#I'm very tired of People today

[jils-things]

by the lighthouse.

dividers

#alright i suppose i should tell what's up lately! im mostly posting this like a mini update or whatever haha #so - since i made that last post on my disappearance i worked endlessly to finish my animation project and thank goodness it's finally over #i had to take a break from trying to be social here and just stay in my own space and i did that by having a smaller side blog to ramble #the project was very... tiring - definitely took out so much energy from me post physically and mentally and i was just frustrated everyday #so i just took my time to be alone with a few close people and i like to think im okay now? #i like to think so - since i was able to deliver a few commission drafts today so i'm relieved that im back to my usual pace #I'll post a few of my doodles here i did during my project just to fill the void haha #i've acquired a minor familial from another video game and i care for him a lot :] idk ill bother to talk abt it here but yeah thats funnn #also indulging a lil bit of t.n.m.n content as of late also thanks to my friend who knows abt it hehe #soo yeah! I don't know if ill be active like the usual but know that i'm doing alright now! hope everyone's doing okay too xoxo #ill probably still stay in my smaller blog for a little longer but will occasionally pop in here! #sooo yaaa #~ art #♥️ memoryshipping #also yea i think no.rton only had like. 10 days worth of being the blog brand here until i switched back to the usual guy lmaooo sorry 😔

[theflyingfeeling]

...😭

#i've never had a job in my own field that i've liked as much as i've liked my current one #the semester is ending soon and today i heard my contract will not be renewed bc the person i'm substituting will return to work after all #i've been feeling so tired and a bit poorly after the nokia arena show and i probably should have called in sick today #as i was absolutely useless today #and then after my only class today my students came to me with a gift?? 😭 #a pink enamel moomin mug and some chocolate and a paper on which they had written nice things about me + a drawing of a dachshund 😭 #and i burst to tears right there in front of them because i was so touched (and also because i'm just really really tired and emotional) #i'm so tired about having to apply for new jobs and having to start all over again #i'm so tired of having to do shitty short-notice substitutions again #i feel like i deserve better than that but on the other hand i fee like life's giving me exactly what i deserve and maybe this is it #i'm dreading the summer because idk if i'll have a job to go to in the autumn #and even if i did find something it won't be like the job i have now #also. it's may day eve and the weather's lovely #and i'm hiding in my apartment with the curtains closed so i won't see all the people going out and having fun with their friends #for me may day eve has never been like that. i've always felt so very excluded from those celebrations #on top of that i got yelled at by a bus driver and i'm the worst friend that ever existed #i'm trying to quit on whining about my sad little life but it gets so lonely #please know i'm not writing this for attention or pity. i know y'all have problems of your own and i'm just being a dramatic crybaby

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #jodie whittaker #jo martin #can't believe it's been 3 years since this episode already!!!! #give me all the fugitive doc big finish stuff now pleaseeee #hello friends this week has been SO TIRING #yesterday was the most tiring day i've had with this class so far #today was much better though thankfully #people at work were like 'what are your weekend plans???' #and i'm just like 'i'm a very big fan of doing absolutely nothing' #ESPECIALLY after this week lmao....... #anyways i hope you've all been well!!!

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

doing the potion shop event is making me think of making little potions with Foul Legacy and teaching him how to do alchemy and collect ingredients so you can run your own little shop,,,

#genshin impact #childe #tartaglia #foul legacy #foul legacy childe #genshin tartagalia #genshin childe #genshin tartaglia #hey everyone i'm very tired #i walked like #7 hours today #was fun lots of people tho #i did get to eat eel which is one of my favorite foods ever #buuuut i also tripped and skinned my knee so ow #anyways goodnigthgh

[araneitela]

Me staring at test results: It makes so much sense for her, but if I don't specify or elaborate, then we end up with the fanon take. Ugh, how do I easily explain that if you look at the word 'sex' through a much more old-fashioned lens instead of the modern one, that you'll get a vastly different picture of it?

/takes angycat.png typing to my tags

#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. #[ post-it. ] in a way; you are poetry material. you are full of cloudy subtleties I am willing to spend a lifetime figuring out. #[ i'm so tired. i need to write a post on this or something. and somehow add it to my pinned. in some way. ] #[ 'sex' and 'seduction' are /not/ wrong in my opinion. HOWEVER-- they are /very wrong/ if we go by modern labels and perception. ] #[ god the horror of writing a muse that is so interlaced in a modern world; setting and culture but seems to /ooze/ something archaic. ] #[ this level of refinement isn't of our times in my opinion. these things that she loves aren't commonly loved nowadays. ] #[ there's so much about her that is old-fashioned to me and it's so in my face. and yet fanon doesn't see it. ] #[ i can't believe i'm an old millennial who's screaming boomer or older things. ] #[ but like can we acknowledge that sex in today's age isn't the same as it used to be? not /always/ but more generally so. ] #[ can we acknowledge that /seduction/ didn't always mean what people see it to mean now? ] #[ can we acknowledge that the FEMME FETALE TROPE HAS CHANGED /LEAGUES/ since the 2000s? ] #[ which is my biggest beef actually. and maybe all of my frustration plays into this most. it's that the femme fatale now is sexualized. ] #[ while that is /not/ what the femme fatale used to be. kafka plays into the old school femme fatale so well. film noir days. ] #[ i had this same struggle on yelan where they make VERY OBVIOUS draws to it by her music in her trailer. god; the jazz. ] #[ but kafka suffers from this so very much as well to a point where i don't dare to call her a femme fatale because then it's fanon. ] #[ the fanon i hate so much. ] #[ but just uuuughhhh. UGHHH. it's so much to explain. ]

[diabolicalworldwriter]

one of my friends is intensely hyperfixated on Attack on Titan and has been for a while and so I drew this for her for her birthday because she is one of the best people ever and deserves nice things.

better version is under the cut, but TW/CW for blood.

#aot fanart #eruri #snk fanart #honestly I'm too tired to tag a lot today idc if people see my art or not #erwin x levi #this was supposed to be her christmas present but I'm not very punctual #even as a birthday present I'm a few days late

[fuckin-sick-bih]

if y'all see a snzfucker in a brand-spankin' new titanium gray wheelchair with cherry red accents in 2-4 months its me, bitch

#just bex talkin #off topic #so very off topic i'm just real excited bc DME babeeyyy #i can't wait to have a wheelchair that FITS again because holy shit I did not realize how Too Big for me mine was until today #oopsie fixing that as we speak #ideally make it so the chair fits me really well both so i can move really fluidly again and so people see ME the PERSON and not my chair #ha... ha ha is this why my fucking pain has been so bad? holy shit wow lightbulb moment #also wow advocating for your needs is exhausting guys holy shit i'm tired

[bookishtheaterlover7]

Went over to blea74s page and she did bad mouth you with capt about being awful kids //

Anon you are an awful kid! I didn’t see them saying about Books blog.

Thanks, N🫶nnie. For clarifying.

But again, so tired of all this back and forth. And I can't bring myself to care about what she and others did or didn't say.

Damned if I do, damned if I don't... Just wish it didn't come with drama...

#An🫶n asks #An🫶n to An🫶n #booky reacts #booky answers #chris evans #chris evans fandom #Team Chris #special shout-out to the very first Anon to call me a racist which lead me to where I am today #a messy Fandom that's a shell of what it once was... #don't even know if I should post fics anymore if people are gonna say that “I'm obsessed and need mental help” because I write fics #scenarios that live in my head #I'm just sick and tired of all the drama #something that comes with being a part of this Fandom #man I need to rejoin the more obscure Fandoms again 😅 #at least they aren't toxic

[non-un-topo]

Talking to my sister can be one of the most aggravating experiences

#just allowing myself a few moments of self-pity today #because i'm a little overstimulated/sick of people talking AT me #i have begun to notice that i'm never asked anything... not a single thing. no questions about my life or interests or how school is going #no questions about my partner or our anniversary and no acknowledgement of the big haircut i just got #no questions about my BIL's wedding. none about my health. #every day it's just people talking AT me. kind of tired at the moment... #and this is made worse by my sister's holier-than-thou attitude about literally the smallest and most insignificant things #like washing clothes? and cooking rice?? idk she talks like a housewife now. #and i get to listen to her complain about her 35 year old boyfriend and not say ONE kind thing for 2 hours straight #not a single question for me. not a single nice thing. and i'm talked over constantly #it's not like i don't raise my voice or speak my mind lol #it's just that. between my family and my partner's family. it feels like no one knows just how smart i am and how much fun i can be. #my partner is perfect in so many ways. my best friend and the kindest and most compassionate person i know. #but i really could brag and boast like my sister does over absolutely nothing. because i have actual achievements. but i don't #because who does that lol. fucking annoying and rude people. #maybe my family just thinks i'm okay and so they never ask me anything or call me. ever. #but see.... i don't talk to them because i want advice or help or money. i talk to them because they're my family #and i would very much like to feel cherished and loved by them #/ end angst and self-pity boo hoo

[ingo-ingoing-ingone]

could you do me a favor and tag whenever there are ocs in your reblogs? thank you very much

I've so far didn't see much of it on your blog but I just noticed it and I would appreciate it very much.

I can try, but anon, I don't always know what's an OC and what is a canon character in the vast world of Pokémon that I've just never seen before.

Do like minor OCs to fill in gaps in fics count? What about characters who are truly blank slates, like some of the depot agents?

I can try and tag when there's like major OCs but when it comes to minor characters that's where I'm not gonna split hairs.

I guess the tags will be #others ocs and less commonly #my ocs

#anon #I'm not gonna lie I'm giving you a hard side eye as to why you want this #it feels really rude #remember: every single character you know and love is someone's OC #also before anyone @ me: if the very concept of OCs was a trigger I doubt a person with said trigger #would be comfortable with any form of fandom or headcanon or fanfic #maybe I'm wrong but yeah #not in the mood today for figuring this out #anyways OCs are cherished and loved here by the owner of this blog #even if this is a canon character blog not an OC blog #(admittedly I'd reblog more OCs interacting with submas if it wasn't a lot of shipping which isn't my thing) #but when I see OCs interacting with submas in a platonic way I am happy to reblog it :) #sorry if any of this seems rude I'm tired and my mental state is not good #and admittedly. I'm kinda tired of trying to guess what people mean and always giving the benefit of the doubt #please bear with me I'm sorry

[floralcrematorium]

Hetalia vs. Hurricanes

you ever do something you can't explain? yeah. don't ask why i did this, i can't answer

when it came to heta characters, i only used characters who seemed to have solid "official" names given by himaruya. therefore i left out characters who have a list of potential names (like Norway and Denmark) or characters with popular fanon names (like how you see Michelle for Seychelles, Olga for Ukraine, or Lili or Erika for Liechtenstein)

if there were characters who had a different spelling of a name on the list (Francis -> Frances, Feliks -> Felix, and Eduard -> Edouard), i still included them

#hey. what the FUCK is wrong with me #specifically remembering in 2014 when people edited england's face onto hurricane arthur that made landfall in NC on july 4 #i remember the USUK shippers having a field day with that #i made an artist's rendition of the edits i saw for frankie but i'm NOT posting that publicly i. the shame. the repressed memories. #all i have to say to ^ is what the fuck #in 2017 there actually was a tropical cyclone alfred in the northern australia basin #i just stuck to the northern atlantic basin though #anyway clearly i am very busy today #i like making spreadsheets and data collecting and now i've used it for evil #tbh there are probably mistakes i am very tired #i'm so sorry #hetalia #ヘタリア #hws #floralcrematorium is normal and cool #ne ne papa echoes in my nightmares

[eddis-not-eeddis]

I have had a sword for a little less than 24 hours, and already I have driven off a man with it.

#i'm on a language exchange app #i only message other women #but if a guy dms me and asks a language related question i don't mind answering and will have conversations #it's usually business men who tell me up front that they are married and want to know the difference between two very similar words #or random teenagers who try to hold conversations in extremely broken english before getting tired and giving up #from time to time someone tries to get a little too chummy and at that point i just ghost them #so today someone dmed me and after chatting for a bit he asked if i could send him a picture so he could verify that i was a real person #and i get that people are out there pretending to be very different from who they really are...i get that #but my guy #we were talking about verbs four seconds ago #pull yourself together #...now i ALWAYS ignore requests for pics #of any sort at all #however #the newest picture on my phone was one of me #With The Sword #and the temptation was greater than i could withstand #so i sent him that #and he blocked me #XD

[thefearhas]

🎶 10 songs I actually listen to 🎶

thank you @loserlesbianongsa for the tag!!<3 This took me a while because unfortunately I get bored of songs very easily. But now I'm feeling okay with this list.

I decided to include YouTube links so this is going to be a bit long :)

Taro - alt-J (I could listen to this song on repeat for hours)

Dinle Beni Bi' - Yüzyüzeyken Konuşuruz (a basic song but I love listening to this occasionally)

愛是懷疑 - Eason Chan (I stumbled upon this song sometime last month, it's fun)

Redbone - Childish Gambino

Floral & Fading - Pierce The Veil

Back Down the Black - Boy & Bear (I have known this song for a while now and even if I don't listen to it for a long time I still come back to it every time)

letzter song - CRO (I don't know what it is about this song. I just love it.)

so let's love - DAY6 (I have not been listening to DAY6 that much in the last year but their songs still mean a lot to me🧡)

Twilight - Bôa

Pazar ve Ertesi - Son Feci Bisiklet (I'm so so glad that I got introduced to this band. The melody is also a bit basic but it's been 8(?) years and I can still listen to this song sometimes so :))

I'm tagging @zerberosa @hoppipolla if you want to, no pressure.

💜

#Also just tagging anyone who sees this and wants to do this. #Put this in my drafts like six days ago and changed half of the songs again today👍��� #The songs are more on the sad side but that's okay. In two to three weeks I will have other songs I listen to again. #The music I listen to kind of changes a lot sometimes? Or maybe not. I can't really differentiate genres so maybe I'm really just listening #to similar stuff who knows.. #I have a few artists where I like several songs of them. alt-J's songs mean a lot to me. The same with DAY6. And Marina. #I feel like maybe the songs can be a bit boring to other people but it's okay because it's a list for me for now :) #I'm very tired good night🌛 #*z

[savageday6]

.

#word vomit alert!!!!! #i love solo trips out bc i get to do whatever i like without having to make conversation with people but omg....... #this trip has evoked alarming levels of loneliness and melancholy for some reason #maybe it's got something to do with just seeing Too Many People at once... and seeing people live their lives and enjoy company #n then i see myself n while i see an independent carefree person who's at peace with herself there's also a tinge! of! melancholy n pining.. #for companionship... for easy conversations... for connections! #i was also listening to Fourever while roaming around aimlessly and when Happy started playing i immediately teared up #i think i just have too many things on my mind djskfksmmdskkd i need to get back to journaling n meditating. too much anxious energy #also during dinner i sat next to a couple who seemed to be on their first date post dating app conversation. n it reminded me of my prev rs #dkfkfnmsfndnmdm i wouldn't call it ptsd bc they were good memories but personally i would most likely never use a dating app ever again..... #it's just too much pain having to talk through icebreakers n get to know each other with the topic of Dating already looming in the bg #n it's just a lot of Work for a first date you know??? anyway i'm tired of relationships. i would love organic platonic companionship tho #like i would love more friends. just not a Partner shdkfjdndndmd #but with that said !!!! it's sometimes lonely being single. but the thing is. there's no company that i'd prefer more than my own #i bring too much joy and peace to myself that i feel like it's almost impossible for anyone to meet those standards #it's very much like that tiktok where op said her app guy asked her who his competition was and she answered: Myself. your competition is me #and that was just the truest thing i've seen #also met an unkind worker at dinner. wasn't directed at me but the energy he gave off was just so Bad that it ruined my evening KDKDJSKDK #like . how can someone be so miserable n unkind n mean to the people around him??? as if they aren't deserving of respect... it boggles me #n so todays trip has been so . strange. i felt sad! witnessed unkindness! i felt a little lonely! #i unknowingly self-reflected a lot n probably spiralled into a rumination cycle! thought abt work n how it seemed like there was No Way Out #but !! it is what it is!!!

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

Heyy! You don't have to post this, but know that we mothlings love you vv much alr? 🥺 Your blog always brightens up my day when I get notifications holy moly. It's sort of a fluffy safe space, like how you'd imagine hugging/cuddling Foul Legacy himself feels.

That's it, that's the ask. A lil bit of appreciation to beloved person behind the blog. We love you. 🥰❤️

Is that creepy to say as anon asjfjfkdkskksksksks pls don't take it the wrong way omg

aaauugugghgh anon you are so sweet!!!!! i'm so glad my little blog feels safe, i try very hard to make it as welcoming and comfy as possible so i'm very happy that i've succeeded at least somewhat!! Foul Legacy is giving you all the hugs and snuggles right now!!!! :D

#chit chat #not brainrot #anon #DON'T WORRY THIS ISN'T CREEPY AT ALL I PROMISE #IT MADE ME SMILE WHICH I REALLY NEEDED #SO THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU ARE VERY KIND!!!!! #i've been dealing with some Emotions lately #(calming down from two (2!!!!!!!! i'm still mad about that) exams) #as well as some other personal things #and that's made it a little hard to be upbeat lately so this is very much appreciated #oh by the way happy thanksgiving if anyone here celebrates it!!! #had a great lunch with some family today 10/10 would do again #but also because of that i'm a little tired so i'm gonna take a break from posting tonight apart from this #i hope everyone has a great evening and thank you again anon you are lovely and wonderful <333 #good evening :) #SWEET PEOPLE!!! #i'm giving all of you mothlings a huge hug. and perhaps some tea and cookies

[ghostsinthecellar]

I'm soooo wiped out waagh

#charlie babbles #i very much did not eat enough yesterday #and today I got up way early had a teeny breakfast and then helped friend for hours #labeling sorting and hanging stuff at the consignment sale #now I'm shaky and so tired but I did have an extra large lunch #so hopefully my batteries recharge quickly #skipping craftchat rn because I couldnt possibly focus on talking to people let alone doing art at the same time