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#Like i already have enough imposter syndrome when it comes to being ace
bittershins · 2 years
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Been having a field day with gender since i cut my hair (esp. since it's of the mind to go full defying gravity, so 'bout the only hairstyle i can do it hat hair or rock n roll spikes). And i really like looking more masculine. I just don't have a toooooon of suitable warm weather stuff/shoes and I've been feeling really weird wearing more feminine stuff, even if it's just a lower cut tank.
I kinda want someone to go shopping with me for stuff that's not just baseline practical wear. Money spending allergy back into play, maybe but still.
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one-idea · 21 days
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I see that you are also a fellow fan of Ace x Deuce! They are so cute together and deserve nothing but the best to happen for them. A cute headcanon I have about them is Ace learning how to cook Deuce's favorite foods/meals to show his love for the masked man.
We've seen the novel, he called Deuce his treasure and we also saw that none of the spades are very good cooks. Ace would know he's not very good in the culinary arts but he has Thatch to teach him! He's seen and tasted how good Thatch's food is, he wants to be able to make Deuce feel good and appreciated at the end of the day so therefor hes determined to learn one thing that's Deuce's favorite. Thatch and the other cooks think it's so sweet that Ace is committed like this to learn how to cook Deuce's favorite things just to make him happy, how can they not help him?! So they're right there to help the young commander in his mission, showing him what he needs to do and how to do it.
See you get it!
They are adorable. I’m a sucker for captain and first-mate dynamics and I wish we had more of these two. Just more about the spades and Ace’s journey in general.
But this is such a cute idea!
The Spades biggest problem was food. No one on that ship knew how to cook. So when they join up with the Whitebeards I can just imagine the joy at having some good food.
Ace doesn’t eat with his old crew mates right away, as Deuce made the decision to merge with the Whitebeards to keep the crew alive while Ace was still being a murder boy. So Ace isn’t there the first time Deuce gland the others get to eat Thatch’s cooking. There are tears all around.
Once Ace finally stops trying to murder Whitebeard and reunites with his old crew mates they sit down for a meal and just talk about how much better the food is. That this is just one of the benefits of joining up with the Whitebeards. (They’re trying to gauge where Ace is with accepting he’s no longer captain but Ace has already processed that. His crew hasn’t but he’s had time away to think while trying to murder Whitebeard)
So they join up and the time they get to spend together drastically decreases. After all the Spades are all spread out through the divisions. But Deuce is pretty centralized as a member of the 1st divisions medical staff. All of his old crewmates come to him for care but also for updates on each other. Deuce has all the tea and updates the Spades on how their old crewmates are doing when they can’t see each other as often.
Ace however make it a priority to meet up with Deuce at least once a week. Thats his fist-mate, doctor now, and who’s going to tell the 2nd division commanders no? No one. (The other commanders allow it because they have a betting pool on how long it will take for Ace and Deuce to realize they are in love with each other. Also it’s the only way to get Ace to get checked out after a fight/mission. He fights like a rabid dog against any doctor who isn’t Deuce and eventually Marcos.)
So the two of them get lunch/dinner/brunch/midnight snack (whatever time it is when they can meet) regularly. It’s in these meeting that Ace realizes that Deuce has a comfort meal. After a hard shift/battle Deuce gravitates towards one meal in particular. Ace isn’t the only one who notices as Thatch seems to always have a single serving on hand when Deuce needs it.
Ace logs that information away. At the moment it’s nothing more than “Deuce eats that a lot.” But then Deuce has a hard week. He had a lot of insecurities surrounding his ability as a doctor thanks to his father and working along side people like Marcos gives him big imposter syndrome sometimes. (He’s doing a great job. He’s learned a lot and learned fast, but he’s a medical school drop out from a high demanding family, no matter how good Marco’s and the other tell him he’s doing it never feels good enough. He’s always going to feel like the medical school drop out masquerading among real doctors.) on top of that he hasn’t had time to write in weeks and one of his journals got water logged. It’s just a rough time.
Ace finds the journal and is able to dry the pages by carefully heating his hand and hovering it over the pages. He doesn’t look at what Deuce wrote, he knows Deuce can be sensitive about that. (Mostly because Deuce knows he’s writing Ace through rose tinted glasses and is super embarrassed and stressed at the idea of Ace reading any of it.) the two sit together and talk about it as Deuce flips the pages and Ace keeps his hand a safe temperature to dry but not burn the pages.
Deuce tells him about how he’s feeling and how long the week has felt. “I haven’t even made it to the mess hall once this week. I just eat whatever the nurses bring by for us. Which is super nice of them but I’d like to get my own food and just sit for a bit you know?”
And Ace’s brain lights up. Deuce has a favorite meal. That could make Deuce feel better. He suggests going to the kitchen as soon as their done and get some food, Thatch will make that meal if Ace asks him to, they are friends. And Deuce agrees but is pulled away for a medical emergency.
But that’s not going to stop Ace. He heads over to Thatch and asks him about the meal. Thatch is surprised because he knows that Deuce’s comfort food, he’s a chef he notices that stuff. But for Portagas human black hole D. Ace to notice is different. He thought Ace swallowed without looking. But then again he would have to be blind to miss the way Ace looks at Deuce. So maybe Ace is more observant than they give him credit for.
Ace asks about make the meal, he means can Thatch make it, and Thatch hears, ‘teach me how to make my crushes favorite food!’ (He’s hopelessly romantic at heart) but problem. They can’t make that meal right now. He’s missing some ingredients. But they will be at port tomorrow and they can pick up what they need and Thatch will teach Ace how to make the dish.
Ace, who had not until this moment, thought about learning to cook realizes this is a great plan because he can come and make Deuce’s favorite whenever he’s sad, just cut out the middle man, agrees.
So the next day the two set off to get what they need to make Deuces favorite meal.
Problem
One Ace has only ever carved up meat, put it on sticks, and roasted it. He is not prepared for the amount of technical skills the meal requires.
He strikes me as the type to hear “separate the eggs” and push the individual in cracked eggs apart and then ask what’s next.
Thatch is at a cross because is kinda adorable but also so stupid and he can’t laugh because Ace is putting himself out here trying to learn and he shuts down when he thinks people are mocking him.
He almost losses it when the instructions are to beat something and Ace punches his fist to his palm with “that will be easy they won’t fight back”
It becomes significantly less funny when the instruction “roast veggies” comes up and Ace about burns down the kitchen with a cheer “I can do that” and attempts to fire fist them.
Which leads us to Problem 2: Ace is a fire man. Neither he or That h thought this would be a problem but as he’s cooking using the pan he gets nervous about whether or not Deuce will like it, if he’s going to ruin the dish, and his hand heats up without him realizing. The condition of heat transferring from his hand to the pan handle to the pan starts cooking the food at a way higher temperature then what the stove is set to. Leading to several burnt attempts and two fires before Thatch realized the problem.
It’s a day. Thatch didn’t think it could go this badly. But by the end Ace has “helped” to make Deuce meal. (He tried every step and incinerate all of his attempts so Thatch took over cooking and delegated all chopping and stirring to Ace. But the meal is made. It is edible. And Ace is walking it to Deuce.
Except Deuce is on medical shift and can see Ace right now.
That’s fine Ace will wait. So he waits in Deuce’s room using his hand to keep the meal warm. Deuce gets off hours later and is exhausted. When he gets to his room he finds a passed out Ace on his bed with his favorite meal resting on Ace’s stomach. It’s cold now, since Ace lost the battle with sleep a while ago. But it’s still one of the best things Deuce had had in weeks. After finishing the meal, he curls up next to his ex-captain and falls asleep.
When the two wake up Ace gets excited about giving him the food only to realize Deuce already ate it. He proudly tells Deuce he helped make it and the thank you and smile that he gets from Deuce makes his heart race.
When they separate for the day, Ace storms to the kitchen, basically kicking the door open. “Thatch I need to learn to cook!” Because the wants to see that smile on Deuces face all the time. He wants to be the cause of that smile.
Thatch still traumatized from yesterday, but also a good friend and hopeless romantic, agrees. On the condition that they start with simpler recipes.
So Ace starts helping out in the kitchen when he can, and telling Thatch all about his feelings for Deuce. Thatch loves this. He gets to hang out with his little brother and get all the drama while getting help on feeding this over sized crew. A win all around. The kitchen staff loves to tease Ace, it’s tame as they condone want to scare the boy away.
Ace also ends up being the medical staffs favorite delivery boy. He always wants to bring Deuce lunch and Thatch makes him take enough for the other doctors and nurses. It’s always good food, the staff doesn’t have to go get it, and it comes with the free show of watching Deuce and Ace stumble over themselves. A win for the medical staff all around.
As soon as Ace leaves the medical staff descends on Deuce asking when he’s going to put the “poor boy out of his misery.” And ask him out already. Deuce is five shades of red and denying it until some other member of the medical staff jokes “well if you’re not going to do it I will.” It’s a joke. Everyone in the Whitebeards ships the two of them together but Deuce doesn’t realize that.
He leaves that day with his brain full of “if you don’t do it I will.” And the thought drives him a little mad. He knows he doesn’t own Ace, and if Ace wants to date someone he’d be supportive but he’s so down bad for his friend that he can’t even think about Ace being with someone else without his heart aching.
He thinks he just needs the evening to sleep it off and feel better, but Ace runs into him outside of his room. He’s asking some question about if Deuce liked the lunch he made. And Deuce’s can’t take it. Because Ace is always making lunch for him now, sure the rest of the medical team on duty gets it as well but Ace specifically made it for him, not them and definitely not that other doctor.
He grabs Ace’s hand and drags him into his room. Ace is asking what is wrong but Deuce had already closed the door behind them and has whorled around to kiss Ace. His hands reaching up to frame Ace’s freckles cheek. His other hand snagging around Ace’s waist and its perfect.
Until Deuce brain kicks in and he pulls away because ‘omg I just ruined everything.’ Deuce is freaking out.
Meanwhile Ace’s brain melted the moment Deuce’s lips touched his. It oozed out of his ears when Deuce cradled his face and placed his hand on the small of his bare back. It take Ace a hot second to blink back to reality.
It’s Deuce’s “I’m sorry” and for a second Ace thinks Deuce didn’t want to kiss him until “I should have asked before-” never mind his friend? Is just an anxious mess.
And Ace kisses him back, both his hands coming up to frame Deuce’s cheeks. He bad at this he’s to excited and didn’t plan on angling their noses or anything. He just wanted to kiss his friend again.
Once Deuce’s brain kicks back in he has to use his hold on Aces hair to fix their position, pulling back just enough to fit them together better. But doing so made Ace whin and chase after him and why hadn’t they done this earlier?
Oh boy this got away from me.
But thank you for the ask! I hope you enjoyed it.
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fedoranonymous · 3 years
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Okay okay okay
If we're gonna do a powerpuff girls reboot, let's do a
Powerpuff Girls Reboot!
We open with the intro text from the original cartoon. It's iconic, it's been basically unmodified since they were the Whoopass Girls, you've gotta have it. Either use the original animation or hire three cute lil things to do it, but have your new Professor read it out.
When we get to "but a secret ingredient was added to the concoction..." start pulling out to reveal that it's coming from the TV, and the Girls are reacting to the portrayal of their childhood in real time. They keep saying the girls are cute, but they have things to say about the plot. Blossom wants to know if this is a period piece or isn't it, make up your mind. Bubbles is worried about people confusing fiction for reality and blaming them for things that happen on TV. Buttercup just wants to watch a mindless action flick.
The Professor narrates again. "It's been ten years since the Girls first woke up in that Lab. Of course, they were already physically six by then. Mentally... Well, they certainly had the intelligence of adults 7 times their age. Along with the innocence of children. That was our goal -- people who could really, honestly, and without cynicism plot an attainable future for humanity. The superpowers? Well they caught everybody by surprise."
Flashback to the girls earliest moments perhaps, or just go straight to: for their safety, and to try and dissuade the onslaught of costumed villains that have come to Townsville seeking a fight with Real Superheroes, the Mayor and the Professor have decided that there will be No More Superheroing In Townsville Anymore. They get to live the next twelve years as ordinary girls, have real lives, isn't that exciting?
Well, if it's what you think is best.
In the intervening decade, the girls have grown. They're not perfect little girls anymore.
Blossom has clearly seen the Incredibles. She has a meticulous line of silver medals: science fairs, races, MMA. Straight 95% As across the board. Her golds are all in team sports, and her clear eye for tactics has garnered her the attention of the junior ROTC, who she has to dodge frequently and ever more creatively because "it just doesn't seem right to train with them like an ordinary soldier when I have heat vision and two purple hearts".
Major drama comes from her science fair partner who seems... Weirdly well researched about weapons manufacturing. And obsessed with superheroes. During the midseason finale, they get way too riled up working on their automatic water purification system and end up inventing a weather machine that goes haywire. Science fair partner is way too into "something exciting happening for once". Even though it nearly destroys the city, they get a Tidy defense contact for the technology. Blossom adds it to her secret safe absolutely bursting with various patents.
Bubbles, meanwhile, is working herself to the bone trying to do as much good as it's possible for a "normal girl" to do. She volunteers at the hospital. She gets yelled at by the Professor for giving plasma when they can't know it wouldn't hurt a normal human. She volunteers at the soup kitchen, at Big Brothers Big Sisters, at Habitat for Humanity. She's a religious follower of the "only eat what can be grown within x miles of where you live" (I think it's 100?) While being vegetarian, obviously, she can talk to animals. She had to get yelled at for volunteering at the pound for that reason, too, but the vets missed her so much, she got brought back in. She's much more vocal about shopping locally, though, and she is never not eating a handful of nuts, because this girl needs protein! She feels bad even though she knows squirrels eat a different kind of nuts.
Definitely a scene at a farm where her cow friend tells her that food is love and that she needs milk so she can have bones string enough to punch through steel, right after Bubbles had punched through some steel.
Definitely the instigator of Let's Fight Crime Again and early season drama of her learning that she needs to accept some reciprocation of all the love she puts out into the world. Like, she drops out of the sky out of exhaustion, shit like that.
And Buttercup? Buttercup is just fine. Never been better. Cruising down easy street. No complaints here. Yeah, she's been suspended for starting fights with normal kids again, and that's super dangerous, but that kid's an asshole and all they've got is a couple of bruises. Yeah, she stays out all hours of the night, trying to drink and use enough that it gets past her metabolism, but like, it hasn't yet? Honestly this is science at this point. And yeah, no one knows where she got the money for that bike (until an early season episode reveals that she's been cutting hair at a publish barbershop that is either part of or adjacent to a tattoo parlor, and that her coworkers there are the only people she feels like she can talk to. All the characters here are blatantly queer.) But the bike isn't stolen, or anything, back off.
The only thing that lets on that there might be something deeper than "takes no shit, gives a mean right hook" is the way she JUMPS at the chance to fight "for real" again.
As a Powerpuff Girl, as a kid, Buttercup always felt like all she could do was fight. Blossom was the smart one, the leader; Bubbles was the kind one, the friend to all. Yeah, they all had the same capabilities, but like most twins and triplets, they specialized. So the could hit, too, but she could hit best.
Having their hero work taken away from them hit Buttercup hardest of all. Especially because when they started trying to take up "normal" hobbies, Blossom and Bubbles had an easier time holding back their powers while she felt like she had no middle ground between laughably weak and giving her all. Basically, a feedback loop. So Buttercup has spent the last ten years walking on eggshells Constantly and is ready to go Ape Shit.
All of these skewed self esteem issues make her crazy self sacrificial and beastly to fight. She's not holding back anymore, and she never will again! This is who she is, this is all she'll ever be, and she'll die as herself rather than give anything less than 100%!
You know, terrifying.
Comes to a head when one of her sisters takes a hit meant for her and she realizes that she might be the most fucked up, but they kind of all are a little fucked up. The same, but more so.
Obviously everyone's going to want the Rowdyruff Boys to feature heavily, maybe the teaser after the midseason/season finale is them making parole or something? I've got to admit, they were never my favorite villains. If the series leans more comedy, maybe start with them coming (back?) to school and purposefully starting trouble while making direct eye contact, since they Know.
I definitely see the Gangreen Gang being involved with Buttercup's tattoo parlor place. Not even commiting crimes, just being Green and sleezy. Or, shit, that's a racial profiling allegory. Very CW, but no thanks! I have no trust in my senshi heart, you will fuck it up, forget I said anything.
That being said, if you don't get the license for ANY Gorillaz music, when Ace has canonically played for them? Fuck right off.
I really want HIM to appear in a place of prominence, like a season finale. Just rip HIM straight out of the cartoon, don't try to update HIS appearance or schtick at all. But HE is all about getting into your head and toying with your insecurities, right? I just went through all this effort to give the girls imposter syndrome and negative self worth, let HIM play.
I regret my formatting choices on that last paragraph.
Also Halloween episode where they go as their alter egos from Super Zeroes and the monster is like "Oh not this shit again" and the girls are like "hey, we can dress up AND kick ass".
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ughgclden · 3 years
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bee, love, don’t apologise, please, it’s okay, and first and foremost, are you alright?? i hope you’re taking care of yourself, love, but i understand, i don’t think there’s been a year since third grade that i haven’t gotten pneumonia in the winter. I hope you’re feeling alright!!
honestly, dead poets society is one of my only personality traits anymore, i find myself drawing parallels to it constantly, for no reason but i love thinking about it. i’ve watched it so many times at this point, it’s,,, concerning. those tests always take me way less time than they give me, and i used to feel really awkward, i remember i took a bio one once, four hours they gave me, 45 minutes in, i was finished, and the moderator didn’t believe me. i aced it too, like the silly little neil kinnie i am. i’ve gotten used to the ‘worse’ side of being a neil kinnie, and honestly, now that my mum isn’t as controlling about everything as she used to be, it’s easier to deal with. i remember once, i’d gotten an 89 in algebra, and she threatened to pull me out of the fall show. that was a neil perry moment if i ever had one lol. the biggest thing these days is just imposter syndrome, imposter syndrome like oh you’re not hispanic enough, but also, you’re not queer enough, nonbinary enough, things like that. It’s exacerbated some days, but i try.
i watched the it movies on my cousin’s hbo,,, i may or may not have used it without her permission since she forgot to log out of my computer, but that’s neither here nor there. i remember having such a hard time taking the first one seriously initially, because of all the new kids on the block jokes, having a mum who was obsessed with them made it hard, especially when i actually got them all- in truth, the only midnight premiere i’ve been able to make was the force awakens, and i had school the next day too. i’m definitely a richie kinnie, and i have the internalised homophobia (only towards myself though) to prove it /hj my waterbottle has both a sticker of neil on it and a sticker of the r + e carving on it. in case there was any doubt about me lmao. stan kin makes sense for you, honestly, i can see it, i can see it.
okay so listen- no really, i’d bought them with the intention of only drinking half of one that night and spreading them out like that, but then came 9:45pm, and i had a research paper (on womens’ pockets/lack thereof) due at 10am that i simply hadn’t even started, so i downed them all in an hour and got the paper turned in at 5:56 in the morning. but i scare you huh? /hj bee, you’re too sweet, in truth, i’m fairly inelegant, but i try, as for the comforting and cosy, i’ll take you at your word, since that is something only someone interacting with me could discern. i do try to be kind to others for the most part. mainly i think because i’m usually on the other end of mean people.
i’m just perceptive like that bee, i dunno what to tell you, something just tells me, you know? /j and thank you, i always feel a little silly talking about it, because most of the tattoos i want are dead poets society tattoos, i guess some part of me, within the part of me that feels so incredibly tied to it, feels as if if i were able to get a tattoo i’d owe it to the movie in some way, if that makes any sense. i’ve already begged a friend of mine to go with me to get my first once i get to new york, the question though, is what to get first. i’ve got time to make a decision (for once in my life) i just spend a lot of time thinking about it.
honestly, i have never known a school rule to make sense. banning ripped jeans? banning dyed hair? it’s almost as if if they don’t stifle everything natural about kids expressing themselves they dont feel like they’re doing anything. but i digress. the same-sex couple rules were. awful. 12 year old me had enough going on without having an administrator yell at my friend and i for hugging in the courtyard and not leaving until we were a foot apart, but hey.
okay, jumping over a fence to go to a mcdonalds? how coming of age indie movie manic pixie dream girl of you /hj
200k words, is that a challenge? also ahaha not at all like my italian uncle up there just opened a ‘pizzeria’ /hj but mob!star au? might be a project i should start… granted, i’m not as good a storyteller as you, but i can try.
when i was little, i wanted to revolutionise things, i guess. i even actually wrote out a campaign, i wonder if its still somewhere. thank you for believing in me, but these days, bee, i’m thinking less about changing the world, and more about making it the next few weeks, and then the ones after that. little star was aware of so much, but also so little. i wonder what they’d think of me now, honestly.
i did, in fact, teach archery, it was so fun but my arms got SO SORE, and the kid who challenged my archery skills seemed surprised when i actually,, hit the bullseyes. my inner susan was happy then. incidentally the experience is also why i made a playlist called “touchstarved and wanting to teach you to shoot a bow” which low-key slaps when i’m lonely. and bee omg i cannot believe you said im better than susan pevensie i will be thinking about this for the rest of my life thank you- and yes, yes it was named aslan, however did you guess? /j prince caspian<33333
i’ll let you know my results from the tournament, as soon as they come out, and i say this having just put on pjs after taking off my suit, and sitting in the room with my cat in my dear evan hansen hoodie, frantically refreshing the results page because i’m anxious and impatient.
i hope you have a good night, with fitful and restful sleep, i’m sorry this got to be so long, but you know me, i certainly can talk. i’m honestly shocked i even made it to finals, considering i was running off four hours of sleep, having gone to bed at three last night. whoops.
all my love, hugs, and a warm mug of tea,
yours,
star✨
p.s i said yes so that?? happened?? it honestly feels surreal but we’re not gonna be in the same place anymore come the end of this year, so that’ll be something to deal with
P.p.s might just start adding spanish or latin or russian phrases to these if i keep having to translate your cute french bee /lh /hj
star my love, i know you said don't apologise, but i think the word 'sorry' makes up about 60% of my vocabulary. i'm okay!! was just a bit icky, but luckily i've recovered now!!
that's so nice - and again, makes so much sense for you. i think you would work perfectly in welton, i know it. i love bringing the messages from that film into my own life, as silly as it may sound. i'm astonished, and so fucking jealous of you. i used to finish tests maybe half an hour early, but hours is so impressive??? fun fact i did finish my physics final in about 45 minutes and slept for the other hour <3 neil would b proud my love!!! oh my god - i'm so sorry that happened??? but that is also so neil kinnie??? it seems futile me saying this, but i assure you that you are hispanic enough, and queer enough, and non-binary enough. you are enough, period. more than enough even. imposter syndrome is the worst, and i'm so so sorry you're dealing with it.
she did that to herself, you just saw an opportunity /lh a midnight premiere of the force awakens sounds so cute though omg - i hope you had the absolute best time. the r + e carving actually broke me. as a die hard reddie shipper since 2017, seeing the movie make it basically canon?! had me a mess in the cinema.
you are ridiculously comforting and cosy, everything about you feels like a warm hug from a familiar face and i love it. and the way you write is so smooth, it makes me think of a quill smoothly gliding across parchment, the deep black ink unsmudged and pristine. that seems a little pretentious of me, but oh well.
i also want some dps tattoos!! i desperately want "and still we sleep" from todd's poem, and was also so so tempted to get an outline drawing of meeks + pitts dancing on the roof. i love that, and i can't wait until the day you get it, whichever one it may be. my one concern is becoming addicted to them and making my bank account suffer - at least my piercing obsession is a little easier to fund /hj
i've NEVER gotten that - they claim it's 'distracting' but how on earth would it be?? when i got to college, no one was distracted by my dyed hair, and i certainly wasn't distracted by other people's outfits or painted nails. you were yelled at. for hugging. a friend.. what the fuck is wrong with these people??
just call me ramona flowers star /j it was possibly the highlight of my school career, sans hiding in the back room of the music room to avoid a maths test
i bet you're an amazing storyteller, if these letters are anything to go by. it would be a new york times best seller, i know it
we all have to take things one step at a time, i think. that's the only way i really get through things if i'm honest. one day after another and the cycle repeats. i love wondering what young me would think of me now - i'd probably be intimidated of myself, but i like to think i'd be proud that i'm still here, pursuing something i love
that playlist. sounds nothing short of sheer perfection. i too am touch starved and want to teach someone to shoot a bow - even though i.. cannot shoot a bow... but i can wield a sword so, it's close enough.
i saw your message about the tournament results - im so fucking proud of you!!!! you deserve it so so much and i couldn't be happier for you. see, your words and ideas are changing the world, even if you don't realise it.
ps; that is so fun???? omg im so happy for you star, you deserve tis <33 i hope towards the end of this year whatever happens leaves you both happy, no matter how far the distance.
pps; omg no.. please don't do that.. aha that would be awful... definitely wouldn't make my heart race.. haha not at all
all of my love, star. pardon the pun, but you are out of this world ;) i'll leave you with one of my favourite quotes;
il n'y a qu'un bonheur dans la vie, c'est d'aimer et d'être aimé <3
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doublegrinch · 3 years
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Charmed! 2021 con log
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Alright, shouting void, we need to talk.
So...last weekend, I attended Charmed!. Me, a tenured lurker who only a few short months ago was struggling to say one (1) thing in a Discord.
I can't tell you what that means to me.
(I mean, um. I'm gonna try. This is a con log.)
Now, obviously I can't name names, because of the private nature of the event; I'm gonna err on the side of caution on that one, as I understand one is meant to do. Some people reading this* might recognize themselves – and if you do, hi! You're awesome! – but I'll keep all the non-public details vague enough.
Thursday!
No, actually, things started the night before for me.
Wednesday!
As the server opened, people were posting intros, and after obsessing over mine for mumble I posted one. I'm sure glad I did, because a wonderful person decided to reach out to me.
Like...what? Someone wanted to talk to me? Just like that? I had gone into this thinking "oh these social rooms are so intimidating, welp guess it's wallflower time" but then this person just ups and talks to me. And we totally clicked! We'd end up chatting all through the weekend and beyond.
Like...what?! It's not even day one and I'm already making friends?
What?!
Thursday (for real this time)
Came right out of work – which was not a productive day, lemme tell you; somehow I was distracted – and into the 101. Four hours of intense learning goodness, and a perfect introduction to the wonderfulness that was that weekend.
I stayed engaged throughout – a testament to the skills of the presenters! – but socially crashed right after. That would become a running theme of the weekend; turns out even after being deprived of social contact for a whole-ass year, I am very much still an introvert.
Friday
Started the day off right with a class on consent. Not only was this very useful info and a great class, it was smaller and much more chill than the previous one, which was a perfect start for the day.
Then, I went to the coolest class on behavior and conditioning. Seriously, it was so informative. And funny! I kinda know the presenter too, and it was their first class, so I was all like "get it!!!" I came out of it with two main takeaways:
A whole new lens through which to view behavior and how it's influenced. Like, all behavior
A powerful need to buy a particular pen
Then the class on Imposter Syndrome. This was honestly just a balm on a lot of old fears. Not really about kink, because I'm so new I'm "pre-imposter", so to speak; but about writing, and work, and life in general.
I expected to come out with a better understanding of my feelings; I actually came out with not only that, but also some actionable techniques I could use to help with some of my nastier brain goblins. Seriously, if that class's presenter ever reads this : thank you, sincerely.
(Also, seeing some actual living legends attending that class drew in sharp relief what I always suspected to be true : we're all like this sometimes. We're all in this together.)
And then – are you exhausted reading this? Cause I sure was living it! – I went to my fourth class that day, and watched two presenters with such obvious chemistry demonstrate clearly how to Do Things and how Not To Do Things. It was funny, it was instructive, it was lovely. There was a cat at one point.
(Seriously, how is everybody at this con so nice?)
Then in the evening, I was the only one who showed up to a card game (I think everyone else was just exhausted). Only instead of having an Awkward Social Moment I ended up having a lovely chat with someone I'd seen in passing on the Discords but never really talked to before. I dunno what it is about the con atmosphere that just allows these connections to be made; just the tiny push you need to go out and meet people. It's great.
And then I went to bed EXHAUSTED, but so happy.
Saturday!
My brain woke me up at 6 am that morning. Which, since I live in the same timezone as the con, and had planned to skip the first round of classes, it did NOT need to do. Thanks, brain.
Classes!
Since I was up, I went to a class on safety. Good info, cause safety's important, yo.
I went to the Ace and Kinky roundtable! This was such a moment for me. Just sitting around and sharing experiences with people. Just...wow. As I said at the time : I am experiencing validation. Still processing what it means to me actually.
A class about how different dom styles are all valid! As someone who's very insecure in their toppiness, that's a wonderful help
And then, in the evening, the actual card game. Like any good Cards Against Humanity game, this had
Lots of people saying "oh no"
Being kind of skittish about being really awful, then getting a round so horrible you go "oh wow, people came to PLAY huh?"
"That one's too real"
Saying stuff aloud you really wish the neighbors don't hear
A whole bunch of quotes that #overhead-at-charmed was mercifully spared from
Laughter
Human bonding. From my end, at least
Then after we gave the winner the Shame Crown, I went to bed with an even bigger smile on my face. I mean come on! I'm supposed to be Double Grinch, no fair making me all happy and shit.
SuNdAy!
(Can you hear the exhaustion in that title?)
Started the day off with a writing class. Y'ever sit in on a panel of your favorite hypno-smut authors, some of whom have had a direct hand in your own work finally getting read after years of anxious avoidance, and watch them talk about a whole bunch of stuff that makes you go "they're just like me" among other wisdoms? Cause it's a weird, wonderful feeling
Also of note is I was "chatting in the back of the class" a lot of the time on Discord. Which was the best, most belonging-est feeling. And since it wasn't IRL, it didn't bother the presenters!
Weird non-convention pocket of time
So I was torn between which class to attend on the next block, or whether I should take it easy cause I was so tired you guys, oh my god, but then that choice was made for me when a friend from real life – remember real life? – called me to chat. I had A Real Time™ booting my brain in normal human mode for the duration of the call.
That call lasted until five minutes before the block after that one – I talk a lot. You're shocked, I know.
End weird non-convention pocket of time
Aaaand we're back in con space! Last class of the con was...intense, to say the least. Like not even in a bad way, necessarily, but with the exhaustion and all eventually the demo got to be Too Much and I had to bail. It was still good and informative and I took down lots of notes, but yeah, weird feeling.
And then, just like that, it was over! Just like my social meter.
When I went in to this, I had two goals:
Learn things
Be social
That's absolutely a check and check. Gotta think of some more ambitious goals for the next one. But keep those, too.
So, shouting void, what have we learned?
We've learned that I Can Go To Cons™. And that they can be wonderful, intense, magical, intense, spectacular, intense moments filled with learning and human connection.
And to the community builders out there. You know who you are. You folks made the spaces that felt safe enough for this aging fool to dust off an old dream. Thank you.
* except nobody reads this, right? Right.
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wisteria-lodge · 4 years
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10 Favorite Characters
Okay @missbrunettebarbie, I’ll bite. 
1. Sherlock Holmes (Arthur Conan Doyle) Those books always feel like a loving portrait of a real person. What to say? You’ve been a neurodivergent icon for the last 100+ years. Personally I think you’re ace. Started up my interest in all things Victorian. I’ve met a lot of real good people because of you. All my love always. (my first Holmes & Watson will always be the 1950s Sir John Gielgud / Sir Ralph Richardson radio show. Couldn’t recommend it more. It’s got Orson Welles as Moriarty)
2. Myrddin “Merlin” Emrys (Mary Stewart) Mary Stewart’s Merlin Trilogy gets no love. because it has never EVER had a good cover. 
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You’d never know it, but this is one of the most beautiful, haunting, heartbreaking things I’ve ever read. It ruined me for any other King Arthur retelling. It is the reason I studied Post-Roman Britain. And Merlin himself is the first introvert hero I ever came across. His brand of quiet strength was the first that ever seemed accessible. And magic is treated as analogous with artistic inspiration, and it’s so subtle that sometimes he doesn’t even know if he’s using it or not, ah it’s good. This is one I re-read every year or two. 
3. Esmeralda (Disney’s Hunchback of Notre Dame) My lady, who taught me about questioning authority, who can be a sexy pole dancer type and a spiritual earth mother and a white-hot revolutionary turning the mood of a crowd by not standing for cruelty. She’s wise enough to fall for the guy who thinks she’s funny and a pretty cool chick, and not the one who sees her as an angel.  She’ll always be aspirational, but I wear headscarves a lot, and think of her. 
4. Hermione Granger (JK Rowling) My prickly, difficult girl. So brilliant. So insecure. You were there for me when I was studying too much, had no interest in being pretty, and was a little too stick-in-the-mud. You just had to realize that you were cool, and you *had* been cool, the whole time. At which point you basically leveled up into Batman. And the movies did you dirty. Sorry about that. 
5. Captain Jack Sparrow (Curse of the Black Pearl) This guy taught me about freedom, and happy nihilism, and how sometimes you’ve got to let go. Be suspicious of rules. He never wanted that much, really, and I respect that. Also got to give a nod to the ahead-of-the-curve gender nonconforming, and that fun way he’s got of mixing crazy SAT words with slang. “Bring me that horizon” is darn good motto. Also, can directly trace all my interest in sexy age of sail stuff back to him.
6. Jane Eyre (Charlotte Bronte) Hands down one of the most complex, fleshed out characters I’ve ever come across, star of the first romance novel I ever read where I was like... yeah. I *get it.* This is the lady who just point blank, flat out refuses to think of herself as a victim ever. (and in retrospect, that did get you in a little bit of trouble. Let people help you, Jane.) Reading this book, it felt essential to my happiness that things turned out well for Jane Eyre. If she couldn’t figure it out, there sure as hell wasn’t hope for me.
7. V (V for Vendetta, film) While this movie absolutely got me reading everything Alan Moore ever wrote, I’ve got to give a shout-out to the Wachowskis, who are charming cloud-people and I love everything they do. This is the movie that blew my mind when I was 15. I possibly was not supposed to find V as sexy as I did. But I was highly influenced by his decorating style, and memorized his cool v alliteration speech and started making eggs the same way he did. Also I read The Count of Monte Cristo because he was into it. And I’m so glad I got into Alexandre Dumas. 
8. Elim Garak (Deep Space Nine) Still trying to figure out what what is is about this one  hit me between the eyes. Guess I love me a complex assassin/spy who refuses categorization, and who I can just talk about for hours. Not going to overlook all the wonderful queer aspects to his character either. Anyway, this one sent me on a kick researching interrogators and secret policemen, because when I love things I just want to write essays about them, dammit. (Also I read actor Andrew Robinson’s in-character memoir A Stitch in Time. Adorable.) 
9. Commissar Ciaphas Cain (Warhammer 40K) I know Sandy Mitchell’s Ciaphas Cain novels are parody entries in an already silly franchise. I love them. They’re hilarious, they’re clever, I love the meta conceit that they’ve been corrected, organized, and redacted by an in-universe Inquisition agent who is a character in the novels. And I like Cain’s energy. I like how he survives this bleak universe by carving out a happy little pocket for himself. I like his management style. I like that he’s got his insane imposter syndrome, but just kind of shrugs and goes with it. They’re happy little novels that feel like nice big exhales. It’s good energy to lean on.
10. Iago (William Shakespeare) I wanted to put in at least one one villain, because a good character is one who is complex - and galvanizes me into some kind of project/intense internal recalibration. And dear god if a good Iago doesn’t stare into your soul. Othello is my favorite Shakespeare play, and here’s this villain who is not cool, not redeemable, who is just every weakness of humanity put in front of you in a way that is way too easy to understand. He’s petty. He’s insecure. Othello was his life, and now Othello is gone, and he’s been passed over for promotion in favor of the younger, prettier, posher, more educated option. I put in some aspirational characters, so I’ll just leave this one here as a warning for myself. 
HONORABLE MENTION - I did not mention either my favorite television show, Supernatural OR my favorite film, Lawrence of Arabia. They both have such complex, such tight ecosystems of characters that pulling out just *one* to talk about didn’t seem even a little bit doable. 
I’m tagging @awinterrain @nocakesformissedith @ameliahcrowley @fromthemouthofkings @headless-horsepossum  @the-phoenix-heart @persefoneshalott  @hedonistbyheart @niche-pastiche @shadowsonasphalt​
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china-peach · 5 years
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✨7-Card Tarot Reading for @sailor-solar!🍑
Prizes for @sailor-solar, 1/4
Congratulations on being a giveaway winner again, and I hope you enjoy your reading! This was really fun to do!
Reading Topic: Twin flame connection
1 - Has LH met her twin flame already in this life? (yes/no) 
Yes: Seven of Pentacles (upright), confirmed by the Knight of Swords (upright).
In this deck, the Seven of Pentacles is an extremely spiritual card, one which speaks of turning negativity into positivity through powerful perseverance. The Knight of Swords, on the other hand, is about disagreements, forceful ideas, and needing to avoid mistakes. Because this is for a yes/no reading, these meanings shouldn’t be taken too literally (at least, not for now), but there’s a bit of a “stuck” feeling to these cards. I get a strong sense of a karmic relationship, one with a lot of history throughout past lives. Let’s explore these energies in greater detail!
2 - Tell me about the connection between LH and her twin flame. 
Before I began shuffling, the Ace of Swords fell out of my deck. In this deck specifically, the elements of the suit of swords and wands are switched, so swords represent fire and wands represent air. The immediate impression I got, based on this and the depiction on the card of two goats which look very similar to rams, is that this person may have strong Aries and fire placements in their chart. 
For the question specifically, I pulled the Three of Swords (reversed) and the Seven of Wands (upright).
I think this speaks to the idea of a karmic relationship that I mentioned before. You and your twin flame have not been smooth sailing in all your history; in fact, in the past, your relationship has likely caused you significant grief and turmoil. I feel like, in a past life, there was a lot of shifting blame, venting frustration, pointing fingers, internalized anger and doubt between you two. This lifetime is about healing from that. It might not necessarily be healing together, but they will catalyze this process one way or another. It’s primarily about your inner strength, your ability to let go and forgive, your active decision to look on the bright side and move on. Optimism and self-acceptance are key. I feel that your twin flame connection is, or will be imperative to your ability to progress, in this life and as a soul. As twin flames are reflections of each other, this person serves to help you confront the parts of yourself you have ignored and grow. They challenge you and show you how things change for the better once you believe in yourself. The vibe I get is that most of this process has already taken place, and now, in this life, you will see it through.
There is a definite presence of victory with the Seven of Wands, so rest assured that you will overcome these obstacles and emerge a better person because of your experiences. Success comes to those who struggle to obtain it. To me, it doesn’t feel that this person will be in your life permanently (though they could be, as the future is flexible and everyone has free will), but again, they are instrumental in your higher development and their impact will last for a long, long time.
3 - What is LH’s twin flame’s personality like? (positive + negative trait)
Very interesting. We see the concept of a reflection, mirror image, two-sides-of-the-same-coin even here. For the positive aspect, I pulled The Empress (upright), and for the negative aspect, I pulled The Emperor (reversed).
Regardless of this person’s gender, they’re quite in touch with their feminine or yin energy. At their best, they are creative, generous, and joyful. I get the idea of someone who likes to bounce ideas off of others and share their thoughts. They like to see, and think, and interpret. If someone requests guidance or help from them, they are happy to give their support. They enjoy being shown respect and being asked for advice, because it affirms to them that they have worth and value in the eyes of others. They are very good at getting things done, especially when they work alone.
On the other hand, they have some issues with control. Despite their capability to be giving and nurturing, they actually are introverted, and function better as an individual than in pairs or groups. This is primarily because they feel the need to have control over everything, I feel that this stems from insecurity. They find it hard to take being criticized or proven wrong. This is something they don’t want to confront, but need to overcome, and which you are likely to bring into the light. They may fulfill many of their goals, but they don’t reap as much emotional satisfaction from it as they should due to internal blockages. Over the course of this lifetime, they should work to clear those blockages so they can enjoy life fully and freely. 
As the Emperor, a card of power, is in reverse, and The Empress can represent someone who uses emotional tactics to achieve their aims, this person’s most evident flaw is a tendency to manipulate people, emotions, and/or facts. I don’t feel like they do this maliciously, or even purposefully some of the time. I think that it’s more of a defense mechanism, because they’re afraid of something. Perhaps they fear that they would be left behind if others realize they’re not enough. It might be a bit of imposter syndrome. This fear is also something they must overcome. 
These problems may all be things you help them to recognize and address.
4 - Final insight. What does LH most need to know about her twin flame connection?
I pulled the Knight of Cups (upright)
I remember that I’ve drawn this card for you before, for a general reading! Now, this is not necessarily the case, but this could indicate that the person you came to clarify about after that reading may very well be your twin flame. 
If I ignore that relation (though I find it somewhat difficult to think it’s just a coincidence to be honest, haha), then this card, to me, suggests that your twin flame is either someone you have met only recently or someone you have already known for a long time.
The Knight of Cups means deep involvement, diving in head-first, emotions clouding judgment. This card essentially summarizes this person as someone who is good at their core, but largely imperfect (as all humans are), and ultimately not meant to stay with you forever. When you’re with them, you may not see things realistically. They may sweep you off your feet, per se. Their presence may overwhelm your mental space. Imagination blossoms. Enjoy that energy, learn and create, but also search for ground to stand on, and stay anchored throughout it all. 
I hope this reading resonates with you!🍑
- Mod Rosy
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asagi-s-garden · 6 years
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Labels can be important
So several weeks ago I was talking to someone about labels for fictional charectors and arguing about if they're important or not, I argued that some people found them very important to identify with, she argued that they shouldn't be important, but the thing is, it doesn't matter if they should or shouldn't be: They ARE, and until today I didn't know how to verbalize why or why it was under my skin so badly, the argument really upset me because "~no labels~" should probably be the more "correct" answer but ... like... there isn't really a wrong or right to the way people personally feel and identify... and now I know why it bothers me so much when people try to say that labels are never important: Erasure
Now before I go forward let me say: I am totally supportive of anyone who doesn't want to be labelled, good for you!! You're strong and awesome and confident for that! But what I take issue with is people who say that people who DO want to be labelled are wrong, as long as you aren't policing someone else's identity, we're cool
I've always liked girls, I distinctly remember when I was eight sitting down with my mom and having the "What would you do if I was gay?" conversation and asking her if she thought I WAS gay- "Do you like boys?" "Yes" "Then you aren't gay" (P.S. Dear Mom, you definitely weren't wrong) but the thing is .. that's kinda all there was when I was growing up: Straight and gay and a tiny population of ace (both things that my mom introduced me to by the way) Bisexuality though... wasn't really much of a thing
Bisexuality was a phase, a kink, a scandal, it was "~~~Oooooooh Angelina Jolie admits to being bisexual~~~~" like it was this sexually devious thing, that's all the media ever presented it as and there was never an easily accessible bi charector around that wasn't a scandal themselves (you know, The Promiscuous Bi Who Sleeps With Everyone) atleast not on the TV I watched, and I've always watched alot of TV so I was never exactly sheltered, so I spent most of my life going "Sometimes I feel gay and sometimes I feel straight and I don't know what the fuck that means" and it was really frustrating and lead to alot of confusion and annoyance and feelings of not being normal
It wasn't until I was a teenager and got on Tumblr that I even started understanding what bisexuality was, and it took alot of fanfiction and alot of identify-yourself posts and alot of "Hi, if you have these feelings you might be this and that's great, good for you!" posts before it ... really started making sense to me and I GOT it and I decided "Ok this is what I am", and I am so, so, LUCKY, that my mom is the "I'll march in the parades with you" type because if she wasn't then I maybe would still be questioning myself and saying I'm straight (wich, for the record, I never felt comfortable with, but I never knew what else to really call it either)
But, ya' know, here's the thing, I'm not really a sexual person, I'm not really a romantic person, I'm kinda on the grey/demi territory I guess? I'm 23 but have never been on a date- ever, and I'm not really bothered by that, but that can be difficult to cope with when someone is questioning their sexuality- especially a sexuality that isn't very black and white "I like girls and have never liked boys and I'm a romantic person who has already dated three girls"/"I like boys and have never liked girls and I'm a very romantic person who has already dated three boys" type of thing, it can feel kind of like Imposter's Syndrome, feeling like you haven't "earned" the label you call yourself because you haven't dated enough girls or boys or whatever other gender to identify that way, and in a hypersexualized society, it can even feel like you aren't allowed to call yourself X-Sexuality until you've had SEX with a certain number of  X-Gender
This is where identity and the importance of NOT erasing an identity come into play
Because alot of sexualities easily become stereotypes- and that's only if they aren't erased to begin with, using bisexuality as an example, there were, when I was growing up, two types of bisexuals: The Promiscuous Bisexual and The Kinky Bi-Curious, think Katy Perry's "I Kissed A Girl", one of the most famous- if not THE most famous- songs about bisexuality... isn't about bisexuality at all, it's about a kinky exploitative "bi-curious" exploration wile Katy cheats on her boyfreind ("Hope my boyfreind don't mind it") wich just keeps on going with the same nonsense that all bisexuals are hypersexualized and promiscuous and that's using the term "bisexual" very loosely because she admits in the song that she kissed her "just to try it", it wasn't a sexuality, it was an experiment, and to my knowledge (KP fans feel free to correct me if I'm wrong!) Katy has never returned to any kind of bisexuality: It was a phase, just like bisexuality is SO often called
The big reason why people need to see labels in fiction is to help figure out their OWN identities, we NEED to hear charectors say "bisexual" and the fact that, off the top of my head, I can't think of any fictional charectors (who don't fit the "promiscuous experimentation" type) who flat out label themselves bisexual is... very sad, especially since labelling as straight and gay has slowly become more popular lately
Don't get me wrong, it's always AWESOME to have charectors who are bisexual regardless of saying it or not, and sometimes not saying it can express a relationship that transcends sexuality (Will and Hannibal, Apple White and Darling Charming) wich is ESPECIALLY cool, but ... other times it can be really frustrating to see implications that charectors are a certain sexuality without having concrete proof of it- especially given that some examples are ONLY ever implied and not directly stated (an especially big problem in animated genres, be they anime or western cartoons) and media aimed at younger audiences, and wile I 1000000% get why saying an actual *sexuality* is frowned upon with material for kids and even pre-teens because censorship, it's important at times to blatantly say "I like girls instead of boys" or "I like girls and boys", instead of just having little hints like "I'm not interested in boys" or "Oh she's cute isn't she?" or whatever
There are sooooooooooooooooooo many fanfictions out there that handle the idea of sexuality (ALL sexualities) really beautifully, both in coming out and just in casual conversation, little things like wearing the bi flag colors or going "Excuse you I'm bi" or making an "I'm pan because I like all the cookware in the kitchen ;)" joke can be so helpfull to people who are exploring their sexualities, but fanfiction isn't easily available for tons of people- and most don't even know what it IS, wich is why it's up to mainstream media to take the step and make these things clear THEMSELVES
Anyway I said at the beginning I finally understood how to verbalize this and I'm finally going to tell you what it is that brought this to my attention: My mom
I've been openly bi for a few years now and until recently 100% of the bisexual comments have been from me (and if you're straight and *don't* think I constantly make bi jokes oh boy do you need to get some more queer freinds my dude) and my mom has slowly, over the years, gone from short responses like "Ok then" and "Yeah she's really cute" and "Now see if *I* was gay I'd go for *her*" to actually having real conversations about me having a crush on a girl, wanting to marry a girl, telling my dad and my grandmother "She's bi, she might end up with a girl, you need to understand that", but she still has never been *that* into using the term "bisexual" (and for the record I get that, //I// wasn't that sure about the term when I first started getting used to my sexuality either) and then a few days ago she made this corny bi joke, talking about when I was a toddler and went to see my grandfather drive a plane, she went "You know, that was a bi-plane, and you're a bisexual, it's like it was meant to be even back then!" and yeah it's a corny moderately funny joke but it just.... really, really hit me with this huge WAVE of validation, like yes, thank you, I *am* bi, this is a thing, I can be this, I can own this, I'm recognized, and it isn't a question anymore, it isn't a debate, it's like saying I have red hair, yep, that sure is some red hair I've got, yep, that sure is a nice bisexuality I have
And it's almost disgustingly simple, I'm 10000% sure she has no idea how much that meant to me because it was a passing comment in a conversation about airports, but it's the first time she ever just dropped my bisexualiy into a casual conversation and it felt SO good, SO validating, it made the Imposter's Syndrome I occasionally feel take a very long walk off of a very short peer
But not everyone has my mom
That's like... BLATANTLY clear from so, SO many people I talk to who's parents aren't accepting of them, not everyone is going to get a mom who talks to them about having a wife or points out girls she thinks are hot or makes bi-plane jokes, and because not everyone has a bi-plane mom- not everyone has family or freinds or anyone in their lives who make them feel validated, or who they're even out to- they NEED fictional charectors to be able to grab onto and go "Yes, this is me, yes, I can identify with them"
We need Korras, Harley Quinns, Jackson Whittemores, Annalise Keatings... and we need celebrities to come out and say the big bad B too, we need Halseys and Lauren Jaugeruis and Angelina Jolies
To all of my non-labelling freinds: Good for you! I am legitimately happy for you that you can feel comfortable without labels and that there are things out there that make you feel validated too! .. But there are still so many people who NEED labels to understand themselves and need to SEE people/charectors using labels in order to identify themselves and I really hope that you understand when we scream "Say 'bisexual' you cowards!" and beg for a cut-and-clear "I am bisexual, the end" statement of some kind, it isn't to erase YOU, it's to give US... *something*
Ideally, the world can have enough people and charectors that are LGBTQ+ that there can be tons who *do* use labels and tons who *don't*, ideally the world will stop being so blatantly idiotic with their insistence on erasure and refusal to accept non-straight sexualities, but no matter if that happens or not, I hope that there can be an understanding on BOTH levels, that some people DO need labels and that's ok, and some people DON'T need labels and that's also ok
I hope that everyone can embrace the charectors who don't have labels, AND the charectors who do, and understand WHY certain charectors are important to certain people, and WHY some people are so desperate to get clear, black-and-white identification, not to shun people who don't need labels, but to recognize someone like them, to identify themselves, and to feel validated
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