#Im gonna sort them now actually.

[robocops-a-christ-allegory]

A friend of mine sent me some of the checkmate 1988 issues with Blackthorn and Peacemaker and a VIGILANTE #12 that he got and I now officially have too many comics to keep on the floor now and had to put them in a box but I also have too many to easily sort chronologically and by character now and I am losing it about it just a little.

#Im gonna sort them now actually. #I am so excited about the Checkmates. I have so many comics with peacemaker on the cover now. #And a chunk of janus directive

[yaoicoreren]

<?> I MADE MY ARKHAM ASYLUM PSYCHIATRIST FALL IN LOVE WITH ME (NOT CLICKBAIT)

#scriddler #edward nashton #dano riddler #jonathan crane #fanart #b&w #crossover #hiii so its been a while lol #im still not back into the swing of things enough to get back here #but while thinking about it i saw i hadnt posted this on here #on top of being my first inking attempt like with nibs and stuff its also my fav drawing ive made of these two #i think i only ever posted it on an insta story actually #that acc is now private tho so i might as well repost it here #im sorry that i always turn jon into a moeblob but i cant help myself #i think of his big ol eyes and short height and my hands go on autopilot #im gonna post a bunch of sketches later so look forward tk that if youre into that sort of thing #just to put them out there #have a nice day¡¡

[mildcicada]

#when i was first coloring him in he was gonna be golden chinchilla colored but then i was like ehhh jonah magnus should be red/orange but #elias should be gray ...so i just desaturated what i already did instead of recoloring lol but #he is now supposed to be shaded silver lol #but thats why his coat pattern is on the darker side compared to what it *should* be #og elias bouchard coming from an important/roch family and while whole thing with thinking he just *deserves* stuff bc of his upbringing. #etc. -> he is purebred and matches the breed standards etc for a scottish fold of his color #obviously the eye color doesn't matter because. ahaha #i thought elias fit the Scottish fold vibes because: Scottish folds are known for looking sort of like owls and having intense eyes #and the cat body/face type (also present in british shorthairs) to me gives off sort of... unnasumming vibes? #like ahaha yes i am a boring boss who loves paperwork look at how unnasumming i am season 1-2 elias y'know #trying to think of what cat breed jonah would be. and also jon gerry etc you know all the other characters i like #would it be boring to have multiple british shorthairs #i mean.. #Michael shelley/distortion is a laperm that's all I know #i didn't particularly care with the personality attributes associated with eliascat because it didn't need to fit his personality on account #of not being his original body. but i do try to keep in mind the best personality/look/etc. cat attributes as a whole for a character #also sometimes get obsessed with jt making historical and geographical sense but then it just limits me greatly to a point im not into it #so i don't care about specific breeds in that respect lol #tma #my art #elias bouchard #the magnus archives #some notes looking back(made it 2 hours ago but still looking back ok..) on it now are that i feel like elias would never choose this breed #for his next bodyhop because of the inherent health issues in scottish folds. I saw the breed was created in like the early 1960s and #assumed that maybe the health issues wouldn't have been common knowledge until later enough for jonah to be unaware of them but actually no #there's legislation about it like 6 years later LOL so jonah would..maybe not make this choice #i guess in the future when drawing i will just make him a British shorthair #my catTMA is simultaneously 'they are just regular cats or like all show cats or something' and 'exact tma plot but as intelligent cats' #LOL its just vague in my mind idk..also maybe jon can be an Abyssinian #ALSO WHAT WAS I THINKING 'jonah may not have been aware about x thing' like did i...did i forget. me 2 hours ago was dumb as rocks

[spectacular-supernova]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PRESIDENT OF TONARI CLUB!

I, uh, m-made something f-for you.

Know that I'm totally embarrassing my ass over here, so... Don't laugh loud enough that I can hear you from over here!

Aaaaaand now, per Lyndis tradition, I'm gonna overexplain shits and turn a simple Ask into a whole ass Ramble!

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If you're short-sighted, try removing your glasses or contact lenses and look at this picture. I just did and it's suddenly even prettier!

I actually planned to draw your Sonicsona at first. And then I realized I deadass couldn't even draw Base Sonic. Then I thought I should draw a mole. I realized I also couldn't draw a mole. I thought I should just go for the easiest shit and draw ToFu. I realized I could not draw either one of them, too.

Because I cannot draw, I cheat! I mean I turn things into shapes (chiefly triangles, though not all of them) and then color them and hope that something shows up. This is me using this scientific /+ philosophical concept called Emergence.

No, I didn't just say THAT to sound like I have a technique of any kind, trust. It's so totally a technique—my very productive ass told me.

I remember you saying your favorite color is something like pink, blue, and stuff? It was from that tag game from last year. Hence, I decided I should create a context so I could draw an obscene amount of pink and blue.

If I'm being honest, it took me less than a millisecond to come up with the exact context—Breath of the Wild/Tears of the Kingdom is abundantly blue.

And since I always wanted to sneak ToFu in, I thought I would make a purplish-pink dusk. And then I will sneak those stargazing two in.

Come on. Everyone knows those ToFu panels. Even someone like me, who had not seen that part of the manga yet, knows.

Bless Tonari for being so relaxing to color.

HOWEVER! Fushi's limited-ass color presented a big problem for my cheat-drawing. How many combinations of "white" can you even make before you zoom out and see... nothing?! So I basically sabotaged them. That's what you get for being difficult, you mopey, neck-crick-possessing, fragile-enough-to-be-blown-by-the-wind cutie doofus.

I made up the color of their pants. I didn't even refer to their Nameless Boy drip when I decided on the color. I assed that part.

Yes. I admit I put a shit ton of effort into coloring Zelda. This version of Zelda is my kin, you know. Anyway, I like the way her, uh, shirt turned out.

I also like how the Master Sword turned out, but there was so much blue I ended up requiring outlines to distinguish it from Link's shirt and the sky. Told ya I have no technique or skill. I cheat through and through

I was too lazy to draw those sky islands. Besides, the ToTK side is already saturated with details.

What the fuck issa "proportion?" Everyone's head is an orange. The difference, Nova, is whether it's a Mandarin Orange or an Orange.

I don't know if I overdid Dinraal's draconic mane. It looks like she's wearing a wig. At least she is different from how she initially looked—a red tapeworm outfitted with chicken legs.

I admit I put more effort than any Past Me would have into Dinraal because a certain mutual is very, ah, particular about dragons.

Drawing two of your favorite ships for their show of devotion was a completely deliberative choice on my end. Did you also realize that both Link and Fushi had a short, small, low ponytail and that both Zelda and Tonari had similar hair? I believe it's due to me hitting my drawing skill limitation.

There is actually an Easter Egg of some sort in this picture. It's not the ugly doodle thing, no. That thing is me. I'm not an Easter Egg; I'm a ghost.

I'm not telling you what that Easter Egg is. I'm fine with it never being discovered; it'd be like those secret levels in old video games.

But if you DID discover it, come tell me what you think it is!

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I hope you like it enough! Instead of it giving you a migraine, that is. Surely my """art"""... doesn't require a trigger warning... right?

Have a good one, mai bruzha!

---Lyn

A RAMBLE FROM YOU LYN IS THE BEST POSSIBLE BRITHDAY PRESENT I COULD HAVE EVER RECEIVED!!!! COUPLED WITH ART BY YOU????? AND OF MY FAVORITE FELLAS????? What did I deserve to be so blessed ;A; 💕💕💕

I’ll spare us all a little extra scrolling on my part by adding that read more you were fretting about, I have my own ramble upcoming!

I KNOW YOURE ON YOURSELF ABOUT NOT BEING ARTISTIC OR WHATEVER BUT THIS IS ART!!! AND DAMN GOOD ART TOO!!!!!!! This is!!!!!!!!!!! I want this made into stained glass I want to make this the permanent window to me bed roOM LYN THIS IS AMAZING THIS IS ALMOST CERTAINLY GOING DOWN AS ONE OF MY FAVORITE ART STYLES!!!! There’s no such thing as cheating in art, it’s all art!!! “Cheating” is a style, no technique is a style!!! I should know I have none either, hehe -w-‘ your art may be some type of cubism? Hehe idk I’m not an art student :3 Either way this is absolutely gorgeous I’m in LOVE!!!

It’s so creative and well done and I LOVE your eye for detail, the lighting is inspired!!!! Like the way the sun hits the space behind Zelda is so pretty, AND ZELDA IS SO PRETTY!!!!!! EVERYRHING IS SO PRETTY, I CANT FOCUS ON ONE THING BECAUSE I KEEP JUMPING BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN ALL THE THINGS I LOVE ABOUT IT (every thing, every last detail!!! Is that a little you in the middle? Is that the Easter egg???? I could just pick you up and pat your little head!!! 😭 I know you don’t love hugs but that’s how I’ll be standing if you’re ever ready for one!!!)

I should slow down maybe and pick a few things to focus on BUT I JUST CANT I LOVE IT ALL!!!! The two scenes just blend so well into one another that my eyes are just naturally being drawn back and forth between both of the scenery! Dinraal, who turned out AMAZIING BY THE WAY, ABSOLUTELY NOT OVERDONE, if anything I’m so glad you had fun working on her!!! She’s so gorgeous!!!! I bet your friend is so so proud of how well she looks!!! Oh but anyway, Dinraal naturally leads my eyes over to the sun/moon (and the 24, hehe, thank you!!! /)//(\ Your memory is astounding!!), which have their own beautiful rays of light leading down onto the adorable couples 😭 I love love LOVE the moonlight leading down onto Tonari and Fushi, and the fact that she’s pointing at it too like she can almost reach it? Beautiful! Gorgeous!!! And it just leads my eyes down to them too, there’s just such a natural circular flow here, no wonder I keep getting caught in a loop of admiration! 😁

The blues and the pinks, and the stars on the ToFu side!!! I just noticed them and they’re everything to me!!!! Hahaha I’m so glad Tonari was relaxing to color hehe, same for me, something about her is just so lovely and calming when she’s relaxed 🥰 As for Fushi’s colors, I didn’t notice! Even after you pointed it out it looks good to me! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ this is from someone who never references colors though, I’m so loosey goosey about everything -w- BUT YOUR SOLUTION TO YOUR PROBLEM WAS GREAT, THEIR SHAPE IS VERY VISIBLE AND EASY TO MAKE OUT hehe :3 I love their crossed little legs 🥰

Zelda being your kin is so good to know hehe, I’ve always been drawn to all versions of Link myself! I think we’ve been perfectly set up to “play dolls” with these characters in the future, so to speak! Aaaahh they can’t have been easy to draw, there’s a reason I almost never dabble in drawing those two and their intricate outfits, but you make it look effortless!!! Zelda’s shirt turned out amazing, and I’m stuck looking at her little triangle braids!!!! I don’t know why I’m so fixated on that it’s just adorable!!! 😭💕 What a lovely technique, man, I’m so enchanted! AND THE MASTER SWORD, I know you called it cheating BUT I LOVE THE LINE WORK, it makes the sword stand out, almost like you lined that specific part with some sort of melted gold??? Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!

This is gorgeous and beautiful in every which way and thank you!!!! For everything!!! For this beautiful drawing and for giving me a chance to ramble and giving me something gorgeous to look at for the rest of my day, and for indulging in both of my silly little ships /)//(\ I’m so glad I don’t need glasses because I love every inch of your art, thank you thank you THANK YOU!!!!! Gosh it’s so so so lovely 😭💕 you’re so lovely!!!!

I don’t know how to say goodbye so I guess I’ll just say good night for now! Thank you for thinking of me… I’ll have a wonderful day, so long as you promise me you’ll have a wonderful night along side me 🥰

Goodnight, Mai Bruzha!

- Nova

#Lyn the Zelda Kin (I’ll come up with a better tag some day I PROMISE 💕 haha!!!) #Friend Rambles 💕💕💕 #long post #IM SO STOKED YOU HAVE NO IDEA AAAHHHHHHHHHH KICKING MY FEET #I’m typing the tags before I actually type the main body heehee I’m gonna jump over the moon!!!!! #and thank you for the letter too I’ve been rereading it! I’ve been getting back into writing letters of my own and wow!!! #the quality of yours are amazing!! I may have to take a note or two on how to craft a good one that one was amazing!! and thank you :’) #ok editing: this nova back after her ramble in the body text #I’m sorry for how disjointed this all looks! I kind of tackled my response based on where I was looking at at any given time #and I wanted to get my reply back before you hit the sheets for the night!!! still it took me some time but I hope I made it!!! #ahhh Lyn I hope you rest well! I’m going to have an amazing birthday and you’re a contributing factor in that my friend.. Mai Bruzha!!! #I know for a fact I’m forgetting details too like just the fact that I love the idea of Tonari and Fushi chilling at night #chatting and looking at the stars and enjoying each other’s company. my favorite scenes of them are always them shrouded in darkness and #covered in some sort of fireside lighting I just!!!!!! they’re so good in the dark thank you for drawing them at night #they are a moon couple to me… and ZeLink is a sun couple to me like idk how you got all these details DOWN about me! maybe we see the world #similarly :3 good to know I have someone in the world who sees them the way I do 😁 #aahhhh I’ll let you get off to sleep now dear friend!!! and thank you again! thank you thank you thank you!!!! #this is truly shaping up to be the best birthday ever!

[galacticlamps]

I just wanted to apologize to my classic whotuals for all the dead boy detectives spamming, but it's also important to me that you guys know two things:

a) I've become aware that a lot of what appeals to me about dead boy detectives is, on a kind of conceptual/thematic level, the same stuff that I love about my favorite eras of dr who, and 6b in particular

And I tell you this not as an advertising tactic but as a genuine PSA for anyone following me because:

b) Being me & having realized this, I know I'm definitely gonna wind up posting some unnecessarily long-winded analysis/comparison, pop it in the main tags for the sake of organization on my own blog, and subsequently confuse a hell of a lot of people there who either have no idea what I'm talking about or simply don't view either piece of media in the same light as I do to begin with

So I just wanted to reassure everyone that at least you're not suffering alone, as I will soon be inflicting the reverse bait-and-switch upon others!

That's all! continue w ur scrolling <3

#i hope this is clear but im REALLY not trying to be like coy or intriguing here #this post is not remotely intended to convince anyone to watch dead boy detectives on the grounds that it's similar to 60s who #in ways which i've conveniently failed to elaborate upon & so you'll just HAVE to go see for yourself #(firstly bc when i want to sing something's praises i will upfront & unapologetically) #(& secondly bc im not super into telling people to watch things in general unless they're actively seeking a rec) #honestly this (now very overhyped) future post of mine is going to be more about like #me recognizing i have A Type when it comes to stories/underpinning narrative backdrops in fiction (if thats not too pretentious) #and much less of a 'well if you like x then you'll definitely love y bc i do & we all enjoy things in the same way & for the same reasons' #and i find it funny that nobody will care - bc it'll incomprehensible to all but about 5 people who have the full context #& half of those 5 will probably still disagree w my perspective/interpretation of one or both - #but im gonna do it anyway bc what else am i supposed to do w these thoughts! keep them to myself??? dont be absurd #that said though if you are debating watching dbd and would like to chat about it to push yourself in one direction or another #im happy to do so! especially if you have questions about it in relation to some other shared interest you actually did follow me for lol #im always game for that sort of thing & yes i am of the opinion that its a good & fun & rich show all on its own

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[whatohitsonfirewelp]

Daily reminder that Severus Snape isn’t a good person and Molly Weasley isn’t a good parent

#did they do good things? sure #but does that make them good? absolutely not #(ha me being far more realistic about fiction characters than the adults in my family ayeee) #there’s so much they’ve done wrong and continue to do wrong and it’s ignored because they were some sort of saviors to the boy who lived #(I was gonna say boy wonder and was like wait no wrong fandom whatoh) #and this is absolutely on jk rowling because she’s let this happen #she’s let people idolize these people who are genuinely terrible #and I’m not saying it’s a bad thing to like these characters #but you have to realize when a character isn’t good despite how they are portrayed at first glance #I’ll stop now before I start ranting about how jk rowling actually isn’t that great of an author once you really look #whatoh back at it again #tw hp fandom #molly weasley #severus snape #anti molly weasley #anti severus snape #flashback to my old post where I said movie them is way better than book them #IM RIGHT ABOUT THAT FACT AND YALL #KNOW IT

[ouchhq]

>:(

#i need to vent a little im sorry pls ignore this if u are bothered by my thoughts #SH tw !!!!!! #this morning i was supposed to have my weekly therapy session but i had to cancel bc my mom got covid and obviously stayed home from work #and i do online therapy and i didnt feel comfortable doing it with my mom around but i really needed to do it tbh #and then my professor replied to my email with all of the things ive been working on since august and didnt say anything about the material #he just asked to call me on the phone tomorrow and i started to spiral…. like Spiral with a capital s #even now thinking about it my stomach sinks bc i have this feeling that his feedback is going to be negative and i just know my #barely existent self esteem is going to break and idk what im gonna do with myself then #this afternoon while i was spiraling all i wanted to do was /hurt/ myself. i kept thinking that i wasnt good enough and i had done a #horrible job.. so bad that he couldnt even tell me by email but needed to do it on the phone and i felt like throwing up and i couldnt get #/​that/ thought out of my head and i could only cry #and all of this not even actually knowing what my professors feed back is going to be because this is just all in my head #but i was talking to my school friends and they were like oh its gonna be fine even if he doesnt like it u can still put the project in ur #portfolio hes not even our professor anymore and so on #and i kept saying that i knew that but i just could not handle that sort of feedback and rejection mentally #i was telling them that i knew i would crumble if i got real negative feedback and i was terrified of that and they just couldnt get it and #idk it made me feel really lonely #im a bit calmer now but i feel so depressed #i am really anticipating something that will hurt really bad

[arolesbianism]

Some stuff I've drawn semi recently

#keese draws #oc art #oc #ocs #furry #furry oc #furry art #Ive been going thru it recently but Ill survive #on the bright side the pet sitting job for my aunt is coming up soon #so Ill have a house to myself for a bit at least #Im probably still gonna be fairly offline for the foreseeable future unless I somehow manage to fix my sleep schedule anytime soon #not to say I will be on any sorta complete hiatus or anything just that Im not getting any more active most likely #not that I think anyone rly cares at this point since its been the norm for a while now but yknow #Ill still be around to answer asks and stuff just dont freak out if I take a lil bit to see it 👍 #anyways enough of being a downer Im actually pretty happy with these even if theyre mostly just doodles #also I havent posted any art of these guys in a While but say hi to them while you can cause theyre back into the void of my brain now #first is keese (the oc™) second is toon and third is clyve #all from different stories but toon and clyve are both from the magic cat universe #their paths never meet tho the closest connection they have has to go through like 4 characters first #you can also tell theyre from different stories because one is anthro and the other isnt lol #generally speaking I consider anthro designs slightly more canon but both are canon depending on the story #not in a shapeshifting way just in a me being an inconsistent bitch sorta way #but yeah keese the oc is much older than either of those two I just dont talk abt them or their story ever #but hey if any of yall remember suckerz those two are besties #suckerz is sort of younger than the other two and sort of much older than all three #shes a sort of updated version of a reallyyyy old sona sort of character I had in like 6th grade I think #back during my lilo and stitch experiment oc era where I had one that was music themed #I also had a digimon variant of her she was called like beatramon or smth like that #she was basically a hypothetical music mascot and shes kind of still that tbh #if I ever get enough into making music that I start posting shit it will be my music mascot

[bloggirl8842]

I caught up w an old friend like a friend ive known 12 yrs and I’m sooo hyped about it bc when we were teens I wanted to be friends w him and a billion other people but i never tried bc i was like if friendship is meant to be itll be but now im reaching out and he’s gonna mail me a copy of his comic and we’re gonna text and call on occasion

#hes a sweetie im happy!!! #and its not just him like i reached out to another guy and he and i are now gonna draw tgt on occasion #reached out to this friend jade who like talks to me once every six months and im now putting work into making us talk consistently #i invited people i didnt think would come out to halloween w me and my best friend and most of them agreed #im excited man!!!! #talking to him was fun too bc we’ve known each other since we were kids so we know all these facts abt each other like i can bring up things #12 yrs back and hes like oh yea i remember that it was funny. all while being sort of unfamiliar w him bc we havent spoken in uhh 4 years #im going to have a birthday celebration for the first time in 7 years this year bc i actually believe my friends in the city will show up #enthusiastically. which was not the case last time i tried this.

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

Aspect of Order: Primordial & Present-Day

One of the first deities, part of what is known as the Primordial Triad. It created the planes alongside the Aspects of Chaos and the In-Between and held dominion over the Material Plane. It embodied order in the way nature has order: the life cycle, gravity, the tides, the surety that the seasons will change, the patterns that appear in flora and fauna alike, the symmetry of pinecones and butterflies. It was associated with the night as a time of quiet preparation where the world rests, and when one can see the remains of creation in the darkened sky. It is said that the two moons of the Material Plane are its eyes, watching over its creations.

All three members of the Primordial Triad are referred to with "it", so ancient and unfathomable that applying a mortal, transient concept of gender to them seemed almost blasphemous.

Almost.

The modern-day conception of Order is quite different. Though she still reigns over the night and natural laws, her followers have placed her at the forefront of the creation process, reducing the In-Between's role and rejecting Chaos altogether. Though most present-day cultures think of her in this way, many of them do not emphasize her: she is an invisible Over-God, keeping the other deities and forces in line and maintaining cosmic balance from behind the scenes. In places where she is worshipped heavily, however, she is placed at the forefront of the pantheon. In those cases, worship of deities with overlapping domains is either illegal (ex local gods of justice) or considered secondary to her (ex the god of the Wilds). The worship of smaller, local deities is usually discouraged or suppressed over-all in these areas in order to encourage a more structured, uniform religious practice. While both aspects of Order championed paladins, Primordial Order also championed druids and rangers while Modern Order champions clerics.

Ancient theologians debated whether or not Order and Chaos were two aspects of the same being (ironically, there was no question that the In-Between was its own separate force). However, following the iconoclasm that effectively forced Chaos out of the pantheon and created the modern conception of Order, such lines of thought were considered heretical, and then blasphemous.

The iconoclasm did have an unintended consequence, however. Crying motifs appeared in some art of Primordial Order around that time, particularly in the areas that resisted the iconoclasts more intensely. Some scholars believe that it may have been a direct reaction to the event: Order mourning the loss of its counterpart. Others have argued, however, that the lack of such motifs (or equivalents) in depictions of the In-Between prove this wrong. After all, why would it not also be grieving?

#irredeemed project #<- the working tag for this for now #i've been working on this project off & on for a couple years now #and the primordial triad has had a chokehold on me the entire time #i dont have names for any gods but the in-between (i think i'm gonna keep erasmus) #because i'd gotten stuck and wanted a clean slate. if i name a deity i feel like it has to have a solid form of some sort #and not all of them will #i'm not doing these in any sort of order. i have two other pages done #one of them is for a goddess that i've also been turning around in my head this entire time #i dont have many of the actual historical events fleshed out or any plot points for the 'present day' of the world #so stuff is going to be vague for a moment #i fucking. love the idea of writing/drawing about the world from the perspective of the people who are in it #so historical eras/distinct art movements across time & cultures/theological debates that people disagree on #and how that last thing works when the gods are undeniably & obviously real in some way #im sure the 'right' answers came through in this but that's okay b/c it's just to get my thoughts out of my head lol #worldbuilding #my art #character art #brainstorming #fantasy worldbuilding #my post #worldbuilding project #fantasy pantheons #the mortifying ideal of being known (talking about a creative project online) #hopefully this makes sense and isn't too silly lol

[toytulini]

really irritating that the avenue of communication i keep open bc i pay the phone bill keeps using it to inundate me with fucking Ads?

#toy txt post #I DONT WANT A NEW PHONE. I DONT WANT AI. LEAVE ME ALONE UNLESS THERE IS A FUCKING PROBLEM. GO DIE IN A FUCKING HOLE #@both SAMSUNG AND VERIZON. ROT #the best part is that they ALSO keep sending me shit like 'agree to opt in to whatever the fuck new terms and conditions to continue #recieving offers! LAST CHANCE! #it never is the last chance and not interacting with it or actively opting in somehow never makes them stop sending me the fucking #offers! youre a liar and piece of shit #youre not getting my fucking s10. im not trading in jack shit. i will keep it until it is fucking bricked #i still have my old HTC one maxx or whatever and i am only now considering send that to some sort of erecycling place if i can #bc it is reaching fully non functional levels despite turning on still so ig i should wipe it and see if it can be taken apart and things #reused. hopefully. i know its inefficient and expensive to do that but idk i think maybe we're looking at the cost wrong. idk. no nvm #i was gonna say maybe it doesnt have to be if you actually valued the human lives youre throwing into the precious metals mines #but quite frankly it does feel like theyre gonna make it cheaper to recycle parts by doing the exact same shit and juat having someone they #see as worth less as a human being paid pennies to hunch over a stupid bricked device and pull miniscule amounts of precious metals out #instead of the mines. that might be marginally better working conditions than The Mines idk. theyll find a way to make cruelty the point #tho im sure. god #also #256gb???? 256gb??? are you fucking kidding me??? die #the s10 has over 500 and ive discovered i CAN in fact fit 1tb microSD card. rot and die. you are nothing to me. useless.

[ledians]

still thinking about last night on call when i told my bf (does not like fortnite) that i got 11 kills one round recently and i was like "that's pretty good isn't it?" and he half heartedly replied "yea" and i excitedly said "yay thank you!!!!" and was gonna move on

then he's silent for a second and goes "you really just accepted a 'yeah' as a good enough compliment and thanked me" and then started talking about other stuff. but i couldn't pay attention cuz i was still processing what he just said because goddamn i really did just do that didn't i. what the fuck. anyway I'm still thinking about it

#like. i kind of want to cry #i did cry a tiny bit last night #i do this sort of thing a lot where i more or less compliment myself and ask someone else to agree with me in order to feel validated #and its so stupid and pathetic #the number of times i have unironically said please tell me i'm pretty right now :) is actually embarrassing #im gonna cry again #this doesn't happen because he doesn't compliment me btw he does compliment me #but i only register compliments in my brain when i feel like i should be getting them and it turns out #the times he says them and the times i want to expect them don't overlap as much as i would like

[dawntheduckrb]

They put me downstairs at work :(

All thumb healing progress was undone in one evening apparently. It actually felt mostly fine on Sunday, until after work. They put me in an area I'm rarely sent to on Sunday evening, and I had to do a ton of heavy lifting. My arms are sore but it's like a post-exercise soreness (painful, but still very normal). My thumb felt fine allllllll day today, until I started to draw. Even with breaks, it still feels super tense, and now it's hurting even when I'm not using it. I'm gonna take that as a sign to stop for the night lol

I have one drawing I want to finish before school starts back up, because I'm worried it'll distract me if I don't have it done before then. Of course, if my hand prevents from finishing it, I'll manage, but that'd suck :')

On a lighter tone I feel very strongly about this cat in a blanket I found, I don't know why it amuses me so much but it's such a mood

#for those of you who dont know; i work at a package sorting/distribution center #I'm normally in the small package team where people who can't constantly lift stuff go (i have double curve scoliosis and back hurty) #but they moved me downstairs to a truck loading area to help the people that are normally there #most packages come from a series of overhang chutes and I didn't have to do anything with them #but everything thats too big/heavy/oddly shaped comes down a seperate larger belt system #these have to be manually sorted #my job was to take a barcode scanner and find a barcode on each package #then a little printer i was holding would make a sticker w/ that package's destination after i scanned its barcode #the thing is #those packages got up to 80 lbs and sometimes the barcode label was on the very bottom #i had to flip quite a few packages in a hurry because that belt does not stop while I'm printing the stickers #i guess between holding the barcode scanner and flipping over ridiculously heavy boxes #i completely destroyed my thumb again #splatoon didn't give me a problem today but i guess i dont really use my thumb much for that game #and even still #i took a whole four hour break between that and trying to draw #and i didnt even draw for that long #but now moving my thumb hurts worse than it did last week #idk what im gonna do when school starts :/ #this is where i'd say 'crying and sobbing atm' but im actually starting to tear up holy shit #wanted to post a drawing tonight but i cant finish it :') gonna grab some chocolate and curl up into a ball instead #will also try icing my hand tonight #i have also memorized those hand exercises and they are my lifeline right now

[doctorwhoisadhd]

im at almost 7.1k words in my 12jack sequel

#and i still need to write like half of it at least #this fic is truly the when you give a mouse a cookie thing of all time because originally i wanted to write LITERALLY one thing #(the doctor doing a specific thing to jack sort of by accident) #but i needed to write additional backstory to make them fucked up enough to do that AND a situation to gET them to do that. #and then another situation to get them to THAT situation and THEN yet ANOTHER situation to get them to THAT situation #and then for the 'yet another situation' in order to make it more cohesive i had to actually TALK about the backstory which i was not going #to do as much originally. and THEN at that point it was like well okay i have to add [another character] to this in order to explain THAT s #THAT added another scene. and then i realized again for the 'yet another situation' i would need to add actually an entire adventure #and anyway now im here and its gonna be at minimum 15-20k words #has anyone noticed my estimations of final wordcount keep going up lol. bc i have. #ari opinion hour

[kxllerblond]

reading book? too much effort. sitting down and writing replies?? can't focus.

youtube rabbit hole of in-depth Barbie history and architectural design of dream houses and playsets? i got all da focus in da world baybeee!

#barbie has always been an Interest especially in adult years since i more or less refrained from being #a hardcore barbie enjoyer because ykno not to gender talk on a tues but i rejected just about everything typically femme because i did not #want to be seen as femme or fully femme from a young age #so even if i really liked barbies i distanced myself from them pretty fast :'( #so now i think im compensating by like. instead of buying them for myself because i dont really want to collect. i just like lmao #obsessively info dive and watch commercial compilations and shit kdjfgdg #anyway did you know barbie has two younger siblings besides her main three that were actually her youngest ones #tutti and todd and they havent been seen since the late 90s? like theyre recognized in terms of history but in terms of #barbie lore and canon theyve been completely retconned out cuz theyve never shown up in sets or movies or anything #did you also know they were made of a bendable soft plastic as opposed to hard and the wires were prone to poking through and stabbing kids #and that the plastic stored like shit and if you put them (soft plastic) on your other dolls (hard) they would literally #melt into each other?? :) #barbie also has lots of cousins just got mentioned briefly and then annihilated from technical canon lol #oooh and then there's also Blaine who is an ex bf of barbie that was made specifically to date her briefly during a sort of campaign #barbie broke up with ken and got with blaine but ofc she got back with ken and after that blaine was never seen nor mentioned again. he deA #anyway happy tuesday im gonna eat my soup and try and break out of this info consuming trance so i can wrITE #oHOH and last silly trivia being barbie has lots of canon relatives that havent been retconned or anything BUT they've also never been made #into dolls. off the top of my head i think some of these include like uhhh her mom and dad and some aunts and shit #tho i think these are either just mentioned in passing or from the barbie movies or some in books