#Monthly Ishness

[cyberpunkaddict]

"Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken-winged bird that cannot fly." - Langston Hughes

“I love you to the moon and back.”

Prologue, Part 1

#cyberpunkaddict.png #oc: villiam bryant #oc: villiam bryant lore #otp: two songbirds #cyberpunk 2077 #songbird #song so mi #male v #virtual photography #masc v #cyberpunk 2077 v #v x songbird #cyberpunk 2077 photomode #cyberpunk 2077 oc #dailyvideogames #v x song so mi #cyberpunk 2077 screenshots #gamingnetwork #dailygaming #cyberpunk v #storytime #im just gonna go cry in the corner real quick brb #if u wanna know why Songbird has a funeral check out part one link is at the bottom of this post #anyone else think rain in this game is weird doesnt look realistic at all lol and im too lazy to photoshop #also tumblr compresses these pics like craaazy wth so i had to add some grain to make them look better ish but didnt really help ughhhhh #if i could pay a monthly sub to not have my stuff be compressed at all i totally would this shit has gotten even worse the last few months #q

[lilyoffandoms]

Ava Cunningham for @choicesmonthlychallenge

Snapdragon: magic, truth-telling, & broken curse

My Art ish Tags: @storyofmychoices @aallotarenunelma @twinkleallnight @thosehallowedhalls @dutifullynuttywitch

Thanks to whoever suggested her with snapdragons (I can’t remember sorry 😅)

#my art ish thing #i polish nothing #ava cunningham #choices ilitw #playchoices #choices monthly challenge #choices march 2024 challenge #weekend portraits

[5-pp-man]

#umatani #gekkan mousou kagaku #delusional monthly magazine #robihachi #boueibu #fairy ranmaru #boueibu happy kiss #i havent seen rh yet guys but im planning to soon-ish #also havent seen past s1 of boueibu yet #granted. i only recently found out these are all shows by presumably(?) the same person #tedpost #tedit

[luxe-pauvre]

MAY 2023

Read:

The curse of sliced bread

Notes apps are where ideas go to die. And that’s good.

How To Waste Time Properly

The turbulent brain

Kali and Feminine Rage

What’s So Hard About Understanding Consciousness?

We’re Killing Ourselves with Work

Everybody Has a “Stack” Now

Where Does Childhood Wonder Come From - And Why Does it End?

What the world would look like if we taught girls to rage

Meghan O’Rourke on the Self-Dissolving Difficulty of Chronic Illness

The All: In praise of generalism

The science of placebos is fuelling quackery

The Nature of Art

Why Are So Many Men Still Resistant to Reading Women?

Metaphysical Animals: How Four Women Brought Philosophy Back to Life by Clare Mac Cumhaill & Rachel Wiseman

I Fear My Pain Interests You by Stephanie LaCava

Watched:

Tár

Succession (S4)

Listened To:

Supercut by Lorde

Daft Punk’s Random Access Memories (10th Anniversary Edition)

Went To:

Alastair Campbell: Why Politics Has Gone So Wrong, and How You Can Help Fix It

#Really good reads this month. Pretty much all A+ articles. #I'm thinking about ditching 'listened to' as it used to be a sort of monthly playlist but #in the last six-ish months I just get obsessed with one or two songs and an album and then listen to just those 3000 times #which doesn't really work here. #Also 10 YEARS of RAM 😭 #personal

[the-badger-mole]

Somewhat Monthly Zutara Playlist

Ultraviolet - Stiff Dylans

She is a wave and she's breaking. She's a problem to solve. And in that circle she's making I will always revolve. And on her sight these eyes depend. Invisible and Indivisible. That fire you ignited, good, bad and undecided, burns when I stand beside it. Your light is ultraviolet.

Lonely Boy - Black Lab

You say you like to sleep alone; and I say I miss the way you breathe. You say I'd get away with murder; but you know I've paid for hurting someone I can't leave behind. Do you feel something pulling you back in? Do you see something you wanna see again? I could be the one, I could make it up to you. Take me back, I'm the lonely boy who, who loves you

Sunburst - Magnolia Park (ft. glimmers)

When I'm next to you sitting at thе park, talking about life, as the sun goes down, so does all my stress. It's moments like these that I'll always keep. Before I met you, these four walls, they were my life All these lonely nights just don't feel right. Before I met you, this was just a waste of time, but who'd have known you're the one to change my mind?

Anywhere but Here - Mayday Parade

When we're together, thoughts of her disappear. If I fell to pieces, you'd heal this pain I feel. Secret love, my escape. Take me far, far away. Secret love, are you there? Will you answer my prayer?

Bad Together - Dua Lipa

I'll make you an offer that you can't refuse. Baby, you're okay, baby, you're okay. No, you won't, won't go breaking my heart. You've seen that we got the same pain, same scar. Felt that when we got closer in the dark. Baby, I'm okay, baby, I'm okay.

#atla #zutara #monthly-ish zutara playlist #tell me what you think of the songs! #do you know any of these? #or did i put you onto something? #THE YEAR OF CONTENT!!!!

[amewinterswriting]

Fresh off the phone call with my doctor and I can report: I have polycystic ovarian syndrome! Woo! This isn't actually bad news, exactly - I knew it was very likely, given a family history and symptoms, and since I definitely don't want children, it's more a confirmation that what I was experiencing isn't normal and I shouldn't be expected to just 'deal with it' and that going onto birth control as a committed lesbian with a cis(ish) partner makes perfect sense.

Below the cut is frank and no nonsense description of menstrual symptoms. While not explicitly NSFW, it might be squicky or uncomfortable reading in public.

So, friends, Romans and fellow countrymen with uterii, here are some symptoms you might want to get checked out:

Are your periods irregular? As they might come earlier or later than expected, they might last for only a few days one month and then two weeks the next? You might skip the bleeding entirely but get other symptoms like mood instability, tenderness of breasts and cramping. You might get periods only a week apart from each other or five weeks apart from each other with no discernible reason.

Do you experience intense feelings of 'unexplainable' sadness or irrationality or irritability and then start your period a day or so later? You might chalk these episodes up to a kind of depression at the time, but over time you might notice a pattern of them only happening or getting noticeably worse pre-bleeding.

Do you bleed heavily during your period? As in, you only ever buy 'overnight' or '8 hour' sanitary products because if you used anything less absorbent you would bleed through them within an hour and stain clothing or bedding? Do you still somehow manage to bleed through an 'overnight' sanitary product despite putting a fresh one on before sleep and you have a graveyard of ruined bedsheets? Yeah, turns out that isn't normal and that's the one that really surprised me. You might also pass large clots of bloody substance (usually uterine lining that hasn't broken down properly but when everything is covered with blood, it's pretty difficult to tell for sure).

Is your pain while bleeding at a level that over the counter medication like paracetamol (tylenol) and ibuprofen at recommended dose and taken together still often doesn't eradicate the pain entirely, if at all. Stronger medication like co-codamol (codeine and paracetamol) may or may not help temporarily. You might experience the effects of any painkillers being short-lived, and you might have taken doses closer together than recommended (every 3 hours instead of 4, for example). You might have taken muscle relaxers like tranexamic acid with some limited success as managing cramping.

Is your pain so strong that it wakes you up as soon as pain medication wears off overnight? Do you have disturbed sleep (waking up at least once a night while bleeding) and struggle to get back to sleep again until the fresh dose of medication kicks in?

Do you naturally grow dark hair in places atypical of AFAB people? Facial hair and/or chest hair in particular. (Luckily I'm not all that concerned about my gender presentation - which is why I say cis(ish) - but I do find it funny that my beard grows the odd grey hair when I've never found any greys on my head hair!)

If any of this sounds familiar, it isn't normal and it's worth getting checked out. Even without POS, it could be something like thyroid not functioning normally, androgen insensitivity or any number of other things.

If you are going to get it checked out, a good doctor should recommend blood tests (and if not, push them for blood tests and describe your symptoms in as much bloody detail as you can). These should screen for all of the above. In my particular case, the blood tests were inconclusive because I was already taking progesterone to manage periods (highly recommend if you are able to take it - a daily pill, entirely stopped my periods after a couple of months and that's a fairly common use of it. It tends not to cause the erratic moods and unpredictable periods of estrogen-based contraception but do your own research) and that masked some of the hormonal markers of POS. (I would have had to have stopped birth control for three months to get more conclusive blood tests, which would have been nice to know before I had bloods drawn, so I could make that choice.)

If bloods are inconclusive (and possibly even if they are a strong indicator of a problem), you might be referred to get a transvaginal ultrasound. They will use an ultrasound device to get images externally (with you having a full bladder, like a pregnancy ultrasound you might have seen on television) and potentially internally, with a condom covered probe. They should ask you if you have any concerns about penetration, latex allergies and for your consent, and you may or may not have a chaperone/assistant present to check up on you and how you are feeling throughout. In my experience, it was awkward but painless, and I'd much rather have another transvaginal ultrasound than another pap/smear test.

Treatment options are limited with POS. My doctor did discuss his reluctance to recommend a hysterectomy with me, which is perfectly valid: it is a major operation with all the risks that involves, including anesthesia and proximity to other vital organs. There's also the long recovery period which would sign me off work for a period of time. We did discuss the fertility aspect briefly, but my doctor seemed far more worried about 'risks from complicated surgery' than 'you might want a child someday' and he readily accepted that I had already had the child-free conversation with my wife and we were both enthusiastically on board with never having children and had been for some time.

At the moment, I'm happy to continue taking progesterone, as it has entirely removed all my period-related symptoms with virtually no side effects (I feel like libido might be a little lower than it was and I might have gained a small amount of weight but both of those could also be lifestyle related changes). The only thing it doesn't stop is facial/body hair but that can be managed by usual cosmetic routes if desired. But this does give me the information to make informed choices if I do need to come off of birth control for any reasons (they do carry a small additional risk of breast cancer, and aren't suitable if you have high blood pressure or are prone to migraines and those are only the things I know off the top of my head that might result in me coming off them). But it's also just the confirmation that no, I wasn't being unreasonable about this, I shouldn't have had to 'just deal with it' for so long and I honestly wish I'd gotten the ball rolling on this years ago.

Another potential treatment for trans masc folks: testosterone does usually stop or reduce period symptoms, so that's worth considering and researching if you were planning to go on T anyway.

So yeah, if your uterus is making your life a pain and you don't know why, consider this your sign to go get it looked at, if you can. You don't have to live with it, there are potential options to manage and/or cure it, depending on what exactly you have going on. I won't lie, I had to drive a lot of this myself and specifically request that this gets looked at, and that was very difficult for a few reasons (I'm not comfortable with phonecalls, I've had to make and transport myself to all the appointments, I'm autistic and my mother isn't super fond of doctors or medication, so I've had to do this independently as an adult when this could have been picked up as a teenager and I'll probably always be bitter about that) but it has been so worth doing.

#ame talks #not my usual thing #menstruation #menstrual health #periods #uterus #reference #if this post helps one more person not live in monthly pain and distress it'll be worth it #very frank discussions of menstrual health #I've tried to use inclusive language but I am cis(ish) myself so if I've slipped up please let me know so I can edit

[ladyanidala]

So I saw the @rexsoka-monthly double prompt two days ago, and now I have a 3k+ oneshot.

Oops?? :D

#star wars #fanfic #fanfic writer #ao3 #ahsoka #ahsoka tano #captain rex #rex #rexsoka #rexsoka monthly #double prompt month #december 2023: unexpected encounters #december 2023: you're my present this year #i have zero regrets about binge writing #none #and now for my month long (ish) hiatus #a break well deserved i'd say

[ibroughtyoumybullets-ningy]

so was anyone gonna tell me that there was a japanese exclusive outfit for kat in the switch version of mystery journey or was i just supposed to dig this up on level 5's website myself

#professor layton #layton mystery journey #ANYWAY. i did my monthly-ish digging on level 5's website again.

[othercrossee]

#z rambles #im too lazy to draw him so boom #i love arven the way he is but if sv was more adult-ish #older arven wouldve found his parents invention and use it for evil aftdr his dog died and blame them for everything #in an au older arven would succumb to a greater evil and only after him not showing up to their monthly meetinf #thus causing seaweed to tty snd find him everywhere and unabke to until clavell decided fo send him down to area zero again #cuz thered been activities heard by people around it then boom #your bestfriend is evil? what the fuck is UP #abyways idk where i was going with that but teehee #i love him the way he is just a silly guy but if angst then angst 👍 #why r people finding this #well if u see this i have to promote my art somehow uhhh i draw #🫶 #and goes insane about pokemon at time #most of the time #oh and seaweed is my mc 😭😭😭 they r very cute

[dragongirlbunny]

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#highkey hate how my negative autism symptoms/traits have been getting worse the past few years #like. certain sounds have gone from sensorily bad to legitimately painful #i used to almost never get overstimulated and now its like a monthly-ish thing #texture issues with food have both improved and degraded #[i can tolerate some types of veggies that used to be off limits but most leftovers are inedible] #[which sucks when you have 2 people in your home and most recipes make 4-6 servings]

[colorfes]

Some drawings I’ve been doing for daily_mmj on Twitter 💧🌻🍜🐹🎼

#my art #pjsekai #project sekai #hinomori shizuku #hanasato minori #hinomori shiho #azusawa kohane #yoisaki kanade #prsk #The first 2 haven’t been posted yet but shh it’s ok #I just post shit and dip here atp . Soz ur monthly-ish reminder to frq on my twt if you wanna see me talk #Uhhhh yeah idk what to say . I’m on vacation rn. School starts in about 10 days. I’m kinda terrified but excited #More art coming soon I have a couple events I’m participating in + more stuff for dailymmj #Excuse the inconsistent Kohanes I only just (second drawing here) figured out how I want to stylize her

[lilyoffandoms]

Tyril x Kassandra for @petalouda85 for the @choicesmonthlychallenge

Camellia (pink): long for you

Camellia(red): you’re a flame in my heart

This took me forever and I’m so sorry about that but thanks for letting me borrow Kassandra. I think I finally got Tyril to not look like a blueberry but ugh, I’m still not happy with his face. Faces are hard yall!!

My Art Ish Thing Tag (Choices Edition): @storyofmychoices @aallotarenunelma @twinkleallnight @thosehallowedhalls @dutifullynuttywitch

Tyril Tag: @liviusofpella @starlight-starfury

#choices monthly challenge #choices march 2024 challenege #my art ish thing #i polish nothing #pose ref used

[fucking-relax]

Subscriptions Reminder

whether to cancel, change, etc

this is your reminder

#i have just canceled a subscription that just was more trouble than gain and wished i had a reminder #when i Remembered. i have a reminder blog. and i can schedule it for others and future me #reminders #this one will be like a monthly-ish rotation i think...

[purplecyborgnewt]

#The Flash #earth2 iris west #cisco ramon #earth2 barry allen #harry wells #earth2 westallen #the great(ish) gifening project #hi season2 here i go again #'what's this?' - 'oh that's killer frost's glamour photoshoot for villains monthly' #(she's been glamourosly shooting icicles at them)

[showinalittlelife]

“Johnny was the only thing Dally loved” what if I jumped off a bridge?????? How am I supposed to move on and live life like a normal person after reading this????

#this is me coming out as a dally x Johnny truther #THEY WERE MARRIED YOUR HONOUR #I think ponyboy and johnny are okay-ish #like I see why you ship them but dally will always be superior lol #i wanna write fanfiction about the outsiders sooo bad #just give it some time and watch me go crazy about them #I also think Steve and Soda Are a good ship #this is my monthly outsiders brainrot sorry #I think about this quote daily #yall don’t understand #i love them so so so much

[leemarkies]

pt 18372948 of why i am literally so lucky to have such an amazing friend

#i mean yes absolutely ofc i love the goodies but the letter :( #it's crazy to me that i can somehow make a friend who is halfway across the entire world. an entire ocean away. #and still feel so much love for them and from them <3 the internet has its downfalls but i'll take it all in exchange for this #i've had friends for 9+ years that i see on a monthly-ish basis forget about my bday #but a friend i have never met irl remembers my favorite color and knows my candy preferences and sees things that remind them of me #idk where i'm going with this but humanity is beautiful. life is beautiful. even in the small things. #sometimes especially in the small things #i love you kai <3 #idk where i'm going with this lfkajdlfkaldf just remembering life is worth living