#WHEN YOUD GO HOME

[mondaymelon]

I'm just letting you have Ur boys for now

And I was a lil busy with shtuff

🪷

society has collasped

i want to be a third grader again

#★ ˎˊ˗ melonrambles! #★ ˎˊ˗ inbox. #★ ˎˊ˗ 🪷 anon!! #REMEMBER THE DAYS #WHEN YOUD GO HOME #AND YOUD HAVE TO DO. #NOTHING. #N O T H I N G #OHHHHH #NO AFTER CLASS CLUBS #NO SPORTS #NO ORGANIZAITIONS #NO COMPETITIVE TEAMS #NO FUCKING PRESENTATIONS. #YOUD JUST GO HOME AS A LIL THOUGHTS EMPTY CHILD #FOOL AROUND FOR THE ETNIRE DAY #AND THEN GO HONK MIMIMIMI AND LIKE 8 O CLOCK #OOHHHH #BACK IN THE DAYS WAY BACK WHEN WHERE I FUCKING SLEPT #I MISS NAP TIME #BRING BACK NAP TIME #BRING BACK CLASSROOM SILLY GAMES #BRING BACK CANDY FOR WINNING #BECAUSE I ALWAYS WON

[todayisafridaynight]

everyday i constantly think of masato's wheelchair and if that's his only one/main one no wonder he's so pissed at everyone

#snap chats #someone pointed this out to me like last year so im stealing it sorry cause I Think Of It Constantly #the handling of masato's disability will forever annoy me esp with how vague it is but esp his chair #one day ill draw masato with an appropriate wheelchair. maybe then he'll be happy for once #in a way i guess it could tie into how restricted or trapped he felt since the type of chair he's shown is more like. a hospital one #and not one youd really use as a regular user- like in that vein it is a bit of storytelling in that he can ONLY go out with help #since hospital chairs are SO much different from home chairs ESPECIALLY in regards to mobility and independence the user has #AND NOT TO MENTION HOW UNCOMFORTABLE THOSE CHAIRS ARE get his ass a proper cushion P L E A S E #like it portrays the idea that its unfathomable for him to go anywhere on his own and so in that vein . Interesting Storytelling #theres a lot of implications going on here if im so honest and again it makes for Really Interesting Story Telling #however i refuse to give rgg credit like that when it comes to disabilities. ... they havent earned that from me yet #see this is why the vagueness of his condition annoys me because he's shown to be independent enough to roll himself to his elevator #and presumably get himself dressed but he cant have a proper chair ? #because ik there are people who have expressed they have conditions where even writing is tiring #so if his condition was in-line with that and it was hard for him to push himself in his chair then i could buy it #obviously the issue lies with his lungs but i just want to know the full extent yk... #to wrap this up tho ive been thinking of character design in rgg and how we dont give credit to it enough #sooooo if i make a second post ten minutes from now thats why cause i keep forgetting to spam my thoughts on here LMAO #ok bye

[insane-weasel]

I think as writers we should hold funerals for our WIPs more often.

Dearly beloved, gather us here today where this fic of some middle-aged man getting rawdogged and this other fanfic about the importance of friendship are laid to rest, because the author got really distracted playing that new video game.

We celebrate what could have been, cut-and-recycle those really good lines or ideas, because I swear I'm going to use them, I swear! And drag this poor document not to the great recycling bin or trash, but to the "graveyard" folder because sometimes I like to commune with the dead.

#fanfic #Writing #I just had to throw out 5k words of a one shot over something I can't change/control but I never delete old WIPs #I do just put them in a folder and still backup that folder with my other files #Yes some of my earlier ideas were horrendous but also there's a part of me still there in each of them #Sometimes it's less about the writing and more about who I was I want to sometimes revisit #Who was the teen girl writing gore at 15 and what would she think of today's writing #Who was the insecure fearful loveless boy who over expressed his masculinity online and wrote tough lonely guy characters #I don't want to be them anymore but when I hate myself sometimes it's nice to read what I've written #You hear the problems you never thought youd overcome in the author notes or in the subject and those fears and pain #You also see the first time you wrote a subject #I wish I hadn't deleted lots of my writing from when I was very young #Some I did because it legitimately could cause or encourage harm if left online #But I think I always smile when I see the old “this year is 8th grade” because by golly #Still think it's hilarious I got really into writing in middle school because I was jealous of someone else's writing ability in 6th grade #I can remember the exact moment I looked at my 2 page story and was filled with jealousy because they wrote 12 pages and my story felt so.. #I remember going home and going 'i know I can write something good!' and people will like it! #And then like while looking for some place to upload writing I found fanfic

[stitchwraith-stingers]

gonna be honest i dont trust people who claim to be faz frights fans and then be like "bleh i dont like the later stories ONLY cuz theyre so werid" this is litterly The Werid Book Series it came free with your fucking xbox

#calico.exe #OR they yap about how not fnaf related it is #they say this and then say they like the breaking wheel whos gonna tell them #THIS IS ABOUT NO-ONE IN PERTICULAR! TO CLARIFY #JUST A PATTERN IVE NOTICED #(this isnt about people who just dgaf or have other reasons btw i couldnt care less) #sorry im so picky w finding fans of this series. iv blocked like 2 people over this im sorry #you have to be the most ride or die person to understand these books you get me #im a warrior cats fan ive already seen worse #'ohh but fnaf related' go read comming home its about susie i beg #its so much funer when you arent a theorist from reddit and just take it easy #and also you need to like girls . if i could make my own content youd all be dead #sorry i trust only one person with my life and the stitchwraith stinger only fans out there

[super-psycho-lov3]

it doesnt even matter it doesnt even matter it doesnt ever matter it doesnt even

#im just really tired i guess #i have too many bruises and i cant keep eating a meal a day #its just really tiring getting lied to #people think they care but they really.. just dont? #say you care but im making dinner because you have work and oliver needs it more. as if i havent been making dinner all week. #as if i didnt spend the past two days walking 2-5 miles every day. #'youve been so snappy' as if i didnt clean the whole living room. as if it isnt my fucking bed time. as if you care about my problems. #'olivers here if you need anything' yeah. sure. as if he wont groan and huff at best. #'im sorry i have to go to work' as if youd do anything different #'im not as bad as people make me out to be' 'youre being brainwashed' as if i didnt have to spend all day at my friends house #the day i was persrcibed testosterone because i knew what youd do if i stayed at home #as if you didnt threaten to take it away when i didnt listen to you #just... im jusy so tired. once my mom asked me 'whose birthday did i forget this year?' referring to my siblings. #she was buying gifts. we never celebrated my birthday. didnt have the heart to tell her it was ME. im justs o tired. im so tired #it really sucks to know that — that our sect of the sys is back out because #because we feel. so. Lost. worthless and lost a and alone #doesn't feel like our family is anything at all. and im here because #because of that. i hate that. i hate knowing why i hate it #i hate knowing who and what caused this im so tired i want my brothers i want my sister i want to get out of here for a while i just need to #get out #its so stupid im the oldest sibling but i want my siblings so bad they would never let me down #fucking NEVER! never. not in a way that could ever really matter. just. god #vent post #free to respond #??? #i dont fuckin care if you reblog or reply or whatever. im just so tired i just need to yell you guys can say whatever #i got yelled at for reminding them to schedule my fucking root canal anf i just cant take it . so #im. im so hungry okay? im just so hungry #im hungry and tired and sore and so fucking alone and i cant fucking take it #cant eat right now n even if i could i wouldnt have the food so

[tiercel]

Edibles are so scary cause every single time ive taken one its either done literally nothing or its made me so high i got sick and or had a religious experience

#emeto warning #The first edibles i ever had were home brewed by my sisters highschool dealer and they tasted & felt like wax in your mouth #But they either didnt get you high or got you SO fucking high you couldnt move #One time i took two and i was literally pinned to my bed feeling my heart pound in my earts #Another i was laying in bed and heard a plane screeching by my house and came to terms with the fact i was going to die. Then i frew up #When i was in CO i ate legal edibles for the first time and it was an entirely different experience #I ate an entire packet of chocolate edibles on top of a blunt and was sitting in the back of my dads car out of my fucking mind #And i just happened to see a meowwolf billboard saying somethhing like 'if you were here youd be there by now' #I thought i was stroking out LMFAOOOOO #emf

[atypi-cals]

you know we hear a lot from the "high school was the worst time of my life. Im so glad im free and never have to go there again" crowd but where's the "fucckkkkk I miss going to high-school" crowd

#or elementary #like i had a shitty fucking teenagehood #i did not enjoy high-school #but not for the reasons youd think #because my abusive parents put so so much pressure on me to achieve past my capabilities #but the actual act of going to high-school was fine. great. #i always got sad when my friends wouldnt show up at school because :( . why would you not want to be here. home is boring. #and this may be my chronically ill take (as in someone who missed over half of gr11 due to chronic illness) #but its BORING to miss school. all the fun stuff happens at school #theres no people at home #even if your aforementioned parents put undue amounts of pressure on you the work itself is relatively low pressure #not like a job wherw you can get fired if you fuck up #like a (public) hs cant go. oh sorry. you dont know what is 16x19-25(8). get out. #as a kid i fucking HATED summer break because i missed school so much

[banqanas]

NatsuNatsu: this time our funds are 300k. But we really want to increase it for the upcoming challenges

Me: okay so you guys will be aiming to get first place for the youtube challenge to get the extra 100k right

NatsuNatsu: WE'RE GOING TO BET OUR FUND MONEY ON BOAT RACE

#fanta txt #fantasnsbattle2023 #HSKFHSKFJKS NATSUNATSU WHAT!!!!!!! #THIS ISNT WHAT I THOUGHT YOUD DO WHEN YOU SAID YOU WANT THE EXTRA FUNDS!!!!!! #THEY REALLY WENT GO BIG OR GO HOME LOL #Youtube

[libraryspectre]

Nowadays I mostly stick to 1-2 books at a time, and if I have more than one it's like, one is an audiobook and one is an ebook or something of that nature, but when I was a kid. Man. I had like 6 books going at a time. A couple beside the bed, a couple in my backpack, a few on my desk at school, so I had different options for different locations. I still usually stuck to 1 or 2 as my primary reads that would travel between locations, but it felt so important to have backups. What if a character was being really annoying and I needed a break? What if I wasn't in a pirate mood? What if I was just really excited about the newly acquired book and wanted to just give it a chapter? You'd think I would have had trouble finishing books but that couldn't be further from the truth. Some I worked my way through slowly, snatching a few chapters between other reads as they sat on my desk for 4 months, but for the most part the stacks were always turning over. Those were the days.

#this was mostly through elementary school #jr high eliminated the desk location but opened up the locker location #by high school this was mostly done with but I still kind of had a school book a home book and a travel book #college I was too overwhelmed to read for fun mostly #and now as said above I usually have 1 or 2 #maybe 3 at most #the maximum situation I see is like #an ebook #an audiobook to listen to while i work #a short story collection for when I just have a few minites #(probably also an ebook) #and something physical sitting by the couch that I work through very slowly #but thats like #the absolute MAX #a theoretical configuration i dont think ive ever actually achieved #when 6 books going at once used to be my default #'dont you get confused whats happening between them' no father that is literally a non-issue frankly im bewildered youd even anticipate #that as a problem

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Starting to deep clean my apartment :)

#my apartment hasnt been clean since the day i moved in #i am not a clean person and i could not keep it clean #okay in my defense. i have a lot of shit #like. so much #so unpacking was a wild ride that took months and it was hard to keep clean around the millions of boxes i had #and its a leetle apartment. you can see the whole apartment from anywhere in the apartment that you are #youd think that a little apartment would be easier to keep clean right. because there's less of it #no. somehow that is not the case #i have a whole spring cleaning list that needs to be done relatively soon. like before i leave for camp #do you know how miserable it is to come home after two months of camp to a messy home? its the fuckin worst #the first year i lived alone i went to camp. came home and i had left my room disgusting. it was terrible #i had just spent two months surrounded by other dirty people. sand and dust and dirt. a lake. questionable shower water #sweat and grime and sandy sheets #the one thing you want when you come home is a hot shower and clean laundry and dishes #im going the extra mile and doing the first ever good cleaning since i moved in here #i popped a vyvanse. got my list. opened my pomodoro app. and here i am #im on my break rn dont worry. im about to go finish scrubbing the tub. im concentrating on the bathroom rn #its about to be the cleanest ive ever seen it. seriously. its magical #okay gonna go scrub. love you

[ethereiling]

new hack to make invisible disabilities into visible disabilities: wear yourself down to the point where you start crying in front of all your coworkers 

#avpswjy #i have very bad fatigue and sometimes i forget i have very bad fatigue and try to make myself keep going even when i cant #and this month has been awful and stressful and exhausting even to someone without fatigue so i really should have let myself rest more as i #*is #but i didnt and cried in front of everyone as i tried to ask to go home early and upon getting home early fell asleep immediately #and im still tired!! i still can barely stand #youd think id learn but no #i just. have to take care of myself more (and take tomorrow at least off) so i dont hit another massive burnout situation #bc this time i dont have near as much of a safety net so itd ruin me fr

[todayisafridaynight]

interrupting non-rgg posting with non-rgg posting do you guys wanna look over my pros-vs-cons list of grocery shopping today thanks

#not rgg #snap chats #i didnt do the full shopping yesterday cause it was late by the time i got to go out and near all the shops were closing OOPS #my bestie asleep so i cant ask her :( this also feel like a dumbass question anyway so it my turn to ask everyone a question <3 #anyway review the list with me. ok. #cause the pros of going is that I Get Tasty Food. And Probably More Shit I Didn't Need #i get to buy snacks for my class tomorrow #im wearing a nice outfit :) and that means i get to walk around and wear it more. no one'll comment on it but i'll be happy wearing it #cons: i was JUST at ebisu yesterday and HUUUGE doubt i'll be remembered by the cashier #but the cameras will remember me.... #i should finish up the last two comms i have (though counter argument is that i can finish those when i get home) #i finished one this morning so i dont feel too guilty bout not getting work done #yeah thats. thats really it. 🧍‍♂️ #like i really cant think of another con 🧍‍♂️ AND YOUD THINK THAT'S GREENLIGHTS THEN BUT.... #cause im tihnking of grocery shopping today but it feels weird to do it on a thursday #But Today's Also PROBABLY The Best Day To Do It #anyway if everyone may indulge me being a dummy just this once. thanks <3 #im gonna work on one of those remaining comms for like an hour. or until i finish the lineart. so like twenty minutes ☠️ #and ill see how i feel then #sorry im obsessed with going to the city over i love walking and walking into shops and being alive

[originalkid-basement]

I miss my comfort zone I wish I'd stayed in my comfort zone

#this might be too much i think im gonna barf #maybe not but it feels like it #if someone mentions it im going to #its not a bad change necessarily but it might be too much #i really wish i could drive myself home right now #NO #IT NEEDED TO HAPPEN ANYWAYS #oh theres no context #im freaking out because i bleached my roots because they were growing out #im very picky about things staying the same when i do to school #otherwise i have a nervous breakdown and throw up #but this isnt that big #i look the same as before #i shouldnt think of every little change as scary and im not going to stand out because of this #i mean not anymore than i already did #BUT THERES A CERTAIN LEVEL!! #OF DIFFERENT THAT I LET MYSELF BE!! #god its been almost three years i need to get over it #my roots are ORANGE though #im so fucking upset about that #theyre not SUPER orange youd have to stare at them to be able to tell but #orange enough that theres a difference #im getting them fixed this weekend its fine

[lovphobic]

i really wish i had my life together. i wish i was in school and subsequently i wish i had a job. i wish i could drive. i wish i had a partner. i wish i lived in a better place. i wish i was self reliant. but all i have are my books that give me that illusion because a well read person has a nice life right

#i miss my room. i miss the way the morning sun would light the kitchen. i miss my bf not bf. i miss when everything was normal and i didnt #have these thoughts. no matter how much you say you like being shut in at home. if you lived my life youd go insane #you complain about school and you complain about work and thats alright but just know youre lucky to complain about that stuff #because you arent shut in your house all day. because the only time you ever leave the house is for groceries #be grateful for your mediocre life. i want it.

[faultsofyouth]

My ideal economy is highly authoritarian which sucks because who the hell is ever going to get on board with that

#my posts #people hate being told what to do especially by strangers but the problem is if we let people do whatever we want then people act evil #but i want a government to calculate exactly how many jobs are needed in Every sector in order for everybody's needs to be provided equally #and then to create quotas and incentived and early track education programs to ensure that these jobs are filled #and in theory because theres so many people and people are so productive that if we just had a neat enough system #then disabled people and children wouldnt Have to work to get their needs met #but they would have a very easy to navigate system for finding remote & temp jobs when they wanted to work #because in my ideal society everyone has their needs met so everyone only works to generate fun spending money #for like tourism and arts and research projects and eccentric coin collections or whatever #i think if someone told you that you would never have to pay for rent or veggies again but u had to work to pay for movie tickets #you'd still want to work a little right? youd want to work a job that Matters so you could clock out and go bowling #basically my ideal society is one where productivity is motivated out of desire for fun rather than a need to survive #and sure not every job is FUN but some people are good at farming and some people are good at accounting and some people are good at making #coffee and all of these things are useful so if you didnt have to worry about working to survive wouldnt you Eventually get bored #and want to fill your time up with Something that contributes to society? #maybe no you wouldnt. but what if you grew up in a community that taught you that 'work' is all about giving back to your community? #that to 'work' is to invest in a society that provides all your basic needs and never leaves you hungry or homeless or without healthcare #and the reward for working is not only that you get to come home to a house that you will never* be evicted from #but All the money you make gets to go towards Whatever you want. it doesnt Have to go towards maintaining the life you already have #all that you earn can be put towards upgrading and expanding your life. instead of rent or mortgage bills #your money can save for a ~fancier~ house or a bidet. or something idk. can you see it? #the biggest problem is wtf is a bureaucracy that is 'easy to navigate' ROFL have you fucking Ever heard of that?? #how tf do i invent a government system that understands how all sectors of society work together and can easily & clearly #explain that dynamic and track All of the necessary jobs + resources + people that go into a society #like imagine if a government was there to help make your life better And it actually did that?? doesnt exist. how do i invent something #that does not fucking exist?? im not an inventor im a prenursing student ;-;

[timeisacephalopod]

Breh I know that there's always been urban legends about weirdo killers looking to murder people but I gotta say this modern panic of people sticking zip ties on cars or fuckin leaving a piece of cheese on cars being a sign someone is about to HUMAN TRAFFIC YOU is so hilariously egotistical it's almost funny if so many women especially didn't think this shit was real. Like people typically have a motive for wanting to harm someone, which is why stranger danger is rare to the point of being fake in the way we conceive of it. In fact if you're scared of stranger danger I hope you're a man, because men are far more likely to be killed by strangers than women (because men often die by strangers in stuff like gang violence while women often get murdered during intimate partner violence).

But like no, no one is """"targeting""" you by putting a fucking zip tie on your car. Or cheese. No one is hiding under the fucking car looking to slice your Achilles heel, that is not how human trafficking works. Also it's basically only people with money enough for CARS saying this shit and idk how to tell you this but if you can afford a car you aren't a target for that type of violence because people would notice you went missing. Unless you're a fucking homeless teen you're not an ideal target for trafficking and you're not going to get sold into sexual slavery you're just flipping shit over innocuous shit probably done by bored teenagers.

I'd say this is True Crime Brain but the information in here is stuff I GOT from my interest in true crime, these people are just gullible and have enough ego to think everyone cares enough about them to want to murder them on sight 🙄

#winters ramblings #ThIs Is A kNoWn KiDnApPiNg TaCtIc- then GIVE ME ANY EVIDENCE HAS EVER FUCKING HAPPENED #being THIS paranoid is egotistical im sorry NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU THIS MUCH STARNGERS DO NOT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOU #they arent going to kidnap your monied enough to own a car ASS because YOU HAVE ENOUGH MONEY THAT YOUD ME MISSED IMMEDIATELY #IF YOU WENT MISSING THIS IS WHY POOR PEOPLE AND HOMELESS PEOPLE ARE TARGETS OF THIS TYPE OF VIOLENCE #because THEY are vulnerable enough to be able to manipulate them into forced sex work or forced labor or forced doing crimes or WHATEVER #no one is kidnapping Karen the Lawyer bu sticking a fucking zip tie on her car just so her husband and kids worry when she doesnt come home #and call the cops IMMEDIATELY after she went missing you god damn brainless fucks. like im not even THAT smart #but apparently im smarter than most fucking white women who think theyre always one step away from being ted bundys fucking victim #stranger danger is SO rare that i dont worry about it at ALL. why? because its so rare theres not a LICK i could do to prevent #a violent crime from happening to me. its RANDOM when it does happen and its nor via ZIO TIES ON FUCKING CARS