why is pete wentz important to me?? like him, i was a non white kid who grew up in a very white neighborhood in the chicagoland area and it was exhausting and isolating and so so so lonely it could make your teeth hurt. like him, i’m bipolar and no one has ever quite gotten close to describing what my highs and lows are like, but he’s the only one who has gotten close. (do you know what it's like being so so so manic and you know you're not okay and everything rushes around you and you feel like you're on top of the world but you know it's all a lie? an illusion? do you know what it feels like to plummet down so so so so deep and dark and there's nothing but you and that gaping ache inside of you, reminding you just how hollow and fake you are?) like him, i grew up enthralled and obsessed with rock, punk, the hardcore scene of chicago, and there was nothing and no one there for people like me and people who looked like me in a place and sound that i loved more than anything on earth. i saw him reflected in me and in the most non creepy parasocial way possible, he has been one of the most incredible influences of my life. maybe even one of the possible sunshines of my lifetime for all he is still a stranger to me, and i to him.
i did 🤭 gerard way had us all sing him happy birthday; i was honestly sorta touched when mikey took out his ear pieces so he could hear us, it just felt like a 'i can't imagine what he's feeling, listening to a stadium of people say thank you for his existence' sort of moment
mutuals i do not use the word feral lightly but i am going to fly into a feral rage over the smallest thing that is not actually a big deal except it is. i am going to start attacking
good morning louis tomlinson finally officially announced his album and i’m going absolutely feral i’m shaking fr my heart is beating out of my chest am i okay no i’m about to spend so much money fr LOOK AT THIS. the aesthetic is delicious everything is so………………….. MWAH i want to eat it🧍
really funny how some people expect you to believe that they give a single shit about disabled people when they cannot even be bothered to wear a mask lol