#OH MY GOD WAIT I DO WANNA SAY

[labyrynth]

ok so your first problem was assuming mdzs is a story where Good People are Rewarded and Bad People are Punished.

your second problem was assuming that MXTX—who goes out of her way to showcase unresolved, tragic, undeserved endings in all of her works—would ever write a story with such a shallow notion of “deserving.”

the only reason wangxian makes it out unscathed is because they’re literally the protagonists. authorial intent and plot armor ensure their happy ending. that’s it.

#mdzs talk #moi #i mean it also helps that neither wwx nor lwj give a rats ass about the rest of the cultivation world #wwx had already fucked off and lwj was basically doing that too #that man has never given a single shit about politics and maintaining good relationships #like what does it say about you if even jiang cheng is a better politician than you. #mister ‘don’t talk to me before i’ve had my coffee. or after. just don’t fucking talk to me.’ #but yeah wangxian is like oh we helped to create a massive power vacuum and destabilized the entire cultivation world? #ahaha no way!🤪 hey actually can this wait? my husband and i wanna go fuck in the bushes 🥰 #like. lwj that’s YOUR brother that just lost his most significant emotional support of the last decade. #wwx that’s YOUR pseudo nephew whose parental figure you just got killed. #that’s YOUR pseudo nephew who now has to become sect leader at like 15. #but nah they wanna go bang on the side of the road #god forbid they try to clean up some of the gigantic mess they helped to make #and nobody try to argue ‘well but jgy!!’ buh buh buh nothing. jgy cleaned up after himself. #neither wwx nor lwj had ANY personal stake in seeing jgy dead. lwj SHOULD have had a personal stake in keeping him alive actually. #i still think it’s super shitty and hypocritical of lwj to defend wwx so strongly and yet try so hard to condemn jgy in PRIVATE #both wwx and lwj really showed their asses at guanyin ngl. obviously huaisang did too. #like yeah it’s noble and righteous or whatever but like. righteousness was not why lwj defended wwx before. #wangxian stans being self-righteous and hypocritical? with classist double standards? with black and white mentality? #wow! who would have ever guessed?

[coredrill]

oh also headsup to everyone that i will be TRYING to see if i can’t catch the new bravern ep earlier than i usually do tomorrow so y’know. beware the Posts

#like i wont be able to focus on anything once it drops anyways so like. MIGHT AS WELL #i could barely focus on anything today tbh. LMAO #i don’t even know why i’m so anxious like i fully trust that it will be good and satisfying and i have zero expectations plotwise #i just want isami to be happy i think 😭 he and lulu #either way tho it’s been such a fun time keeping up w this show :] #like i’m rly glad to watch it while it was airing and see all the fanarts and talk abt silly theories w my friends and make Posts #and i still do think ep9 in particular maybe even elevates this to like. fav stories ever been told type of deal #like recency bias ofc but also. bravern himself is SO 😭 #anyways. LMAO #t.txt #what a special show :] #OH MY GOD WAIT I DO WANNA SAY #WHOEVER GOT THAT GIF OF MINE TO BE LIKE ONE OF THE FIRST BRAVERN GIFS IN TWITTER SEARCH #THANK YOU BUT WHY IS IT ONLY SEVEN PIXELS 😭 EVERY TIME I SEE IT I CRINGE #wait also again i lied earlier on. rip. i actually DO expect smith/bv to come back in some fashion #like i’d bet money on that. but like. i do also trust the show to make it work if he Doesn’t ykwim? #its just one of those scenarios where it’ll be like. happy ending: will make me very happy #bittersweet ending: will stay with me forever and ever and ever and ever and ever an #okay sorry for editing this post four millioj times i gotta go do chores

[bangcakes]

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#personal #ladies... its lovesickness on the menu again tn NDNNDNDNDMDMDNDMDMDMDM #god help me #i made it like 29 years without this. why now NFNDNDNNDNDNDNDMD #like ok im happy to be experiencing this in the sense that like... now ik what it feels like to really like someone #but man oh man is it... A Lot #and like maybe its this intense at any age. but idk..... it feels like So Much..... #and im freaking out bc i talk to my mom about it ok. and shes like oh ya that reminds me of how i felt with ur dad in the beginning n im #just... like ... o #bc my parents were like friends first and are like in Love love and have a v happy marriage so im just #the... Potential of having that n like oh god idk. i just dont know its all too much...... #and im also like what if its all in my head. but then again like why is he waiting around for me n messaging me out of the blue. #i also caught him staring at me n looking away after i caught him. i just..... idk like i wanna Believe so bad but im so scared too........ #im all over the place JDJDDMDMDMDMDMDMDNJDND #but i also am just..... i'll be patient .... bc rushing is no good #like idk. i feel like things have been Moving. and its not super fast but its a pace i can handle #bc ok say i Do ask him out or he asks me.... then oh fuck. then all the Scary things happen. like ok not scary #i dint think itd be scary with him #but idk.... physical... things. would start happening n like. id l9ve to hold his hand n like k___ him ok OK. but at the same time i just.. #idk !!!!!!! im v shy !!!!!@@@@@ and ya. ....... idk 😭😭😭 #like i like him so much that i think id want him to .... i just .. ya idk. #getting kind of ahead of myself here but what else is new

[todayisafridaynight]

my fucking yaoi is out for delivery and im stuck at this baka school !!!!!!!!!!

#snap chats #this sounds like the title to a terrible manga but NOOOOOOOO LET ME OUT OF HEEERRRRE #just three more days then i get my old man yaoi........ god........ #acnt wait to destro my kidney before tho 🥴 #OH BUT i might stream later. idk if i have class but either way 7:30 is Weirdly a good time for people???? i think. #whih. You Are All Liars Stop Saying 3:30 Is Good LMAO BYE maybe #there's stuff i wanna doodle with you guys. after i do some coms first lol... #im almost done with one so yay but anyway. bye <3

[sysig]

Can love 😍💕💞❤️ bloom 🌻🌼🌹🌷💐 on the 🤜💥 battlefield?? (Patreon)

#Shitpost #My art #Wander Over Yonder #Fist Fighter #Lol #As high-effort as I'm willing to put in to make it appear low-effort <3 #Initially based on my silly little Fist Fighter OC(?) with a crush on Peepers - he's already started to morph a bit #Peepers might be a bit too high a station to pursue - shoot for the stars and all that! #But just by the sheer number of Fist Fighters and Watchdogs there's statistically gotta be one apiece that mesh well #And there's nothing that says he couldn't have a crush on Peepers to start! Kind of an ''Oh shit I guess some Watchdogs are kinda cute'' #Until that slowly congeals into ''Wait no most of the Watchdogs are pretty cute actually.......uh oh'' lol #If he's gonna stick around he needs a name tho hmmm #Kinda tossing around Keith but I'd like to pull up some references to verbally-named Watchdogs first #That's another thing I've been thinking about - from my recollection/what I've seen in rewatching - #It seems like all the Watchdogs have either masculine or unisex names and are shown to be at least visually understood as male #And depending on how Word Of God you wanna go Craig McCracken has confirmed there are female Watchdogs on their home planet but like #There are feminine names /on/ Wander's list for the Giftening 2 but we only see them sneaking onto the Skullship! #Yes those are almost certainly staff-and-loved-ones Easter eggs >:P Do I care? Am I still going to integrate it into my HCs? Take a guess |D #And anyway that's Just the Watchdogs - unfortunately Awesome's force aren't really seen often enough to get names :( #Hell just finding a speaking line of theirs was a rare treat haha ♪ Up until then I almost thought they were mute! #Seems redundant because like - Bring Back WOY first of all of - but more Fist Fighters! They're too cute!

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MULTIMUSE QUESTIONAIRE

Tagging: @infernalight, @infernal-feminae, @heartsofhell, @questionablemuses, @because-i-simp, @frostworkxfiction, @deepspacevivarium, @hotelbitches, @voxiiferous

RULES: Answer the questions with the Muses that would best fit the answers. Bonus if you give details why. If tagged, copy and paste into a new post – DO NOT REBLOG!

1) Rank your softest Muse and your toughest Muse. (Personality-wise)

My softest muse is definitely Vick. He's a 0 on the toughness scale, he's a big teddy bear and he will choose kindness over anything else at any point.

My toughest muse is probably Barbie. Girl is tough as nails and will not be stopped if she puts her mind to something. She doesn't take pain as a reason to stop and will go harder when it hurts.

2) Which Muse would blow through $1000 quickly?

Valentino, hands down. He spends $1,000 every day easily on things he doesn't even need. He loves to buy expensive things and will do so at all hours. He especially loves spending Vox's money. $1,000 is a drop in the bucket for him and he doesn't even notice spending it.

3) Do any of them have nicknames? Is there a meaning behind them?

Quite a few of them do!

Valentino answers to Bunny from his lovers, it's a subspace trigger word for him. I assigned him Bunny because he's Cute And Horny, aka a rabbit, and a bunny sub is fairly common.

4) Are any of them up-to-speed on the latest trends? Anyone more old school?

Velvette, Vox, and Valentino are obsessed with always being on top of the next new thing.

Alastor hates new things and will fight them as much as he can.

5) Who has the best relationship with their siblings?

Valentino had a fairly good relationship with his siblings when he was alive. He had seven of them, plus three live-in cousins that were like his siblings.

6) Karaoke night! Who is likely to grab the mic first and bust out a tune?

Beelzebub, Ozzie, Valentino, and Ostello! They all love to sing and party, and they're all pretty good at it. Ostello was a pop-jazz singer when he was alive and before he died in Hell, too!

7) Who is least likely to enter a beauty pageant/model?

Gretchen. She doesn't think that she's very pretty, and would just feel embarrassed even going to watch.

Travis. He is constantly told he's very ugly, and he doesn't have a very high opinion of his looks.

8) If your Muses visited a haunted house where actors scare you, who would panic and who would be unfazed? 

Chazz, Gretchen, Charlie, Anya, Magpie, Summer, Travis, and Vick would be the easiest to scare!

Valore, Dimas, Cash, Glitz, Stu, Paimon, Alastor, Darío, Niffty, and Vox would be the hardest to phase.

9) Are any of your Muses particular about taking certain modes of transportation?

Vox prefers to be driven around and doesn't like driving himself.

Valentino only likes to drive occasionally and prefers pretty sports cars when he does.

Anya and Darío are motorcycle people.

Emily enjoys bicycles!

10) Share a little-known fact about any Muse.

Adam is actually a very good father and he loves kids and babies. He is very tender with children even if he can be harder on them once they have grown into adults.

#HEADCANONS ➽➽➽ #Reciting Violence Like Poetry (α∂αм) #I’ve Found A Rainbow A Rainbow Baby Trust Me I Know Life Is Scary (ємιℓу) #I’m Standing In The Face Of All That My Story Holds In Its Wake (ναℓσяє) #What We Loved Today We’ll Lose Tomorrow But I Won’t Need To Wait For My Share Of Sorrow Because I Always Kill The Things I Love (∂ιмαѕ) #Who Needs Pepsi Juice Or Sprite? If You Do You’re Weak That’s Right (вαявιє) #I’m Gonna Take Their Hearts For Ransom ‘Cause Everybody’s Always Askin’ When You Gonna Show Us Magnum? (¢нαzz) #Money Can’t Buy Happiness But It Can Rent You Paradise (gℓιтz) #We Put Her Down In A Shallow Grave She Wears A Dress Like A Body Bag Everyday (gяєт¢нєи) #Everyone’s A Winner We’re Makin’ Our Fame Bona Fide Hustler Making My Name (ѕтυ) #Try Not To Move So Fast You Know Dessert Comes Last! (вєєℓzєвυв) #You Can Fool Yourself I Promise It Will Help Every Single Day I Just Wanna Hear You Say I’m So Lucky Lucky I’m So Lovely Lovely (¢нαяℓιє) #Define Your Meaning Of War To Me It’s What We Do When We’re Bored (ραιмσи) #If You End Up On My Table Then It Serves You Right (αℓαѕтσя) #Know I’m All Bite No Bark Like To Catch You Way Off Guard (αиуα) #Take Just One Last Dare Pretend That You Don’t Care (ℓєgισи∂αяισ) #Your Magic White Rabbit Your White Room Straight Jacket (мαgριє) #He Ran Into My Knife He Ran Into My Knife Ten Times (иιfту) #I Love You Oh So Madly But I Don’t Stand A Ghost Of A Chance With You (σѕтєℓℓσ) #Come Come Kitty Kitty You’re So Silly Silly Don’t Go Kitty Kitty Play With Me (ѕυммєя) #Don’t Be Goofy Bring Some Passion To The Table (тяανιѕ) #And If You Get In My Face Then You’ll Get A Taste Even God Would Run Son (ναℓєитιиσ) #Hollywood Made A Killing Machine She’s Like A Teenage Slaughter Movie Scene A Serial Killer Celebrity (νєℓνєттє) #Red Eyes In The Digital Paradise (νι¢к) #Let’s Stop Saying “Don’t Quote Me” Because If No One Quotes You You Probably Haven’t Said A Thing Worth Saying (νσχ)

[flovverworks]

after a billion yrs i added a lil line about my gbf verse.....<3 one day i might flesh it out to something in-universe, but since gbf is so "oh ure from another world? ya that happens..." i....am gonna keep w that..........(also cuz i do think discussing the different ways of magic, moon-enemy & this n that is more fun like this

#stardust speaking ! #i do wanna write but im unsure when ill do so #anyway i need to talk abut that one 1.5 moment with that weird car horn sfx after murrs fancy speech cuz i #was thinking about it again due to one of the descriptions in the alterego event #i still didnt check the website btw is it available info why snows adult and whites a kid or is that a waiting game cuz #that..... #sometimes when i think abuot paradoxroid i think about them. that one was fkd up #snow&white r so fascinating to me #snow & white & figaro & oz are even more fascinating #oz who only started learning abut the world because arthur asked things about the world................. #oz who made arthur pancakes................................. #they make me ill. figaro feels like he should be the most welladapted cuz in some ways he IS. guy who lies about his power and age and love #humans and that one offhand line in 2nd anni about how he has cared for kids!??!? dude i need to reread 2nd anni did that ever get brought #up again #but figaro & love is................guy who leaves when he thinks he isnt loved anymore #<-guy who was taught by snow&white who valued e/o the most #2nd anni makes me lose my mind. figaro and fausts convo. both who felt like it was the other who left LIKE FIGAROS SURPRISE WAS UNREEEAAALL #somethings deeply wrong with him i am so intrigued #i need to go reread his pt2 parts like what the actual hell dude #the mental gymnastics he does in one part is ? id like to study u and the twins under a microscope #this is all shallowly/casually speaking about it btw theres a lot of things left&right about all of these topics that makes them very yummy #i think what gets me the most about pt2 is that a lot of it is things that we alrdy knew regarding characters feelings etc. such as figaro #but seeing them say it themself makes me faint #OH MY GOOODDDDDD THE FLASHBACK CONVO WITH OZ AND FIGARO? ABOUT WOULD U SAVE THE PERSON U LOVE OR THE WORLD #AND HOW FIGARO ENDS UP FALTERING DEAR LOOOOORRRDDDDDDDDDDDDD #fucked up family (affectionate) #i need to think of modern aus again i thought about arthur calling snow & white granpa for one second and everything hrut #ok im sorry i dont know what possessed me. i promise ill be rereading stuff soon #one more thing. fausts part in pt2. god. but in this cursed world the sage trusted me...

[wishmemel]

chan hating himself is my roman empire

#how can someone so strong and capable and talented and gorgeous hate himself so much #like my god he’s so devastating #everything about him is laced with tragedy #the whole idea of loving him from afar (or any idol at all) and watching them say things like that about themself #and just not being able to. do. anything? #it’s so frustrating that the only way this works is that he has to put in the effort and realize his own worth but we don’t know if he does #or even will #because you can’t force someone to love them self or fix themself right #you can only love them through it and hope it’s enough #but it’s just sooo frustrating i’m #head in my hands he’s so devastating #i wish he was different #:(( #he’s so beautiful and so precious i’m so ill #i wanna give him the world #and the way he always stands in the back and observes the group as if he’s detached from this whole reality #as if he’s somewhere else completely #the way he once said that if it weren’t for the members and skz he wouldn’t even be alive #like he got a second chance at life #like he was saved all because of them #the heartbreaking way he said ‘you don’t care about me’ to minho like he really believed that #oh i wish someone would just grab his face and drill it into his head that he’s loved and he’s important and he matters !!! #he’s so me i’m so him #maybe that’s why i find him so tragic #it’s a loop #waiting to find the thing that saves me #or maybe it’s just the small things around me that i’ve been taking for granted #꒰ soon you'll get better. ꒱

[siyratiin]

JUST SAW TMNT MM HOLY SHIT THAT WAS INCREDIBLE I AM SO FJDBFKFFBKBF I LOVE THEM ALL!! SO MUCH!!!! EEEEEEEE

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#the animation was phenomenal GIVE ME MORE #TAKE MY MONEY #i have so mnay things to say but i will wait till the majority have seen it i do not wanna spoil #AAAAAA IT WAS SOSOSOOSOSO GOOD OMGOMG #brb changing my entire art style to look like this movie #i might actually do that it was GORGEOUS #I ALSO PICKED UP TWO (2) TRANSFORMER FIGURES BEFORE HAND THIS HAS BEEN SUCH A GOOD DAY #sorry for the long tags LMAO im so excited OH MY GOD I COULD EXPLODE EEE #tmnt #tmnt mutant mayhem #tmnt mm #teenage mutant ninja turtles #teenage mutant ninja turtles mutant mayhem #mutant mayhem #THERE WAS THIS ONE SHOT I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THAT WAS IN A SCENE I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THAT WAS JSUT SO SO BADASS AND AWESOME AND COOL AND #OH MY GOD #rex rambles

[inevitablestars]

i keep seeing people compare the number of fics on ao3 against how many wolfstar has and saying "____" should have more

just shut up and go read what is there or write it yourself xx

#like first off that's wolfstar. get your conversation away from them #i saw one that was about dorlene which yes i love love love dorlene and i always love finding fics of them! #but that doesn't mean the nearly 5000 works already posted don't matter #like if i want to read dorlene i will go and search and find a dorlene fic to read not come online to bitch about how there needs to be more #i just wanna ask these bitches making these comparisons if they have read every single fic under the ship they're talking about #5000 is still a TON of fics maybe it's less than what wolfstar has but those are two different entities #just going on line to say look at many more fics x has than y! we need more y!' like oh my god shut up #read what is already there. #EXCEPT people aren't going to do that bc these little twitter and tiktok gremlins (derogatory) don't search on ao3 #all they do is wait for one to get popular and hop on that which is beside the point. BUT like read the fics that exist #and they act like they should be on a pedestal for shouting about the lack of fics when in reality there are thousands #this got so rambly i'm sorry i'm just annoyed from seeing these dumbass complaints from people

[gregmarriage]

truly my last relationship taught me so much. it also instilled in me some things i’m still unlearning. like, how most people won’t get mad if you accidentally fall asleep without saying goodnight (and not replying to messages, because i’m literally asleep), or freak out if you stop replying for like five minutes. like, i couldn’t do anything i enjoyed bc she’d be like ‘um, what fuck are you doing? why aren’t you answering me?!!!’ like relax, i’m literally just showering. it was truly a case of sitting still unless i wanted to upset her. and then i STILL somehow upset her and i never really knew why. but, hey, that relationship ended a long time ago, i should be fine now, right? 😐

#it’s literally been like five years and i still wake up sometimes like ‘oh god i didn’t say goodnight! oh god i didn’t reply back to that #person’s message!’ when said person doesn’t care one bit #it’s just cause that relationship was so crazy that it made ME crazy and i’m beginning to realise that yeah i still carry some shit from it #literally that relationship is the entire reason i’ve been single all this time and why i’m trying to be emotionally mature etc #bc that relationship ending gave me a smack around the head that said something needs to change’ #bc the way i was before is the reason i was in that relationship and in that situation in the first place #and that relationship ending and trauma and shit separate from that made me get really romance repulsed for a while #still am sometimes tbh #pretty much permanently in a state of ‘yeah i need look after myself’ for the last five years #and idk when that would open up to me being in a new relationship #idk i really just need to not rush anything with anyone and just take things slow and see where they go #have fun in the meantime #bc my past few relationships have been really intense #especially the last one as i said #and i fully don’t have the time or energy for anything hardcore currently #so if there’s anyone at some point they must be prepared to wait for em and court me like we’re victorian lovers #you must wait three years untill we kiss for the first time bc i truly don’t know the timeframe for when i’d wanna do anything i’ll be #honest imaooooo #but yeah romance is a complicated subject for me #i’m literally a hopeless romantic but the thought of romance lately truly just makes me feel gross #like in theory yeah i wanna kiss someone but in actual practice i’m like get away from me! #idk i’m on the road to bulilding healthy relationships #romantic especially bc i really can’t go back to how i used to be #sorry to disappoint anyone imaoooo #but nah anyways people who want to get close to me and be my friend has to be cool with my boundaries i set up #and sometimes forget about even tho they’re my own boundaries bc i’m silly like that #could do casual stuff but i really don’t think i’m the type for that imao #and even that sets off the same alarms in my head so idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ #gwen rambles #gwenposting

[bangcakes]

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#im sorry but if he really was waiting for me yesterday im gonna have a whole meltdown like oh my GOD?????? #like THATS??????????????? #n like... ugh that fuckin asshole that said something to him OHHHHHHH !!!!! UGH. #like....... god. ...... .. theres no other explanation. like usually he leaves right away ok. well until he started waiting for me NDNNDMDM #but to do that after an exam... when he like.... just wants to get out of there n study for the next one.... #o bro i cant handle this. thats so sweet wtf..... like....... HHHHHHHHHHH GOD. #this Has to be going somewhere like i cant be imagining this. i cant be #n not only would he have wanted to get outta there bc of having to study.... he also literally doesnt like talking to anyone except me n #one of my other friends JDNDMDMDMMDMDMSM #and like he would have been waiting awhile bc like over 20 mins went by between him leaving n my other friend leaving... and then after tha #god im so sad...... i wish that JERK hadnt said anything to him. i bet he would have stayed 😭😭😭😭😭 #hhhhhhhhhhh........ #n e way NDNNDNDNDMDMMD. im gonna see this until the end.... like lmao theres Something here i can tell...... #and like okay even if we just end up friends... like ok maybe i'll be crushed but JDJJDJDJDJDJFJ hes so cute. i wanna keep him forever..... #n like god. hes even cute in a grumpy way which... god thats my weakness forever im just 🥺🥺🥺 #its just !!!! hes so honest !!! like always says what hes feeling n then once he says it hes over it. like idk hes perfect to me JZJJZJZJZJ #GOD. im so obsessed. help #and like GOD. i really keep coming back to this post and adding more im JUST..... #his eyes are so kind. like i cant even explain this. i just ... god hes so cute..... #personal

[todayisafridaynight]

every day i thank god for the like. one or two japanese minedai artists who make mine the embodiment of 🥺 while also still making him. mine.

#snap chats #LIKE I LOVE A LOT OF MINEDAI ARTISTS DONT GET IT TWISTED at this point im very lenient because. im hungry #also a lot of the art genuinely is super perfect and amazing and Thank You God its just that theres a particular itch i get sometimes yk #its my favorite flavor..... and damn no body ever does it 😭😭 #'what does it mean to be mine snap' it means he's mine. and he goes 🥺when daigos around. which is very mine but #you know what i mean. like he still does taxes and scares everyone but then daigo show up and he like :) #i never see mine dokidoki.... 'snap what the fuck does that mean' IF YOU KNOW YOU KNOW i dont have to explain myself.... #i must see mine be swooned more... my life depends on it.. #dis a shout out to all the people who make mine dokidoki actually.... like that anon who sent the fic.... youre my hero... #like may i be so bold.... may i be so forthcoming... daigo has mine whipped yet i always see mine as the instigator... #or more forward. if i may put it safe for the eyes of babies. #im pickyyyy i knowww its why im saying my praises now 😔 #in the worst twist of irony i wanna draw but not them. not rn anyway. #BLEH lemme write a bit and we'll see what happen anyway thats my minedai ramble for the month #oh god wait didnt i already do one of those. oh no the demons are gonna have my head for going over the quota

[bonetrousledbones]

waitwaitwaitwaitwait shit hang on. so toriel’s gonna be in the next deltarune chapter right. and SOMEONE from the police station is also gonna be in it, which will either be undyne or napstablook. the dark world is going to be in the living room, which could likely have a very homely feel to it. something both toriel and napstablook have in common is that they’re both introduced in the ruins.

there’s an NPC that says that the mayor always keeps her office extremely cold. do you see where i’m going with this

#trousled rambles #deltarune #idk why i got deltarune on the brain lately but i do #i could be entirely off base especially since its almost 4am but listen. listen #if chapter 4 is in the mayor's office i will simply go completely insane ok. do u understand #for the other few areas its a bit less clear but man. man #for waterfall i almost wanna say asgore's shop. because that man lives in squalor #and then new home / judgement hall could possibly be the church #basing these off of places we cant enter yet btw #no clue abt hotland tho. hmmmm #edit: oh my god wait i . forgot abt the skelebros house. if papyrus's room ends up being hotland bc fire rug do you KNOW how hard i'll yell

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ngl rn the idea that i still have to stay here working on the same stuff when a potential phd project is on the horizon is a lil soul #crushing. like god i wanna b able to read papers abt that. not work on my existing papers. or take measurements. or stay here anymore #like probably at least 6 months more. thats so long 😭 let me shed this skin #ugh. at least the decision making is almost over. one more interview and then i should have all the decisions by the 1st week of march? #and then its just up to me to decide. rn id say the school i visited. but thats plenty of time to talk myself out of it. ugh #ugh me trying to do my job: ok i have like 7 things i could me doing *starts thing 1* oh wait but *starts thing 2*. i just ping pong #between tasks and dont get things all the way done. then im like oh i need to remember X thing later *instantly forgets* but i did just #experience the glory of being reminded to do a task via calender #listen. its like my brain has holes in it and theyre threatening to destroy my life lmao #most of the time i feel like a pinball when ur just hitting it back and forth between the bars. threatening to fall between them #ay ay ay. my poor feeble brain. someday ill fix iy #it. or like. try to manage it better so im not constantly on the edge of catastrophe. but ya kno that day is not today or tomorrow #bc i am paralyzed of driving lmao and its fucking wimby out there #ugh. i miss the snow already :-( i wanna go back :-( ugh they got their hooks in me #unrelated

[trashbaget]

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#i…………i have……………i have a fucking DATE tomorrow !!! #im going on a motherfucking DATE tomorrow????? #not only am i going on a DATE tomorrow but im going on my FIRST?? DATE?? tomorrow??? AND I PLANNED IT??? kinda??? #bro. bruh. bra. breastie. ive got a motherfucking date tomorrow and >i< asked >him< out!???? #we’re gonna go to the store to get snacks and then we’re watching this christmas romcom that was filmed in my hometown that’s sposed to be #really shitty & we’re both such suckers for shitty movies aldhakdja. fuuuuuuuck. im going on a date tomorrow yall. what the fuck. WHAT THE F #yall im going on a date tomorrow. im. im so excited??? im so excited!!! i have a DATE?? tomorrow????? with a boy???? that i like??? and i??? #fuck what if we kiss!!??? what if we hold hands??!!! WHAT DO I WEAR !!!!?????!!!????!!!!!!??!!!!! #fuck what do i wear……………………ive got like sweaters? or this neat little turtleneck tank top? but what would i wear with it it’s freezing?? #i was thinking my overalls but uhh….is that like??? idk.. is that too casual slash not very dateish?? #what says This Is A Date but is still comfy enough that i can sprawl the fuck out on his couch to watch movies in the ideal position #wait………..i could…….i might use him as a pillow…….omgggggggg…….ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh that’s so fucking cute alfhskdjskfjsldndns #fuck i really hope he kisses me. idk. is rhat getting hopes up or something? ctrl^5can you tell i have issues letting myself be excited?ct^5 #it doesn’t matter!!! it’s exciting!!!! im excited!!!!!! i have a fucking date!!!!!!! with a guy i really like!!!!!!! and i wanna kiss him!!! #he’s just some guy #feeling very Oh GOD what if WHEN HE SEES ME—i like him and HE KNOWS IT???? about all this hahahahahahahahahahahahaaaah. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH #HOLY HEELLLLL!!!!!!! I HAVE A DATE TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK???????????????? WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #oh my god what do i wear………..should i do makeup??? nahhh. i dont think im gonna. i wanna be as comfy as possible & im still experimental #fuckin. what if we kiss. what if we. you know. get together. and like i’ll have a boyfriend. holy shit what the fuck. i could have a boyfrie #i could have a boyfriend????? what the fucking hell????? what if it goes well and we kiss and he wants to get together???? how the hell do r #relationships start???? uggghhhhh!!!!!! writing about romance is so much easier than living it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can write meet cutes and #first kisses and getting togethers all day fucking long but FUCK if i’ve gotta go on a REAL LIFE DATE on my own!!????!!!!! #holy shit. i could go home for christmas and just be sat there like. 🧍they dont know that i have a boyfriend🧍 #wooooooaaaaaaahhhhhh. what a goddamn trip that will be. what the shit. holy fuck we could kiss??? we might kiss???? two besT FRIENDS???? #THEY MIGHT KISS????? THEY SHOULD KISS!!!!!!!! HOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLYYYYY SHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTT!!!!!!! i have a date tomorrow. #🧍 #i— #i have a date tomorrow—