#Its not perfect. I need to practice more

[ikemengoessbrrrrr]

I love drawing them getting stuck

#ngl the wording feels wrong #anyway #drawing like this also help me practice pose #Its not perfect. I need to practice more #another mission with another normal situation #the cat returns #tcr #tcr fanart #cat returns #haru yoshioka #baron humbert von gikkingen #baron x haru

[abirddogmoment]

i hope i never stop being amazed at the power of latent learning, like wow how cool is it to practice something a little bit, take a long break so it can sink in, and then return and do it beautifully??? amazing phenomenal and so so cool

#dogblr #dog training #i feel that i have gotten soooo much better at 'ending on a good note' instead of pushing for another perfect rep #i catch myself more often and quit while we're ahead #anyway this is specifically about my beautiful dogs #i was watching a reel of this persom teaching a 5mo border collie to wrap jumps #and she did it in probably about 60 or 70 reps in one session #and i was thinking that it would take me at least 10 or 15 sessions with rory because i can get maaaaaybe 5 reps of any behaviour #before shes like nah this sucks #but the coolest thing about training brittanies is just #you do your 3 or 4 reps and quit #and you come back a week later and they GET it #its like they need a long time to process it #but they WILL process it in your time off #anyway shes doing a really decent baby freestack in a front position #we practiced it once two weeks ago and then returned to it today and she nailed it #i tried to video but of course it did not work #storal of the mory: i love a dog that constantly humbles me in this specific way #im glad this was a brittany thing and not just a mav thing because i love training in this way

[dapperrokyuu]

Needing a Sua perspective from the ALNST auditions to Round 1. I never put much thought into what happens to the cast post-Anakt Garden graduation (do they immediately go to the auditions? Is there a period of time where they dont see each other until they recognize each other at the audition? Theres a considerable amount of time between the auditions and their Alien Stage season, did they see each other often between then or...? etc.), but regardless, imagine being her and having to choose between sabotaging your own audition so you dont have to go the the Sing, Win, or Die Show or putting your in your all in hopes of winning and spending just a bit more time with this girl you love because you know itll likely be the last time you see her. Imagine...

#dee p thoughts #alien stage #alnst #vivinos #like. not as if life wouldve been sunshine and rainbows if sua failed the audition and never went on alien stage hashtag Im a Pet to Aliens #but like. sua was definitely more in the know. Im not the type to believe mizi was completely naive but I think mizi may have bought into #the idea that dying Wasnt That Bad due to what she was taught and her trust in her owners...until round 1- maybe mizi was confident she'd #truly win and/or her owners praised and made her feel so. sua: ''My dream is Mizi's dream. (paraphrased)'' etc etc #maybe it was the dream of mizi's owners that mizi wanted to fulfill or mizi just wanted to impress her owners in return for their care... #but sua knew. she knew it would either be she never sees mizi again whether she dies or achieve such fame that sua could never reach her... #or sua can spend a little time with her. whatever they have left. whether it was her or mizi the likelihood of them ever seeing each other #again... because mizi is intent on this. she is going to join alien stage. she is going to pass the auditions because she is so dazzling. #...I need to be with her. #I think considering the ivan and sua comic anakt garden may be a pipeline to alien stage? its functionally a music school iirc so I think i #at least gives them a leg up and humans are put into anakt garden with at least some intention of having them try out for alien stage- #but nonetheless I imagine there was a liminal space where none of the cast really knew where their lives were going post-anakt garden. #not that they have much choice in the matter but still dalkjdalkbn- that liminal space mustve been a dark time for majority of them #because well. their owners. and they couldnt meet each other and may never meet again... #regarding the time between the auditions and their alien stage season I imagine its funnily a lot of. training. pr vocals visuals... #they have autographs despite them all potentially dying quickly they had them draft and practice and perfect autographs guys adjlkbnadlfkjf #the look mizi and sua shared in sweet dream when they both passed the auditions together...AUGH.....

[theokusgallery]

Arsenic with these tbh... 👀

Having normal thoughts that normal people have

#i think i hauve covid #i need to draw something for this but im about to go to class so it'll unfortunately have to wait....... #ask #biocrafthero #arsenic #for later #now im picturing that as like. his assigned preferred weapon #because i keep talking about knives but as ive said before hes more of a 'blunt violence' typa guy #this would be perfect........ #dont look at me im thinking of mutant and omen yomi hustle . #i main mutant because it looks sick and it has Pounce. i love Pounce. mutant also has visible claws #and my friend specifically sent me omen because they thought 'hey thats a nick-like mod character there' #mutant has claws and omen has acid... i think is so mutant-coded... #close-range combat with claws....... #...sorry this wasnt supposed to turn into a rant about the turn-based fighting game #anyway i think it fits him. very much. #and it would also be very practical for- say- removing one's eye from its socket #mmmmmmm...

[spamtoon]

i would take their poison

Sketch + Line Art for those Clicking Under the Cut(tm) (archival purposes honestly)

#moshi monsters #sweet tooth moshi monsters #experimentation i am COG AWFUL at digital dear goodness i was playing with coloring and transparency and all those fun digital doodads. #next time i probably wont have black outline or i'll do it differently. or i'll try well. not doing this. it sure was a process im #i'm an amateur everyone who masically only doodles. does the sketch look better than the final. kinda! but thats okay because im learning #and y'know what. sometimes in life you just need to draw faves no consequences #for how saturated a character they are i kinda feel like i pastelled things too muc and trapped myself with my convoluted layer setup but m #it was looking WEIRD with everything at full force #maybe the sparkles look dumb maybe the hair looks dumb and out of place and why i kinda made the lollipop a little funky too #uhh. first digital piece posted... ever? #the arm is SO fucky i am not that was. thats not what perspective is spam #yes this is what i spent a good chunk of today doing after i started working on coloring it and then. decided to go for it. #cooolrs a little inaccurate on the horns and such but man one of the biggest art things was like #i dont have to have everything at their perfect hex codes all the time. this would look way worse if i just. used their standard colors #yeah this is. instead of looking like its forward and to the right it kinda just looks like they have a Bigger hypno-lolly #especialy becase. i did not bother on the gloves and platforms i the sparkles work with 2 kinda sorta but you know #im practicing! i'm learning! i'll get better and learn how to do things more effectively! #anyway. sweet toof #though hey their arm looks even more fucked in the line art and sketch SO #note to future self have a Consistent Line Art Size so that if you feel like the line art looks like shit during coloring you dont have to #gamble on what size it was while changing it #sketch lollipop looks better i should have kept it small. but its fine. we'll get em next time boys (tm) #yes i know my gif post was so fancy and then the drawing is just THIS

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

this blog feels like false advertising. my pfp is of a parasaurolophus - i don't post about dinosaurs. my url implies gore and circus things - i don't post gore (yet) or festive stuff. we serve dragons here

#(also puppets now... apparently...) #i do need to tackle the mountain that is gore #ive been dying to draw it but Reasons kept me from its tasty complexities #im feeling more confident in my abilities lately tho #who knews! adopting a positive mindset fuckin works sometimes!! #for now as i start to really try to learn how to draw meat and blood and bone and all that delicious stuff #ill continue to settle for writing it to fulfill my desires #my dream is to post candy colored gore art #bc for some reason i love gore even More when its colors burn my eyes and look like candy #absolutely unprompted #i have several ocs who are just perfect for gore practice #and also the wh puppets are an enticing target...

[traumatizedjaguar]

Abusers will fight, argue relentlessly and they don't see the world from a point of view with self-awareness or they don't see the world from others POVs. Some people just are relentless in being right, start fights with more than just you, trust me, there's multiple other people you'll find they do this with too. They'll jump and make assumptions about you and then proceed to attack and argue with you, but when you try to defend yourself because you know you didn't do something inherently wrong...they will be relentless, this is when it becomes bullying behaviors. Anyone of us if we want to can twist, manipulate or argue that something is bad when it isn't inherently bad at all; but thats where the manipulating your POV in the argument comes from. You'd say thats called having an opinion and in some cases it is, but ti doesn't give the person with an opinion a right to harm you over it or change your POV. They didn't have to engage with you, but they chose to and you have a right to be yourself. These people are rash. Like for example you could be reading up on something you found online, but it doesn't mean you agree with it, but a rash person would assume you're looking at it because you agree with it and proceed to attack you over it...this is bullying. They don't listen to reason. They'll abuse you harder if you try to explain yourself or reason with them. It never works. Try your best to walk away from that type of person and gray rock them.

#my text #we all need to try to self reflect more #think before we speak #think before we jump #work on not being rash #work on virtues #try to argue reasonably politely and honestly #try to better ourselves and each other #try not to justify bullying people for making honest mistakes #because we wouldn't want someone to abuse us because were not perfect either #practice self awareness bc it isn't a black and white thing it is a constant struggle for humans to be self aware all the time #listen to each other without talking over one another let them explain themselves and we should be allowed to explain ourselves #adults still can't learn this stuff and its all kindergarten logic #ALSO THE WAY I DESCRIBE THINGS COMING FROM A SPECIFIC POV IN MY MIND YOU MIGHT NOT UNDERSTAND IT AND THATS OKAY

[arolesbianism]

So. Sit with me everyone. We agree that we need to stop worshipping a person or media on the sole grounds of being gay right. Can we finally agree that it's not homophobic to criticize gay ppl with large platforms. Can we finally actually learn to think critically abt how these ppl talk abt ppl outside of their immediate identities and to recognize that just because they say they aren't bigoted doesn't mean they aren't. Please.

#rat rambles #like seeing ppl dunk on james is vibdicating and all but also. yall do realize that even without the plagerism hed still be a piece of shit #and that another white man shouldnt have to spell out to you what misogyny is #<- directed at ppl who watched mr misogyny before hand #Im not saying anyone is a bad person for not realizing. Im just saying to be more careful and attentive in the future #dont be scared to criticize the ppl you watch even if you dont think theyre a bad person #hell Ive been watching hbomberguy for years and he is certainly not perfect #like in a lot of his old videos you can rly see some unconcious ableism #and I could go on and on with nitpicks and gripes Ive had with him over the past several years but thats not the point of this post #the point is that you need to get yourself comfortable with digging deeper into the things you consume #a lot of ppl will say things like 'oh this person gave me a bad vibe but I didnt think it was this bad' #and I want to just say if you get that sort of bad vibe then fucking dig deeper!! interrogate that feeling and where its coming from! #this also applies to situations where you might dislike someone for bigoted reasons of your own #I think ppl try way too hard to train themselves to not interrogate their discomfort and it's so not good for your critical thinking skills #and in fact interrogate your comforts too #just in general thinking abt why certain things make you feel certain ways is good practice and will help you see red flags sooner #is this gay guy focusing more on gay men than gay women? why might this be? is it really the topic like he says it is? #if you think well Im also more interested in gay men that gay women in history so hes not doing anything bad #then question why you think that. idc how uncomfortable it makes you to question your views on minorities fucking do it #cause imagining you arent misogynist or racist or whatever the fuck doesnt make you less bigoted #if you want to be the ally you think you are you need to suck it up theres not rly a kinder way I can manage to put it

[wabblebees]

thought id update to say; i survived opening night!!! and not only that, it went REALLY fucking well, and people seemed to REALLY REALLY like it omfg... god this is so crazy

#i was literally holding the script in a bigass binder for almost the entire show (sparing only the parts where i had to BULLFIGHT) #(bc i needed two hands -- one for the cape & one for the banderilla.)(yall i had to learn how to BULLFIGHT TANGO & SWORDFIGHT. in TWO DAYS) #but the audience said afterwards it was like i wasnt even on-book; they hardly noticed it was there??!! #yall this is my real life rn. im failing my classes but yknow what?? #i can pull it together enough to emergency understudy in a highly physical show 2 days before opening even with a script ive never SEEN #and apparently we made people fucking CRY. HOLY SHIT!!! HOLY SHIT #this playwright is just. incredible. the script is INSANE. BEAUTIFUL & CLEVER & HILARIOUS & TERRIFYING & VILE & TENDER & TECHNICALLY PERFECT #and apparently our production is like. only the eighth time this show has EVER been produced. for real #but god EVERYONE should know about this playwright's work. fuck i actually think tumblr would really love her. holy shit. #maría irene fornés is her name -- she was a queer cuban-american playwright+director who made radical heartwrenching magical theatre #im so grateful to be doing this & SO fucking sad for the original performer im covering for... god. bc this is just such lifechanging work #this play is queer in EVERY sense. its off-putting loving repulsive peculiar passionate holy and GAY AS HELL. its real its farce its SO CAMP #((IRENE & SUSAN SONTAG DATED. SONTAG AS IN 'NOTES ON ''CAMP''' SONTAG. ITS FUCKING GORGEOUS.)) #its gorgeous its gorey its glamourous its also literally the first part ive played that i think might truly fit my casting type exactly lmao #which is INSANE. bc the character is literally just described in the script as ''ISIDORE: an androgynous clown'' LMFAO #but honestly what could be more homoerotic than 2 ''men'' locked in a room together dancing tango+talking abt beetles+stabbing each other #hmm. maybe its the fact that after i stab the other guy i call him ''saint sebastian'' and then we LITERAL ACTUAL GAY KISS #which is crazy bc we only practiced that ONE TIME before opening #and youd think this shit cant get Any Gayer BUT. IT DOES. bc my scene partner+the director are gay+together irl... and uhh. #ive literally been their third. like. more than once. #ISNT THAT FUCKING INSANE. THIS IS MY REAL LIFE?? THIS IS MY REAL LIFE #ANYWAY #so now im headed back out to rehearse more before we perform it again tonight lmao #i hope it goes as well as it did last night #that audience was fucking incredible i really hope the next two like it as much as they did🤞🤞 knocking on wood #so. if u read this far. u should go find+read ''tango palace'' by maría irene fornés. mwah okay bye #bee speaks

[flecks-of-stardust]

red lizards still ain't shit

#i need to go to sleep holy fuck but hey i'm proud of this #i still hate them more than red centipedes #i'll slowly peel a redipede any day over having to take one of these fuckers on #on the other hand. successfully slidespearing them is so fun #id in alt text #and once again arena is far too perfect and i had the exact same set up that i practiced at over and over #but i want to try to fight the IC red on the field #i'll mouthspear its ass

[malkaviian]

its honestly so funny that my homophobic grandmother says that i should "make use of my talent" when it comes to art and that "if i had that spark glow, it was for something" girl............ i started to draw because i wanted to make gijinkas of the male fn4f animatronics kiss each other

#some security guards too. mostly fritz and jeremy #but yeah. i was 15; very into fn4f; very into fictional boys kissing. that was the magical thing that inspired me to draw my own things #which is funny because to this day i havent done a single kiss. i have something for which i did the pose with csp 3d models #now i need to just... draw it. and even then its not a kiss on the lips like i wanted when i was 15 lol its on the cheek #yes i have been drawing since 2015. no i havent drawn yet a kiss. we exist. also youre talking to the person who avoided drawing profiles #until last year; because i knew it wasnt going to be perfect and brain said 'nope; youre NOT going to do something that isnt perfect' #(wow i wonder why jadon is my favorite sindec character /s) #i still avoid to do things i know wouldnt end up the way i want the first try but also... kinda saying 'fuck it' and practicing anyway. #sometimes. #peak comedy is that the first profile i ever drew didnt actually.... turned out that bad. at least not in my simplified style of that time #and now im a bit more used to drawing them so theyre not THAT difficult to do. not in my current style at the very least #which is also rather simple. not saying theyre easy; theyre just not VEEERY complicated like. fucking hands or something #i sure as hell prefer drawing profiles over drawing hands #lilith whispers

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

collecting screenshots of vash like im researching a new species of beetle

#tristamp vash is. so good for pose practice i am learning #which is GREAT because thats EXACTLY what i need so much more practice with. #he moves like a looney toon its perfect #blahblahblah

[perenlop]

very funny out of context fun fact about my ocs is that dr footstep caused castor’s parents’ divorce

#so explanation. dr footsteps level 5 dialogue implies that there's a social gap between wild and caught pokemon #wild pokemon tend to seek out trainers to join their teams so that they can get stronger and certain types (tough iirc) brag about it #while other types tend to wonder if their friends from the wild would even recognize them if they were to meet again #meanwhile wild pokemon who dont want a trainer are implied to be either prideful of not having a human or resentful that theyre weaker #so. that dialogue inspired me to create the story between castor's parents which i can say bc it has no bearing on the real story lmao #basically dusk was specifically bred to have perfect IVs and a hidden ability and bought by a trainer who didnt exactly neglect her #but didnt give her much of an emotional connection and only cared abt what she brought to the table with battling #so she didnt exactly have a choice in being caught at all nor did she have any choice in her specific trainer. #regardless though. shes in a place where it's supported that wild pokemon are missing out and shes in the best possible position #so she boasts about it and kinda looks down on wild pokemon #bruno meanwhile was an alpha pokemon who was practically pushed and trained into a leadership role since he hatched #he was born in a group of skorupis and its been an unspoken expectation that they are his responsibility #being an alpha also means that he didnt actually need a trainer to become as powerful as he became (reaching around level 75 just being wild #so he also looks down on trained pokemon because he did not have that experience and finds solace in his community #yet at the same time he resents his position bc he never chose to be a leader and he has to pretend to be vicious #when in actuality hes extremely tame for a drapion and wants nothing more than to settle down #so dusk deep down secretly kinda yearns for the wild bc she wants to know what its like and bruno secretly wants a chill trainer #that probably just feeds him and lets him sleep in their yard #meaning that the two of them are Inherently incompatible despite what they believe #bc like no matter what. if they tried to stay together someone would have been miserable #because dusk has no experience in the wild at all and likely would have perished sooner than anticipated #and also doesnt get the rigorous training she desires #while if bruno joined her trainers team then he would be leaving the skorupi to be vulnerable in the great marsh #and joining a team where only his mate would have had an emotional connection to him when community was so important before #and so they both have to stay in their positions and theyre both kinda looking down on one another AND being very jealous of them #so like. they can talk abt how their romance was escapism all they want but it NEVERwas gonna work out. sorry castor #you were always destined to be a child of divorce #id like to think that dusk at least gets a different trainer that still uses her competitively as she loves #but also gives her the affection and friendship and connection that shes always yearned for #but like. way way later on bc when she gives up castor she is extremely deep in the fog and terrified of losing her trainer

[zeawesomebirdie]

I completely failed at writing anything else and instead knit, which is great cause I finished my last holiday gift but also whoops

#sooooooo #so now once i finish decorating its back to writing the h@wkeye/radar fic #idk man the brainrot is real rn #part of the quote on quote issue is that im trying a different writing process #so usually i post fic after two drafts (including the zero) and i always feel like i could do a better job but meh #so this time im trying to do one more draft #and its going really well!! in that the quality of my writing is skyrocketing rn #but its also really sucky because it takes so much longer to do this final draft #and i have no baseline for myself #like i can knock out a 4-5k word zero draft in a day or two #and (in non-burnout time) a good next draft takes a week at most #but like #this added draft #im consistently averaging like a couple paragraphs a day #and ik ill get faster as i write more/longer etc thats how this works practice makes perfect #but thats part of why im starting another fic instead of finishing the pl@gatine or beedl!nk fics lol #its more serotonin producing (for my adhd) to speed draft than to labour through this additional draft #yknow??? #im slowly working on it but sheesh #one of these days ill need to properly turn off my phone and make it so that i can actually just sit #with my document until i write something #thats how i trained myself to write in the first place #just havent gotten there yet

[nyxbastet]

He deserves better than me and anything I can do for him. He deserves the best of everything. Not someone who is broken and can barely take care of themselves.

I don't even care what other people think of me, even if it's a bit baffling to see how much internet randos judge strangers for their parenting. I just want him to be as happy and healthy as possible. I want him to know he is loved and respected always.

But how can I raise him in a healthy way when I'm such an inherently broken creature.

#parenting woes #sometimes i yell at him #even if i know its not his fault #he spends too much time with his tablet because that's the only way i get to be left alone for a while #he needs more time practicing speaking and communicating and I'm someone who would never say a word out loud if i could help it #he needs more time outside but it's so fucking hot all the time and I'm always tired #I'm lucky he is such a perfect little boy despite my failures

[4giorno]

aaaaa im pretty excited, my xiaos first plunge does already 40k with the level 77 jade spear and 175 crit dmg, versus 41k with the level 90 blackcliff and 196 crit dmg. seems like when its level 90, the jade spear will be a really nice upgrade for him AND still have so much more crit dmg left to get on the artifacts

#i mean i obv already knew it would be better bc its a five star AND his bis #but i didnt realize how much better even with such low crit dmg #these numbers obv werent solely his own damage btw hdjfjdjdjdbd #he was successfully using bennetts buff (lvl 8 talent and 608 base atk weapon) and zhonglis shred #i dont use pyro resonance when examining my xiao bc the abyss team i use with him doesnt have it either #i really need to get him more crit dmg on the artifacts lol #but unfortunately his shimenawas are the pieces that are almost perfect #literally only one missed roll went to em instead of crit #but fortunately i practically live in the vv domain lmao theres a good chance ill get crit pieces #before i get even a single other em piece 💔