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silverynight · 8 months

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The nightclub

Izuku is actually very lucky; he has a job that pays really good and he gets to meet a lot of pro heroes. Of course he would've preferred to meet them wearing more clothes (because he's shy) but the bunny outfit is cute. Sure, it's also very tight, but Izuku has gotten used to it.

Besides, he's only there to greet customers so he doesn't have to flirt with them or sit on their laps like his co-workers do; at least they seem to enjoy it, especially when they get to meet gorgeous pro heroes.

Izuku has seen a couple of the other workers or "bunnies" fighting over Red Riot, Pinky, Grand and a lot of the top pro heroes...

In the time he's been working there Izuku has never seen Dynamight, although for some reason and based on what he knows about the explosive hero, it makes sense. It seems like he doesn't like to be in that kind of places.

Red Riot has made a couple of comments to Izuku about his friend (customers sometimes stay a little bit longer in the lobby just to talk with Izuku, they're usually friendly) and it seems he likes to go to bed early and doesn't enjoy meeting new people.

"The loser is not even dating anyone at the moment," Pinky adds, touching Izuku's shoulder and leaning closer to him.

"Maybe he hasn't found the right one yet," he says gently, smiling at her.

"I don't think he wants to find anyone," Chargebolt cuts in with an amused smile. "Besides, he's not... friendly."

"But he's not bad!" Red Riot protests.

"I'm sure he isn't," Izuku agrees, noticing that the security guards of the place are getting irritated; they always do, especially when clients stay a little bit too long in the entrance. "Well... I hope you enjoy–"

"I bet you'd make him change his mind, cutie," Pinky says, with a wolfish grin on her beautiful face.

"I don't think so," Izuku mumbles, shaking his head.

"It's time to get inside," one of the guards protests, prompting Chargebolt to pout. "There are more people waiting."

"Fine!" Pinky rolls her eyes at them before giving Izuku a sweet smile. "We'll see you again in a bit, pretty!"

The place belongs to the Todoroki family, which is why pro hero Shoto comes in the place every now and then, he doesn't stay long, sometimes he just meets with his siblings or his father there, although he always stays for a while to chat with Izuku.

He's actually the reason why Izuku doesn't have to be inside and hand drinks or sit on the clients laps (the ones who actually ask for it) instead he gets to be in the lobby to greet customers.

"I don't mind doing the other stuff," Izuku had told Shoto, but the pro hero insisted on keeping him at the entrance.

"Midoriya," the pro hero surprises him again that night. "It's nice to see you."

Izuku beams before waving at the pro hero's sister as well.

"Business meeting?"

"Something like that," Shoto says, looking down at the bunny outfit. "So they gave you an emerald one this time..."

"Yes, they told me it'd look good with my eyes," Izuku says, feeling a little bit flustered out of the sudden.

"It does."

"Thank you!"

Shoto gets a message on his phone, grimaces and tells Izuku he'll see him before leaving.

He's little bit quiet and serious, but a really good friend once you get to know him. Or at least that's what Izuku thinks.

***

It's really late when he finally heads home, the good thing is that he doesn't live that far from the nightclub so he usually walks all the way towards his apartment.

"Oh, hello, pretty!" There's a man in the alley; Izuku can tell by the way he speaks and walks that he's had a couple of drinks so he pretends he can't listen to him.

However, the man gets angry and starts calling him a whore; Izuku keeps looking right ahead, but listening carefully behind himself.

When the man starts following him, Izuku begins to walk faster, but perhaps the man wasn't as drunk as he initially thought because he gets a lot closer.

Izuku turns around and starts thinking about his self-defense class, he has taken a couple of those for the past years just in case...

He feels a tug on the back of his neck, like someone's pulling his hair with a lot of force from behind. But the man is right in front of him.

And he's grinning. It must be a quirk. He must be able to control things with his mind.

"If you behave, I won't hurt you. I just want to have fun."

Instead of getting scared, Izuku tries to do something unexpected to distract him; he runs towards him and kicks him on the shins to make him fall.

It works. Izuku starts running away, but this time the tug is stronger and he falls all over his backpack. And the man is standing again, but this time he has a knife in his hand.

He jumps at him, but Izuku rolls away in the last second and gets up again.

Izuku feels a pull on his arm and a hand close to his face, but he's ready this time: he bites the hand and the pain is enough to distract the man.

"Fuck you, you fuc–"

From the shadows, someone knocks the man out.

Izuku recognizes the hero suit even before the blond walks into the light completely. Dynamight is a lot taller in person.

"Sorry to steal all the fun, but I got really pissed at him," he huffs, grimacing at the unconscious man on the ground before smirking at Izuku. "You were handling it pretty well... for a nerd."

He adds the last bit after noticing Izuku's All Might shirt...

"Thank you, Dynamight," Izuku mumbles then, feeling himself blush. The truth is that he's one of his favorite pro heroes, but he's not going to say that to him. Not after being called nerd.

"Bakugo Katsuki."

"Midoriya Izuku."

Dynamight stares at him with a huge grin, his red eyes make Izuku feel flustered again.

"Listen, Izuku. I'll tie this fucker up and leave him here for the police to find and then I'll take you home."

Izuku is still processing the fact that Dynamight chose to use his first name even though they just met.

"There's no need, Dynamight–"

"Too bad you don't have a choice, nerd. And call me Katsuki."

"But we just met!"

"So?" It seems the situation is really amusing to the pro hero... Which means Izuku has zero chance of changing his mind.

"Fine. I'll call you Kacchan then!"

"What? That's not..." He stops, as he finishes tying the man up. When he notices that Izuku is trying not to chuckle, he smiles back. "You can call me Kacchan if that's what you want, Izuku."

He doesn't know how, but he makes Izuku's name sound more intimate than it already is.

"Come, Izuku... Let me walk you home."

Even though Dynamight is clearly teasing him, Izuku is enjoying every second of it.

"Thank you, Kacchan."

***

It's been three days since he met Katsuki and even though Izuku would like to see him again, he knows it's not going to happen. But at least meeting him was good.

He's not as grumpy or difficult as some people on Twitter claim he is; he's nice and funny and very kind.

"Pretty bunny!" Pinky grins, startling Izuku for a moment.

"Oh, hi!" He's glad the lobby is mostly dark with blue and pink lights; it's difficult to notice if someone's blushing that way. And his face turns pink quite often. "So... A nice couch inside for three?"

"I called earlier actually," Pinky says, grinning from ear to ear. "This is a special occasion, we'll be celebrating our friend's birthday here."

Izuku grabs the iPad on the counter and starts looking for the reservation... They requested a private couch inside the club.

"Sure!" He grins, looking at the entrance. "Do you want me to take you already or shall we wait for–"

Chargebolt walks in, looking a little bit embarrassed, behind him someone is cursing loudly as Red Riot is struggling with said person outside.

"I TOLD YOU I DIDN'T WANT TO COME! THIS IS A SHITTY PLACE!"

"Come on, Bakubro! Just give it a chance!"

"I'm really sorry about him, Midoriya," Chargebolt apologizes, looking like he wants to disappear.

"What are you–Kacchan?"

Suddenly, Katsuki stops struggling, he shakes Red Riot's hand away and rushes into the lobby until he's right in front of Izuku.

"Izu... ku?" Katsuki chokes as soon as he notices the bunny outfit Izuku is wearing and his cheeks turn bright red in seconds.

So Izuku was wrong, everyone can see when someone's blushing even under that particular light.

"Do you know each other?" Pinky asks excitedly at the same time Red Riot blurts out: "Is this the cute guy with freckles you haven't stopped talking about, Bakubro? That's so manly!"

"SHUT UP!"

Despite the way he yells at them, it's obvious Katsuki is flustered.

"Why does he call you Kacchan?" Chargebolt asks, looking quite amused.

"I'm sorry!" Izuku apologizes immediately. He's at work, he shouldn't have used that nickname, although in his defense he didn't expect to see him there. "Dynamight–"

"No, please... You can keep calling me Kacchan," Katsuki says, ignoring his friends' smiles.

Izuku nods, feeling his cheeks like they're on fire, but he manages to smile back at him.

"Alright... Since it's your birthday, the first round of drinks is on the house and you can choose a bunny boy or girl to keep you company the whole night," he says easily; it's not the first time he does it. A lot of pro heroes like to come to the club on their birthdays. "Now let me take you to your private couch."

Izuku pushes the main door and immediately the music gets louder; people are already dancing and chatting, but they move out of the way when they see them.

"I didn't know the outfit included a fluffy bunny tail!" Pinky has to yell behind him, the music is loud, but Izuku manages to hear what she's saying anyway.

"Yes! All the bunny suits include one!" Izuku replies without looking back, they're almost there.

"Blasty seems to be fascinated by the tail because he hasn't stopped staring at it!" She laughs, ignoring the growl behind her. "Or maybe he's just looking at your–"

"SHUT THE HELL UP!"

"Here we are," Izuku is glad he doesn't have to raise his voice anymore. The music gets a little bit muffled by the booth around the couch. "A couple of our bunnies will come to take–"

"I want you to keep me company for the rest of the night, Izuku."

"I can't, Kacchan," he says, looking away. It's the first time he laments being the one who greets the customers instead of bringing them drinks. "I have to stay in the lobby."

"You said I could choose whomever I wanted to keep me company..."

"Well... yes, but not me."

Katsuki pouts and his friends try really hard not to laugh.

"You can go now, pretty. Blasty will be fine."

***

Izuku is a bit distracted the rest of the night, he keeps thinking about how Katsuki is doing. Is he having a good time? He must be because they haven't walked out yet.

When his shift is over and he comes out of the bathroom with his own clothes, Izuku sighs and wonders if he'll see the pro hero again. Well, he probably will if Katsuki decides to come back.

"Let me walk you home..."

Izuku gets startled when he hears his voice; Katsuki and his friends are outside, waiting for him. The other three pro heroes are chuckling and whispering to each other with amusement.

"Blasty was a pain in the ass the whole time," Pinky tells him, ignoring Katsuki's glare. "I think he scared the bunnies with his attitude; he was throwing a tantrum because he wanted you to be there."

"I WASN'T–"

"Well... Our Uber is here!" Red Riot cuts him off, pointing at a car. "You two have a good night! And be nice, Bakubro!"

"I'M ALWAYS NICE, SHITTY HAIR!"

Izuku can't help but chuckle at the same time Katsuki's friends roll their eyes at him. Then he realizes that the others purposely left them alone and his laughter fades away.

"Can I... walk you home, Izuku?"

"Of course, Kacchan," he smiles, cheeks turning slightly pink under Katsuki's soft glance.

The pro hero takes his hand then, the grip is gentle, almost like he's waiting for Izuku to shove his hand away. However, Izuku intertwines their fingers instead.

The moon up in the sky has never looked so beautiful like in that moment.

***

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buckys-wintersoldier · 4 months

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Surprise

First of all, thank you to everyone who joined me and helped me with that idea. For finding those nice words, even when she knows that you appreciate her, even when she knows that you love her work. And a special thank you also to @lives-in-midgard, without her, I would not have found the courage to really do this. You helped me when I was just a minute before I threw that all away.

Skittle? @mrsbuckybarnes1917

Finally, you are allowed to know about the surprise. I made this to thank you. I know you already know that I appreciate you, but I wanted to show you that not only I do, but also other people do, and it’s a better way than just telling you.

But thank you so much for always being so kind and helpful. You’re not annoyed, and even when the day isn’t perfect, sometimes it never changes your kindness. Not many people are like you are, and I hope you know deserve all the good and the best and that you’re worth it.

It’s an honor to be your friend and get your support personally and with fics. It's always fun to talk to you about ideas and add details, but it’s also fun to talk to you about everything else. I hope you know that I will always be there for you and support you as much as I can. The moment you started following me and whenever a notification with your name appeared in my notification, it made me so happy because it was and still is such an honor.

And I’m not the only one who thinks like that, so here are some people who think so too. Enjoy their messages for you.

@ellemj: You were the very first writer to ever reach out to me on Tumblr and honestly, I freaked out a little when I saw your user and realized I'd definitely read your work before. It was like I was living out some kind of dream. You're so kindhearted and willing to talk to other members of the community, it's inspiring. I feel lucky that I've gotten to be on the receiving end of your kindness. Thank you for being a friend and thank you for sharing your amazing works with us all!

@lives-in-midgard: Dear Skittle, I want to let you know that I really enjoy reading your stories and always love to see what you came up with! 💗 Beside that I also really love to see you in my notification or on my for you page. Reading your comments on my fics always makes me smile! I'm sending you hugs! 💞

@buckyysdoll: hon, you truly seem like such a genuinely sweet person. the way you interact with the fics you love and reblog on your page is honestly heartwarming, and you can see even from an outsider’s view how affectionate and encouraging it is. keep up your kindness hon, & happy belated new year too! we need more people like you in this world 💛🌻☀️sending love & hugs from a stranger xx

@sergeantbarnessdoll: I love her. She always has something nice to say, even when you’re having a bad day

anon: I love your work, it always puts a giddy smile on my face and brightens my day. When I see a new post I do a wee happy dance in my seat (or bed).

anon: Hi Skittle I love reading your stories! And I always get excited when I see that you have a new one shot!

@rogersbarber: such an incredible and talented person!!🖤

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clotpolesonly · 7 months

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20 questions for fic writers!

tagged my @thotpuppy!! <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

209

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

1,195,283

3. What fandoms do you write for?

on AO3, i have posted for: Teen Wolf Merlin Raven Cycle Captive Prince Dark Rise Supernatural (crossover w/TW) once upon a time, back in FFN days, i also wrote and posted for Harry Potter (primarily) and then one each for Newsies, Little Mermaid II, and Twilight. none of these fics ever got finished lmao.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Metamorphose (Merlin, Merthur, 7750 kudos) Happiness is Effortless (TW, Sterek, 7746 kudos) Much Ado About You Two (TW, Sterek, 7046 kudos) I'll Dissolve When The Rain Pours In... (TW, Stackson, 6172 kudos) We Duel At Dawn (Merlin, Merthur, 4949 kudos)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i respond to all my comments!! (except for comments on old suspended WIPs that ask if i'm writing more, which i let sit in my inbox to haunt me like a beating heart under my floorboards slowly driving me insane until i figure out if i am writing more or if i can definitively tell them it's abandoned alkfdgh) i've been stuck recently though and have let my inbox get backed up for a month, so i really need to go on a reply spree soon 😭 it's just a point of pride, i guess? i made the decision that i would Respond To All Comments/Reviews I Ever Get when i first started posting back on FFN in ye olden days (like 2008 lol), and i've been pretty darn good at keeping that promise to myself. and i just think it's nice!! FFN had private messaging, and a lot of those responses turned into whole conversations and friendships that lasted for months. community engagement is a good thing and i like reaching back to the people who reach out to me.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

proooobably These Gordian Knots We Tie (Sterek)😅 though An Empty Glass Is An Ugly Mirror (Dydia) is also pretty bleak.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

uuhhh most of them??? i write a lot of fluff, LOL, i wouldn't know how to pick out just one that stands above the rest when the vast majority of my posted oneshots are sappy as fuck 😂

8. Do you get hate on fics?

i really don't, tbh. which i count myself lucky for, cuz i hear a lot of horror stories. but i've only gotten a small handful of negative comments, most of which were bitching about disagreeing with the characters' choices. i don't think i've ever fielded personal attacks or what ye olden FFNers would've called flames, lol. proportionally, they're negligible.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

on occasion. out of my 209 fics, only 13 of them are explicit, which is roughly 6% lol. including my 7 mature fics (not all of which are rated so for smut, i don't think) ups that to 9.5% 😂 i'm just not very interested in writing smut, not to mention it's both difficult and kind of boring and repetitive when you think about it. i feel like i'm notorious for romances that use one kiss as the climactic ending, if even that, haha. when i do (rarely) write smut, it's usually in dedicated pwp format, rather than integrated into a larger story, cuz i just feel like most larger stories (mine, at least) don't need it 🤷🏻‍♀️

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

the only crossover that i've written and posted was Teen Wolf/Supernatural, cuz i just could not resist the urge to have Allison call the Winchesters and tell them that her father had gone on a hunting trip and he hadn't been home in a while. i just needed that in my life, and i was offended that no one else had written it. also i thought that Dean "Easily Flustered By Flirtatious Men" Winchester should really meet Stiles "Doe Eyes, Witty Banter Someone Needs To Sex Me Right Now" Stilinski. for reasons.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

i have! the reason that i teeechnically have a wattpad account is because someone yoinked To Be A King wholesale and posted it over there themselves, and i needed an account to be able to message them to take it tf down. weirdly, they changed some of the names, but not the distinctive names? the identifying names?? like Mordred or the names of my OCs. it was an odd choice. anyway, they took it down immediately with no other response. i think that's been the only time, as far as i'm aware.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

i've got 15 translations listed in my related works 😍 8 of them by the same industrious person, bless them.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

not since that one disaster of an attempt with a friend in early high school, lmao. that's when i realized that i am a control freak with high and unforgiving standards. she was writing her parts 1) badly and 2) WRONG and it drove me up the wall. i can't handle not having complete control of the narrative 😅 i write alone.

14. What’s your all time favourite ship?

that's not faaaiiiiiir, patently impossible to answer, next question

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

if i don't finish For Shell And Safety someday, it'll be a fucking tragedy, cuz i'm really proud of that one and i was so so invested in it when i started it and i've still got Thoughts on how it's supposed to end, i just got stalled out in the middle of it and never found my momentum again. but.....it's been 6.5 fucking years. however, i feel like, because i do still have those thoughts and plans, that one might have a better chance than REM-DAC, because THAT one stalled out right before it was supposed to be over due to the sudden realization that i actually wanted there to be a sequel and i couldn't tie up the loose ends in the first fic without knowing how to set up for the second one. but. i never figured out concretely what i wanted to happen in the second one. and it's been 5.5 years there too. still no concrete plans. so, despite that one also being a GREAT FIC that i'm VERY PROUD OF and deeply invested in, i will have to at some point accept the reality of how low the odds are that i will ever actually get back into the swing of it and finish what i fucking started. they haunt me.

16. What are your writing strengths?

i'm really not quite sure 🤔 strengths and weaknesses are easier to tell from an outside perspective, lol. i feel like i write good natural-feeling dialogue. at least, the professor in the one short story technique workshop i took in college told me as much 😂 said i had the best dialogue in the class. been riding that high for a decade aldkfjghf

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

idkkkkkk 😅😅😅 pacing maybe?? like, long form pacing in lengthier narratives??

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

i have avoided it so far, lkajdfgh. objectively, i think it can be done well and it can be done badly, and different methods serve different purposes so it depends on the story which is most appropriate. the online medium provides more avenues for it than print, like the hover text translations that used to be more popular before phones/touchscreens without cursors became the most prominent way to read things, or superscript links to footnotes with translations. some people put the translation directly into the narrative like an echo, but that gets really tedious really fast, and it would be simpler and more streamlined to just cut out the other language entirely and say "XYZ" he said, in french instead. overall, my preferred method is to filter it through the understanding of the POV character and their potentially limited/imperfect grasp of that other language. if they don't know what's being said, we don't know what's being said. if they pick out some words and get the gist, we see their thought process of figuring it out. it informs our understanding of the character, as well as providing an obstacle and creating tension. if you want to include a full translation of the foreign text, you can in endnotes or a postscript, but i don't really think it's necessary. if people wanna find out what it says, google translate is free 🤷🏻‍♀️ probably best not to use google translate to write the thing, though. if it's not a language you speak, preferably find someone who does speak it to translate, to make sure it's accurate and not butchered. hence me avoiding writing anything that requires other languages 😂 cuz i'm a monolingual usamerican loser who doesn't want to go to as much trouble as it would require to branch out like this. i am a "so-and-so said something unintelligibly french" bitch.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

cut my teeth on Harry Potter back in the day

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

another patently impossible question, i have no answer for this, i love all my fics equally (or at least in tiers uwu)

i am tagginggg: @adamprrishcycle @flightspathfic @nooowestayandgetcaught @adrianfridge @nyxelestia and anybody else who wants to do it!!

20 questions for fic writers!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

3. What fandoms do you write for?

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

14. What’s your all time favourite ship?

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

16. What are your writing strengths?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

19. First fandom you wrote for?

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

#fics by me

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alienheartattack · 6 months

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I'll always have a crapton of problems with the ending (esp as a rm shipper who also kept loving eren), but snk finally ending-ending got me in my feels regardless. So i just wanted to express some appreciation, not only for your beautiful fix-it fic (levi and his mom!! mikasa protecting armin!! queen ymir the wise!! ), but for all your rm works. for loving this ship and for sharing your talent with us. for still being here, despite it all. for your shitposts and regular posts. you're a real one, alien, a wonderful, generous writer and just overall so hugely inspiring. we've always been so lucky to have you. thank you so much!

Thank you, anon! This is probably the nicest message I've ever gotten. I really am in my feels about SNK ending for real, even though my feelings on the series are very mixed, being a part of this fandom has genuinely changed my life. I've made so many friends around the world, I've rediscovered my love for writing, I've created so many things and had so much fun being an unhinged fangirl with all of you. It's also wild to look back on the last 9 years, where I started at 27 and where I am now at 36, and how much I have developed as a person and as an artist thanks to the work I did for this fandom and the people I made that work for.

Even though the story of SNK was pretty disappointing in the end (and MAPPA is on my eternal shitlist for excluding basically every RM crumb), it was the journey and the people we spent it with that made it great. I could not have done what I did without your support and the support of everyone else in the ship, all the kudos, comments, likes, reblogs, and messages. I couldn't have chosen a better group of people to go insane over the Ackermans with.

I will say, having watched the last episode and having had a few hours to think about it, I do think it was a vast improvement over the manga and I see more of what Yams was trying to get at. I still disagree with a lot of the choices made and I think he told the story ineffectively because we needed to see the female characters interacting rather than Eren and Armin talking about it, and we needed to see more development of the character's emotions towards each other, especially with regard to the romantic aspects of the story. A lot of us got into SNK because there were non-sexualized female characters that were given weight and interesting storylines, and ultimately this was the downfall of the series because the narrative didn't give almost all of these women the attention they deserved, Mikasa in particular.

I hope people stick around even though the series is over, or maybe we'll find a new ship together. I highly recommend joining the Rivamika Discord if you haven't already for chaotic, delulu fun and a great group of people. RM has always been a space where we encouraged each other and held together because it's such a small ship, and I'm so happy that we managed to cultivate a ship with so many nice, kind people, with only a small handful of bad apples who largely stay out of the way of the people who are just here to have fun. I'm glad that I could contribute to that, and I hope that I was able to provide some excitement or relief or comfort to people who needed it, or who just wanted to read some Ackersmut. I hope all of you had as much fun as I did.

#rivamika #gush post #I LOVE YOU ALL

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princesstillyenna · 2 years

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I can’t really give any fandom specific hate advice, but my day job puts me in a position in which I have to interact with not-so-nice (sometimes very mean and hurtful) people on the internet on a daily basis.

I was really lucky that my boss had been dealing with that for years before I came in and he gave me a few pointers with how to not go crazy, so here am I passing them on:

1. Try to make a game out of it. This one works better if you have someone you trust to remind you that the things you are reading are not the truth every now and then, but I have a daily ‘hate comment bingo’ and whenever I get bingo I treat myself to something small but that I know will make me happy (honestly, it’s usually re-reading a fanfic)

2. Pretend you are an automatic message machine. Not sure how much this will work in your situation, but in mine I have to respond to every single comment no matter how clearly pointless they are, so I have a “thank you for your feedback, but this is outside my scoop” message that I just copy and paste and it makes people furious.

3. Talk to someone your trust. I know this is basic, but it really helps me. And if I am being honest, I have gotten this fix just by pretending to be talking on the phone and barring my soul to absolutely no one.

4. Positive reminders. If you know which types of messages hurt you the most, you can try to write down the opposite of them and keep it somewhere you can see whenever you might receive hate messages. It works better if you can get someone you trust to write them for you (or text them to you, if that’s more your speed), but during the pandemic I had them written down on sticky notes on my own handwritting and it worked pretty well.

I’m really sorry you are going through this, no one deserves to have hate messages directed at them.

Sharing this lovely anon because it's good advice. I do always read through my lovely anons (this is why the lovely nonnies tag exists!) And honestly most of the time the hateful stuff is like water off a ducks back, it's just because I was ALREADY having a bad day today.

I think honestly the problem I'm suffering from now is the lack of fandom friends. I can whinge at my RL friends but like, they don't get the hockey thing. So being specific about shit is not really possible. I do have one fandom friend who I know will never ever let me down, but like... I don't want to overburden them with my shit.

Honestly, I'll take a couple of days, I'll be ok, I always am :)

#lovely nonnies

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luvlyrv · 3 years

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Our Songs | pt. 6 | Wendy x F!Reader SM!AU

Word Count: 2.7k

A/N: I hope the word count marginally makes up for the fact this series has been on a three month hiatus lol, don't worry though it'll finish soon!

Date: 6/10/21

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Ever since you and Wendy exchanged numbers you find your hand unconsciously reaching out to your phone throughout the day. You hope to find a notification from her when you turn it on. Thankfully she always seemed to respond back, but even when she didn't you'd put your phone down to repeat the loop. You tried your best to make sure it didn't interfere with your work, but still, your day was marked by Wendy. Although she wasn't there physically your conversations always carried through day and night.

You've known her to be a warm person, always friendly and comforting. You hope you're not reading into things too much, but sometimes you read her messages and your heart skips a beat. The way she would talk about you would make you flustered. It would force you to put your phone down for a second, unable to comprehend the positivity. Then the thought that maybe she was flirting would creep into your head.

The idea that you're just imagining things always comes back to fight it though.

Shaking your head you decide not to contemplate the idea further. After all she was going to come over soon and you needed to focus on finishing your songs. Thinking about any possible romantic feelings was the last thing you wanted to do. Especially with her in front of you.

Luckily the thoughts dissipate as you zone into the work in front of you, scrutinizing every detail you possibly could. You let yourself sink into the feeling of the songs, letting it help guide your decisions in mixing. As quickly as you get focused though, you're broken out of your zone when you hear knocking on the door. Before answering you run to the mirror and take a quick look while trying to make sure you look presentable. When you rush up to the door to open it you act like nothing happened.

"H-hello! Welcome again to my humble abode!" You say it with a smile, trying to suppress the sudden fluttering feeling in your stomach.

"Hey!" She says while looking up and down at you. "Looks like we're accidentally matching today, huh?" Wendy walks past the door and you close it behind her. You take a moment to look at her outfit and then at yours. The both of you had a very blue color palette.

"Well, way to steal the spotlight. You look way cuter than me." You don't sound as confident as you'd like, your voice bordering on the softer and quieter side. You realize you haven't felt this nervous in a while.

"As if that could ever be possible!" Wendy turns her head back at you as she walks towards your room. She rolls her eyes and sticks her tongue at you, only to quickly smile at your remark. "Now stop being silly and let's work."

You follow her into your bedroom and sit down in front of your computer. She sits on a familiar stool and the two of you immediately start working. You share what you have so far, all you do is record some more vocals, including harmonies and adlibs. You polish things with Wendy by your side to help make some stylistic choices. It took a few hours that only felt like mere minutes.

The sun is still out, unlike the first time the two of you had worked together. This leads you to ask Wendy something before she would leave.

"While we're here we should just record the collab video, yeah?" Wendy's eyes light up in recollection of your previous conversation.

"That sounds good, how about we do the Q&A type video today? I can just message Yeri for some questions."

"Sure, I'll ask Seulgi to make up some interesting things for us to answer too."

The two of you didn't have to wait long as both of your friends replied fast, excited to help out and excited to have some questions answered. You situate yourself next to Wendy in a comfortable position and get the camera ready. After getting the camera in position you take the time to fix the lighting in your room, making sure to have a soft and natural feeling with the lights.

Finally, the red light begins to blink on your camera and you wave. Wendy follows along and flashes the camera a friendly look. You give a quick introduction for the video.

"Hey everybody! I'm here with Wendy today to do a little Q&A type video for you guys! We've both gotten some questions from our friends and it's just to share a little about us, how we feel about our collaboration, behind the scenes type of stuff, you know?" Wendy tilts her head and looks at you as you talk, nodding to your words.

"I really can't wait to answer these questions with you." She says with a smile. She looks back at the camera as she pulls her phone out and looks at her messages with Yeri. "Neither of us have prepared any script or anything. We've barely even looked at the questions they've sent us!" You nudge Wendy with your elbow and laugh at a thought.

"What if they sent us something inappropriate?"

"Oh god, Yeri totally would." You both giggle before Wendy prompts you to start reading questions first.

"Alright we'll stop wasting our audience's precious time now. My dear Seulgi's first question is… "what were your first impressions?" Wendy doesn't hesitate to answer the question as soon as it was asked.

"Oh! Whenever Y/N entered the café we were meeting in I was kind of surprised! She doesn't post a lot of pics of herself so to see someone as talented as her in real life was an honor. She's really cute, right?" She reaches out to pinch the cheek of your so-called cute face. You strain a smile of embarrassment at her antics.

"Yeah yeah, I don't record myself a lot." When she stops her assault on your face you follow-up with your opinion. "For Wendy… I was also really surprised… I think I'm really lucky. You guys should know that a camera really doesn't do her justice! When I first met her she certainly gave off a very approachable demeanor too."

"Why do you think that?"

"I don't know? I was really nervous meeting you, yet when I saw you and when we got to talk the atmosphere turned into something really comfortable fast. Let's just move on to the next question." You take a look at your phone again to see Seulgi's question. "What's your favorite thing about the other? Well, Wendy has always been so sweet, it's been wonderful working with her. I appreciate the care and dedication to her work that she has shown me. Her musicality really helped pull everything together, and when I was stuck she was always there to give me a fresh perspective."

"Aww, that's so sweet of you." Wendy says with a blush on her face, her hand covering her face as she laughs a bit. "It's strange to be talking to you like this, I feel like. I think you're a really straightforward person but we haven't really talked about our opinions to this extent! Especially to a camera. Ah… well I think I could really say everything the same for Y/N." Wendy nods a bit in thought before continuing on. "To add to it though, I think Y/N has just always been so considerate to me. Like, beyond being a great musician she has been a good person to me. I think if you've seen some of our interactions on Twitter you'll know that she ended up cooking a wonderful meal for me on our first meeting. I think that if she wasn't as nice as she is, we wouldn't have had this much fun together… wait, this has been fun for you too, right?"

"Oh my god, yes it has. How could you doubt that?" You punch her arm with a fake upset face. You turn back to the camera. "Guys, we've hung out and have talked soooo much outside of our collab. I literally don't understand how she can have a single doubt in her mind about us having fun."

"It doesn't hurt to clarify! Anyways, next question now! And stop punching so hard!"

"Oh hush, it wasn't that hard. Oh hmm, to go along with that Seulgi wonders what our least favorite thing about each other is."

"That's an easy one!" Wendy says all too excitedly. You make a shocked expression, worry flooding your system as Wendy points at you with a smile. "I hate how you're absolutely brimming with talent! Your work is impeccable! Musical genius!"

You groan as your body crumples. "You nearly gave me a heart attack…" Your voice is muffled between your knees.

"It's true though!" Wendy says in a sing-song voice, her face smug in satisfaction to see your scared reaction. "Otherwise there's nothing I can really say."

You gather the strength to get back up and face the camera, then Wendy. Your face is still filled with disappointment but you take your time to stare at Wendy. As you stare at her she seems to come undone as she nervously looks away.

"What are you doing?" A red color subtly creeps up her neck.

"I'm just thinking. I'm thinking that… You also have nothing wrong with you." Wendy can't help but to roll her eyes at your comment. "Except for being awfully cheesy. It makes me wanna go bury myself in a ditch so I won't have to hear your stupid cheesiness again."

"Whatever, whatever. It's my turn to read the questions. Now… this is a good one, "what has the work process been like?"

"Well that's obvious, I do all the work and Wendy leeches off of me like a parasite."

"Hey! Just because it's true doesn't mean you have to say it to the world!" Her response throws you into a fit of laughter, turning you into a mess.

"Oh my, no no! It's really not like that. I would say we have an equal workload, or a workload that makes sense between our respective positions." Wendy shakes her head in disagreement.

"I don't feel so. I feel like Y/N always does so much work, and she does it so quickly too. It makes me feel kind of bad when I sit beside her and see her work her magic. When she's focused and working so hard it's quite amazing."

"Ah geez." You shyly scratch the back of your neck. "Wendy's always like this, complimenting me. Like I said earlier though, she really helps bring me new perspective when I'm stuck and her musicality is like nothing else. She always takes the time to sit next to me and monitor things too. It's not like she's a third party to the process. Not only that," You take the time to send Wendy a smile in an attempt to reassure her that you're not burdened with work. You want her to know that you appreciate her part of the creative process, "but nothing really feels like hard work when I'm with you."

Wendy has a hard time processing your words, so instead of addressing it she decides to just further elaborate her answer to the question.

"Well, I'll just lay down the process for everyone. Obviously, Y/N produces and I sing. Although after enough convincing from me you'll hear her singing on the tracks as well, so say thank you! It all started when Y/N took the time to reach out to me, which I was really excited about by the way, and then we both agreed to meet up at a local place. We just talked about concepts and our availability. We both ended up writing songs and worked together on what we wanted to keep or change. Everything productive happens here," Wendy opens her arms to gesture to the area around her, "at Y/N's place. Even though I have audio equipment at my place too we just record things here."

"Yeah, everything she said is true. I have a little set-up here in my room. I don't think I've ever really shown you guys it? I mean, I've shown my guitar collection before but not all my other equipment yet. I'll film that another time though. Next question?"

"Oh this is kind of interesting to think about, "what do you think the reception of your mini-album will be?" The both of you take a moment to think about it. Recalling many of the things you've read on social media you decided to speak first.

"Well, I think it'll be extremely beneficial to the both of us in multiple ways. I mean first off, I guess by our genre of music we have a lot of overlap between fans. There's been an overwhelming amount of support from fans who are excited to see the both of us collaborate and interact. I have no doubt that it'll do well since it's so highly anticipated by our fans. It'll be even better if you guys manage to stream and share it!" Throughout your explanation you begin to give Wendy shy glances. "I think that even if we drop our music and it doesn't meet much success, I would've gained a lot. I think working together with Wendy has helped me grow as a musician and anything that I learn here I will utilize in the future."

At your last comment Wendy seemed to get excited and she quickly added on.

"Exactly! If anything the most important part about all of this is the fact that I have gained skills as a musician and gained a friend. That greatly outweighs any potential of success." Wendy has a bright smile on her face, happy to be able to call you a friend.

"That doesn't mean we don't want you guys to go ahead and share our music by the way." You joke light-heartedly. "It would mean a lot if you did."

"Now final question for this video! We've been talking too much." Wendy looks at her phone, unlike before she takes a couple seconds before reading the question aloud. "Uh, I think this should be fun to answer. "What do you want to do in the future together?" I think that obvious answer is to make more music!"

You chuckle at her answer before responding as well. "Going to each other's places to have a jam session doesn't sound bad, but hanging out in general is good. We'll definitely continue being friends, and if the reception for our collab is really good we might do another one? That is, of course, if Wendy is okay with that."

"I would be more than happy to do that. I was also thinking of forcing you to binge watch more shows and movies with me."

"Only if you stop hogging the popcorn. Anyways, I think this should be the end of our video. I highly encourage all of you to check-out Wendy's channel in a couple days. The day right before release we're going to be dropping one more video together! Bye-bye!" You wave a goodbye to the camera with a smile. Wendy joins you in your outro.

"See you guys soon!"

You go to turn your camera off as Wendy goes to gather her things. After turning off your lights you go to sit back down on your seat, importing the recently filmed footage to your computer. Wendy takes this moment to sit down next to you again.

"Again, thank you for your hard work!" She says it with a smile as she brings her hand on your arm. "I'm always amazed with the quality of your work and how quickly you can do it."

"No problem, I'll send the songs to you later for your feedback. We'll be able to post everything soon." You smile back at her and give her hand a comforting squeeze. A part of you wishes you could keep your hand there forever.

"Alright, well see you at my place soon!"

When you finally hear the click of your door closing you let out a sigh. You don't want to think about it. You don't want to face it.

You don't want to face the possibility that you've fallen.

#wendy x reader #son seungwan #rv x reader #red velvet imagines #red velvet scenarios #kpop au #kpop imagines #son seungwan x reader #rv wendy #girl group imaines #girl group scenarios #social media au #red velvet

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littleoddwriter · 2 years

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Hey Ronny! I just wanted to take a moment to say that I read your recent post about feeling frustrated and while as a fan of your work it made me sad, but as a fellow fic writer I understand.

I posted a fic on Ao3 not too long ago. It’s something like over 12,000 words, and while it’s gotten over a hundred views there’s been very little engagement. Only about a handful of kudos and one comment. Which has been my only comment since I joined the archive.

There’s nothing more discouraging than putting time and effort into a piece and then feeling like you’re basically tossing it into the void. I’ve been on the internet for a long long time and I remember the days where if you weren’t going to comment on a fic the very least you did was leave a like or share a link. Social media seems to have really changed the overall consensus on that, and it starts to feel like you’re more like a content farm than a writer after awhile.

You wouldn’t be the first fic author I know of who’s closed their requests because of something like this, and I’d like to just say that no matter what choice you make, you should do whatever’s best for you and what makes you happy in your writing. Creating fics should be something that brings joy into your life, not something that drains you.

Thank you so much for all the good things you’ve brought into fandom with your writing. You truly offer such a unique and meaningful voice for a lot of readers. You bring such imagination and skill to each request, and you deserve to be appreciated properly for that.

Whatever happens going forward I’m still going to be excited to see what you post, requests or not. The day I found your blog was a lucky one for me indeed, and even if I’m too shy to come forward please know you’ve got a friend applauding you from the wings.

Sincerely, Torrance Anon

PS. Sorry for the whole novel here. To end on a positive note, I loved loved loved the HC list you did for Danny and Barba. I also wasn’t raised by good parents and struggle with a lot of the same things those two do when it comes to the possibility of raising a family, which might be why I subconsciously picked them! Everything you wrote gave me the warm fuzzies, and you got the details of their characters just right! Thank you for taking the time to create something so wonderful, it means so much <3

Hello there, Torrance Anon!

I'm sorry your fic didn't really get any engagement, thus far. You deserve better than that; especially after having put in so much time and effort (12k words is extremely impressive!!!). Comments are very rare on Ao3, unfortunately, it can be so disheartening.

Yes, exactly! I've been writing fics since 2013; and even though I was only a child, whose writing was utter garbage, I got way more feedback and general support than I do now. And it has just become a big issue with social media the way it is today. People also seem to not really understand how Tumblr actually works and that it lives off of reblogging content. The same way, most consumers of said content don't seem to really comprehend that feedback = motivation to continue.

Seriously, you're such a kind-hearted person, Torrance Anon; I deeply appreciate you. Thank you very much for telling me this. You're absolutely right, after all. And I'm already making plans to coordinate everything better next year, so that I'll be able to work on the fics I've been putting on hold - no matter if things change and my requests stay open, or not. And it means a lot to me to know that you'll have my back throughout, and that you value my work like this. I can't really express how happy it makes me, thank you so very much for everything. You're a gem! <3

PS. No need to apologise, it was a very nice message to wake up to this morning, and it made being conscious less dreadful, so thank you - from the bottom of my heart. :') <3 And thank you for your feedback! I'm so happy you liked the headcanons!!! I'm sorry you've grown up in such circumstances as well, it's not fair; and I wish you the absolute best. <3 Thank you again! I was very happy to fulfil your request, my friend. <3 :') <3

#putting my response under a cut because otherwise it is a long post fsjhdjkvffld #torrance anon #wonderful people #very wonderful people actually

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arra-tech · 3 years

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My gf set off several red flags today...

Our neighbor (an old retired vet, navy) asked me to take him to the dispensary. I said sure, I grabbed my mask and keys, started up my car, and sent a message to my gf while I was waiting for it to warm up and for Jerry to climb in. (His niece( or something, not clear on the relationship) who is roughly my age decided that she wanted to ride too, idk why but she climbed into my backseat, without even asking. People like this are why I lock my car, regardless of where I parked. But I figured she's added weight, that might help with the heavy snow on the roads, so whatever)

(Context: Lawrence owns the house, Jerry rents a space in it. Lawrence also has a license but no car, Jerry has a car, but no license. They work it out.)

So we get out, get his weed and some cigarettes, get back, I drop Jerry off in front of his house, then pull around into my parking spot.

Gf is waiting at the front door, her daughter is watching Netflix and sitting on the couch in the same room. (She doesn't want any weed related talk around the kids, which I agree and comply with)

"Where'd you go? Why was she in the car" Grocery store, I have no clue, I didn't invite her, she just got in.

"Where's the bags? I didn't see any bags." They only needed a couple of things. Lettuce, butter, sugar. I message her the real reason and why I said what I did.

She then avoids me until and when I leave for work, left my messages unread, and acts pissed at me. Flag #1.

I sent her when I was parked (while having a cigarette because I probably won't get a break tonight)

After slapping through several pizzas and discussing the situation with a coworker friend:

Several red flags there! And when we had a brief break between rushes:

When I got home, she continued to avoid me, red flag still up.

When I asked her if we're even going to talk about this, she just says she's too tired.

I unloaded, like this is the 2nd time you've practically threatened to kick me out rather than have any kind of discussion. Is every disagreement going to be like this?

(Last time, I had gone on a walk and ran into a friend I hadn't seen in months! He brought me to see his new house and say hi to everyone, then we smoked a blunt and caught up. I had said that I was going for a long walk, the weather was nice and I wanted to enjoy it, I'd probably be gone about 3 hours. Not long after we had finished the blunt I had checked my phone and seen about 4 messages from my gf. I had been out for like 2 hours.

Basically where are you, but after messaging with her, she starts getting pissed off and threatens to lock me out!

Her reasoning, I didn't tell her that I was going to see my friend. It wasn't planned, but this is about the same time I probably would have gotten back if I hadn't run into him!)

I eventually took a breath and was waiting for her to respond... anything? Do you have anything to say about what I've said? More silence.

Am I not even worth a response? "I'm too tired" Ugh!

Her comments about my exes, most of my exes were very abusive... and I'm lucky that "she's not like them" despite giving me some of the same red flags?

No, I'm not a dick to the kids, and I do answer their questions. It's when they start asking really off tangent, grotesque, meanspirited, or non-question questions that I refuse to answer. Her mischaracterization of me is another of the red flags.

Ps, conversation cropped for privacy, no part of the conversation was withheld.

#drama #reminder for later #feb 18 2021

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gleekto · 4 years

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I always love your unwavering support of Darren (always with good reason). (I'm talking about that Becca comment. Did you listen to the Jane L. comment? I'm very puzzled about what Jane was trying to say.) Darren is so lucky to have you as a fan. I always enjoy reading your commentary. Hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

Thanks for the nice message, anon. I’ll start from bottom up -

1. I’m Canadian! But happy thanksgiving to you in the United States and may we be done with this dystopia by next American Thanksgiving.

2. I am a totally inconsequential regular fan whom darren isn’t remotely aware of but thank you for appreciating my silly blogging.

3. Re: Jane and Becca comments -

I didn’t hear but read that Jane said Darren was known as “the politician” on set of Glee - I 1000% believe that. He IS a politician if I’ve ever seen one. I have this colleague who reminds me of Darren - He’s like the Canadian rising star lawyer version of Darren - and I say this with utmost admiration. He (my colleague) is the consummate politician. He knows how to hustle, what to do and how to do it to ensure his rising success. He is hot and kind of magnetic. The thing is - He is a GREAT lawyer, extremely bright and talented. Also a genuinely nice person - not faking it. Actually really a good guy. And also really knows how to manuever himself to get to the top. Long before this comment I was like - ‘that’s Darren Criss in different form’. That’s how I see him - a politician with true passion and talent and razor sharp focus on the prize. Which I’m sure can be irritating to those around him. But he doesn’t care. He’s going to move his pieces however he needs to.

Re: Becca - A bitter comment. There is truth to what she was saying - which is that some very talented people on Glee haven’t gotten as much work perhaps because of second guessing themselves - that is certainly a valid perspective (and I note that could have easily been made without the shade). The other half though - which was clearly about Darren (I read someone thought it was Chris - no. She was talking about getting work in Hollywood/getting acting jobs. This was pretty obviously about Darren imho) - What she stopped herself from saying was “People getting work aren’t the most talented” and smartly, rephrased as “people getting work are the ones who never second guessed themselves” - That I’m sure is true (see politician above) but you could feel the resentment. Which is too bad. Because 1. Darren is that talented, 2. He does have hustle, 3. Many of the glee cast, in addition to Darren, have actually had remarkable success - Amber, Lea (some ups and downs but certainly has had work), Chris in a different genre, Harry Shum Jr (huge success) - And some haven’t. Point is - she could have easily made that comment without making it about Darren as it was really about how she was feeling and not about Darren’s indeed notable success. But she didn’t. And her bitterness was evident. Too bad.

#gleekto asks

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elvensemi · 5 years

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I know it's delayed but I just read the last chapter of keeping secrets and banalras you fucking idiot how did you even get to the desert with nobody noticing you???????? (Also I'm putting this here cause ik getting ao3 comments stresses you out and I'm not sure if the pros outweigh the cons but if they do I'll start commenting on the fic instead)

Banal’ras as he falls off a camel into the middle of an ongoing battle: I am the fucking master of stealth

Also that’s so sweet of you to consider! It does kind of stress me out but I mean so does getting messages on Tumblr. XD Which isn’t to say don’t message me! I should instead say, comment and message often, saying nice things, so that I can unlearn this worrisome fear reaction to what should be a joyous thing. Fortunately, I haven’t gotten anyone particularly memorably mean for like a month (not a coincidence given the state of the Sera/Emma relationship RN in the story lmaooooo), but I have been getting some very nice comments/messages--like this one!

And also, comments (positive or even, though I wince to say it, negative) are the only way I have any idea if the audience enjoyed the chapter. I used to get like 15-30 comments per chapter and now I feel real lucky if I break 10 (I know that for a fic writer that’s still an obscene number of comments don’t @ me XD), and it’s impossible for me to know if me only getting 7 comments on a chapter means it was bad and/or there was nothing to comment on, or that fewer people are still reading, or what. I tend to assume the worst.

So please, comment away, even if it’s just to say “nice!” or “aaaah!” Even if you’re re-reading and it’s been three years since I wrote that chapter/story. (I love nothing more than watching new people comment their way thru the fic, it makes my life worth living.) It let’s me know that I’m not just chucking words into the void.

#adventures of a fic writer #ask #it's rly sweet of you to remember that notifications stress me out #I think that's honestly just a function of my brain because like #it happens on pretty much everything #except alonimi #when this bitch gets a notification on alonimi my entire world stops turning briefly #fireworks go off #children weep with joy in the streets #nebulasystem

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ruffoverthinksthings · 7 years

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Thank you so much for the chad and freddie headcannons but she makes fun of my ships all the time and me because I'm overweight but she's the only person willing to be my friend

Note: LONG post ahead. I could have broken this up but I feel that would have erased a lot of the impact I wanted from the post. Apologies to all my followers, but I feel I REALLY need to do this for this specific Anon.

Let me take a break from headcanons and the self-esteem issues of fictional characters here and get to reality, specifically with you, Anon:

Don’t ever feel that there’s only one or a few persons willing to be your friend.

There are lots of people in the world. Just like Freddie told Chad, there’s at least one person out there who’s willing and happy to love him, and with friends, believe me, you will have LOTS of choices for people who will want to and will very much enjoy your company, you just have to go out there and find them or hope that someday, one day, fate brings them your way--and believe me, they will come, oftentimes when you least expect it.

Don’t ever feel like you can’t be friends with someone, or that people don’t want to be your friend--oftentimes, I’ve found that’s just an illusion, a lie we tell ourselves because we suffer from low self-esteem, traumatic past experience, or live in a location where we just don’t fit in.

And as a “weird” kid with ADHD, Asperger’s Syndrome, an inability to speak or understand the local language well, a lack of interest in basketball (the national sport by popularity), local celebrities and their primetime teleseryes (Filipino for “TV series”), and being a Digimon fan in a country of almost exclusively Pokemon lovers, I know what it was like being different from others, being the odd one out, of never fitting in with most people and feeling like you’ll never be friends with other people.

But here’s the thing: I found friends anyway. Through luck, happenstance, chance conversations, and sometimes just taking the initiative and starting conversation with someone, I’ve made friends.

Great friends, mind you. Friends that have changed my life for the better. Friends who I enjoy hanging out with, and who love the fact that I am in many ways a freak with an addiction to Sin and yelling, an obsession with fictional lesbian (and some straight) couples and writing stories for them and my innumerable child OC’s, and overthink WAY too much about a fictional universe than is probably healthy.

(Shout out to my best bud @saveshootingstar!)

Even if you’re an outsider, even if you’re the weird kid, even if you feel like no one will ever want to be your friend because you’re just so different, there WILL be lots of someones out there who will want to be your friend.

Feeling like no one wants to be your friend, that you’re limited in your choices?

It’s a lie.

It’s an illusion.

It’s not true.

You just have to stop believing it, stop telling it to yourself, and start getting out there to prove yourself wrong.

I frequently believe that I can’t write, I’m not good, people will hate my work so I shouldn’t even try, but I soldier on anyway and write, just to flip myself the finger in the metaphorical mirror then congratulate myself on getting shit done in spite of my insecurities and lack of confidence in my writing ability.

I’m going to give your friend the benefit of the doubt and assume, once again, that your friend is a nice person. And hell, we have both RL and Auradon to show that “good” people can be mean plenty of times, oftentimes unintentionally or because they’re just unaware of how much it actually hurts people, or worse yet because abusive behaviour has been normalized for them.

But, you really should ask her to stop making fun of your ships and your weight, and more importantly, you should consider if this is a compromise you’re willing to do for the sake of your friendship.

And perhaps most importantly, you should go out there and start trying to make some friends. There’s plenty of MUCH better guides out there, but from what I’ve seen, I’ve made friends from the following actions:

Making fanfiction, then replying to the comments and messages I receive

Putting my headcanons out there, and attracting the attention of people who absolutely love them, or want to prod at my “never shuts up, EVER” brain more

Just being my loud, outspoken, weird, somehow considered wise and mature even though I consider myself about as far from the last two as possible, speaking up in class, talking about things on my tumblrs, and being unafraid to admit that I like weird things

One of my best friends, I met because I have gotten a reputation at every school I’ve been in for being the student that always takes every opportunity in class to recite and talk about interesting topics and whatever’s under the sun, the professor permitting. She caught wind of that, she decided to sit next to me and strike up conversation, and now we hang out twice a month at her place, talk over Skype regularly, and we have a blast at anime conventions.

Just recently, myself, her, and her sister went as Ruby, Yang, and Dr. Oobleck from RWBY, and it was fun as hell.

The point of my telling you all this, is the same thing that a lot of advice books have been saying over and over again:

Be yourself. Be you. Unless you’ve got a practical, very important reason for hiding parts of yourself like I do my being transgender out in public, don’t ever feel you need to hide what makes you, you.

And if it’s something weird, something out there, something possibly taboo? Speaking as an EXTREMELY kinky person (to put it lightly) who’s into a lot of other fringe stuff too, there ARE people just like you, and would love to be friends with you.

And Anon, two things before I go, one a very important lesson from Descendants itself:

The people that say they care about you and love you don’t always have your best interests in mind. Look at the Rotten Four and their parents, relationships where the parents manipulated their children’s natural desire to please them and earn their love to become their own personal tools to getting out of the Isle (Grimhilde), achieving world domination (Maleficent), or making their own lives slightly less shitty at the cost of making their kids’ lives living hell (Carlos, Jay).

I’m NOT saying this because I think your friend is this, and I sincerely hope they’re not, but because this is an important lesson all of us need to remember, even if we’re lucky enough to have all our relationships be healthy and loving without strings or ulterior motives.

And finally:

Hit me up for Chad/Freddie headcanons anytime, Anon.

#Chaddie

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