#So I said fuck it and caught up

[lunacias]

statement of jonathon sims, regarding a childhood encounter with a book formerly possessed by jurgen leitner

#the magnus archives #jonathon sims #tma #jon sims #magnuspod #rusty quill #a guest for mister spider #about to start s5 so no spoilers pls #that being said #ep 81 still fucks me up #(spoilers for the end of s4) #something something the way [i open the door] parallels a guest for mr spider #both choices of opening or not opening the door taken from him #obv knocking the door wouldn't have been his choice either but! #said this on twitter but #oh to be caught in a web long before you could ever understand what it means #colors on this fucked me up a little i'm not used to working with darks #do you see my vision though do you see th #y'all will not belive how many color iterations this went through #tw blood #tw scopophobia #tw spiders

[arthursfuckinghat]

I'm at that part of chapter three my friends, so let me be a reminder that Colm O'Driscoll's plan to lure in Dutch after taking Arthur failed because nobody came looking for him.

He would have died being held captive any longer, he barely escaped.

The gang did not come for Arthur.

#and it makes me seethe #listen in my first playthrough this was the part I thought Arthur was going to die in #that's how little I knew about this game #I was crying real tears #I was mourning arthur three chapters early lol #and I know I know micah explains himself but god it is not good enough #tilly went missing and they noticed right away #they hadn't seen trelawny in a few days and they went to find him #FUCKING BILL GOES MISSING AFTER BEING TAKEN BY BOUNTY HUNTERS AND THEY NOTICE #I seethe I seethe #Arthur Morgan your own family failed you #I get so caught up in the fun family dynamic that I have to remember that arthur is the “protector” #so who protects the protector? well then this mission tells you everything you need to know #arthur has to save himself because nobody was there for him #and again I know that if the gang knew he was taken they would look #but the fact that hosea said LOUD AND CLEAR that it was a trap and that THEY HAD SAID TO MEET UP IF ANYTHING WENT WRONG #AND THEY STILL DIDN'T LOOK FOR HIM!!!!!!!! #THEY DIDN'T EVEN TRY #ARTHUR WENT MISSING FROM A MISSION THAT WAS CLEARLY A TRAP AND THEY DIDN'T GO LOOKING FOR HIM #FOR THEIR SON #THEIR BROTHER #THEY DIDN'T LOOK!!!! #my blood is boiling #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #arthur morgan #red dead redemption 2 spoilers #mick rants #colm o'driscoll

[pippuns]

you know i am absolutely delighted by disciples era au. like, for the liushen potential, obviously, but i also can't stop thinking about a situation where sqq spends all of his free time trying to get evidence on sqh being a traitor, while sqh is frantically wondering wtf he did to piss sqq off so bad, because he certainly didn't write sqq having a huge grudge against the original goods!!

and eventually sqq does get definitive proof of sqh's traitorous behavior, only for sqq to discover that sqh is also a transmigrater. probably through sqh doing a harebrained scheme of trying to buy sqq's silence by offering to tell him his future.

and because sqh is a fellow transmigrator (even if he is annoying), sqq has to do a frantic dash to cover for sqh's misdeeds before sqq outs him even more than he already has. he bitches out sqh the entire time as he does this because he COULD have been reading the new installment of whatever fiction came out of xian shu this entire time but nooooooo, he had to waste all of his time chasing after this stupid author who isn't even a good spy and is APPARENTLY just doing the spy work to get some demon ass!! what kind of plotline is this?? of course it came out of the author who gave him the garbage he's stuck living in.

the funny thing is, this is actually what does convince people that sqh is a traitor. because sqq has been talking about his suspicions regarding sqh to the other future peak lords (chief among them being lqg, who obviously believed sqq immediately and has been his accomplice to this point), the complete 180 sqq does from trying to convince everyone that sqh is a rat, to him -- seemingly out of nowhere -- covering for sqh and spending all this time with him and talking in code (modern slang) with him, when everyone knows that sqq HATES sqh is soooooooooo sus.

in other words, everyone is now convinced that sqh is blackmailing sqq, because sqq actually found something to prove sqh's guilt.

and this results in a frantic quest from his friends (the other future peak lords) to try and find out what sqh is using to blackmail sqq so they can get rid of it. this does not go unnoticed by sqh, who demands that sqq fix the mess he got sqh into, and sqq tells him to fix it himself because he's the one stupid enough to become a spy to get some demon ass (which sqh points out is a gross inaccuracy of the situation, he hasn't gotten one iota of ass, not even a glimpse, do you know how difficult it is to pull that off in demon society which might as well not believe in the existence of clothes).

then system shows up and threatens immense bodily harm to them both if sqh is caught by the sect this early. so what are they supposed to do but begrudgingly work together to save sqh's ass so he can get some demon ass.

#i have sooooo many more thoughts btw but this is getting long so maybe i'll make a post in the future. if i remember to. #the tl;dr of this whole thing is that it's my insane (platonic) cumplane disciples era road trip au. because uh. #system said that they couldnt get caught by cang qiong. not that they couldn't leave it. and sqh is a spy at the end of the day. #and when there are people more competent than sqq looking into it they did find evidence LOL #sqh has not been a spy for very long at this point and it shows #i'd write this as a fic but if i did it'd end up long as fuck with maybe too much world building and i dont think i have the time for that. #disciples era au #svsss #pip speaks #long post

[zeb-z]

The thing about Forever and Bad is that they don't know how to deescalate, and they start at 100 straight from 0 every time with each other. They will spend hours arguing about semantics that don't matter. They will go to the extreme ends of pranks (which as fun as the audio remixes were, spending hours trying to find the source was literal hell genuine psychological torment). They will go for the throat just to antagonize the other.

So no, I don't think Forever knows a thing about Dapper or the other eggs whereabouts. He just knows better about the way Bad operates, the way he lies and deflects. He's familiar with his crafty words and how he turns a conversation on its head. He knows that what Bad is being accused of is entirely likely, that he is not who he usually is when the eggs are around. And he knows that Dapper, beyond a shadow of a doubt, is who Bad cares for most of all.

This isn't something he can argue hours about, to chip away little by little like he usually does. For both the safety of the worker, because the longer they're locked up surely the worse off they'll be - and for the safety of Bad, who if he wasn't under extreme watch by the Federation, he certainly is now, after Tubbo very loudly accused him in his Federation office.

He goes for the throat, immediately playing a trump card that he knows Bad won't just brush off or ignore, because as much as Bad can be unpredictable, Forever knows that Bad cares about the eggs as much as he does. As questionable as his morals are, as slippery as he can be to pin down, Bad has always placed the eggs as the highest priority - and he needs Bad to have no choice but to be honest, or to knock him off guard enough that he'll give him something to work with.

Is it fair? Maybe not. But when has Bad ever played fair with him?

#I haven’t watched forevers POV these past few days so take this with a grain of salt. this is a ghostie perspective #it’s like. there’s so many moving parts in this scenario. but we can all agree that bad was never morally right for kidnapping the worker #mf tortured them then developed some odd reverse Stockholm syndrome. we been knew bad is not a good person though #like. I’ve said it before I’ll say it again. bad highlights the difference between nice and good. because he is nice he has the capacity to #be generous and sweet. but my god he is not good #also. Tubbo man. the way he’s gone about this is so messy like. he’s caught on to bad that’d be good! if it wasn’t for the fact that #he played all his cards instantly in the middle of a federation office. like fuck man you’ve tripped alarm bells before you even knew the #damn situation. before you even had undeniable evidence. forgetting bad atm since ron doesn’t want to go back to the Feds this places him in #a terrible situation. it’s like it was not handled with tact or care and there will be consequences for acting without more knowledge yknow #also bad getting taken by feds will be bad for the eggs. straight up. as much as he deserves consequences for his actions it’s like the feds #are not who you want giving out consequences ffs #qsmp #mcyt #q!bbh #q!forever #bbh #forever #z speaks #also SORRY REPOST my organizational tags weren’t working you understand <3

[nikonuee]

@ people who make Ed a "naur my soft widdle baby Eddie-pie just had trauma amd that's why he traumatised the crew and did all that fucked up shit 🥺🥺🥺"

Why do you refuse to have nuanced characters? Why deny him the sauce?

#seriously? #really? #you look at this complex man and decide to blame all his actions because someone said something a little mean to him? #mans fucked! he cut off Izzys Toe. Tried to kill Lucius. GOT FANG KILLED (Rip to my husband) stranded half the crew and traumatised therest #PEEL BACK THE LAYERS AMD ADMIT HE DID WRONG! #ONIONS HAVE LAYERS AND THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH ADMITTING ED FUCKED UP BIG TIME! #y'all allergic #love yous to bits but dang #ofmd #edward teach #blackbeard #our flag means death #tomb talking #dont get me wrong #love a soft ed #but youre denying all that flavour! making him bland and tasteless #making a roast chook and then deciding to eat the paper it came in #Edit: I meant to write Ivan not Fang. I was so caught up thinking about that beautiful man I had a slip. RIP Ivan

[certifiedwerewolf]

Remember that episode of Suite Life where Zack pretended to have ADHD because his schoolwork was shit and if he had ADHD he'd have ADHD accommodations and a special education class and once he had accommodations his performance improved? And he eventually came clean and got in trouble and had to go back to regular classes where he would have to just buckled down and work harder? And he was portrayed as lazy Zack being lazy by wanting ADHD accommodations because of course HE didn't have ADHD, and he was being disrespectful to REAL people with ADHD who needed everything made easier for them?

Anyway I want to rewrite that to have it where Carrie, suspicious that he's faking, has him tested, and the test results come back BEFORE he comes clean but are looked at AFTER, and Carrie is forced to eat her words of reprimand about how Zack just needs to "buckle down and work hard instead of taking the easy way out".

Also

Zack: I don't have ADHD

Bob: Are you sure? Because you sure act like you do

#anyway new headcanon that zack is late-diagnosed adhd king #he brings up this event as an adult and one of the people present points out that #hey if those accommodations helped you maybe you needed them #kinda fucked up that no one bothered to have you tested #(maybe they did have him tested idk #i just feel like if carrie was worried about her son's school performance and something improved it #maybe she should have tried latching onto that #except of course everyone thinks adhd is 'lazy but at least you've got an excuse' so that tracks #this is almost as bad as that time she caught him crossdressing #and when he confessed it was to win money for bikes she clutched her heart and said #'oh thank god' #because you know #heaven forbid the alternative #that he's a boy who likes dresses or transfeminine in some way #/god forbid/ you have to accept your son #actually #add transfem zack to the pile #i'm going to fix this show #one 'actually that was kinda fucked up' post at a time)

[jrueships]

https://twitter.com/danfetes/status/1712166167572361344

josh says people saying stuff about stef ticks him off 😭 that's the meanest he'll ever get off the field 😭

that was kinda... 😏😏😏

and i definitely know stef feels the same... 😏

" tired of hearing all this nonsense... lot of guys in this league that have that same fire that don't get talked about, but--"

" frankly that kind of ticks me off when people wanna say stuff about him, but... we'll keep that all internal here 🙂🙃🫥."

this is allen at his boiling point omg 😭😭 held back by pr

#reporter: we talked to josh and we asked him a question about y- #stef smirks in Yeah. I Bet You Did. Bitch.😎 we're a two packaged deal. inseparable 😎 (insufferable) im his right hand man. his silly rab- #the sassy pose and the fond smile. theyre so untouchable dramatic ass top of the foodchain powercouple it's Unreal. #WHERE IS THE RPF!?!??!?!???? #josh and allen sooooo fucked after this #fucked HARRRRD bro fucked HARD #and they were both soo ready for it like you cant tell me they didnt fuck nasty after this HELLO #we cant always bet on them winning but the fuck nasty is surely guranteed #diggs had the bed all set up with romantic candlelight and roses and josh hurdled over all that shit just to hold him in his arms #josh caught on fire a little bit but diggs patted the flames down before he could notice #all the snow piled up around their home in buffalo could not muffle the 'youre my qb.. ure my qb' pants& moans which shake those very walls #josh '🙃🙃' the hell outta this interview #he said YOU may not understand diggs horrors but **I** DO!!@@! **I** UNDERSTAND. I GET THEM. #the frustration of seeing everyone hate on his husband when he knows all of that pales in how much stef hates himself #AND THAT MAKES JOSHS LITTLE STUNNED FACE ALL THE MORE SAD LIKE. HES SO HURT FOR STEF. #AND HE JUST KNOWS. he KNOWS the public is gonna spin this horribly. make stef the diva they always degrade him as #josh has CONSTANTLY with like a bear pacing around the cracked glass enclosure barely disguised rage #defended stef from misinterpretation and disdained the diva drama so vehemently #so everytime josh messes up or stef messes up or they lose all josh is thinking and feeling is 'im fucking this up for him even more #i dont care if theyre gonna be mad at me. diggs is hurting. somehow some way. diggs is gonna get Hurt. #and i cant do anything but talk. and i cant even do that well. #it's all my fault i cant do anything im so stupid im so stupid' #saint bernard song 1 hour #that single wide eyed stare he gives his wr bcs all he can do is stare as stef's pain surges #it's not fear of stef as the media tries to portray for qbwr tension. it's fear For stef. #he knows theres hurt. and he knows theres gonna be even more hurting. and. the nail. he knows he cant do anything to help it from stopping #'why couldnt i throw better. i need to just run it to lessen the chances. i need to do something. i need to be better. i have to be better' #meanwhile diggs could care less abt what everyone else thinks about him. he just cares abt how josh thinks. about josh #stef wants to perform well so josh can actually feel well. be able to express anything he wants without worry or treading #diggs/allen

[dramatic-dolphin]

when i was like 11 i liked to lie that i was a 16 year old girl named kriszti. i didn't say this under the last post because um. i did not use that lie to avoid being targeted by older people. quite the opposite 😐

#i kept trying to get people to sext me on some game website's chatroom out of curiosity #just to see if anyone would #when i finally caught one (1) guy and he called me (kriszti age 16) “my dream girl [some weirdass emoji]” #i found it so fucking hilarious that i had to disconnect because i was laughing so hard i couldn't do it anymore #like wow..... he just believed what i said........... when i just made it up.... #why was this so funny? well i was 12. #<- case study in unsupervised internet use at formative ages

[the-corvus-bandit]

So uh, watching criminal minds here and I'm at season 6 episode 4. Why is no one is talking about how Spencer inadvertently calls himself a beta male? I fucking choked

#the tears in my eyes are from both laughing so hard and from choking #i think i tore up the inside of my throat from that #criminal minds #spencer reid #okay people probably are talking but im just casually watching the show so i have no clue what people have said about it #ive caught a couple of episodes over the years but im just now watching the show in order #and im technically missing a lot of it cause im usually doing other stuff #but i did not fucking miss that #goddamn

[kurozu501]

this is one of those moments with silence that really gets me, just the way she gently works on the girls hairs while softly guiding ifrit to the conclusion “you should read her a story to calm her down” without directly telling her the answer is just. peak soft mom vibes. this owl is mom of the year, of all years. 

#arknights #olivia silence #silence arknights #ifrit #all the rhine characters are good but silence's defining trait is her humanity. her gentleness and love. her refusal to allow injustice. #i feel like im just listing classic hero traits but somehow the way they are presented in silence is so effective #she's just a normal young woman who got caught up in all this bc she refused to turn a blind eye to ifrit's suffering #she doesnt have any special powers. her power is her empathy. #she looked at this fucked up situation and said well i guess im her mom now. and she stuck to that no matter all the hell that followed

[moonpaw]

I’m still in awe about the scene where the asl brothers were shouting out their dreams and how every time I rewatched this scene I always questioned just why they cut out the part where luffy says his because it’s not exactly a secret. He’s been shouting out that he wanted to be the pirate king since the very beginning of the series, it’s literally his catchphrase!!

For 12 years I questioned that scene! But never once did it cross my mind that it was done because luffy actually has a different dream, and becoming the pirate king was only an ends to a mean to reach it and I was SO blown away to learn this almost 400+ chapters later when this was first HINTED at, never mind that it took 1000+ chapters to even learn he has a dream that isn’t becoming the pirate king (and we still don’t know what it is!!)

#one piece #one piece spoilers #episode 1015 hinted at this before the pre-egghead arc revealed it but even then my thought process was still #''yeah he wants to be the pirate king and literally everyone laughs at this but he doesnt care :)'' #even after yamato says that roger said something similar EVEN THOUGH THE CONCEPT OF A PIRATE KING DIDNT EXIST YET #i know that confused me for a hot second but i was so caught up in how fucking good the animation was that i ended up forgetting about it #because hot fucking damn did that episode go all out #god i wonder when he told shanks #and if that was part of the reason why a billion belli man stayed for a year in some random village in the east blue #god i LOVE it when things click into place after questioning it for so long #i love that kind of foreshadowing so much its unreal #and one piece just does it SO well it's one of my top reasons i love this series so much #i cannot describe just how good THAT particular question getting answered feels #even though we still dont know his dream for certain #just knowing that there was a very good reason that we were cut off from that moment and it WASNT out of nowhere like i originally thought #and questioned just #augh!! #i love love love love it

[kelpiemomma]

He hesitated as the child below him smiled and reached up. His claws rested right above its head and yet it looked delighted to see him. Did it not realize the danger it was in? It grabbed his fur and giggled.

"Puppy!"

...if he was asked, he was simply raising it up to help him infiltrate human settlements better.

#Khan a. #Zoroark Khan #Raised by Zoroarks au #Khan finds Akari in the middle of nowhere and is about to kill her (bc all humans deserve to die in his eyes) #But when she smiles at him he can't do it and decides to take her in and raise her instead #There was something about her looking... Happy to see him that stopped him #(when was the last time anyone was happy to see him?) #(this is bc I thought it'd be funny if Khan raised akari as a Zoroark and then got upset and jealous #When ingo drops the fuck out of the sky and after becoming the warden becomes friendly #the weird feral child running with Zoroarks. He tries to guide her into human behaviors which she finds so INTERESTING #Esp when he decides she's good enough to go into town!!! The town humans are neat and not at all scary like khan had always said #Ingo lies and says she's his daughter. That they had gotten separated during travel. That she had to survive on her own for a time #Which is why she's... Like That. Everyone eats it up. Gives her free stuff. Tells her they're glad she's reunited with her dad. #Akari tells Khan (who's only referred to as 'malice' yet) and Khan gets jealous as FUCK. #That is HIS BABY. HE FOUND HER. HE RAISED HER. SHE'S HIS DAUGHTER. NOT INGO'S!!! #But when he tries to sneak into Jubilife to steal her back? Bring her home? Do something? He's caught and chased out. And the next morning #Things are abuzz with the news that a black Zoroark had tried to break in!! Those things are so dangerous!! Say... #Hadn't the clans mentioned a black Zoroark before? #Akari discovers then (long after befriending ingo and months since she started coming into town) that Khan had told her the truth. #That these people hated Zoroarks. Feared them. But Ingo tells her that the clans have been harassed by them for generations. #That Malice is right but also he's wrong. And Akari decides she's going to show how GOOD Zoroarks are!!! How loving the are to their family #She ends up helping Laventon and Rei with the dex. She is still known as Warden Ingo's Feral Daughter. And everyone wonders and fears #Bc somehow one of the first pokemon she caught was a zorua she keeps in her party ALWAYS. Ingo thinks her wanting to show the good side #of Zoroarks is a good thing. Peace would be beneficial. He's heard hunters in the pearl clan discuss wanting to track down and kill #Every Zoroark and zorua to keep them from hunting the clans. He doesn't want an entire species wiped out! #So there is Ingo and his 'daughter' (who he is genuinely starting to see as his daughter) and then suddenly #One day there is a knock at the door. And ingo opens it to see a young man with a nasty scar GLARING at him #And the first thing he says is 'give me back my child' which makes ingo ???) #There were more tags but Tumblr said 'fuck you that's too many' #TLDR ingo has to lie to Jubilife residents and tell them Khan is his ex and the residents are LIVING for the perceived Family Drama™️

[kris-mage-fics]

So we have a mouse in our apartment, which scared the living daylights out of me! Not because I'm scared of mice, but I just assumed we'd never see one in here. (We are on the third floor, and we've lived here for close to 13 years and have never seen one.) The landlord is going to bring over some poison but I'd really rather not use it. I don't know, maybe that's dumb, but it's just a little guy trying to live it's life and not be cold. I really don't like killing critters. Of course if we want to catch it that means we have to get something ourselves. Which is a pain when you live quite a few km from any stores that sell live traps and don't have a car. I'll have to talk to my partner and see what if he's up for a trip to the store or not, but he's at work right now.

#at least now I know what the weird noise we've been hearing the last few days in the kitchen by the radiators is #and why Jade keeps staring at the radiator with great intensity #which is funny because she's a terrible hunter -- good thing she isn't a farm cat #she's caught all of two bugs in 12 years I really don't think she's going to get the mouse #I've literally never had to deal with a mouse where I lived so I'm at a bit of a loss here #like I know if I see a scorpion to just catch it in a jar and put it outside #but there aren't scorpions here #I know if we end up using the poison I'm going to cry because my heart is a stupid fucking marshmallow #I wish there was like a little mouse sign you could make that said “don't come in here or you will die” so it would just leave #or I could talk to it and tell it that #but alas I can't actually talk to animals

[mxwhore]

mutuals. i am getting caught in my own bitterness again...

#ill vent because this is basically my bedroom #my younger older brother is caught up in that phase of romantic love when nothing else matter but girlfriend #thats fine i guess it happens #the thing is he forgot about my birthday and i was sad. then he remembered that he forgot and called and said #heyyy lemme make it up to you. lets go grab dinner this weekend (last weekend) #he forgot he even said me and went wine tasting with his gf. so now im double sad AND pissed because #i said no to my friends who actually wanted to see me because i was under the assumption that we were going out #so i sent him a passive aggressive message like heyy dinner was great thx for that xd and he was like what dinner?? #long story short he realized he fucked up again and invited me to dinner for realsies this time #but like. he isnt really inviting me? he and my niece were going to a kiddy place he promised he would take her and said i could tag along #i told him i realize now he just invited that to save face and to forget about it #but now im even sadder cuz i love my niece and she is always happy to see me... i just feel like im stupid or something #theyre going tomorrow and im debating on whether i should swallow my pride and go for her #i probably wont #im still not over it #anyway whatever i got work to do

[biillys]

something about when el went into void and found billy, she saw him on the beach surrounded by sunshine and love and truly fucking actually happy. something about how when she turned around and saw the storm, she put her hands out and felt the ash falling from the sky, and then saw neil abusing billy and abusing his wife. something about how even in the monstrous world from another entire dimension, neil's still the fucking monster in the story

#idk how the upsidedown and the void and possession work and at this point i dont fucking care #actually something about how she said she saw a someone pretty and then saw a boy #and didnt even click it could be billy until she heard his name get called out #like i guess she wouldn't know what he looked like as a kid and all that #but like.... they knew billy was possessed by this stage like? #and when she was like 'im at the beach' and lucas was like '??? hawkins has no beaches???' #max was like 'tell us what else u see' so pretty sure she was picking up what was getting thrown down #whatever none if this matters!!! i was just clipping up that scene for gifs today and decided to not mute it for once #and was like oh this is actually like genuinely fucking sad #like????? the fact billys hiding out in his memories??? except he cant actually live in just his happiest memory #cos even in his happiest memory #he asks to stay at the beach just a little longer #and his mum hesitates before giving in but still says if they're late then neil'll be mad #also the fact even his happiest memory is still surrounded by some of his most heart wrenching memories #like he can't remember the good without the bad #like his mind physically cant think about the one day on the beach were he caught a 7 foot wave #without remembering the fact that his mum fucking left #cant do this rn sorry guys im fucking emo #m #text

[angel-of-sweet-revenge]

When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

#vent #its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything #i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant. #im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something- #-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again. #plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal) #and just #im fucking tired ok #and I'm sorry im a bad friend #i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some. #but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired #i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn? #and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON. #I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it #but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit #and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them #and they can lash out on me #i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not #last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend #it wasnt my fault #that friend ghosted me #im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too #but at the same time im too done to even really care #i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day