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mllenugget · 5 months

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Hello I mcyt fandom-ified la Team du Lundi members and wrote a shit ton of text about it

After exhausting myself on trying to catch up on the current QSMP lore I got a sudden craving for a more familiar and fast paced kind of minecraft content and ended up rewatching all the Team du Lundi's SMP best of's I could find

And while doing so with my brain still hazed in fandom brainrot, I started picking up on minor details or info the players casually dropped, and drew parallels to the French speakers' QSMP counterparts This is going to be a long wordy post I don't even know what I am rambling about and for. Three things you need to be aware of about la Team du Lundi before reading :

Baghera, Antoine and Etoiles are the only QSMP players that are part of la Team du Lundi

As far as I remember the only two elements that suggest that la Team du Lundi's SMP could be canon to QSMP are Antoine being pressured into building another Tower of Shit, and Baghera's infamous fountain being mentioned when she was asked if her character remembers anything from her past before the island

La Team du Lundi's SMP was NOT a roleplaying server, it was just a private survival server for a small circle of friends casually playing together. So whenever I quote someone in this specific post, it is the streamer : there is no character other than the persona the streamer is usually showing on stream, but I just thought it would be fun to interpret certain situations while keeping in mind the QSMP lore. And here goes :

Baghera claims that when she was a kid she strongly believed that she could breathe underwater. The others joke about her having fins

Antoine jokingly tells Baghera he doesn’t need oxygen at all

Antoine claims he will still be alive thousands of years forwards

Antoine’s voice shifts when he wants to appear creepy

Baghera built an aquarium at her place, then helped Antoine build one at his tower, then built a giant swimming pool, then a fountain, then a waterslide- do you see a theme ?

Baghera knows that her skin is actually that of a chick and not a duckling, and calls it so here

Chat said that Baghera has a middle child syndrome, justifying that she bullies Angle Droit because Etoiles bullies her in the first place (Etoiles has also called her « little sister » in a derogatory way)

Etoiles has repeatedly asked people to play Valorant with him at least once

Here's a clip of Etoiles getting languaged in french and owing "a gifted sub in the swear jar"

Unrelated random clip of Etoiles because it creates happy hormones in me brain

Etoiles is regularly refered to as "the warrior"

Etoiles guided the whole group during an expedition to the End and he was literally glowing doing so (enchanted arrows effect) Everyone called him "the guide"

Baghera was the one who gave the final blow to the Enderdragon (and died from magic right after)

Etoiles spent most of his time adventuring in order to bring stuff and gear back to everyone for their builds

Etoiles asked Aypierre for help in order to design a redstone door for his cave which could only open upon solving a puzzle (which was egg & arrow related) (Aypierre was not a member of the server)

Etoiles built a nightclub with the walls and ceiling covered in wardenblocks making it look like a starry sky. He also rehomed Allays holding golden apples inside claiming them to be the souls working for him and that they lived there peacefuly

Etoiles jokingly talks about Antoine acting jealous and violent towards him because Etoiles told him he wanted to go and visit Kameto (who also was not a member of the server)

Baghera (along with Horty) had a rivalry with Joueur du Grenier (host of the server with admin powers) after he decided to build a massive parking lot right next to their house. They countered by covering the whole thing with dirt, followed by JDG building a factory and the two parties went back and forth. Baghera argued that it was stupid because they didnt even have cars to begin with (which is a sentence she reused when talking about Forever's roads) Also she tells JDG that he could've built a seaport instead, which makes JDG contemplate the thought of building an airport (and though he ended up never building it, I am side eyeing the French's plane crash)

At some point JDG wonders about what a roleplaying minecraft server would look like (RPZ 2), to which Baghera replies that she has a hard time picturing the thing "We'd all just build things you see ? I don't think we'd create stories, we would all just be like "I'm a builder, ah you too ? Well awesome, builders, cool"" and I find this to be hilariously ironic (fun fact : Baghera had no idea that QSMP was a roleplaying server when she first joined and often claims she would've taken a different approach with her character had she known right off the gate)

As I was finishing to write this down, these fuckers (/lh) decided to host a closure night for the server as they've never really officially did it, everyone just sort of deserted the server after a while. Baghera, Etoiles and Antoine kept referring to QSMP throughout the night, mostly talking about how weird it felt without mods. Among other meta commentary things

They mentionned Cellbit and Bad multiple times as the group was trying to solve enigmas. Antoine talked about "the cultural sharing" between communities as he taught insults to each others with Mike, Roier and Maximus in their respective languages Multiple more players were namedropped (including eggs) while Antoine was talking about how the server functions

Yes, Baghera and Etoiles kept their QSMP skins. Etoiles with his code corrupted purgatory one, and Baghera with her fading pink disheveled hair (with the addition of her cubito wearing Horty's merch)

Baghera admits that going back to this small familiar vanilla server feels like coming back home to your family during the holidays

Team du Lundi's cameos in QSMP :

Though Pomme has never canonically met JDG (even though most of her parents have talked about him to her at least once), she occasionaly breaks the 4th wall to refer to him. She once compared one of BBH's "vacation" flower shirts with his, and when Foolish and Bad asked her to elaborate (obviously not getting the reference) she proceeded to play JDG's music theme with the flute instead (Also I really feel the need to once more point out how mindblowing it is for your average french speaking viewer to have JDG's intro theme being added to the mod they use in the QSMP because of how anchored it is within french internet pop culture. Like this shit has been existing for 14 fucking years, it's part of the childhood of a lot of us, so to find a clip of British hardcore player Philza peacefuly listening to Mexican egg admin Tallulah play this theme on her flute feels like a multiverse fever dream)

Horty has been on Quesadilla Island through cc!Baghera's account, but neither of them really wanted to justify it RP wise. Baghera just wanted to give her best friend a tour of the island. Horty only got to meet Richarlyson who gave her a tour of Cellbit's castle and made her pick a room (she chose Chaos). She also chatted with Etoiles who tagged along for a bit and (this is obviously justified by it being a one-shot out of roleplay filler episode kind of night) they both already knew each other and were on friendly enough terms to bicker with one another Also she was part of the French speakers Quackity reached out to to invite on the server, but she had to decline because she was very busy at that time (and also not interested) Also also she was Baghera's teammate for that Formula 4 event, and Baghera has discussed it and showed pictures to a couple of islanders, including Richas who was very hyped about it

Another player the viewers were hoping to see on Quackity's server is Mynthos. He exists within the server with the picture of him that hangs in Pomme's art gallery, the cursed animation video that used to play in La France, as well as with Aypierre's health potion factory that bears his name

Angle Droit and Zerator are sometimes namedropped when the French speakers talk with their chat. Angle Droit frequently raids Baghera's and Antoine's streams, and though it has never been confirmed, a lot of viewers theorized that she was the +1 player Baghera and Etoiles wanted to invite on the server had they won the elections.

As for Zera, Etoiles went AFK on QSMP a couple of times in order to test some of Zerator's TrackMania maps (which he later discussed with Pac). I also remember a very trivial conversation Etoiles had with Mouse and Aypierre where he laughed about hurting his back very badly after carrying a fellow streamer during a caritative event, said event was hosted by Zerator (he's also the one judging them with concern from his desk)

I'm done.

Bonus alternative design for Angle Droit because at first I thought she was a fox then it turned out she was a corgi but then she changed it again to a fox and woop

#I wrote down a whole other post just as long as this one to explain my individual thought process behind each designs #Took me weeks to write- had a couple of clips to back up my headcanons #but then I was reading the post again checking for mistakes before realizing #yo just #that is so many words and for what #just let your designs speak for themselves hey trust yourself let there be room for interpretation #if people turn out to be curious well i guess thats what ask box was created for leave it be thats enough #(not) fun fact : I drew those Baghera Etoiles & Antoine designs back in june and the files got corrupted and I lost a week worth of work #if we are mutuals on discord youve mightve heard me whine about this one #mcyt #team du lundi #qsmp #angle droit #hortyunderscore #baghera jones #zerator #etoiles #mynthos #joueur du grenier #antoine daniel #serveur du lundi #my art

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butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway · 2 years

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I was talking to a client today about "how to identify masking" as part of the process of learning how to shift masking from a reflexive coping strategy to a voluntary and conscious one and I feel like it led to a really important shift in framework FOR ME about masking and social distress.

Paraphrasing, the ideas we came to are as follows:

One of the reasons masking can be so difficult to recognize is because, essentially, masking is the act of performing "yourself" as a mirror for the other person you are interacting with. It's this idea of "I will micro-manage my own mood, affect, behavior, mannerisms, and environment in order to reflect back to you whatever version of "self" you need from me because if I don't there will be consequences". So because masking is essentially performing "mirroring" as selfhood by amplifying or minimizing aspects of yourself based on what you think the other person wants to see in you, it varies significantly from one context to another. The major commonality is that it takes up an INCREDIBLE amount of energy, mental and emotional resources, cognitive processing power, etc. So you don't identify masking by specific behaviors so much as by the feeling of "having a significant amount of your mental/emotional resources be occupied by the act of social interaction" to the point that it doesn't leave enough left-over for other cognitive tasks, or leaves you feeling exhausted and worn out, or basically by the impact that masking has on you during and after.

In this framework, part of why we get so anxious about new or unfamiliar people or situations is because we don't know how to mask in that context yet, and so until we get there and figure it out, we're basically just terrified of what could go wrong since we don't know what we're walking into.*

*This is the underlying framework of anticipatory and obsessive anxiety as well. Anticipatory and obsessive anxiety functions as the mechanism by which we conduct both predictive reasoning-basd advance planning and review/self-correctionof our mental predictive model.

Autistic aversion to uncertainty has a lot to do with our need to be able to use predictive reasoning-based advance planning to cope with "social deficits" aka how much harder it is for us to interpret subtextual/nonverbal cues, learn/meet social expectations, and work through/around disordered sensory processing. That predictive reasoning requires us to be familiar, in advance, with the stable constant factors that influence decision making in social contexts. If we aren't familiar with the constant variables than we can't plan, if we can't plan than we are more likely to make noticeable social mis-steps, and if we take notable social mis-steps there are consequences. It becomes necessary for us to be hypervigilent to observable patterns in other people's behavior in order to try to reverse engineer the social interaction playbook on the fly. That ends up making us more likely to assume personal responsibility for predicting and managing the emotional regulatory needs of people around us at all costs, replicating the behavioral/cognitive impacts of chronic traumatic stress due to the activation of our sympathetic nervous system from chronic hypervigilence.

Essentially, masking is a cognitive defense mechanism to severe and/or persistant traumatic interpersonal stressors. As the neurological impacts of chronic traumatic stress heal, we mask less frequently. But in order to heal from chronic traumatic stress, the human brain requires a safe environment that does not trigger a retraumatization episode or replicate feelings of helplessness/fear for safety. In other words, reducing/terminating masking safely requires us as autistic people to have consistent access to social environments in which we are able to utilize autistic interpersonal boundaries without fear of consequence or chonically unmet need. This requires the people around us to be able to respect not only autistic interpersonal boundaries, but also autistic self-expression/advocacy modalities and mediums.

I feel like a lot of the pieces of this framework have been rattling around in my head for a while but the flavor of words hit just right today and all the connections snapped into place.

Anyway, I'm still sort of sorting through the clinical implications of this framework but I think it's a direction I want to keep exploring for sure.

#i love my ASD client sessions it's so fucking MAGICAL how much those clients are thriving as we work together #like I don't know how to describe how well therapy goes when the client and clincian are speaking the same language it's really cool #anyway I feel like this is going to be part of how I assert the validity of my new modality because hot damn does it sync up perfectly #this framework so perfectly outlines the logical justification for the modality's clinical foundations #which will be really helpful in asserting the extant body of literature/evidence base for those clinical foundations as relevant #i need to update the files for my thesiiiiiiiiiiiiiis #actuallyautistic

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samanthamulder · 8 months

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I feel like I’ve lost sight of myself, Mulder. It’s hard to see, let alone find in the darkness of covert locations. I mean, I wish I could say that we were going in circles, but we’re not. We’re going in an endless line -- two steps forward and three steps back. While my own life is...standing still.

THE X-FILES GIF MEME — [1/20] EPISODES layout adapted from: x + x

#starting this off with my beloved because I did not put her in my top 10 eps for the event...which was purely a mood based decision tbh #I STILL LOVE HER THE MOST ACTUALLY!!#when I think about 'and then along the way there are other fathers'.....GOD. instant emotional damage +3000 #and that looooong oner down the stairs into the basement to the furnace!! I love television <3 #the x files #txf #tv #txf4 #txfedit #tvedit #90sedit #thexfilesnet #.gif #*txfmeme #*txfmeme.episodes #also I'm hitting my own head with a frying pan as we speak because I forgot to watermark these AAAAAAAHHH I want to ***!!#*saul queued

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peachfruitcake · 10 months

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Nowhere to really go

#the walten files #twf #sophie walten #twf sophie #art #digital art #procreate #fanart #the walten files fanart #twf fanart #doodle #ok but can we just go over the fact that she’s pretty much been homeless all this time #and yes living in the back of the meat store still counts as legally homeless there’s 4 tiers of homelessness and she’s just a step above #living in the streets in a car or in a tent #actually fun fact her and Jenny living in a hotel counts as legal homelessness too #speaking from my homelessness experience hehe 🫶🏻#tbh the meat store thing would only not count as homelessness if the owner has a specific living space in the meat store like one of those #shops that are a part of someone’s actual house and if the owner stated Sophie as a direct occupant of the home if there was one #sooooo ya hahahaha

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rashoumon-homo · 8 months

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Been thinking about how the next episode is a total mystery to both manga readers and anime-only fans. From a promotional standpoint, this is a perfect opportunity for them to do something wildly shocking. As far as I know, a situation like this hasn’t come up before in the fandom. It makes me think that they’re preparing for something huge that they didn’t want half the fandom to know before the other half.

And my delusional ass wants it to be Soukoku canon. Like wasn’t there an interview or something about how this season will show the true depth of Chuuya and Dazai’s relationship? And that ship is a really big part of the fandom- it would rock us to the core if it became canon.

I know there’s like no chance logically, but man wouldn’t that be cool. They’ve set themselves up for a reveal of that caliber. This is the perfect time for them to follow through.

#the fact that Dazai is moderately to severely dead is irrelevant what are you talking about #soukoku has fried my braincells #filing a health insurance claim against soukoku as we speak #let these insane men kiss #delusional rambling #delulu moment #bsd theory?#<— barely #soukoku #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bungo stray dogs

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aengelren · 5 hours

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gege better stack up security guards before making his next move

#filing my nails as we speak gege it’s on sight #not a threat nono it’s a promise #my poor beautiful helpless baby #jjk 259

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deus-ex-mona · 11 months

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historians will say that they were ✨just rivals✨

#aka ‘h ow the heck does that ~2 sec long aizowink gif from the mvm have a larger file size than all of these—’#the hug gif annoys me though ngl the ‘g e t a r o o m’ energy is real #so i finally got round to ‘remaking’ these without physically recording my laptop screen like a hoser #m an am i sick of lxl (i say; browsing through lxl pixiv)#speaking of p ix iv though.. don’t look at nagisa’s tag on there p l s it’s like 80% lip-hiyo on there #half of that remaining 20% is official mv art (and that sweet nghy we love) and the rest of that is. well.#…nagisa x satoe. help mans i just want nghy how di d it end up like this—#i digress. anyways. lxl fruity i don’t make the rules; y’all voted for them against lovewins elicchi so you have to suffer with my lxl posts #染BODY ONCE TOLD ME—

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impossible-rat-babies · 4 months

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me grabbing eyrie and shaking them is it not enough to have gone through four ships by now. is it not enough for you funny man

#first thancred then g’raha and then zenos and now I’m still thinking about redacted #I can’t even mention and expansion or it’s gonna be so obvious #moots can stash this post in a folder and in two months I’m gonna be goofy pool #me furiously filing away things into AU’s before accepting at this point there just isn’t a canon #okay okay haurchefant doesn’t count bc I never really entertained beyond what the plot gave us #and with thancred it turned into a they had sex once or twice in ARR and it wasn’t ever a relationship #even though they did end up with a messy friendship in post HW + ShB of unresolved guilt #G’raha slipped into they worked better as friends tbh #Zenos is a can of worms of you get to au’s funny man #and I’ve been vibing a lot with the one where he dies and there’s a lot of complicated grief for eyrie #and the nebulous status of what they meant to each other #enemies or friends or kindered spirit or the hero and the villain aren’t so different #I am NOT SPEAKING redacted into the world #I’m gonna rotate it in my brain #owen talks #no consistent canon we create what brings joy in the moment #and look back at what we once created with the affection of something that once made us very happy

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zazter-den · 3 months

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Great News! I got my back blown out, in the best way possible, in the middle of the week. Bad News: I got my back blown out in the best way possible, in the middle of the week.

#walking funny onto the jobsite with the *biggest* grin on my face #I always carry a condom just in case but I didn't actually think I'd *use* it #filing this under middle aged himbo problems #safe to say my V-Day went unexpectedly well #also we have to go back to that arcade bar #it had a bunch of fun things to play and a peach bourbon palmer called a 'glitch' ^^#zaz motormouth #zaz speaks #minors dni #aymeric the picnic prince

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scattered-winter · 5 months

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working retail is making me remember how much i hate stupid customers btw

#so i work in a tiny nonprofit thrift store. right.#its one room w concrete floors and very compact shelving because there is just No Room for anything.#and our office/employee backroom/breakroom is a little corner with wood+canvas dividers separating it from the rest of the store #with LOTS of signs saying employees only nothing is for sale here etc etc etc #and there was a customer today who went through the divider to ''shop'' in the ''other section of the store''#and we didnt even KNOW someone was back there until she brought up one of my coworker's purses to ask how much it was </3 #im so baffled. there are so many signs saying its employees only.#not to mention that the office is full of notes and paperwork and my boss's computer and filing cabinets and the fridge and microwave #its CLEARLY an office/break room. even if you ignore all the signs. and YET.#there's also people who will literally just steal. anything and everything #which like. i will always support shoplifting from walmart or another big retail company. in fact i encourage it.#but a tiny locally owned NONPROFIT thrift store that supports local arts ???? HELLO ????????????????#gah. i should be allowed to throttle one customer per day. i should get paid to do so #most of them are so so sweet. we have regulars who are in almost every day and they are the NICEST people ever #but its just those few who are absolutely the worst most selfish stupid people to ever live #woes from work #winter speaks #all complaining aside i do enjoy my job quite a bit more than i thought i would #i like my coworkers and i feel like im actually connecting with most of them #and i love my supervisor. i have so much respect for her she's an amazing person #you win some you lose some i guess. cool job i actually like but with stupid fucking customers who make me want to MURDER

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a-being-of-chaossss · 9 months

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Theory Time

K spoilers for Persona 5 Royal (Third Semester) and Royal additions in general

Theory: The Phantoms Thieves never actually escape Maruki's reality

Hear me out. I think in the true ending to the third semester (the ending where you "defeat" Maruki and everything goes back to normal) is entirely fake and no matter what Maruki always wins.

Ok so after phase 2 of Maruki's boss fight, there is a scene where Maruki's Persona grows to a colossal size and "attempts" to smash the Phantom Thieves. According to the story, the Phantom Thieves are able to hold back the attack and end Maruki's "ideal" reality, but what if they didn't? Maruki says he wants a world where everyone is happy, INCLUDING the phantom thieves. So what if Maruki humoured them with a battle so he could get them to accept his reality?

After the fist, multiple events happen that explictly go against the pre-established rules of the game, the most obvious being Mona turning into a helicopter. Some others are Maruki not disappearing after his persona is killed, Maruki not dying in the place despite clearly not leaving and Akechi supposedly being alive in the post-credit scene. Maruki also has the ability to alter memories so what if everything after the punch is a hallucation? Maruki is also shown to have some ability similar to mind reading as he would have no other way of knowing everyone's wishes so recreating the velvet room / its attendants wouldn't be impossible. Basically, i would be super easy for Maruki to falsify these memories.

Additionally, the entire reason Maruki became a god is because society wished to be ruled by someone and the phantom thieves moved that responibility onto him. So if they truely defeated Maruki, would society not pass the burden onto them?

Anyways thats my rant and remember, this is just a theory. A PERSONA THEORY!

#this entire thing came from my dad playing p5r after I played the base game and realizing there was an after-credits scene w/ Akechi #so I replayed the entire game under his ng+ save file #when I tell you I had this in my drafts for over 2 months #but im neurodivergent and have the time to do this so here we are #persona #p5r #p5 #persona 5 royal #persona 5 #takuto maruki #maruki takuto #third semester #persona theories #the chaos speaks

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