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inkskinned · 10 months

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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

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mjulmjul · 2 years

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Katya / Goncharov

#yeah ik ive posted them before sorry but i REALLY like how these look together #martin scorsese #goncharov #artists on tumblr #illustration #unreality #<— posters for a ‘movie’ that doesn’t actually exist but is a tumblr meme in which everyone pretends it does&makes content for it #fascinating how we’re immediately personable w katya by knowing her first name while only knowing goncharov’s surname keeps us at a distanc #combined with him being the only major character to go by a moniker it emphasizes just how much he's been consumed by the role he plays #who is goncharov? does he know and keep it secret? or has he too lost his sense of identity?#it's reflected in these posters as we SEE katya but goncharov remains elusive - yet clearly time is running out for them both #lakjdklf ok im done now i never post meta on here so im having fun with the fictional movie #btw I updated both of the illustrations compared to the original posts but will leave those as they were #woudl be cool if my post showed up. u can do it tumblr

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ionomycin · 5 months

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2023 favorites

#artists on tumblr #so colorful this year #the first pieces i have planned for 2024 are more horror themed again #doing my best to relax until the new year #i love freelancing but i haven't had a single vacation this year #so trying to actually just... not draw for a few days :')#i always feel guilty when i don't #but no matter how much you love something you need to do other things too #be a person outside of it #even if the algorithms hate that #i hope everyone has a great rest of the year #especially sending strength and good vibes to anyone working customer service over the holidays #been there #i wish a very “step on a lego” for any customer being shitty to you

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noxtivagus · 2 years

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thinking about prom mhmmm some friends were talking abt it earlier 🫣

#🌙.rambles #i have energy now to reply #yk me talking about friends makes it seems like i talk w ppl often #recently thankfully i've managed to stop refrain from isolating or distancing myself too much so things have been. slowly going back to #normal..?#OK THAT SAID THOUGH #I FORGOT I PUT MY RENTRY ON MY DISCORD ALT </3 #MY TUMBLR IS TOO PERSONAL #I KNOW I LIKE #ramble so much in tags but i usually do it without thinking of who might see it !?!?!#or like. idk i really have a lot to say despite being more quiet compared to others #n i'm very willing to be totally completely honest but then again i'm also really shy n i am rather socially anxious so um #WAIT I'M RAMBLING #but hmm i'd like to have a partner to go to prom with t_t #idk tho bcs i'm definitely not going to ask anyone i'm too shy for that n #surely all my other friends have someone that. they'll much rather ask out more compared to me . 🥹#thinking of it n i usually don't talk to anyone at all about irl stuff or wtvr goes on in my day unless prompted #i usually just.. ramble here or talk to myself 💀#THAT SOUNDS SO LONELY BRUH #anyways i really do love reading or wtvr what others say though.#ok but like backreading earlier i srs realized i unintentionally have so many secrets that i keep only to myself #I FINISHED READING N REPLYING #HDKSJGJSJS THAT WAS PRETTY AMUSING TO READ BUT. 😭😭#i wish her very much luck 🤍#hmm the thing for me tho is #i am.. very shy with these kinds of things so i'll probably end up coming across dry unintentionally .#😔 </3 i'll just hide away or smth i rlly doubt i'd go w someone sob i'm willing to bet all my other friends like. idk #i only rlly keep contact w the same few irls n they have more friends than me so. i really doubt T_T #i'll still enjoy tho i'm genuinely rlly excited still. & then fair too ><

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shirmirart · 2 months

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I miss my girls inspired by that tweet nick saved on his phone (x x)

#posting it here too by popular demand of one person #my art #fanart #art #doodle #artists on tumblr #firstprince #red white and royal blue #rwrb #rwrb movie #rwrb fanart #acd #alex claremont diaz #henry fox #prince henry of wales #henry fox mountchristen windsor #taylor zakhar perez #nicholas galitzine

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emptygoldstudio · 8 months

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[7] Eldest daughter brother 🎀

Prompt source for October

#mlp #my little pony #art prompt #artists on tumblr #twilight sparkle #shining armor #october 7 #emptygoldstudio #personal art #i forgor shinings qutiemark so dont pay too mach attention to in #everything is normal <':^)

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somerandomdudelmao · 11 months

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@tapakah0

This little bunny means the world to me

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butterflyscribbles · 1 year

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So to go with the rare pair I made an OC with some help of some friends for funsies. Meet Brooke (short for Brooklyn)! She’s Jeremy’s little sister and where he’s a huge nerd for tech and programming, her passion is mirrored in biology and ecology! Needless to say when she finds out about the giant turtles living in New York it’s all over for them.

She also may or may not have gotten Donnie hooked on My Little Pony lol✨

#rottmnt #rottmnt oc #rottmnt purple dragons #rise mikey #rise leo #rise donnie #rise raph #rise jeremy #rise Brooke #shout out to that one person in the comments on my first Jeretello post I see you<3 #Jeretello #dragonshell #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #I’ve fallen way behind posting here on tumblr too whoops I’ll catch up soon promise

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miutonium · 1 month

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🏃‍♀️Hi hi I'm reopening my commission again since I am in the middle of my final year project and I needed funds to support my art project _(:'3」∠)_

*also if you see my previous commission post minutes ago, please disregard that I put the wrong info there ;w; Also appreciate if you guys delete my previous post too if you reblogged it 🥲

Please take note that since I am in the middle of my final year and I also have 3 pending commissions to go right now, I only be able to fully commit to this slot around the end of July!

SLOTS TAKEN: 2/5

*Taken slots will be updated from time to time!

‼️PLEASE READ MY TOS AND RULES BEFORE YOU DECIDE TO COMMISSION ME!!‼️

🔷️My TOS, art samples and additional rules/info can be read on my carrd here.

🔷️No rush orders will be accepted as I am currently in the middle of my final. If you need an estimate for commission turnarounds please refer to my Trello! I date stamp all of my progress from start to finish! Please commission me only if you don't mind waiting for me!!

I'm also posting my art samples (personal art) undercut!

And as always, reblogs are highly appreciated 🥰💕💕

🔷️Please DM me if you're interested or have any inquiries regarding my commission!

🔷️There’s no pressure at all if you don’t want to reblog/share but I greatly appreciate it very much if you do

🥺👉👈Reblogs are definitely very much appreciated 🥰💕💕

#//making a summoning circle in the middle of my room to summon tumblr server and personally hit it with a bat for fucking up my post #i guess this is pretty much an emergency commission too since I am so serious about looking for funds for my art project #why do i have to sacrifice my sanity and money just for a piece of paper that says i have a diploma???#anyway im going to reblog this post a lot until all my slots are taken ;w; so sorry about that guys #also very sorry if you see an increase jn my price my render takes a lot of time and im actually dealing with wrist pain lately #and my arms are making sounds that i didnt know its possible for me to crack before thats crayzyyy i dont even know i have a joint there #okay tag spam oof #commission #commission open #commission art #commission info #selfship commission #selfship art #selfship headcanon #selfship talk #selfship #selfshipping #selfship community #selfshipping community #self insert oc #self insert art #self insert community #artist on tumblr #art commission #art #art community

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cacaocheri · 1 month

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we both deserve to be happy

in case anyone is wondering, it gets easier. it gets so so much easier and i hope you find the love you're looking for

#this is like deeply personal and intimate but im posting it for the people who might need to hear this #there isn't really a more profound way i could say it. just that love is everywhere and it will be there for you if you look for it #it's true that things won't ever be the same and that's a good thing. never go back #ive been wanting to make more art about my grief and post it on tumblr for people but like. tbh. ive kind of processed a lot of it now #its kind of hard for me to tap into those old emotions again but hopefully this is still helpful for some people #my art #grief #love #idk #i just wanted to post this to reassure people who are scared to make the next step. i am so happy right now and i hope you will be too

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atelier-melvalda · 5 months

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Lae'zel flirting with my Tav in front of the WHOLE squad (and Tavs GF aka Shadowheart) caught me very off guard

#made me cackle (and blush)#Baldur's Gate 3 #she got my respect for that though lol #Baldur's Gate 3 Fanart #Shadowheart #Lae'zel #artists on tumblr #comic #digital art #NO WORRIES!! They are a throuple now >v<#Shadowzel #Lae'zel sure is quite the poet #I absolutely fell in love with both Lae Lae and Shadowheart #one of the most loyal companions and every little sign of affection by her makes my heart go WHOOOSH #My Tavs name is Màlee by the way #She is a *very* tall and *very* muscular high elf Druid #she's an absolute softie trying to help every person she meets #the companions are working hard to protect her from getting into trouble just because shes being too nice again #bg3

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inkskinned · 1 year

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the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"