#SO. HIT UPON SOMETHING I THINK

[princess-of-purple-prose]

Me: I'm having so much trouble ironing out the climactic conversation at the end of this fic which was originally planned to have no absolutely no clear resolution :( what a shame :(((

Me, weeks to possibly months into struggling: WAIT (caps: wait)

#SO. HIT UPON SOMETHING I THINK #this is a shame though because i really ENJOYED writing said climactic conversation #and i feel it does add to the fic even if it isn't in a way i'd initially intended for the fic to end #and if i publish the fic sans the convo it won't flow well as a standalone? if that makes sense? #like it works as an abrupt stomach-dropping tone shift very well where it is #so removing it from the context of the original piece would make it immediately lose a lot of impact #ughhhhhhh #kay talks #does this even deserve the my writing tag.... nah #three cheers for you if you guess which wip this is lmao

[cosbeans]

they're like siblings. understand my vision

#loz #totk #link #legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom #tulin #literally i couldnt stop thinking about it all day #the questline itself felt a little. mmh rushed? but it was extremely cute and hit me in all the spots #its. god. #when teba said “dont be a stranger” all sorts of violent thoughts descended upon me #do you think zelda tried to get link to do something else often #do you think she tried to convince him to go live with sidon or teba #so they could treat him like family and he could do something else besides wander after her like a lost puppy #link do you even know what its like to live without a destiny tied to your soul #babygirl i could save you you deserve better i could #wraps him in bubblewrap and sprints for the hills

[edwardwonghaupepelutivrusky4th]

wah i looove their designs and animation...

#sketched last night looped ''hot air balloon'' track last night rewatched elemental last night you know just how it is....i love it all augh #elemental #elemental 2023 #pixar elemental #elemental fanart #ember lumen #wade ripple #it's so fun how just going w/the flow waviness drawing a wade is Correct. some flamey shiveriness / jaggedness in ember's lines is Correct #and it's all the more fun how it's like oh ofc not quite hitting the mark of how great their designs really are....so so good #and of course the expressive elasticity not only with their faces but the way their bodies ft. respective elements can be expressive #in addition to just usual [assume you have a usual literal human body] expressiveness options in posture / movement etc lol #also was thinking about how like we know everything we Need to know re: wade & his dad but also have so [zero details there] #which is interesting to wonder about. kinda assumed like oh a parent got sick & died but now considering how it could've been an accident.. #the tiny layer of A Reaction he has when ember's talking abt parents giving up everything for you: could be nothing much; or Anything #also noting i Didn't note the first instances that they hear each other's names or introduce themselves thusly lol #or at least i sure can't recall it. just start knowing the other's name partway through which Isn't A Problem but it's like #ooh just more to consider & reexamine. i love to pick up More Details & that's helped by my difficulty in catching them in the first place #one thing about me i don't Catch things i don't Notice shit i don't Get stuff. and also of course: i do though lol #always a trip when it's like oh i love this movie i'm seeing it probably the two dozenth time #and then i notice something for the very first time that was clearly straightup meant to be Gotten upon the immediate viewing #even to the extent that smthing later seems to be kinda happening out of nowhere if you didn't. & i'd just rolled with it #like ok i'm autistic ofc that's something i gotta do all the time. & the adhd means i might keep getting distracted around the same pts.

[megumi-fm]

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#okay random story time i don't know why im narrating this or how i even stumbled upon this memory rn #but i generally do sad vents in the tags and for a change this is a funny one #so back in highschool (i say highschool but i mean junior college) i used to visit this park near my house a lot #i was an sg kid back then and the thing about parks there is that they're kinda beach-parks and they have the best cycling/running tracks #they're also really massive parks so i used to go often. sometimes bicycling. other times walking. yeah. the park was like my sanctuary #anyway. there are quite a few bike rental areas in the park and there was a cute lil shop next to this one particular rental place #and they sold like biscuits and water and icecreams and stuff and i went there a lot #and on one particular day i went there and there was this guy around my age part timing at that shop #now again this might be culture specific bc i dont see it in india but part timing in uni/pre-uni is pretty common is sg #a lot of shops and restaurants employ teenagers to twenty something ppl for part time jobs... anyway im just adding context #point is that i had walked to the park with my mum that day and she told me to go buy a couple icecreams so i went to the shop #and i saw this guy around my age and like. not to be a simp but this dude was so pretty? #like he saw someone had come to the counter so he looked up and shot a smile and i thought i got slapped by sunlight #i could spend the next several lines going on about his pretty tan skin and his glowing raven eyes but this is pathetic enough so ill stop #anyway he saw me and smiled really wide (customer service smile- i thought to myself) and i smiled back and asked for icecreams or whatever #and then this guy started getting chatty right. so he was all 'you come here (to the park) often right? ive seen you with your bike a lot' #see now. the problem with me is that i always think im bothering people. this poor dude was attempting to make conversation #and i was replying with one word answers #and i wasn't even realizing that he didnt want that. bc he kept asking more questions and i. kept. shutting them down. #then when he gave me the icecream he was all 'are you here alone? icecream alone is no fun... i could keep you company if you want..?' #which. he was being really cute about right. but because im so fucking dense i was all 'oh no i came with my mom actually' #and he went 'aw man' in this really cute but faux sad way which i didnt understand at the time and i left and then #after three full fucking days. i realized this man was tryna hit on me? #and then i went to the park like a week later and he was gone. poof. i even thought of asking the uncle in charge of that place #then i got too embarrassed and chickened out #yeah so turns out my neurodivergence neutralizes any sort of rizz that comes my way #i could've been chilling with a cute boyf rn but no😩 this is my destiny #megumi in the tags

[sirtadcooper]

Twenty-five icons of the Twelfth Doctor (Doctor Who).

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#doctor who #dwedit #doctorwhoedit #twelfth doctor #twelfthdoctoredit #twice upon a time #peter capaldi #petercapaldiedit #moffatedit #iconsnetwork #dw icons #doctor who icons #*mine #*icons #another nostalgic twelve era thing from me i promise i will make something new one day haha #i was rewatching and was hit once again by all of my twelve emotions #i love this shot as he's saying hate is always foolish and love is always wise and it was my icon for a while in 2018 #i thought it would be interesting to have a second go at it considering all i have learned since #it's definitely an improvement but then again i think this shot is impossible to colour very well haha i like a challenge but #i've been fiddling with sliders for days now and i really just need to move on so i'm posting him he's done! see you again in 2030 i guess

[eurydemyse]

local farmer is madly in love with beach hermit and they can not be quiet about him

+ bonus ref of my favorite creature of a farmer (aster)

#i had an artstyle crisis in the middle of this and so half the drawing doesn't exist anymore LMAO #aster is really pretty though so that's okay #they have insane nonbinary swag i think i will write something with them and elliott #one day #the lore i have crafted of these two is insane ... #but alas! i will draw aster more and expand upon them for now #if anyone wants to talk about farmer ocs... hit me up i have a billion #sdv elliott #sdv farmer #stardew valley #sdv #sdv fanart #stardew valley elliott #stardew valley farmer #sdv elliott x farmer #oc

[technicallyaminecraftsimp]

Guys how the hell am I supposed to explain to other people why I love the Antenna Galaxies so fucking much without the “this too is yuri” meme

#I tried to say something like ‘it’s poetic in my mind’ but it just doesn’t hit the same as #this too is yuri #look man #billions upon billions of years we spent alone in an endless universe #surrounded yet completely isolated #slowly and unknowingly being drawn to one another #and now that we are not alone #we can do nothing but destory each other completely in the hope of becoming something new something better #I have spent so many years alone but now I get to spend many more knowing and loving you #until I ultimately destory you and you me #we will kill each other we will die in each others arms and throughout it all it will be painstakingly beautiful #HOW?????? AM I SUPPOSE TO EXPLAIN THAT TO PEOPLE #or at least people who aren’t on tumblr #like my astronomy teacher #how can I possibly grasp the emotion I feel about. some fuckin galaxies 45 million light years from us #also can I mention #no one else I’ve told this too can see it #but the antenna galaxies look like two ppl holding each other’s face #im not kidding guys I think about this way to often in life #god I hope someone here gets it #The Crab Speaks

[widevibratobitch]

i hate them with a passion

#this may turn into one of my long ass posts with hundreds of screenshots of quotes from the books #but i dont have the energy for that just now #anyway. this moment makes me wanna throw shit at the walls. their relationship is my favourite thing from the very beginning #but dumas went really went out of his way to make it even more insane in the last book #and dont hit me with a 'aww they have such a big/little brother energy its so cute uwu' please im begging you stop saying that #nothing irks me more than hearing their relationship described as something that innocent. its so much more complex and intense come on #there is pure visceral hate there. jealousy. bile. cruelty. some fucked up form of codependency even? maybe? from d'artagnan's side? #there's nothing more horrible and cruel than the fact that THEY are the only two left alive in the end (not for long but yknow) #they would NEVER be friends if not for athos (and they would never hate each other so much if not for him too) #they hate each other so so much. but remember that d'artagnan starts out being absolutely bedazzled by aramis and looking up to him #his first impression of aramis is just. hearteyes and 'wow i wish that were me'. he doesnt do that even with athos at first. #he grows to adore athos yes but upon first meeting him he doesnt think much of him. unlike with aramis. #and then it changes instantly. does a 180° flip when aramis is a bitch to him. #and it stays that way for the entirety of the trilogy. until this moment. this one short moment when d'artagnan #who. mind you. is not innocent himself and was also manipulating the hell out of porthos and talking shit about aramis behind his back. #but he makes that step. he reaches out. 'i fucking hate you let me help you you dumb evil cunt' and aramis says 'no <3' #you know i have this thing where i am OBSESSED with finding the one moment where a character condemns themselves for good. #the one moment when they figuratively sign the contract for their perdition. that up to that moment they could still be saved somehow. #for rodrigo it is when he tries to kill eboli (in the play). for don giovanni it is when he refuses elvira's plea to change #(NOT when he accepts il commendatore's invite mind you) #and i feel like THIS is that moment for aramis. #the fact that it comes from d'artagnan is so just so fucking agsjssgsgsh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and of course he says no. #there is no version of this where he lets himself be helped. he has to say no he will always say no. #but boy oh boy is this making me bang my head against the wall. #the three musketeers #les trois mousquetaires #vicomte de bragelonne #alexandre dumas

[edelorion]

#edel vents #disclaimer: really personal issues in the tags. also wishes of death upon others. this is PROBABLY too much information tbh... #so if you're not up for it scroll down fast!!!! the deluge is coming!!! #today was... eventful. bad. also very bad. grandma's birthday celebration was today #and while she... definitely has Old People Issues (racist) shes also very lonely since the death of my grandfather so i can't really not go #i'm the only one who really visits her regularly to begin with #aside from the... very serious racism issue... she's “alright”. i guess. but that's besides the point. there's family there #and among those... my parents. which i don't like to talk to #discovered they threw more of my old stuff away. typical. wanted to strangle them. as usual. #had to “talk” with my mother (read: spend approximately ten seconds reciting exactly why i *don't* talk to her anymore) #so that whole ordeal completely soured my mood. #went home tired. can't really do anything right now. #at least the food was good i guess. but i also really want to cry... which i can't. which sucks. #...i really like to think i've improved as a person. i used to be really hateful of everything and everyone #worst of all myself. still kinda do but i'm... getting better..? #i like to think i've grown past most of it but every time i see my parents i feel this gripping at my heart. as if i haven't really changed #as if instead i'm still the hateful person i “always was” deep down... bc there's this visceral joy that i feel whenever i'm mad at them. #when i looked at my mother and told her how much i despise her i felt a shiver of happiness. righteousness. #to be clear: i do NOT care for her. at all. she's the worst person on this earth #and the only person whom my philosophy of “nobody deserves to die” does NOT apply to. i'm not scared of hating her. #she genuinely deserves this. but...every time i see my parents - and thus her... i feel as if i'm slipping back into that mindset of hatred #i don't want that. not anymore. it consumed me whole. i was a horrible person back then and i've caused so much grief for so many #i can't let go of this hatred. i can't forgive them. they don't deserve my forgiveness anyway. but i'm tired of hating. #i'm tired of letting that hatred define me. i'm tired of letting that hatred direct me. i'm tired of letting it bring me to ruin. #i'm tired of being who i was. i'm no longer “that”. i'm edel now and i'm happy for people now. if i don't like something i just walk out. #i can just leave. “if it sucks hit the bricks” right?.. but i didn't. i had to say it. i had to tell them. her. and i liked it. #and... i'm scared of that. because it tells me i haven't improved. #i'm not sure what i'm expecting out of posting this i guess. maybe help. maybe i wanna be told that this is normal or something. #maybe i just want to get my thoughts in order. i don't know. i'm gonna stop writing now. #sorry for making you read all this. thanks for doing it anyway. tags were cut off on this one btw so it may look like a mess. but. yeah.

[variousqueerthings]

the fun of having put out the "bj's moustache is gay culture" post while also headcanoning first and foremost that whatever bj is, it's not actually gay but something way funnier and more fucked up

#what im saying is that hawkeye is sometimes bj's wife but not in a gay way #it's the opposite in a way of how frank burns desires hawkeye carnally and is so mad about it being really gay #and that hawkeye is queer in a gender and a sexuality way that means he can slide into whatever mold someone else desires #and margaret is a transmasc who will give herself that crew cut when she's in her 60s #and everyone will mistake her for a lesbian but actually she's gay for men #but hawkeye can be a girl for her if he wants #bj and frank both represent the lie of the american dream but in different ways #(that is they both went to war on a promise about smthinsmthin american duty masculinity etc) #but while I'm absolutely on the frank is gay choo choo train #idk with bj it just seems a bit boring as a read to end it there imo #especially as it's generally agreed upon that his character was so broadly written #i prefer to play in that broadness personally but hey if u wanna tag that post as gay bj i get where that comes from #ilke yeah for sure the moustache is gay culture - 70s gay culture #also tbh to get serious for a sec it was very weird getting into the mash fandom while this whole thing was going on #and i think it kept me from getting totally into it from the first jump - lot of judgement on headcanons #lot of *this is all of fandoms opinion on xy thing and if you say something different you're wrong* #lot of treating headcanons and meta as serious discussion pieces rather than just... engaging with a piece of fiction #(this not about analysing outdated elements of the show am talking the character and not-so-serious meta) #all of this to say: pls dont be weird on this post they're called headcanons for a reason #it's 2pm and i am pulling an all-nighter to hit a deadline #we're feeling fragile gents

[chamerionwrites]

Re: the so-called friendzone, it would be MUCH easier to date those whose friendship you deeply value if so many people didn't suck so hard at maintaining post-romantic friendships!

#i have absolutely zero hard feelings about the mutually amicable breakup w my first v serious partner who was a close friend of many years #i STILL get hit by flashes of intense unexpected grief bc that convo included both of us saying ''promise we will stay friends'' #and i kept that promise and so did he right up until he got married :/ #like i get that it can be complex and also people can be weird about it but it doesn't have to BE weird if you choose not to make it so #and also. well meaning and understandable and unforeseeable as it may be. you lied to me bro. ://// #anyway sorry for inflicting my maudlin decades old and tbh mostly healed angst upon you all #usually i don't even think about it but once in a rare while it surprises me with how much it fucking stings #sorry maybe i'm missing something but idk why people act like this is sooooo unfeasible. rip to you but i'm different. #and so are several of my OTHER exes FOR THE RECORD #ANYWAY straight woman who fails hard enough at gender to make male friends more easily angst hours i guess #my posts #also #gender stuff

[lhrry]

x

#gotta say (but not trying to guess or explain even if there are a few theories in my brain) #that everything happening these past weeks really is curious and it’s going to be interesting to see what happens next esp in potentially #looking at why babygate was so terribly ramped up during louis’ promo #because you have that in a quite unparalleled way but then you have Eleanor not being mentioned once like #literally danielled #and then you have the way fitf is queer #and then suddenly it becomes very clear that harry is no longer blacklisted in louis’ interviews and you have a syndicated press release #about louis struggling with fatherhood and few days later there is article upon article about louis on his ‘brother’s’ success #at a time when mp came out and with all the comparisons people are making with larry one would think they’d shun this but apparently not? #and then you have louis saying harry hits too close to home which still was a formulation for the books skmsk #and then you have holivia BUA which we expected around this time but louis’ 1 more day tweet makes it even funnier ngl #and you have gemma and lottie interacting on social media more (although there’s been something here and there before) #and there was even sth about harry on the twins’ igs a few weeks back or sth i dont know i dont follow them #but like no matter whether this is it and they’re just changing up the nemesis narrative or whether there are going to be further #developments #there definitely is some kind of a shift and it may end here or it may not but there definitely is sth happening

[peridots-pixiwolf]

[Start ID. A picture of a small plastic bag containing hundreds of tiny yellow mantises hatching from an ootheca. End ID.]

BABY MANTIS INCIDENT!!!!!! WHAT DO I DO

#got something strange from my grandpa about a week ago and i KNEW it was a mantis egg case....i am a father now!!!! #unfortunately IT IS THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. EVERYONE'S SLEEPING AND I AM LEFT TO DEAL WITH SO MANY LITTLE GUYS #lucky i even saw them to be honest. was sitting down to charge my devices and heard a strange noise worried it was a mouse or something #nope! crackling from the paper bag which i'd placed around them so that i didn't one day wake up to Mantis Hell #bugs #peridots-nonsense #i so badly want to keep some....i don't think i'm a good caretaker of living things though generally. gonna look up what to do now #hope it's safe to keep them overnight in there? writing a sticky note to break the news upon my family some hours from now :3 #alright whatever. hit post. mantises

[lanternlightss]

the lawrences and nbd parents: we have made a bard

nb, giving both anbd and nbd a hug: you messed up two perfectly good children is what you did. look at them, they’re terrified of and despise crowds!

#based off the #“i have made mankind” “look at them they have anxiety” meme #but also just randomly started thinking of anbd and like ??? aqua and i do not let up on this guy in the slightest 😭😭 #out of all the characters so far i think anbd got hit with the angst bat most #his fingers. gone #his parents. gone #her family history. gone #their family history and family being gone at the hands of a lawrence 😭😭 #ragnvindr fallout ! #terrified of coming back and seeing how their family will react ! #atp it is not out of reach to imagine a situation where their voice is almost gone 😭😭 #anbd’s life so far has just been bad things bingo shsjksslsk #i like to imagine that when they do start to perform again they refuse to look up or always have something covering their faces #or !! disembodied voice :] #cryptid anbd real #shkddksj spitballing #points to anbd. woe angst upon ye #lantern says stuff #reversed fates au #technically lol

[hella1975]

dude congratulations on telling ur mom about fanfic!! it was super brave of u and i'm glad she reacted well :) ur so cool xx

i HATE myself i was immediately like 'this is sarcastic' no bitch you have trust issues anywayyyyyyy thank you bestie!!! she however immediately dobbed me in it by bringing it up in front of my very judgemental sister yesterday like 'what was that thing you said [my name]? fan fiction?' and my sister went 'oh yeah?' but held eye contact with me the WHOLE TIME

#im actually really annoyed about it? like i SAID to my mum 'dont tell [sister's name]' bc she'll assume fanfic is something i Partake in #and she's of the generation that judges that shit #like i SAID to my mum 'you genuinely just dont get it like of course YOU think it sounds cool bc you only know it as a concept' #like she couldn't get her head around it when i said people are really really mean about this kind of thing #but still she agreed not to bring it up and then?? immediately did??? #and she does this ALL THE TIME like i tell her not to tell my sister shit and she says she wont #and then she does??? #bc her attitude is 'i hate when we have secrets' okay but also sometimes it's just not your place to say shit?? #like when i came out to her i made it VERY clear that it was MY choice to tell me sister if and when i wanted to #and i was and still am not in a place where im willing to do that #and like a WEEK after i came out to my mum she - IN FRONT OF MY SISTER - looked me in the eye upon a convo #we were having about gay people and went 'are you bisexual then?' and i had to LIE and say no which is obviously such an awful feeling #and she just played dumb?????????? #AND AND AND this whole thing ive got atm with the therapist and my ~exam anxiety~ i hadn't told my sister about #bc i just didnt want to talk about it bc i know it's a toxic mindset to have but im still in a place #where im really embarrassed about it all #AND MY MUM TOLD MY SISTER?!?!?! it's all just so fucking annoying but if i stopped telling her shit she would hit the ROOF #anyway sorry to derail your positive ask anon i dont regret telling my mum about fic she just keeps ignoring my requests for privacy lol #ask

[thehardkandy]

i want a new game to play sooooo bad but i am sooooo picky it is making it impossible

#the issue is that even if i find something i think is PERFECT i have a bad habit of not sticking things out past the 15-20 hour mark lately #so im kinda trying to keep my price range with that in mind lo #would love to play some big open world rpg or whatever. but not for $90 #and many games taht look so beautiful are being reviewed as pretty tough and while i like challenge! i need a game #to let me rise to a challenge rather than thrust it upon me #because otherwise i die the first time. get angry. dont play again for 12-48 months #already have multiple things in my game library that have hit that nnote #that i cant go back to because i just remember being so fucking annoyed at mad and frustrated #which is not what i want to be #also i dont really give a shit about narrative or decisions so ill see other stuff that looks soooo cool #but only if you care about the story #like sorry disco elysium i respect what you're doing but i am never going to play you