what do you have to complain about?” … at this point insert stupid little comment here. I’ve heard it all. It’s hard because they might be right. On paper I have a great life. I have a great family, amazing friends, a loving husband, 3 fur children, I own a house and live by most of the people I care about. So why do I feel like this? Why is the sadness just creeping back into my life?

I’m so afraid that this darkness is coming so fast, and I don’t know if I will be able to stop it or slow it down. I tell my husband every time I feel like this because we made a promise to each other. But when does it become annoying?... You know, bringing it up here and there is whatever but when I bring it up every day, is that going to become a problem? Will I once again be the sad depressed girl that no one wants to be around?

As you read this you probably think you know how this story will end. I’m guessing your theory is that I will try it again because I’m so exhausted and done with life. Well let me put your mind at ease… I won’t be going down that avenue. Even though I don’t want to be here, I must find a way to keep moving forward for the people that care about me. Something I didn’t think about during my last attempt was how that was going to affect my loved ones and the environment around me. Yes, suicide is selfish.

I guess I’ll just live my life with this dark cloud over me forever.

[self-loathing-angel-of-thursday2]

Beautiful Spouse’s Rewatch Thoughts SPN 01x10

Asylum

“I remember this one kinda.”

🎶family business🎶

“Sounds like a good idea to split up. If they had bolt cutters, they may not have been kids and maybe have guns. And let’s announce our locations and shine flashlights everywhere.”

“Oh godddd.”

“I like how they fill every room with smoke machine smoke for the cool flashlight effect.”

“You wouldn’t tell your buddy you found them as soon as you see them? Weird ass cops.” 🎶gonna murder my wife🎶

ACAB

“Why does John go all the way to California for ammunitions? You can ammo anywhere.” “his coordinates aren’t very specific.” “Why would Daddy leave his journal? I can’t remember.”

Reminding Spouse how the journal was gotten

“Idk if John is that smart, but if he wanted free labor out of the kids, he’s doing it right.”

“They looked basically the same. How are you going to believe that shit?” “Method acting? Coming from you Jared? That’s funny.” “Even having kids.” “nice” “ya know or both maybe” “this is a great little movie set they’ve got.” “are they trying to establish that dean likes horror movies?” “idk. He’s not completely wrong. If he’s followed Daddy’s orders the whole time and hasn’t died yet, he’s doing ok.”

“Even if John is a POS, but he’s kept you alive with information over the years, I can sorta understand why Dean has the attitude he does about John.” “Sam was reading Men’s Health magazine. He needs to read up on all those supplements Jared peddles” “how do you *feel* about it? - Very stereotypical view of therapists” “can’t do this shit during the day of course” “then why are you here?” orbs

“They’ve had some weird phenomena explanations happen in the early seasons.”

“OK. Sure.” “Is he using the camcorder and flashlight to find orbs? Because you’ll find orbs in an overexposed camcorder with a flashlight in a dusty place” 🎶all of our ears are ringing🎶

“I don’t think they’d be whispering at this point. They’d be yelling since they couldn’t hear shit.” “Jesus Christ.” “It’s smart for everyone to split up. All of them vs one of you. Smart.”

“Weird advice coming from Dean.” “She could have put it in your butt, I guess, or given you a wet willy.” “That was fun.” “Sure.” “Could have looked at it before it got right up in your face.” “way to do the whole low frame rate then. Wtf” “jinx.” “Fuck yeah Dean is Sam’s boss. You let him drag you back into the life.” Clearly Spouse is an older sibling

“I think that was a Boss joke.” “why the hell not” “nice”

“Time to fire the boyfriend.” “Why would you go into the biological hazard zone with no mask or gloves? No nothing? Especially since the sign looks newer than the rest of the building. I suppose that if Dean went in, you gotta save him though.”

“Sam is taking the bait.” “Door slam in 5…4…3…2…1……..no.” “Nice”

“No door slam yet? I thought that would have happened.” “This is very short hair for Jared.” “All better now.” 🎶just lobotomize the bitch🎶

Us complaining about how the Winchesters never wear safety protection - especially for the eyes and ears.

“The more I watch this show, the more I find the hearing protection thing utterly ridiculous. They’re always shooting in an enclosed space.” “See, I would fall for this too if I were Dean. Sam is basically fucked all the time anyway. He’s always saying dumb questions and saying dumb shit.” “Oh, the rock salt would 100% absolutely fucking kill you Dean. Even salt powder from 3 feet would kill you. Blanks kill you at that range.” “Does Dean not know that the ghost is possessing Sam? Why is he tempting the ghost right now?” “Dean asks for Sam to kill/hit him a lot like he doesn’t care.” 🎶body’s in the closet🎶

“Who’s going to get the W?” “Dean can still operate while getting fucked over; that’s the difference between him and Sam.” “Why didn’t the ghost light on fire like usual?” “the girlfriend should break up with the guy.”

“Fuck yeah they need to talk about what happened.” “I’m not a doctor but it’s better to talk about that shit instead of swallowing your feelings.” “Hey it’s the red phone.”

#beautifulspouserewatchesspn #supernatural s1 #supernatural #supernatural rewatch

[tamerajedwards]

THE EFFECT STRESS HAS ON OUR BODIES-

I know a lot of us are talking about and posting about mental illness and health issues. I completely agree! We had no idea how dealing with the pandemic, health issues, and our daily struggles with money and stress are affecting us over the long haul. We’ve never been dealt this hand all at once. We walk around trying to be super heroes and burying what we carry down inside. I still need to line up a counselor for myself but I put it off day after day wondering how much it’s going to cost? Will I have to miss work? How much gas will it cost to get there? It’s a viscous cycle.

A couple of days ago I had my yearly mammogram. The nice lady at the hospital called my phone and left a message that it turned out normal and told me I didn’t have to come back for a year. I should have been celebrating 🥳 a great moment like this like I usually do, but instead that moment was over shadowed with all my other worries about other health issues and money. It was like a blip in time.

I don’t realize how many minutes of my day I have spent worrying and complaining. It has to have a serious affect on my health and those around me. I don’t need to feel guilty or rejected for expressing my feelings. We should be free to do that. I am reminded of what a close friend said to me not long ago when I was concerned about having asthma and flying for the first time with asthma. They said, “ I’ll never understand your asthma. I just don’t get it, I never will.” Those words pierced my heart. It was like saying, “I am unsympathetic towards you and I won’t take the time to understand you.” It hurt me big time. It was a very dismissive thing to say.

I think we live in a dismissive, unsympathetic, self promotive, selfish culture and what was said to me was a perfect example. To be more like Christ is a step closer to bringing us together. For He is nothing but love 💕. He truly does cast out all fear. If we could reach beyond ourselves and help each other it truly can pull us out of some of our depression and anxiety.

My summer has kind of been dominated by self loathing and fear. My allergies aren’t good, asthma and anxiety kind of out of control, acid reflux getting worse, and I think stress has ignited all of them. I found out my insurance doesn’t want to cover my acid reflux med like they usually do and now my prescription is going to cost 1000.00 a month for the Dexilant. I laughed at the pharmacist over the phone. I said, “Your kidding right?” She didn’t think that was funny and replied, ”No.” Moments like these send me over the edge. I sat on my sofa last night and talked to God. I said, “ You’ve got this right? You’ve got a plan to take care of me, even if I had l have to switch medications?”Turning to God and praying is a habit just like any other habit. We say we pray. But do we really?

I am trying to find real solutions for myself along with prayer. I hate medications! I think we all wish our bodies were like a child’s. Where we pop a gummy vitamin and that’s it and go outside and play. Wouldn’t that be nice? But we age and we really do take life a day at a time.

When my life is spinning out of control with worry, loneliness, allergies and asthma, sheer panic that I’m going to stop breathing, struggling trying to get a coughing attack under control, I get in the car and go see my grand kids, we swim and play and then I realize that my symptoms have pretty much disappeared I know everything was ANXIETY induced. I have also found that eating a half of a CBD gummy has taken away all my symptoms for hours at a time. We are truly chemistry 🧪 sets. Changing yearly,daily, hourly, minute by minute. It’s part of being human.

These are just my morning thoughts. I’ve always been analytical and I guess that’s why I am a writer. Please be encouraged by my writings. Please don’t be afraid to express your thoughts, even if it’s only a sentence. Don’t hesitate to reach out for help. Take time for yourself! Swim, eat ice cream, grill out, ride your bike or motorcycle, go to a ball game, visit the elderly, do something for someone else. You will be surprised at how your burdens will also be lifted!

I love 💕 you!

Tammy

[bratz-kitten]

random thoughts on the rising signs

aries risings are completely different when in a day-to-day basis compared to when in a position of power. when you’re with your friends, you’re this fun, energetic, loud person, but when you’re in a position of power... terrifying. you’ll completely switch to someone very serious and intimidating, with a very intense aura. i think it’s because you understand you have a very youthful aspect to you, both in appearance and energy, and you don’t want that to keep you from commanding respect. also because you’re very attracted to leading so that’s when you’re at your most focused. you’re very easy to irritate; as an aries rising, my friends always tease me because they know i’ll immediately doom them to an afterlife in hell. SO explosive, impulsive and chaotic, but that’s what makes you fun.

cancer risings you have such a delicate beauty to you. very sensitive to others’ emotions. people probably baby you a lot without even noticing it, they just want to protect/mentor you. you do very well with older figures like teachers and your friends’ parents. you also ooze maturity. a lot of the cancer risings i’ve met had to learn to be the responsible one in their families from a very young age, so now you take it upon yourself to take care of everyone around you – that’s probably why many people talk about cancer risings as being the “mom friend”. you have the chubbiest cheeks, i wanna bite them lol they’re so cute.

gemini risings look like literal models. VERY good with people, you can probably make someone do whatever you want by just staring into their eyes and telling them pretty words. but i’ve noticed how your communication can be easily misunderstood, you might come off as having certain intentions when you’re trying to convey the exact contrary. probably the alfa of your friend group and the one who has the most reckless, unhinged plans.. yet you’re never caught doing anything bad. you require a lot of stimulation so you’ll do whatever it takes to scratch that itch in you. you remind me of that phrase “i might be a bad influence, but you can’t tell me i’m not fun.” it’s impossible to ever be bored around you.

scorpio risings have this thing where people are absolutely intimidated by you, yet are very attracted to you and just need your attention. the type of person that has random people flirting with you on the streets just so you’ll make eye contact with them for one second longer. you also look lowkey terrifying, you just have massive resting bitch faces and always look pissed off when on the inside you’re just thinking “hm, what am i going to eat for lunch?” very intense gaze and look straight out of greek-mythology, you persephone ass bitch.

libra risings look so well put together. every color on you works in perfect harmony with one another – from your clothing to your hair to your skin tone to your makeup. you’re always sporting a smile and you look so composed, but baby i know you’re close to comitting sporadic murder LMFAO no one can convince me that libra placements are the exact contrary from peaceful, you’re the most unstable people in the world, in the best and most fun way possible – and sometimes in a downright toxic way, ease with the passive-aggressiveness and confrontational nature when it comes to personal relationships.

aquarius risings have the biggest crackhead energy ever. you’re very intimidating at first, and it’s easy to misunderstand you because of that – many think you’re serious and stuck up but you’re just observing and waiting to feel comfortable around them. when you do get comfortable, you’re just funny as fuck – you’ll talk about the most random things and make them sound so interesting, you say the most hilarious things; honestly, you’re a walking meme. also you look like you disassociate so much? you’ll be in the middle of a conversation and then you’ll just start staring into the distance for fifteen whole minutes, but the whole time you were actually listening to the other person.

leo risings i just.. love you. it’s like you’re born to be the center of attention without even trying. literally so expressive and charismatic even if you’re very shy at first, great storytellers, and you’re just so loyal and the amount of support you give to your friends is unmatched. you do very well in a tight friend group where there’s so much trust and supportive energy. if you don’t have one, you probably fantasize a lot about it. how’s that winx obsession going? literally so authentic and raw in everything you do too. people call you egotistical and self-centered because they can’t stand a headstrong person like you. please don’t take insults so much to heart and let them shatter your perception of yourself, and understand that if someone mocks your appearance they’re just projecting their insecurities.

virgo risings you refuse to leave the house if you’re not absolutely perfect. i know someone with a virgo rising who simply refuses to do video-calls before taking a shower and drying their hair. VERY intimidating, will give judgemental stares and look at you in the streets like you’re the ugliest thing in the world but will probably not even realize they were staring at someone in the first place. i have so much fun teasing you, you get annoyed SO fast and it’s so fun because i practically have a degree in being annoying. you also find it shocking when someone teases you because most people are too scared to do it. you’re the most fun to talk shit with because you can be so critical and you just love some drama and gossiping. please stop complaining about things though or i’ll be forced to commit a hate-crime. your luck that i can’t help loving you.

sagittarius risings give sagittarius energy the stereotype of being so freedom-loving and adventurous. you’re very approachable and easy-going, the type of person that people will meet once and already consider you their friends. you’re up to whenever wherever, no matter how dumb the idea might sound, because you know first-hand that the weirdest, most last-minute plans make the greatest memories. i also notice that you’ll use going out as a way of avoiding your feelings. instead of allowing yourself to process your sadness and heartbreak, you just call your friends and go out so you won’t have to sit with your own, scary thoughts.

pisces risings look like they they breathe and create art with every breath they take. literally ooze emotional and artistic sensitivity. very sensitive to others’ energies and that can really take a toll on your mental health – being surrounded by negative people will literally drain you. please remember to take some me-time to recharge and process all those emotions. pisces risings literally look so ethereal, out of this world, with your sparkly eyes when you talk about your dreams and your strong sense of individuality cultivated in all your appearance, from your clothing to your makeup to you hair.

capricorn risings go through so much in their life and for what?? i swear you have so many hardships always coming your way and it angers me so much because you don’t deserve it at all. at least you always learn a lot from those experiences, which just makes you stronger and more undefeatable. you have a very melancholic gaze to you. very doll-like. naturally command authority and respect. unlike taurus risings, you thrive in situations of change – you practically seek them, knowing that learning to adapt to all situations and to work with them so they work in your favor is a gift. you turn so many heads in the street, i’m always in awe at your beauty.

it’s no wonder that the most beautiful celebrities constantly have taurus risings. you’re very strong and fixed in your ideas, making people often describe you as the taurus stereotype of “stubborn”. taurus placements just have so much difficulty accepting change and seeing it as an opportunity of growth instead of a painful process. you need to learn to let go and that good things might happen when you allow yourself to evolve and and outgrow your old self. you have a very grounded presence, while also having such a distinct sense of humour. very well-put together.

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