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[rashoumon-homo]

Hands (Chuuya x Reader)

Chuuya x Trans Male Reader, NSFW

-> Content Warnings: trans male reader, oral (reader receiving), fingering (reader receiving), amab terms for afab parts, “wetness” is mentioned but otherwise no fem terms

-> 1.7k words

Author’s Note: this was my first time writing trans smut and it was really really hard for me. Hopefully this is beneficial and euphoria-inducing to someone out there who doesn’t get to see themself represented in reader insert fanfic often.

NSFW CONTENT AHEAD - READ AT YOUR OWN RISK

The first time you watched Chuuya tug off his gloves, you knew those hands would be the death of you. The smooth skin of his palms, those long, powerful fingers. How might they feel loosely caged around your neck? Slipped under the hem of your shirt, roaming along the expanse of your waist and abdomen?

It was no more than a fantasy; a guilty pleasure of yours. Until, a week or so after you’d started dating, you were walking side by side and he casually grabbed your hand, lacing his fingers into yours. Even with the glove acting as a layer between you, the warmth of his skin seeped through to yours. The muscles in his palms, in each section of his fingers, flexed ever so slightly as you both moved, reminding you of their presence. His hand was smaller than you expected, about the same size as yours. But he was much more confident with it, which lent to the impression it was larger than it was. He’d rubbed his thumb over the back of your hand to relax you, though it had much the opposite effect. The gentle pressure sent shivers down your spine, collecting and pulsing between your legs. It seemed your body wanted to feel that rhythmic, gentle pressure somewhere else.

When he pinned you against the wall and kissed you for the first time, his hands were a significant part of the equation. One held your waist while the other slid from the side of your neck to your jaw, his leg slotted between yours all the while. He pressed his thigh into your throbbing dick as he kissed you, coaxing a small groan from your mouth. Even while kissing, he moved deliberately; never half-assing or doubting his movements for a moment. He was confident. Dominant. Though trapped between the cool brick and his warm body pressing into you, you didn’t feel cornered or afraid; far from it. You wanted more.

Then came the fantasies. You wrote it off as innocent curiosity at first, wondering whether the pads of his fingers would be rough or smooth under the gloves. One thing led to another, and you were imagining his hands sliding over the sensitive part of your waist, squeezing the curve of your ass, pushing your thighs apart to venture between your legs. Those skilled hands would know all the right spots to touch, to press and stroke, to bring you to orgasm. The thoughts themselves were enough to aid you when getting yourself off, at least. At the rate things were going, all he’d have to do is reach for your belt and you’d cum in your pants like a teenager. Luckily for you, you lasted a bit longer when the time came.

You were spread out on his mattress, still dressed, while he stood at the foot of the bed and slipped off his jacket. He eyed you hungrily as he continued to undress, unbuttoning his shirt one button at a time at a deliberately slow pace. You licked your lips and swallowed. When you reached to take off your own clothes, he stopped you.

“I want to unwrap you myself,” he said, eyes trailing up and down your body. He tossed his shirt aside and knelt on the bed between your legs, pushing them to a bent position to give himself more room. He handed you another pillow to prop up your head, looking a little nervous for the first time since you’d met him. “You comfortable, baby?” he asked, resting his hand on your knee.

You nodded. “I’m fine,” you reassured him. “Just really fucking horny.”

Chuuya laughed lightly, now finally reaching for the button on your jeans. “That I can help with.”

You could feel the pressure of his fingers near your groin as he undid the button. Only a couple layers of fabric separated you from his touch. The tug of the zipper was unbearable, sending miniature vibrations through the fabric of your underwear. Nowhere near enough to get off from, but enough to tease you. Without thinking, you bucked up into his touch.

“Ahh, sorry,” you said quickly, hiding your face in embarrassment.

“Hey,” he said softly, pulling your hands away. “Don’t hide, baby. You being eager is a good thing.”

He tugged your pants off and threw them to the side, but hesitated before reaching for the waistband of your boxers. He ran his knuckles lightly over the fabric over your crotch, pressing a little harder at the moist patch you’d left.

“So wet for me already…” he murmured. He glanced up then, and asked, “Is that alright for me to say?”

You nodded, then guided his hand higher to where your dick throbbed against the fabric. “Though, I prefer you to point out how hard I am as a measure of arousal.” He nodded, experimentally petting over it through your boxers.

“As long as you don’t use any words you wouldn’t use for an amab guy, it’s fine,” you reminded him.

“Before I start, are you okay with my fingers inside?” he asked.

“Please,” you said quickly. Then shyly, you added, “Would you be okay with taking off your gloves? I’ve kind of been fantasizing about that for a while.”

Chuuya grinned, then tugged off his gloves with his teeth. And there were his beautiful, slender hands, exposed to the air once more. They reached for your waistband, knuckles just grazing your skin, as he pulled your boxers off.

Chuuya swallowed, eyes wide as he took in the sight before him. “God, that’s sexy,” he breathed.

He gripped the undersides of your thighs to spread them wider, positioning you. Rather than go for your dripping hole first like you expected, he rubbed his thumb along the underside of your dick. It throbbed against his touch, and you let out a short moan. He did it again, eliciting a similar reaction.

“You wanna jerk me off, baby?” you asked with a lazy smile. “Here, try like this.” You pushed his hand aside with your own and curled your finger, showing him how you like to jack off on your own. He copied the motion and pretty soon had the hang of it.

You moaned, arching your back to angle your hips towards him. “So good, baby,” you praised.

Chuuya slid his finger down to your hole and pushed it in with ease. He added another on the next thrust, curling them inside you as he moved them. “So warm,” he murmured.

“More,” you groaned. Your dick ached with need.

Continuing to stroke his fingers inside of you, he took your dick into his mouth. His eyes flicked up to study your reactions as he tried a mix of sucking it and rolling his tongue over it at different intensities.

“Oh fuck,” you moaned. Your breath came out as short gasps as you writhed under his touch. “Feels so fucking good.” Those hands really were magic, the way they pressed into you just right. And his mouth must have been sent from heaven, with how expertly he sucked dick.

Chuuya’s free hand pressed down on your hip to hold you in place. His hips were moving, you noticed, as he grinded against the bed. After a broken moan of yours, he groaned against your dick, sending vibrations shooting through you like lightning.

“Chuuya!” you gasped. A familiar heat started to gather in your groin. Your eyes rolled back and you gripped the sheets so hard your knuckles turned white. “Chuuya… fuck, Chuuya… ‘m gonna-”

Your whole body tensed and you let out a loud cry, clenching down hard on Chuuya’s fingers. He slowed down but continued to fuck you through the orgasm.

He took his mouth off your dick and must have at some point started rambling words of praise because when you came back down, he was murmuring, “…hot like that, the way you look when you cum, you’re doing so good for me baby boy, so perfect.”

You breathed heavily, muscles finally relaxing. Your skin was covered with a sheen of sweat and you felt exhausted but happy. When you looked down at Chuuya, he was looking back at you with such adoration it made you feel shy all over again.

“Taking my fingers out now,” he warned. He slid them out, then quickly grabbed a tissue to catch the majority of the cum dripping from them. He gave you a kiss on the forehead, then said, “I’m gonna wash my hands and then I’ll come clean you up, ‘kay?”

You nodded, and closed your eyes. There was the sound of the bathroom sink once, then twice, then the pressure of him sitting on the bed alerted you to his return. He gently cleaned you up with a warm washcloth, then set clean pajamas at the end of the bed.

“You should probably go piss before you fall asleep,” he said. “I heard it’s important.”

“You did your research,” you said, surprised.

“Well, yeah,” he said, as if it was obvious. “I wanna take good care of my boyfriend. If that means doing some extra reading, I’ll do it.”

Your eyes crinkled into a smile. “Babe! When I get back from the bathroom, I want cuddles, so get ready.”

In the bathroom, you changed into the pajamas Chuuya had lent you, smiling at your reflection in the mirror like an idiot. And true to your word, as soon as you came back to the bedroom, you hopped in beside him and snuggled into his arms. The comforter had been replaced with a new one - luckily all the mess had been on top of it instead of the sheets.

Chuuya kissed you as you settled into the sheets, stroking the back of your head lovingly.

“Thank you for taking such good care of me- for everything really. I’m sorry I didn’t get you off too,” you said.

“Oh, uh…” he said, blushing. “I kinda… came while sucking you off?”

Your eyes widened and you grinned. “You did not!”

Chuuya shrugged sheepishly.

“And here I thought I was gonna be the one to cum before even getting touched,” you snickered.

“Hey!” he said, shoving your arm.

You caught him in a kiss, and the two of you laughed together until you fell asleep tangled in each other’s arms.

Back to Masterlist

#reblogging myself for chuuya’s birthday? #more likely than you think #anyway I PROMISE I’m doing more writing and you’ll see it soon hehe #for now enjoy this older Chuuya x reader fic #lowkey one of my favorite reader insert fics I’ve written #chuuya birthday #bsd chuuya #bsd #bungou stray dogs

[rashoumon-homo]

Mr Fancy Hat's birthdayyy

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd chuuya

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Happy birthday to the little guy ever 🍰

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd chuuya

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#35 - gravity boy's bday

#ITS CHUUYAS BDAY #for like 2 more hours at least oops #bsd chuuya #bsd #bungou stray dogs

[rashoumon-homo]

I have a confession to make.

Every time I read “Ryuunosuke Akutagawa” in my head, I do it to the tune of that part at the beginning of Hello Kitty by Avril Lavigne where she says “Minna saikō, arigatō!”

I will now inflict this on all of you. Try it.

#should I make a tag for my shitposts? #genuinely asking here #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd akutagawa #Spotify

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Atsushi going literal beast mode:

Akutagawa:

its funny to think that whereas the average person might simp over atsushi becuz of how kind/polite/sweet he is, aku simps over atsushi when he’s being a bitch/ becuz he’s bitchy

#he was planning their wedding in his head #I love their dynamic sm #also excuse the hastily drawn blush I had to use Instagram and my finger lol #bsd #bungou stray dogs #shin soukoku #sskk

[rashoumon-homo]

❌ Transgender as a noun

Dehumanizing

Ignorant

Puts the label before the person

Makes you sounds like a bigoted old man

“Those damn transgenders”

✅ Transgender as a verb

Sick as fuck

The name of my secret special move

Vaguely ominous

Your gender is never safe

“Get transgendered, loser”

#I am sitting in the bathtub rn #hacking into my shower thoughts #I love this loophole #shitpost #trans #transgender

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BSD S2 EP11 | SSKK + SYMMETRY

#literally just kiss already #sskk #shin soukoku #hopefully future me will remember this post later when I’m trying to find sskk images #it’s always so hard to find the moments I’m thinking of 😭 #thank you op #bungou stray dogs #bsd

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Akutagawa looking at Atsushi from afar in official art compilation

#he’s always gazing so longingly 😭 #chronically down bad #this to me is in the same genre as that one official art where dazai is looking at chuuya thru binoculars from like super far away #aku learned from him 😔 #shin soukoku #sskk #bsd #bungou stray dogs

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I just read your rant post and wanted to say that even if I'm not trans, I agree with you.

And I wanted to say that the people who commented under your reddit post (the ones you mentioned at least) and the author who deleted the comment I AO3 are just, well, ✨borderline idiotic✨ and ✨the kind of stupid where your head hurts because you facepalm so much✨

So I think your reaction and all is very much valid if you feel uncomfortable with some of their shit

Just wanted to say that-

Sorry if that bothers you or anything-

Uhm, have hugs and kisses and boops because that's all I can think of right now!

(sorry for that, sleepy and emotional and hungry right now-)

Thank you awww! This helped make my day a little better, you’re so sweet <3

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Rant ahead, prolly gonna delete later

TW: gender dysphoria, fetishization of trans men in fanfiction

Idk if it’s just me but I’m a trans guy who typically won’t touch “trans male [character]” smut fics with a ten foot pole. I’ve found a handful that are respectfully written, but for the most part they make me feel so fucking uncomfortable. It’s like the (non-trans) writers don’t see trans men as real men. There’s frequent untagged feminization, excessively feminine terms, and an alarming number of pregnancy fics. I get that some people like these things, and I respect that, but that’s pretty much ALL that’s out there. It’s like they want to write for a m/m ship but only want to write m/f smut, so they slap “trans” on there. It’s so blatantly obvious that the majority of these writers have never done a drop of research on what it means to be trans masc, much less MET a trans masc person irl.

Not only that, complaining about it makes YOU the bad guy. I made a post on the AO3 subreddit back when I first joined it (aka before I knew better) just kind of venting about the way trans characters are written in fics. I was a lot more gentle and understanding about it than I’m being here btw. And instantly the post got flooded with comments saying that “just because you don’t like it doesn’t mean other people don’t.” Or “my roommate’s boyfriend’s brother is trans and he doesn’t care about that stuff.” Or that people are free to write whatever they want and if I don’t like it I shouldn’t be reading it. (My favorite one was “I’m cis but I don’t see an issue”) I ended up deleting the post.

Back in February there was this fic I read that did all that same shit and it pissed me off. Untagged feminization, afab language, the whole shebang. And I KNOW that author wouldn’t have treated the character that way if they were writing a cis man. For legal reasons, this comment was not written by me, but it was deleted by the author right away with no response.

I blocked them and moved on.

I guess what brought all these emotions back was a post I saw where someone was complaining about other cultures being written in an accidentally offensive way in fics. The same people who tore down my post (and others like it) were suddenly all into the idea of respecting the cultures you write, doing research on them, etc. How is trans culture any different? Why is it “um actually some trans guys like being feminized” but then “these cultural stereotypes are offensive and the author should do better?”

Not too long ago, I decided to start writing trans characters in fics. It was really tough for me, since I had to battle a lot of my own dysphoria, but I felt like it was worth it if it meant there was just one more fic out there to make trans people feel seen and respected. Being seen as a real man and being trans should not be mutually exclusive. It’s possible to be both. And it’s painfully obvious when the writer doesn’t see it like that.

If you’re trans and you feel the same way about all this, lmk. Sometimes I feel like I really am the unreasonable one and that I’m all alone here and it really fucks with my head.

And if you’re cis and wanting to write trans characters, I implore you to learn about us first. Trans people are not a shortcut to writing m/f smut. They have their own unique experience of the world that needs to be taken into account if you’re going to write them respectfully. Listen to trans voices. Please.

#rant #trans character #trans #transmasc #fanfic rant #gender dysphoria #tw dysphoria #transgender #trans man #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd fics #ao3 subreddit

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chuu

#sometimes I forget that I’m technically bisexual #and then a post like this comes along and reminds me #fem chuuya could step on me and I’d thank her #she’s so gorgeous #bsd chuuya #bsd #bungou stray dogs #rashoumon simping

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dazai fluffy cat because when he gets wet he dissappears and becomes a soggy twig

#biblically accurate dazai #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai

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My guy does NOT want to be here

My favorite type of official art is Akutagawa being put in domestic situations and looking deeply uncomfortable about it

#I can relate tho #I hate the beach #bsd akutagawa #bsd #bungou stray dogs

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Bonus baby Chuuya! He’s always slept like this 🥺💕

Side note, now I want to see baby wan chuuya and baby wan dazai cuddling. They robbed us of baby dazai fr 😔

“Dazai is the big spoon!” “No, Chuuya is!” NO YOU’RE BOTH WRONG! SKK CUDDLE LIKE THIS:

#this is so fucking canon #it’s like asagiri possessed you just to deliver this message #I sleep like Chuuya but on my stomach instead of my back #what does it mean :0 #skk #soukoku #bsd #bungou stray dogs

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#ATSUSHI’S MUSCLES????? #the way he’s just lifting Akutagawa up?? #not to mention Akutagawa’s MIDRIFF #I’m like one of those Victorian dudes who would go feral at the sight of an ankle #i’m simping so hard dude #give me a sec #gotta catch my breath #AND ANOTHER THING- #beast giving Atsushi’s design a collar has to be the most devious thing they’ve done yet #they know my only weakness is men in collars #bsd #bungou stray dogs #shin soukoku #sskk #rashoumon simping

[rashoumon-homo]

Like and reblog if you can relate to this:

#I will never shut up about this btw #this is like my roman empire but worse #this is my pompeii #anyway TAG YOUR DAMN FICS #my list of blocked terms is so long I have to scroll and some fem reader stuff STILL falls through the cracks #at least I’m not alone in my frustration #also fun fact this is why I started writing x reader fics