#Idk this is my 4am ramblings

[solarpunkani]

Hot 4am take but I feel like if we want to get people more interested in making their yards a more habitable space for wildlife like insects, we have to acknowledge that ‘Don’t want bugs in your house’ is still a 100% fair and valid point of view. ‘Loves nature’ and ‘doesn’t want roaches spiders and mosquitoes in the house’ aren’t opposites.

And with that in mind, when we propose to people that spraying pesticides around houses is Not A Good Idea, Actually, I feel like we need to give an alternative asides from ‘deal with it.’

#solarpunk #anti pesticides #ani rambles #this is coming from personal opinion at 4am keep that in mind but like #I’m scared of roaches. i’m fine with them outside though #my parents dont like roaches and for good reason. they spray Ortho Home Defense along the veeery edge of the concrete by the doors to #keep roaches and shit from coming in because yknow. Florida. #if I tell them ‘hey actually we shouldn’t spray pesticides inside (ie raid spray) or outside (ie home defense) #theyre gonna ask wtf to do instead to prevent roaches #and if I tell them ‘nothing suck it up buttercup’ they’re gonna laugh and then double down on the sprays #we gotta have an alternative ready and honestly maybe I’m not looking in the right places but I genuinely don’t know of any #like one online friend told me leaving brush piles around the yard decreased the amount of bugs trying to come in but like #thats one person. anecdotal. and I haven’t seen anything online confirming that as a thing (yet) #idk man I’m going to bed. #might delete later #house pest saga

[dna-d2]

Man that “turn off your brain advice” for art really does help.

I’ve got this way I draw faces and heads and it’s a whole bunch of steps, but then I just wanted to doodle out a comic idea real quick and remembered how I USED to draw heads, which is way quicker, and-

It still looks good?? It looks better than it used to, even?? I spent half the effort on it than I usually do and it looks just as good, I’ve just been thinking too much.

I’ve barely done anything with this knowledge, but just something about realizing and knowing and remembering that I really CAN just switch my brain off and enjoy drawing with so much less stress just feels great

#Or maybe I'm depressed and this was the first bit of real serotonin I've gotten from my art in a while #EITHER WAY #I know this is one of those art tips that floats around everywhere #And I've heard it #And I KNOW it #But it's really hard to internalize that sorta thing until you figure it out for yourself #You know?? #I've spent so much time figuring out how to do all this complicated stuff #And did I really need it? #Yes probably #But now I might not?? #Idk this is my 4am ramblings #I'm thinking about this WAAAY too much #I've been so hesitant to draw certain things because my thought process was #Man I'd have to draw it more than once #And drawing a head takes so many steps #Just to make hair?? #To see what it'll look like?? #Or the expressions?? #Idk man I'll just go get a snack or something instead that sounds nice #ADHD is a bitch like that I guess #Art #Comics

[cinna-bunnie]

when you ask a restaurant for spicy food and instead of cooking it in a way that makes the end result hotter they just obliterate all the flavor by dumping heaps of sriracha all over it after the fact

#i will and have literally just thrown the whole dish away and started over somewhere else #if u dump Sriracha all over something to make it spicy I'm never ordering anything spicy from u again #like. are u tasting this..? is this a balance of flavors to you..? 🧍🏾‍♀️ if you must use sriracha can u at least use it towards the end of #the actual cooking process itself so it has time to mix with other flavors and seasoning? i cannot taste anything else!! #u might as well have cooked it plain then dumped this all over it for all I care ૮ – ﻌ–ა where are the sauces the salsas the array of spices #you can make things hot AND flavorful 🤌🏾 you can make something spicy AND nuanced #anyways I'm thinking about this bc i ordered spicy mapo tofu and it is spicier in a way i can't pin down And has a stronger #peppercorn flavor ☝🏾 this is how u handle spicy food perfectly‚ imo. it is my view that you have experience with the different #spices n seasonings and subsequent sauces if you can make that spicy during the actual cooking process #and idk shows more intention and care to the cooking process To Me and the spicy lvl is taken into consideration from the start #i KIND OF fw Sriracha but i think it becomes overpowering very quickly‚ i just want a few light globs of it at a time #an Accent of Sriracha 🤌🏾 a taste that is present and pronounced but doesn't take away from anything else #i take my cooking and spicy food seriously ૮ – ﻌ–ა there are SO many good ways to make ur food hotter. this ain't it #it's 4am and I'm about to go to sleep so these r just late night ramblings of a girl picking at her leftovers like this is it.. peak spicy #a truly well executed dish 🤌🏾 thank you i love you. satisfying..

[ghostorbz]

ANIMATION MEME TIME!!! COME GET YOUR ANIMATION MEME!!!!

yt link

#i actually finished this days ago #like #a. day ago #idk i needa work on a tbdfe episode :/ im so sleepy #i need to stop staying up until 4am each night dude #its ruining me #OKAY enough rambling #art #my art #animation #animation meme #video #helluva boss #blitzø helluva boss #moxxie helluva boss #millie helluva boss #loona helluva boss #stolas helluva boss #stella helluva boss #octavia helluva boss #verosika helluva boss #striker helluva boss #fizzaroli helluva boss #barbie helluva boss #asmodeus helluva boss #beelzebub helluva boss #mammon helluva boss

[therianprincette]

felt an OVERWHELMING urge to chew today. chew chew chew. that’s all i wanted to do do do

#idk it’s 4am and I’m tired and sad #I know this is silly sorry #second theriotype signs perhaps? #my post #ragdoll rambles #cat therian #cat kin #therian #catkin #feline therian #therianthropy

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

ppl dont understand how much euphoria it brings me when someone uses "they/them" pronouns when referring to me. especially after being called she/her all day at work and being actively misgendered as if my identity is just internal and like it doesnt exist. its the lil things ig, the one online friend in a gc using they yesterday made me feel so good cause, like no one has used my preferred pronouns in a hot minute.

idk i always feel like its not like i wouldnt be comfortable using she on occasion, i feel as soon as you tell people a gender they understand irl (most cis people ive came into contact w) they just jump to that one because its "easiest". like what about the "she/they"s and "he/they"s!!! yall are beautiful and i love ur pronouns and AND i make it a point to variate them for you!! CAUSE IT MATTERS!!!

bestie my pronouns are not supposed to be for your benefit of "easiness. " my entire experience of realizing i dont want to associate myself with my assigned gender WAS that shit.

#the 4am mentality rn #i feel dysphoric #give me they/them pronouns OR GIVE ME DEATH #billy rambles #slight vent?? #idk if this even makes sense #sorry im just UGH #why do ppl not understand they/them pronouns why #and online people respect my pronouns

[xxshadowus3rxx]

okay but was it really necessary for probe to stroke adu du's cheek as he thanked him before he died. was that necessary or does someone on the animation team want me dead

#what is this dead wife beat type shit #I'm normal btw #was rewatching the scene for fic purposes and ngl I was never able to take it too seriously #but that part makes me want to bite something #wondering if it's something probe always wanted to do but it was only in that moment that he knew adu du would allow it #*deranged and exploding* #don't get me started on the dialogue #idc if it's cheesy or whatever it still makes me want to Cry #cube fortress #dinoposting #adu du boboiboy #probe boboiboy #man. I actually can't stop drawing them lolll #but my art kind of sucks so I'd rather not post that stuff. it's okay there are so many fics in the oven #the 5 other enjoyers of them will feast once the time comes #I should probably think of a ship name for them in the meantime #but idk #sorry for the ramble #this is a certified 4am post moment

[dontfall-inlove-withthe-moment]

I wish I was a celebrity just cause I know I would fr be the most unhinged one

like idk fuck personal image ig, and like I would be a messy messy celeb I just know 🤷‍♀️

#it’s 4am please someone help me #like idk I would love to be a Lewis Capaldi #I would wear my I hate matty Healy shirt and people would just hate me I know #matty healy #the 1975 #personal rambles #🤭🤭

[awkward-smirks]

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#i had a long ass post typed out for this but it's a bit much so imma just type it here instead: #i'm very lucky and blessed to have friends who make plans to hang out with me with the intent of catering to MY interests #like im being so serious that my friends will take me to art museums and bookstores and cafes and roller skating and ice skating #just bc they know i'd love it :') #and yes they love it as well or else they wouldn't put up w it but it means a lot that they ask me specifically to come with #like being in this life where i'm not some random second choice or like... where people actually WANT to hang out w me... #that means a lot #and i'm comforted w the fact that i know exactly where i stand w my friends just from that intention #Sandy rambling #honestly idk if that made sense bc im literally so sleepy and this is my third time trying to put this into words #but that's it for now. ill journal about it later #when it's not 4am

[transgender-catboy]

I'm so happy tastes change when you get older

#i love dr pepper now #kid me hated it #maybe i should try other things kid me hated #like black licorice #... that's all i can think of #i like onions mushrooms and tomato now. kid me didn't #and i still dislike broccoli and brussel sprouts #they both have very strong flavours that i find unpleasant #they used to make me throw up #my gag reflex isn't as sensitive anymore but sometimes i still gag #i also just find broccoli kinda seeps into whatever else it's cooked with #i cant really enjoy the other parts of the dish if broccoli was ever involved because it becomes the only thing i can taste #idk 🤷‍♂️ it's 4am and i accidentally made myself nocturnal #so you get strange ramblings

[chimeracrash]

chimeracrash will return to the living in pridemonth

#tldr i kinda dissapeared without telling ppl and #then i couldnt. reverse it. because anxiety #i gotta bite the bullet i gotta. i dont know if anyone is waiting for me #anymore but i cant keep putting it off #its gonna keep making my heath worse no matter what i do #might as well at this point right? #anywyas me at 4am july 1st: ahahaaaa. appears like a creature #^^idk if itll be the first day but it will be un the first week #I CANT KEEP PUTTING IT OFF I NEED TO FACE THE MUSIC #is this vent. is this explanation. i dont know anymore #chimera rambles

[solarpunkani]

"Oh no, someone's attracted to the aesthetics of my -punk movement but doesn't know the praxis and history behind it like I do--"

OK. Tell them. Make it a teaching moment. Everyone who's in your movement learned the background from somewhere at some point, maybe this is that point for that person. Give them a jumping off point that they can dive into later.

"Oh but I shouldn't be responsible for teaching baby -punks about the history and the how-tos and--"

OK. Then don't tell them. You don't have to be responsible for teaching people with a budding interest in your group the ins and outs and how-tos. That's fair and valid! It can be a lot of work. Someone else will handle it

"But I'm annoyed that they would try to claim to be part of/be interested in my community without knowing all the details that I know after being in it for months/years/decades, they're dumb, they're posers, they're--"

OK. Then don't engage with them, if it's that bad. Maybe someone else will come around and tell them the history, maybe they'll pick it up on their own, maybe they'll just enjoy the fashion elements for awhile.

"But they shouldn't claim to be part of the -punk community if they don't know the--"

I feel like we have a few options here. People can either talk to them, share the history, share the values, share the praxis. Or they can just chase off anyone who even thinks about dipping a toe in their community, and then wonder why it's dying off later down the line.

I dunno, maybe I'm too naive and patient or whatever. But if people are entering your -punk spaces without knowing The Rundown of what you feel they need to know, maybe being nice about it and informing people instead of immediately assuming stupidity and malicious intent could help you make a new friend. Even the loudest voices in a space had to learn from somewhere, and not everyone has the luxury of being in the space as the History was Happening--whether it's an age thing or a not being aware of the space thing. Or maybe I just don't see what the big deal is behind people hating people who like the aesthetic of something and don't know the behind the scenes history about it yet.

Because I believe in the word 'yet.' No one comes into this world knowing everything about everything, and we're all constantly learning new things. I'm not gonna degrade someone and call them a poser for not knowing what I know. Because if it were me, interested in a scene but getting chased out and called a poser? I wouldn't hit the books and study up, I'd go 'that fuckin sucks, those people sucked' and then avoid anyone and anything having to do with it.

So chase people off and call them posers if you want. But if your community starts dwindling, don't be fucking shocked.

#out of queue #ani rambles #punks and posers #i cant even call this a 4am hot take because its 7pm but like #idk i keep seeing posts about like 'how DARE people think I bought my punk clothes how DARE they not know the how-tos and DIYs' #or 'ugh people only care about the ~aesthetics~ of my movement if you don't know shit get out of here' and like #maybe I'm just a shy ass introverted nerd whos scared of social rejection! but I avoid that shit like the plague #so if someone were to reject me based on not knowing about something I'd never even heard about? something i was JUST getting into? #there's a high chance I'd just scram and never look back. i don't wanna be the one who causes that emotion in someone else #granted this is coming from someone who STILL doesn't know how to make her own patches or worked up the courage to do direct action praxis #outside of offering neighbors to my tomatoes and trying to talk to people about what I'm passionate about #but still imo unless someone's a malicious intentional bad actor i dont see the point in scaring newbies off #thats how movements die imo #i know this is my solarpunk blog but its not a solarpunk specific thing #i think the main post that inspired this was about store-bought versus self-made spiked leather jackets #which honestly just feels petty to me but who knows. #might delete later

[ragnars-tooth]

AITA for abandoning my girlfriend and child?

Little context: I (26M) died in the arctic 5 years ago after a species of alien thought beings tried to take over the world. I'm also part alien thought being, so I was in dragon heaven for most of this time.

The problem arises that my girlfriend (who tipped my body into the sea) (26F) was pregnant, and I haven't been avaliable to help raise our daughter (5F). I really wish I could've been there, but due to some scheduling issues and the ever-nearing death of the earth, I've only just become part of their lives again.

Daughter is thrilled, but the girlfriend is not 😬

I'm still very busy with work and travel a lot, gf and daughter have the support of my family (44F, 45M, 16F, 14C), and friends (25M). I feel like I'm doing what I can but gf is now very upset that I hadn't come back sooner (I couldn't, I was a polar bear :/). She found it very hard to move on and I worry I may be making things worse now that I'm alive again?

Anyway, I'm not really sure how to fix this? (I am very unfamiliar with human customs)

Would appreciate any thoughts! (E.g maybe I should have been paying child support? I was a fairly successful author while I was dead and so money hasn't been an issue (all procceeds of my estate go to gf anyway), but still happy to help out that way?)

Tl;dr I was an absent father while I was dead, how do I make it up to them?

#rangnar rambles #now This is a 4am post #do i dare tag this properly #tldc #thats all im doing im sorry im not sullying the good name of the main tag like that #dont read the ages too close idk how old liz and arthur are and im not doing math rn #i dont use reddit this is a shitpost just roll with it <3 #ideally i will pass out soon #if my brain were functioning id add some edits wherein david responds to the brewing conspiracy theories (just the truth) in the comments #but im not doing that rn <3

[teethcake]

Hi~ I just wanted to pop in and say that I think you're a-OK to post whatever you'd like! Even if it's different that how you used to, I'm sure you'll not only learn quick, but be welcomed back with wide arms! I think it's awesome you are researching to try and not offend others, but I don't think you need to be toooo hard on yourself - I believe most people will know you have no ill-intentions :) No need to respond to this, just wanted to reach out to you! Take your time with your return!

<:,,] I want to apologize for being soo absent/ here and there but I cannot express how appreciative I am of the support still. I want to make sure things are not only okay to post but make sure they're fun too! Tbh.. its just Jeff's burn scars. Not only do I want to make them appropriate but I want to learn as I continue to draw him and so on. I do however want and hope people correct me if I happen make a mistake. I dont want to back down from something I did and want to learn! Just like the LJ "creator" thing back when I first started posting Creepypasta again! It taught me and I appreciate it! I want to have fun and spread my interests with you all after all! I'm majorly derailing from the path. Anon, thank you sooo much for such kind words and reassuring me on everything I said in a post I made a while ago. I am glad you reached out, I been posting again (slowly) on here and twitter and its been... well.. I guess anxious? Im not gonna dive into it, i'm learning to post for fun again and its been going okay <:'] scary a little bit.. but fun! Thank you anon and thank you to tbh, everyone bc I still see some people say words of support T__T it means a lot. I feel like I dont deserve it tbh, let alone people still liking my things still. Ive grown a lot so its like T__T omg.. so thank you anon and I hope whoever sent this can read this too and know i'm grateful for the message <:']

#anon #ask #ik.. ik i talk ALOT. but idk how else to like.... say #i really dont think i deserve some of the support.. let alone./... like. idk i dont wanna sound bad! #i been absent for ab 2 years? its crazy to think but.. well deserved tbh #i need to revamp. big time but its so overwhelming.. but i want to do it still. ill do it.. eventually #soon is too soon. eventually is better. i still love creepypasta. i have new interests and old ones still too. ESP me and my friends oc #so im like <:'] you guys.. are still here.. after all this time...... :'[[ #sorry for the ramble! its 4am. yknow how it is!

[bonetrousledbones]

waitwaitwaitwaitwait shit hang on. so toriel’s gonna be in the next deltarune chapter right. and SOMEONE from the police station is also gonna be in it, which will either be undyne or napstablook. the dark world is going to be in the living room, which could likely have a very homely feel to it. something both toriel and napstablook have in common is that they’re both introduced in the ruins.

there’s an NPC that says that the mayor always keeps her office extremely cold. do you see where i’m going with this

#trousled rambles #deltarune #idk why i got deltarune on the brain lately but i do #i could be entirely off base especially since its almost 4am but listen. listen #if chapter 4 is in the mayor's office i will simply go completely insane ok. do u understand #for the other few areas its a bit less clear but man. man #for waterfall i almost wanna say asgore's shop. because that man lives in squalor #and then new home / judgement hall could possibly be the church #basing these off of places we cant enter yet btw #no clue abt hotland tho. hmmmm #edit: oh my god wait i . forgot abt the skelebros house. if papyrus's room ends up being hotland bc fire rug do you KNOW how hard i'll yell

[zackfairmutual]

hellsing ultimate was kinda icky to watch but the ending is still so tender. i mean like the very last scene of the very last episode when alucard comes back to integra and seras its so good

#'the young woman you knew was gone. im ancient.' 'and i'm not?' like GOD #(not in like a ship way btw alucard met integra when she was like 12. theyre just weird besties) #i think of that and his scene with the queen too like he he has such value for humanity!! #and of course when anderson fucks himself up #i feel like the abridged series has probably influenced ppls views of alucard too much like yes hes fucking badass but like #theres layers to him #idk 4am ramblings about a show i didnt really care about too much #alucard and integra are amazing tho i love them with all my bisexual heart #woody speaks