#Unlock me

[hogbu]

I cannot understand why my arm is not a lilac tree par Фе́ммe скатале. Via Flickr : Whatever you do with me, do it carefully I am too alone in the world, and yet not alone enough to make every moment holy. I am too tiny in this world, and not tiny enough just to lie before you like a thing, shrewd and secretive. I want my own will, and I want simply to be with my will, as it goes toward action; and in those quiet, sometimes hardly moving times, when something is coming near, I want to be with those who know secret things or else alone. I want to be a mirror for your whole body, and I never want to be blind, or to be too old to hold up your heavy and swaying picture. I want to unfold. I don’t want to stay folded anywhere, because where I am folded, there I am a lie. and I want my grasp of things to be true before you. I want to describe myself like a painting that I looked at closely for a long time, like a saying that I finally understood, like the pitcher I use every day, like the face of my mother, like a ship that carried me through the wildest storm of all.

#Rainer Maria Rilke #Leonard Cohen #Emily Dickinson #John Greenwood #Unlock me #Behind old curtains #You make me wanna write poems #When I walk #I walk with you #Handless #Hairless #Love my gray hair afou #D #flickr

[kozzax]

It's times like these, when Grian refers to snails as molluscs and gastropods, that I remember he has a degree in marine biology. In retrospect this makes the fishing arc funnier I think.

#me vibing #hermitcraft #grian #not that people outside marine bio don't know snails are molluscs #it's just. not the world's most common knowledge i feel like #so it unlocked the 'hermit real world achievements' memory file in my brain

[oocmadagascar]

What the hell is this

#????? #i think this clip made me even more ill than I already was #fandom ooc #i guess??? #Estriper 😏😙 #LFMAOHFSH WHAG IS THIS #I'm gonns try to memorise this #new vocal stim unlocked #tpom #the penguins of Madagascar #dreamworks #Madagascar #dreamworks Madagascar #dreamworks animation

[aliencatart]

a summary of mochi mayhem minus the mochi mayhem

#pokemon #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon scarvi #mochi mayhem #trainer arven #trainer kieran #trainer juliana #generation 9 #comic #my art #i just love arven and kieran's quick frienship sm #really wish we got to see more with all the others too aside from the coach dialogues #grr i hate you 'several days later' timeskip #just let me live them and hang out with my friends!! #btw kieran is so fun draw #>new purple(ish) blorbo to draw endlessly has been unlocked

[hugs-and-stabbies]

The self-awareness on this guy 😞 someone pls send him an "are you bi?" quiz STAT

#dead plate #rody lamoree #rody x vincent #vincent charbonneau #rodince #rodincent #my art #i saw someone tag one of my drawings with a version of their ship name using their last names and it was nice but i forgot what it was #aksjdhf #also NOO i forgot Rody's lil moles 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #thankfully at least tumblr allows edits #anyways #rody looks so wonky to me but I just wanted to stop fidgeting with it and post it since i wasnt getting anywhere anyways aksjdfh #also little story time lol #when i was in 10th grade there was this girl in my chemisty class that i was kinda frienemies with #we just always got into arguments with each other but the vibe ultimately stayed light and friendly between us #kinda like a <<fuck you but anyways what did you get for no. 5>> kind of situation #one day she slammed one of her hands against the door right next to my head 😳😳 #i think she was trying to intimidate me but instead it just gave me a core memory LMAOOO #thankfully by then i already knew i wasnt straight lol but it definitely unlocked something in me hahahah

[extrabonesforreallycheap]

Fuck you

unmoogles your moogle

#ffxiv #ff14 #final fantasy xiv #final fantasy 14 #ffxiv memes #i have been attempting to unlock the moogle beastribe #just fucken end me

[zaana]

I love drawing this trio!

#the bad batch #star wars #fanart #tbb spoiler #tbb crosshair #tbb omega #tbb batcher #crosshair #omega #tbb spoilers #they just give me serotonin #i feel the need to draw all them all in their changing outfits #cross being a dad for omega #and him adopting the hound #unlocked something for me

[kiilttis-art]

And so the story comes to an end.

Good night c!Aimsey, and thank you <3

#aimsey #c!aimsey #i cried so much during the finale #i still tear up just by thinking of it #the grief monologue unlocked something in me #i am so so grateful to be able witness the story of caimsey

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

#spilled ink #writeblr #personal #please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it #i really try not to write so specifically about it #bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child #i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years #i might delete this. feels big. #the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum #and if u say ur autistic #inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms #please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do #and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort. #but it still feels like... #when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing. #they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly? #and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find #the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go) #and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW." #''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.'' #and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic #someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.

[wild-magic-oops]

Durge looking at an ambitious Chosen of another god with dark hair, dark eyes, and expressive hand gestures: I can't not fuck him

#durgetash #durgegale #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #lord enver gortash #enver gortash #gortash #gale #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #durge has a type #durge: forgive me father for falling ass first onto a man's fingers #gale doing his needle hand gesture 5 seconds after getting out of the portal and immediately unlocking smth in Durge lmao #galemance

[bakudekublogblog]

kacchan telling izuku that his body moved on his own is fucking crazy. like not only did kacchan remember izuku saying that all the way back from the sludge-villain incident but he’s also confirming that izuku’s crazy, boarder-line suicidal intensity is a two way street. it’s not just izuku who is insane about kacchan it’s mutual insanity. kacchan’s body moved on its own. he was helpless but to throw himself into the line of fire when he saw izuku was in danger. he didn’t think about it. he didn’t choose to do it. he didn’t have a choice. it was as if izuku was a piece of his own soul. katsuki instinctually needed to protect him above all else, even at the cost of his own life

#AND HE SAID IT OUT LOUD IN THE RAIN IN FRONT OF EVERYONE #bkdk #bakudeku #hey man just casually checking in uh I would die for you and not even think about it #you know how you almost kill yourself for me that’s like Mutual I guess idk what are we #do I tell my mom do I update my hinge profile #like izuku knows he’s weird about kacchan he knows he isn’t normal about him #and he ONLY threw himself into sludge villain incident when he saw it was kacchan. #and THEN his body moved on its own #and kacchan is the ONLY ONE who saw just how in danger izuku was #AND THEN HIS BODY MOVES ON ITS OWN #his body unlocks a new ability just to get to him faster #they’re just so deeply spiritually and physically connected and it’s MUTUAL

[captain-flint]

Ed leaning in for a kiss

#our flag means death #ofmd #ofmdedit #ofmd s2 spoilers #blackbonnet #blackbonnetedit #gentlebeard #gentlebeardedit #stede bonnet #edward teach #blackbeard #taika waititi #rhys darby #yes he wanted to kiss stede during the snake scene you can't convince me otherwise #he is literally looking at stede's lips and yearning #anyway making this unlocked some new levels of insanity in me #i've never seen a man look so deeply in love im gonna bite him through the screen STOP THAT #my stuff

[goldenmorningglory]

it's been what...2 weeks? since I watched dbd and I'm still reeling from edwin saying you have to experience hell to see the rest of it and we have charles who couldn't see hell until he saw edwin suffering and broken.

#dead boy detectives #edwin payne #charles rowland #edwin paine #they drive me insane bro #like charles sashaying thrpugh hell #completely unimpeded #and then seeing edwin in so much paina nd fear #and suddenly charles has unlocked hell sight #like edwin's suffering and pain is the manifestation of charles' hell #paineland #payneland

[saltycryptid]

"You know, I've been catching myself smiling more lately."

🥺🥺 shadowheart is everything to me tbh,,, 💖💖

#Baldur's Gate 3 #Shadowheart #Fanart #more late night doodles lmfao sorry yall the worms are going crazy #i need a kiss from her so bad tho im so serious #i think marrying shadowheart is exactly what i need to fix everything that gone wrong with me #beautiful gorgeous unstoppable incomprehensible #She's cooking up something so mysterious and intriguing i just KNOW it #honestly playing atp just to unlock more lore from her #Roach's Choice

[pointless-achievements]

I got told by my German teacher that my dog is the most fantastic thing she’s seen that whole week

(The dog in question)

is that an achievement?

Dog Achievement Unlocked:

Wunderhund

Das ist ein fantastischer Hund!

#achievement unlocked #tumblr achievements #pet achievements #dog achievements #i used google translate forgive me

[lookninjas]

@penroseparticle, this one's for you.

Pick a country (for occasionally loose definitions of "country") song from a bad description! You do not need to recognize the song from the description, although one of them is very very very very very obvious this time. Go by the vibes. Go for what makes you chuckle or sounds intriguing. Follow your heart.

At the end of the week, I will post a playlist with all the songs in order, from the song with the least amount of votes to the song with the most amount of votes. If you would like to hear the playlist but don't want to put a lot of effort into it, leave a comment or put it in the tags on your reblog and I'll tag you. If you really just need to know about a specific song and don't want to wait, shoot me an ask and I'll answer.

And please reblog! It's time to make your mutuals listen to some straight-up (maybe not that straight) country music for a change. Especially that one. You know the one.

#polls #music #playlists #apparently this unlocked something in me i don't think i've ever pulled a list together this fast #this one might honestly get a extended version there's a lot of good artists not on here #but anyway thank you for the inspo colton this was a fun thing to pull together on a day off #i literally had three great descriptions by 10 am i've been cackling about them all day