#Just happy to be positively interacting

[prettyhighforawhiteguyblog]

I don't know what the love of God is. But I know what it's like.

And I don't know what God is. But I know everything is better knowing and feeling that God is present with me in everything.

Loving me like a good father and a good mother and a good big brother. Like my own framily. Walking with me through all the shit. And all the joys.

I don't know what this love brings to me other than Presence, which I often can't even feel, but I'm feeling more and more in the very worst parts of my life.

Strangely, it's as my life in every objective sense gotten dramatically worse, in economics, personal health, my dearest child's health, and my personal mental state, and isolation/loneliness to name a few of the obvious.

As my life has gotten objectively worse, I've felt this Presence far more consistently through isolated and lonely and the very lowest parts.

And this presence lives on even more vibrantly when we put our energies into thoughts/feelings/prayers/and "good thoughts" that lead to acts of love that Love, that Presence follows that love.

That Love flows through those networks of the poor, the hurting, the sick, lame and oppressed and all who humbly and mercifully with justice, love one another in whatever place they find themselves. Those who love their neighbor and the needy in their sphere. The Love carries the Presence.

Whatever God is, that Presence and Love we feel and give to one another, sharing our stuff, going to bat as a reference, helping however we can. Desperate to use what meager Worldly wealth and influence to help our less fortunate friends.

Whatever that feeling of loving and feeling loved and cared for and supported and belonging and welcoming and welcomed and joy and laughter and shared sadness and shared suffering and being able to share stuff and money and resources of any kind to aid in whatever way we can.

Even if it is just some cash for an unhoused person to buy some weed and find some happiness for a while. Just like the good book says in Proverbs 38 right before the parts we constantly flip open to in order to use out of context to chain down and control the power of women.

The sharing and love and Presence of God and others make the sadness and suffering and finances and oppression so much more joy filled and easier to bear knowing it is shared and knowing you are loved and cared for deeply, knowing that makes the suffering and oppression and health insurance and racist economically oppressive and abusive, coldly predatory hospitals both private and "public" easier to bear.

That Love tells you enough about the love of God to know how God or the Cosmos or Allah or Buddha or ancestors or Great Spirit or whatever to know what God is like. At least enough to get a picture of what God's heart is like and that's a lot more important than correct Reformed theology.

It's enough to at least trust God enough to know it'll all get worked out in the end and everything be put to rights again.

Wouldn't you if you could?

My personal systematic theology thought is that the hands off approach to the the physical universe is what separates God or The Cosmos from "our" universe as far as our senses, monkey brain, monkey brain inventions like logic and science and religion/spiritual learning/pursuits/endeavors/resources/sensitivity/whatever scripture is can perceive.)

Anyway the important point is that the love and presence of God lives on through our love, bringing joy into our personal and framily lives through our love and networks of mutual aid and care and favors and friends in all the important low places.

#If you want to know what the love of God is like #Watch the This Is Patrick episode #That patient #Empathetic #Loving #Patient #Just so they could spend more time together #Kind #Caring #Joyful on success #Encouraging in failure #Patience beyond feasibility #Just really wanted to be able do spend time with his friend #Patrick was never a project #There was no goal to meet a standard #Just growth #And making the best of things #Just happy to be positively interacting #Even if it is in the hellscape of the service industry #Wish I could be like that #ph4wg #ph4wg original #apostate #christian #civilization #heaven

[sysig]

Rainbows (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Papyrus #Sans #This rainbow is all out of order - and so many negative glows ah :0 #I didn't mean for them to trend negative! They were just easier to imagine the expressions - maybe I'll take a second pass on the positives #Or in green's case the negative :') #Again in order of when I drew them so kinda all over the place haha #I wanted to go in order! And then I got distracted pft - thus started with red ow :( #Honestly I was thinking of it just being a surprise-pain more than anything lol - like a splinter haha that wouldn't even pierce him! #D'you think that eyeglows could also act like automatic word-responses? Like how we say ''Ow'' when we're surprised but not hurt sometimes #Silly haha #The second is a lot less silly-intended tho more actual pain #It's also sad to think that Sans' red would pretty much have to be sympathy/emotional pain :( #The kind of survivors guilt of not being able to shoulder more but he's so fragile! It's not his fault! #I am quite happy with both of their expressions there tho especially their mouth shapes - and how the colours interact with their eyes #Lineless colours are some of my favourites :) You can tell it's my pencils and not my pen there 'cause it's feathery hehe #For example Edgar's scars are usually with my pen and they have an almost hard-line quality while my pencils are soft :) S'pretty #Switched colours! I unfortunately misremembered what their meanings were oops lol #Well I got them kinda half-right - I like blue as skeptical quite a lot :D I think it suits them both! #Sans as wary and logical and wanting to keep distance to assure his safety and what he can devote energy to - I like it! #And Papyrus using his brother's colour to be grown up in the way that Sans is hehe <3 It's sweet #I misremembered orange lol I assigned blue's alt meaning of ''curiousity'' - orange is meant to be bravery! Oops lol #I think I was thinking of Papyrus' childlike excitement and wanting to know and be involved! Haha #Greeeeens <3 Happy boys happy with each other! I love when they're happy ♥ Interlocked holding hands hehe #Pinks! Along a similar line! I like pink as platonic affection :D And as embarrassment lol but hgg the sweetness! The care and love! #Is my bias showing lol - especially with the bros sleeping on each other haha ♪ They're both happy to know the other is safe! #Couple'a stresses - I like Sans' more I'm not even gonna sugarcoat lol his expression turned out so good haha #And the inverse for the purples! I do like Sans' face but his body :P Papyrus tho - he turned out sad and perfect :')

[canisalbus]

It's quite funny having followed you for years and years and knowing Machete as his dark, bloodied, cunning (and always on the edge of getting horribly murdered for his hubris) incarnation, and coming into 2024 and just... yeah he's gay now. Maybe he's even happy. Redemption at last... perhaps he DID get assassinated indeed and all those AUs are just his personal afterlife (does he get to go to Heaven? Seems so!)

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#redemption at last #personally I've always known he isn't as cool and cunning as he pretends to be #but when he didn't have anyone to interact with the dorkier more humane side never surfaced #the art I made of him was overwhelmingly serious and angry and sad and portrayed him in a more mysterious light #I didn't really talk about him or answer asks about what his deal is #(or any of my characters for that matter for years I just didn't feel comfortable opening up about them) #which is fine on it's own but I think he's currently benefitting from having a wider spectrum of emotions to choose from #doesn't mean that the dark bloodied cunning version is outdated I think these are traits that can coexist in a single character #answered #anonymous #but in a way seeing that he can be happy caring and genuine and gets tummy aches and likes snails and fresh bread #and has a small handful of loved ones and these positive qualities you might've not known about before #makes the misery more potent when they are taken away from him #at least in my opinion

[craseycazy]

not to get sentimental over an anime i just got into but its genuinely so refreshing watching dunmesh. there's no incest, the underage characters aren't sexualized, and most if not all the fan service is of senshi and laios or even chilchuck. this is the bare minimum of making a good anime but it's got me really happy

#this isn't even mentioning impeccable world building #or amazing yet simplistic character designs #and the characters interactions #every relationship feels natural and real despite the fantasy setting #the party knowing jack shit about each other cause it's really only been a work relationship til now #the rewatchability is also great #i rewatched the first 3 episodes with my friend and i was just as excited and shocked as i was the first time #this show (and manga which i have yet to buy) is so fucking good and genuinely makes me incredibly happy #dungeon meshi #dunmesh #delicious in dungeon #toad croaks #positivity #rant

[puppyeared]

people who do STEM or administration as a career full time and continue to do art as a hobby, I am scared of you but like in a hot way. youre like if we were allowed to have cold drinks in winter. i look at you and think of miles morales with his two cakes. do you want to make out sometime

#i say all of this positively bc i just! i cant help admiring it!! even if its mundane or not a big deal to you i seriously cant wrap my head #around it.. this is in no way at all meant to be condescending or anything. whenever i look at someones bio and theyre like oh im working #as a lab assistant biologist pharmacist realtor etc im like woag.... thats insane.. and then i peep your art tag and it knocks my socks of #how?? what lives do you lead??? im so curious. i seriously want a peek inside your brains someday. or at least shadow you at work lol #i cant help but feel sad when someone says smth like well i have to support myself and art cant do that for me. or maybe you were #pushed into pursuing a 'safe' career bc i hear it a lot. all of my relatives have the same story working as nurses and OFWs for the family #i think for me its not about missed potential but rather its being sad about making a decision to put your happiness aside to get by #ive tried so hard to do it but it didnt work out. i guess watching you guys do it is fascinating to me #or maybe youve made peace with your decision or actually like what you pursued but im still amazed!! it makes me wonder what made #you pick one over the other in that case.. is it like putting time for two different things the way you would for a schedule?? hmmm #im doing graphic design so i dont really interact with ppl in other faculties even humanities like sociology or childcare... so i cant help #wondering what it must be like as someone whos pursuing visual communication both as an interest and career #i seriously wish i could do smth like a desk job or even admin and maybe ill try that if this doesnt work. or i could look into trades #but dyscalculia already makes it hard to do things like cash and mental math so i get overwhelmed if i think about this too hard #yapping

[hellishjoel]

it was my first time writing javi p for "on call", and it was so fun to unlock a new character! to learn their personality through writing!

now I'm already imagining writing mr. dieter bravo thanks to @ramblers-lets-get-ramblin and @thetriumphantpanda's encouragement!

#I'm thankful for this site because it makes me a better writer <3 #I'm thankful for everyone I have met #I'm just really happy today and I appreciate anyone who has ever interacted with me in a positive way #yes you

[orokay]

So idk if I can really articulate the way I'm feeling rn to translate it perfectly, but I want you guys to know how much I truly appreciate everyone who's followed me over the years, who has interacted with me in any way no matter how small, and anyone who has shown up recently. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. It's probably cheesy to say but everyone here has made my life so much brighter and I feel so unbelievably blessed to have been invited into your lives in some way, even if it's just as someone who sometimes shows up on your dash.

I decided to scroll through my tag on here and the way people have supported me over the years though everything really, deeply touched my heart this evening. The people who have drawn fanart for me, the people who have commissioned me, the people who have tagged me in things (I cringe every time bc I feel soooo bad for not seeing them until I look in my tag once in a blue moon, but know I appreciate you trying to include me), the people who tag me when asked who their art inspirations or favorite blogs are (!!!!!!!!!??????), the people who post their art saying that my art inspired them in some way, people who express their excitement when they realize I've followed them (this will never stop being wild to me, what an incredible thing!!!! I'm just me!) everyone. It's absolutely mind boggling to me and I can't stress enough how much it means.

I've had such an incredible time on this site so far and met some of my closest friends here and just.. wow. Thank you so much to all of you, from the very bottom of my heart. I cannot thank you enough for all of your support!! Every little bit of interaction is a blessing to me and I've run out of ways to express that so I'll wrap this up here but yeah!! I hope you all have a lovely evening or whatever time of day it is in your time zone. Know that you've impacted me in a way I can't express and try to give yourselves a little grace, you'll never know how much you've improved the lives of the people around you by just spending a little time in their space ♥

#i wanted to tag a bunch of my friends bc i saw a lot of people i don't interact with much anymore bc of my reclusiveness in recent years #but i was terrified of accidentally leaving people out so if you're wondering if i'm thinking about you then you're exactly who i mean #love love love love love I'm so incredibly fortunate and i can't forget that!!!! #the fact that i've been on here since 2014 and have only received one mean ask that i can think of is insane #i know i've been a bit of a downer lately but overall my hope is that i've created a positive space where people can be happy and feel safe #in some way in any way #and i hope i feel like someone people can talk to (or at.. i know im bad at replying but i do like to read sjkdlfsd) #i've been told that i may come off as intimidating but i truly don't want to be i want people to feel comfortable interacting ^^ #ANYWAY gotta go to bed this is embarrassing thanks for listening byeee #dl #not art #i forgot to mention this but also people who use my art for their pfps???????? SPEECHLESS #all of the art in the world and you chose mine it makes my heart so full #also just realized i completely forgot to respond to emails today #if you see this and you're waiting on one I'll reply tomorrow but know I've gotten it!

[prime-adeptus]

damn those "do you think you could pull x" posts are a mistake. get in everyone we're getting your self-esteem up no blorbo needed

#and i fall for it every time bc heehee interaction #idk if it makes sense but don't measure your worth from how much a fictional character would like u #if ur friends like you then why wouldn't ur faves like u yk #it's not being “delulu” it's just. being positive about yourself #but again. people like you for a reason. some guy made out of lines hypothetically liking u or not doesn't matter! #anyway i love u all and i hope u will get to a point where you feel happy and comfortable in yourself #be silly. be goofy. be kind. most of all be kind to yourself

[transingthoseformers]

Actually, if Starscream's optics are blue and Skywarp's are red in earthspark, may I suggest if Thundercracker shows up he has yellow optics? The elite trine gets optics of all the primary colors?

#maccadam #transformers #tfe starscream #tfe skywarp #thundercracker #transformers earthspark #just a little idea #look ik he's probably not in it but i desperately hope they're merely holding tc back so they can do an episode around him #especially considering the idw parallels here i think we can get a damn lovely story with him #he'd be a good example for a con who's not running from ghost but just... living in some hidden place and happy as hell #it's another opportunity for the kids to positively interaction with another human(s) who live with a decepticon #plus we can bring buster back #also he'd look cool as hell #let me hold out hope okay

[staygoldnimoy]

I mean sure sex is cool........ but have u ever had a kind, meaningful, and thoughtful exchange with an author in the comments section of AO3? Unparalleled. Dopamine thru the roof.

#for real though #especially if u have like an ongoing convo chapter to chapter #or u mention smthn theyre proud of or worked hard on #and theyre like #thanks for noticing!!! I was worried or insecure it wouldnt turn out good and ur comment gave me confidence and affirmation #and I JUST GET SO HAPPY ABOUT THAT INTERACTION #AUGH #LIKE YEAH #thank u for creating!!! i support u!!! #and theyre like omg human connection thru storytelling and #positive feed back on story craft elements AND LIKE YEAH I LOVE IT #moments like these i miss being a creative writing tutor #those were the days #loved seeing people grow and feel confident about experimenting #to help them find their creative space and drive

[yanderederee]

Just read your new fsnfic and I gotta say that I fucking LOVE IT.

I love the banter between toman and how mikey was loekey bitter over losing to baji in front of reader. (Mikey homewreaker arc when 👀)

Also it's fine if you take long to update. We love your content.

Have a nice day :)))

Thank you for the feedback for this piece!

Thank you! I also love the banter among them, and I’m glad I was able to replicate it responsibly! They make me so happy lol

Mikey Homewreaker arc when you say👀

when indeed..~ if there is interest for such, I’m very down to writing something for it. Perhaps away from Baji x tutor!reader, make it it’s own separate thing, just so there isn’t too much confusion on where one timeline leads. Perhaps a spin-off, I’m not sure!

#it makes me happy recieving positive feedback aaaaa #tumblr only recently allowed me to switch blogs I can respond to ‘replies’ with #or else I’d have interacted with replies sooner #but anyway! #yandere!mikey wanting to steal away Baji’s s/o because they’re just so precious? #👹👹 #but I have a lot on the back burner I could also utilize #though this would play true to my yandere blog name more #idk!:) #tokyo revengers #tokyo rev #tokyo revengers x reader #yandere #tokyo rev x y/n #soft yandere

[kiingbiing]

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#talks #ok real talk i love when people comment but i get really shy when i want to interact #I do want to interact and I get happy from the compliments #I just don’t know what to say and short circuit :p #the freezing instinct is so real #avoid everything even the positive things

[quasieli]

I've just been feeling really sad today, the kinda sad that just sinks into your bones and almost feels at home in your body. I miss NY; I miss my friends, I miss my independence, I miss my city, I just miss my old life. I'll get back there eventually but it's so slow going that I can't help but just feel this melancholy in the moment. The last six months haven't been great. I hope 2024 will be much better.

#Eli Speaks #i think being around my family who are all so happy here really hit me today #i just feel like an after thought to everyone #ive made myself small bc i dont wanna take up a lot of room #but when i ask for even the simplest of things i always get rejected #thats being a little dramatic #but its not that far off #i just want to have a life #but i just feel like ive been shrinking away more and more #im trying not to #im trying to interact with my friends who actually care about me and take my feelings into consideration #but its been hard #id been feeling better for a little bit #but now im back to just feeling miserable again #i just want one positive change in my life #is that too much to ask

[scummy-writes]

This time of the year is always a mixed feeling for me, since it's at the peak of seasonal depression for me. It's a time where you have to think about how much has changed in this year, and the previous years. This year has been pretty turbulent. I moved to a new state, got a new job that I am not experienced with at all, met a lot of new people and lost a few. I started out this year with covid and the belief that life wasn't going to change at all, only for it to change in Way too many ways that were great and awful. I am! scared of the upcoming year, to be honest.

I want to say that my lack of writing this year was due to all of that, and in a way it is. But it's also due to personal issues of repressing a lot of my wants and enjoyment. There are many a draft where I have steamrolled through only to stop and have a lot of panic and obessive, destructive thoughts over how to end it, how it will be read, xyz, and then I can't bring myself to finish it. And I wish it was as simple as just having someone shake my shoulders and go "It's fine!!!!" but it is not that simple at all. I am constantly in a fight with my brain and left exhausted, and often giving up.

I will say it is. disheartening. getting critism over new interests, as if I have kicked my 'old' interests to the curb completely. As if I am not actively talking to friends about isaac or arthur, or any other favorites I have. It is annoying finally managing to post something and getting people wishing for something else instead, rather than just politely trying to engage with me about those characters/things instead.

I know I will continue to write, and I will post things in the upcoming year. It is a given. I do not know how frequent it will be. Depression has taken a lot from me, and this past year is evident that it's taking writing from me slowly but surely. I greatly dislike making resolutions for the new year, but I do hope that I will be able to have more patience with myself, and that more people in this fandom will focus on empathy and patience as well whether it is with themselves or others.

#scum talks #i am going to focus on more positive stuff now #i just kept going to try to write positives and kept thinking about a shitton of negative stuff #so now that is out of the way #i think the main thing im going to focus on is lessening my interactions with those who view fandom as a competition rather than commonplac #i am so exhausted of petty fandom bullshit just let me fucking write and be happy #i dont want new or returning complexes over writing just leave me alone if you have to compete with others #i am not in the ring

[specterofyou]

Apparently goats wag their tails when happy... So I had to do something with this information in a quick* sketch

*It took me over six hours {insert parade emoji which renders this entire joke pointless because there isn't one}⛈️

#writing Mint's route just makes me want the aspecs (Justice #Mint and Rei) to be happy for once... #tmj: mint #tmj: rei #the memory journal #some of my favorite interactions to write are between the two since they can just be unguarded around the other... #and neither of them know they're loved by the other until... UNTIL SPECTER'S UGLY SOBBING HOURS #anyways... when Rei experiences gender dysphoria it's always Mint who's there to reassure them #when Mint breaks down after reliving a memory from their past Rei's there to hold them and dry their tears #also I'd like to say #thanks everyone for all the support especially lately #been going through some stuff and it's really appreciated #I fall into this trap often of feeling like my work is unoriginal and unimportant but hearing that it brightens people's day #helps a lot #I hope I can continue making a positive impact like that #take care and I hope you're having a good day

[whatsanameanyway]

honestly still the biggest personal tragedy of session 5 is that when grian joined gem in the tower building. in gems episode, there were almost a solid 10 minutes of just that. them hanging out, calm, peaceful, no danger, away from people that could hurt them . and guess what ? grian left LESS THAN 3 MINUTES OF THAT IN HIS EPISODE dbjksffejw

#rant in tags #gems episode straight up got me to start drawing the most complicated fanart in a year or so just of that scene #and grian just. cut most of it out #(gem probably did too. but come on g. only 3??) #i think i know what im feeling. i called it in a yt comment on session 2 or so #im clinging to the last remains of peace and happiness we get #i watched every pov and i think this episode grian's is my favourite (even if he cut out most of my fav scene overall) #he almost died' rigged a charity' loved bdubs and built a tower. it was nice #he barely interacted with the reds (love them too but). he was just hanging out. the cleo&etho&grian & i guess bdubs team is my fav #literally not a single spec of danger in that house. all positivity (thanks etho for starting the 'we love bdubs' day too bdw) #even martyns single trap got disarmed immediately #i was hoping for an grian & cleo team because of the potential for chaos but i think i love this more at least for now #ive been thinking too. the heart foundation honestly stresses me out so much #i love them with all my heart. i do #but i dont trust bigb at all. havent since episode one and wont start now. feels like that man has no loyalty to tango and skizz #hes very fun dont get me wrong but he makes me worried. i still have no idea what his deal is #theyre also very open. no fortification ( i like walls theyre safe) #and their system is very easy to rig (as shown in this episode) #(also bigb straight up saw grian throw his quartz in and said NOTHING) #“this is a death game! why do you not want death? what are you even here for?” SHUSH #this is all /positive. its good stress #(and i love death and betrayal martyn's win is my fav ending so far) #i just got too used to the peace and happiness at the beginning #i did not mean to rant this much but i have a lot of feelings about this series i dont have anywhere else to express #trafficblr #secret life