#I'm probably gonna take the offer

[altruistic-meme]

hm. i hate making decisions.

#now see i COULD just take the month and a half off and try to get by with the unemployment. #or i could take the spot helping out somewhere else in the factory until my line comes back up #BUT that leaves the possibility of me going back to the line i helped when they come back again #hghhh #i think ultimately like. people get moved here it happens all the time. #it's shocking that I've been moved as little as i have over the last 2 years #having only been moved 1 time #and thats like. a $300 difference a week. #so #I'm probably gonna take the offer #but im still gonna be sad about losing all my time off :( #at least i know it'll be day shift though #shh ac

[angrybatart]

Some veteran Sky Kid is screaming like a banshee while frantically searching for their moth.

#fanart #sketch #crossover #Darkest Dungeon #Darkest Dungeon 2 #Sky: Children of the Light #Sky: CotL #That Sky Game #DD Crusader #Reynauld #Moth #Reynauld is NOT immune to the desire to steal Moths #probably either Dismas or Junia yelling at him #everyone else just happily accepts their new smol friend #okay NOW I'm gonna try and take a break from Sky fanart #no guarantees. take everything I say with a grain of salt #probably more of a case of Reynauld finding the Moth wandering around in a moment of chaos #and taking them in protect them from monsters who had an odd effect on the child when close to them #as in draining Moth's light and turning them crusty/crystallized #Reynauld albeit confused accepted the large white candle offered by Moth #uhhh...if anyone has something that sounds better or more accurate you are free to add it #I haven't written stories in forever #small edit because I realized I typed “having screaming like a banshee” and didn't fix it right away

[arthursfuckinghat]

Man, starting a new playthrough makes you realise just how truly sick Arthur was towards the end..

#hi!!! yes I'm doing my second playthrough!! #I'm so excited #oh how much I missed arthur #his sun-kissed skin and glassy eyes and how they faded breaks my heart #I probably should have explored more as john but I don't want to do ranch work for 8 dollars a day no offence #we got our happy endings #micah is gone and john has his family ranch #its so jarring playing as john and expecting arthur reactions #you have to keep reminding yourself that its not arthur #and that john is slightly meaner than him #I enjoyed it so much though I'm really excited #I'm gonna take my time like last time but I'm gonna discover every little secret this game has to offer #yippee!!!!! #mick squeaks #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #arthur morgan #liveblogging #red dead redemption 2 spoilers

[yardsards]

living alone is all fun and games til you have a medical emergency and there's no one there to help you to the hospital

#eliot posts #im fine now it's just last week's Incident fucked me up a lil #a couple online friends offered to call me an uber #and i maybe could have woken my neighbors up (though i would have felt awful abt that) #but while i was figuring out how to get to the hospital and if i'd be able to like #verbally communicate to whoever was driving where to take me #and explain to the doctors what was wrong with me #and fill out the entrance paperwork #and find my wallet/insurance card and my housekeys before i left #...i had gone unconscious before i could make the decision to find someone to take me #luckily i was mostly fine after i woke up #i knew it wasn't an ''i'm gonna die if i don't go to the hospital'' type medical emergency so i didn't call an ambulance #bc i was not abt to bankrupt myself unless i was Literally Dying #but yeah. eugh. 0/10 do not recommend. #at the VERY LEAST i'm gonna need to have good friends that live very close in the future #i don't want this kind of thing happening to me again #i am gonna be roommates with a very good friend in a few months after i move to the city #and then i'm probably gonna be roommates with a different very good friend in a couple years when i leave the state #both mostly out of financial necessity for us all #but also i thiiink i want to go back to living alone eventually? #unless living with friends goes so great that it changes my mind #it's just like. for the most part i've loved living alone #not just in a ''yay i'm no longer living with my abusers!'' way but like. in general. #i can do whatever the fuck i want in my apartment without having to talk to anyone #chores get done when i want. food gets cooked and eaten when i want. i can take a 2 hour bath no problem. i don't have to close doors. #i can walk around late at night without having to worry about waking anyone up. #when my social battery is drained i know that no one will try to talk to me. when im overstimulated i don't have to tell anyone to be quiet #it's like. the thing with me is every social interaction has a timer where i start thinking #''GOD i cannot fucking wait to go be alone in my nice empty apartment again'' #that timer is much longer for some people and situations than others but it is always There even when i'm having a great time

[svtskneecaps]

thank you for bearing with my purgatory posting and i'm also glad to see i'm not the only one who still has this fungus eating away at my brain matter. seeing other purgatory posting in the tag makes me feel better lmfao.

i'm not done btw, posting will (probably) continue as i revisit vods. wanted to extend a thanks in the interim, since i know how contentious the event was in the moment. i kinda thought the general consensus was most people hated thinking about it, but there's been a weird amount of engagement and yknow other people talking. makes me happy to know i'm not alone here!

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #shut up vic #block game brainrot #it also provides me the opportunity to get a new perspective on some moments as well #like watching the jaiden spawnkilling thing the first time i missed some nuance in bbh's tone when he offered to walk her to her body #rewatching i heard them :D #i'll probably rewatch his conversation with slime from the same day at some point to refresh my perspective on that #but i think i'll wait on that; that convo makes me super biased lmfao #i'm aware of my biases at least :D and dw i won't bring old discourse back #tbh i never rly posted discourse much to begin with? just that one list and analysis of time stamps LMFAO #but yea i won't be bringing that back to the tag even if it's back in my brain #i PINKY SWEAR; i'm not one to start fights on posts or blogs that aren't mine #i block and then if i REALLY have something to say i shittalk them into my bathroom mirror #bc i know neither of us are gonna snitch >:D #long tags #it's also nice to look at with the benefit of hindsight and reflection #bc i know everything that happened; i was there watching it live #bolas are unreliable narrators #i'll probably see about going through some of the other team's povs as well just to see #it's interesting is all! and i finally have the time to sink my teeth into it properly #since we aren't having to keep up with like six streams a day #it's been so long sinve this server took a proper breather i'm appreciating it for all it's worth #((yes i wish the circumstances were better but they aren't; we take what we can get lmao)) #ok anyway love u byeeeeeeee purgatory posting will probably continue #i'll tag as appropriately as i can; lmk if there are further tags i should add #i prefer people don't block Me if they hate these; i'll make u a tag to block if u ask i promise <3

[iersei]

Pleas you absolutely DO NOT need to read homestuck to comprehend the quadrants I can provide the necessary context lmaooo

you make a very valid point but i do not live my life by what is rational i live my life by what is arguably the most questionable decision at any given time

#if you're serious though i would like to take you up on your offer though lol #i'm just probably gonna eventually succumb to curiosity #but i have yet to fully comprehend the quadrants regardless of how many homestucks i meet #sei says an answer #macksartblock

[wellwhataboutme]

#nbc revolution #revolutionedit #miles matheson #sebastian monroe #revolution #tomorrowland #my gif #worst episode? #worst episode #which is probably why i've never gifed it before #but anyway #i left rachel out of it because i wanted to #and i'm not even gonna say anything about miles refusing the drink bass offers #because seriously #🙄 #and miles we know you were about to take the drink if not interrupted by the mustard gas #we know water makes you sick

[antisocialxconstruct]

Just kinda... putting this out into the universe for right now, but I've been thinking really hard about getting my old enamel pin collections back in circulation, as well as maybe releasing them as stickers as well (for a budget option and also for things you can't put enamel pins on). I had to throw out basically all my remaining stock when I moved (which... oouugh it still hurts), so I might essentially run a "reboot" kickstarter to get another batch of Dire Hounds made and then try again to get the full Grimalkins set funded. A few things this would let me do:

update the templates for slightly cleaner manufacturing, and update the backer cards with accurate artist info because man that was really bothering me

like I said, hopefully get the second half of the Grimalkins produced so they're a proper six-pin collection like the first one

network! Now that I'm in a big city I think I honestly might have better luck with consignment stores and craft fairs than I ever did with only an online shop, and more visibility can only mean good things.

I'm also still definitely planning to make idog merch, and beyond that I'd potentially love to lean even further into the cyberpunk and y2k aesthetics to really hone my Brand™, but obviously that requires original thought and creative effort while getting the dogs and cats remade just requires pulling the old AI files off my poor aging iMac.

#if possible I'd love to find a (more) local manufacturer instead of the one in the UK I was using before #unfortunately that means they'll cost a bit more up front since they won't have the molds already #which I guess would have possibly been a non-issue anyway if I was gonna tweak the art #but also the lower shipping costs without going through customs..... #anyway just thinking..... on a conceptual level I really miss ~designing merch~ even though I never really excelled at it lmao #a lot of you probably have no fucking clue what I'm talking about because the pins were before your time :/ #just take my word for it they were all really really cool and you want them #I wish I made the kind of art that people want on their walls lmao prints seem like easy money for a lot of people #but it just doesn't mesh with what I make. All I can offer to The People is Little Guys For Your Bag Or Jacket

[supercantaloupe]

apparently i'm already halfway done my musicology degree??

#i wanna talk about me #between the course i did in undergrad and the frankly ridiculous number of courses i'm taking this semester #apparently i'm over halfway done already #i know the musicology portion is a smaller load than the library science portion but like #man it was weird walking into my advisor's office and him looking me in the eye and saying like 'oh you're almost done' #three courses is all i have left for a master's. Man #well i'm gonna spread those out over the next year and a half...and probably pick up an extra elective here or there while i can #cause idk man i like studying music history...even if i don't Have to i like taking the classes and learning #(esp if it's gonna be paid for by my fellowship as long as i'm still here) #well i need to figure out. how the hell to get in touch with a library science advisor now. #i emailed yesterday and haven't heard back #but i don't know what i'm doing for that degree going forward rn #other than. i guess taking 552. but i KNOW there's other specialty and elective courses i'll need to take too #and i want to take stock of what shit i'll have to take in summers too cause i know some of the courses are only offered in summer #(need to find out if any of my fellowship scholarship can go towards summer courses. i'm guessing not...) #weird. it's weird. i don't know what i'm doing here #anyway #meeting with my advisor went okay i at least know what i'm doing now re: the music stuff #didn't cry which is good but man i hate how my voice started to break more and more the longer i was in there #and when i talked about how i put too much on my plate this semester and am struggling to keep up with all the work #and he asked me if i've been reaching out to anyone for support. or if i had people to reach out to #and i just had to sit there like. uh #define. support? #i have a couple friends at least that i chat with about stuff like that sometimes but not always cause i don't want to bother them too much #but like. it's not like i can ask someone else to write a research paper For me #or it's not like i can control when my coworkers get sick and i have to cover their time in the office #and this didn't come up at all (and i'm glad for it) but jeez it's not like i can control global political conflicts!! #it's hard for me to focus on getting enough work done in small chunks of time in the best of times #let alone when my fucking hamster brain is on high alert for getting hate crimed in public if my necklace is too visible or something #idk. it's a lot man. i bit off more than i could chew this semester even before the world fell apart

[the-kestrels-feather]

Anyone else have big dreams and no idea how to realistically achieve them and a fear of inadequacy so they're worried they're going to stagnate in their current situation because they're too afraid to leave it or is that just me?

#personal #inferiority complex #i have so much shit i want to do #i want to leave the job im im because i dont like it #i want to be using my degree for mkre than i am #i want to be working full time in theagre and/or film #and i keep applying for jobs and just get every door slammed in my fucking face every time #and now im almost 26 so i have to worry about any job i *do* take offering insuramce #and the job im in right now 'much as i hate it has insirance for when i turn 26 #and I'm afraid to leave because of that even though they don't even pay me a livable wage #if i wasn't living with my parents I'd probably be homeless or have 0 savings #and its not like i can really say fuck it and quit and move somewhere more conducive to what I want to do because I have savings #because I need a job somewhere that can pay me enough to support rent and has insurance and those are in short supply #i just feel like shit #i feel like im stuck in this rut and don't know how to get out of it and am never gonna get out #im just exhausted

[4rsene]

aita for accidentally forgetting to include my brother's girlfriend in a reservation for family dinner?

additional info: i don't dislike her and i feel genuinely indifferent about her, but she hasn't exactly left the best impression on me the times she's been around.

#this isn't a genuine aita but like i'm having so much anxiety over it #i offered to take my parents out for an anniversary dinner #and they wanted it to be a family dinner out #my brain went 'how many family members do i have? oh yeah 4 including me' #apparently i'm a bitch for not realizing that family dinner includes my brother's gf of 7 months #4.txt #probably gonna delete this later but i needed a place to vent a bit

[the-punforgiven]

But what's your opinion on red delicious??

They're fine? I don't have a problem with them tbh

Like I know a lot of people like viscerally despise them, but I'm not one of those people I guess

That said, I also like, don't really care enough to die on this hill, they're apples, they're alright?

Idk man

#like I'll eat one if it's offered to me #but if I'm gonna buy apples at the store I'm probably just gonna ask whoever else I know that'll be eating them what they want #because tbh I really am fine with whatever #Red Delicious included #I don't have like a scathing hot take for this one sorry #Thanks! #asks #maraudingcaptain

[le-velo-pour-dru]

I wanna talk to someone.

But I can't keep up a conversation to save my life XD I'm the expert of forgetting to get back to people sometimes.

So if you want a very casual and noncommittal conversation, send me an ask or a message, or just interact with this post if you'd prefer for me to start it

#dru speaks #i'm gonna have to do some review for my final exams later today #and i'm probably gonna do *something* with my family cause my mom doesn't have to work today #so if no one takes this offer up i'll live X3 #those asks you guys sent earlier were AMAZING btw. each and every one of them fr #so if you have more of those that'd be Sick :3

[godnectar]

AAAGHH 💀🔫

#nectar's rambling #i hate everything bro 😭 #gonna rant a bit- #i just got a so fucking amazing job offer after so many shit dude 🤡 #but idk if i can accept bcs mf classes are already taking away my mental capacity 💀 #and it also needs a lil' security fee but i'm a broke bitch so #gonna start screaming 😭 #and the lady attending was so nice bro #i hate it here 😒 #anyways #good night my babes <33 #i will try and keep working on the other set of hcs as soon as i can #i promised to stop neglecting my sunshines #now i gotta keep my word 😤 #and it probably will be a bit hotter than the last one 😌

[gettothestabbing]

My sister keeps telling me that I should make more personal posts here and vent and be more open. Not a bad idea, on its face. But she also reads my Tumblr. She’s the only person I know IRL that reads it and knows it’s mine. So I could vent on here about pretty much everything . . . unless it pertains to her, in which case she will message me and tell me to change what I wrote about her. Even though NONE of you know who she is.

#she's a Tumblr lurker #she has a completely private account that even I have never seen #and never posts so far as I know #when I first joined Tumblr I wasn't that open with people because I quickly saw that my friend who got me on here was super leftist #and so were most blogs I followed for fanart and pictures #so I just put everything under read mores and tagged those posts very carefully #I still got anon hate several times and ended up on argument posts occasionally #in college someone claimed to know me IRL and I told them to just confront me and they never did #frankly I do want to be more open on Tumblr. I'm on here enough anyway might as well share more #it's kind of an all or nothing deal though #if I have an issue with Mimi I'm probably gonna talk about it #but unlike with others I might complain about she'll see it instantly and then we'll have to talk it through anyway #sometimes I feel like I'm not allowed to have my own opinions in the same way that she does #she criticizes me a lot (with the intent to improve me and help me out) and I have accepted that #but 99% of the time if I try to offer her the same #even phrased gently #she just tells me I don't understand what she's saying and reiterates her position in a much longer fashion #her husband can change her mind but I can't #one of the many benefits there would be to being in a long term relationship: someone might actually take my side for once #'oh but I take your side!' when it's also yours yes #personal #pers com

[septimus-heap]

Finally got around to resetting my laptop so there aren't "parental controls" (read: spyware) on it anymore <3

#sep talks #not sure what to do but I only did it because I want to be able to scan my traditional art #instead of just taking photos and editing them #I'm not going to use it for art because the colours on it are a little weird and I'm not sure how to fix it #but I have clip studio so I can use it if I need to #I can use discord and tumblr or whatever on desktop now also :) #I mostly need to scan drawings bc I made the idiot decision to put 'better quality traditional drawings' on the patreon #like. Not that anyone's gonna give me money. But to be safe I should probably make sure I can actually follow through on what I offer #before I start offering it #anyway yeah I'm. Doing things now #I have a computer